#pls feel free to not read if y'all uncomfortable pls don't

[belarath]

so I've finally figured out how to vent on here again without falling into a panic spiral which is lovely  :  and I’m just going to spam myself here cause I really need to let something out   :   I’m dying, I'm just straight up dying in here   :   I’m so empty, in many ways   :   I’m wrecked physically, I couldn't walk up a hill 2 weeks ago without sitting down halfway though, and I don't mean a big hill I mean the side of a lightly inclined large road   :   I barely can make it to eat anymore, sitting up is a challenge, any you can forget any kind of maintenance   :   I got better yesterday only just so I could wash my hair enough that after washing it again today its not riddled with dandruff enough to clog up my comb anymore   :   I finally shaved which I like, but i’ve only been able to enjoy that at home. I step outside and its not good for how anxious I am. I had a fake lining of protective masculinity that I relied on to convince me I’m safe. I still felt uncomfortable going places especially at night but it wasn't to bad. now though I’m double as certain every person I see will shank me. I’m constantly looking over my shoulder which panics me cause every time I do that I'm certain that makes me look afraid which makes me a better target   :   though shaving has made me feel better physically   :   I hate my body so much, but shaving makes me feel a bit better which is a relief, the constant loathing of how I look is very very draining   :   you'd think that like after alllll this god damn time it'd get a little easier to live with such a retched self body image but its just so heavy feeling still   :   I worry   :   I’ve always been a very sad person   :   and like I acknowledge that Its probably not healthy how sad I am all the time but   :   I’ve been like this my entire life   :   I’ve never felt happy for longer than like, maybe more than a month or 2 straight   :   I’m so confident in how well I can endure the deathly long expanses of numbness and hyper draining lack of energy   :  the lack of passion for anything the tastelessness of food   :   the contentment to not move the endless wishing for god damn peace and quiet   :   I have that thing where you really just don't want to exist, I just don't want to have to live in this body and be this mind, I acknowledge I don't have a fear of death because I day dream about not being alive in the sense that being alive is very very very heavy   :   not all the time but,,  so much of the time and that not needing to feel the desire to not want to feel heavy anymore is lovely   :   like I’ve lived like this for my entire memory and so just continuing to live has been my jam   :   I know that if I did die, my Mum would not cope, she’s die   :   I’ve watched her claw her way through things, I swear she doesn't know how hard she’s had it, and I cannot take any joy she's gleamed from this life she's sacrificed so much to reach by selfishly dying   :   death is out of the option until my Mum dies   :   and its likely that death will be out of the option until my close friends either drift away or die as, well, they’ve gone though too much, one specifically I worry about, and I think that dying would be rude to say the least   :   and again its just very selfish   :   one of the virtues of having been programmed to treat myself as lesser is that this instinct has prevent my death which is cool   :   it does make for some suffering though   :   but anyway i’ve drifted   :   I wasn't worried about myself and my sadness until this week   :   I think wednesday? I think I had a moment, I’m certain I had a moment where I fantasied about self harm, and the thing about this is that fantasising about it made me feel better, which really is the part I’m scared about   :   funny thing is though that I have a friend who did self harm but they used like a cutting tool and in my head I was like “ugh no thats just not the way to do it stabing is a way better idea!”   :   my friend told me about their experience and they said they knew it was dumb thing to do cause they had people they knew that did it but they still did it, I forget the reason why. but they regretted it and for some reason it made me thing that I’m way more reasonable because I learnt from them and decided that using like cork board pins seems like a way better idea XD   :   I didn't self harm because the pin I had on me I’m sure wasn't clean and I didn't have the energy or the free break to go get a clean one, and going through the rigamarole of sterilising and then trying to hide it was just,,, to much for my stamina to think possible.  : luckily again another piece of programming “gifted” to me by good old paterna saved me from this moment of self harm as I believe everything has to be done by the book! not by like a real book but the book he taught me to make for myself. what a lovely instinct! to have half my brain assigned to making rules to punish and contain my self which is completely SELF SUFFICIENT   :   I’m being sarcastic btw   :   to the core of me tip to toe I hate it with a fucking passion   :   one of the few passions that I do have XD   :   but again I drifted though   : the moment passed and I haven't wanted to self harm again since then which is good but I’m still unnerved   :   I’m so scared   :   I’ve been dying on the inside for a little bit now   :   I think i have anxiety, and i think I may have a little paranoia though I haven't googled it so I may not   :   but gosh its been put into perspective how self destructive I am   :   there was a post which listed a bunch of self destructive behaviours 28 in total, I had 21 of them and the other 7 involved sexuality which I don't have much of being mostly ace   :   I remember thinking “its a fairly good list” but it kinda highlighted somethings    :   it made me think    :   maybe dressing in wet clothes because you couldnt be bothered to keep your body clothed cleanly and then going out in cold windy weather even though you know you’re going to shiver and probably chafe a bit and then be super hungry cause your cold so you decide to eat out and berate yourself for spending or get home and eat and berate yourself for not making something better and getting fatter or not eating just cause who cares.   MAYBE THATS SELF DESTRUCTIVE   :   or maybe staying at public dnd games which a bunch of people who unnerve you and sap you of energy for sometimes chunks of 3 to 5 hours because you “don't want to offend people” or “don't want to mess up anyones schedule” while also not eating or drinking enough MaYbE ThAtS SeLfDeStRuCtIvE Too   :   maybe its knowing you will get horrific migraines or want to throw up from lack of sleep and maybe that will spike your anxiety about being fired from your work because you can't shake the feeling everyone wants to fire you but you don't mention anything because you'd feel bad about leaving or something and because some of these people you actually like you'll degrade yourself more because they are worth it and you’re not MAYBE THATS FUCKING SELF DESTRUCTIVE   :   I WANT TO SCREAM BUT I DONT   :   I NEVER FUCKING HAVE AND IM DYING INSIDE   :   god I get so mad and I scream so loud in my head my head hurts   :   I’m so broken in so many intricate ways and I know I could feel so much better but, theres so much in the way! and most of its me thats in the way! I’m so close to not even just like help Im so close to comfort! I just want be held by people I like, I’m sure I could ask for like more hugs or to cuddle or to hold hands or for people to play with my hair or for just in general human contact of any kind but, theres so much social anxiety to even begin to ask something like that and that even if I were to get consent how the hell could i learn to initiate!? I”M SO FUCKING SCARED to like ask for physical contact from yet another trauma as a kid. If it weren't bad enough that I’m hyper petrified about getting consent for any kind of physical contact but I also believe that if i were to touch people it would be automatically labeled as predatory because I’m male. I’m starting to think maybe sexual trauma as a kid has had a bigger effect on my psyche than I think? which in all honesty is just, its just exhausting to hold in my head that idea.

#I'm just venting here #pls feel free to not read if y'all uncomfortable pls don't #tw #abuse #probably i don't know how tw tags work #me #unpleasant content #ill feel better soon don't worry #i just desperately needed somewhere to vent #v badly

[agere-fics]

Welcome!!

this is a sideblog i created so that i could post age regression fanfics!! i haven't seen a whole lot though i know some blogs are out there writing fics like these.

My Masterlists!! 😁

about me:

my newest mutual pointed out that i don't have a name to be referred to on this blog, sooooo y'all cuties may call me L or Fish cause i love finding nemo akdhsh 🐠

autistic and neurodivergent

my little ages are commonly 2 to 8

i'm an adult, i'm 19. 16+ can interact but i'd rather my mutuals be 18+

little me loves soft, cute music, stuffies, disney movies and shows, star wars, drawing/coloring, playing pretend, dressing up, making bed nests, bluey, and stories

big me loves marvel, dc, star wars, our flag means death, good omens, doctor who, pride and prejudice, reading (fiction + nonfiction), the try guys, amongst other things 😁

i'm non-binary genderfluid and use they/he pronouns

i love the ocean!! whales, jellyfish, sharks, you name it!

about this blog:

i'll be posting only for marvel, as of right now. i might add other fandoms in the future ✨

i can't reply to comments as this is a sideblog nor can i follow back but i can reblog!

this is a sfw blog only!!

on that note, this blog is age regression only!!!! no k!nk allowed here, as that's inappropriate and not at all related to agere.

the fics will be x readers. i don't write character x character ships, i'm sorry.

requests are allowed and will always be open. pls submit them through the ask box. however, note that i may choose not to write it for various reasons or i might not write it right away. rest assured though you will receive a reply regardless so you won't be left wondering.

everyone is welcome (unless anything applies to you in the dni list)!!! this is a safe space for all and i want all to be appreciated, no matter how you may identify, what your race is, or what your ethnicity is. you are important to me and many others in the world.

stay tuned for any updates!! :)

who i write for: mostly loki, bucky, steve rogers, and din djarin, however pls feel free to request any other characters i'll try my best! <3

what i will not write: anything involving k!nk, agepl*y, or dd/lg-esque things. i am also uncomfortable writing anything involving diapers or "wetting" whether you meant it in a sfw way or not.

clarification: littles who are sfw regressors and need to wear diapers and such, i love you! you are very nice, i'm sure! it just makes me uncomfortable to write about such things because of past stuff. but please don't let that deter you! if you have any other ideas, i will gladly try my best to make your fic dreams come true!

DNI:

k!nk blogs (particularly dd/lg and other variants of that. if you just write smut, fine. but if it's ddlg or daddy k!nk stuff, you're getting blocked. how am i supposed to know you're not sexualizing what i'm writing?)

if you're under 16

if you're anti agere

if you're racist

if you're ableist

if you're queerphobic

if you're classist

if you're pr*datory or anything like that

if your blog is blank

I have the right to block anyone. If you're in my dni list and you still decide to follow or send an ask or like my posts, you're getting blocked. I'm sure you're a great person but respect boundaries. I do not consent to any blog that fits the criteria of my DNI list to follow or interact with my agere blog.

#agere community #marvel fanfic #little reader #agere fanfic #sfw agere #loki x little!reader #bucky x little!reader #bruce banner x little!reader #reader insert #long post #star wars

[sapphicpetrodactyl]

Welcome to my blog, this post will be filled with info on me

if u don't want to read it, that's totally fine have a nice day!

General Info:

Name: Riot

Pronouns: She/He/They

Age: Minor

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My Interests:

Fandoms (see below section)

Reading

Drawing

Listening to music

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Fandoms:

MCU

Star Wars

TUA

SoC

The Hunger Games

She-Ra

LoTR

PJO

Illuminae

The Aurora cycle

B99

(there's more and i'll add them as i remember)

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More Info

I spend way to much time online for my own good

I live in Australia

I am terrible at interacting with ppl, both online and irl, so sorry about that

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Other sites

I also have a wattpad and Ao3, and sometimes i write stuff so if u wanna follow me there feel free :)

Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/user/sapphicpetrodactyl

Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/sapphicpetrodactyl

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Tags:

riot rambles - used on original posts

riot reblogs - should go on posts i reblog, sometimes i forget though

riot makes stuff - goes on original posts in which i make things

<insert fandom here> - goes on any posts about a specific fandom

cute stuff - usually stuff i rb, anything rlly cute

more tags:

my moots - goes on posts relating to my moots :) (each moot has a tag, which is basically just their name or url if i don't know their name)

important/very important - on posts that are important (obviously)

This is not a fully complete list, i will add any other tags i usually use as i remember them

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Asks:

Please ask me stuff, especially my moots, it makes my day when any of y'all interact with me, but there will also be some rules

1. nothing nsfw - you will be blocked - pls don't use anon to ask me nsfw stuff i will remove anon asks if this happens

2. pls don't mention r*ape, alcohol or drugs

3. if i have said something makes me uncomfortable pls don't ask me about it

Other than that, i hope you all have a fantastic time on my blog and in general

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I got the idea to make this post from seeing @fangirl2o20 make one a while ago, so credit to them <3

anyway have good day/night (what ever time it is where you are)

#riot rambles #info on me

[lixiektty]

about me!!

name: ky, you can just call me k as well :))

pronouns: she/they

ult bg: stray kids, the boyz, enhypen, monsta x, nct, txt, ooo

i write for mainly my ults

this is a safe space for everyone! feel free to dm me whenever you feel like if you need someone to talk to.

i struggle with mental health issues, this can cause me to go MIA sometimes so pls pls don't pressure me to post if i haven't for a while.

i DO NOT write for underaged members!

i DO write memberxmember (mainly for skz), if you're uncomfortable with that just simply don't read it.

my blog is completely explicit, the only fluff/anything but smut you'll see on here is if it's in a series.

don't send request when they are close, before sending any please check my bio.

please keep in mind that if you request something that i am not comfortable with writing, i will not be writing it and ignore your req.

kinks/fetishes i WILL NOT write about: scat/piss play, noncon, incest/stepcest, pegging, male!reader, dom!fem!reader x sub!idol (i'll only do switch!reader x switch!idol when i want the female to have a dominant role), animal hybrids, feet (i hate feet, i'm sorry i just can't lol), age play (i am not abt to make the reader sound and act like a child.)

dni if racist, homophobic, sexist, any phobic in the book, skz or bp antis, you kink shame, just shitty in general etc.

ima tell y'all my bias list cause why not

skz: hyunjin, felix & seungmin

tbz: eric

mx: changkyun

ehn: jake & niki

nct: taeyong, xiaojun, ten (renjun, jeno, jaemin & jisung are my nct dream biases)

txt: ot5 but yeonjun is my main

ooo: wookjin, junhyung & taeyeob

my fave male soloists are wonho, woodz, dawn and kim wooseok

i also stan bts, shinee, exo, ateez, superm, x1, ghost9, etc. (there's way too many to list).. and as for gg, blackpink(ult), itzy(ult), (g)-idle, red velvet, stayc, aespa and twice (also too many to list).. (but i will not be writing for gg)

[doazin-writes]

Hello, you're fine? I hope so! Please enjoy your time here!

Please call me mod Doazin! Or mod Nagisa if you want!

I'm an amateur writer, all i want is give you comfort! So, what do you think about learn more about me and this blog?

First things first! All my reply icons were made by @skellychan!

Now, let's keep going.

I'm mod Doazin/Nagisa!

I'm sixteen years old, so pls don't be a creep.

Don't be scared to talk to me! I don't bite!

((Please don't make fun of my english, i know it's bad, but learn a new language is really hard, i'll try my best! Really! If i make any grammatical mistakes, please tell me kindly!

Rules!/About the account.

Don't request when requests are closed, i'll delete/ignore it! But feel free to send non-requests or talk to me!! :D

I have the right to deny if some request make me uncomfortable, but don't worry, if i decide to deny your request, i'm gonna let you know!

Don't ask me anything in my blacklist, please.

I have school, so sometimes i may be off and requests may get slow.

What i can do!

Oneshots!

Headcanons.

Character x Reader.

Character x Character.

Minor sprite edits.

Kin assignment.

Matchups.

Angst, Fluff e etc. (I do almost everything besides NSFW.)

What i won't do!

Playlists (One day i pretend to start making them!)

Icons, Wallpapers, Layouts.

Moodboards.

Stimboards.

Oneshots/Headcanons or anything with the theme yandere!

NSFW.

(May add more to that lists later!)

Whitelist!

Hajime Hinata!! (I LOVE HIM SM).

Shuichi Saihara.

Makoto Naegi.

Kaede Akamatsu.

Ryoma Hoshi.

Nagito Komaeda.

Komaru Naegi.

Tokomaru.

Hinanami.

Komahina.

Saimatsu.

Saiouma.

Saimami.

Naegiri.

Blacklist.

WOH x anyone. (romantically)

Tenko x man

Haji Towa.

Kazuichi Soda. (Sorry :( )

Hiyoko Saionji x reader in a romantic way, i just don't fell comfortable doing it, but platonic requests are well accepted!

That's it!! I hope y'all like my blog.. Im kinda new in tumblr so i don't know exactly how things works in this place, so pls be patience with me everyone! Phehe..

So, May i get a Promo?

Fell free to deny! And if you don't want to be tagged again, pls tell me, i'm gonna make sure to remember!

@ibuki-loves-you @triggerhappycafe @achilles-writing-corner @izur-x @dangansnt @forbidding-souda @treeashhere @constellation-wifi

Thank you for reading!

#danganronpa blog #danganronpa #navigation #i hope i can get a promo! #mod nagisa #mod doazin