#so i gotta do the hour thing today

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

[littlecutiexox]

.

#i dont think i got it #i had another call today too about a different job and the salary is too low for me to be commuting an hour and a half every day on the tra #n with #i have another call in an hour #for a different one #and applied to more places today #so ive applied to i think more than 200 jobs now in the past week and a half #i do have an interview for a different kind of role though in 2 weeks booked in #which is something #im so stressy besties #theres been so much noise today too my sensory overload is screamingg #i gotta be social after work too #and i just wanna lay in bed #but i cant #thank you to everyone that wished me luck #this silly little blog makes me feel so loved and cared for from the people on here #my friends and partner have also been super supportive and its the only thing keeping me from freaking out right now

[why-the-heck-not]

hate hate hate the feeling of turning in a part of an assignment and being hella embarrased abt how it is :3 like, feeling someone’s just gonna email me like ”hey?? what the fuck ??? what are u doing here this is garbage” like yeah dude i dont know what to tell you, things did not go well this week

#doing one that’s like a bigger thing but has weekly deadlines #and this week hasn’t been good for that so it’s like very fucking pathetic of how little I got done #and it’s all basically shit anyways like i know it doesn’t work and won’t work with the way I’m going about it #also I’m only submitting the previous version bc i don’t even fuckin know what’s going on with this current one #like the code’s all bad and all over the place and I have no clue where i’m trying to go with it #so it’s like i basically didn’t get shit done this week #only made myself more confused #i need to take a step back and like really fuckin think what I’m going to do with this bc it’ll just get worse if I just keep trying to go #with this shitty thing i have on my hands rn #and also im like over an hour late already bc gotta write a weekly report and idk what the fuck to say like #’’oops sorry dude it’s shit rn i have no clue what’s going on but also dont have anything i could ask help with bc im too confused so it’s #just uhh this thing now; a mess <3’’ #the way i’ve been handling this course like ?? uh oh will i ever have the audacity to step a foot to my campus ever again lol #yes im now writing this to procrastinate writing that weekly report thing #ughhh yes im hella positive rn all is shit #(also there was parliamentary election today and it didn’t end well so that might be why everything feels 5x more shitty rn) #april 2023 #2023

[scoliosisgoblin]

Don't tell my fat ass to stop eating!! Cook more!!!!!!

I am trying 😔

#ngl I'm stressing myself out with all this haha #mainly cause I'd have an idea for a prompt and would try to do it #bit then realize I'm not so good at comics #so I scrap the entire thing and try to sum up everything in one image and it's not as good as I wanted it to be #but I'm too tired to do anything cause it's like 3am or something #I actually got to sleep in today. slept for 10 hours I think #it's double the amount I usually do and I'm still so tired it's crazy dude #anyway stupid rant #I'll try to post more art later I just gotta write out a 10 page essay for Monday haha #my art #asks #your boyfriend game #yb fandom #yb peter #yb game #why re there sm yb tags #peter dunbar

[devilsskettle]

i hate that this website has location based ads now like it's one thing to promote the local grocery store chain to me but i am seeing ads for my workplace now :/

#stop it...... #i don't want to go back but this is the last sick day i can reasonably take #i probably should've gone back today but i told them when i was still feeling worse that i wasn't coming in....... #ohhhh i dread going in tomorrow so much. i don't even dislike this job i just hate being somewhere everyday #each day feeling its meaninglessness...... my meaninglessness in the space.......... the repetition and redundancy #selling people who don't need to be there things that they don't need #standing all day long just fucking bored #hoping that enough has happened since i've been gone that people can fill me in #ugggh because it's soooo boring but stressful to have to generate conversation with the same people every day #when nothing new ever happens #and i get sick of everybody even the people that i like and i don't really think anybody likes me that much either #i guess i felt this when i worked there part time but because i only had to be there part time it wasn't this constant gnawing feeling #and they didn't have me in the shop all the time....... this schedule is fucking killing me #i walk there i stand all day and i walk home #that's one of the reasons i haven't come back in yet - i was so dizzy and nauseous that the idea of standing all day was like. #i obviously can't fucking do that even if i would otherwise feel well enough to come in #if i had a sitting job then it wouldn't matter if i was a little dizzy #but getting back and forth to work and then standing for 8 hours. even when i'm feeling well it's kind of a lot #idk i guess i'm pretty unhappy with this job and where i am in life etc but i can't quit rn because what else would i do #there's literally job of this type that is going to pay as well and have good benefits #and i'm not qualified yet for the type of work i hope to do in the future #so i just gotta wait it out but it feels like. endless. #sigh anyway i'm just lazy lol #all this is to say. stop putting ads for my workplace on my dash lol i don't need to see all that

[daddyplasmius]

okay, so, I've collected a bunch of DP fandom stuff that I remember off the top of my head, specifically in chronological order & colour coded here in this post (fics/comics, tumblr posts, important imo) for no reason other than I saw a post asking for Phandom history & it triggered my biggest, most long-running hyperfixation & now I'm curious if anyone else remembers stuff.

this link is going to be the permanent version I will be updating, but I'm posting what I currently have (gonna go through my old laptop later for more) just to let people know. you can also find the link on my blog, but only on desktop. It isn't colour coded there, sorry.

please share more if you got anything else cuz I'm 100% sure I'm missing a lot of stuff & am too interested now. the biggest reason a lot of stuff isn't here is that I simply can't find it. second biggest reason is i forgor. things not included here aren't "unimportant," this is just the first stuff that comes to mind.

putting it under a cut 'cause it got kinda long

Mars by JadeRabbyt (2005)

Checkmate by pearl84 (2006)

Conversations of a Ghost Gabber by Cordria (2006)

The Foley Maneuver by bluemoonalto (2007)

One Thousand Years by Nylah (2008)

Lab Rat by AnneriaWings (2009)

Lost by Cordria (2010?) [1] [2] [3] [4] [5]

Phantom of Truth by Haiju (2011)

Ghost Deaths (2012)

Through Coals and Rain by Kakawot (2012)

Shadow of a Doubt by Haiju (2013)

Pink Pants (2013?)

Wes (2014) [original] [1] [2] [3] [4]

this "I'm Inevitable" gif (2014)

Space AU (2014)

Treading Water by The Full Catastrophe (2014)

Danny, you dead IDIOT!! comic (2014)

wash away the darkest days by anthrop (2014)

Reverse Trio (2014)

Inverse Trio (2014-2016) ALT

Halfas are "feral children" (2015)

Burn the Streets, Burn the Cars by anthrop (2015)

It's Not Gay if He's Dead by phantomrose96 (2015)

You Smell Like Death by starfleetrambo (2015)

Ghost Bird AU by @rest-in-peachs (2016?)

Things I Can(not) Do In Amity Park by RedHeadsRock1010 (2016)

KEtTLE by Cordria (2016)

Deeper, Darker by Silvermoonphantom (2016)

Danny Phantom Punches Butch Hartman In The Face by MistressVintage (2017)

Dannypocalypse (2017)

Ghost Train (2017?)

Ghost Physics by jayrockin (2017)

Ghost Infographics (2018)

The Taxonomy of Ghost Cores: An Observational Study (2018) Communicating with Ghosts Professionally: A Study (2018)

Species in Danny Phantom (2018?)

Diddles Piddles by diddly-darn-ghost (2018)

Broken Ectoplasm by ghostanimal (2019)

Ghost of Heroes by Enigmaris & ScarletNightFury (2019-2020)

do not stand at my grave and cry (i am not there, i did not die) by blueh (2020)

Undercover Phantom by artistfingers (2021)

Corruption is a Two Way Street by datawyrms (2021)

Things That Bleed by artistfingers, kkachis, & Perfectly_Inconspicuous (2022)

10,000 works on AO3 (2022)

Ghost Speak:

Danny's handwriting (2015?)

Cordria (2015)

Fiver-Rivers [1] [2] [3] (2019)

Rubber Chicken Sounds (2019)

#Danny Phantom #Phandom History Archive #do you even understand how hard it was to find the original Wes post???????? #i spent like 2 hours on that alone #Wes Weston why are you so hard to find #just realizing that a lot of shit happened in 2014 #like. 2014/2015 ish #i joined somewhere between 2014 & 2016 so i guess i literally came here right at the peak of phandom activity #the height of tumblr's paranormal activity. you might say #i think i'm just biased though #should i put my own fics on here. Phantom is pretty important to me being my first DP fic #& also the thing that got me back into writing #it's not very good but by god if i dont love it. & anyways i put Bird AU on here lol i think i can put Phantom up at some point. as a treat #also if any links are broken tell me cuz i'm not checking them again. it's 4am #reminder: gotta find those Bird AU fics i read & put em here. there ARE actual Bird AU fics. i know there are. i did not hallucinate that #it just might be the hardest thing on earth to do since that was years ago & i have no idea what they were called #anyway gonna add a fuckton of fics & (hopefully) tumblr posts when i go through my old laptop. i got everything bookmarked on there #like. so many fics. i had them organized too based on what kind of fic it was. but they all have stupid names cuz i was like 15 #me: i should do my stencil art today. just to be a bit productive & also maybe make money #my brain: what if you organized Danny Phantom fandom posts into a big archive for people to look at? for free. until 4am. #me: you know what that sounds so much better let's do that

[hella1975]

my mum: you've always absorbed every feeling around you. you feel everything you feel and everything everyone else feels all at once and i worry that it'll drag you under and convince you that life is meaningless and you cant save anyone and-

me: makes me a good writer tho lol

my mum, eye twitching: i mean yeah but

#and then she was like 'have you told your friends about this really tragic thing that's upset you to the point of going on walks #for over an hour by the river just bc it reminds you of home even though you explicitely blame the hometown for this tragedy #and you're eating one meal a day again and you were already ill and you're making yourself worse? have you spoken to ANYONE but me today?' #and i was like lol why do i have to i have you <3333 lmfao she was like that is NOT THE POINT #gotta love the tortured artist <3 there's a reason all the writers are stupid crazy we're all just empaths actually! #hella goes home #<- id like it to be known that tag has nothing to do with geography and everything to do with what im feeling #so if you see that tag when you know for a fact im NOT home rn and am at uni then that's why #the hometown is not a location it's a feeling. a mental illness even #anyway sorry for the lack of posting/personal posting im not doing so hot rn

[kentuckyfriedcapitalism]

can I just vent for a sec? Like things seem to be going well and then I’m getting yelled at and he’s having a tantrum because I cleaned the bathroom and I asked him to help me keep it clean. He has a much better paying job but he can’t stop buying stupid shit and then I’m the one who ends up having to bail us out. He earns twice as much as me yet I’m the one who’s expected to have a savings. I ask him to do literally one job around the house and he doesn’t do it. I can’t get him to do it. I ask one thing of him and it’s like pulling teeth to get it done. I physically can’t mow the lawn I’m allergic I need him to and he agreed that that would be his job but he won’t fucking do it and he throws a tantrum whenever he has to. I can’t get to my fucking clothes line to do any of the washing because the lawn is waist height. I’ve never known any 30 year old to throw so many tantrums like I’m not exaggerating when I say they’re tantrums. Like a child. He’s like a fucking child and idk what I’m doing I can’t keep having the same conversations with him over and over again and nothing changes. There’s so many small things and I just feel like I’m being worn down to nothing

#It’s so hard and idk what to do anymore #I literally have to gentle girlfriend him #like I gotta treat him like a kid to get him to do something I can’t just ask like an adult cause he’ll get upset #can’t go hey I need u to do this thing for me today #Oh and the worst part is #when he gets mad and I leave the situation he starts just yelling #like yelling aimlessly #he’ll yell for half an hour just random stuff #Anyway I’ll delete this soon once I’ve calmed down but for now #I just need to scream at the void

[andromedako]

love how i see mutuals who are in completely different timezones all the time. hello friends

#emil.rtf #i have things to do in like. idk 2-3 hours ig so im stayin awake #wish me luck i gotta like figure shit out today. little emil sinclair will be put thru the horrors o7 #edit: btw if ur curious its 7 am for me rn (as of editing this)

[miodiodavinci]

woughh,,,,, busy,,,,,,,,,

#met with my internship people today and it was basically nonstop from there #i just finished taking care of my responsibilities for the day and i am now laying in bed #because i have another meeting at 7am tomorrow #grind doesn’t stop -/SMACKED #for real though i am being launched into action like a pumpkin from a trebuchet #i want to play videoed game so bad as a treat but i Really need to use my downtime tomorrow to do artwork things #because i need to make major progress on this project before the Real horrors start #right now it is just usual college stuff #readings and assignments and commutes and classes and zooms #but soon it becomes that and basically being an unpaid employee for 4 hours a day #and preparing an extensively vetted portfolio on top of that #it’s going to become me and my time management skills against the world lads #gotta get ahead before it gets intense . . . . #anyway i gotta snzz i need to be up in like 6 hours #snzz…….

[vulpinesaint]

desperately trying to remember if there are any books i read this year that i cannot find on my library borrowing history or simply cannot remember. i am so bad about remembering books. LITERALLY REMEMBERED ONE AS I'M WRITING THIS POST. anyway i am attempting to compile a list of books that i've read this year so that i can reference it without having to forget everything. wish me luck. i have fifteen titles on there right now but i can't shake the feeling there's something i'm forgetting

#checking my shelf of books i got for school??? idk #none of this is helped by the way that i have seven thousand books waiting to be read right now and all of them are on my mind #and several of them i am partway through. but i cannot put bell hooks all about love on my list yet i just can't #opened this is how you lose the time war today. not liking it super much but it's not even 200 pages so we'll pound through it #and then my three books from merc (princess bride and two books from the fight club guy) #and all about love. and interview with the vampire #WITCHER NOVELS!!! I READ WITCHER NOVELS AGAIN!!!! adding two more books to my list #god i'm not even through blood of elves yet. awful. this is why i can't keep anything up i forget my ebooks exist as options #then i should read that book about eleanor roosevelt that my grandma got me. as a token to her dskfjghs #wanna reread the hours! have a physical copy just for that so i can annotate #gotta finish the once and future king. #all that to say that there are many books that will be on this list once i actually sit down and read some of them #have to remind myself that i Am actually doing good i'm at over a book a month rate. this is fine #two books a month rate! actually! #shout out to library due dates for being a fantastic motivator #seventeen books on the 'read' list this year. this is fine bracken. you're doing good #realistically this is SO much better than previous years 😭 good stuff. just gotta keep reading #valentine notes #list that would have been so useful to have when we were doing that book recommendation thing

[crimeronan]

entering the kind of depression era wherein posts encouraging people to think of nice things in their lives make me start crying because i can't think of anything except for things that also just make me hate myself (ie: my family is very nice to me about how i'm too fucking useless to do my job or chores or errands or anything other than lay in bed). probably i will end up logging outta this blog if this continues for much longer because i don't really like who i am currently nor do i have the capacity to pretend to be anything else anymore and i'd prefer to post on this blog when i can actually, like, perform personhood adequately. if i do vanish in the coming days you can assume i'm taking a normal sabbatical unless papika or faewaren post that i'm dead/hospitalized/whatever. peace and love genuinely thanks for all the support ✌️💕👍

#autoimmune tag #i famously do not cry on my bipolar meds. except i've cried nearly every day since the beginning of june #i reached the end of my rope on the first and have yet to recover apparently. #things that have made me cry today: #inability to do like 80% of the things on the pride goals post i specifically made to be as easy as possible #bad feeling in the physical body #thinking about how nothing matters and nothing i do matters and i will never be able to take care of or help anyone #inability to come up with any delights of the day #inability to think of anything remotely good about the day so far except rafi being kind and pitying me excessively bc i should be dead #etc #i'm clearly in no shape to be posting on a blog where ppl are here for fun fandom content and general hopeful vibes so. yeah #i gotta go. the only thing holding me back is that i already am bored and unhappy laying in bed all day #WITHOUT removing my hour or so of mindless scrolling per day. so #negative

[oculusxcaro]

YOUR ANIMAL FAMILIAR

Tagged by: @goldenmedic (♡) Tagging: @arkhmlcst, @dcmonshcad, @gnarledbite, @freak1ish, @made-of-archimedes, @muppeteyes1001, @pains-illusions, @sanguine-salvation, @sebastianshaw, @sheldoney, @the-rorschach-mask, vitrumbra, @xxlordalexanderxx and anybody else who'd like to do this?

~ Salamander ~

The Salamander is a sometimes overlooked little creature, with many impressive abilities to make up for their size. For example, they are able to not only regenerate their tails, but limbs and even organs if they are badly injured. In the same way, you never let life's problems drag you down, and come right back strong as ever! This fiery determination of yours is still kept in balance by logical thinking and always being prepared for change in life. A Salamander familiar helps to heal their master physically and emotionally, as well as giving them the drive to continue through anything.

~~***~~ This familiar represents ~~***~~

Healing - Determination - Adapting to change - Balance - An opportunist - Resourcefulness

#🌈 || dashboard games #🌈 || memes #Thank you very much for the tag gold mun! #I'm screaming because she got a salamander. again #Which I'm actually very happy about because THAT'S WHAT SHE IS #A fun little quiz and emphasizes her traits well #Khare is an opportunistic little thing #Moreso lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time but she'll jump on opportunities like the one to escape #Very fucking determined when she wants to be #Can't really fight change so she's either gotta adapt or die #Just has to do what she can #ALRIGHT I am off work today so I can write! #Not doing chores today because I got enough on my ass with another hospital visit #Checking in with my lymphadema doctor to see about a few things and to read my results #Stuff like that thankfully more minor than getting injected with radioactive chemicals #Just fucking starving because I've been fasting for 18 hours ughughugh #Oh yeah I did this for Roman too he got a tiger #Another very apt one

[munamania]

best part of my day is gonna be the massive hit of pillow and blanky when i get home from work

#getting up was so painful today. and well yes it was probably made worse by going to dinner for my friends birthday last night #where EYE had to be bitchy abt service ppl bc it's the worst restaurant ever run by college students. #ok it was like two minutes of me being bitchy and saying 'go be a mean boyfriend abt it' but i was justified. #anyways. took forever to get out of there. woke up so many times during the night #maybe cause my body was anxious id miss my shift idk. and i wouldve only been sleeping for like. 5 hours max #and i cant lie some joy was restored in my heart talking to some of our buddies and i felt like a person again briefly #and im making myself do more things today even tho i barely wanna go to class. but that will be #once again after an amazing wonderful nap #just gotta make it thru this shift.. and well brother i am just sitting here #will not fall asleep #abby talks

[lovelyisadora]

it isn’t the end of the semester but i’m already having my end of the semester breakdown oh my GOD I am going to have a heart attack. sprite save me

#nothing is done!! not my applications not my interviews etc #I am running out of time to graduate in June and I could just graduate in august but then I have to admit to my family that I fucked up bad #it takes 3-6 weeks to get IRB approval I need to step on it #it’ll take at least 4 for my paid leave forms for work to go through and I don’t know if it’ll get approved #and if it does when do my benefits start #I feel like an idiot where those forms are concerned because it needs an occupation code and I don’t know if it’s specific #or if I can just select the one that best matches my job description and I can’t find that info anywhere #my body is literally shutting down I have two golf ball sized tumors and I can’t get out of bed but I can’t sleep #my car is kaputt and I have to call several different shops to get it seen because the one I took it to couldn’t fix it #and is any of it worth it!! is any of it!! #I cried for like three hours today bc I tried to talk to my mom about it and. well. she was very much a mom about it and not helpful #like yeah! obviously I want to graduate in June! but my research isn’t even approved because I haven’t been able to get myself #to complete the application for the last six months! Jesus Christ! #I can’t sleep and I’m so tired I’m so so tired my brain just straight up isn’t working! #I swear to god if I finally meet with my advisor and he does his well you don’t seem to need my help bullshit again #I’m gonna actually snap and kill him #anyway. need to do three things by end of Wednesday. just three things #clean. irb. and paid leave. that’s it that’s all. #it’s what I’ve tried to do the last four days and I’ve accomplished none of it but. Jesus Christ it’s gotta get done #FOUR THINGS I have to call the shop to get an estimate for a car I’m not even going to bother to fix #ok vent session over #delete later #fkdjdjshhaa im a MESS #sprite save me 😭 #save me sprite. save me

[despairforme]

If he doesn't get milkshake today...

#[ SAY NO MORE SIR ] #[ hello guys !! i was v busy yesterday ] #[ had to drive my s/o to the airport ] #[ 4 hours each way t-t 8 hours t-t cry ] #[ and now i'm all alone for three weeks RIP ] #[ mah i'm gonna go and visit my parents today and stay for a few days ] #[ justttt gotta clean and tidy the house before i leave ] #[ i loooove leaving things neat and tidy uvu ] #[ i'll bring my laptop so hopefully i can do some writing 8) ] #[ i am 4k behind atm so GOTTA WORK HARD ] #[ hope you're all doing goooood ] #despair for me. ╱ in character.