#it's heartbreaking and i'm so fucking here for it

[dreaming-of-lu]

cause it's me birfday eue decided to spoil myself with the soulmates au. A special surprise at the end 👀

Time

Normally, one would scream at the sight of a vast, wide open field of grass rather than their room being the first sight to see when waking up,

"Did I fucking die?" instead was the first thing that came out of your mouth. The wind was cool against your skin, lightly ruffling your bed mess hair. Miles around was knee high grass, no trees or civilization around. Just the green grass of mother earth and the blue skies with clouds that looked straight out of Ghibli movie.

"I died, didn't I?"

"I wouldn't necessarily say that-" a short yelp left your lips at the sudden voice appearing next to your ear. You scrambled back in shock, stumbling over yourself to get away from the mysterious, possibly stranger danger. Your eyes landed on the man that somehow happened to quietly sneak up on you, your words caught in your throat at the sight of him.

Long pointy ears, shoulder-length blonde hair, red and blue markings that framed his face, low brows lightly furrowed and...his right eye is shut due to a scar overlining it. Though his remaining eye made your breath hitched due to how blue it was,

"Yeah, I'm dead."

A soft snort left him before clearing his throat, "I promise you aren't, what is your name?"

"I-," you made a face at him, "why should I trust you?"

He lift his hand, pinching his arm that made your own sting, "Ow!"

"Because I am your soulmate."

First

The night seemed endless due to how long it was dragging on. With the ailed fragments of sleep begging for him to close his eyes, yet they held wide open to the stars of the night.

'Can't sleep, handsome?' their voice was like warm water drifting around him in a bath after a long day of hard work. A pleased, tired sigh left his lips, making his muscles eased from the tension his body felt. He weakly smiles to himself,

'Not without you by my side, that is.' The light snort that they gave him had his smile become more genuine, and heart pounding against his chest. The soft flush of heat burned his cheeks and neck as they softly laughed at his comment,

'Ever so the heartbreaker, my love,' they lightly teased.

'Maybe to others,' he huffs, 'though to you, my sweet, I shall carry it carefully as if it's a precious gem throughout the land, even when I meet you. It'll still be beside me.'

It's suddenly quiet, causing him to worry and flustered that he might've said something wrong to them. Only to hear a soft sniffle, 'That's...that's the sweetest, sappiest thing any one had said to me. You're too cute.'

His ears wiggled in delight. Goddesses, he felt like a school girl due to how giddy and mushy he felt, 'I'll shower you in them till you melt in them, my heart.'

They tearfully laughed, 'Okay, sap bucket, try and get some sleep, hmm?'

'Stay with me until I do?'

'Always, my darling.'

Drac

"Why this?" You blinked up from your book at the platinum blonde that took his place next to you on the sofa in the parlor room. He wasn't wearing the normal day to day werewolf shawl, instead, fortaking the shawl and adventuring attire to comfortable clothes to lounge around in. It seemed Aryll was put to sleep easily, since her moans and groans of pain used to distill the air of the house they both reside in.

The chain soft snores in the other room was definitely one to be jealous of due to how easily they knocked out. Though, you can't bring yourself to be angry too much, since the beds were soft enough to ease any ailments they might've felt throughout the day.

You shut the book, placing it aside on the table next to the sofa before turning your attention to him, "why what? did something happen?"

He gives you a flat look, grumbling lightly as he rolled his left sleeve to reveal dark ink marked upon his pale skin. He nods his head to it, "we share the same marks."

You stared wide eyed at the ink that lined his thick forearm; vines rolled around in swirls, flowers with fairies splattered here and there. The same picture that lined your own,

"I-I uhm-"

"While I don't mind the pretty ink, however, getting side eyed for it is not one that I want to deal with," He raised a brow at the shock silence that overcame your form.

"I...I think we're...yanno...soulmates?" you give him a sheepish look, grimacing when his stare hardens.

"...Well, that explains it," he leans backwards in the seat, "...could've chose a different place for it though."

"Asshole," you puffed, "I wanted something pretty to make me feel a little more confident and-"

You squeaked when his hand cupped your chin, he carefully maneuver you in laying position. His other hand came right down next to your head as his body hovered over you, he lowered his face, letting his lips ghost against yours. Gosh, was his eyes always this intense?

He smirked, "is this your way of saying we're married?"

"...you ass."

He snickers.

#.bea's writing #lu x reader #linked universe x reader #link x reader #lu time x reader #lu first x reader #linksona x reader #linksona drac x reader #soulmates au

[harlowhockeystick]

i present to you, straight from the tortured poets department...poetic prompts written by the chairman herself.

⎯ send in any one of these poetic prompts, no more than two at a time please, and i will give you a gut wrenching, heart breaking, life giving, fresh air breathing blurb...just as the chairman intended.

sincerely, writer for the tortured poets department anthology specialist

fornight - "i love you, it's ruining my life"

the tortured poets department - "sometimes i wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me"

my boy only breaks his favorite toys - "he was my best friend"

down bad - "fuck it, i was in love"

so long, london - "you'll find someone"

but daddy i love him - "me and my wild boy, and all this wild joy"

fresh out the slammer - "i will never lose my baby again"

florida!!! - "love left me like this and i don't want to exist"

guilty as sin? - "without ever touching his skin, how can i be guilty as sin?"

who's afraid of little old me? - "so tell me everything is not about me"

i can fix him (no really i can) - "trust me, i can handle a dangerous man"

loml - "you said i'm the love of your life, about a million times"

i can do it with a broken heart - "you gotta fake it til you make it"

the smallest man who ever lived - "i don't miss what we had"

the alchemy - "he just comes running over to me"

clara bow - "you're the real thing"

the black dog - "i don't understand how you don't miss me"

imgonnagetyouback - "i can tell when someone wants me"

the albatross - "i'd visit in your dreams"

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus - "if you want to break my cold heart, say you loved me"

how did it end? - "but i still don't know, how did it end?"

so high school - "you knew what you wanted, and boy you got her"

i hate it here - "i'm bitter, but i swear i'm fine"

thanK you aIMee - "i can't forgive the way you made me feel"

i look in people's windows - "does it feel alright not to know me?"

the prophecy - "i'm so afraid i sealed my fate"

cassandra - "that's where i was when i lost it all"

peter - "i thought it was just goodbye for now"

the bolter - "oh, we must stop meeting like this"

robin - "you'll learn to bounce back"

the manuscript - "i'm not a donor, but i'd give you my heart if you needed it"

p.s. you can find in my directory, the list roster of different men i'll write poems for. please refer to that only, if you would. here is the link <3 oh, and send your requests here. you may also request from my au list, which is found here. that's all for now. see you when it's time to write about heartbreaking princes and screaming from tall towers.

⎯ j

#I AM SO EXCITED #ttpd prompts #nhl imagine #hockey imagine #bruce wayne #spencer reid #carmen berzatto #rafe cameron #j's writing

[void-of-unparalled-chaos]

Okay so time for me to dump my thoughts on the Underworld Saga because I am going insane and tbh I'm not sure how coherent this will be because my brain is mostly keyboard smashing.

The Shades: "When does a man become a monster? 558 men who died under your command. CAPTAIN! CAPTAIN! CAPTAIN! CAPTAIN! Why would you let the cyclops live when ruthlessness is mercy?"

Okay so the harmonies of the Shades are amazing! But also this whole bit is just so... haunting. The call back to Just a Man and Ruthlessness does something to me. Could you imagine being screamed at by the ghosts of everyone you've failed? Also Jay confirmed that the shades in this song are just repeating their final thoughts in life. They drowned begging for their Captain to help them and died wondering why he failed them. This probably fucked Odysseus UP.

Odysseus: "I keep thinking of the infant from that night. I keep thinking of the infant from that night."

I swear I can hear the PTSD in his voice holy shit. Also Astyanax's music box motif being played in church bells in the back. I never would have noticed it if not for Jay's behind the scenes videos but knowing it's there makes this bit so much better.

Odysseus: "Polities..."

I was not nearly as wrecked at this bit until I saw this post mentioning that Odysseus quiet little "Polities..." is a mirror of Polities strangled "Captain..." when he died and now I will never be the same.

Odysseus' Mom

I am not exaggerating when I say I cried during the watch party. Everything about this is heartbreaking. His mom was thinking about him in her final moments. "Odyssues when you come home I'll be waiting" except she wont be. The shocked defeat in Odysseus' voice with "I took too long...". He's right there in front of her, but her shade just doesn't register him. They are so close physically yet still separated by death. Also the fact that Jay's mom voices her that is so sweet omg.

The change from "Here in the Underworld the past seems close behind" to "But in the Underworld your past is always close behind."

STTAGKDUKFUTAATUFOUCOUXGJXG

THE STRINGS!!!!! AND THE PIANO!!!!

Tiresias' voice is so haunting omg

Mason absolutely NAILED prophet who is constantly being shown everything all the time at one I love it sm.

The lyrics in this song are just.... so good. And the foreshadowing is top notch

Jay's voice acting for Odysseus' is also great in this.

The distress and frustration in "We've suffered and sailed through the toughest of hells. Now you tell us ur efforts are for NOTHING?!" and the absolute anger in "WHO!?!?!" (Its you, Ody. See your about to go through a complete change in morals about 5 minutes from now and become a completely different person).

THE DESCENDING ORGAN FOR THE SECOND CHORUS MY JAW DROPPED

Jorge don't think I didn't notice the Hunchback of Notre Dame, Hellfire, vibes at the end I see you.

This is my favorite song released in Epic so far and I am not normal about it at all.

The GUITAR! THE ELECTRIC GUITAR!

For those unfamiliar and being dragged along this nonsense post, Odysseues character is associated with the guitar. The acoustic guitar is when he is softer, kinder, and more "human" while the electric guitar represents him at his most brutal, ruthless, and "monsterous". This song is his turning point to which he is done being merciful. He will do ANYHTING to get home.

"Oh Ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves..."

Really taking Poseidon's lesson to heart there.

Odysseus: "AND IF I GOTTA DROP ANOTHER INFANT FROM A WALL IN AN INSTANT SO WE ALL DON'T DIE? THEN I'LL BECOME THE MONSTER! I WILL DEAL THE BLOW!... SO WHAT IF I'M THE MONSTER?"

Ayrsgstusigxjgsutaut holy shit holy shit holy shit-

Play this back to back with Just A Man for some psychic damage. What an end for Act 1!

#epic the underworld saga #epic the musical

[htub]

I really like that they made Jor-El speak Kryptonian and Clark unable to understand him. The whole "aliens speak English" thing that happens in every goddamn media has bothered me all my life. Ik sometimes Clark just gets zapped in the brain for insta-second language but that always felt like a cheap shortcut.

Jor-El had a lot on his mind when he set up that magic spaceship okay. The world was ending and he was trying to do as much as he could before time ran out so he could be there for his son. He was rushing. He likely didn't consider Kal would be raised with a whole different language and not know any Kryptonian nor have anyone to teach him.

#my adventures with superman #two talks #he still might get zapped with kryptonian but at least it wasn't immediate #let there be a language barrier #it hits home so hard too bc i barely speak my mom's language and can't really talk to my family members bc of iz #it* #that's what being raised on a different planet IS! It's isolating and sad bc that's your FAMILY and you can't even understand them #fucking love superman #clark is so close and yet so far bc everything he craves to know about himself is Right There #but he doesn't speak the language of his own people and has no way to learn #it's heartbreaking and i'm so fucking here for it

[miss-tribbiani]

I know spider is a bad person but hear me out Amerie can fix him 😔😔😔also enemies to lovers best trope ever fight me about it

#how is he so fine #heartbreak high 2022 #Spider and Amerie #Fuck dusty #I'm not alone here #enemys to lovers #heartbreak high

[toothblushes]

Love seeing people demonize personality disorders on my dash Love it to death. Definitely doesn't boil my blood at all lmao Apparently ableism is totally fine and cool if it's towards people with "unfavorable" symptoms!

#seeing someone who was a mutual of mine reblogging posts that are unashamedly ableist towards cluster b personality disorders had me like #HELLO??? AGREEING WITH THIS RIGHT TO MY FACE??? #like I've come a loooooong fucking way with healing and controlling my “toxic” symptoms #but seeing people treat those with personality disorders as if they can just “get over it” and having tons of people agree with them is jus #heartbreaking to say the least #Like as if people with these disorders are doing it on purpose #fucking wild to me how willing people are to be understanding towards mentally ill people until that mental illness hurts their feelings #sorry to be negative on here but I'm so god damn tired of the hypocrisy lol #tw//ablelism #vent

[dany36]

sigh.

time to finish berseria i think. :(

#junk #tales of berseria #tob #tales of #i have sooo many thoughts about the game now that i've replayed it #AND that i did most of the character sidequests #excluding velvet (i didn't know i had to raise her cooking level lol i never used that function!) #and eizen (yo lv 110 monster while i'm at lv 70?? i killed him once but then he revived and i was like nah i'll grind this later) #magilou's and rokurou's broke my heart as fucking usual #eleanor's was interesting seeing her get so angry and full of malevolence #it's a travesty that i missed them the first time but honestly i just wanted to know what was going to happen in the end #it's insane how much they explain in the sidequests #especially magilou's (it's always the goofy characters that have the most heartbreaking/fucked up ones huh?? see: zelos) #i'm in the final level now i'm not ready for the ending credits to roll and see the life velvet could have had #here come the tears i guess!!!!! #top 5 fave games for sure

[chiyoso]

#— Whispers Against The Void •• #i'm so tired actually #exhausted. so exhausted. #no but why does the thought of engaging in tumblr again so dreadful rn #writing has become more of a poison for me these past few weeks #i dont mind the silence and the less and lessening activity of my blog. pretty sure i can garner lots of shit again if i post something #but what if i wanna be the requester rn. what if i have ideas i cannot execute but i know others can? #what if i wanna entrust my ideas to someone else rn #gods its- what happened? where did my spirits and eagerness go? how and when did tumblr and writing become so poisonous for me #my priorities are all over the place and im not even on the list myself #if wanderer was here rn looking at me- hes be shitting his pants at first with pity then have this hidden heartbreak with the sight of me #im actually scared of shitposting again like before #or posting anything at all #haah fuck #'happy' new year people 🥰

[dimension-20-every-introduction]

Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20′s A Court of Fey and Flowers episode 5

#dimension 20 spoilers #acofaf #dimension 20 #acofaf spoilers #d20 introductions #MY GOD MY FUCKING GOD I WAS GOING IN. SANE. ALL THROUGHOUT THAT EPISODE #the plays..... the EMOTIONS......... the CHARACTER MOMENTS #GOOD LORD. #we got to see binx and rue bonding and the moment of trust..... and even though rue's kind of a jerk sometimes (which i LOVE) theyre FRIENDS #i'm so. i'm so #the peonies. the Peonies. #the PEONIES......... #continuing to go insane as we SPEAK #that FUCKING heartbreaking moment with Hob..... i was CURLING. god oh my god oh my god oh my godddddd #(where's the fanfic of the way that scene COULD have turned out. dm me on here or main i don't care i have Needs) #(if you find it i mean) #that fuckin SIBLING MOMENT WITH ANDHERA #god i was HOWLING #hold on i have to say i have to say #like the way the players were fidgeting and like quietly reacting and shaking each other i have NEVER spiritually felt more watching d20 eps #i was Roiling in my seat i was OUT of my seat pacing around i don't even watch regency things and this had me ACTING A CERTAIN WAY. #but yeah that moment of just sending suntar off in the OPPOSITE DIRECTION and then andhera PROCEEDING to do the secretly noble thing #i'm just. this is so much #this is SO much #rue got a bit overshadowed towards the end there but that's okay because the character momentssssss had me FULLY rapt #also i should note while i'm archiving this ep- Each and every art we see repeated of rue is now ONLY of them in their regular owlbear form #including the little headshot we see introducing Oscar the player and Rue the character at the very start of the episode! #i wouldn't be surprised if all art of them from here on out (INCLUDING new outfits!!) will also be them in owlbear form

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

You would never have had Tom Petty without The Heartbreakers. The proper accreditation and distinction between Tom Petty's solo work and Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers' work is vitally important.

To credit Tom Petty alone for songs that were not only arranged but also often co-written by members of The Heartbreakers (sometimes even singularly; there were plenty of instances where Tom was not really involved with the arrangement of the songs at all, and all he wrote were the lyrics) is to refuse to acknowledge the band as a working, necessary unit.

Linda Ronstadt said it better than I could, though:

I loved Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers the best, because they really were a band. Their songs and their arrangements are so good. They sounded exactly like they did on record because their arrangements put it so that everybody was flying in the same airspace. They weren’t competing with each other. They sound like a garage band on stage, but a good garage band.

#Tom Petty #Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers #forever the hill I am passing away on #it's fine. I'm fine with it. I'm here for a reason. that's good enough for me. #I know I said Tom often wasn't involved in the songs' arrangements at all and then only linked to one song as proof but #to be fucking fair that song was motherfucking ''Refugee'' which was and still is one of their GREATEST FUCKING HITS OF ALL TIME #so LMAO TELL ME TOM DESERVES ALL THE CREDIT. LIE TO MY FACE!!!!!!!!!!! DO IT. #I honestly wrote this with the intention of periodically reblogging this. lmao

[talentforlying]

constantine: the bayou, i'm tellin' you... it's this... this feverish place... it's like chaos... and then right in the middle you've got this... this creative intelligence... and look, i know i sound like a right hippy bellend but — maybe he's got the right idea, eh? it's about harmony, innit? not taming the wild but... dancing with it... putting down roots of the spirit and — and — ARTFUL GREENS GOLF CLUB.

the fucking gasp i let out.

#hellblazer spoilers / #hellblazer spoilers #dead in america spoilers / #dead in america spoilers #hellblazer dead in america spoilers / #hellblazer dead in america spoilers #( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #OH MY FUCKING GOD THEY TURFED SWAMP THING #THEY MOWED THE MAN I'M????????? #this is simultaneously the funniest thing i've ever seen and the most heartbreaking what have they DONE #also this?? bayou monologue?? man was SO relieved to have a safety net. he was SO happy to be here. and then GOLF

[atlantablack]

Nancy Wheeler is so much more than Steve and Jonathan and who she's going to end up with at the end of season 5 like !!!!! you know what who cares about Steve (me but that's not important), who cares about Jonathan (also me but ignore that), in fact even Robin doesn't matter in this particular case

I don't care who Nancy's endgame love interest is!!!!! it doesn't matter!!!!!! you know ?? i want to know if she forgives herself for Barb, how severely she crushes everyone else at Berkley, if she forgives herself for Fred because you know some part of her blames herself for losing sight of him, I want to know how she feels about Eddie dying and about her little brother always on the front lines of every goddamn fight!!!!

I just think that's she so much more than who she wants to kiss and distilling her story arc down to that is such a disservice to her and she deserves battle hymns being written about her not love sonnets

#st #nancy wheeler #atlanta rambles #i'm just having a lot of goddamn emotions #been sitting on this draft since November #but you know it's not just canon that does this to her #it's the fandom too #and y'all loveeeeee to act like it's allll on the Duffer brothers #but it !!!! isn't!!!! #it's always about her relationship with robin or steve or jonathan #or how it's her fault (when it isn't) that something happened #it's never jUST about her #and it makes me so tired #like all her relationship troubles with jonathan in s4 are somehow either proof that she's the problem or proof of ronance #or proof of stancy #and y'all can come for me but i'm fucking right #it's never just about how goddamn complicated her life is and her trauma (which she has LOADS of thanks) #she is *so much more* than that #and i'm so tired of people acting otherwise #y'all turned steve into your heartbreak prince and the duffer brothers love a little fanservice so here we are with this weird ass #plot in s4 toward stancy #anyways excuse me while i go like #start my fic where she runs the fuck off and leaves it all behind #which is clown behavior for me specifically but i gotta do it

[paopuofhearts]

it's almost like the only option is dividing things further black and white then just going hardcore to an extreme.

like.

i spent all day yesterday cutting off friends and blogs of people i love in my native community because of the excessive call for violence as the answer to decolonization, maintaining nuance but only for one side and saying fuck all to everything and everyone else.

but then today.

the number of jewish friends and blogs i've had to unfollow because people are doubling down on "hamas bombed a fucking hospital" when there's clear evidence that isn't true and it's propaganda to perpetuate cycles of violence?

fucking horrifying.

#like as someone from a native background and someone working to convert it's just #heartbreaking and frustrating to feel absolutely abandoned by both sides #simply because pointing out israel is built on a settler-colonial stance even if jewish people aren't settlers and colonizers #because they are indigenous to the area #gets me beat to the ground in native circles because it means i support netanyahu and gver and genocide #and i get the same fucking condescending look of 'you shouldnt talk' from liberal jewish groups that are all for saying zionism is a diseas #and yes they agree as jewish people that they are white and israel is white supremacist like #like i'm sorry the fucking whiplash of what the absolute fuck #but then pointing out that palestinians are being mass murdered and their response is clearly understandable #and israel is purposely using this shit to perpetuate genocide #all of a sudden i'm a fucking hypocrite to both sides #and my poor fucking husband is standing here like 'yes thats what you get for being clearly aware and wanting nonviolence' #how dare i not stand solely with israel #how dare i not demand only free palestine #people are just so fucking toxic and caught up in their own opinions being the only opinions and nuance being a fucking crime for condemnin #as if talking about this shit does anything! people are dying on both sides - one clearly more than the other - and what #you truly think attacking people that aren't specifically nodding along in blind support is really the thing that'll change the world #also saw a thing today that was like “being an ally means i will fight for you” like fuck that #but that's a different thing anyway #anyway i hate both my communities and feel absolutely isolated from them and wow #community just really isn't a thing unless you're ride or die without speaking up about anything huh

[datastate]

kai just makes my heart hurt so much TT_TT not just for the whole tragedy that is 'growing up under asunaro's ruling' but more so the ways in which he reclaimed life for himself. he always regarded life highly enough such that he found killing or otherwise manipulating it to be cruelty, but he never found himself a personal connection to it until the chidouins - where even then, he was so accustomed to asunaro's appearances (with ulterior motives) and his own self-loathing (though he'd done it to survive) that he couldn't imagine the affection they put forth as genuine. but as he began to recognize that and question why they thought of him this way, he found parts of himself that cared and still starved for connection and purpose. for those first few months/year, being cast out of asunaro was worse punishment than being executed because he was not only witness to normal lives while he felt aimless and isolated from the constants he once had, but these people trusted him and he knew he would be ordered to betray them when the time came. but as years passed, he began to feel more comfortable with them. it was easier to slip into that front built from what good they had identified in him, and it. began to feel less as if he was forcing it... he genuinely began to care about them and it was evident in how he went out of his way to help them or comfort them - even if he didn't have all the words, he could listen. he found small passions and hobbies and creative endeavors which he no longer had to justify with practical reasons to indulge. he began to realize who he is and although he grieved the fact he was never given the chance to truly have a life of normalcy, this is the closest he will ever get and he can cherish it on most days. he knows he'll trade it all if it meant protecting the chidouins, shielding them from the darkness that asunaro carries, but as it is... he began to recover.

#i'm so fucking saddd i can't even get it all into words #it's just. it really really gets to me the yts ending especially where the chidouins are still important to him - they'll always be - #but he manages to move on and find something he's passionate about with people he can consider friends and #just finally being able to let himself live and it won't change the past or anything he's done #but he's finally allowed to fully grieve and accept that and move on and Live #he's spent so long protecting the lives of others and he finally is allowed to Live #i just... cannot express how heartbreaking and comforting that is all at once... #he makes me so emotional... i have just been thinking a lot about it lately ahh... #might crosspost some thoughts here... #jestersvaguely #yttdposting #yttd meta

[wizardlyghost]

this fucking course is such bullshit the damn online test thing just tested me for an entirely different topic (that i was unable to access), nitpicked my wording for no reason (i entered "safety/cut resistant gloves". the 'correct' answer? "gloves". ffs.), and marked me as wrong on one question bc whoever built the shitty 3d section of the test made the mistake THAT THE TEST IS SUPPOSED TO BE TEACHING US NOT TO MAKE. IN A 3D MODEL NOT EVEN A REAL BUILDING CHRIST ON A STICK. the human instructor is fucking amazing but this new online-based curriculum is shitty and half-assed as fuck.

#i am minorly disappointed i didn't do this before this year but SUPER glad i didn't leave it any later #the impression i get is that they're trying to semi-automate the course to be Hip and With It and also cut back on staffing costs maybe #but the people doing it don't have any fucking clue what they're doing when it comes to computer systems #so half of it's broken and they're like outsourcing a bunch of it to fucking youtube instructables i wish i was joking here #and you have to enroll in each topic individually but some topics reference others so if you have one but not the other you're fucked #and you can't just enroll in all of them the instructor has to open enrolment individually & give you the password for that window #this is a trade we're studying for btw it's hands on stuff that should be taught by humans who you can ask questions #and i'm super lucky that my instructor is actually good at his job but oh my god #the secondhand shame in this man's eyes every time something stupid breaks on the website. heartbreaking.

[skrunksthatwunk]

not rascal's deadbeat owner coming around when im not home and telling my roommate she's taking him for a week (our break is 4 weeks or so, implying he's gonna be back here even though That's Her Cat Not Ours) and then just picking up the new toys i bought for him and taking them with her without even asking. hey. hi. those are mine

#like yes i want rascal to use them so he can be happy and fulfilled but also i dont fucking trust you #she didnt even ask. i wasnt even AROUND and she just yoinked them #she also took the new litter box my roomie got for him bc the old one was so caked in shit that 20 mins in a powerful sink didnt even #change it. like bedrock-hard cat shit. who fucking knows how old that was bc they never clean or empty it. fucks sake #and obv he needs a litter box and my roomie threw the old one away bc again it was Unsalvageably And Hazardously Filthy #like we could get sick he could get sick. get a grip #but like i dont wanna be feeding her replacements for her stuff she doesn't take care of over and over #just burning money trying to make rascal's life a Little better bc again our control over his situation is limited bc hes literally her cat #it's so frustrating. like i waited a full month to get him new toys bc i didn't know how long this situation was gonna last and i dont have #cats and cant have them for a while (not that this is stopping me oops) so it's not like the toys'll be used w me #like if she decided to up and drop him at a shelter like she'd planned less than a couple months ago I'd be sittjng in a pile of cat stuff #but he needs more stuff yknow. theyre not providing for him and i have the means to atm. and just when i bite the bullet and surprise him #with a bunch of new things he was SO excited about she swoops in without warning and takes him #god. my roommate told me he just froze up when his owner came in..and he looked so pissed about it #having to go back and leave us and leave all his fun new stuff to go back to the room where they cant even bother to feed him regularly #much less play with him or take care of him #it's heartbreaking. it's such a delicate situation im trying to move carefully so we don't lose him completely but it's so frustrating going #slow. ughhghhgh AND THEYRE ALWAYS LIKE man he's so much nicer to y'all. MAYBE IT'S BC WE TREAT HIM WELL. CRAZY THOUGHT I KNOW #fucking. i love that little man this sucks for him so bad. trying to get him back for a couple days while im here but no response yet #and my roommate's staying on campus over break so she's gonna show up as soon as that week's over like I'm Here For Rascal. Your Time Is Up. #rauguhhhhh sorry if these rascal vent posts are a downer guys. it's just. god dude. fucking hell #i know this is a stupid situation i have gotten myself into i know it's stupid to try and finagle someone's pet from them BUT SHES ABUSIVE #AND SUPER LIKE. INDIFFERENT?? AND APATHETIC ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT THE PPL SHE DUMPS HIM ON CARE FOR HIM WELL OR NOT. AGH #sighhhh. whatever. gotta focus on tmr's exam and then i can complain about rascal some more. #i get she prolly thinks it's a team effort but the only reason we take her stuff is bc we didn't have a cat and werent planning on it #ggggghhzgzzjzjkkzkzkkzkk. grinding my teeth