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[bredforloyalty]

love the phrase fuck all. that sure is what i do all the time i am very familiar with fuck all, jack shit, diddly-squat even

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[oswinian]

and what if I started filling the emoji meme requests I asked for (and received) in October 2022? what then?

#I have like fifteen inbox messages that are over a year old #it might be time to clean them out #it's just anxious #kata.txt #delete later

[snowbits]

QUESTIONABLE THINGS??? 😭😭😭 ....ok yea maybe. Maybe.

you know you'd eat/lick questionable things if a hot man told you to :)

#dw i would too #just for dan heng #<- down bad #kata.txt #snowstorm speaks #asks #choco

[bredforloyalty]

your doglike mannerisms and subservient nature and rather characteristic boyish grin and weird relationships with the older men around you have bewitched me. can i interest you in a prostate orgasm

#i think i'm having some kind of an episode gdshxy it's good i barely know any young men in real life i would be completely insufferable #i mean more than now even more than now #kata.txt

[bredforloyalty]

buzzwords for my mutuals:

grooming

faggot

dyke

family

necrophilia

father

abuse

incest

#💀💀💀 #okay no there is a beautiful level of variety but i still wanted to say this . #kata.txt

[bredforloyalty]

y'know sometimes a character hurts every love interest that enters their life because their true soulmate is their sibling

#i made this draft in june. #wadda hell wrong w me? we may never know #kata.txt

[bredforloyalty]

benson did all that because his job sucked and he wanted to drag his co-worker around on a leash. what can i say except , dramatic faggot

#(/pos) #kata.txt #the passenger

[bredforloyalty]

my mother and i

#quite literally! peace and love on planet earf (half the time<3) #kata.txt #x

[bredforloyalty]

#tbh #sorry for reverting back to the old ways but you know how it is #true detective #kata.txt #x

[bredforloyalty]

#💀💀💀 I don't think they made this scene to laugh at but it was endlessly funny to be honest. #real as fuck + the girl living at fezco's asking about it after like okay queen #euphoria #kata.txt #x

[bredforloyalty]

the way i shrieked and had to sit down even though Why am i gasping. i already knew that

#kata.txt #euphoria #jacob elordi #x

[bredforloyalty]

AHHH (← imagined what it would be like to have a brother and got scared)

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[bredforloyalty]

"i am sane/i am normal" is the tumblrina's no homo

#we keep on trucking #kata.txt

[bredforloyalty]

alright now that i've watched it again, about fear no mort: how fascinating that most of morty's fear hole journey revolved around rick, so much so that an extended part of it was just a scenario in which rick's dead wife climbs to the top of his list of favorite people/reasons to live for and not only does he abandon morty but endangers the both of them. wild! morty third wheeling grumpily is wild (although i don't at all care about diane so that part of the episode was kind of soiled on first watch by me going "oh ://".. to be entirely honest. and i'm so mortypilled that if i could tweak the episode i would've put less grandpa in it lol and played it a bit more straight with focusing on morty but then again that's me and that would be a very different episode)

so, morty's afraid of rick not choosing him but also not choosing life, he's afraid of not being able to save rick and be someone he can depend on. it's an awful lot to take on, being the companion of someone who historically has not given much of a shit about himself and ended up hurting everyone around him with his callousness. it's a certain kind of selfishness, when you hate yourself and the world enough to turn inward and forget you have a responsibility to the people around you, and you forget there is a way out and forget the world does not abandon you, ever, only you can abandon yourself. and rick's only recently made some changes, it's a lot to look out for and care for someone (regardless if you intend to care or it was never a choice. and it wasn't) when they've been exceptionally cruel to you, when they don't think of you as capable of that or themselves as in need of that. morty's afraid of the very fact that he's committed, that he's got a mixture of affection and resentment and fear and a bunch of other things swirling inside him and it's all related to one man. he's terrified of what will happen if rick ever starts needing him and he's just not enough. fuck i loved that and thought it was delicious. eating the episode like an animal and licking all ten of my fingers after...

morty's also afraid of becoming his dad, who spent the majority of the previous seasons as a kind of doormat, who let his wife and father-in-law walk all over him, who didn't appreciate beth, who abandoned the family. maybeee even.. who didn't stick up for morty when a certain old man was taking advantage of him and breaking him down systematically. he fears humiliation and ostracism (typical teenage things, i was like that too and yet. not everyone is like that so it matters to me that i was very much like that too).. he's got so much shame, and although the settings are the school and the wider public for some of the fears, rick's role isn't exactly incidental in how morty functions outside of their relationship and who he's become. who has made him feel small and weak and stupid and who isolated him and prevented him from having the normal experiences all those other normal kids have? like sure it's not all rick but considering that by the end the fear is all about him, i feel like i can emphasize this. and sure rick's also the one who toughened him up (nothing scares him anymore, the school had to alert homeland security once, etc) but that's part of his fear too: rick's got his handprints all over him, he's everything, while rick's everything is not morty ((according to morty of course. little does he know.......))

anyway, the tragedy is that his worst fear does become reality, is his reality: rick didn't jump in after him. it's tragic because he perceives rick as someone who would never go as far for him as he would for rick, who could replace him, and by the end he accepts that. the fear is gone because being together is inevitable, there's nothing else to do but accept how they are and how vulnerable he is to rick. don't fear what you're destined to suffer!!! he's a loyal little dog! rick will never change and he's okay with that now. that's devotion, it's veiled by sci-fi bullshit and goofy jokes (and that terrible naked rap number that had me cringing uncontrollably hxsgvy) but it's devotion! except, to add to the tragedy while not really making it,, heavier, it's straight up untrue that rick could or would replace him. not jumping in the fear hole wasn't real evidence of how he feels, to morty it was just a representation of what he thinks is the worst of their relationship (the worst for him). we've been watching rick try and try and seeing the evidence of how he's changed all season, i think that makes it sadder that he's still not reassured the kid, that he still can't be honest or open enough to untangle the knot at the center of morty. that he tied

and yet, if i wasn't already reassured that rick's also committed, if not to morty personally then to the family and to making a continuous effort to improve, i would be reasured by how he didn't jump in at the end and instead took a picture of his grandson out of his wallet and pinned it to the 'went in the hole' board (lol). he had a picture in his wallet, god. he finally listened, he listened to morty who said it's not worth it, not even if diane is there, he chose not to immerse himself in his fears, his past and his wounds, and i would even say he chose not to go where morty couldn't follow. he chose his current reality and admitted morty is braver than him by pinning the picture, he wasn't condescending about morty running and jumping by himself. and most importantly, most cuckoo bananas of all, most 'kata is not going to be feeling well for a while' about the episode, when morty hugged him, he, for the first time!!, timidly started hugging back. and then morty immediately let go and pushed him away because he can't imagine a rick that hugs back, that loves him like he loves rick, he's so scared of the part of himself that wants to believe in that level of respect and care and reciprocation, the part that craves that. what the fuuuuck

rick's only recently started loosening his claws and thinking of how he could do right by his grandson and by others in general, it hasn't caught up with him yet that while morty does see him and does assess him accurately, he's not a mind reader and he's got insecurities and rick's at the center of them and well, you could say, you could say he should take responsibility for what he's done ('take responsibility' NOT in a canceling rick sanchez on twitter unless he repents for his grooming crimes way but in a waggling my eyebrows way forever and ever). ngl i wasn't super satisfied by the rest of the season as it was coming out but i'm excited to see where they take this, how these characters will develop further. and i was very happy to see an episode just about morty's side of the equation, i've been fed <3

#but mostly i want to see how they grow around each other. the minute it's implied they have to go their seperate ways to fulfill #themselves as individuals and find real pure happiness which they can only find somewhere else i kill myself immediately #^___^ <33 #rick and morty #rnm #i did draft this immediately after watching btw i just needed to be sure i won't change my mind on a second watch..... #kata.txt

[bredforloyalty]

days should be 24 hours long and then also have 4-5 hours in between for me to listen to music

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[bredforloyalty]

#my final message . goodb ye #(going to sleep) #and i apologize. i've been having a tough time lately go easy on me. #iasip #kata.txt