#ok i giveup

[xxri]

drew every prsk character as a "fun" excercise (my hand hurts)

#prsk #art tag #prsk fa #project sekai #do i tag every character :sob: #ichika hoshino #saki tenma #honami mochizuki #shiho hinomori #leo/need #minori hanasato #haruka kiritani #airi momoi #shizuku hinomori #more more jump #kohane azusawa #an shiraishi #ok i giveup #vivid bad squad #wonderlands x showtime #wxs #niigo #nightcord at 25:00

[dollett3]

Frick this, I'm having a peanut butter granola bar!

It's 150 calories, and I can only have 800cals today

7 day fast is too extreme for me anyway

#giveup😔

Tomorrow I'm having 700 so ig it's OK?

#body ch3ck #tw ed descussion #an0rec1a #tw mia #tw thinspi #irl ana buddy #pro for me not for thee #thin$po #ana y mia #@na motivation

[muruganmumbai]

Its ok & sufficient, If we can move forward...! It may be by walking..! Or even crawling...! Just that we have to move forward...! even if we can move by an inch ahead, it will be really great..! Never ever stop...! Never Halt your march...! Just Go forward...! Inspite of oposition...! Even if there are few failures..! Even if there are temporary setbacks ..! Despite all the head wind, Keep moving forward...! One day, there will be a new dawn...! For those whom never giveup, A glorious future awaits...! I Mumbai Murugan https://www.instagram.com/p/Co41lLdsVyk/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[fatedletters]

January 22, 2022

Letter #3

It's been years since I wrote something for you. Within those period, there are times that I almost giveup the thought of continuing life without you -- because I believe I can, or so do I think. But what can I do? I feel you're there somewhere, hoping as well that we would meet eventually. Not soon, but not later... Only the Universe can tell.

I've heard from my guides, soulmates are mirroring each other. They are so aligned and alike, and if that's the case... Congrats, I know and I hope that you're still ok.

Let's meet somewhere when we're done with what should be done. Let's do our best to get out of this cycle of fear and worries.. And be strong together as we walk side by side with a more mature mindset.

I know you can feel me too, and I hope to see you soon.

#FatedForYou #SoulPartner

[the-firebird69]

and they figured it out..i am in charge and have it but am weak..and it is due to towers adn more that are stillup..tons are...huge onesand they giveup areas that aare defunct not onpurpose ok...and we whale on thm allover need to..towers allover.now. too bg and the death starholdsthem it comes down tey will allfall

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cK3oWXC3acI

[chinad]

bliss in new Asus flip chromebook

Apr 10, 2018

dreamt with my Tibet artist friend, Benba Chungdak, and his friend. we together build a company. the enterprise grows with our ages. in handling developing issues we stepped into middle aged and each have child. I saw touching moment daughter with dad. This week quite boring, for I relentlessly need assured our ordered Asus chromebook smoothly delivering to us, evade PRC customs’ deter or domestic censorship. Life can be easier with help from our dorm canteen’s aid, the woman loaned me ￥700 to pay alipay credit debt yesterday. It not only remove the tension, also let my ability to handle something in failing prison of PRC economic winter. Yesterday I also seeking equip our usb-c reader a tf card for data transferring and storage. woz's coming Asus chromebook has 2 usb-c ports while normal usb only one port, so I preparing shifting my usb and usb-c reader stick to him, now that his Intel NUC shifted to me and equips me a build-in card reader. We are migrating from usb stick to sd card. I long time intending upgrade our backup card storage, but always felt economically unfit for it. Now I am almost assured worthily to invest it. I also intended shift our old Dell notebook to my son’s mom, the small man long time complained her notebook I left her without battery, even I told our notebooks’ battery were shits. I even guessing she brought Trojan horses from PRC surveillance into the dell notebook my son and I used to play steam games, for she insisted worked on the notebook even she already had an old Hasee notebook I left her, after all my warns not to mess with our dell notebook. Now she can has a taste of her own bait. I felt glad to rip off the dell notebook, for it frequently refused windows’ patches. It also lagging in booting up, even running programs OK. After move it away from my son’s bedroom, my son will has a new desk to work on. I long time preparing my son an office space, but the dell notebook always occupied one. So my son usually wrote homework on a cheap table his mom used for her profiting tutoring. Now with 2 light chromebooks, my son has 2 fix computer desks to work on. that’s I long time intended, against his cheap mom's efforts to put him and her students in slavery situation, where only main business is tutorials, like in Mideast or Islamic. God, dad, its a yellow morning now. Sandstorm more and more common scene now here. Looking into future, so many holy discipline including severe genocide ahead. Quite some races deserve no future but hell. God put the chosen breaks through hardship and wasteland, and deserted. Bring rest to breed racing. Bring me my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, into tangible world. God, dad, bring me to top view of the canyon.

Apr 6, 2018

first dreamt kill a bear. I don't want to hunt but soon I slayed it in fear of prey. then dreamt in my hometown just after wedding. I enjoy enviable sexual life with my bride, each time I never anxious but just insatiable intercourses. yesterday is our monthly cinema time with my son, woz. we watched blockbuster "ready player one". we almost missed it with fake Russian product, snow queen 3 which mimics frozen 3. we watched frozen 1 and 2 and impressed, and without hesitation we chose the snow theme movie, till 2 days before the lunar Mourning day I found we cheated by the Russian title. my son soon accepted my suggestion of change. and that's rewarding. I think "ready player one" is quite impressive in visual presentation. before the movie, I told my son my decision to put investment before deposition, in risk of CCP tyrant seizure. we never felt unease upon saving woz some pocket money via alipay's yuebao, till last Sunday we found yuebao restricting our automatic deposit, delayed more than ￥800 in cash account without profit for months, due quota restriction new CCP puppet financial regulator setup aiming to disable or malfunction the world largest fund. then I saw PRC tyrant relentlessly constrains civilian's cash flow while under table covertly leaks into its underground reservoir. I felt threatened and need to take action rather than passive been robbed. also in past months, our intended purchase, convertible chromebook, turned more dearer and scarcer on amazon China. we need response swift. my son agreed. after movie we ate hotpot near the cinema. the peanut sausage ran short, and a neighbor cheap mid aged man occupied himself unnecessary a full bowl of it against shortage. we used groupon and additional cash for more mutton. after returned to my dorm, I felt the rich meal let me energetic and delayed to sleep. I checked my purchase target monitoring and amazed by new chromebook on sale. I at once ordered it and paid by my deposit money for woz in last half year, near 2000 CNY. its so satisfying that I watched lately another episode of "the office" for completion of the wonderful lunar Mourning holiday. now last night dream is so sweet that I never know aging. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for I waited decades. grant us one more child for prosperous Eastern Asia. thx God, in this sedative morning.

Apr 2, 2018

dreamt history creation by 2 pals in three kingdoms period Chinese well known. one of them is Yuwei, with his family ie. his mother and young wife, forging his southern China country from scratch. I witness his charisma, his conquer over territory he bestowed. another guy's expanding his national border near southeastern China also in details in dream. its a sandstormy morning. last week I ripped one of zhone cms, https://agarten.in ,replace it with a tool site, a project management site. even still in experimental phrase, I already felt satisfying. my son last week installed an old famous file explorer on his android. I deleted it at once, and warn him the dangers of PRC government overtaken tool softwares. the file manager was a wonderful tool, but now manipulated by PRC government for large scale surveillance, like it purchased hundred of once perfect software tools mostly created by individuals or small enterprises, esp rooting tools. my son nodded. in night we co-operated online to assure his google voice forwarding phone enabling. but it turns out his forwarding phone consistently working for I called his google voice last year more than once, unlike my google voice never received phone call in last year, hence google require to re-verify to enable it. I told my son we should soon seek a grocer near our public spa so as not to lack fruits on our diet. I pray God grant me budget for the delicious food. my son now a considerable smart teenage, but he still hijacked by his sinful mother, who relentlessly challenged me and my parenthood. I warned my son not to frequent hospital, but last sunday soon after we returned from spa, he was arbitrarily brought by his mom left their house, left me alone updating his linux. they likely haunted eye hospital for my son's sight, on which the small woman recently fantastically obsessed. I told my son I day by day upset by Chinese teachers. they killing creativeness and smother orthodoxy. what a low moral they wholely obtained! even worsen than PRC government employee! God, dad, a new month starts yesterday, when we enjoyed downtown hostel pork steak so much. this month my credit debt again near 600 CNY. help me clear our debt and deal our daily budget lightly. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for spring 2018 just budding new life and hope of life. bring my son his enjoyed game and ready office space he will step in with affirmative. thx God dad.

Mar 23, 2018

dreamt tutoring a kid playing game, in which there is a scene of lofty gate, player has to climb up to get reward to continue the game. later dreamt of math exam, on which I always reluctant to touch while my son seemingly excels in dream. its a pale morning. after a busy week preparing migrate my work space from acer chromebook to dell chromebook, this week I mostly resting. the solution expanding chromeOS side by side with linux works perfectly for me, with installing a tool crouton under chromeOS dev mode, I now enjoy security of google ChromeOS and versatile open world of linux, which so powerful and robust. Reviewing my clumsy linux experience so far, I see clearly windows losing. Bill Gates in half century spend half world wealth to improve world health and poverty is invalid. Its no hatred, but discipline or natural giveup Holy spiritual glad to see. Now Trump sees it, and Gates persuading USA president to continue to adopt the fake savior. God, world at large, esp abnormal humans desperate for their abnormal world staged so many ugly shows including obesity, LGBT, anti-society, etc. there are so many abused food/drug eaters in developed countries while average people encounter hanger everyday. Killing in mid east mostly exchange for food, but so many unfair between healthier living and sick food/sex/drug addictive. God dad, the Earth citizen needs merit based cleanse, like Trump’s new migration law. If man can’t live a healthy life, lives him hell. So does to drug esp opium takers, and breed racers. US entertainment circle stealth too much applause and selling too much cheap and unhealthy idols. USA esp weak democrats promoted too much cheap democratic notion upon world among which quite some disqualifies, esp hate culture and competing in breed nations, like Africa and Mideast. World crisis now mostly due to cheap human cattle, which noway to preceding nor prioritize animal and grand nature. cheap hurts but decency nutritious. A society can’t self-rely nor self-sufficient, a nation wiped from its land like Mideast. But Europe and USA still missing rule Israel learns thousand years, they let enemies inside. God dad, its a new salary day now, but yet QRRS release my salary so far. Yesterday I review my near 2 decades in QRRS Dorm, my youth and loving among PRC most exciting era, so called open policy period when PRC penniless but polite peasants adopted to work mills by Capital American buyers, on the land my ancestor bestowed. I saw my old friends here and found their hidden gay. I found my seeking family esp offspring efforts in all my half life, on this fresh land I chosen to pick up and grow upon to polarize. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me sooner my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. Grant us offspring new to Royal China. Blessing me new monument to develop zhone web. After workday I will fetch my son visiting my dorm monthly, permits us joyful reuniting this afternoon. Thx God dad.

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[meritmastering]

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[averageguy1973]

I'm so stressed 😩. I'm angry 😡 and frustrated. I'm getting what I deserve right now. I screwed my life up in September. I'm paying for it big time. I'm having a hard time. I keep getting rejected over and over. I was doing ok with working and financially. But now I can barely make ends meat. Bills piling up. Not much money 💰 coming in. I may have to work 2 jobs which will mean not much Time to see my daughter. On top of that my ex is giving me a hard time about child support. I don't understand what's going on anymore. Trying to not give up and hold on to God. Big struggle. There's so much rejection a person can take. #rejection #stressed #angry #frustrated #job #money #giveup ##rant #explode #cry #help

[old-child-of-pride]

im judt tired im so fucking tired there was the thing from last night andnow im wanting to go bacj and wanting to hurt myseof and im just tired please let me have a break im trying dad imtryinf i swear please dont hate me please dont giveup onme im really really trying ok i promise    

#but i still just really wanna slice my arms open #but i want you to be ok #and im trying dad im trying to be ok #but its not working im sorry but im really trying #and i know its hard to be ok when you wanna hurt and your kid wants to die #but i dont know what to do and im sorrydad im so so sorry #i dont want you to wirry about me im so sorrt dad #i love you im trying to stay alive for you its really hard dad but im trying

[muslimintp-1999-girl]

Things about self-care(personal opinion)

-Yes sometimes it’s okay to be alone for a while to figure things out and clear your mind when you’re feeling down -But don’t shut yourself for too long or even for a while -Doesn’t necessarily mean go out to a crazy party -Spend time with family and neighbours -And hang out with children -Turns out company can be really helpful especially with everyday people in your community -Just hanging around not usually doing anything and having a good time.Life is about these ‘small’ moments -Call your best friend.Sometimes a call from your best friend can be all the therapy you need -Express yourself.It’s up to you how but just make sure you’re not keeping everything inside. -Talk even if it means you’re talking to yourself.Talking to yourself isn’t weird.Talk to your friends and family in irl or online not necessarily about your problems but just about anything -Everyone goes on their own pace -Don’t be afraid to face the situation or the world due to all the possible ways things could go wrong “I’ve had a lot of worries in life most of which never happened”-Mark Twain -Self-care is more important than your deadlines -Self-care isn’t wasting time but making sure things don’t get harder in the long run -When it seems that everything is slipping away you might as well just hold onto yourself bcoz maybe holding on to those things might take you away with them.In that case holding on to yourself is the most important -See a therapist.Cry.Express your feelings and opinions.Break the stigma and stereotypes.You shape the society. -Believe in yourself.The best things need the most time to happen.Don’t compare your pace with someone else’s. -It’s ok to giveup sometimes.Don’t give up even after giving up. -Food ofcourse -Don’t let what you can’t do stop you from doing what you can do. -Overachievements are overrated. Average is more awesome than you think. -Your occupation might not be the one most sought out in the society or that grants fame and money -But it should be something you love and can contribute to whole-heartedly -No work is small.Your contribution is essential.Don’t wait for acknowledgment.Approve it yourself -Bcoz not all people can do the same thing bcoz a society needs variety.And many times than not it’s not about fitting in but standing out Your uniqueness makes the society a society and not some bunch of clones -Intention is more important than action. -Seek meaning and reason.Your doubts and fears sometimes fade that way when you can figure things out -But the heart sometimes does things out of logic and you can’t figure out the heart’s why -Listen to the Quran.That’s where the hearts find the rest.Sudais and Omar hisham al-Arabi are some great reciters. -Life is too short and temporary and so are your problems and worries.Overstressing about life problems isn’t logical or worth it really. -“It’s not about how the world sees you but how you see the world.” a Wong fu short -Some people say they believe in words,some people say they trust actions but first and foremost just make sure your intentions are good -There is a hadeeth I don’t remember word to word but it’s message is that there is a flesh in the human body if it’s sound the whole body is sound and if it’s corrupt the whole body is corrupt and that flesh is the heart.💖

#postitforward

#postitforward

[feizasyafirah]

Dear My Self,

Thankyou for still alive, thankyou holding on till today, thankyou for refusing to giveup when everything is falling apart. Thankyou for always trying to fix everything and heal your heart. Thankyou for always giving your best in anything that you do. I know that everythings isn’t easy to be here, right? you’ve tried not to cry, or you’ve hidden many wound. But You’ve done your best! You did well!!! So that, things may get rough in the future, but you’ll definitely through it all!! That’s it! Ok. I love u more than anyone in this world :) #selflove

[sufirazali]

Saturday, 6.00 A.M

11/1/2020

Hmm sufi.. apa kau dah buat.. kau kalah lagi dengan ego kau.. kau ni kenapa sufi ? Cuba la rendahkan ego tu dengan org yg kau sayang..

Entahla weh..aku pun tak tahu kenapa dilahirkan dengan ego yg tinggi.. bukannya dapat apa pun.. fyi sebab kau lah ego,aku dengan kesayangan gaduh 😞.. hmmm sedih weh..sayang aku tawar hati dengan aku.. mcmmana ni..once kalau someone tu tawar hati dengan kita, bye bye la jawabnya..

Sufi.. please ubah perangai tu.. aku tau kau marah sufi..kau marah dengan diri kau.. aku tau kalau marah ni, caranya senyap.. if tengah diri duduk..if tengah duduk baring.. if tengah baring meniarap.. cey tu aku saje tambah..tapi kau tak boleh mcmni sufi.. hmmm aku ni memang tak reti betul pujuk orang.. maklumlah, dah terbiasa kalau terasa dengan orang ke, pujuk diri sendiri je 🤣

Sayang, saya minta maaf atas apa yg berlaku.. saya bukannya nak senyap seribu batu.. saya taknak saya keluarkan perkataan yg bukan2 bila saya marah.. awak pun tahu kan, kita manusia ada batasnya.. once kalau words yg bukan bukan keluar time kita tengah marah.. the words it cannot be back.. once it hit thru us, I definitely hit it. No excuse.

Apa weh harini..mcm semua benda tak kena.. siang kena bising dah, lepastu petang pun nak tukar lampu mcm mcm hal kena ulang alik.. nak minta waranty ecu pun, kena ulang alik kota masai ulu tiram.. malam pulak kawan ajak jumpa, ikutkan malas sebab penat.. tapi takpelah.. memang aku lama dah tak jumpa kawan2 aku... astu bapak pulak bising sebab aku balik lambat. Adoi.. cemana la semua benda tak kena

Bagi aku tu ok je.. cuma yg sedih sangat2 ni aku gaduh dengan jihah.. aku harap dia takkan giveup dengan aku... harap sangat2.. aku sayang sangat dia weh..

She’s my world 😊

[myescape977]

Feeling safe & comfortable is much greater than luv👏🏻

Everyday i hear that behind every broken heart they tell the same story >search for safety before anything.. that calms down all ur insecurities & make u feel ok just ok

Search for someone who make u feel safe

Luv alone isn’t enough

inner peace it what I seek 💙 giveup on anything not make u feel the same

[be21zh]

Apr 10, 2018

dreamt with my Tibet artist friend, Benba Chungdak, and his friend. we together build a company. the enterprise grows with our ages. in handling developing issues we stepped into middle aged and each have child. I saw touching moment daughter with dad. This week quite boring, for I relentlessly need assured our ordered Asus chromebook smoothly delivering to us, evade PRC customs’ deter or domestic censorship. Life can be easier with help from our dorm canteen’s aid, the woman loaned me ￥700 to pay alipay credit debt yesterday. It not only remove the tension, also let my ability to handle something in failing prison of PRC economic winter. Yesterday I also seeking equip our usb-c reader a tf card for data transferring and storage. woz's coming Asus chromebook has 2 usb-c ports while normal usb only one port, so I preparing shifting my usb and usb-c reader stick to him, now that his Intel NUC shifted to me and equips me a build-in card reader. We are migrating from usb stick to sd card. I long time intending upgrade our backup card storage, but always felt economically unfit for it. Now I am almost assured worthily to invest it. I also intended shift our old Dell notebook to my son’s mom, the small man long time complained her notebook I left her without battery, even I told our notebooks’ battery were shits. I even guessing she brought Trojan horses from PRC surveillance into the dell notebook my son and I used to play steam games, for she insisted worked on the notebook even she already had an old Hasee notebook I left her, after all my warns not to mess with our dell notebook. Now she can has a taste of her own bait. I felt glad to rip off the dell notebook, for it frequently refused windows’ patches. It also lagging in booting up, even running programs OK. After move it away from my son’s bedroom, my son will has a new desk to work on. I long time preparing my son an office space, but the dell notebook always occupied one. So my son usually wrote homework on a cheap table his mom used for her profiting tutoring. Now with 2 light chromebooks, my son has 2 fix computer desks to work on. that’s I long time intended, against his cheap mom's efforts to put him and her students in slavery situation, where only main business is tutorials, like in Mideast or Islamic. God, dad, its a yellow morning now. Sandstorm more and more common scene now here. Looking into future, so many holy discipline including severe genocide ahead. Quite some races deserve no future but hell. God put the chosen breaks through hardship and wasteland, and deserted. Bring rest to breed racing. Bring me my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, into tangible world. God, dad, bring me to top view of the canyon.

Apr 6, 2018

first dreamt kill a bear. I don't want to hunt but soon I slayed it in fear of prey. then dreamt in my hometown just after wedding. I enjoy enviable sexual life with my bride, each time I never anxious but just insatiable intercourses. yesterday is our monthly cinema time with my son, woz. we watched blockbuster "ready player one". we almost missed it with fake Russian product, snow queen 3 which mimics frozen 3. we watched frozen 1 and 2 and impressed, and without hesitation we chose the snow theme movie, till 2 days before the lunar Mourning day I found we cheated by the Russian title. my son soon accepted my suggestion of change. and that's rewarding. I think "ready player one" is quite impressive in visual presentation. before the movie, I told my son my decision to put investment before deposition, in risk of CCP tyrant seizure. we never felt unease upon saving woz some pocket money via alipay's yuebao, till last Sunday we found yuebao restricting our automatic deposit, delayed more than ￥800 in cash account without profit for months, due quota restriction new CCP puppet financial regulator setup aiming to disable or malfunction the world largest fund. then I saw PRC tyrant relentlessly constrains civilian's cash flow while under table covertly leaks into its underground reservoir. I felt threatened and need to take action rather than passive been robbed. also in past months, our intended purchase, convertible chromebook, turned more dearer and scarcer on amazon China. we need response swift. my son agreed. after movie we ate hotpot near the cinema. the peanut sausage ran short, and a neighbor cheap mid aged man occupied himself unnecessary a full bowl of it against shortage. we used groupon and additional cash for more mutton. after returned to my dorm, I felt the rich meal let me energetic and delayed to sleep. I checked my purchase target monitoring and amazed by new chromebook on sale. I at once ordered it and paid by my deposit money for woz in last half year, near 2000 CNY. its so satisfying that I watched lately another episode of "the office" for completion of the wonderful lunar Mourning holiday. now last night dream is so sweet that I never know aging. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China. bring me my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for I waited decades. grant us one more child for prosperous Eastern Asia. thx God, in this sedative morning.

Apr 2, 2018

dreamt history creation by 2 pals in three kingdoms period Chinese well known. one of them is Yuwei, with his family ie. his mother and young wife, forging his southern China country from scratch. I witness his charisma, his conquer over territory he bestowed. another guy's expanding his national border near southeastern China also in details in dream. its a sandstormy morning. last week I ripped one of zhone cms, https://agarten.in ,replace it with a tool site, a project management site. even still in experimental phrase, I already felt satisfying. my son last week installed an old famous file explorer on his android. I deleted it at once, and warn him the dangers of PRC government overtaken tool softwares. the file manager was a wonderful tool, but now manipulated by PRC government for large scale surveillance, like it purchased hundred of once perfect software tools mostly created by individuals or small enterprises, esp rooting tools. my son nodded. in night we co-operated online to assure his google voice forwarding phone enabling. but it turns out his forwarding phone consistently working for I called his google voice last year more than once, unlike my google voice never received phone call in last year, hence google require to re-verify to enable it. I told my son we should soon seek a grocer near our public spa so as not to lack fruits on our diet. I pray God grant me budget for the delicious food. my son now a considerable smart teenage, but he still hijacked by his sinful mother, who relentlessly challenged me and my parenthood. I warned my son not to frequent hospital, but last sunday soon after we returned from spa, he was arbitrarily brought by his mom left their house, left me alone updating his linux. they likely haunted eye hospital for my son's sight, on which the small woman recently fantastically obsessed. I told my son I day by day upset by Chinese teachers. they killing creativeness and smother orthodoxy. what a low moral they wholely obtained! even worsen than PRC government employee! God, dad, a new month starts yesterday, when we enjoyed downtown hostel pork steak so much. this month my credit debt again near 600 CNY. help me clear our debt and deal our daily budget lightly. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, for spring 2018 just budding new life and hope of life. bring my son his enjoyed game and ready office space he will step in with affirmative. thx God dad.

Mar 23, 2018

dreamt tutoring a kid playing game, in which there is a scene of lofty gate, player has to climb up to get reward to continue the game. later dreamt of math exam, on which I always reluctant to touch while my son seemingly excels in dream. its a pale morning. after a busy week preparing migrate my work space from acer chromebook to dell chromebook, this week I mostly resting. the solution expanding chromeOS side by side with linux works perfectly for me, with installing a tool crouton under chromeOS dev mode, I now enjoy security of google ChromeOS and versatile open world of linux, which so powerful and robust. Reviewing my clumsy linux experience so far, I see clearly windows losing. Bill Gates in half century spend half world wealth to improve world health and poverty is invalid. Its no hatred, but discipline or natural giveup Holy spiritual glad to see. Now Trump sees it, and Gates persuading USA president to continue to adopt the fake savior. God, world at large, esp abnormal humans desperate for their abnormal world staged so many ugly shows including obesity, LGBT, anti-society, etc. there are so many abused food/drug eaters in developed countries while average people encounter hanger everyday. Killing in mid east mostly exchange for food, but so many unfair between healthier living and sick food/sex/drug addictive. God dad, the Earth citizen needs merit based cleanse, like Trump’s new migration law. If man can’t live a healthy life, lives him hell. So does to drug esp opium takers, and breed racers. US entertainment circle stealth too much applause and selling too much cheap and unhealthy idols. USA esp weak democrats promoted too much cheap democratic notion upon world among which quite some disqualifies, esp hate culture and competing in breed nations, like Africa and Mideast. World crisis now mostly due to cheap human cattle, which noway to preceding nor prioritize animal and grand nature. cheap hurts but decency nutritious. A society can’t self-rely nor self-sufficient, a nation wiped from its land like Mideast. But Europe and USA still missing rule Israel learns thousand years, they let enemies inside. God dad, its a new salary day now, but yet QRRS release my salary so far. Yesterday I review my near 2 decades in QRRS Dorm, my youth and loving among PRC most exciting era, so called open policy period when PRC penniless but polite peasants adopted to work mills by Capital American buyers, on the land my ancestor bestowed. I saw my old friends here and found their hidden gay. I found my seeking family esp offspring efforts in all my half life, on this fresh land I chosen to pick up and grow upon to polarize. God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, bring me sooner my Crown Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. Grant us offspring new to Royal China. Blessing me new monument to develop zhone web. After workday I will fetch my son visiting my dorm monthly, permits us joyful reuniting this afternoon. Thx God dad.

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[petruc16]

Never underestimate your thoughts

I thought that if I let my feeling locked in a box, locked the box and dropped the key, all will be ok, perfect...

I thought less feelings will cure me from damage I had...And have yet

I thought if I forget those feelings which hurts me, I'll be fine.

But...all those feelings, can't be forgotten... the box has broked, less feeling have been lot of feelings and those feelings which hurts me, now hurts me much than ever...

I still don't believe in true love...But...I need so much affection...attention and...a "she"...

#giveup #youknowyouneedfeelings