#should i still include that one for organization idk i wanna. organize nicer blogs tbh.

[juleteinthrum]

Dib writing here!

I was inclined to actually speak finally, maybe text someone or write a post or just. Lay down what im saying innerworld. I realized i was fronting, and something anyone cocon is tasked to ask is like. "How does it feel, and how does that compare to innerworld and/or source?"

Kiba said it, he was excited and quiet with a little knowing smile. It was sweet. I sighed in anime boy. It felt like standing back and looking at both me and this body i inhabit's life entirely seperately but in a weirdly specific unity. We are parallels of each other, i just get to be here as a guide and to retry some stuff. Its strange.

What made Mitten beg me to pick up the phone was the phrasing "I'm here to care for this sunshiny boy." She said what?!

I said idk. This. Micheal, character, this lifetime we're in currently, together. He's so bright, even his hair is blonde. Always has been, was sort of a thing in this life, right? Mother cried when he cut it the first time. Gender... then he dyed it black. When Zim came out, triggered by my arrival in the system..

Then i sorta went underground. I kinda. Formed out of stuff thats personal but not necessarily bad. I just. Don't really come out and front much. Don't know why our canon is so divergent from the show and Zim's been, sorta unreadable, unpredictable since some stuff has happened.

Our bond, friendship, or whatever that was, undefined for now. But lately, dust has stirred. Between us ig, only in small ways. We are just on friendly warm terms. Otherwise, i mean the whole system. Everyone is getting "screen time"

We're saying our "see ya later alligators" to our home town. Of course everyone will have something to say. But also, it is something else, isnt it? Electricity in the air. Healing, recharging, magnificent change. It's gonna hurt like a bitch, isn't it? /pos

#dib speaks #zims stink #should i still include that one for organization idk i wanna. organize nicer blogs tbh. #osdd #actually plural #invader zim #actually osdd #system positivity #from the inspireverse system #vent #positive vent #actually autism #actually traumatized #ok to rb ig lol idk why u would but its nice to put down jus in vas #cas #fucksake #anyway im noticing differences between us all #including myself and im used to not recognizing myself at all so im itchy lol #anyway take care im gonna try to be noermal