#sorry if this is tagged wrong im still bad at this

[flemlem]

okay so. warning, this is Long (for me anyway) and kind of unfinished? unpolished? its 1am and i am having Thoughts.

Little analysis of qTubbo and Morning Crew because ive been seeing a lotta opinions and I wish to add My Own into the Melting Pot.(I may get off track, im sorry, im incoherent at all times, thats why my posts are so short.)(also all characters just in case)

So first of all, Im putting it out there. Fit and Pac still care about Tubbo. From an outside view, from the audience, we can clearly see that. Unfortunately for us, Tubbo is infact not acting with the same knowledge in mind.

As far as Tubbo is aware they are going to move on without him. They have eachother now they dont need him anymore

With him and Fits relationship We can see that the jokes are banter and just silly, even if ill timed, but how was fit supposed to know that. We see this moment kinda throw tubbo back into 'I have to be worth something, because why would anyone Actually want to team with me if i cant give them something, if I cant make up for being Me '. He starts being more reckless about wanting create back, not really caring to try get out of the cage, even though he probably could of glitch blocked up there at the start.

Ive also seen people mention the fact that Fit 'told him he was family'. Now please genuinely correct me if im wrong. Fit only told Sunny she was family("Youre family"). Sure, he was Right There, but we know that tubbo sees Sunny as more important than him, its totally plausible that Tubbo thought that that wouldn't include him. Its never specified that that was directed at more than just Sunny (out loud), Tubbo also didn't know what sunny wrote (as far as im aware).

I had a whole paragraph on Pac too but it got too messy to salvage, maybe another day.

Tubbo has always been slightly weird about his place in Morning Crew, especially since it started "becoming an isocoles triangle". Im not sure if im more on the side of hes trying to push them away before they get the chance to to save himself the heartache, or if he's trying to show them how much they need him like a 'look at how weird it is when im not there At All. Look at my Cool Town with Foolish and Not you. Please need me still'.

Im Most on the side of him distancing himself, not to save himself the pain(maybe still slightly), not to try get them to come Get Him Back, but to almost hint at them that they Can move away from him. Trying to show them that he does have Other People they dont Need to be around him if they dont want to. The thing about this that isnt working is that Fit and Pac Do still want to be around him.

TLDR: Fit and Pac still care, but no matter how obvious, q!tubbo is mentally ill and has convinced himself that since they got together he is becoming Less and Less important, only catastrophising further at each thing that could be taken as cold even when theyre not.

#q!tubbo #qtubbo #tubbo #morning crew #qsmp fit #qsmp fitmc #pactw #qsmp pac #qsmp analysis #thats a rant and a half im sorry #I expect no one to care #but I do so- #sorry if this is tagged wrong im still bad at this #qfit #fitmc

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[quinn-pop]

mk vs dmk on romance

#meta is very worried about doing the ‘wrong thing’ or getting dedede’s hopes up and dark is perfectly happy to just roll with it #this is a plot point in something so i won’t get into it but it’s interesting to me #look darkroach is cute i think they should get to kiss sometimes #kirbyposting #my art or something #meta knight #king dedede #metadede #dark meta knight #daroach #shadow dedede #mirror metadede #darkroach #it’s not like daroach and sddd are a thing so i can’t really give the three of them a name? #ask to tag #dark taranza #quinn does comics #the text on this is SO bad im sorry. pen art moment #is it still aro week?? this is actually just coincidence anyway you guys are cool #i dont think dmk has an actual label for his orientation so where he is on the spectrum is kinda unclear #he’s not really sure but he’s not very interested in figuring out the specifics #*glances at my timeline* i should probably explain that one day

[blonde-and-cat-suc]

If Adora and Catra both did crap to hurt each other then why do I never see comics abt Adora feeling like crap and feeling bad for hurting Catra

#salt salt salt #old draft post that i had stewing in here #even fandom knows. they KNOW. that c//a is not an equal relatioship. #equal c//a would have these two ALWAYS arguing back and forth with each other about things from the past. possibly working them out togethe #equal c//a FANON would naturally reflect this following that same logic #so why is it when we see the premises of “Adora has to apologize to Catra now” its the same tired old... #“Im sorry i left you in the Horde” #and nothing else. #“im sorry that your feelings were hurt and im sorry that you had no influence over me at that time... Im sorry that you're STILL mad at me” #she's not apologizing over something that she is genuinely sorry about #she's apologizing in these fanon works as a means to placate catra (and fans' warped reality of what this relationship actually is) #it's a shitty vaguely disguised way to “equalize” c//a and make it so that they BOTH look like awful people #when obviously this is not the case because the narrative itself doesn't think Adora is wrong for leaving the Horde! #even if these two were “equally bad” to each other. why ship them then. really. seriously. i get the rhetoric of “ooh toxic spicy ship” but #if they're really SO “toxic and spicy” where is the part where they're BOTH toxic? BOTH bad for each other? #it's not a toxic relationship if ONE side is toxic. thats called an abusive relationship. anyway. im done now. good night. #whoops! tag rant

[anastacialy]

y'know, i keep making a habit of swinging my bat at hornets nests, but i have to say i'm getting so, so tired of people complaining about shows not making perfect sense when they aren't even close to done. we're four episodes into this season of doctor who. we're four episodes into this season of bridgerton. and yet in both fandoms i keep seeing people whine that such and such didn't make sense or it wasn't explained all the way and by god you guys i think maybe explanations might come later in the season. this is something most viewers will recognize as being called a 'plot.'

#like maybe a tiny bit of media literacy... might save you #and if you think i'm being mean like. its okay if you don't get it at first. it's okay if you don't understand the themes. but maybe #instead of stamping your feet and saying this makes no sense and i hate what they're doing and and and #maybe you could try listening to other people's interpretations of things and you'll find that what the show is trying to tell you becomes #more clear! would you look at that. wild how that happens #like im sorry you're entitled to your opinions but calling things bad writing just because you don't quite get it or it doesn't resonate #with you personally... i don't think you should just say this was shitty and worthless #the examples im using are because both resonate with me btw. 73 yards was existential horror it was hill house and bly manor #(im going to write about this in another post btw bc it compels me so) #it was about the way fear of abandonment can haunt you how mental illness can haunt you how you feel like you can drive people away #just by being yourself (the Woman was Herself what caused ruby to be abandoned was Her it's about her feeling as though she was the cause #of everyone who left her even as a baby even the people who loved her most could decide to not love her at the drop of a hat) #colin bridgerton is masking and faking a personality because it has been proven that time and time again #being Himself is Wrong that he annoys people he makes himself into what people expect of him because he's tired of being abandoned too #his family ignores and does not reply to his letters this season PEN stopped replying to his letters #his brother was cruel to him for being a romantic his friends LAUGHED AT HIM for saying sex is meaningful to him and don't they feel lonely #his Fake Rake persona makes viewers cringe because! its!! fake!!! he's faking it! HE GETS CALLED OUT ON IT TWICE IN EP ONE #if you don't understand he's faking it then that's on you at that point! i don't know! maybe take a minute to sit in the discomfort and ask #why did this show make me react this way and do you think maybe it was on purpose #''73 yards was confusing'' do you think confusion may be one of the ways ruby feels about her abandonment? #there is a theme in all of her episodes so far is it ''badly written'' unclear to you or do you just refuse to think critically about it #txtly #and im sorry for tagging this its just for my blog i kinda wish they still didnt show up in tags if i tag them all the way at the bottom #[old lady ruby voice] ''i used to be able to tag things just for myself once upon a time'' #bridgerton #bridgerton spoilers #doctor who #doctor who spoilers

[fivefeetfangirl]

What if... what if there was Purcon 8 Baldsen Ackles but make it 91w version

you want this??

someone put this on a t shirt so i can get it signed by jensen

#THIS TOOK WAY TOO LONG AND I HAD WAY TOO MUCH FUN WITH THIS #nonny you should know my family LAUGHED AT ME #i asked them 'does this look like a good head line' AND THEY LAUGHED #my brother just stared at me like this 👁👄👁 #ignore the cigarette being the wrong way it was the last thing i added and my patience was running out #also enjoy some 91w barefoot dean action shjdhsjdh #embarrassing how bad this is considering MY JOB IS PHOTOGRAPHY hdksjfhkdsjfh but we never photoshop so i think im allowed to be bad lmaooo #91w #again sorry to every more normal person than me that follows that tag #sorry to all new followers who followed for normal amount of crazy content #im actually considering getting a jackles auto to get him to sign my baldsen t shirt (right on his forehead hjsdhsjdh) but we'll see what #happens lol im not exactly made of money either lol #baldsen actually started out as a joke to me but now im more like hmmm leaning into it maybe the man should just shave his head #and then i see his long hair and i change my mind lol #but still a funny af meme #baldsen ackles

[inhumanfuckingdogman]

If i had to pick (and lbr you do) between either roman or tomgreg being canonically gay and explored in the series id pick roman 100%. Tomgreg going canon would set gay rights back by like 40 years

#like its still a big tv show they can only have one gay person on it #succ #i think tomgreg will always be reaching new insane heights of whatever the fucknis wrong with them #but roman. roman. #the gerri thing was completely a mommy issues deal #roman ‘for reasons of … we dont know why i cant pee next to other men’ roy #i enjoy watching his torment and quite frankly i cant think of anything that would turn him inside out with misery #quite like the slow tortuous realization that everything his father is disgusted by in him #are the things that make him feel happy and at peace and loved #i hope his interactions with mattson are confusing and scary and addicting and he keeps going back #mencken works too but im sorry that more boring.2 me. ohhh hes into it bc facism bad but he likes when thing bad we get it. #thats the same thing hes been doing tho #now imagine: rome but hes in a relationship with someone whos a little fascinated by him #this dettached deadeyed weirdo who doesnt roll his eyes when he speaks #and instead seems to listen to every word and remember what he says #and who maybe. just maybe. even cares about him #like mattson would definitely treat him like a bug under glass but roman ‘dog cage and chocolatte cake’ roy #would easily mistake that for love #idk not articulating it well. might write a fic abt it. we’ll see #tomgreg canon truthers btw no hate i lov the ship sorry if this shows up in the tag #but theyre definitely going to be in weird limbo forever & ever #i think at best tomgreg will become canon? (audible question mark) #i think they could fuck nasty and weird on screen and tom would start gaslighting greg into thinking it didnt happen #because nothing like. nice or good happens in the show its about misery #i want tomgreg to stay on ao3 so i can read abt tom healing after leaving waystar #anyways! #chatter

[conanssummerchild]

it really just doesnt matter with my sister, i'll spend half an hour defending her to my mother but she will never ever take my side, i dont know why i bother anymore

#every interaction feels like im twelve years old on our great aunts rooftop again #i cant believe its been nearly four years #i cant get over it #i cant get over her #why doesnt she care about me at all #what did i ever do #whats so wrong with me #if i was the last person on earth she still wouldnt want me #it hurts so fucking bad #but it shouldnt #because its nothing new #sorry about waxing poetic in the tags #i need to write a song about her but i dont know where to start #its still too raw #i dont know if it ever wont be #alex says shit #alex is an idiot #s :(

[trainingdummyrabbit]

The Horrors Persist

#piktalk #tags moment again sorry besties #i dont wanna go back to sleep but i might have to :/ (<- 40% battery) #iam simultaneously making a huge deal and not a big deal at all of this and it feels silly but also i can hear my ears ringing. so. #its dark! im lonely! i dont know what im gonna do with today! hours and hours! #and i dont wanna use all my phone battery in case of emergency but fuck dude! man!!!! #literally out here 'yeah as long as i have smthn to do i can deal with it here' Surprise Dumbass!!! #like nothings Bad yet but it could be Very Easily and i know that and i dont like that. yknow. #i do not enjoy the sensation of distance. iknow i shouldnt be such a pansy abt it all but. :( #nothing is technically Wrong i am simply aware of my limits and this happens to be one of them. yknow. #and. it is still dark. alas.

[healingheartdogs]

All of my planning and worrying didn't matter because he went on his own last night at home and it was traumatic as fuck for me and Selene both.

#dont read the tags if you dont want any details #he didnt seem that bad yesterday #he was swollen but he was still up and moving around on his own #he even took all his meds and ate a full bowl of food without any trouble #we called the vet to ask them to call us back to discuss options yesterday around 4 #vet called us back around 7 to discuss new meds to keep him comfortable while we got home euth set up for him #and we agreed ro go in today to pick them up for him and then got off the phone #and like five minutes later Banana suddenly started panting hard #so me and Selene sat on the floor with him trying to figure out what was wrong #and he started having a seizure which we're used to so we were keeping him company waiting for it to pass like normal #only it didnt #he suddenly died in my arms instead while I cried and screamed and tried to get him to start breathing again #selene call d the vet and told them we were bringing him in for an emergency visit and i was just sitting on the floor numb #cuz i knew the vet was too far away to be any help and even if they werent it wouldn't matter #he was already gone #he was gone so fast and I wasnt ready #it was so fucking horrible #im never going to be able to get the way he looked before he collapsed out of my head #my poor old man #that was not how it was supposed to go im so sorry

[caruliaa]

bad decision maker (me)

#this IDIOT decided to start an event for a fandom even though two relativly popular ships make them feel deeply uncomforatable !! #uugh its fine. its 2023 like three ppl ship carmen and gray and/or julia and chase in 2023. weve moved on where better as a society #UGHH THE THING ISS THO !!! like i dont want to be mean those ships genuinly make me feel like being sick maybe and i didnt realize #that my reaction to it was THAT intense before so i tohught it wld b fine if i had to occasionaly rb stuff for it. #i made my bed so i must lie in it i guess !!! alnd like no ones posted stuff YET but still. im nervous #also worried that bc ihave those ships tags banned i wont even see content for it and then the ppl posting content for it will like. #accuse me of being biased and say im a bad person and bla bla bla which i am biased but ill try not to be and uugh. #society if ppl didnt see a female character and a male character who she very clearly sees as her older brother #and a female character and a male character who repeatedly demeans her and went 'what if i shipped them' so this was never an issue for me #sorry thats mean. idk im trying to be impartial and balalnced and fair but i also am not ig. #its more just like! please dont kill me if i seem biased against redcr.ackle i am but i dont deserve u telling everyone to block me over it #someone actually did that once. cleary didnt work in the long run but you can see now why im so damm nervous #ig i can say that if i seem biased towards certain ships thats bc thats whats in the csweekly tags. and babes i wont be wrong !!! #bc i do rb based purely on those tags so ig im fine !! #flappy rambles

[feline-evil]

Man i 'dread' the day my love of horror gets me some wack ass callout post written about me, because my instinctive need to be funny at all times WOULD kick in and i would be out here answering every "are you a cannibal irl 🤢" ask like 'YES and i think it is GOOD to do this and i am going to go out to the deli counter and BITE the people in line because i think Leatherface is REAL and MY FRIEND and he was RIGHT TO DO ALL THAT!'

the tumblr girlies would tear me APART (which is inherently problematic of them, dismemberment is NOT cool guys :( )

#jay talkin #sorry for being sooooo sexy and able to understand that liking horror doesnt mean i commit atrocities #im a texas chainsaw and the terror enjoyer. what can i say! #no to be real though to be honest and true #i try NOT to focus too much on what if i got called out for liking horror or being queer in a way far too online teens deem is wrong #but it does sometimes cross my mind that those weird fuckin chuds could try it #and GENUINELY. if i get some fake ass dumb callout abt liking horror or cannibalism posting i WILL lean into it bc it is funny asf #like what am i gonna do? grovel for forgiveness? no! if you think liking tcm makes me a bad person i dont want you around me lmao #but no yeah. i used to be in a community where i KNOW this wld happen bc someone did try and turn my friends on me via fake callout once #but i dont hang out there now and i have cool friends so i am safe to cannibalpost yippie yahoo!! #It Is Still Funny To Think About Though #also hi if yr this far in the tags. HASHTAG LEATHERFACE WAS RIGHT TO DO ALL THAT!!!!! BUBBA SWEEP!!!!!

[h00f]

woah, hi! it’s been a while!

i’ve just finished another year of college, and i think i want to try taking my blog back and using it for my own enjoyment! i’m going to start posting more art i’ve been making, but also reblogging things! and sharing thoughts! ive really, really missed being able to do that, so i’m starting it again now! no more fear :)

i just posted a piece from my last semester, and i will probably put up some more later tonight and tomorrow! hopefully even reblogging things here again!!

i hope you’re all doing well, and ily!

#if i havent replied to you i am still deeply sorry. i have a very hard time talking to people these days; especially digitally #reminds me of bad times. so i will just be posting for now until i can do that again! i hope you can forgive me #today i had to take one of my cats to the emergency vet. i might lose my house soon but i’m happy to be making art again. it will be ok! #anyways hi! this is soup! i’m one of jayson’s alters! #back in 2020 i had a really really bad time. and my brain fractured more than it was before #and now i’m a lot of people! but we work together and my life is fairly happy these days! #i want to learn robotics and how to 3D model; im interested in metal casting and prop making too! #i draw lots but never finish anything. sketchbook pics will have to do for now #im not really writing this to anybody; it’s just been really hard and i miss the comfort of speaking my mind. and this is my blog!! #so i will be apologetic no longer!! i’m going to shitpost and reblog funny memes and post art i’m proud of #and i hope you all will join me for this new era! #and a new text post tag too because i’m tired of thinking nobody cares! bc they do 💛 #souptxt #oh and if ur curious.. theres about 15 of us? youll probably see the variety. my ocs came to life and live in my head STORYTIME GONE WRONG!! #LAST THING: IM A SCULPTURE MAJOR NOW……… #so i make statues but ALSO ive been making stuffies! and prop masks! well just the one ok but still #also? i work as a baker and it’s actually… really nice. it’s good to like the labor i put in! #i will send u pretzels if u ask nice enough

[moss-sprouted]

just got struck by the memory that not only did i read the main percy jackson series during the summer when i was 11 (sea of monsters in one day) then i also proceeded to reread them in 7th grade but lie to my friends that it was my first time reading them for some reason

#i read Dozens of books those two years too so they didnt take me the full like school year #i read a series of unfortunate events and twilight in 6th grade and then gaurdians of ga'hoole in 7th grade i think only up to like book 6? #whichever one where they go to the like winter island but i lost interest in that one #that was in 7th grade and i read some of the narnia ones as well #i also unfortunately reread harry potter which technically it was read to me the first time but still #and then through highschool i read a lot #and this was also like during class and i still got decent grades #now ive been ahdjkd only Slowly back into reading but ive read a lot this year that im proud of #i read a lot of heavy long books though so rereading PJO has been a palate clenser #and hopefully hoo will get me back into bigger books #pjo has so far taken me like #a month for each book and im on book 3 so hopefully ill be on hoo by the end of the year but the last olympians a bit longer so im not sure #its not that it talk me a lot to read the books because i finished the last 10 chapters of sea of monsters in like 3 hours its more i only #really get time to read at night when going to bed and im bad about going to bed earlier and i usually can only read for a bit before its #light out #OH i also read hunger games all of it somewhere in that time period #i think christmas just before the movie came out #so that was probably early 7th grade but i could be wrong #times a fuck but i did read a lot #sorry for the tags infodump idk how else to talk about reading ahdkdk

[munamania]

I AM KILLING MYSELF FR ACTUALLY YOU WONT HEAR FROM ME ANYMORE okay i’m sorry for the scary clickbait but like. i want to die. DIE!!!!!

#fucking 12 year old drama are u joking. #i. ok. so i had my lactose intolerance bad tummy issues was terrified i was gonna shit my pants in class tbh. sorry for the tmi #so my period took the back burner i was like i’m not bleeding that much i’ll just wear a lil tampon and be fine #ok. flash forward three hours later im walking home i’m like hmmm this doesn’t feel right #get home hoping i’m wrong and there’s a giant fucki kg blood staying #honestly at this point in my life wouldn’t care that much bc i yk. was just walking home no one really saw me #EXCEPT. EXCEPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking film girl. i went down the stairs in front of her and then yk we split apart but still like. #there’s no way. no way she didn’t see .000001% fucking #chances she didn’t see. AND o was having a whole little moment about last semester so maybe she was just sat there pitying me for having a #middle school moment rn. probably not. i mean she was normal #and if that happened i wouldn’t be judgy but man idk people!!! and that’s EMBARRASSING!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #just because this was so dramatic i’m gonna tag it but know that i’m like fine. #suicide ment #lol. sorry #abby talks #well at least i see her again today and it’s not like another week of agonizing

[catboy-jupiter]

just read bllk 262 and honestly.

if kaiser ends up getting himself together this early im gonna b a bit disappointed ngl. like ik he's new gen 11 and canonically one of the greats of under-20 soccer & all and i'm glad he's realizing he got too comfortable w/ what he'd won and only went after fights he already believed he could win but. i was rlly hoping to only see his improvement once we got to u20 championships....

i hope he like. tries his best, realizes it still isn't enough but then he's even more incredible once u20 rolls around.

like idk this is def smth that i can forgive if pulled off well but atp his downfall can't rlly b considered one imo (the dude missed 2 goals bc he was trying a technique he hasn't mastered AND that is nigh impossible. come on.) i rlly feel that for his arc to be complete he will need to reach true rock bottom first and this feels too. mild. idk. maybe i need to reread the past few chapters at once but this def feels lacking if it's meant to be his true downfall

im hopeful that it isnt bc kaiser himself mentioned he hasn't lost everything, just that he's very very close to it. so i rlly hope that line will be crossed so he can truly be 'reborn from zero' and not just starting that process up himself

im being very long-winded and probably repeating myself so i'll just try my best to trust the vision and/or hope that even if things don't go as i hoped the plan is executed well and i still like the end results and how we got there lol

#like dont get me wrong #i still adore kaiser & admittedly seeing his backstory made me like... #feel kinda bad that i show my love to him through insults #but like idrc he's my pathetic princess i think he should be humiliated a bit more lol #im glad he got off his high horse but i wanna see him despair a bit more this doesn't feel like enough idk #he's one of the few blorbos i like to see fail a bit & suffer lol #bllk ch262 #bllk 262 #bllk spoilers #kind of but im overly cautious #better safe than sorry when it comes to tagging spoilers imo