#lizard is starting to ramble

[lizardlicks]

I love working in medicine. I especially love working in medicine as a queer person because I get to see the entire breadth of our community. It's not what you think it is.

Do you know how many older gay and trans people I meet on a daily basis? It's not all young, thin teens with dyed hair.

There's this one gay couple, in their 60s, always get their lab work done together, always leaning into each other and laughing about some private joke of the week. They lost a bunch of their friends in the 80s, and they always remark about how good our facility is to them. They smile when they talk to me like yeah, we made it, we're still kicking and screaming, and by god that's how we'll go out.

This butch lady with pure silver that works at a mechinc's shop down the street and always calls me sugar when I see her. Checked in a person the other day who looked like the blanded most non-descript typical middle age cis dude, but went by a femme name and had x/nonbinary gender tag and they/them pronuns.

Then there's the young trans kids that are tto scared to dress the way they want most of the time, still uncertain about using their name and pronouns in a medical setting until we do it for them withiout them asking, treat them as the gender they prefer, and you just can see the weight fall off them as their care giver team treats them as human and with such care and love. They're always smiling by the end even if they had to do something frightening and painful.

The 20 and 30 somethings that I see going out of their way to interact with me because I'm proudly, visibly queer at work, most especially for them because we all need to know that there is someone looking out for us when we're vulnerable. We exist as this vibrant, complex tapestry, so far outside of the way we get stereotyped and talked about online and in the media. My god we are everywhere, experiencing life in ways you will never know about. You are not alone. You were never alone.

#lizard is starting to ramble

[agent00ani]

Ok fantasy biology question. Why do Githyanki have nipples and breast tissue. Are they like fantasy humanoid monotremes? Technically mammals but they lay eggs instead of giving live birth? Do githyanki males have venomous spurs on their ankles? Do they fluoresce teal?

Anyways lizard/frog githyanki is out. Platypus/echidna githyanki is in

#to be clear no hate to the lizard/frog gith stuff #I love it #I just started thinking about it too hard #there are many down sides to being a biologist #you play a video game and go ‘why do they have titties. why do they have nipples’ #ani rambles #ani plays games #ani’s bg3 adventures #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #ani is autistic #githyanki #fantasy biology

[layalu]

Lae'zel is honestly right to get annoyed at me/ulhar for not staying on task, becaus- oooh guys check out this hidden door i found

#love integrating my playstyle into my characters lolol #started out fairly on track but add a) a hoarder lizard brain and b) bad at directions and it all makes sense #laezel: getting rid of the tadpoles should be our highest priority #ulhar: it IS but look at these pretty stones i found when we got lost in that one cave #lay rambles #bg3 #oc: ulhar #also shee's been steadily getting less eager to find thr solution #she wants them gone yes but also theres obviously sth bigher going on and shes scared of what happens when the parasites are gone #like where does this put her #and she lowkey doesnt want to part with this funky bunch of ppl shes met; and rn theyre held together by this goal. so . #but n e ways

[bellamyblakru]

three thoughts while writing this incredibly lonely merlin fic: (1) why didnt kilibitch the large lizard offer himself to close the veil and fix his redemption arc? (2) why didn’t they shove morgana in since she opened it and then we could’ve had two seasons of magic reveal (3) why not force the Callieach into the veil? (i mean, if merlin couldve gone in and he is magic bitch boy himself, then that mf could’ve been forced in, too)

#ashley rambles #not to mention the chicken idea but i digress #merlin #merlin thoughts #bbc merlin #yeah this fic started sad as fuck and yes im projecting (haha jk unless) #killibitch is the large lizard btw for anyone new #kilgharrah the big lizard yeah

[bitegore]

I'm truly fighting tooth and nail to get to sleep until 9:30 these days, its unreal

#red rambles #i cant really call them nightmares because they were interesting and fun dreams i kept deliberately throwing myself back into after the plo #went entirely to shit in them all but i kept dreaming about like my friends and family all dying or me accidentally killing my pet lizard o #spilling soda all over the floor at a funeral and shit like that #and between each dream i kept waking up #first time was at 3am and then it was fucking hourly from there #maybe more than that i think the sun was up three times i wole #genuinely want to make sure you all understand that i enjoyed these dreams a lot more than i enjoy the ones where nothing goes sideways #because then i get to solve whatever happened and it's a fun puzzle #the imagery of stroking the spine of a proud and beautiful creature and having its scales rub off with my hand and start bleeding everywherz #is probably the only part that actually felt bad to experience because it came completely out of nowhere and then she freaked out and kept t #trying to bite me as an injured animal is wont to do if you are in it's space and hurt it so i had to keep grabbing her and her scales kept #coming off LMAO #but beyond that i was genuinely having fun it's just that the dreams would end and then i'd wake up

[volfoss]

It's gonna be really bad if I get hooked into arena like I'm going to become a whole new breed of weird guy posting

#twist rambles #^ in the way of my habit of being like wow this character is so cool looking (they are like 30 pixels at most) #i have slept a few hours and being in the VERY last home stretch of the guide has made me really excited for it... did u guys know there are #2 kha/jit replacement mods that replace them with Garfield... i will be getting one of them altho i dont think ill play one bc man they look #so bad in arena... prob hi elf or lizard guy as i AM a little Argo lover... but hi elf seems to be a rly good race esp 4 the first 2 games #but itll be bad im sorry i think playing only ps1 games lately has done shit to me bc minus the kinda clunky ui... the first 2 games dont #look that bad... btw doing all of this bc i was so scared of playing morrow/wind (played Sky/rim first #so i figured if i start w the most difficult/biggest/hardest games itll seem like nothing by the time i get there. but yeah very excited for #it when im free of editing the guide and like... everything else w it... I'm excited to get it all modded tomorrow bc theres barely any mods #so it's not as overwhelming as DF is mod wise like... looking at mod recs for that game is terrifying. but anyways yeah:) if i do commit to #the bit im sorry. also tags extra censored so i dont get random ppl liking a personal post like last time lol

[delopsia]

hi I'm terrified of posting this 💃 but these are the first pictures I've taken of myself since at least May 2020 and I really want to see what happens if I post them

iffy on my face but 💃💃 hi 💕

#of course id do this when i was bloated from my period starting #i felt pretty in the moment but now i just feel like a damn lizard #im horrified actually #delgato rambles #delgato's personal junk

[smallblueandloud]

over the past few days i haven't done any writing but i HAVE done some thinking about Essbie's Writing in general and it's interesting to notice some trends!

first off -- it seems like i go through periods of Writing A Bunch. these are influenced by many factors (for instance i publish a bunch during the summer, for school reasons) but seem to also... happen whenever i don't have a current very strong hyperfixation? (in other words, after an old hyperfixation is waning and a new one hasn't started yet)

in the summer of 2020, i was publishing A Fuckton, and that was right about when my agents of shield hyperfixation was finally giving up the ghost. now, the xmen hyperfixation is finally fading enough to let me write, and the same thing is happening.

it's interesting to categorize things in this way, because now i kinda... better know what to expect? when i'm Super Major Hyperfixated on something, i tend not to write a bunch about it! i put down a bunch of scraps for ideas i have -- and then only get around to polishing them off when the hyperfixation fades enough to let me enjoy the actual craft of writing.

this is also cool to conceptualize because i'm getting to a point where i don't have a lot of ideas to play with anymore -- i'm getting to the end of the ideas that i stockpiled during the last 2+ years of Massive Hyperfixation and/or burnout. and that means i could've stockpiled more! i can just write things out and chuck them into the Ideas Pile and then, later, when i have the energy and time, i might come back and hash them out! and that's a really cool kinda... reliance that i can have on myself, now.

#sb and l rambles #sb and l is writing #i don't know how coherent this is but it exists #there are a bunch of ideas that i talked about with friends and never wrote down in my wips folder #so now i'm starting to. go back and track those down? #notably that clintasha fic i think about All The Time but there's other stuff too! #i've got a lot of fic ideas stashed in the lizards server

[lizzxrd]

unironically embracing the cringe shit i liked as a kid/young teen bc i didn't get to do that back then bc i got bullied for even the mildest things relentlessly throughout all of my time in school and i kinda internalized that bc i didn't know any better is so funny tbh other people my age are starting their careers, dating, partying, doing whatever other shit regular people in their early 20s do and I am here on my puter like ^_^ :33 yaayy mlp, edgy vocaloid songs <3 XD

#in hindsight getting bullied for liking mlp was so ?? i was literally the target audience so it wasn't even weird of me to like it #tbh getting bullied in general was so ??? i never did anything outrageous i was just kind of quiet and awkward #i wasn't even a little shit until i hit like age 14 and started trying to copy how other ppl around me behaved lmfao #kids are just mean i guess #lizard rambles

[lizardlicks]

You know that walrus vs fairies thing is a really good example of suspension of disbelief and how poor writing can immediately ruin it.

Further, it's a good example of how propaganda and indoctrination can be broken.

Check this out: if you are asked to believe something by a person who presents themselves as an authority about a subject in which you have little to no experience, you have no ground to question them on. Even if it seems fake, human brains are really good about going, "that doesn't sound right, but I don't know enough about [thing] to dispute that." We have to specifically train ourselves to stop and go do our own research. And if it's a big, complicated topic which you're brand new to, that's really intimidating!

This is a feature rather than a bug of being a social species. Collectively, we store far more knowledge than anyone if us could store individually. It means that even if you have never seen a walrus in your life, you can be reasonably confident that you still "know" that they're large, tusked, aquatic mammals which tend to favor colder water and they don't really go farther inland than a couple miles.

It also means that you are primed to accept new information on a subject with which you have little to no direct experience: e.g. fairies are real, you just didn't know that until now.

Propaganda and indoctrination work because they're presented as authoritative sources on subjects that the target audience doesn't have much experience with. That also means those can be combatted by research and first hand experience. Multiple times I've seen posts from people who climbed out of the weeds of Q Anon because one of those secret info drops started making claims about subjects that the person was something of an expert in: electricity, infrastructure, medicine, engineering.

It's also why you can get so into reading a great fantasy or sci-fi novel that has otherwise stellar writing and world crafting, then suddenly get kicked right out of it again when the author, say, has a character fall into a convenient, non-magical coma for a month, or they start walking on a bad fracture after a couple of days without some fancy technological assistance. You have a body, and you might not be a doctor, but you can know enough to understand that's not how bodies generally work, and if the author has not previously established that their characters aren't human and work totally differently, a pall of doubt and frustration taints everything that comes there after.

Idk where I'm going with this. I just think it's neat! Definitely something to keep in mind when trying to effectively communicate with people, regardless of if you're trying to educate or simply entertain.

#lizard is starting to ramble

[escapismnotfound]

WHAT THE FUCK

#ramble ramble #okay so ??? #I just got this today and I’m just about finished with it #but ??? Lizard ??? Cottonmouth ??? #bro I ???? #this is too much #I wanna talk about it but like I don’t wanna spoil it #wings of fire #this sole book fucked me up #out of them all THIS ONE #[starts sobbing]

[crescentmp3]

my dream was sooo ./pos

#video game . you play as RAIDEN from MGR:R #you have a camera that you are supposed to take pictures of little guys with #little guys consist of doggies ‚ this one sort of toy little dog ‚ and these things called phisphints #theyre like . if fire was personified + a little guy #AND THIS ONE MECHANIC OKOK #so . if you start sprinting while off the ground ‚ you will go into ''glide'' mode which has a hang glider ! #BUT behind you is a little LIZARD that has a MINI HANDGLIDER ‚ and if he catches you before you land ‚ he goes KABLOOIE #oh and mistral was there ( cant take a picture she notices u ) #the game was mainly stealth based #OK THERES ALSO ANOTHER GAMR #you are a little water bottle on its side . rolling #there are literal helicopters lookijg for you for your Crimes . #you are safe in the shadows - but not for long #you must hide in the shadows ‚ and move out of the way whrn they shine a light on you #your goal is to get tot he end #man i'd be a great game developer if only i knee coding i'd just slap this shit on the comouter <- he would suffet #🌙rambling

[bananabreadandpain]

I frankly don't know what I'm doing.

Just know that I'm trying my best.

Maybe.

#trying and failing to get used to this app #banana rambles #...sort of #honestly just lurk here like a lizard on the wall #also i have come to witness a lizard fall from an outdoor ceiling #the lizard is okay. it just fell on the table and skittered away #anyways #yeah I should start actually doing something for this blog

[arolesbianism]

I love how consistent Olivia's fondness of lil critters is even as a printing pod with no memories. Tiny baby living its happy critter life, thank god Olivia can't work directly enough with them to get attached, critter care would become the only thing she'd want to do

#rat rambles #oni posting #its very fun to me just how much more affection she shows to animals than the ppl in her life #both just in general but also I like how it draws a fun parallel between her and jackie with both of them struggling to form bonds with ppl #it gives the vibe that the two clung to eachother partially because they felt somewhat ostracized from most of society #just like in combination with them spending most of their college years and early careers studying time travel and manipulation #they likely werent taken very seriously by their peers and found a strong bond in being the only ones whod take eachother seriously #but after the temporal bow was made and ppl started taking them incredibly seriously rifts started to form between them #especially with jackie as the desire to aim big now that she can took over her thought process #olivia on the other hand didnt have nearly as much power and despite being a respected scientist still had chains in her ambitions #so its kind of understandable that she returned to gravitas despite everything because as shitty as jackie is she is more likely to allow #ambitious projects and also allows work with the various technologies that olivia herself helped developed #anyways I like to imagine olivia liked digging for bugs in her back yard as a kid #and also make routine visits to places with nooks and crannies that lizards and stuff like to hide in

[sneak-a-cat]

skyrim playing again

want to marry someone.

i have a daughter and a house.

my daughter gets so excited when i get home

i played tag with her

she adopted a feral fox

i love her.

i understand the post about wanting to be able to interact more with your family in skyrim...

but i'm out of the house a lot.

so i left a follower at home

to take care of her.

lucia needs another father figure,

i found the man i want to marry.

i have to become a werewolf for some reason

its ok, to be loved is to be changed and all that

farkas you will be mine

i am sorry for stealing all the weapons from your guild...

#rambles #my god awful silly poetry #love being a lesbian irl and getting to be a gay lizard in skyrim #like yes fafnir you go man #first man i met in skyrim i tried to start a gay romance with #there wasn't enough dialogue options... #maybe i would have fun playing DnD

[silverskye]

So I've been catching up on Lucifer and the Biscut Hammer. And I gotta say the interactions between the lizard, the knight and the princess are hilarious. Not to mention the random yet relatable conversations between characters.

#the lizard is my favorite like calling out mc for not caring enough #i love this anime more and more #guess i'm going to start reading the manga #rambles