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femme-malewife · 2 years

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I’m honestly surprised to see that there’s people who think lipxlip don’t actually care about each other? Like? Did you not see the MVs? Did we not watch the same movie? The same show?

Both Yujiro and Aizou grew up in difficult homes. Be it completely neglectful and abusive, or strict and uptight with no real childhood, taught to always erase yourself to focus on acting.

Not to mention, they are just teenagers. And those who did get off on the wrong foot.

They’re awful at being honest and using their words, but they do show they care by listening to each other when they need it, by trying to cheer each other up in their own way, by doing acts of kindness.

I mean, for example, look at Hanipre.

In th halloween event, Yujiro is frustrated at himself for not getting a dance right, and despite it being a competition between the two, Aizou stays up all night to help him.

Yujiro hurts Aizou and wants to apologize. He feels horrible, so he writes “thank you” on a box of pocky and gives it to him. Aizou forgives him so fast and is super happy.

Or when Yujiro was worried about Aizou because of his first solo gig. He came to see him and ended up helping him. Aizou admits to the audience that Yujiro is a big presence to him

In Yujiro’s first solo event, he was scared that he’ll fall behind everyone so he overworks himself. Aizou takes him aside (to their secret spot) and gets him to tell him what’s bothering him. He was worried seeing Yujiro overexerting himself.

or when Aizou was upset because he felt inferior to Yujiro. He blurts it out that he’s not Yujiro and won’t be good enough, and Yujiro just assures him that he’s Aizou from LIPxLIP, and that’s more than enough.

And who can forget the Kyoto event, where both of them really showcase their concern. When Yujiro trips, Aizou catches him and loses his charm. Yujiro feels guilty and goes to search for it without letting Aizou know. Aizou becomes paranoid that something happened to him because it was late night, and he even admits to Mona that he planned the trip as if it were private for good memories...

And Yujiro’s line, “the view at the kiyomizu, as well as the view from the stage when I’m standing by your side, Aizou, I think both of them are equally good views”.

Aizou was so happy for Yujiro to say somthing like that, and refuses to fight with him anymore (at least during the trip)

Even if you don’t have hanipre and don’t follow any of the translated stories, remember the movie?

The park scenes. Where Aizou helped Yujiro, and Yujiro helped Aizou.

And before the concert, when Yujiro was upset, Aizou helped him again

Even though at the very start, they hated each other, before they even had their first song, they were so important to each other. But they’re so bad at communicating, so they mostly show it though actions rather than words. And they can’t be faulted for that.

Why else would Aizou sing this if Yujiro wasn’t important to him? And surely Yujiro feels the same since he goes on to sing-

with Yujiro having such a soft expression?

They are important to each other and I think it’s really annoying that there’s people who say “only Aizou actually cares, Yujiro doesn’t” or “they’re only forced to tolerate each other”.

Sorry for the ramble but hjkshjaskhsa please stop misunderstanding them and hating them and saying they hate each other, it’s clearly not true

#lipxlip #someya yuujirou #shibasaki aizou #is this aiyuu? ...kinda. not really this time #i mean it is but im not trying to push the actual ship #i do want people to know that they really. genuinely. care abt each other #i really dont get why people are saying otherwise??? like hello???#anyway this is another reason to rant abt them <3 #honeywoks #confession executive committee

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motherraid · 2 years

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Bestie, I really need your thoughts on hucow weather report 👉👈

Btw! Hope you're doing well! Love you:))

-🌸

Oh.. Lovely.. Angel of our lives I thank you from the bottom of my heart for this post cause I was ITCHING for some Jojo's asks.

Mk so! Let's go with a lil farm.

I feel as if Weather report would be a semi large bull? Like, he's an older bull no doubt, but he'd have more of a lean and tall build, yknow?

Quiet, well spoken, a little lowkey mushy around old friends; He's the soft, silent, & strong type. He works honestly and doesn't cause much trouble for those around him.

On hot/summer days, his go to spot for hanging out is normally anywhere where shade is a constant. Inside a building, underneath a giant tree, ect. He can't stand hot weather for too long (hah weather. Get it? No? K).

He's not particularly all that comfortable around Joseph and may tend to butt heads with him every once in a while, but honestly... Who doesn't?

Oh, and he's a fucking whore for Mangos.

Weather doesn't really take as much time to preen like everyone else, but he still looks decent nonetheless. He just won't necessarily care for intimidation or flare like the other Joestars.

Does that mean he's not similar to them at all? I think fucking not.

He's the type of bull who, kinda like Jonathan, won't force you to breed, but if you went to him for it he'd blow your back out, feel me?

Refuses to be milked, same as Jotaro, Josuke, ect. Not cause he thinks it's embarrassing like those two, but because he thinks it's pointless. (all the fucking cows you have and you run to him? Go milk Holly. She'll be more than happy to give it to you.)

He'd find Jolyne's lame jokes, that even Anasui cringes at mind you, kinda funny. Sometimes he's repeated them and gotten a collective groan from whoever's in earshot, but who cares it's him and Jolyne's thing.

And I can tell you right now, Weather has a nose ring.

Yes, they're uncomfortable for bulls since they're sensitive, but he kinda just bears with it for aesthetic. Not like he can't just take it off at any time.

(And fuckin props to him for doing something even Jotaro is too whiny to pull off)

He said it "helps with pain tolerance" too or somthing. I dunno, we can't really hear him.

(Speaking of being uncomfortable, guess who had a silent freak out and nearly gouged someone's eye from their face with his horn kicking and snorting because he was about to get branded? This guy!! :D

K but seriously, if you're his handler you'd better go calm him down he is destroying EVERYTHING-

He wouldn't talk to you for a days after. Give him a minute, his ass is still throbbing.)

He still hangs around Anasui, and Jotaro is even fine with him hanging around Jolyne, Hermes, and Foo before he goes batshit crazy and snaps into the Wes we all know and hate love.

He even let's them paint his nails most days!

Foo is terrible at it, btw.

Respectful of boundaries, mindful of social cues (even those hard to understand like jotaro's), and an overall polite, well-tempered bull.

You'll never have to worry about him violating your boundaries. Weather isn't like that. His libido isn't particularly strong, and he's an old soul. He's more lovey than he is sexually driven.

His love language is physical touch. Give him some smooches and he'll be over the moon.

He's more likely to hug you from behind unexpectedly. It doesn't matter what you're doing. If you're distracted, he takes his chance. He thinks it's more like a pleasant surprise if he startles you a little bit with his love.

He's already a chill bull to begin with, but just his handler being around him helps him fully relax.

He's kinda constantly stressed out with his work.

He's always up doing something somewhere, especially in the cooler weather. Take this man inside please, he's gonna catch a cold-

Weather is always feeling something needs to be done, or if he hasn't rolled an ankle, dislocated a shoulder, and popped his fuckin cerebellum, he hasn't done enough to deserve a break.

But he does. He's one of the most hardworking, smart bulls you'd ever meet. Almost anything asked of him will be carried out at a moments notice.

Please spoil him, please. We genuinely don't know how the other cattle and animals would fair without him (even though most pull their weight. He's just a refreshing guy to he around).

10/10 hard-working bull. He's determined and passionate, in his own quiet way. A lil' stressed 24/7, but that's just all the more reason to spoil him with treats and love.

Trust me, he deserves it.

!!LISTEN, PLEASE!!

This blog revolves around Dead dove content.

If you're not okay with seeing that content, this is fine, I just don't wanna hear about it, mkay? Cause some come here for that type of content. If you see something you don't like, just keep scrolling, dude. And if there's absolutely nothing dead dove about the current post, don't tread my Tumblr and then get all shocked when you see nasty. Okay? Alright, thanks. :)

#.weather report #.jjba #.weather report x reader #.hucow!Weather #.weather x reader #-piss #.YES #.FUCKING FINALLY #.Thank you whore- muah💖

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lorisystem · 1 year

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I feel so so miserable and dysphoric in this society ngl. I feel like i need- not even want but need to be in a place thats accepting of me and that makes me feel loved and welcome or at least. Tolerated or something and that i cant get that. I know its my problem bc so many people somehow live being themselves and taking criticism etc. But i just cant deal with unsolicited comments or aggression etc i just cant. Bear to think that people in society might perceive me to be weird. I feel like people cant be normal around the weird and weak, they just turn hostile and try to subjugate us or at best they become patronizing.

I feel like i dont belong to any community at all not even people like me theres always this or that trait that keeps me from belonging fully and no matter what i always feel like im an impostor pretending to be normal.

I know this is my own issue and im too sensitive to what i think people think of me and how they react to me etc and i shouldnt care but i cant help caring it was literally taught to me the hard way. Everytime people have wanted me so much to care about what they think always its so hard to unlearn.

Im at this point in this reaction of flight cycle where instead of trying to figure out how i could possibly find an accepting community im trying to figure out how to not be dependent on society anymore. My fantasies are turning to like going to live somewhere alone and subsisting by my own mean even if it means sacrificing things like comfort or some dignity i would aggressively protect being alone so nobody can come near me and perceive me or anything.

Obviously thats not realistic etc so. But im still thinking i cant help trying to figure how i could do that.

I just feel like i cant compromise- i cant be happy in this situation at all.

So im thinking the other way out is to die- which obviously is a thing i cant do bc some people depend on me and like. Its so so sad to die even though theres still technically hope of getting better. And its not fair. But im getting these urges and its like not even on a conscious level bc ive been suppressing suicidal urges but i have these parasite thoughts idk to do it in a way that makes it everyones problem bc i resent this society (and no individual in particular) so much and i want everyone to know that they failed and they were trash and they hurt me etc. But i cant pinpoint any specific people that i really resent. When it comes down to people who actually hurt me i think they just wouldnt understand (or sometimes care). No matter what i cant make anyone understand me or what i go through and the pain isnt going away.

And i know this is not a good way to feel or to think bc its very selfish and its nobodys fault in particular. And i have this toxic trait of when i feel bad i think its fair that everybody else feels bad too- which is bad and also i hate having this trait cause this is just what my dad does!! So im repressing thoughts like these and i dont talk about this to people around me bc the last thing i want is to actually harm someone especially if i care about them.

But yea i feel like i dont connect to anyone really. I connect to my spouse but i think its only bc we spent so much time together we attuned to each other but still. He is a person n i guess i need unconditional acceptance and love of my whole being- literally everything i do or say and i know its dumb and i shouldnt want it etc

Rationalizing doesnt make it go away though.

This spiraling was literally caused by a call from my landlord's girlfriend bc shes asking me to fill somth that doesnt matter and i shouldnt have to fill it and she was so rude bc i didnt receive her stupid email. As if its my fault?! N like. This is way more interaction ive had with this landlord than i care to have for my entire life. With these neighbors. I hate it here i hate it here!!!!!!! Theres always drama in this building!!!! I want to be left out of it!!!!!!

I feel like my life is just a nightmare that im trapped in. I have to pretend to be a human person all the time and i have to rely on my imaginary world and comfort interests to escape it all the time but when i think about it this is the only thing that makes me feel safe and accepted.

Idk why im struggling so much just feeling human and living with other people. I dont think anything ive been through is enough to justify this level of dysphoria and distress. I didnt ask for this. I just want to be left alone and live my life but that is too much to ask.

Sorry for the rant. Ill be ok though!!!!!!! Idk if anyone else feels like this but when it comes to DID i feel like for me its all about feeling unimaginable amounts of pain and still being able to function and be ok bc everything is kept compartmentalized. So in the end ill be ok n functional but ill hate it the entire time.

Anyway bye.

- ???

#lorisys #tw in readmore.#im too....................... etc to tag for anything im just feel not good. sarrey

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missbrunettebarbie-writer · 3 years

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Emperor, high priestess, wheel of fortune, fool and devil!

Elodie

Emperor: Do you ever feel overshadowed by Nefele?

The only times when Elodie feels overshadowed by Nefele is when Nefele plays the eldest sister. It's not somthing Elodie is used to, as she spent her entire childhood thinking she's the oldest child. Luckily, Nefele doesn't have much experienve with the whole older-younger sibling dynamic, so she rarely tries to act like an Older SisterTM.

High Priestess: Do you have any objects that would be impossible to part with? Why?

I think out of all three sisters, Elodie is the least likely to get attached to objects. I can see her being fond of her books -especially the ones on which she scribbled on- or some of the things that make her proud: the shoes she bought with her own money or the old clock she fixed with her father.

Wheel of Fortune: What’s your worst memory with Nefele?

I think almost being killed by Nefele in a ritualistic sacrifice counts xDD. It was their first meeting, but things got better from there LOL.

Fool: What’s your biggest pet peeve? Who do you know that does this?

Hmm, I actually find it hard to answer this one as Elodie is a pretty tolerant person. I think she might have a dislike for people who have no brain-to-mouth filter (looking at you, Angelina!) and she doesn't have much patience for disorganized people either.

Devil: How do your views/opinions/beliefs differ from those around you?

She has Eldest Daughter Syndrome and bought into her father's "family must always come first" ideaology, something that both Nefele and Angelina find toxic and/or annoying. She is also the sister most inclined to offer forgivness and second chances and it's very oppossed to killing.

Angelina

Emperor: Do you ever feel overshadowed by Nefele?

All the time. Angelina feels like Nefele is the better version of herself: smarter, more mature, more capable when it comes to magic. And she gets along with Elodie better than she does!! Unforgivable :P

High Priestess: Do you have any objects that would be impossible to part with? Why?

Her childhood stuffed animals, but don't tell anyone. It's one of her biggest secrets.

Wheel of Fortune: What’s your worst memory with Nefele?

For now, I think it would be when she finds out Nefele is her sister. Angelina would be willing to claw her eyes out in that moment. But knowing those two, it can always get worse, so I expect I'll have a different answer in let's say a year, when I'll know the plot better.

Fool: What’s your biggest pet peeve? Who do you know that does this?

People who keep secrets. Elodie and Nefele, she means you!

Devil: How do your views/opinions/beliefs differ from those around you?

She is a firm believer in the "fairies are guardians of nature and balance and as such the only ones who have a right to magic", something that both Elodie and Nefele more or less disagree with. She also consideres humans who try to gain magic to be loathsome and pathetic, so she isn't exactly fond of Nefele's dad or her eventual boyfriend. As if she and Nefele needed more reasons to fight with each other.

#thank you!!#answer #my thoughts #elodie lazarus #angelina auguste quentin #vv thoughts

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thewitchydorkofportals · 4 years

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Bunny boy.Bunny!KatsukiX reader

Ill admit i like doing these trades when my mailbox is empty...which is honestly all the damn time.. sooothis one is for @pleasantanathema and her trade is boom boom boy and in exchange i get my 2ed fav mha husband..shinsou. but im adding a holiday twister to this one. TW: swearing, violence,blood but not to much and above all..forgive my slight bad grammar.

Today was the day before the easter party and you and Katsuki were out on one patrol. You would think you could get just ONE day off. All you wanted to do was have a picnic with Katsuki. But nooo your chasing a cottontail villian that is somehow super fast and very annoying! Like holy shit this guy was getting on Katsukis nerves annoying. He dashed ahead saying somthing about “IM GONNA MAKE LAMB STEW OUT OF THIS RABBIT!” Until there was a poof and you were about to catch the villian until you saw a blonde rabbit where katsukis clothes were. “

Oh..crap...hes adorable..but oh crap.” you thought.

You had to call the agentcy as you picked up his clothes and explain what happened. They said if any of them got hit with the quirk it wouldnt last long so by the morning he would be back to normal. For now she has to monitor him to make sure its ONLY for the nest morning and that it doesnt last longer.

Thus led to your situation now. You holding a angry blonde rabbit the size of a small dog as you carried him and his clothes and gear to your room. You luckily knew how to take care of a rabbit..sure Katsuki WASNT a rabbit he was A HUMAN..but at this moment he was one and as VULERABLE as one.. and he HATED IT! But over time he kinda liked it. You were giving him gentle attention, more cuddles and telling him secrets you never told him and you just thought..he wouldnt remember cause well.. hes a dang rabbit. oh how wrong. You even told him that you wanted to marry him and have a family. As he ‘tolerated’ eating the rabbit food, he told you how much you loved him in secret. “Heh..i love you Katsuki. Normally when i try to say it..i get scared cause you might get mad..or make fun of me.”

w-what why would he be mad at you for telling you you liked HIM! If anything he wanted to tell you 1st. He began jumping and trying to say “YOU STUPID WOMAN I LOVE YOU TOO!” But he remembered hes a rabbit he cant say shit but he noticed his ‘chirping and his body movements got her to smile. “Youre popcorning..” He tilted his head “It means you like me..Rabbits and Guinea pigs do it..”

When this damn curse is gone.. hes gonna SHOW he loves you. hes gonna breed with you like a rabbit himself till he gets it through your skull.

#easter Katsukixreader #katsuki bakugō

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dearlostsheep · 2 years

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It’s Ok to Start Over

I started reading the book, Always We Begin Again: Stepping into the Next, New Moment, by Leeana Tankersley, and day one of the book is called, The Sacredness of Beginnings. It talks about being okay with starting over. Sometimes, we’re frowned upon when choosing to start over or taking an L. But, what is taking an L mean? Sometimes we fear what people will say. Are they gonna call me a quitter? You’re not quitting if you’re starting over, because what if taking that loss was the best decision you will ever make? The true meaning of quitting is when to stop trying.

I was watching an interview Kobe Bryant, RIP, did, about 4 years ago, where he talked about failure and how it doesn’t exist. According to him, “failure only happens when you refuse to keep on going and finally decide not to learn anymore.” This resonated with me because I have always been the person to keep getting up, no matter how many times I fall down. This can relate to any facet of your life, whether it’s learning how to cook, drive, being a better person for your marriage, children, etc.; if you keep finding ways to become a better person, then you are not a failure.

If you burned your burger, pop another one on the grill and observe what you did wrong. It might be easier said than done, but it starts with a decision. Are you willing to start over? You may feel that you have given all of your efforts into this one thing and feel that wasted so much time and resources. Another way to look at it is you have all and skills and tools needed to start over and have an effective launch in your next project and don’t be surprised that the thing you start doing, catapults you to where you’re supposed to be.

Never allow peer pressure or outside noises affect your decision-making. If you have to start over on a new project, a new business, a new brand, a new product, a new diet, a new school, it’s okay. You’re not a failure.

Beginning again is permission to be unaccomplished, to be a beginner, to be brand new. More than permission too, a sense that we are right where we should be and that the beginning space is actually a holy space, not just a layover on our way to somthing better. Leeana Tankersley

It is easy to fall into the false belief that being a beginner is being a failure. What’s stopping you from starting over? Is it the fear of being called a quitter or the fear of public humiliation? These are the question we all need to answer. Choose, today, to lose the fear of trying to please others, because as long as you know, in your heart, why you are starting over, that’s all that should matter.

There was also a prayer in this chapter, that reads, God, give me the grace with myself, as I tolerate being a beginner. Amen. Because, sometimes, it’s not only the outside world influencing you. Sometimes, it’s your own mind, your own thoughts, your own voice, telling you that you are a quitter for starting over; that you are a failure. Don’t listen to that voice that says that, but instead, listen to the voice that tells you starting over is not so bad. You’re not a failure. I remember there was a line from the movie, Haunted Mansion where the crystal ball was telling Eddie Murphy’s character, “You try, you fail, you try, you fail, but the only true failure is if you stop trying,” and then he asked, “What do you want me to do?” And she replied, “try again.” So, always continue trying to pursue what you were called to do and when you feel like giving up, know that your breakthrough is one decision away.

#beginning #inspiration #yana #you are never alone #life

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noquirk-a · 6 years

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ok anyway as i mentioned ... heres me talkin about deck’s relationships with other muses/charas bc im one big dickhead who never shuts up XD

i’ll ... talk abt the most obvious one first. katsuki. specifically turtle’s katsuki bc i believe his is what i’ve talked with the most. it’s clear and obvious that deck despises him to the point he has a death wish against him, and most likely an EXTREMELY unhealthy obsession with him. but like, the obsession to do anything to put him down ... not even put him down like ‘ kill him ‘ but. at least crush his dreams. if anything, deck would rather cut off his hands or make him lose his quirk entirely just so he could feel what was it like to be it’s shoes. he wants ... to be above him. he wants him to experience karma and feel what he’s done to him. that’s a pretty common trope, i know, but considering what he’s ... done to him that’s all he actually wants. be it in a verse that he’s the hero or the villain, he doesn’t care. he’s going to find a way to fuck him up so bad that’ll have him end up underneath his foot as he crushes his hands with his foot, grinning like the damn cheshire cat, laughing softly as he goes ‘ who’s powerless now, kacchan? ‘

even if ... katsuki would like. want deck to go back to heroism bc it feels so fucking wrong to have someone so determined to become a hero suddenly change his point of view. deck was literally one who would NEVER give up on his dreams and then suddenly he just. fell down. would he come to his senses and realize this? nah. if anything, he belives that he’s in the right mindset of having a perspective that it was society that was wrong. ( and ok, not being biased but somehow it is wrong 4 them to discriminate the quirkless like that. ) or maybe it’s just his pettiness not wanting to be in a side where he is right now. he’s no longer going to tolerate all the bullshit he’s thrown onto him, even if he asks penitence for that.

another one is all might or toshinori. this is honestly where he ( all might ) has the biggest disadvantage and will realize he’s done the most foolish mistake. that being both underestimating deku and telling him the wrong mindset at first, AND telling him his weakness. deck, entering the league and getting in touch with afo, would definitely ask for like ... a stronger noumo similar to shi/garaki’s and fight him himself. i mean, not his bare hands ofc, but like through manipulating the noumo. the thing is he KNOWS his ultimate weakness and would often approach that. and at his exact downfall he’d be the one smiling, asking him if he remembers him, and like.. the ‘ i told you so ‘ or w/e attitude that shows that he was wrong on telling him that he couldn’t be a hero. he was strong as a villain ... so what more of him becoming an actual hero? he completely wasted it and crushed that dream of his. his confidence / hope is a deck of cards and his words are but a mere blow and he just. wants him to feel that that was one of his biggest mistakes tbh.

herE’S ONE THAT IM SOOOOOOOOOOOO in love with bc it gives him a speck of humanity / little hope .. uraraka. there’s a seperate post for her find it in the tags but she... she’s literally the only star in deck’s empty night sky. almost. kind of. she’s supposed to be a hero and she IS a hero but the difference is she saw him as an equal at first and that’s something .. deck’s really thankful for. it’s plotted that she does a lot just to make him turn back / ‘ SAVE ‘ him to the point she could like .. die and still hope for him. that literally just puts him in a plethora of twist and turn of emotions bc like .. it’s. so. so fucking foreign to him, everything she’s doing. i can put this in a longer post but im JKSLFMSKJLFSKJFLM to him, she’s his hero for making him realize this. he may not give in that quickly or w/e, but she makes him realize something.

then there’s ... deku. like, canon deku, not deck, bc like tbh i always llive for crossover universes / canon meeting au. it’s fascinating to me. anyway deck sees himself as like ... the BETTER version 4 some reason bc he sees it that he’s not ‘’blind’’ to society’s truth. he sees deku as someone who just ... gave in to that lie.i mean even in his verse where he DOES achieve all might’s quirk he realizes soon enough that this was all wrong ... why couldn’t he become a hero without a quirk? he sees him as like .. literally believing and accepting the fact that you should have a quirk before becoming a hero and tbh? he hates him for that, and envies him so much at the same time bc as most people say, ignorance is bliss, and he wishes he could’ve went through the same thing and be ignorant, too. but nah. he had to be the one ( or at least in his pov ) with ‘’eyes open’’ to how cruel / ugly society is.

ok then ... tooru aka @/vanishedstar. call it a coping thing or w/e but he projects himself to tooru bc they have similar background stories, difference is tooru was BORN with a quirk but taken from him and he’s full of love, whilst deck was born without and is just ... full of anger and wrath. he, like most people, sees him as nothing else but a stepping stone. bc like he can’t accomplish EVERYTHING alone, like alone in the literal sense so ofc he gets people as ‘ puppeteers ‘ them to follow his plan just so he could achieve his goal. since he’s already quirkless like him he trains him and teaches him how to fight physically and tells him w/e he knows. basically he molds him into someone like him, but like, the weaker version, bc he doesn’t want someone to outsmart him or run higher than him. think like ... a little student. or a little brother that he teaches idk XDD he’s always another proof / verification to his belief that people look on quirks, not the actual person. the fact that most ppl left him after he’s gone quirkless just seconds it tbh.

ahmya. ... aka @/eyepsyche. this relationship is INCREDIBLY toxic and pure stockholm not going to lie. her quirk is EXTREMELY useful to him bc she can gather a lot of info and see a lot of things abt a person, and though deck can do that himself, she can gather so much more info for him and that just adds up to his knowledge. useful, right? she’s reluctant sometimes or at least at first, but deck REFUSES to let her go. and it’s not because he ... loves her or anything. he does’t have any feelings for her he just finds her very, very useful. think like an expensive knife or w/e that you’re not willing to lose. that expensive tech pen you keep in your case that other ppl might not see as much. ahmya, prior to meeting deck, was just a regular girl w/ no ‘purpose’ and deck gives her that .... the purpose being a huge stepping stone so he can accomplish what he must ^_^ SMSLGLS it’s incredibly disgusting of him tbh but he’s that desperate to finish what he wants to anyway and he has little to no care about others so what gives, right? he treats her like a pet, gives her constant validation that’s fake just so she could depend on him and all that. it’s pure ... nasty.but that honestly just shows his true nature of being a manipulative, toxic, selfish bastard.

then there’s nooni aka @/creepquirk! much like ahmya and tooru, deck first saw nooni as the same thing : a pawn. a stepping stone. a little doll in his play that’ll help him reach what he wants. but there was just something about nooni that just ... opened somthing in him tbh. bc nooni was like, similar to deck in some ways, wanting to be a hero but society pushing you away. he stripped her off of that dream while she could still live it and dragged her to his own hell. but the thing was, somehow in the league, nooni ... still had that bit of hope of becoming a hero despite everything and tbh?? tbh?????????????? deck .. adores that. ofc he doesn’t show it on the outside bc hes a XDD tsundere bitch. no im kidding deck isn’t one to like be vulnerable or w/e but nooni was just so different to him bc she handles everything way better than him and this and that that just made him care deeply about her...n honestly? he regrets pulling/dragging her down and sometimes wish she couldve lived her dream instead and become that part he wish he could’ve become, but he finds himself unable to turn back despite being knee deep into everything while she still has a chance. tbh i cant put it all into words bc not even deck could, he’s that much of a mess that sometimes i can’t even decipher him bc he’s a complex chara tbh, but basically he just sees her as some kind of inspiration.

then theres XDD villain todo who’s dead but idc i love their relationship. tbh they’re your typical little shits in love but like it’s not shown. todo and deck are similar in the way that they’re both wanting to get revenge on a particular someone ( his dad and for him katsu/all might ) so he can.. emphasize with him on that. maybe sometimes he even uses him bc lbr, todo is EXTREMELY powerful and clever for his age, but ofc that’s a hassle bc like i said, he’s intelligent, but not enough to the point he has to look down on deck due to being quirkless. he does at first but realizes he’s an excellent strageist so XDDDDDDDDD ok but anyway 2 the gay stuff bc todo is the most confusing person 2 deck ... he acts so kind to him and w/ the aforementioned 2 ura’s, kindness is so fucking foreign to him. maybe not his mom’s, but towards others he ... doesnt know how to handle it???????????????? and sometimes its just so soft and comforting that when it’s given to him he cant help but be addicted??????????????? is it love?? maybe?? maybe not????? love or is this just me desperately wanting affection from someone else?????????????????????? hm! who knwos ^_^ their rs is complicataed n? same.

ok ( wheeze ) last one ... is mo. mortimer...morty.........or @/noricks........ maybe it’s bc they belong in different universes but like what rick wrote deck just ... sees himself as him. like they’re almost so painfully similar in terms of EVERYTHING except for some few parts. YA their backstories are different but it just ... leads them to the person who ends up sitting on the throne and acting like a god bc ‘’’ God was cruel to them ‘’’ . i went 2 recollection once and the speaker once said if you hate someone, it’s probably bc they remind you of yourself n i think? that just explains why he’ so aggressive towards him sometimes JSMGJS TMHSIMGHSLGKMSKLGM he . hates himself actually. deck i mean. he doesn’t .. he isn’t outwardly proud of what he’s become n bc mo reminds him of THAT it just irks him tbh. but at the same time he respects him bc???????????????? seriously who accomplishes all of this at the age of 14. he’s one of the or maybe the only person he actually respects other than all of the ppl he actually knows now.

i might edit this i jus wanna eat Fuck.

#here‚ i’ll tell the tale on how your wings burnt.#long post /#XD anyway.#this is a mess im hurrying up i wanna cook some egg

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Hi! Different anon here, I saw you talk about burmating your RRs -- how's that work? :)

pt2.aaand i made a typo, brumate, not burmate hahah whoop

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ha, no problem anon, I figured I would just post the guide by Francis Cosquieri which I used. Its worked for me!

I use a wine cooler which has a thermostat keeping it at 8C. I’ve heard horror stories about domestic fridges freezing reptiles (especially if the fridge is somewhere cold like in a garage or somthing) so I’d suggest dont use those… but otherwise…

BRUMATION AND HOW TO DO IT

OK it is getting to that time of year now, so here is a general overview of how I brumate my snakes and some of my lizards, hopefully it will help others that have questions about this topic, as I know it is something that many find daunting.

The method I use is based on that presented in a wonderful article by Kim Caldwell in an old copy of Reptilian magazine (Issue 4 volume 7 from May 1997) - in fact this feature had a major impact in the way I keep my snakes, I recommend anybody keeping temperate colubrids to try and look for this issue, it’s the one with a Boiga irregularis on the front.

I use the following methods for most of my temperate snakes, by which I mean any species that occurs in Europe (for example Horseshoe Whip Snakes, Dice Snakes, Viperine Snakes and so on), temperate Asia (for example Dione’s, King, Korean, Russian and Japanese Rat Snakes), North America (Corn Snakes, American Rat Snakes, King Snakes and Milk Snakes, Pituophis, Garters etc.) and even North Africa (Psammophis, Platyceps).

Anyway, as I’m sure many of you know I’m a nut for lighting (maybe TOO much of a nut, as I am repeatedly told…) and I use a method for cycling my colubrids that involves not only manipulating temperatures, but manipulating lighting as well. During the Spring and Summer the lights are on for 14-16 hours a day. At the beginning of October, I start reducing the photoperiod by an hour in the morning and an hour in the evening each week (it really helps to have the lights on a timer!) so that by the beginning of November the lights are on for about 8 hours a day.

At the same time, the heating is gradually reduced as well; in many of my setups, the lights actually provide the heating, and so reducing them (with no additional heating at night) means this is automatically going on. Snakes kept on heat mats or with spot bulbs and so on should have the thermostats gradually turned down a few degrees each week down to room temps.

It is important that the snakes are not fed towards the end of this period to avoid the risk of the food not digesting properly in the cooler temps; the last meals are offered at around the middle of October, and at least two weeks left between this and the snakes being put under for brumation. It goes without saying that the whole cooling/ brumation process should only be attempted with perfectly healthy, well fed snakes.

At around the middle of November, after several additional weeks at room temperature, the species that need a full brumation are taken from their enclosures and put into individual tubs with sphagnum and a small water bowl and placed into a fridge set to the required temps (usually about 8-10C is fine for species like Black Rat Snakes, Dione’s Rats, Japanese Rats, Russian Rats, Viperine Snakes, Garter Snakes and other cold-tolerant species). 8-10c is fine, although some of these species may remain active even at this temperature and can easily survive temperatures even lower (I have seen Grass Snakes active in the fridge even at around 2c).

Other species that are not quite as cold tolerant are placed into my attic, where the temps are reliably kept around 15C (this suits the Mediterranean species).

Species which require cooling but come from slightly warmer regions are not moved from their enclosure, but kept in their vivaria without lighting or heating at room temperature for up to two months (but sometimes for as little as 4 weeks, depending on species).

After three or four months of brumation (depending on what species we are talking about), the snakes are returned to their enclosures and the process is reversed, gradually increasing photoperiod and temperatures over several weeks. During this time the snakes should be fed a very small meal (say, a single fuzzy mouse) and allowed to defaecate before another tentative feeding, and then their normal feeding can begin again. (It is a good idea to make sure any females that you intend to breed are fed a lot to ensure they are healthy during and after egg-laying!). You will notice that the snakes soon shed a few weeks after brumation, which is a good sign that breeding is about to begin…

What is always a pleasure to see is just how little weight, if any, the snakes actually lose during this time, and in fact I find they emerge very active and “refreshed” and appear reinvigorated - it is like they have been given a new lease in life!

Many seem to prefer to do away with brumation altogether, especially those that are not interested in breeding their snakes, but I find that not only is there often a huge increase in breeding drive and fertility rates for many species (Dione’s and Russian Rat Snakes are a perfect example of this - I seldom had good luck hatching healthy offspring from these species without a decent period of brumation) but also there is mounting evidence that snakes which would normally brumate tend to live longer lifespans when they are allowed to do so. Studies on this have been done on Notechis, Crotalus, Thamnophis.

Furthermore, personally I believe it only makes sense to let the animals fulfill a life process they have adapted to do, especially given that doing so seems to have so many physiological effects on their life rhythms.

I hope this explains one simple way of going about seasonal cycling and brumation of these animals.

Regards,Francis

#brumation #long post

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thetruthisnow-blog1 · 6 years

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Tickling fake and real

Fake but real Warning: deep This is a long post / story and probably a serious one in a way, however I'll try to keep it as entertaining as possible. I just want to see what people think of this and these places are probably going to be the only response I will get from people who at least halfway understand me. I am a male in my 20s and I have had this fetish as far back as I can remember. To be honest with you it completely dominates my fantasies, its the only thing I've ever been aroused by. I've always had an obsession with tickling before it was even possible for me to find it sexual, I remember there was one cartoon that I used to play over and over again because it had a tickle scene in it, and that was one of my earliest memories, so obviously somthing in my mind was always attached to it. I am not ashamed of this fetish in fact I feel somewhat bad for people who don't have it because they don't know what they're missing IMO. However it has its dark side. When I was young and even in a way kind of now, I dispised the feeling of being a lee. Don't get me wrong it still arouses me tbh somtimes even more than lering but it can be extremely unpleasant at the same time and even as involuntary as the laugh response itself. Even though this may make me sound pathetic, it hurt me somehow internally, in my mind when this happened to me when I was young. (I have been mugged in my life to the point I had to go to the hospital , I have been through hard withdrawals, sure I'm not the biggest victim in the world but the point I'm trying to make is that I'm not a complete pussy either) I've been through my share of pain but that particular feeling stuck with me. Either way eventually I discovered tickle porn and not long after that I figured out how to masturbate. It was the best feeling in my life. It was literally like the gates of heaven opening. The first video I remember was just of a random woman loling while her feet were tickled. I remember it felt so good I did it again straight away. That day I changed internally it was like a lot of bad feelings just went away. Not all bad feelings but a lot of them. I only ever had one relationship andonly had one nights with two other females. All of that happened in the space of one year and it wasn't until years after I'd already discovered tickle videos. I tickled a few times during my relationship (she did to me as well) it didn't bother me though cos she was ticklish / acted as if she was if i tickled back and that made me feel ok. At the time though I didn't really fully understand women like I think I do today, and I've not been with a female since I I figured them out. Not because I dont like them, but because my life has become far to busy ATM to be dealing with men or women that I dont have to deal with. But my whole life I still had this feeling that there was something about women that didn't make sense. I had somthing of an inner feeling of paranoia and fear directed at women. I always had this feeling from an early age that the ticklish reaction from women was fake. The idea was not somthing I liked the thought of, my dream of being in a relationship had been being with a Lee. The idea of a woman faking or not being ticklish made me feel insecure because that means that she doesnt share my weaknesses and therefore wouldn't understand me. This depressed me at an early age when I thought these things because it made it seem like there is nothing to aim for in life, which is a pretty cynical view. It is just such a weird feeling and as far as I'm concerned its true. When I was in college I learned about eye movements and lying. You can tell if someone is lying by their eye movements. I decided to put this to the test with that question hoping that I could shake the feeling but it turns out that women really are faking being ticklish. Whenever I saw a female answer the question "are you ticklish?" if she answered yes her eyes would go in the lying direction and the truth direction if she said no. I think I noticed it by accident at first but I kept digging deeper until I was checking videos online of females answering that question. The eye movement always match up, too many times for it to be a coincidence. So after a long time it all starts making more and less sense at the same time. In a way this knowledge confirmed my fears but at the same time it evaporated them. It's like a huge weight off your shoulders to figure out the thing that your brain has been subconsciously saying your entire life but your conscious brain doesn't want to believe it at least not without proof. Then like I said I got proof. The truth is in the eyes and I found it. As much as this launched a string of depression in my life when I realised it, it ended eventually, and now even though women are not allperfect and a lot of them can do bad things as can a lot of men, I have to at least say that some of them I have developed a sense of empathy for and even respect, which some of them deserve in my opinion, because the fact that they're willing to laugh is in my opinion a sign that they've devolped respect or at least empathy for men. There is a difference between men and women when it comes to this fetish because women are by default of nature the natural dominants when it comes to this activity, however some of them have proven they have empathy and risen above it. Even though they cannot feel the mans pain when it comes to this, some of them still laugh, meaning that every time I have ever watched a mf or ff video, every time that a woman has lold at my touch in the past, it has been of her own will. Even if they do it for self gain a lot of the time e.g. money (in videos) it's still nice to know in my opinion that some of them are decent enough to actually be willing to be submissive and pretend to be ticklish even though they're not (I still respect / empathize with them and appreciate them if they do it for money, its fair exchange and they deserve money for laughing while being tickled on video, it still requires effort for them to take time out of their day to do it). I can't imagine how empty my life would have been if I'd never had the good times with tickle porn. I'd be a far more miserable person today if it wasn't for porn. At the same time I feel that women need to take value in the fact that this activity is somthing that requires exra sympathy for men, and personally I think i could tolerate being a Lee as long as I also get to ler when it's my turn even though I know its fake, it still feels good in my mind. In a way it makes it better , because it's like telling reality to go fuck itself. My fantasy was to be with a woman that shares my ticklishness, god has made women not ticklish, but some women still let me live out my fantasy by playing Lee / loling by choice and giving me the feeling of being a ler. In one way, when you get this knowledge you realize that no women are lees, but at the same time you realize that all women are lees, if you get what I'm saying, any of them can be a Lee if they want to be, they can consciously decide to be a lee. To the women out there that act in these videos, I am extremely greatful for these in ways I cannot possibly explain. I dont even think all men are ticklish, or at least some of them are barely ticklish, but I know from what I've figured out using science and even just the feeling in my head, that women are not ticklish without deliberarley laughing on a whole. This may seem depressing at first but the more you think about it the more you realize how much a female Lee is a person that doesn't really get credit for how cool she is. If it wasn't for these women, I'd have never seen a woman be ticklish in my entire life, but because of porn I've seen it no end of times. But not just because of porn , also because of the surprising good nature of what appears to be a lot of women. At the same time I feel its somewhat unfair that tickling isn't really addressed as potentially abusive a lot of the time and also it seems weird to me that why has a scientist not figured this out yet? This is Somthing that is unique to men with and its not even common knowledge that its only men that go through it. Even though I'm extremely greatful for all of the women lees (and when I say Lee I dont mean a woman that neccisarily acts ticklish all of the time, even if its just one time it still counts) I think that women still need to be sympathetic to some degree with men when it comes to tickling because they really dont know how bad it can be. If you're going to tickle a man I dont think its much to ask just to laugh if he tickles you back. It doesn't even matter if he knows you're laughing deliberately, if anything he'll just appreciate you more. Personally I think I'm done with relationships even though my experiences with women in the past have mostly not been negative, I'm just happy with porn and women dont throw themselves at me anyway and I CBA to out of my way to try to impress them. When it comes to the fake thing, yes women's ticklish reaction is fake, but that is what makes women so awesome, cos if it wasn't for them I wouldnt have all the good memories and experiences I've had of being a ler or watching porn with women tickling each other (f/f is always the best IMO) I dont know how many men or even women are aware of this I just find it strange that its not common knowledge? If you are a female reading this that is a lee, my message to you as a man is I really appreciate that there are women out their like you, but please take some sympathy in the fact that some men can find being tickled unpleasant and unless youve experienced being truly ticklish, then you really have no idea how bad it can be. if you lol if he tickles you back if you've already tickled him I think that stops most or all of the bad feelings at least for me. Anyone else had any similar experiences? I hope this helps anyone that is cofused about reality like I used to be. Peace.

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booker-and-boo · 7 years

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Yo so I took these questions from @exspiravitae and probably gonna use my Worgen Rogue Denewulf.

What are your character’s most recurring conflicts, internally and externally? Why are they recurring? Does your character respond to these conflicts the same time, and if so, are they getting tired of doing so? If they respond differently, why?

Denewulf’s biggest conflict externally his relationship with people in a broader, more general sense. Which actually correlates into his internal conflict: his morality. Denewulf is -for lack of a better term- an asshole, making him prone to pissing a lot of people off and at the worst times edging others into fighting him when he’s shitfaced. Denewulf’s early life wasn’t exactly pretty, therefore he’s harnessed and weaponized that fueling hatred towards the world and made armour out of apathy towards others emotions and values. Though yes, he does have some friends; Denewulf is mostly alone and prefers the company of shadows compared to the company of others. Somthing his new found friends -which were unwilling on his part- have learned to simply accept. For the most part in how Denewulf reacts and responds to these conflicts, it is indeed at the same time. And quite frankly, after the events that had transpired in Mists of Pandaria and seeing the damage on a physical level, it’s left Denewulf shamed and at least attempting to mend his ways. He’s still an asshole, but he’s slowly growing to be an asshole with a heart. Denewulf knows he can’t do a full 180 degree turn around and be this happy go lucky guy, that’s simply not his way and hasn’t been his way since he was at the age of 12. He’s also damn near his 40′s so that’s also taking it’s toll on him.

Who has most greatly influenced your character without their knowledge? (Not necessarily in an intentionally manipulative way, but who helped shape them into what they are now without your character realizing them to be the source?) How has this person’s influence made itself manifest in your character?

Actually, this is most likely going to be both Talmoren and Zyten. Talmoren is the stranger of the two men who have managed to greatly influence the old wolf, as Talmoren is part of the exact thing he hates. The Scourge and all things associated to that. Though Denewulf never experienced the events of Wrath, Denewulf has had enough experiences with a part that came from The Scourge. Sylvanas and her Forsaken. However;Talmoren has managed to make the Worgen lessen some of his hatred towards Death Knight’s somewhat. Either that or he just tolerates Talmoren. On the other hand, Zyten is definitely a powerful influence as Zyten expresses much of the lost morality that Denewulf lacks. Zyten is compassionate and warrior with a heart of gold. The Warrior just met Denewulf once, got into a fight with him, and hasn’t left him alone since then. Which is honestly a good thing, as Denewulf has actually picked up a few things from the younger man than he would have picked up on his own. Growing up with the idea that the world is a terible place full of assholes, Zyten’s look at it is more on the lines of; “we need to save these people because it’s the right thing to do.” However, Zyten is still willing to beat the absolute piss out of some Horde, to which Denewulf understands that language much easier than the former. Denewulf’s definitely still an ass, but with Zyten’s help, he’s begun to put others lives before his own -as Denewulf is rather selfish- and typically doesn’t put any hidden motives behind them. He normally does it because it’s just engrained that this is right, and this is how it should be. Though he’s not as brash and quick to act as Zyten is; Denewulf impliments these things into his own character and skills. Honing them and almost becoming a sort of...unsung hero from the shadows of sorts? Without much of the in game story?

Is there any one aspect of your character that most prominently defines them: their status as a parent, a monarch, a peasant, a scientist? How does this aspect bleed into their other statuses?

Denewulf’s definitely one of those characters that while he does bad things, he does them because they are necessary and can play a part in seeing the much bigger picture. He’s not going to do something simply because it’s what he wants, or to see what it’ll get him in the end. Denewulf’s learned a lot from when he was an orphan and running the streets of Gilneas stealing morsels of bread to just survive. To say how everything’s bled into other aspects of his life; Denewulf is first and foremost a killer. It’s a language he knows and deals well with. If it’s got coin and doesn’t involve stupidly high risks? He’ll take it. And much of his wisdom has come from the many instances in which he’s fucked up and found himself in an unwanted situation. Whether that makes him better or not is debatable, but Denewulf isn’t there to beat around the bush or rush into any mission because someone else wants it done now.

For other areas and statuses; it’s important to understand that Denewulf originally became a willing Worgen in Ralaar’s Wolfcult. Even to this day Denewulf doesn’t view his affliction as a curse, but, instead sees it as a blessing. In his line of work and lifestyle in general, it’s good to have keen senses, and being a Worgen makes you acutely more aware of things than you would be as a human. He’s accepted his gift and uses it to his advantage with greed and a lust to fulfill whatever desires he has. Even killing a few unknowing Forsaken should he stumble upon them.

What is, in your opinion, their most reprehensible flaw? Why is that, and not any other flaw, the worst? Who would they be without it?

Vindictive. Denewulf is incredibly vindictive amongst many of his other flaws. However, this one actually takes the cake. First and foremost; it should be noted that Denewulf’s father gave him up to the Orphanage in Gilneas when his mother died in childbirth. Denewulf for the longest time could not and still hasn’t let go of that pulsating hatred towards his sire, even when he has already brutally maimed him and his new wife in cold blood during the Worgen Assult on Gilneas during Cataclysm. Amongst other relationships gone horribly wrong, the one with his father is the most prominent, as Denewulf still is broiling in rage and hatred. But at the same time, he gets weirded out by seeing others having these good, healthy and happy relationships with other people. With Denewulf having no idea about what it’s like, he tends to get more closed off and reserved than normal when he sees parents and their children being close and happy. Sometimes getting full blown seething with anger that he needs to walk off and cool down. I’d say his vindictive personality takes the cake, simply because of the fact it’s what drives him to fucking murder peoples asses in the worst means imaginable. And he doesn’t care if a 2-8 year old is watching. He will fucking murder your ass if you wrong him in any way. To be frank? Denewulf even without his vindictive flaw is and would still be an absolute asshole. He’ll just be less prone to murdering in horrible ass ways? Sooo...-wait. No. Yeah he’d still murder some poor guys ass in some horrendous fashion.

What was the defining moment for your character; what choice did they make that has most heavily influenced their current situation? If they could go back and make a different choice, would they? What would change for them if they did?

Definitely a defining moment was when Denewulf made his first murder. Had it not been for Denewulf feeling wronged and with a desire to impose his possessiveness over the woman he had fallen in love with in his younger years? Denewulf would have never learned how skilled he was at killing men in cold blood. Though he was still inexperienced and never killed anything before, Denewulf wanted to make a statement and learned that he had skills and lacked all sense of a moral and honorable code. It’s actually a driving part of what made him who he is today, and another reason that lead him to become a Worgen in Ralaar’s Wolfcult. He knew he could do it, and wanted to do it again to one person in particular. His father. To be honest? Denewulf would have still done it. Though I think if he hadn’t, nothing much would have changed. Just that his ex-lover would be married to someone else.

What is their favorite flavor of pudding?

He’s never actually had pudding, but he screams a Butterscoth type guy to me. (Totes not because I love that pudding NOPE)

#Writen things #Read if ya want #In depth character analysis #Denewulf #I almost used Talmoren...might do another one another time.

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