#she was so wasted for this one guys

[markantonys]

#very curious to know you guys' thoughts! #wot #wot on prime #the wheel of time #mat cauthon #tuon paendrag #wot book spoilers #wot show spoilers #(potentially) #i'm going for 'yes instead of egeanin' #because a) i can't think of a strong reason to transport mat out of the waste plotline and into the tanchico one #unless it's to absorb ebou dar and have him cross paths with tuon #and b) if tuon is our main seanchan in the tanchico plotline then egeanin would become superfluous imo #i also think it'd make sense to get all the major characters introduced by the end of s3 #so that they'll be ready to swing into the endgame no matter how many total seasons they end up getting #not to mention that tuon DESPERATELY needs to be introduced sooner than she was in the books #if she's to get any semblance of a satisfying and well-developed character arc

[hauntingblue]

making a collection

making another collection with a threatening aura

#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo #HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn. #luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!! #what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there #FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :( #one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend #usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase #nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls #i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki #luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg #cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy #zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over #zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn #komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom #luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk #it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also #was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up??? #'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!' #flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe #zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her #that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme #fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems #foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests #now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby #the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies #kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

Happy STS Elli!

What inspires you to write? Are there things that you know that you can get inspiration from or does it just come randomly?

Happy STS!

For me, inspiration doesn't mean "to write".

There are, and always have been, a lot of stories floating around in my mind - ideas, scenes, vibes, outlines. I get inspiration from literally everywhere, from talking to my friends, and video games, and scrolling past images or prompts, and reading books, and spending too much time on reddit, and…

Many remain daydreams, or character backstories, eventually lost to time.

Now for actually being able to sit my ass down and get words on the page? I don't know. It comes and goes as it pleases. Having a beehive where a brain should be does NOT help, let me tell you that.

I just. Can't focus on shit lately. Can barely make it through a chapter when reading. Every day is just suddenly over, and I got nothing done, and I am so tired. I have a completely outlined short thing I have been trying to write since Nov, and it's like pulling teeth.

I could do with several months off work while everyone leaves me the fuck alone. How would that be.

#salad-ask #aria-benedetto #sts ask #I cried new year's because after having 1 (one) day of my vaction actually completely to myself #Which was after I already didn't get any quiet time on my LAST three attempts at taking time off because someone was sick at home #And spending most of all that time just working (in my time off) and cleaning the depression piles #My mom berated me for instantly refusing to come over for some 'if I die you need to know where stuff is' talk #(note: there's no reason to think she might anytime soon and she was talking about like... a cd collection) #'You always have something!!!' #I don't know anymore how to get people to understand how fucking exhausted I am. #I'm about to let the stupid paint course voucher from work lapse because in a year I didn't find a motive I like and the energy to even #consider wasting 3 hours of my life after work to produce some physical object I have no room for while having to run to get there on time #Not to mention people!! A room full of people!! #I've just become sooo sensitive to noise lately I can't even stand to be in the kitchen when the fridge hums #And you're always always always the bad guy if you close the door in someone's face because they're whistling or watching tv or calling #It's cool :) Sorry I was being unsocial :) Lemme just quickly slam my head against a wall until I pass out :) #So uh anyway happy STS writing has been going well

[kavehater]

AAAH I have a mutual who’s 18 and he sorta kinda is flirting with this one guy who is a minor as a joke of course ( to which a concerned anon said that it’s weird ) but I can’t help but flashback to er*s

#granted the er*s situation was thoroughly complex and the reason she did those things was her copism with not being able to pull ( LLLLLLL ) #and ik that guy doesn’t mean any harm etc etc he’s not messed up like some ppl #BUT I DUNNO STILL #sobbing #they’re pretty sweet so #hes* #OH AND HES IRAQI TOO I LEGIT COULDNT BELIEVE THAT #dora daily #lowkey kinda sorta sad that a whole anon was more concerned than ppl i knew and who knew my age #and freely saw it happen so readily #and everyone else on that blog #genuinely and utterly disappointed #it’s always protect minors until the minors need protecting goddamn #this is especially directed at rhy yeah I’m not censoring that #🤷‍♀️ #too busy simping over minor characters who don’t have a time skip in canon and aging them up then complaining about it when ppl call out #the brain deadery of that behaviour #girl pls #you did not care about minors from the beginning literally bye #e[redacted] literally ruined my brain chemistry to say the least I will never go into how what she did absolutely muddled my brain never #told anyone and I don’t think I can ever tell someone ever #not to mention practically hyperventilating being unable to breath literally going into madness and ppl think that I’m overreacting and #telling me to shut up about it and blaming me for the situation as if I wanted any of this #lmaolmaolmao #all that and I was expected to do uni girl byeeee I need a good century to recover at least ☠️ #the only thing I DID want is friends but clearly that was a hard ask when ppl can get friends just by existing on this god forsaken app #atp I don’t even know what to say literally just wth #yall say mdni with your dumbass banners and decorate it like something special when yall are the ones to keep from minors you disgusting #wastes of clean oxygen 😭 mdni my foot gross ass adults should’ve never trusted them #the way I’d give them therapy to their complex traumas ☠️ imagine relying on a minor for therapy

[fictionadventurer]

*

#okay i promise i'm going to get off tumblr and actually get something decent done #but i just have to mention that i started reading 'thief liar lady' #the cinderella retelling where she's pulling a con #which i did not have high expectations for because that concept screams 'we're going to prove how dumb the original cinderella story is' #so i have to give it credit that so far it's pleasantly surprising me by pulling back every time it's about to do something stupid #within the first page or two we have 'they say the slippers were glass and the carriage was made of a pumpkin which is so dumb' #which seems like standard cinderella bashing but it's also framed as an explanation of the magic system #as in 'this is a waste of magic based on the rules' not 'this story is stupid and my 'real' one is better' so i can live with it #we have the enemy prince she's trying to con but he's not a dumb strawman royal #he's actually a sweet guy and a shrewd diplomat #all the royals are actually getting credit for talents as well as flaws #no strawmen in sight (i still shudder to remember 'just ella') #it feels like real politics #and there is *so much* politics and i am eating it up #(which makes me realize that one of the reasons i love cinderella retellings is that there's a lot of potential for politics) #we did have a scene where she goes into the throne room and meets a strange disheveled nobleman lounging on the throne #which made me roll my eyes because you could not have had a more obvious 'meeting the ya love interest' scene #but then there's a scene where she's like 'i don't care about embroidery' #and i internally groaned #but then she's like 'but i do like the embroidery circle because it's relaxing to be away from the men for a while' #so to my delight i could cancel the 'not like other girls' alert #the queen is feminine and her social skills are presented as a vital political skill #the swearing is really stupid and out of place and brings the book down #and i know that there'll most likely be something that makes me stop reading it before the 25% mark #but i do want to give the book credit for pleasantly surprising me #i'm liking it more than i otherwise would because of all the ways i was expecting it to disappoint me

[stillcominback]

𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙻, 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝙳𝙸𝙲𝚃'𝚂 𝙸𝙽: as a lot of you may know by know [ if you've caught any of my previous posts about it ], i'm moving with my parents back to california from texas -- where i've been for about 30 years -- because overall? it'll be good for me. i'm sick of texas for the most part, i literally can't afford to live on my own [ and honestly? i like being near my parents and would just have more security and better quality of life in CA ], and i just think sometimes a change is good!

i've been waiting to see if my job will let me keep my job [ and continue to pay me dirt, even! ] ... all i was asking is that i can live in california and work remote. well, the owner has decided he will not allow me to do that. is there a good reason? in my opinion: no. he's framing it [ in his conservative white man rich business owner brain ] that I'M the one making the choice to move because i could apparently just as easily stay in texas and get my own place etc etc etc. so it's on me! unfortunately, it's just not that simple, but i guess from a guy who runs a family business and has multiple homes, it's just hard to really grasp that concept.

i'm literally so furious and so heartbroken at the same time. i know it's not the best company, and yeah i guess, we can say this is for the best in the end? but that doesn't make it hurt less. i've been there for almost 11 fucking years. my ENTIRE career out of college. through ups and downs, i was always working my ass off and being a great employee ... shining reviews and reputation with literally everyone. it just hurts that that ultimately means nothing when i'm finally asking for something in return. i take the poverty wages, take the working in the office when i hate it for the most part, i've taken having to hear misogynistic, homophobic, transphobic, every-phobic thing over the years ... then i ask for ONE thing in 11 years [ that's literally not even a big ask ] and it's a ✨no✨.

i feel so lost. like i don't even know how to be without this job, and as much as people tell me YOU'RE SO TALENTED! YOU'RE SO GREAT! YOU'LL FIND SOMETHING SOOOO MUCH BETTER! i wanna believe it, but my brain just ... doesn't. maybe it's imposter syndrome or just how fucking down on myself i feel right now. i still appreciate it because i literally don't know what i would do without my friends and family's support right now like ... even if i can't see it for myself, it means the literal world to me.

plus sides [ i guess ]: i should be able to keep my laptop [ but i'll lose adobe cc so ... i may need some recs or help on how to at least get photoshop cause idk how i'll carry on without it lmao ]; my manager who is a literal saint and one of the best people i know [ she actually pissed the owner off going to the mat for me lmao "he doesn't like to be questioned" ... insert the biggest eye-roll of my life ] ... but she said she would help me with literally everything from linkedin to my resume to a portfolio, and i know that'll be like everything to me while i just .... try to navigate all of this ON TOP OF trying to move.

ALSO: i think i can work until i leave, if that's what i want to do ... i'm still trying to figure all of this out because honestly? even though it's not much? i need the money. but then i'm also like i don't wanna do the owner any favors by having me work while they maybe start putting out feelers to replace me, yknow? BUT THEN AGAIN, i'm hurting my boss more than him [ and that's the twisted, frustrated thing about all of this ... it hurts us way more than it does anything to him but he still gets to make the choice for us ]. SO! i dunno! i may just use all my PTO and see how far that gets me lmao but i feel like at the end of the day, i have to look out for myself and maybe just trying to pull in as many paychecks as i can [ since we also don't have a hard 'we're moving!' date at the moment ] is the best idea ... even if the idea of going into the office and acting normal like literally makes me so ... 😤 but i dunno! my brain is a mess! afjhksdfda

SO YEAH. i just wanted to update you guys because i do consider you friends. whether we talk a little or a lot, i appreciate all of you so much and just wanted to keep folks in the loop with where my life and my head's at right now. not the best but ... just trying to keep it moving. honestly nooooo clue when writing is gonna happen here again??? i do miss / enjoy the distraction of plotting and talking about all this stuff so don't be shy, i just don't know when i'll have the time or capacity to just write here [ maybe once we move and stuff settles a little bit? ] -- but yeah, in the meantime, please come chat with me, let's plot dynamics and all that shit because it still makes me so happy and lets me take my mind on a little vacation lmao love you all, truly! ❤️

#** reblogging on some of my blogs to pass it around but! applies across the board: you can find most of my blogs in my pinned post here! ** #been on and off crying since like 4PM yesterday so it's been a ride lemme tell ya! #nothing like feeling like you wasted over a decade of your life at a job that never really cared about you #like MY boss does but stupidly she doesn't get to make all the decisions for HER own team #even though the owner is barely present and doesn't really know anything about us or the day to day so ... very cool of him #to make big decisions that can hurt a lot of people (and don't affect him one bit either way) #he just really doesn't seem to give a shit at all that it makes our lives so much harder for NO reason #it's just that he literally doesn't ��like” remote working and doesn't want to set some kind of company-wide precedent #even tho i'm like moving isn't THAT easy lmao people aren't all just gonna mass exodus out my guy #(also we have a C-level employee who lives / works from new york but ... apparently that's SUUUUPER different because she lived there when #she was hired ........ *stares into camera*) #anyway!!! i'm just really frustrated and hurt and fucking terrified #and i appreciate literally anyone who bothered to read all this! lmao #i'll be around on mobile as per usual ❤️❤️❤️ #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[aashiyancha]

Dr Simone strikes again

#rune factory 5 #rune factory #rf5 alice #rf5 ares #rf5 reinhard #aashi doodles #palette refresher doodle #also theres a story behind this event that i may doodle later idk #simone regularly goes drinking with her trio and ares is sometimes invited too #one day she insists rei join as well since he was hanging our with ares when she invites him #he goes but can't drink bcs he always needs to be full alert for bea's sake #the drunker simone gets the more she badgers him to loosen up and pours drinks out for him despite his refusal #the guy can't waste stuff tho so he can't secretly pour it down the drain or window #so ares starts secretly drinking both to cover for him and simone/friends are so drunk they don't notice anything #hence him affectionately watching over hungover ares XD #the end #i shouldvreally consider doodlibg all this ibdtead of just hiding it in the tags lol

[ratislatis]

tapas' 1500 minimum chapter word count for the contest is singlehandedly destroying my spirit where it stands

#she speaks! #tapas contest #guys what if I gave up. #ive never posted about this contest on tumblr but #I just need you all to know #I. HATE. word counts #I HATE putting in needless exposition #okay maybe not always needless but #my writing is curt for a reason #I don't fuck about with fluff #I don't like to waste peoples' time #UUUGHHHHH TAPASSS YOU'RE REALLY STARIN ME DOWN HERE GODDAMMIT #UUUUUUGGGGHHHHH I DONT WANT TO WRIIITTTEEEEE #I also need you all to know my book was already written #I just spontaneously submitted it #but I weighed the chapters weird and now I need to extend the last ones #its so joever see you all in hell #nevermind introduction to the snow just came on we are so back

[emuwarum]

sometimes when playing ark you completely forget about something you’ve read.

I finally build a nice little enclosure for all (I think it’s around this number) 30 dodos. I put a feeding trough in and fill it up. I set everyone to passive flee, wandering, disabled mating.

I take a quick step outside to grab something, come back, look up in horror at all the mating hearts floating above the enclosure. I completely forgot that you can’t turn off mating when they’re wandering, and that they automatically mate when they wander.

so I guess I’m gonna have to deal with that tomorrow (use the resulting eggs to make kibble)

#Emu tries to post #ark #ark survival evolved #this is a lovely game in whyi go looking for a spino which I don’t find #I go down to rest my pteranodon #all the other pteranodons which were carrying the spino trap supplies and narcotics and such are being annoying. #a pachyrhinosaurus walks up to me #much shenanigans in taking her like losing half my narcotics when I forgot to feed them to her and she woke up #because I was too busy watching a pack of terror birds terrorise everything in sight #one is swimming trying to get me #i knock it out #take him #go back to the pachyrhinosaurus #in our way back to base there’s a higher level male #I knock him out after wasting many arrows hitting his head #I go to out the narcotics and food in his inventory #while exiting the inventory a dilo has murdered him #because I set all my tames to passive so they wouldn’t kill him before I knocked him out #so I had to tell them to kill the dilo #but anyway I go home to make saddles and dye them blue and red for the new guys #I think my best name for anything so far would be cowboy the fastest #my gallimimus #she’s wonderful #very good dino to command others from #since I can just yeet myself away at light speed

[reliabledragon]

I think I'm up to ten people now where only after multiple dates and substantial investment do they reveal that they either lied on their profile or left out major red flags when we discussed dealbreakers. I'm feel like I ought to get a punchcard for a free meal at this point or something.

#why does dating suck so bad guys #seriously if people would just be honest and stop wasting my time it would have saved me solidly six months at this point #I talked with one woman for two months #called her multiple times a week and texted the full length of a novella back and forth #only for her to then tell me she was MARRIED #what even is the point of discussing red flags if people are going to just lie about it?! #and then so many people just straight-up lie on the app about their children preferences #if my profile says “wants kids” why would you match with me if you don't want kids?? #and if your profile says “wants kids” or “open to kids” why are you telling me you never want children?? #I am so sick of the idiotic childish dating scene in this self-centered city #and the girl I had been seeing casually for two months just informed me that she doesn't think she's capable of having a relationship #SO WHY DID YOU TELL ME YOU WANTED ONE #what was the point of wasting my time like that

[dcomposing]

ok saving my thoughts on the FULL tokomaru/naegami Family Dynamic for a much longer post BUT for now i think the very first time they meet komaru spends 90% of her time revealing all of makoto’s most embarrassing secrets while togami sits there like

and from that point on he’s obsessed with her. he thinks she’s soooo funny and projects all of his Weird Guilt about “killing” his siblings onto her so he spoils her rotten. doubly so when she starts dating fukawa and he doesn’t have to worry about being stalked anymore. makoto both loves and hates it because he loves that his partner loves his sister, because he loves her! but hates it because their favorite thing to do together is make fun of him (lovingly.)

he also always brings outrageously expensive gifts for her whenever he comes by the house so every day komaru’s like “hey. is togami coming by today :)” and makoto’s like “you have to stop this. he’s going to think im dating him for his money.” and then he comes over like “hello komaru here are some backstage passes for maizono’s next concert. please enjoy the show. also i thought you did very well at your last track meet. hi makoto.” and makoto’s like. im never bringing him home again.

#my favorite part of togami's character is the fact that he literally doesn't know how to be normal about anything. #soooo much comedic potential there that by and large goes WASTED in favor of cool and collected togami (boring) #i imagine when they get to the Really Serious and Committed part of their relationship togami is SO nervous about the naegis not liking him #that he goes way too far in trying to impress them #and komaru's the only one chaotic enough to be like YES! rich brother in law #makoto HATES it because he's a give from the heart not from the wallet kind of guy #and togami's like 'if you wont let me buy you nice things im at least going to buy OUR sister nice things' #also they gang up on makoto sooo bad but whenever makoto bullies togami back he's like 'whatever. at least komaru's on my side' #(she isn't but she's not going to let him know that until she's been dating fukawa a little longer) #danganronpa #naegami #byakuya togami #makoto naegi #komaru naegi #really cool and very interesting

[bmpmp3]

the epic highs and lows of trying to read an ongoing shounen manga

#for me it uh. tends to have more epic lows than epic highs. im very unlucky with shounen #occasionally a few years after something i start reading it'll turn out to be good #but any time i follow something from the beginning it starts getting. worse #is it me? am i doing this? dont tell me to read your favourite shounen i'll turn it bad #did i ever mention that one manga. the moon is beautiful but first die #a mouthful of a title. it started kinda goofy but i really adored the main character for some reason #im still a bit attached to him. he cleans so well that he got the magic power to see real good. and now he can matrix bullet time #hes just like me for reeeeeeeaaaal hflkanjvdkfljfds but yeah that manga was. weird but fun BUT THEN #it got so wack you guys you dont understand. the first like one or two volumes? fun #everything else? god knows JHKFDJFDK i still read it all tho. i was invested in my guy with seeing real good powers #and im sorry to say. unfortunately it seems. a certain manga with a big tv adaptation that is pronounced oh she no co #my curse. its started. although that ones very much a epic high and epic low situation like itll be so so wack one minute #and suddenly get good again and then plummet back down HFKJDSBHJds we will see how it goes on #i started getting annoyed with the writing after the stageplay arc because they kept like. time skipping over so much #which i thought was a bit of a waste because there was a lot of interesting potential in a lot of the showbiz storylines. but we shall see #thats not shounen tho thats seinen but my curse applies to some seinen too LOL but most seinen i read is already finished #and shoujosei is spared from my curse. i think just because most i have the opportunity to read in english just tends to not #be drawn out or have weird scheduling things messing with the pacing. are there any weekly shoujosei magazines out there #i dont think weekly manga is good. for a lot of reasons mostly the mangakas health but also i find more weekly stuff i read #that isnt like. 4koma stuff suffers in its pacing a LOT. but again that might be my curse. the second i lay my eyes on it. the curse #(sorry ive been catching up on a lot of manga recently LOL ur getting my manga thoughts now)

[the-witch-of-woods-beyond]

okay cause cheating is wrong, obviously. but some people are really out here going, no it’s okay that they’re a murderer who killed your family and ruined your life and straight up abus5ed you and also is significantly older than, no that’s okay they had a secret reason they never told you about and a tragic backstory - oh wait they cheated? how dare they????

like i’m sorry but cheating is not the worst thing in the world compared to what i listed above and sometimes in media it can actually be understandable why a character cheats but everyone calls them a monster - which yeah cheating sucks - but then turn around and in the same breath go, oh that terrible abus!ve p!ece of sh!t that’s hot and has a villain aesthetic but does sh!tty things for sh!tty reasons?? they’re my faveee how dare you hate them for valid reasons??

#this is about soooooooo many shows but i cba to tag them all #elena gilbert #delena #stelena #i hate both ships and one day ill compile my thoughts on why but BOTH brothers needed to stay the hell away from my girl #and the fandoms reaction to a traumatised teenager enrages meeeee #cause dont say you hate her and that she deserves to d!e for reaction to things like a TEENAGER would #and then turn around and go but those two brothers almost ten times her age who abuse her and treat her like sh!t #and only like her cause she looks like this girl they knew centuries ago who abused them and almost tore them apart?? oh theyre my favourit #like stfu and go rewatch the show #alsooooo #saraha cameron #my babyyyyy #my angel #my darling treasure who deserves warm hugs and fluffy blanekts for the rest of her life #cause no way you guys looked a teenage girl who was homeless and depressed and going through it who had just had the worst moment #of her LIFE thrown in her face by her HUSBAND try to go back to a time in her life when she was happy and loved and call her a b!tch #but then looked at her phycho brother who tried to DR0WN her and kill all of her friends and shot someone in front of her only to blame it #on her husband and the go oh but hes a typical moody depressed hot guy with a tragic backstory and messed up parental relationships #so i love himmmmmm 🤪 #like no no no STFUUUU #also like that wasnt bad enough you then started to ship him with the girl he also tried to DROWN whos friends hes been trying to kill #like this a grown dude who likes to waste his dads money and get high and drunk going after teenagers and killing people #but you love him and then complain about said teenagers acting like teenagers????? #like no you dont deserve these shows go awayyyy

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

MY MUM JUST BOUGHT ME AND HER TICKETS TO SEE SIX?? UNPROMPTED???? SHE IS THE MOST CONFUSING WOMAN ALIVE??????? BUT YAAAAAYYYY

#she hates me but also doesnt but also does but not quite but does but doesnt but #see i have a worse relationship with my father but its so much easier because hes just an absolute bastard all round #my mothers flip flopping every day calling me an ungrateful waste of money one minute then buying me six tickets the next like?? #what am i meant to do about that??? #anywayz SIX TICKETS WOO FUCKING LOVE SIX #I WAS MEANT TO SEE IT RIGHT BEFORE COVID HIT AND I JUST HAVENT COME ACROSS IT SINCE #SHE SAW IT AND JUST BOOKED THE TICKETS FOR NEXT YEAR IM LIKE SO EXCITED #fr though why is she being so nice to be its kind of frightening #i think its because i had that breakdown in front of her before #she hasnt told me to get a job since then either #you guys dont understand how big of a deal that is #she always finds a way to tell me to get a job #anywayz everyone thank my mum for being a great mum <3 #for the moment as least #dont want to jinx it #maybe marrying my step dad last month changed her psychologically #omg maybe shes started therapy #am a little afraid because im in the process of starting testosterone (yay!) but havent told her and i should be on it by december so uh #its gonna be obvious by the time we go to see it #so im *scared* #she may very well take the tickets away but LETS HOPE NOT #im so sorry ive written an essay in the tags lmfao #mummy issues #mummy issues going wild fr

[simcardiac-arrested]

was the social media site vk because h. hi I roleplayed warrior cats on vk when I was like 9🤝

oh no it was way worse than vk. it was ok (odnoklassniki)👍

#i’ve never used vk #well. okay. i have used it exactly Once sometime when i was 10 #to not only impersonate a popular emo dog artist. but to also pretend to be my friend’s boyfriend so that she could piss off her ex or #something like that. i dont even remember if that worked but i know that i did reveal it to be Not True at one point #and me and the guy had a nice conversation #and then i never used vk again because. well. ihave no reason to use it first of all. second of all i hate that place and i would rather be #crucified than forced to interact with strictly russian communities #but anyway you would think that’s the end of the story. HOWEVER like a month or two ago my friend messaged me like #‘hey do you use vk?’ and i was like. No. You know i dont. and he was like ‘hmm. ok. well that explains why you haven’t been responding to my #memes since september’ and i went WHAT? <- guy who completely forgot he still had his vk account #so i logged back in and to my horror. the account did indeed still exist. it was all there the fake bio the impersonation the drawings that #weren’t mine. it felt like i found a corpse under the floorboards of my attic #so anyway i wasted no time in deactivating the account. so all ends well that ends well #i think #cramswering #but yeah anon we are shaking hands in solidarity because i also roleplayed cat oc family on odnoklassniki among with lion king oc family #it wasn’t wc just cat characters that were. emo. and awfully designed #damn i sure liked my emo cats and emo dogs

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Y'know, the strangest thing to me about the Titan Submersible is how adamant Stockton Rush and Oceangate were about how "innovative" they were being. They claim to have been, and I'm paraphrasing here, "pushing the boundaries" and "taking risks for the sake of progress" but like... what progress, exactly? Submersibles and submarines have existed for a very long time! There are subs that can go deeper, that have *decades* of research and development and engineering behind them - as well as a focus on the little tiny issue of safety and preservation of human life at those depths - and have genuinely contributed to our scientific understanding of not just shipwrecks but of the deepest parts of our oceans. So what, exactly, was the Titan pushing the frontiers of? Being able to uncomfortably transport people to get a negligible view of one specific shipwreck? Using the cheapest possible components to make a submersible? Making billionaire jam? Perhaps we will never know. But for all their "innovation" all they have to show for it is a >$1million crumpled wreck in five bits on the ocean floor, 4 grieving, unbelievably rich families, and a news story that completely overshadowed another sea-related tragedy from the same week in which hundreds of refugees lost their lives. That's not innovative. It's nauseating.

#titan submersible #current events #it is nearly 1am but I have THOUGHTS dammit #writing this post just made me realise how sad this whole thing makes me feel #it was so preventable. and so wasteful #also some disclaimers: #I am not any sort of journalist #I am not an engineer #these are the ramblings of a very sleepy very hyperfixated girl who just wanted to get these thoughts out of her head so she can SLEEP #I guess I am also curious what other people think #but yeah. it definitely makes me feel kinda sick that 5 people #even though they're billionaires so fuck em #died for effectively one guy's elon musk spacex fantasy ego trip #fuckin hell