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Under the same sky (SayaMilky AU)

“Happy 3rd anniversary.”

Sayanee whispered to Milky’s ear while both sitting side by side with their body touched on the rooftop, looking at the vast dark sky and its countless stars. “I love you.”

“I love you too.”

A memory that will be forever in Milky’s mind.

A memory.

“Hey, so we got some work to do this afternoon.” Said Yuihan her best friend, her class mate and her partner for the drama show their university theater team will held in 3 months.

“We got to send this proposal to potential sponsor…are you listening to me” she asked, knowing that Milky hadn’t move a bit since she sat down in the chair next to the girl.

“Ah, sorry what did you say?”

“What is it?” Yuihan glanced at Milky’s phone.

Milky didn’t want to answer it at first.

“Sayanee?” Yuihan guessed.

“Someone tagged me in a post with her.”

“Who’s that motherfucking insensitive bastard?” Yuihan took the phone from Milky’s hand and check it herself. It was her girlfriend, Haruka.

“Oh…umm…I’ll tell her later if I meet her.”

Milky just shook her head lightly.

“She looks happy now.” Milky said.

A silent crept between the two girls for a while.

“Well, you are happy too, aren’t you?”

“Yes. It’s just…it’s nice to see her achieving her dreams.”

That was what Milky said, but Yuihan could see clearly the emptiness in her best friend’s eyes.

Milky suddenly changed the topic to the drama show. Yuihan explained about it once again without questioning or mentioning anything about it again and they went to finish their duty after eating.

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Paruru visited Yuihan in her apartment late in the night. She also had quite a lot of things that day but she wanted to eat some late-night snack with Yuihan so, she came.

“Why did you tag Milky and Sayanee together? You know how Milky feels about the breakup still, right?” Yuihan confronted Paruru when they were sitting face to face in front of the gyudon, Yuihan’s favorite food, and melon bread, Paruru’s favorite.

“I know. But Sayanee is my friend just as Milky is your friend.”

Yuihan looked at Paruru confused.

“I know how she feels.” Paruru added.

“You got me lost here.”

“Sayanee did it all for Milky.”

It had been 2 years or so since Milky and Sayanee broke up. It was not a nice one if one had to say. Sayanee had betrayed Milky. At least that was how Milky knew it. Then, Sayaka went away, far away to the place that she always wanted. Milky didn’t really know about this because there were no more ‘they’ for them. It had been Sayanee or Milky since.

Milky’s heart was broken, that is for sure.

She never heard anything about Sayanee after. For the longest time, her life felt empty. But as people always say, time is the cure. Slowly but sure, Milky felt okay. Terribly okay, in fact.

But she never thought that it would feel like a lightning struck when she saw or heard her name again. She didn’t know why. It was just like that.

And what about Sayanee?

Sayanee betrayed Milky, it was true. She made it that way. Because she realized that if she kept being with Milky that time, they could never achieve their dream. With a bit of a selfish thought, she decided to make as if she didn’t love Milky anymore. So, she could get away. Just a few months after their third anniversary.

She made it.

There was this sort of relieve at first. Then she felt sad. Milky was everything to her. The sadness, she couldn’t explain. But she had decided and she determined. She thought that she’ll comeback after she settled herself. Although she was not sure if Milky will be alone by that time, but she thought that she needed to take the risk. For both of them.

Paruru knew about this, even though not from the start. Sayanee only told a fragment of her side of story to Paruru after they ended up having a conversation where Sayanee had no other choice but to tell her best friend about it.

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Sayanee was playing a mobile game while lying on her couch when Milky came and bring some foods for her. Something that she did sometimes when Sayanee’s parents were not home. Milky put the big plastic bag with two meals for their dinner on the table.

She approached the older girl and sat at the space beside Sayanee’s leg. She looked at her girlfriend who was still focused on her phone.

“Am I just gonna be here watching you for hours?” she asked.

“What? Of course, no.” Answered Sayanee quick. She let her right hand off of her phone so that she could see Milky’s face. “Come here.” she grinned and tapped the small space left beside her body telling Milky to lie down with her.

Milky moved her body heavily as if she didn’t want to do it. Meanwhile Sayanee getting her right arm ready as Milky’s arm pillow. She then pulled the eyesmile girl closed to her body. Wrapped her tight.

“My baby.” Sayanee said.

Milky also wrapped her arms around her girlfriend’s body and felt her warmth as she hugged her.

“I told you to just come here first then we can order from here.”

“It will cost us a delivery fee while I can just get the food on my way here.”

Sayanee gave her small girlfriend a peck on her forehead.

“Let’s play together. You tap this button when I tell you, okay?”

Milky didn’t say yes, but she played along.

“Tap! Tap! No, no, no.”

Sayanee screamed and they were laughing together.

They lost the game.

“Did you tap it wrongly on purpose? Huh? Answer me honestly miss.”

Milky smirked and sticked her tongue out a little.

“You…you have to give me a kiss as punishment.” Sayanee pushed her lips to Milky’s direction.

“Aaaa….” Milky looked away and tried to hold her girlfriend’s body with all of her strength from getting closer. But Sayanee was strong and managed to kiss Milky slightly on the cheek.

“Next time, I’m gonna aim for your lips.” Sayanee teased. She fixed her position.

Milky did the same.

“Anyway, what are going to do after this? After school, I mean.” Sayanee asked when they were already in a comfortable position.

That question got Milky think a little. She didn’t really know what she wanted to be but there was one thing she always sure about. She wanted to go far away from home to continue her study. She wanted to know how it feels to miss home.

“Let’s go together.” Sayanee said.

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“Hey, Milky...Are you listening to me?”

That brought Milky back to her sense.

“Oh, sorry. What is it, Kei?”

Years passed and they were all graduated from university. Milky got her job, so did Sayanee. She got a pretty good position in the place she lived.

“Are you spacing out again? I see that you do that a lot lately.” Kei, Milky’s co-worker, was seriously concerned about her.

“I just, I got some stuffs in my mind now.” She replied.

“What is it? There’s a company dinner this evening.”

“Can I skip it? I feel a little bit dizzy.”

Milky naturally hated crowd, but that day her head felt heavier than usual indeed. She just wanted to go home early and sleep. Kei understood and she told their boss that Milky might have to skip it this time.

Meanwhile, on the other side, Sayanee was back in town. She called Paruru for a meet up. Paruru was with Yuihan by the time Sayanee called her. That evening, the three ended up having coffee together in a café near Paruru’s workplace.

They were talking and talking. Mostly the two best friends, catching up things.

“So, how’s Milky?” Sayanee looked at Yuihan all of sudden.

“She’s…” in her mind, Yuihan wanted to be angry at Sayanee. She wanted to ask her a bunch of questions about why she did what she did.

“She’s great!” she said at last.

“Is she with someone right now?”

“Are you?”

“I’m coming back for her.”

Yuihan just couldn’t believe what she heard. Although she knew quite a bit of it from Paruru, but hearing that sentence coming out from Sayanee herself, she couldn’t help but wondering how it seemed so easy for her. Like, there was nothing wrong and there’s never a heart that’s broken.

“I personally prefer that you never comeback.” Yuihan voiced out her opinion without thinking about what Sowon would think of her. By that time, her phone rang.

A call from Milky.

“Yuihan, can you pick me up? I’m not feeling good.” Milky said over the phone.

“What happened? Where are you?”

“I just feel a little dizzy. I’m outside my office now.”

“Okay, just stay where you are. Don’t go anywhere.”

Sayanee and Paruru knew that it was from Milky. The short girl asked about what happened but Yuihan refused to say it. Yuihan packed her belonging. Just when she was about to leave her seat, Sayanee grabbed her hand.

“Where is she?” She gave Yuihan a serious look. “Let me pick her up.”

“Are you kidding me?” Yuihan took turn to look at Sayanee and Paruru. She was kind of hoping that her girlfriend would be on her side and say something to Sayanee to get rid of that idea, but Paruru didn’t say anything.

“Woah” She looked away in disbelief.

Sayanee didn’t let go of her grip.

“I’m gonna punch you if you don’t let go of my hand.”

“Do it. Punch me. As long as you let me pick her up.”

“You crazy bi…”

Sayanee strengthened her grip to Yuihan’s hand.

Yuihan shook her hand off hard and swung the other hand to punch Sayanee. She didn’t hold back. Sayanee got pushed back and probably would already fall if she didn’t grab her chair. The sound was so loud that everyone inside the café was looking at them. Sayanee got the end of her lips bleeding. She wiped it as she stood straight back up to face Yuihan.

“Thank you.”

The short girl packed her bag and walked out soon as Yuihan told her the address.

“Now Milky is gonna hate me forever.” Yuihan muttered.

Paruru grabbed her girlfriend’s hand but she shook it off.

“I don’t want to talk to you anymore today.” Yuihan avoid her girlfriend’s gaze annoyingly.

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Milky waited patiently for Yuihan to come and get her. She was checking her phone when a white fancy car stopped in front of her. The door opened and she was so shocked to see Sayanee coming out of the car. Her heart beat so fast. Memories started to flash in her head. She almost couldn’t breathe at that moment but she tried not to show it.

Sayanee with bleeding lips and the skin around it that started to getting darker was only inches away from Milky. The girl was quite sure that Sayanee said something to greet her, but she couldn’t hear it.

The she saw Sayanee smiled at her.

“What are you doing here?” suddenly Milky’s heart filled with rage.

“I came to pick you up.”

“No, I’m waiting for Yuihan.”

“I get this from Yuihan so that I can pick you up instead.” Sayanee pointing at her lips.

“What do you want from me?”

“I want you to let me to take you home and maybe say a few words on the way.”

Milky wanted to say something but her headache was getting worse.

“Are you okay?” Sayanee grabbed Milky’s body that was getting weaker. She guided Milky to her car and took her bag. Milky didn’t have any other choice but to let Sayanee did it.

“Should I take you to the hospital instead?” The stoic girl asked when she sat on the seat opposite of her.

Milky told her that she just wanted to go home. Sayanee complied.

Then she remembered she had some medicine for headache in her bag and insisted Milky to take it. It made Milky feel a little better.

There was a silent between them for a moment after that. Before Sayanee broke it by saying sorry. She knew that Milky wouldn’t going to forgive her as easily but she wanted Milky to know her true intention. Hoping that at least she would understand.

“You fucking said that we’ll go together!! But you left me!!!” Milky wanted to scream those words in front of her ex-lover, but she didn’t. Instead, she looked outside the window. It felt like she stayed still while the people, the building and the trees were moving past by her.

“I want to be a successful person for you. And I realized back then if I kept being with you, I would only get distracted and I wouldn’t achieve this.” She paused. “I know that a lot of things could happened. That includes you probably found someone better than me. But I’ll risk it all cause I think you deserve someone great.”

Milky only reciprocated after a while.

“Have you ever thought that you’re using ‘I’ so much?”

Sayanee was surprised. She never really paid attention on her speech.

“If you have to be away from me to be successful, then you don’t need me in the first place.” Milky continued. “You don’t have to comeback.”

Those words cut deep into Sayanee’s heart. Milky was the only thing she could think of when she was away. Or maybe she was wrong? Maybe she only thinks about herself all the time.

“I don’t want to be in your way…”

“No, that’s not what I…”

“I don’t want to reap something that you worked on so hard all by yourself while I was not even there to cheer you up.”

Sayanee wanted to say a lot of things, but she couldn’t get herself to say anything.

“You can drop me here.” Milky said.

The car stopped. Milky took her bag at the back seat and opened the door. Sayanee wanted to reach her ex-lover’s hand. She wanted to tell her to not go. She felt like she did, but she didn’t. Her hands tied tight where they were. She stared blankly at the empty seat while Milky closed the door and faded away.

Where did all go wrong? Sayanee asked herself. When did all go wrong? Maybe from the start? Maybe somewhere in between? It’s not important. She knew the consequences. Milky’s gone. Sayanee couldn’t fix it.

Milky walked back to her house carrying her bag that felt heavier all of sudden. She loved Sayanee. She did. She never cared about what Sayanee would become. She thought that whatever it would be, they could get through it together. So, the moment the stoic girl explained everything in the car, she knew that they were not meant to be together. Sayanee was better without her.

She was happy for Sayanee though, it was also true. She just thought that they had a future together.

Maybe in another life.

If I miss you which I am sure I will, I’ll look up and remember that at least, at the very least, we’re living under the same sky.

Thank you for reading this silly fanfic again. If you wondered why I kept making SayaMilky’s fanfic was bc I don’t know what ship should I write for 48G fanfics. Lets say I use sayamilky as my default characters for my OS. Let me know if you want any ships to be written!

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retard4846 · 2 years

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NIGHT DRIVE

The night was dark, it was midnight when they decided to take a road trip. They just want to feel the breeze and run away from lights filled the sky atop the houses.

“Is it nice?” Miyuki wearing her beautiful black dress, leaning her head on the headrest, looking at the scenery outside.

“Sometimes it does. It is nice to drive around in the middle of night as we don’t get to do this often.” Sayaka set her eyes on the road as she driving.

The road that seemed far away, took their voice by giving them night cold wind.

“If we get lost, I blaming myself for letting my foot on the gas without knowing where we are going” Sayaka fixed the blanket that was on Miyuki. Not moving her eyes away.

“I thought you gonna blame me for taking this midnight road trip.” Miyuki chuckles.

“You never wrong in my eyes” Sayaka take a peek at Miyuki and give a smile. “Still my fault for kidnapping you and bring you away”

“It’s not a kidnap if I was the one who told you to bring me out” Miyuki tightens her grip on her blanket.

A long way to go, did they come too far? They don’t care. They just want to run away from reality.

I’m suffocating like I was not myself. The wind and the old days, just says hello to me by wrapping around me and comforts me. I couldn’t breathe. I hate this. I don’t want this. I never want to. The memories coming back to me like they hate me. Well, I hate them too, so fair. Miyuki trying to get her breath stable.

“You okay babe?” Sayaka take a peek at Miyuki worriedly.

“I’m good, just take few breaths and I will be fine.” Said Miyuki weakly.

“Care to tell me what’s wrong?” Sayaka take Miyuki right hand and bring their hands on the gear stick.

“I remember about the old days. It engulfs me making me couldn’t breathe” Miyuki state her reason.

“No wonder you’re not afraid of the dark. Nothing outside your head could be as scary as what’s inside it. I know how hurt it was, to you, to us. But still, we can’t run away from them. They will always there to hunt us.” Sayaka wraps her fingers into Miyuki’s. Perfectly nice fit. Sayaka look at Miyuki’s eyes “Like the gaps between my fingers were meant for yours.”

Miyuki smiled and lean her head onto Sayaka’s shoulder.

“Silly”

Don’t you worry, when you walking on this road. I will put you at ease, so you can see the night, this beautiful dark night clearly. People thought darkness was gloom and scary, but as you look at it, it’s a peace. No one is there, as they afraid. Just us alone, the brave ones who can see the beauty attached to it. Sayaka determined to not letting Miyuki hurt, once again.

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They stopped at the quick stop after long road trip. Sayaka got out from the car and lean her back to the door. One foot up while looking at the stars. She pulls her cigarette from her jean jacket, lighting it up and take a whiff.

What if I know this earlier? Will I be able to save myself from jumping into this hell pit? If it’s not me, at least her.

“I thought you stopped smoking.” Miyuki stay unmoved in the car, not taking interest going out from the car.

“Not this time Miyuki. That will not work on me” Sayaka take another puff.

“Even though I told you so?” Miyuki raised her eyebrow.

Sayaka turned her body and lowered her body the same as the car window, one hand holding the brim between the hood and window. “I will after I see you better.”

“You know that will takes forever, an excuse for you to smoke. You just never cease to amaze me, do you?”

Sayaka smirked onto that statement.

“Smoke making me forget all the problems I supposed to have, I feel good” following the smoke coming from her mouth.

I lied; smoke doesn’t make me feel good at all.

“I miss the night I ran and drank with you. Remember that night when we got drunk after work? I fell into the drain and swim the drain. And you said ‘On a scale of one to ten, how do you feel about nachos right now?’ instead of helping me? seriously?” Sayaka grinning while reminiscing the moment.

Miyuki giggled when she remembered the moment.

“Well, we were heavily drunk, what do you expect? Me carrying you?”

“Uhh, not really. As you are weak and such” Sayaka put her hand with cigarette making a thinking pose.

“I’m not-”

“It's not my fault that I fell. I fell into the drain of love. You are the one tripped me.” Sayaka smirked and take this moment to get into the car as Miyuki was stunned.

“I didn’t expect that from you...” Miyuki said sheepishly.

“From now on, you should.” Sayaka seems proud on her words.

“If I could stay”

Sayaka throw her cigarette and continue their journey.

Beside the quick stop there was a small woods. Something clicked in Miyuki’s head.

“Sayaka, you know in movies the fairies will come out from the woods?”

“Sudden, but okay?”

“What if those fairies were kids or babies, got kidnapped and someone sold their organs. Their bodies re-created as small robotic flying pretty and cute creatures attracting another kids. So the bad guys can sell their organs?” Miyuki tilted her head and look at Sayaka.

Sayaka starting to feel scared on what is going on inside her head.

“You know what, your mind is the darkest place I’ve ever been to.”

“Ouch.” Miyuki states bluntly.

Even though your mind are full of wonders, but I cannot find my way, hell, I start to even forget my way back.

Continuing their no purpose journey, with night breeze accompanying them.

“What if my time is up? What will you do?” Miyuki asked. “You know eventually we have to go, soon or later”

Sayaka was shocked. The question she doesn’t want to hear at all, especially from Miyuki. It was terrifying.

“Wait where are we going?” Miyuki saw Sayaka taking a quick turn.

With no answer came from Sayaka, she took a stop at the park, guiding Miyuki who still wrapped in the blanket to sit on the bench.

Sayaka hold Miyuki’s hands, as if Miyuki will disappear if she let her go.

“I don’t know what I would do if…if anything were to happen to you.” Sayaka look at their hands, with shoulders shaking.

“I couldn’t forgive myself if..if I can’t save you” Sayaka sobbing. “All things happening because of me, if only I knew you- “

Miyuki shushed Sayaka with her finger. Bringing Sayaka’s head to look at her eyes.

“It’s not your fault, honey. It’s not anyone’s fault. Maybe...” Miyuki moved her hands to each side of Sayaka’s cheeks, with a smile and said “This is how fate trying to test us.”

You can’t even do anything Sayaka, you can’t save me.

“You look like an ugly teletubbies crying Sayaka, it doesn’t suit you” Miyuki wiped Sayaka’s tears with her thumbs. “This is better”

Under the dark street lamp, the moonlight shones both of them. Both of them are afraid, afraid of the fate holding them.

Miyuki were seen hyperventilating, and that was not a good sign.

“Miyuki!” Sayaka being in panicked state, trying to help as much as she could.

She starting to cough with red blood coming out from her mouth. Miyuki face gradually pale, her red lips turns into white, her toned skin starting to change.

“Sa..ya..ka” Miyuki fell into Sayaka’s arms, but still being conscious.

“Miyuki please hold on! I will bring you to the hospital!” Sayaka carrying Miyuki in bridal style.

“I know it hurts to breathe but you have to stay with me, okay?

The trip to hospital seems long to Sayaka, she keep pressing the gas hoping she could arrive at the nearest hospital as fast as possible.

“IT TAKES SO FUCKING LONG, WHERE THE HELL ARE THE HOSPITAL WHEN I NEED IT?!” Sayaka irritated.

Then, they finally arrived and went to emergency department. Seeing Miyuki is in such a state, the nurses bring stretcher bringing Miyuki to the emergency room immediately.

Sayaka crying hard, her hard heart were soften that she could cry in front of people. She doesn’t care, as long as she could see Miyuki again. “Please- please, please stay…Miyuki..please..” Sayaka pleaded, looking worriedly to the unconscious Miyuki running on the way to the room.

Sayaka called Miyuki’s parents immediately after Miyuki went into the room.

Is that you? I heard your voice...

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She heard a door being open and footsteps but she couldn't open her eyes. She couldn't do anything.

She felt someone holding her hand. The second the warmth of the hand spreading, she knows. But she can’t feel it anymore.

“Your hand is so cold...”

“I’m sorry. I know it hurts, I'm sorry.”

it’s not your fault Sayaka...

“I’m sorry I failed you, I should’ve been there.”

A sob.

“Please..don't leave me, I can't live without you”

Sayaka scoffs.

“Who gave you permission to fall asleep huh? I don't think we are done yet you are fast asleep.”

I wish I could, but maybe fate says this is the best.

“I need you to open your eyes for me. Can you do that?” crying Sayaka pleaded.

I hear Sayaka clicked her tongue and bursted.

“COME ON, DAMN IT, WAKE UP!”

Sayaka harshly stand up and scream. Sayaka can’t still process the whole thing happened. How she wish what she sees and heard isn't true.

*flashback*

As soon as Miyuki’s parents arrived at the hospital, Sayaka immediately get up from sitting and face the parents.

“I am so sorry ma'am. I tried my best to protect your daughter but she-”

Madoka, Miyuki’s mom folding her arms with intimidating gaze.

“Is this what I got? I shouldn't let her to be with you in the first place.” Madoka says.

“You can't even take care of Miyuki, you know she is sick! I don’t know what you have done to my daughter, but remember we never gave our bless after you both came out” Watanabe, Miyuki’s father added.

“We let her with you because that is her wish. Well, I have to admit you take care of her well. I never expect a nasty person like you can make her health certain.” Watanabe with his smirk.

Sayaka standing still in her position in the verge of tears.

“I am so sorry, Watanabe-san.” Sayaka cried in front of the Watanabes.

“Miyuki family?” the doctor coming out from the emergency room.

“Yes, we are her parents, what about my daughter?” The father asked in a worried tone, Miyuki is his only daughter. His treasure.

“You know she afflicted with Systemic lupus erythematosus?” the doctor asks.

“We do, but we don't know what it is.” Madoka says.

“It’s an autoimmune disease where the body's immune system attacks healthy tissues of any organ including the lungs. Coughing up blood and difficulty breathing are the symptoms when SLE affects the lungs. Complication of lung SLE can result in blood clots in the lungs, development of fluid around the lungs, and damage to the lung tissue. Her lung are clogged and already damaged. Which means...” the doctor sigh.

“What does it mean doctor?!”

“She can’t be saved anymore. The full clogging blood totally damaging her lungs. I’m so sorry we can’t save your daughter. I will take my leave.” the doctor bows and leave.

As soon as the doctor finished, Miyuki’s parents cried and Sayaka, who being silent dropped her knees. She wish all of this wasn't true, her ears were lying to her.

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“I like night drives”

“Huh?” Sayaka with her cigarette look at Miyuki who was beside her in the car.

“Don't you feel like all of your problems gone with the night wind? When the breeze touched your skin, you feel safe from everything.” Miyuki smiling making her eyes turned into a smile as well.

“Since when are you this dramatic? We can't see anything at night though, dark and scary” Sayaka puff her smoke outside, totally don’t understand what Miyuki been saying.

“Nope, that is where you are wrong Sayaka. For once, the city doesn’t remind you of the chaos that your life is. It’s calm, tranquil and laidback. Night drive is the best time to spend with yourself. It allows you so much space to think about all that is going on in your life and still not worry too much. And...”

Miyuki grabs Sayaka’s hand and their eyes locked.

“It also let us to make our precious memories to remember.”

End.

Based on Night Drive – Gfriend Yuju, Eunha

I finally done with this fanfic. It was a rollercoaster ride for me to write this. I continuously had writer’s block on how to end this story. I even have multiples ending in this fanfic. Please forgive me if there’s grammatical errors. I would like to hear which part that I can improve in the future. I'm sorry if this story doesn't reach your expectation. Surely, I will try to write more in the future. See ya!

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