#im surprised it worked so far

[chimchiri]

Build A Lesbian (poll 17)

(Note: if you've got name ideas for either feel free to drop them! I'm collecting them here until we're ready to vote on them)

A very narrow win for lavender eyes! I'm on the go with friends and thus can offer only a small, unrelated doodle of the two.

It's the same final appearance question as last time! Our rose femme needs a small, distinctive detail.

#polls #my art #At some point I wont be able to doodle every day and make it a daily thing lmao #im surprised it worked so far #im scheduling this post 5 min before end #lord help me if green wins and this post is incorrect lmao #build a lesbian #The Tenderness She Gives

[knockknockitsnickels]

Quick + messy Sulemio doodle to celebrate their victory!!! Gg to all and excellent work fellow Yuri Warriors

#sulemio #suletta mercury #miorine rembran #gwitch #g witch #art #gundam witch from mercury #i was at work watching that shit like my parents watch curling (intensely and routinely forgetting the world around me) #I'm honestly surprised but so so happy we pulled through #i don't know what will happen next round but im proud we made it so far with a wlw pairing

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

been doing some no pronoun doctor writing and it's fun to realise which expressions dont automatically have personal pronouns attached and which do

like, you can hug someone impersonally but taking them in your arms is harder. you cant shake your head impersonally, though you can turn that verb into a noun and then it works. you cant open your eyes or talk with your mouth full impersonally. you cant hide something behind your back or surprise yourself. you cant bite your tongue. and 'the doctor blames the doctor' means something slightly different than 'the doctor blames []self'

#whyyyy are my square brackets crooked #anyway so far most of the time theyre not that hard to work around #it's just fun to see #im still in the first draft so im just leaving in pronouns now when i dont want to slow myself down rephrasing #so it's just kinda random she/he/they now fgkgjhgj whenever there needs to be a pronoun #fix it in the next draft #i think the ones with -self feel the most difficult so far #dont know if they are actually #it's just the first time i was writing a sentence where i had one of those - mightve been surprise yourself actually - #i was just writing and then ended the sentence like '..................doctorself. ah. okay. yes. i see now' #i was like okay OKAY i get it. NOW i get it #the 'i do that!' doctor #now i see #fhgkjfhgjkh #we'll see how i solve this #i should try this in dutch sometime

[orcelito]

Thinking about using the journal I got for writing my dad's eulogy for trying to process my grief with it. The letter from me I found in his lockbox is still in that front sleeve, along with one of the memorial folders they had at the funeral.

I think I don't want to write it all on here. I think I've talked about my emotions too much as of late.

#speculation nation #negative/ #kind of. i guess. #the thing about grief is that it really just never ends. #so im done with the funeral. the time is over. here i am. hes dead. im alive. time to move on. #but it's not that simple. of course it's not. #but would my followers who followed me just for my writing even Care? #honestly surprised i havent lost more followers. or any? idk i havent been paying much attention to numbers #but i know it hasnt really gone down much if at all #i just feel. like im not the person that people initially followed. #and i dont know when im going to be that person again. #there's no enthusing here. anytime im making text posts it's about The Situation. #i wonder how evident my grief is to you all. i feel it in my every breath. #i havent been working yet i feel weak. it's hard to feel much at all. #either im existing and im helping with packing or im crying again bc i remembered my dad cant help me pick out a car now #(in the Vaguely In The Future me buying a used car idea. for after i get my license. whenever that is.) #or im crying bc of jackets or colognes or a letter in a lockbox or a stupid minions hat picture in a too-big frame #or laughing bc Dad In A Bag (his ashes are downstairs. im far too unbothered by their presence) #ive been having an... okay time. we watched Dune today and i started building a lego set. it was nice. #but im only ever Okay. emotions hard to access. interests certainly not accessible. #making it hard to be creative at all. im literally only going through the motions here. #theres no heart. i left it behind when i got that 2 am call and had to rush to the hospital to watch my dad die. #i left it behind when i touched his cold arm for the last time. when i walked out of that room & knew id never see him again. #i know a week is still far too soon to be over it. but im sick of feeling this way. #it still doesnt feel real. feels like im following the bad end route just to see. i should still be able to reload my past save. #but this is my life now. forever until the end. out of nowhere hes dead and hes never coming back #and it's just really fucking hard to care about just about Anything else right now. #i prommy im gonna use the journal next time i get the urge to vent about this. im sick of this crap too.

[hezuart]

hey so if u look at the full “leak” it ties into the barbie wire episode (specifically how blitzø effed up with her, etc). but notice that the episode code here is 206, not 205 (we know episode 205 is the camping/barbie ep). so while i wouldnt be surprised if viv pulled shit like that, i dont think its legit bc im 90% sure next ep is barbie and 206 is fizzarolli’s return

Some episode numbers can switch around in production But just out of curiosity, what makes you 90% sure Fizzarolli is to appear in 206?

#listen man- if its fake #i will be very very relieved #but i will also be very surprised #because im telling you this feels like viv's writing #theres too much work put into this to not be legit #because again this isnt the only one #theres also a spoiler for the alleged end of season #where octavia chooses to live with her mom and uncle #abandoning her father because she found out he takes pills to be happy #which like???? yeah?? he's depressed #you and your mom were forced on him #she even had a whole song that referenced stolas lyrics from his song he sang to her before #it could be deleted old plot material but man its just #a full animatic? its so far into production as is #helluva boss #helluva boss spoilers #text post

[joyridingmp3]

weird though because like

#it's funny. waking up today was honestly surreal #i didn't ever think I'd make it this far #waking up in my apartment moved out of my parents house #with a job #having turned 25 #like. i neeeever in my wildest dreams would have imagined that my dreams would have come true #i think I'll only be equally as surprised when i wake up on my 28th birthday #to be completely honest and i am a little drunk but like #my life is a series of postponed suicide plans #like #I've been through so much and have toyed with the idea over and over again #but i keep thinking like 'well if im planning on dying i might as well wait until tomorrow and see how things turn out' #and then every. single. time! #things just.... work out! #or i realise that my problems aren't as big as they seem #anyway postponed suicides is a great name for a band #OOOH OR A SONG #I GOT SOME NEW GUITAR PEDALS FOR MY BIRTHDAY OMG BRB #I'VE GOTTA WRITE THIS DOEN AND MAKE IT INTO A SONG #anyway sorry for oversharing as always #mine #suicide

[moonsidesong]

nazo puyo is actually kinda fun. thank you game gear game from 1993

#bri talks #im playig as many puyo games (and ports) as i can get my hands on #so far my only real comment is The pc98 port of puyo 92 isnt very good #the puyo drop so fast in the latter portion of the game you can barely even control them #though honestly i wouldnt be surprised if i just had a bad time because of bad emulator settings #im not... that technologically literate at least not when it comes to super old stuff like that so i kinda just messed around with like #three different pc98 emus until one finally worked #the only other time ive messed with pc98 is when i played classic touhou for like five minutes before realizing i didnt find it very fun #visually it's very nice though. pc98 games are pretty cute

[sonknuxadow]

hasnt filming for sonic 3 been happening for a little while now. im surprised not many pictures from the set have come out..

#well its usually a specific type of scene that people get pictures of #like i specifically remember the leaked set pictures from sonic 2 were all from the scenes near the end #when everyone came back to green hills and robotnik was blowing everything up and knuckles was working with sonic and tails now #and i cant remember the specific scenes the pictures from the first movie were from #but they were outside and set in green hills i know that for certain #either theyre filming in very closed off areas and trying their best to stop people from taking pictures #or most of the scenes theyve done so far have been stuff that would need to be filmed indoors #well when they first started there were a couple pictures going around. of the sonic knuckles and tails stand ins in a forest somewhere #but im just surprised we havent seen more. that we hvaent seen shadow at all #because i remember. we found out knuckles was gonna be in the second movie through leaked pictures of him on the set #the official announcement that knuckles was gonna be in the movies didnt happen until a little while after that #so. with that in mind im surprised there havent been any shadow sightings

[dandyshucks]

idk what to call them but why are the doctor's assistants/passengers/guests/associates/etc SO RUDE about alien appearances. like girl that is AN ALIEN. of course theyre going to look different than a human. if i saw a guy with a bunch of tangled tentacles for a mouth and fish-goat eyes, i'd simply be cool about it. RIP to all the gals i've seen on the show so far but i'd be different.

#reason number nine hundred and eight four of why the doctor would love me specifically HFDSHGJKL #i havent actually thought about it that much sjfkl i simply think he'd like me because i am silly and whimsical <-joking again #BUT FOR REAL THOUGH WHY ARE THEY ALL SO RUDE AT FIRST #if i was going travelling through space and time i'd be expecting to see some Different Looking Entities oh my god fdsjkl #just take it in stride!! why would u expect everyone to look human and/or appealing !!! goddamn!! #of course theres going to be some real strange looking ppl out there!! ur travelling all across the universe!! #anyways im working on the last of the crochet gifts and watching doctor who HFSJKL so i'm just shaking my head at donna rn #also their reactions to the different customs and cultures WHAT THE FUCK GIRL BE NORMAL!!! OFC PPL ARE GOING TO DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY!!! #im not surprised that its normal to donate your whole face to this futuristic library in the FIFTY FIRST GODDAMN CENTURY!! #WHY ARE YOU FREAKING OUT FDSJKL THIS IS THE FIFTY FIRST CENTURY WE'RE TALKING ABOUT #maybe i just have a way better imagination than all the assistants so far smh #(not actually like. angry or annoyed or anything w any of this fsdjkl its just funny to me that they react this way JDFSKL) #dandy.cmd

[jarvis-cockhead]

i dont rlly have a big following here at all but i do appreciate anyone who interacts with my stuff immensely and suddenly felt the need to say it. ive been going through some stuffTM and its been a whole ass time and im still reeling tbh. it has been a hell of a time but tumblr still feels like such a cozy comfy place .. i forever long to connect more with people here but never know how. anyway idk where this post is going but haii hi im still here forever just a little funny in the head rn :3

#i havent rlly spoken publicly abt whats been going on but this place is so disconnected from p much everywhere else i exist so #i realised my ex was emotionally abusive and actually SAed me once. we havent been together since the start of this year but were #still trying to be friends. but surprise surprise it never worked and i am entirely scared of them #so a few weeks ago i actually cut them off for good. and its been such a time just processing all of That #never thought this would happen to me.. knew in my heart during that it was bad but never realised it was That Bad #weird mix of everything feeling raw and fresh while also so far away because most of the rlly bad stuff happened before about feb this year #but yeah i have good support systems im doing okay but ig this is smth ill have to deal with and recover from for the foreseeable future #sucks immensely but it is what it is. everyones been very kind to me and i feel cared for #but it has made me withdraw a lot from my online circles ive realised which is sad bc i miss being sillay #but yeah erm. that happened 😺 #realising about a year and a half of my life has been devoted to someone who has treated me so badly is nor fun #but anyways. i am really happy theyre gone from my life entirely #and i will heal. and i will be okay

[readingloveswounds]

okay rlly gotta get my shit together here because it's literally just under a month before i go to france and i want to send three sections to my advisor before that PLUS submit my article to a journal

understand that while i think im behind, i'm technically at 2x the pages i wanted to have by this date. still. crisis time.

by sunday:

finish nimes draft

by august 31

submit article

send at least one of: sens or cahors (cahors is probably best bc shorter)

by september 17

MEET WITH ADVISOR THIS IS NONNEGOTIABLE

have sent advisor sens, cahors, and nimes

have at least started chapter conclusion

have at least started rewriting chapter intro

start frankensteining chapter sections into something coherent or at least have a reasonable idea of what a full document might look like

have a better site list put together and possibly have contact w the SHPF, BNF, and/or Louvre

by september 19

email J

give contact info for fellowship 1 (incl address)

give group pertaining to fellowship 2 my address + phone

things it would be cool to do but not strictly necessary:

go back through P's revisions on vassy

have a better idea of own style guide re names etc

read Foa

get further in LT reread

read more Martyrs - also talk to P about what the actual fuck im doing with martyrs bc im becoming less and less convinced i know how to handle the text wrt my dissertation topic/argument

figure out which chapter im writing next bc doing martyrs sounds scary but idk if im ready to do LT, and im waiting on a massive name in the field to publish his edited version of sancerre lol

#the first journal sub is going to be a long shot - i discussed this w my advisor and it would be a surprise if it was accepted #however it's worth the rejection for the comments lol #and then ill submit somewhere else #i wonder if i can talk to julien abt the article hm. tho he's not really a Lery guy. but he knows frank so. maybe #if my longhaul flight wasn't at literally midnight i'd say id do some of this on the plane but there is NO WAY #i think tomorrow before i work on nimes im gonna have a lil come to jesus meeting w me and a notebook re: wtf i need to do w this chapter #remembering advisor's edits that ive only sort of put into place for vassy augh #long post #the 'cool to do ones' are basically things id like to do by dec 31 so it's a far longer TL there #mine #she dissertates

[goldenageofwireless]

sucks so bad that i have to do work 4 school. i just wanna sit here and play my bass...

#i wanna practice sooo bad #i got rlly good at the thing my teacher assigned me so i started working on a new thing and im gonna surprise him on saturday!! #i gotta get better at it tho theres this one part where i need to stretch my pinkie really far and its been kickin my ass #but the rest is coming along good !! #alas. i must do my term paper #practicing must wait... #mal.txt

[scottspack]

i know the only way out is through but brother im TIRED

#so far 27 is rivaling 23 for shit ass fuck ass stupid ass ages #in both cases i was suffering a surprising new illness ever other week all while dealing with the most stressful time at work I’ve ever had #IM TIRED OF BEING MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY UNWELL #for someone who likes their job i fucking hate my job #it’s killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #girl hlep!!!!

[imbeingtauntedbyachild]

Shout to me when I was an anti when on Twitter I wanted to get pissed off so I went to the search option and put shota 🙏

#og post #surprise!!! im a shtacon #but its so funny cuz i see this happen alot #where an anti is like 'this is disgusting' but then lurk the places that post that content #being an anti wouldnt have worked out in the long run anyways cuz i had alot of problematic ships when i was younger #even when i was an anti i was like 'wait but hows this gonna work out esp since i still ship this??' #idk if admitting im a shtacon is too far for some people but i mean #*gestures to everything ive made* #okay thats enough of this post #proship

[tinylittlebab]

i only weigh 97 pounds????

#wha. what. i figured i weighed like be 10 pound more than that #coincidentally the weight that id consider best to go for it 87 bc that bmi is 14.9 and a bmi below 15 can be dangerous so i dont wanna dip #too far below it. i wann go for around 85 but i think 87 is a better option even though its not a nice neat number #ofc its hard to have a general exact weight but i think i wanna aim for 87 being be general weight and probably less when i first wake up #idk. im surprised by this though. and i tested the scale with other stuff so i know it works properly #well. i only have 10 pounds to lose. maybe i should try getting some muscle so i look thinner. it weighs more so if i was 87 with more #muscle then i would be skinnier. im very bad at it though. ive never really tried i guess so maybe ill attempt that. hmm. idk. #idk how you really do that. well. ill look into it i guess. it would let me look skinnier at the same weight

[ruairy]

.

#if im remebered for anything in life i hope its autistic cat boys #sure i only have like 2 (so far) but they are also some of my finest work i think #Reynante wasnt even supposed to have autism #he was meant to be the adhd cat that shreds all the curtains #but he can be both as a treat #two cat boys two different kinds of autism which one are u #that being said i wouldnt be surprised if my other ocs are already autism coded bc i only know how to wrote neurodivergent gay ppl #write what u know as they say