#in a way. im scared that ive hardened to a point where its difficult to approach me. the last thing i want is to be intimidating

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if it wasnt obvious enough im having a night where i feel terrible and talk about it because i dont have the energy to regret it

#wind howls #trauma tornado #not even sure if this counts as trauma for anyone else because im the only one who knows what im talking about. #but i am talking about traumatic events i have lived. im the only one who gets to know them however. #maybe its because im in a depressive state where i feel especially disconnected/inhuman/lonely as hell but god #this sucks. everything sucks. i can only blame things on my aunts presence for so long. #sure her being here makes me uncomfortable but i dont know for sure if thats whats making me have a trauma night rn #i. feel like im failing at everything. lately it feels like im especially failing at any interaction i do. like #i feel like whenever i open my mouth everyone around me goes like [affection - -] like in the sims like everything i do just fucking sucks #so to prevent that i dont say anything. i follow along others ideas and only add what i need when im really truly needed. but am i ever ? #but sometimes i get a burst of bravery and i share my ideas and then get so scared and insecure that i never go into detail about them #and everything gets so much worse its like a vicious circle of Fuck This Guy #i dont. necessarily envy the way i was a couple of years ago. i was carefree and far more gullible and i guess that #in a way. im scared that ive hardened to a point where its difficult to approach me. the last thing i want is to be intimidating #but im so scared all the time that im afraid im pushing other away and god this really sucks #sorry im having a night i started thinking about so many things at once

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Day 12: Snowman (Adrigami)

Day 12: Snowman

Ship: Adrien Agreste and Kagami Tsurugi

@mlrarepairmonth

The school bells rang calling out the students for the recess and a couple of young boys run down the stairs to the snow throwing themselves down at the white fluff then they moved their legs and arms back and forth doing the snow angel.  

Out of the school building came the Japanese fencing student Kagami dressed all warm for the deep temperatures on the outside of Paris.

Kagami smiled at the boy making snow angels on the ground, then before she went the stairs down someone held behind her neck a bit of cold snow shrieking her and she grabbed the persons arm and pressed him against the wall next to the stairs.

“Ouch, ouch, ouch it hurts!” Warned the boy, then Kagami let him go as she realized it was her boyfriend Adrien.

“It was you?” Asked Kagami letting the blonde go.

“Yes” Replied the Frenchman. “Excuse me, if you didn’t like it. I just wanted to call your attention”

“I see, now you got all my attention”

“Great….hey what are they doing there?” Asked Adrien looking at the boys lying on the ground.

“They’re doing snow angels” Replied the Japanese girl. “Have you ever done that?”

“No my father never has let me play out on snowy days. He was afraid I could get sick”

“You and your overly worried father” The blue-haired girl sighed rolling her eyes.

“Yep”

“Hey I’ve got an idea, let’s build a snowman together?” Suggested Kagami her boyfriend, which thought about it and immediately agreed.

“Yes I never have done one before”

“Then follow me” Demanded Kagami running down together with her boyfriend at the middle of the plot and both went down on their knees and Kagami started to push down on the ground with her hands the snow together, then Adrien did so pushing the snow to where Kagami was going with hers.

“First we build up the first sphere that will represent his feet” Explained Kagami watching Adrien helping her. “Keep bringing the snow together, I’ll do the middle part of the snowman”

“Okay!” Answered Adrien forming the amount of snow into a giant ball. Kagami kneed near the blonde down packing together the snow forming another scoop, forming it precisely, then she rolled it to Adrien, which was still correcting a few bits on the side of the first sphere, then Kagami tried to lift her ball by herself, then Adrien assisted her lifting it up on the other side, then they placed it together on the bigger snowball.

“It’s not so difficult,” Adrien said rolling another ball by himself then Kagami told him to stop, then he took the last snowball to place it on the snowman so that they would now have a head for the snowman.

“So we have its body, now we need to give him some arms and a face”

“I know we could try to remove from that tree over there some branches”

“And for a nose, we need a carrot, but…..uhm we don’t have a carrot, so we could use a pen as the nose and….oh I think the art classroom should have those decoration stones we could use to make the mouth for the snowman.”

“Great, are you going to get them?” Questioned Adrien the girlfriend.

“I could and if you’re able to do, get down two branches of the tree, if not we find a solution”

“Sure I try” Replied the blonde nodding, then he ran at the tree and looked up at it. From the pocket of his left side the cat kwami Plagg stuck his head up looking up at his owner, which gazed at the tree.

“What are you doing, Jack Frost?” Asked Plagg looking up unamused at the blonde.

“I want to climb up this tree to get some branches for the snowman” Responded the French boy.

“Good luck then”

“Do you think you could your cataclysm to break the branches off the tree?”

“Bad idea, I could end up causing more damage, than wanted boy”

“Oh well, then I’ll do it by myself” Said Adrien trying to climb up the tree.

“Before you try to break one of the branches hold yourself somewhere to avoid falling down” Suggested Plagg flying behind the blonde.

“I think I’ll place my arm behind that branch on the other side, wrap my legs around the trunk and I try to break this limb,” Adrien told grabbing the first branch he had found on the tree, then bend it down, then moved it up and down to break it. The branch cracked and Adrien had managed to pick it from the tree.

“Great now you should get down before that branch you’re holding on breaks”

“Don’t worry Plagg it’s thick, It won’t break that easily” Adrien said shaking his head, then he dropped the stick down on the ground and placed his now free hand on the large limb, then he tried to put his right leg over it, then he wrapped his arms around the limb, then tried to move himself up at the limb then he heard a crack and looked at the end of the limb, that it was about to break.

“Uhm Plagg?” Asked Adrien looking at the flying kitty, then it cracked again and it bends down shrieking Adrien and he crashed with his back against the tree trunk.

“Luckily the splinters are still holding you up.”

“Yeah,” Adrien said still a bit scared from nearly having hurt himself. Adrien tried to move forwards on the limb, then it varied around and Adrien decided to jump down and land on his chest.

“At least you landed on the snowy side,” Plagg said flying down at the blonde’s face. “You’re okay?”

“I’m fine” Responded Adrien getting up from the ground and taking the branch he picked from the tree.

Kagami had come back from the school with her fencing barrel bag and her fencing saber and met Adrien back at the snowman.

“Did you only manage to get one stick?” Asked Kagami earning a nod from the blonde.

“Yeah when I was about to get a second one the limb, where I was climbing broke and I nearly felt down”

“Oh sorry I didn’t know that” Responded Kagami disappointed. “Are you alright?” Asked Kagami placing her hand under Adrien’s chin to see if he had hurt himself.

“I’m fine, don’t worry” Adrien assured making the girl smile.

“Good then let’s finish our snowman,” Kagami said dropping her bag next to the snowman then opened it taking out an invisible plastic box filled with stones, then started creating a smile on the snowman, followed by Adrien placing the stick in the middle sphere of the snowman.

“Hey I’m going to give it some buttons here on his face”

“I’m…..hey let’s make him a fencer snowman?” Suggested Kagami looking at Adrien.

“Great idea!” Agreed Adrien and Kagami took out from her barrel bag her saber and stuck it on the free side so that the long point would look up at the sky,

“I’ll make with the stones a button tape to represent the fencing suit”

“Good and here I brought a painting brush that will be his nose,” Kagami said using the end of the brush to make a hole in the middle of the head, then stuck the part of the brush in the hole and used her fingers to harden the snow around the paintbrush.

Kagami backed off from the snowman, followed by her boyfriend then both looked their creation proudly together.

“We did a great job Adri,” Kagami said looking at the blonde, that nodded at his girlfriend, then Adrien leaned his face closer to Kagami giving her a quick kiss on her lips. Kagami smirked, then placed her hands on Adrien’s cheeks going on her tiptoes to give him a longer kiss on the lips. The Japan descendant girl ended the kiss, opening her eyes smiling lovely at the boy, that smiled the same way the girl did to him, then they were going to kiss again, but Adrien got hit by a snowball shrieking Kagami as he had fallen down on the ground.

“Got ya!” Shouted a dark-skinned boy wearing a red cap.

“Nino, you’re going to get it back” Adrien warned him jokingly making Nino laugh, then he got hit by a snowball too and from the direction, the ball had come stood Alix smirking while playing with another snowball by throwing it up and down with the same hand.

“Snowball fight!” Shouted Ivan.

“Girls versus boys!” Announced Alix then Adrien looked at Kagami, which shrugged her arms and ran at the other direction to the girls, while all boys went to Adrien’s side. Adrien smiled and saw his classmates standing beside him, forming snowballs to throw at the girls, while they did the same fighting in a team against the boys.

#adrigami #adrimi #adrami #Kagami Tsurugi #adrien agreste #kagadrien #oneshot #miraculous #rarepair month #miraculous rarepair month