#soooo tired of being ill!

[itsadmiralactually]

Is anyone else finding themselves weekly susceptible to cold-like symptoms, or is it just me?

#seriously #what is the deal?! #soooo tired of being ill! #snotty nose #sneezing #the whole nine yards

[luck-of-the-drawings]

DISTRACTIONS sometimes its the drive to help and save our friends that pushes us to learn and to succeed. unfortunately its normally ''unethical'' to replicate that in a classroom setting. I ONLY JUST FINISHED THE LAST PAGE HERE, THE FIRST TWO WERE LITERALLY FROM LAST YEAR, N A FEW MONTHS APART. LOOOOK AT MY EVOLUTION. im very proud of this and bled REALLY HARD FOR THE LAST PAGE. PLEASE ABSORB THIS.

#gillion tidestrider #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #the last page honestly just took super long bc i dropped it for a long while. only recently wiped the dust off o it. #IM RLY PROUD OF ALOT O THINGS ABT THAT LAST PAGE #LIKE THE PERSPECTIVE N THE WIDE SHOTS OR WHATEVER #IT WASNT EASY BUT I MADE IT LOOK GOOD!! IM SO HAPPY WITH IT #I ALSO just really love drawing gillion as soooo small #just a little guy with the weight of the world bolted to his tiny tiny shoulders #n yknow what while im here ill talk abt the first two comics aswell. i like taking inspo from JTHM for this kinda stuff #more specifically SQUEE n the way his dad was just sooo honest and cruel to him. 'yeah its your fault my life sucks' n all that. i imagine #that gillion prolly dealt with alot o that too. i know weve already seen the elders #but i did initially imagine them to be very much like the Tallests from invader zim. they just hate this little guy. hes so small n lame #hes prolly had teachers like that im sure. i like thinkin about gills experience in school!! #i fell in love with him the moment he said that he wasnt good at being a student like girl ME TOOOO WAAAAAA #HE SUCKS In school and everyone is just sooo tired of him but they gotta put up with him bc hes the Chosen One #but GOD they wish they had someone more competent i bet. it was prolly a relief when they banished him #could u imagine being that? someone so insufferable that people sigh in relief when youre gone. poor poor gillion #ANYWAY THATS ALL MY THOUGHTS #TALK ABT UR THOUGHTS IN THE TAGS TOO DIPSHIIITT CMAAAHHNN

[yj-98]

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#it is repeatedly soulbreaking that without fail i will - every late fall + into winter - just become So Much Worse #every spring + summer ill be marginally better and ill make friends and feel social and like i can DO things #and then without fail i will recede and let people down and its just. i am tired. literally so tired of the cycle #i dont want to sound dramatic and call it ''letting people down'' and ''being a disappointment'' but its so. like i can barely feel human #i do Not have the ability to upkeep social connection and friendships half the year its so fucking pathetic. frankly. #but i like making friends i LIKE people. girl someone get me some counseling and SSRIs or something #ptsd and depression and lack of vitamin D gang. i guess. #because the feeling that im alone and hurting others by isolating against my own better judgment is soooo inescapable. yearly. #like whats the point. im tired of conversations having to start with ''hey sorry i was busy and my brain wants me dead'' #rook.log

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

about the merman!suguru au...

personally, i feel as though i agree with you – he roams the seas.

i don't see him getting captured. i think he's too powerful for that.

i feel like it would be more of a classic case of him encountering reader somehow differently – perhaps fairytale-like? a royal heir travelling on a ship and getting stranded? a modern day case of a human strolling by the sea, feeling sentimental, hearing the song of the seas?

i'm not sure.

but i know that regardless of how you choose to tackle it, you'll do so compellingly x

yep yep !!! i agree w u anon !!!!! for now i think i’m definitely leaning towards a scenario where reader finds him by the beach wounded and brings him home, and they learn to trust one another :’3 and suguru ends up growing fond of reader and courting them once he’s out in the sea again… not necessarily on purpose it’s just very ingrained in him to give gifts to anyone he likes !! seashells and gold coins and bottles with letters that he found on the seabed :33 i just think he’d be sooo sweet. the cutest little fishy!!

#ALSO TYSM ILL DO MY BEST <3333 #tbh after that knight sugu fic im completely tired of writing abt royalty 😭😭😭 so i think reader being a normal sealoving human is best!! #i just think there’s soooo much potential here …. it’s such a lovely concept !!!! #talking abt it with all u anons is sm fun :33!!!! #ask tag ✩ #mer!sugu <33

[toastsnaffler]

played 8 consecutive hours of elden ring this afternoon/evening and forgot to eat dinner.... 🫠

#oops #well i still have bad cramps and bloating so maybe its for the best. im too tired to eat now #i feel soooo terrible. i dont think its from the gaming tho i was playing to distract myself from feeling terrible in the first place #but no such luck. well its better than spending all day ruminating anyway #i need to do laundry and food shop tomorrow and ill take the day off ER entirely otherwise ill end up playing another 8 hrs 💀 #i got my meds today too but im not gonna start them until my period fucking starts and ends bc i cant handle both at once #plus itll be good if i can start them later this week so if it fucks my sleep at least i wont have to go into work multiple days in a row #while exhausted etc. mannn. #i really really hope i sleep better tonight this whole last week its been so disturbed and im so tired :-( #and so saaaaaad. and lonely but not really in a way that being around ppl helps.. i just want a longass hug 💔 #ive done so well this week mentally but it takes so much out of me staying on top of it #anyway.. to bed to bed to bed #.diaries

[kavehater]

I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness

#There’s this specific part of the song #It srsly alters my brain chemistry #Anyways #i hate tumblr sm #Idk like I Gen hate being on here sm #No matter what account I make no matter if I tell ppl about it whether I don’t tell ppl I just hate this place soooo much #Like if I have a following it sucks because it’s rlly lonely if I don’t it’s still lonely and then if there’s nobody at all it’s lonely #Loneliness is what got me to discord boy so like :D #The fact I am genuinely missing him sm I’m gonna krill myself 😻🙏 #Also I think I hate talking to minors cause these kids be letting themselves get groomed all the time I’m so tired of seeing it #The creep in my course is being so weird to Raisa who is a minor … I can’t help but think it’s all my fault … I invited her to the pharm gc #To show her how messy it was …. #I didn’t expect her to follow and accept requests of everyone … #Anyways I just am so annoyed. Like I wish I could have one person just one where I can be confident in being their no.1 but every time I th #Think I’m maybe somewhere high up on someone’s list of important ppl I realise I overestimated my position even tho I’m rlly self conscious #And being myself down over that. Also I still hate Eid. I hate Eid sm. How do ppl genuinely enjoy Eid. Idk if I’ve ever been excited for Ei #It’s like I’m just suddenly getting more sick of ppl by the day. I Gen don’t like talking to ppl at all even tho I used to rely on talking #To others like its sustenance now it’s just such a hassle to me because I’m so sick of being unimportant to literally every single person I #Have ever known. Literally everyone except maybe dahlia idk. the only person who has never gotten mad/snapped at me o is dahlia #And knowing my luck that will soon be taken from me too. Anyways good riddance to tumblr i loathe this site and im sick of the mind games #All the time from just existing on here. Gen makes me feel ill. I’m so sick of that girl I like and sick of everyone. The only time ppl car #Is when I cause a scene. And ykw atp I loathe being showed sympathy and pity for these sorts of posts because it just feels like a big joke #Cause why couldn’t you just care when I was fine. Why do you ONLY care when I’ve had enough of your bad behaviour. How does one make someon #Like me go mad with all these things #Istg if I come back to this dumb site whether to this acc to the tora one or my other account everyone has permission to beat me up. #dora daily #Tldr;I HATE ppl and everyone ever + I’m just sick of pretending like everyone doesn’t suck cause how can ppl be so insufferable intolerable #Insane horrible in every way and ppl like them. How do they live with themselves when they’re this aggravating. Every day I hate ppl more #Because their mannerisms their everything is just so embarrassing. #Essay tags 😻😻😻

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

creative mode subnautica i am invincible and my base is so pretty and there is nothing wrong with my brain

#whats better than this. guys being dudes. making underwater luxury housing. #my favorite favorite location ever is the intersection between safe shallows and grassy plateau and kelp forests #big ol 3 room tower with ac tanks in the bottom 2 floors and my bedroom on the top #so i can look down into the tank and see my creatures swimming around.... #nice little... vending machine room.... bioreactor room with all the indoor plant pots and storage + charging stations #scanner room right across from the moonpool with a hatch outside in between..... #guys im soooo good at subnautica base building #i want to live here fr #sitting here wating for my last crabsnake egg to hatch..... #btw did u guys know they changed the reefback eggs. you cant hatch reefbacks anymore :( instead u get FUCKING SPADEFISH. this is so unfair #i want a tiny little reefback in my home aquarium soooo bad. this is bs #hi im absolutely dreading work and also therapy tomorrow. i dont want to go i dont want to talk about my issues this sucks actually!!!!!!! #i was gonna be so productive today but i had to go to the grocery store with my dad and also like 50 other errands #and also im dogsitting for a family friend Again and its gonna be like a whole 2 weeks and im soooo tired already. sigh #i dont want to BE HERE #im tjred of responsibilities i want to kms but like not in the funny quirky way ppl say that these days i mean im mentally ill forreal. #love and peace i fucking guess <3

[girlwithfish]

can i wash my hair nd shower and get dressed fix my hair and makeup in less than 30minutes

#fighting for my life on the toilet rn xx #Im soooo tired i shldnt have come home Ngl but i felt bad Idk so i did #But i want to sleep bc im tireddd but i have to socialize w More ppl and i barely know them tooo #i had fun at my bfs house despite the mentally ill moments that mane ne fee l like i cant be around ppl or be normal and i cry and have to #contain being mentally unwell around other ppl but like other than that it was fun nd i got #a lot more comfortable around his cousins and siblings after a while so im proud i tried a lot nd did ok w the social interaction and #Yea but ive been there since wednesday so its kind of tiringgg like i want to b alone now rn ngl. also soo tirednslightly weed hungover #But idk maybe im jsut tiredm or tired bc of that as well. Im tired etc

[limbel]

Im pretty sure i shouldnt be the one in charge of my own emotions tbh

#can someone else pls take the reins of this mess #ill never learn how to deal with them and im soooo tired of being always wrong #shut up mila

[arolesbianism]

Adhd medication secured 🎉

#rat rambles #Im too tired to be over the moon but thank fucking god Finally #god I hope this a least helps I am soooo tired of not being able to do things #of course Im not expecting it to like completely fix my life or anything but even if it just makes finishing my 3d animation final easier #Ill be happy I do not need to waste more of my moms money

[toastsnaffler]

tummy hurts my final message goodbye

#ive had mild pelvic pain for like. half a week now. its a bit like period cramps + in the same area but not as intense. idfk why #I dont think its bowel (<-no other symptoms and pain area is too low down) or bladder related (<- usually more painful + affects peeing) #sometimes I do get cramps a few days before my period but im midway thru my cycle and idk its not usually like this #not ovulation pain either bc thats supposed to only last a few hours. i dont fucking knooooww #im trying not to think abt it or complain abt it bc if i focus on it too much ill imagine its worse than it is. its rly not that bad #just consistent which is annoying. hopefully itll pass in a few more days. adulthood is all abt having mysterious random pains in ur body #sorry for tmi abt my internal bodily functions do u guys still think im cool. #eurghhh. im glad i went out to parkour today but man i rly wasnt feeling like it. another depression weekend :-( #but its ok im a bit tired of complaining abt being depressed. who give a shit. im doing all i can at the moment and thats fine #back to jobhunting tmr hopefully itll be more fruitful. im expecting to hear back from a few ppl. we'll see. rolling my rock back uphill #im gonna go get a hot water bottle i think... my hands are soooo cold and maybe itll soothe tummy pain too #and then read a little more.. finished giovannis room earlier (so fucking good but. devastating) so im back onto deaths end #just another 350 pages to go.. v curious to see where its gonna end up cuz so much crazy shit keeps happening. im just at the fairytales #hope my loyal followers are having a peaceful weekend.... farewell #.diaries

[cl0wn-l4k3]

ii acctidentlly spit on so. soso many books👍👍👍

#im so tired sleepies !!!!!!!fucjung snonk mimimi shit that me. its not #i crave tbe taste of #balsamic glaze. wanna drink kt #slurp that shit down nasty style #i want. grapes tolive inside me forevers #crangrape juice👍👍 #grapes are so beautiful. they put so much pussy into everything #no body loves her like i could love him #ohh fuck right my books. i cant check them bcus if i climb out of bed my. #body ewill shut down and ill. have to deal eith lirk. gull body tremors and no t being able move nd that sucks shitly yknow #also its like this whole thing and. i might be having seizures??? #idk its like. some conplicated shut anf im. havingent gotten the whole story of. possible family histoy of seizures and im. #kindof avoiding doctors i guessidk #anways. im somikng too much weed hates me soooo’s much #anyways. also i hate myself i suck so much im so fucking disgusting i fucking hate being myself #ok. im going to. nkt slleeep anymoew aever again goodbye goodbye love you goodby nighties

[afternines]

I HAVE TO LAUGH I HAVE TO LAAUGGGGFHFH

#when i dropped out of school and started working somehow everything started being easier #my social anxiety got soooo much better . my depression got so much better and i wasnt stressed at any giving time and i thought #that maybe all my mental health problems were just a direct consequence of me being undiagnosed nd in an environment that expected too much #from me without offering accommodations for me to reach those goal #like work is still tiring and overstimulating at times but theres no deadlines!!! i dont have to bend n break my back to get certain tasks #done!!!!! like i have a package of tasks i just loop through and i can plan in my own days and weeks and decide what i will be doing when #and how and theres no wrong or right system of doing things as long as the result is just what my boss wishes for and im AUGDHDGFH im so #lucky to be here #To get back to the point im trying to make tho. #as i left an environment that just wasnt good for me and entered another environment that somehow did wonders to my mental health i rlly #thought i would find peace from now on. Like id still get upset and sad or whatever like non mentally ill people do too #but it wouldnt be to an extent anymore where i wanna hurt myself or disappear forever #and for a bit more than a year everything was good!!!!! started to think i made up all my mental problems tbh #but lately things have been so tuff . i havent been this depressed in years #and like i can still physically do things . i can still go to work and clean my room and take showers and whatnot #but im so exhausted. and i keep crying all the time and i feel like everyone hates me for being so . depressed and i cannot physically do #the one thing i love doing (drawing) like nothing i try comes out good enough which just makes me cry again lol #and i dont . i dont understand it #bc i removed all (most?) of the factors that were making me this mentally nauseous and i was supposed to feel better . i was supposed to fee #good now. but i feel like im back at uni sitting on my bed crying over my notebooks trying to cram all the paragraphs into my head not #understanding why i cant remember anything for my classes . why its easy for everyone but me #everything always seems easy for everyone but me #i really dont understand #is this really a part of me . will i really always be this miserable and insecure? will i always hate myself and not feel enough? #im still the same person i was before i just wear different clothes #my body grows but i just dont grow up

[mkscatgirl]

I NEED to enforce some kind of structure to my life for the next few days or I WILL fall into a funk SO FAST

#nothing like a few days of doing nothing to make me feel AWFUL #i hate being busy because it makes me soooo tired #but if i have NOTHING to force me out and be avtive i will just stay in my room and do nothing #which just sends me into the WORST of moods sooooo fast #but i hope shopping and cooking tomorrow will be good enough #ill have to take an afternoon to do prep for the semester too #ill probably do that... monday? #i guess i am kimda busy this weekend huh #im shopping and stuff tomorrow gaming sunday school stuff monday volunteering and friends tuesday school Wednesday #COOL #after today i was worried id get fucked up but it looks like ill be pkay <3