#maybe i shouldnt be the one to talk

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions #ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person #if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully #that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is #not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion #yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something #like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi' #I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad #honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner #and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion #and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully) #but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ? #im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them' #have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf #its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!' #LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333 #ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious. #MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions #ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol #being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless #but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy #and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize #ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people #so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3 #i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE #watch nobody read this fr #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[last-flight-of-fancy]

“Kingdom Hearts being an epic slow burn gay romance would be incredibly impactful to people both personally and as a landmark in queer representation by extremely popular and established characters. It has decades of legitimate buildup and has the potential to be both incredibly validating to queer fans everywhere and even possibly sway the minds of those who love the characters but may not have much contact or knowledge of queerness.”

and

“The Kingdom Hearts series is honestly kind of unique in its unabashed emotional sincerity. How it treats friendships and non-romantic bonds as being both extremely important and powerful, never giving the impression that friendship is lesser to romance, is depressingly still somewhat of a rarity in media. This is very important and validating to many, particularly aromantics but also most everyone who is just Tired of how friendships and romance are often presented in tiers of importance.”

are concepts that can and should co-exist.

#like i get it. there really is nothing quite like kh when it comes to how it treats the bonds between characters #and the latter is just as legitimate! #but i do think that the people who argue (in good faith) that kh shouldnt make anyone canon- #-are kind of missing the forest for the trees #(i specify in good faith bc we all know the bad faith ones are just co-opting the argument to hide their homophobia) #(and oh boy are *most* of them in bad faith. but i wanna take a sec to talk about this bc there are good faith ones out there) #and what i mean by that is that... well first of all making one ship canon doesn't invalidate all the other examples of stunning displays of #-the power of friendship #second of all i would like you to consider the framing of this #if no ship becomes canon and it's purely platonic for all the OC's... how is it different from any other kids show with no couples? #in terms of representing friendship as not being less than romance? #it's still not bad don't get me wrong. what i'm saying is that media DOES exist #there are shows and books and games out there where there are no couples to speak of #maybe not terribly common but they're out there #but a slow burn epic gay romance where platonic connections are legitimately just as important and powerful? i sure af havent seen it #sora being in love with riku and still willing to sacrifice himself (TWICE) to save kairi... is that not exactly what you want? #to show that the platonic connection is not lesser? that its just as important? #i dunno i've been turning this over in my brain all afternoon thinking about it #stop talking to yourself flight

[ganondoodle]

twitter VS tumblr :,)

i dont want to seem like im complaining, as i dearly love tumblr and the awesome people here, but this is a reason why i am so anxious about twitter dying; to be fair, this is by far my most suddendly and most popular art tweet (i am unsure why) and in no way the norm over there (my usual art gets rarely if ever above 1k) and im well aware of how differently these two platforms work

still sometimes its pretty hard to not worry about it, tho i dont want to sound like im not appreciating the people that do interact with my stuff here, i am very thankful for each and every one

im afraid im not eloquent enough to properly express how i feel about it all, but anxiety is definitely one of them

(edit: im not trying to farm attention to that post or something, just the comparison of the extreme difference how the same fanart posted around the same times of a pretty popular character atm got attention on those two sites is making me worry? anxious? feel weird?)

#ganondoodles talks #unsure what to tag this as #and yes i know i know #tumblr has way less users #way less giant accounts that can boost visibillty astupif amount #but these two sites are the only ones im comfortable to be on #the only thing that ever got this popular on tumblr is an old self deprecating meme that still haunts me #i worry i am doing something wrong here #.. maybe i shouldnt have added the process pics #idk #if it sound im damn near depressed about it #im not! #but that extreme difference is weird to observe #and kinda scary given what the clown baby keeps doing to twitter

[quesadillayuri]

anons crazy 4 this one im not sorry. like truly calling it a ZERO out of TEN arc. u must be crazy im not sorry

#listen im a ctommy swords and shields and i dont Love how he's portrayed in a lot of fanon #but the idea that it made the server WORSE. and that it was a 0/10 arc is act crazy . like truly the exile arc was gen really great like i #gen think it was . so well done #also to say that it wasn't worth the discourse surrounding it. #girl its minecraft roleplay. theres gonna be stupid discourse no matter what. like truly #name one arc or even one singular at least mildly popular server that doesn't have stupid asf discourse #like OBVIOUSLY people were dumb about it. that doesnt mean it shouldnt exist. #like the idea of saying that a huge narrative arc shouldnt exist because some audience members couldnt handle it correctly. #like okay sure lets never talk abt anything even remotely nuanced ever again in media. that will fix it. #like ofc some people handled the exile arc poorly. people can't even handle rose quartz #.hellwurld #dsmp #tommyinnit #exile arc #discourse #maybe #idk #im not saying that anon is stupid btw im just saying that im smarter /JOKE. #whatever its the dsmp its fandom its fine that we have differing opinions just know that im right and youre wrong

[itshomobirb]

> cat's urinary episode probably caused by stress

> both my parents left for a vacation earlier this week

> the implication that my cat got stressed out from my parents leaving

> which includes my mother, who has [redacted] me and is abusive and just Not a Nice Person

> my mother, who finds fault in litcherally everything i do for the cats. and even if i give in and do what she wants... several months later, she's complaining again

> swapped their litter several months ago to pine pellets. they've adapted nicely. their litter is fine. also doesn't track everywhere (something my mother complained about for MONTHS with their previous litter)

> my mother, unprompted: did the vet say that maybe this could be caused by their new litter?

i fucking hate her.

#borbtalks #my mother is fucking stupid and asks really pointed questions like that to try to force her opinion as Being the Right One #this includes asking me if maybe my hrt. the stuff that helped me not be low level depressed all the time. has turned me into... #.... an angry cold mean heartless brat. and that maybe bc im autistic im just not self aware enough to notice. #like uhhh no youve been calling me an angry cold mean heartless brat since i was like 5 #or asking if my dr has said im immunocompromised (with the implication that if im not. i shouldnt be masking around them.... #....i started masking around them after they tested pos for covid and didnt tell me for several days) #or when i said i wouldnt be able to participate in thxgiving bc i was having a rough time w/ my health & she asked #'is it bc of ur chronic illnesses or are u just being antisocial?' #my mother will find any fault within me & if she cant. she'll make one up. #and then everyone in my family will take her fucking side bc umm yeah her looking up ur skirt & purposefully staring at u naked is bad... #but have u um. talked to her? and asked her to stop? i just think u need to give her another chance :) #fuckijg. putting myself in a clown car & hoping it explodes.

[rexscanonwife]

Grrggh...good morning everypony = w = I rewatched the episode of the ppg reboot where Utonium gets a girlfriend...

#jane journals #self insert talk #🔬 starkissed scientist 🔬 #i woke up at 5 in the gah damn morning and MY HEADPHONES are gone so im gonna have to ride the bus w/o them >:[ #hell on earth 10 dead 4 missing!!! #and i choose to do this before i go ajfjg #anyways this sucks #like im not bothered by love interests but this whole reboot is ass and the characters are badly written #but theres like....at least one or two cute moments where utonium is smooth with it >//< #it cant even get the FIRST THING RIGHT ABOUT HIM THO #in literally THE FIRST EPISODE he says that spiders creep him out and they basically just. not even ignore but contradict it entirely #for why? the purpose of this ep where the love interest studies spiders and turns into one ig #they could say that hes PRETENDING to like them because he likes her. but they didnt do that #ALSO why spider? why not werewolf? that would be hot #and the love interest is that bland brand of 'adorkable' thats so disingenuous #on the other hand i DO like spiders. and the way she talks to one and like treats it like a pet...yeah id do that ._. #and idk they always write utonium as way more harsh than he'd usually be especially with bubbles #he wouldnt tell her shes being SELFISH by not wanting to give away her last piece of popcorn to a spider #especially when she barely got any #maybe he'd remind her that its GOOD to be generous BUT NOT CALL HER SELFISH #but yeah....theres maybe a moment or two 😒 #like when his love interest spoils a whole MOVIE for the girls and ofc theyre upset #but he holds her face and says 'everything i need to see is right here'...>//< #THAT was smooth #and idk they don't play with the idea of the girls wanting to break them up ENOUGH #they just write one fake email and its done. then spider reveal #it sucks maybe i shouldnt have started my day this way 😂😂😂 #whatever hopefully work is good!! #and i always have og utoniom to think about 🥺👉👈💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘

[readythefanons]

Happy dead dove day!

This year I have prepared: nothing. Okay bye have fun! Fiction is fiction dont forget to read the tags and use that back button as appropriate byeeeeeee

#you know i havent talked a lot about this but when i was in high school and college i was one of those #people who thought like #oh certain things shouldnt be depicted in media or should only be depicted in certain ways #or maybe only certain people should make media about certain things but like #first of all who exactly do you trust to be “the depiction arbiters?” #secondly why did i think my personal feelings of discomfort or disgust were adequate tools to judge such things #and the third thing that happened was the rise of like uhhh certain schools of thought on tumblr #and the subsequent response #and i was like “hm yep im on the wrong side of this” and then like... changed my mind #did you know. youre allowed to adjust your opinions and views #especially when you encounter new information or new viewpoints

[k8felge]

nothing hurts more than seeing ur fave character depicted in an official au story or elseworld where details ab them r different but it explores the character in a new way -- its good in a vacuum, but u know it isn't the Definitive Version of that character. Just a new exploration (cool!). but because the adaptation brought in so many new fans and/or was a huge success it ends up being treated like its the Definitive Version and all discussions of prev versions are overshadowed bc of it... even worse when studios / execs see the success and try to pivot to this New Version only and never try to explore new routes for the character ever again (can you tell this is about comics yet)

#like its not as bad as it was but when the batman (2022) came out... #like this is not hating on ppl who are fans of these depictions at all. if u like the riddler in the batman (2022) ur fine #i like the riddler but eh i dont think that version should be the new riddler. my two cents #but dc isnt marvel so i wasnt worried ab them changing the comics riddler to him moving forward #now MARVEL on the other hand... #i dont rly go there tho so take everything with a huge huge huge pile of salt. but sigh #anyways. this post is NOT about shaming ppl who are fans of these new versions #you can be a fan of any of these new versions. idc. #this post is about STUDIOS and EXECS changing the character completely to capitalize on the new versions success #this is just mostly ab mcu i guess i dont know #i want more explorations of characters gimme moreeee there shouldnt be one defined version #i guess my talking points r confusing. i hope this is coherent and comes across well #ALSO SOME RETCONS / NEW VERSIONS R GOOD SOMETIMES!!! it just depends i guess :p #i hope this post didnt come off as malicious to fans of these versions. #HOWEVER. new fans u gotta try to read some of the other stuff too! maybe u will find another version u like TOO! #u can have two cakes... and eat them... lets hold hands and appreciate diff versions of our faves 2gether #a good example of a retcon being good is arcane i guess... not comics but just the designs r so much better #but i wouldnt say everything ab arcane SHOULD be the new runeterra canon... #it works bc its only focused on zaun and piltover characters. to fit it in with everything else is... hard #BUT THATS OK 👍

[tiger-balm]

I just remembered that hockey player that married his stalker... who was that was that tyler seguin 💀

#talking to myself #i dont understand how that could happen 😭 #like if it was blatent enough that FANS knew about it... #was there no one in his life friends colleagues ANYONE that noticed and were like hmm maybe you shouldnt get imvolved with her 🤔 #poor guy... #honestly there are probably other pro athletes whos spouses stalked them but this is the most blatent one

[dissociative-degenerate]

He stresses me out. I feel like I'm going to puke. Who the fuck is he talking to, he doesn't tell me shit. Lord knows I never see his phone.

#you see like we moved in together and I eventually figured out he was still talking to and sexting other people #so like #im paranoid #he like deleted everyone off snapchat and im the only one he talks to regularly on there #or was #someone took my spot as his best friend on there #the little heart is gone #its making me crazy suspicious #i feel like im in highschool or some shit #but im so paranoid #and just feel like im not good enough and just not enough #hes allowed to have friends! #just tell me about them #a friend shouldnt need to be a secret #fuckkkkkkk #my shit #i want to cry #lol im being ridiculous maybe #idk

[aahsoka]

i do not understand composition are any of these anything

#im fucking Struggling #we did these collages and like i KINDA got a good comp on the second #on my own #and now im back at square one . #jordan talks #im trying to like incorporate sewing techniques like draping/pleats etc to make it ~mine~ #but maybe i shouldnt lmfao

[eyestrain-addict]

Thinkin bout mohg and miquella again....

#so many failmarriages in elden ring but this one has to be the worst/best #GOD i cant wait till we get more content for them in the dlc. ik we will i know it in my heart of hearts #diversity win! this inc3stious kidnapper is gay! #if they didnt want me to like him they shouldnt have made him so cool though with one of the best stories #i do have a lil theory tho on how exactly mohg fell in love with miquella and it has to do with dreams #also i realized the spirit tuner hewg was talking about was prolly miquella as trina #anyway my theory in a nutshell is that mohg had nightmares and trina calmed them. the formless mother told mohg that trina is miquella #and mohg kidnapped miquella as a result #i have evidence but maybe ill make that its own post #elden ring #insane ramblings #mohg #luminary mohg #miquella #miquella the unalloyed #mohgwyn dynasty #mohgwyn

[lottalove01]

rant <3

#so i told my friend im thinking abt engaging more in my christian community again starting w going to church more and visiti g exchanges etc #she kniws abt basically all my other friends being more than less religious and active in their respective communities #+ my family being religious even during soviet times and she even kniws abt the orthodox side of my family #so this shouldnt surprise her this much #why is she trying to talk me out of it saying christianity is evil and she cant agree to creationism like ok bitch me too #she acting as if im gonna become some republican american blonde woman or an primitive medieval peasant wthhh #and like i get it she and her family have always been agnostic and she doesnt have any personal experience with believe and faith #but that is even more reason to shut the hell up?? especially bc i just told her as like a life update i didnt want to start a discussion #w an agnostic no less #ppl like that make me so uncomfortable and then she kept saying things like this person is godless as a joke like stfu??? #and kept bringing up she csnt believe in god at random times it made me so umcomfortable #especially bc now i feel hesitant to invite her to hangouts w my more 'strict' friends like idk what she thinks abt them and i dont want to #expose my friends who have to listen to enough shit to someone like that like i want my home to be a safe space for my friends #anyways thats the same girl who keeps telling me she doesnt think im white and when i tell her her saying this makes me uncomfortable #shes argues its ok bc she is not white herself ok wth im literally german/slavic how is that not white im crying #cant really articulate what exactly makes me uncomfy abt this but feels like she wants to enable me its really weird #also with tge christian stuff like ive always been religious she kniws abt me reading religious texts its so weird to me #why are you my friend if you disagree with a foundamental part of my life #maybe she thoight i was an ok one bc me and my familys approach to believe and faith is very relaxed but wth man

[yuridovewing]

A while back, someone mentioned in the tags of my Darktail and Onestar post that swapping Sol's ShadowClan plotline with Darktail's WindClan one would have been interesting, and ngl. I actually sorta want to do that in my au... like Sol isn't Onestar's kid, but he goes to WindClan during Po3 where Onestar is probably near his lowest, hes deeply paranoid and resentful at what he was put through in Starlight and he's starting to lash out more, and Sol takes advantage of that and makes him become even more disillusioned with clan culture and StarClan. Sol coordinates the Eclipse Battle as a way to manipulate the clans into destroying one another, and WindClan is at the forefront. Maybe he even convinces Onestar that dismantling the clans is what's best for him. Idk though, throwing spaghetti at the wall here

#ngl i do not remember sol at all sdklfsdlfdf so maybe i shouldnt be talking about him rn #i like his design... and i dont remember anything he did besides steal babies #and he made blackstar atheist that one time through his raw homosexuality #skimming the wiki and hes just so bitter abt skyclan dumping him that he made it everyone else's problem. ig i can respect that #he doesnt seem like a typical rogue character where hes just born evil or whatever. hes just some guy throwing a tantrum #that being said... i feel like i can throw a bit more meat on him #i like those aus where hes midnights apprentice. and since midnight is a product of the tunnels in rv #and since sol is already associated with the tunnels according to the wiki. maybe i can connect him to the tunnel lore #i like his backstory so he'll still be a kittypet that lives with skyclan for a bit and then leaves #maybe he becomes like... a cultist for the tunnel or something. like he realizes theres something in there far more powerful than starclan #and he tries to either get the tunnels to take him and make him as powerful as the Trios and he basically becomes the spot from spiderverse #where he starts as kind of pathetic and a joke but develops into a legitimate threat. that or he tries to get the clans to join the tunnels #and he tries to sacrifice them to it? idk. again throwing spaghetti at the walls #maybe i should read the skyclan manga.... get an idea of what to do #i am not rereading po3 yet. lmao. #razorverse

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[girlwithfish]

googling how do you know you love someone

#i don't think im there yet but im wondering if this guy actually loves me lol or if he just says it fast #idk #maybe i shouldnt question other ppls feelings and decisions like that #its sweet he thinks that ig. scary too #hes respectful that i feel its too soon but we talk abt love in general #i asked him what love is to him n stuff #he said he feels his energy goes up and gets replenished when hes with me #but he definitely is hinting at it or tells me he feels it justwont say it bc hek nows im not comfortable w it yet #and i think its understood im not there yet and wouldnt say it back but i feel its weird unspoken thing if one person says it and the other #doesnf #but maybe love isnt saying it just to hear it back #idk im like idek what love is to me anymore #i get nervous and dont know what to say even when he asks me like what my favorite snacks are #i like him a whole lot though #already miss him and wish i was asleep at his place #i turn into a lazy cat when im at his place tho i just fall asleep and or laze about. i hope its not annoging #but he tells me a lot he likes wjen i sleep at his place so :3