#something abt it morphs the experience . idk

[haterlain]

Been going through season 6 of Rick and Morty (don't laugh) after not realizing it had released throughout 2022. I've never been more than a passive fan of the show since being introduced to it in middle school by a friend when it first came out, but despite its criticism and notorious reputation it honestly always had a bit of a sentimental place in my heart. Like, watching it throughout the years yeah it's not exactly the best show ever but I guess it's just one of the few things i've somehow managed to pretty consistently follow along since its beginning. Anyway, I'm really surprised by how much I'm enjoying this season. Especially with the notable decline in season 5... I remember finishing like 90% of its episodes not being able to even pity list a good quality about it. But every episode of season six has honestly been able to impress me in some way. Maybe I've just become a bigger sucker for stupid smartass humor and sci-fi tech animation but I really did find every single episode really fun to a very embarrassing amount. I don't know how to describe it but I feel like the season also exemplifies a sort of "sweet spot" the show has been able to find in itself. The biggest critiques of the show are undeniably its reliance on metahumor and the inconsistencies of the capabilities of Rick, but something about s6 makes these elements "work" to me in some way that that wasn't able to be done in s5. Sure, it's still lazy but it didn't take away from my enjoyment like the last season did. Anyway, I just wanted to put my thoughts out since I'm wondering if any other people felt the same way?

#perhaps my enjoyment of really weird dimensional plotlines and dynamics is just bc i grew up being a homestuck fan #idk how to describe it but both medias use their characters in a way where they exist both as three dimensional beings #but also caricatures of themselves #something abt it morphs the experience . idk #rick and morty #it kind of feels like they let go and just did what felt right to them even if it was ridiculous #like it kiiiind of feels like some select people really wanted certain things to happen and they were like ykw sure whatever #whereas maybe building up to season 5 they approached the series in a way where they felt confined to provide what they believed was expect #idk man my ritalin is kicking in #im going to rewatch the series and realize that my humor just devolved and s6 is just as shit as s5 #also omfh say what you want abt the show but i absolutely love the visual design #the background art is rlly well done #and the stupid little gimmicks and scifi tech do unfortunstley make me soyjack and clap my hands like tom cruise #SORRY FOR THE YAPPING SESH LMFAOOOO

[elliesmistress]

Hey! Random question ik but like i just saw you make a post abt u being high and as a non smoker myself i just kinda wanted to know ppls expiriences with being high. Sorry, its random i just think they are always funny af. Ofc u dont have to if u don't want to ♡

THC - is what makes you feel high and giggly

CBD - is what makes you go night night

There is THC and CBD is all weed but some has more THC than CBD and others have more CBD than THC

Depends on the type of weed and just drugs on general- unfortunately where I am weed is VERY illegal so you get what you get 😭

Like, if I smoke indica which has more CBD than THC I go night night. I tend to smoke stuff with more THC during the day (on my days off, I'm not even working at the moment but whatever) usually so I can write or just enjoy being high playing video games, playing bass or guitar, and listening to music. Idk I've had some pretty bad experiences on weed like fully "greening-out" (basically blacking out but on weed) and getting so high it feels like my chest is getting ripped open, somewhat in a good way but usually I just freak myself out but I've definitely had some good experiences on it, like half the shit I've written I've been stoned and or high -

I've also done a fair bit of LSD in my lifetime, the first time I did it was absolutely terrifying and the worst trip I've ever had.

I've also done ket, don't recommend at all it's more of a downer than a upper and it's just not that fun lmao- for starters you get horny af on it but you can't feel anything, like it's a fucking tranquilizer so it makes it hard to breathe and move/I've had a few experiences with friends and myself where we almost had to call an ambulance because of how much it fucks with your breathing - but gives you one of the best afterglows out there.

I've also done MDMA or Molly, probably the best high I've ever had, made me love everybody- MDMA makes it impossible for any negative emotions to get in because of how much serotonin it releases, so your mom could walk in tell you that she hates you and wishes you were dead and you'd still be happy- crazy shit dude, MDMA gives you the fattest hangover ever btw, first time I did Molly I had a come down for 3-4 days, everything hurt- I was scared of my own reflection, my hand kept morphing, my eyes looked weird, I had dilated pupils, EVERYONE thought I was still high, i just don't recommone molly like whaat you get from it isn't enough for it to be worth it- you get super depressed after and you wanna kill urself :/ . @abbysmiddlefinger was a victim of me saying how much I loved them and me on MD in general

I've also done Amphetamines, for the love of god do not do speed, I did speed like the day after I did Molly for the first time and oh my fuck was the come down from both absolutely terrible- if anything touched my body in any way it would send pain shocks all down my spine and shit and my head OMG MY HEAD IT WAS TERRIBLE! I hadn't gone outside since the come down (so for two weeks I was in my room/house) and I had to go to therapy and I almost punched my therapist because speed makes you angy as FUCKKKK.

(I'm an innocent soul istg)

Just don't do drugs in general , it's wayyy to easy to get laced or take something that isn't what you think it is nowadays or just buy off a trust worthy friend or be a fucking idiot and make it yourself. Fun fact: MDMA is such a bitch to make most people just put crack, rat poison or speed in it.

#ellie williams

[bright-eyed]

Tumblr year in review thing

I posted 2,444 times in 2022

(that's like 7 times a day AND I had a job this whole year... girl. Go do activities and events.)

That's 1,424 more posts than 2021!

132 posts created (5%)

2,312 posts reblogged (95%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@engulfes

@bisexualgirlfriend

@weird-ecologies

@thebaroninthetrees

@pearlydewdrops

I tagged 961 of my posts in 2022

#w - 621 posts

#kennapost - 100 posts

#t - 28 posts

#favorites - 22 posts

#me - 13 posts

#kennacore - 9 posts

#art - 9 posts

#music - 7 posts

#mary oliver - 4 posts

#literally - 4 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#and it’s a really nice experience to feel the connection even if it’s a tenuous and nervous connection with something you don’t much like

(What was i talking abt idk)

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

The way my f*ther will blast tiktok videos out loud in the living room for 12 hours a day every day. So instead of him just wearing the headphones I bought him, I am spending every day in the trenches chanting Stoic philosophy to myself until someday I accept what I cannot control and become a sage, virtuous, free from rage.

29 notes - Posted January 25, 2022

(^ a very Kenna post)

#4

I can't believe so many people not only have a tiktok account but use the tiktok app every day of their lives... Not having a tiktok in the tiktok age is like being the only sober person at a party except it's everyone else in the world who's having a bad time

34 notes - Posted August 18, 2022

#3

Talking to a future i don't believe in in hopes that someday it will respond. Trying not to feel super desperate about it like someone screaming at the sky trying to get answers from god but I don't think I'm above throwing rocks. Winter is hard because everything shrivels up and softness hardens unforgivingly and then there's the fog everywhere almost like how dare you take it for granted don't you remember that it can all go dark but whatever fuck it life is beautiful I'm lucky to have gotten 24 years of meandering. Right?? Have faith or don't. Walk on or lay down in the rain and open your mouth and drown. I'm really trying to remember that this is my choice and that I will have a life. Actually it's fine I'm good I'm listening to bagpipe pirate music now breakdown over

35 notes - Posted November 27, 2022

#2

We are seeing, then, that our experience is altogether momentary. From one point of view, each moment is so elusive and so brief that we cannot even think about it before it has gone. From another point of view, this moment is always here, since we know no other moment than the present moment. It is always dying, always becoming past more rapidly than imagination can conceive. Yet at the same time it is always being born, always new, emerging just as rapidly from that complete unknown which we call the future. Thinking about it almost makes you breathless.

— Alan Watts, The Wisdom of Insecurity

217 notes - Posted January 14, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Sometimes at the birth and death of a day, the opal sky is no color we have words for, the gold shading into blue without the intervening green that is halfway between those colors, the fiery warm colors that are not apricot or crimson or gold, the light morphing second by second so that the sky is more shades of blue than you can count as it fades from where the sun is to the far side where other colors are happening. If you look away for a moment you miss a shade for which there will never be a term, and it is transformed into another and another. The names of the colors are sometimes cages containing what doesn’t belong there, and this is often true of language generally, of the words like woman, man, child, adult, safe, strong, free, true, black, white, rich, poor. We need the words, but use them best knowing they are containers forever spilling over and breaking open. Something is always beyond.

- Rebecca Solnit, Recollections of My Nonexistence

273 notes - Posted January 12, 2022

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#putting under a readmore because i'm shy #there's a link at the bottom if other people want theirs #kennapost

[anissapierce]

Animorphs question based on a fic idea i had as a teenager:

So has Marco had the talk tht brown kids get abt police? Cassie def has but marco i think its possible he hasnt n lets say this is a reading of the book where its not even a question that hes brown Latino to any onlooker.

So eva couldve given him tht talk before she got taken over but idk i feel like well in my experience... I think brown communities that ive known abt had friends within those communities if the parents an immigrant it doesnt get had at all or if the parent isnt they hold off until the kid is like a preteen .... especially if the family isnt poor is in a 'good' area etc. And then you add having a white dad into the mix idk

Maybe marco caught on cause hes a perceptive kid but like ... Idk i dont think it's out of the realm of possibility that hes just unaware. This is the nineties and his dad is like a star trek nerd so i think his way of talking abt his son abt race was v colorblind.

But then ax gets his human morph and like marco n cassie hes seen as Not White. Is it possible that his race n ethnicity r v eye of the beholder v dependant on area hes in? Sure but a cop seeing a kid who looks like ax in the city at night will raise alarm bells.

Cassie obviously sees the obvious problem there especially bc she probably is aware of how ax's behavior can ping as being off in a way that others can perceive as a threat or possibly him being on drugs which is seen as dangerous as well. N mb thts just me reading something into her character that isnt there but uhh her family has owned the farm they turned into a rehabilitation center for animals since the civil war so...

#i love cassie so much actually #i dont talk abt her as much mostly bc i think shes the character i related to most as a kid n even now #ppl view her as pollyanna so i kinda wanna write this fic to show she isnt eap juxtisposed against Marco seen as the most pragmatic #animorphs talk tag

[astrojoy]

Hey! how are you? Well...I am a little confused abt smth it's actually that.....in almost all the tarot readings that I have watched, all of them said that my fs is in a toxic relationship rn and so what happened last night was that my ears were ringing alot for some unknown reason....all day long...and smh in my tumblr fyp very randomly a blog came up which said that sometimes ear ringing represents your guardian angel trying to communicate so at night before sleeping i affirmed a few times that if they actually have anything to tell me then can they guide me through my dreams.....and as I finished affirming I fell asleep very fast smh(ps I have insomnia and It's not easy for me to fall asleep this easily) and in my dreams I saw this man ik laying down on a bed and it was rlly dark like the only source of light was the moonlight coming through some window(I didn't saw his face but I smh knew it was him) and there was this woman sitting next to him tracing his facial features and again I smh knew that it was his toxic girlfriend. And then idk when I woke up I remember subconsciously thinking "Stay away from my husband" like thats what I woke up thinking or more like what I was thinking in my dream....does this by any chance mean he can be my fs? Also for some unknown reason I am weirdly attracted to this man also the description of my fs fits this man....but I am so confused bcs it just doesn't feel like we'll ever be together

I'm doing quite fine! Very very intriguing, thank you for feeling comfortable enough to talk about this :) sorry I got in depth with this to help explain it clearly

So, in my experience, generally when I've talked to my guardian angel or come in contact with him in astral travel/astral projecting for different reasons, his face is always twisted. Generally from what I know guardian angels don't show their face. If you try to look at them, it will look blurred, morphed or like pieces of their face are in different areas. Now, in dreams they can look however they need to. They can look like their true self without the morphed features or portray themselves as someone to get a message to you (Generally they wear fully white cloth clothing // it sounds very stereotypical but from what I've seen from another persons guardian it seems it's just how it is)

An example is when my guardian angel visits me in my own dreams, whether it's to give me a message, protect me from something in an astral travel, or seeing what I'm up to, he generally has all of his facial features showing and wears his typical clothing

So I'm inclined to believe that it was possibly your angel trying to show you something about your FS. If you wanted to come in contact with your future spouse you'd either do it by accident (deep soul connection) or by thinking about them too much and etc, something that pushes your energy at them in the universe (I don't recommend this however I'm just here to give input 💖 :)

Something that strikes out to me about your dream is the fact that your guy had this toxic girl with him. This leads me to believe that you were trying to be shown why, your spouse is going to be toxic and why you keep hearing it. What caused him to become what he will be when you meet or get together. It's like your guides are saying "its not you, but don't be confused with the source either" I think he's probably had toxic relationships that accidentally rubbed off onto him. So he may have toxic habits or accidentally mirrors some of his ex's in the past, he may not understand a healthy relationship as much after them. Thus it may be better to take it slow with this man. Show him what's normal. As you guys are dating in the future and not married yet, show him certain things that may be percieved as rude or toxic, but don't force it because it may come off the wrong way too

Generally from my experience, coming in contact with my FS has been random and accidental. I don't like intruding on future friends, bfs/gfs or anyone else I'll meet and its because I don't like pushing into someone's business. It just appears my guides have shown visions of future me and also 2 others I will meet. The only time I don't mind is if our souls connect randomly or someone's guiding the process (like an angel or spirit guide and etc) The way I can tell its him and not an angel portraying him is due to a few things. His appearance stays consistent, there's also a different energy you can feel from an angel and a familiar soul. I've had moments where I've accidentally popped into his dream or he's been in my own dreams and we are generally quiet and just observing the dream

So def pay attention to energy you felt in that dream as well is what I'm saying 🙇‍♂️ very important

Idk if this helped or not. I tried to give input on the difference between angelic energy and soulmate energy (soulmate meaning any soul family of yours) have a wonderful day lovely and def thank your guides for the message if it for sure was one! 🫂💖

[awhilde]

heyy idk if u do requests but can you make more kaeya headcanons? i really loved urs!! it can be angst or fluff idrc <34

fighting alongside kaeya -- a drabble

help sorry for the wait! i've been really busy lately with school but i hope this is okay nonetheless <3 i'm posting on my phone rn and the format is probably going to look really bad but :D i'll change that later. sorry abt it not being a hc, i felt like that kind of format would have been a little icky with this content but i’ll be sure to post more genshin hcs in the future! thank you for requesting!!!

neways,,, here is : the drabble

as a fatui, your interests settled not within the complex arrangements of snippy political meetings nor the sense of superiority that came with the job, but stemmed instead from the thrill of battle.

as a polearms user, you were usually fighting front lines, head and center, wherein your body was subjected to the constant risk of death. it is inherently clear that any misshap on the battlefield was sure to cause the loss of a limb, sure to render you useless in the field. perhaps, though, this was the element that had hooked you into such an establishment, where the line drawn between right and wrong were blurred.

every arrow that whisks past every vulnerable patch of skin, millimetres too close, every claymore that shook the ground by your feet and every wound from an elemental attack left your blood buzzing in your veins and a grin etched on your face.

the truth of the matter was, regardless of whatever the fatui delved themselves into, you stuck with then despite knowing the consequences. this statement held true especially during this era whereupon you were sure the fatui had stumbled upon something outworldly this time around though, what other organization could possibly satisfy your need for danger? the knights of favonius? don't kid yourself, there was no way such a stiff and boring group could offer you such joys in life.

so you had declared to yourself. but the moment you stepped foot into the bustling city of music and freedom, your perspective wavered.

"first time here?" the man with the blue hair asked.

your eyes examined him over your glass of wine (the bartender saying something about dandelion wine?), before nodding. "yeah, what's it to you?"

the man twirled his drink and laughed. "no need to be so hostile, we're just exchanging greetings. what kind of citizen would i be if i didn't greet a visitor to my homeland?"

your eyes traced the short distance between your chairs before sending him a narrowed glare. "awfully close to a stranger, aren't you? where's your sense of danger?"

"you could say i'm quite confident in my abilities. if you need a bodyguard for when you walk around town, i'm always available." the wink he sent you made you snort.

"as thankful as i am, i'd have to pass." you stood fro your chair, intending to settle your bill and leave.

"are you sure? they say the city gets dangerous when it gets darker."

you headed towards the door, aware when you feel a presence follow you from your seat. "surely you have something more fulfilling to do than bother random people?"

"ah, i'm simply worried about a friend exploring an unknown city. where's your sense of danger?"

you laugh and turn to him, a weary smile on your face. "you could say i'm quite confident in my abilities." and with that, you left the noisy tavern behind you, letting the jingle of the bells signal your departure. despite how comfortable you had felt around the blue haired man, you knew connections with other people never lasted, especially because of the person you were.

"now," you muttered to yourself, the city of freedom welcoming your stay. "where do i go from here?"

the blue haired man never appeared in your mind again, the short conversation dissipating as quick as it had occurred. instead, you were fairly occupied with some dragon business you had been sent to settle, and a certain green haired god you had been sent to dispose of. fatui lacked the skill of anemo and it was an understatement to say you were excited to meet in combat with the bard.

he certainly proved difficult to catch, escaping time and time again through the help of a mysterious blonde individual and their floating companion.

strange.

excitment was quick in morphing into surprise however, when your eyes fell on the man in front of you in the present time, deep, deep into a dungeon. his own widened as they rested on yours, an easy grin sliding onto his face.

"have we met?" he said.

you brandished your weapon in front of you, defensive in your stance. "can't really say. you don't seem particularly memorable."

the girl beside him, adorned in red, nudged his side. "do you know them, kaeya?"

kaeya shrugged. "you heard them. apparently not."

you gesture dismissively off to the side. "step aside if you don't want to be killed. i only came for the bard."

the odd outsider stepped in front of venti, your target, and shook their heads. their hands crept to the hilt of their blade with a gleam in their eyes. neither kaeya or the girl made any decision to move.

"nope! paimon says you have to go through us first!" the floating creature taunted.

you smirked, pulling out your polearm. "i was hoping you'd say that!"

not letting the group of four utter another word, you leapt into the air, twirling your weapon above you. the surprise in their eyes as they followed your body sent adrenaline pumping. upon impact, you swiped at their feet causing them to jump back.

"oi, that's not fair!" paimon complained and you made a jab at her, purely to shut her up. your polearm clanged against the metal of a sword as you did so, knock in your aim off course. frost covered your fingers as you withdrew and you shook them off with a smile.

"cyro?" you asked.

kaeya grinned back. instead of replying however, he darted forward, causing you to raise your weapon in defense. his eyes caught the movement and hit your blade front on. the blow was strong enough to send you a step back, and you gritted your teeth against the pressure.

you eyes wondered to seek out a weak spot when you noticed one if his hands had left the hilt of his blade.

with one swift movement, his hand pressed against the side of your stomach, freezing the fabric of your shirt. you hissed at the sudden pain, and pushed your strength into one singular blow, knocking him out.

you cradled your side with a crooked smile. your target switched from venti to kaeya in that moment, channelling your elemental power a tad bit earlier than you had expected.

but, well, the fatui would just have to deal with it.

electrical powered fuelled your polearm, the rush of sheer energy tingling your skin. sending a series of attacks at the approaching kaeya, you allowed the super conduct to double the damage done to his health. similarly, your health dropped with every injury, a byproduct from your own attacks.

eyes identifying an entry, you ducked under an incoming attack and thrusted your weapon into his stomach, halting just before the metal touched his skin. your breath condensed in the close proximity, panting from the combat.

kaeya looked down at you with interest. "was there something else you needed?"

you frowned. "i have you trapped and the first thing you do is joke? what's wrong with you?"

he jokingly raised his hands in the air, you drawing slight satisfaction in the way he hesitated while doing the action. "i would be more concerned but you seem to have no real interest in killing me. this i understand, i am rather beautiful."

your blade poked his skin in warning. before you could snap back with your own retort, and the fiery words at the back if your throat would have been enough to do so, the earth beneath your feet trembled. your head whipped up to check your surroundings, settling on the door that had now opened. the other members sheepishly stood beside the key to the door.

"oh."

the time it took for your limbs to move was not enough, for it had only taken you a moment to blink before the tables turned and you found yourself under the man you once held captive.

he had dismissed your polearm in your moment of surprise and fallen into you, using his hands to push your shoulders to the ground.

your breath left your lungs at the impact and your weapon flew from your hand, clattering as it met the floor.

kaeya looked down at you with the ease of a predator. "hey. funny how the tables turn, huh?" despite being defenseless, he remained above you, even when the rest of his group joined him by his side. it is only when paimon questioned his motives does he stand, making sure his hands never left a part of your body, something he deemed necessary so as to not let you escape.

paimon cocked her head at the sight, at the smug kaeya and at you who looked furious at the treatment. "well, looks like the fatui will be joining us."

you snorted. "what makes you think i'll be helping you?"

paimon looked down at your hand which laid limp in kaeya's grasp. "paimon thinks it doesn't look like you have a choice. looks like kaeya's taken an interest in you."

kaeya sent you a wide smirk.

you huff, turning away from his blue eyes that saught to gauge your expression. but your hands never left his, your eyes never looking for an exit, not even when the group began to move into the next section of the dungeon. something about the warm atmosphere of a carefree group whose only worries were that of becoming emergency food settled the roar for bloodlust. you found yourself cozy, an experience you hadn't felt since your childhood. you no longer held onto your polearm as if it was a lifeline, no longer enhanced your senses as you walked, no longer stood firm and upright.

it felt like it suited you, you who had only just escaped the age of 19.

and when the battle against stormterror fell upon you and the group, you found yourself fighting not for the thrill of spraying blood into the atmosphere, but for the synced dance you and kaeya created as you fought back to back.

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