#thank god its christmas

[soldier-poet-king]

Ya girl is the kind of dumb of ass idiot who is like, now that the big scary interview is over, is like...oh god what if I DO get the job? It's smthn I want and would be good at etc etc etc but also it would be a lot more work than my current position where I'm, lbr, fucking around out of boredom alot. I'd have REAL responsibilities! Actual challenges! Unions! Benefits! Better pay so I can move out! Way more professional development and experience opportunities but also way more areas to fuck up by being part of a bigger team and part of a significantly larger institution. Like. What if I am stupid and dumb and crack under the stress or my attention span gets bad and suddenly I'm incapable of doing the work, despite it being smthn I /want/

Ofc this is entirely hypothetical, esp bc I'm rethinking everything I said today and beating myself up about how much better I couldve answered xyz questions, the usual post interview anxiety, and I won't find out abt this job til the new year and part of me is like oh I've got it in the bag and part of me is like well ofc you fucked up and aren't gonna get it

#AHHHHHHHHH #the duality of fran #i am. going to say vespers. read. go to bed #i think i just need to chill tf out #thank god its almost christmas and i have some time off #the last few weeks have just been. go go go. between my cousins sudden death and the funeral and work stuff and this interview #and just. it being dark and miserable and im already feeling bad abt life bc its december #gah. i need sleep

[sometipsygnostalgic]

Nighttime schedule:

Grief minecraft server

Kiss girlfriend

Pet girlfriend

Browse reddit

Suppress The Horrors That Plague You In The Dark

Think of kinky or sad fanfic

Fall asleep before you can finish

#i have always had a rough time of existentialism and fear before sleeping #it has gotten worse in the past 5 years because i lost my first relative #and i very nearly lost my brother around christmas #also a guy broke into my house #but that only gives me The Horrors now if ive been playing a horror game #so i stopped playing lethal company which is sad! its a good game just bad for my sleep #thank god for self locking doors #i dont have to worry about a random drunk falling asleep on the sofa again

[randomminty]

forgot these two were friends in the anime……. Good for them

#Tumblr my lines were so smooth and high quality why do you hurt me so #Pokemon #Art tag #Gym leader korrina #Gym leader bea #Someone said they like my tag rambling thank you. I will keep doing it #Its nearly christmas and the only chrissy related art ive planned is jasmine and whitneys alts from pokemas which i will post tmrw probably #The precure logo reveal gotten me in a precure mood again. I wanna see the new cure designs now aaaa!!!!! #Expect go princess or heartcatch art if im bothhered hehe #I always love precure villains so much theyre so silly. Gopri and heartcatch especially #Whenever i talk abt a different franchise in my tags its a warning in case i post fanart of it. Im preparing you #Oh my god i didnt even mention bea and korrina. Girl best friends. Ok ok bye

[waterfallofspace]

Do you have any fics in progress by chance? You’re such an amazing writer :)

Hiya!~ Thank you for the ask dear~

Honestly, despite how much I love getting asks like this, they always surprise me! It's still such a foreign concept that people not only enjoy my work, but are actively curious about it!

Aghagh and to answer the actual question, yes I do! I usually have at least 10 different prompts sitting in my google docs, but I find I have less WIPS since I'm a fairly 'get going on it and finish it in one - three goes' type of writer. Recently been a bit burned out of my hyperfixations, and finding it a bit hard to just write things (perfectionism kicking in).

That said, I actually have two started! One that's almost finished part one of two (A m/agnus a/rchives fic, two different focuses for the different chapters of snzdom~) and one that's been started, and is abouuuttt halfway done I think~ (A c/huuya centric fic as a so... sooooo late birthday gift for the amazing Hachii, which is turning into a new years/christmas thing too agghh ;-;)

Thank you for the ask!~ I always love getting uh... basically any asks haha~

#waterfallasks #thank you so much non!~ #genuinely i love things like this- im always so excited to see ANY ask in my inbox~ #whether its a question- a comment- a request- or just a 'hi' <3 #i hope this is a good answer!! god i have SO many prompts and requests aghaughu #im so sorry to anyone whos requested things i promise i WILL be working on them again soon #that christmas craze is starting to end- a lot of irl things been happening too but #its starting to slow down so i think ill be able to get back into the mood soon!!! #that t/ma fic is eating my soul i am so hyperfixated on the show rn i might end up finishing it and pumping out like 4 more haha~

[tripthelightfandomtastic]

Me opening my bank account this morning after Christmas shopping this weekend.

#like who tfs money do i think im spending??? #thank god its payday omg #its never been THAT low wow #Christmas

[knightzp]

finished the cozmez memory novel

#this was too much #WHAT DO YOU MEAN NAYUTAS METAL EROSION HAPPENED BC HE ASKED FOR MORE MONEY = MORE EXPERIMENTS #JUST BC HE WANTED THE MONEY TO BUY KANATA A CHRISTMAS GIFT AND GIVE IT TO HIM LIKE SANTA #BC KANATA STILL BELIEVES IN SANTA AND NAYUTA WANTED TO MAKE HIM HAPPY BC SANTA HAD NEVER VISITED THEM BEFORE #NAYUTA NOOOOOOOOOO #his intentions were so pure and it was actually really cute seeing him witnessing kanatas reaction to the present and how #he could barely stop himself from smiling #BUT NOT AT THE COST OF YOUR OWN LIFE YOU STUPID IDIOT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #(also the whole kanata believing in santa thing is so absolutely funny and cute i would have never expected it from him alfjskdjd) #and then the exact moment when nayuta realizes his actions arent really helping anyone at all but the contrary #when he hears shiki screaming his name and sees the pained expression on his face!!!!!!! #like how in just one instant he gets all that fear and regret suddenly only when its already too late and he prays for another chance...... #and thank GOD he got it #but AAAGHYGGGGGGGGGGG CRYING FOREVER

[permafrown]

V2 can't exaclty give you a kiss per say.... but who said that you couldn't give them a kiss! Which is what inspired them to plan a mistletoe right underneath the both of you. If V2 had a mouth, you swear they'd be smirking. Of course they'd be smirking.

You laid them a sweet kiss on where their mouth would be. And even though that V2 can't give you a kiss back, they very gently bumped their face towards you. Mimicking one almost. Hey! It was an attempt, wasn't it.

"Well, who said that I wouldn't give you one back! What do you mean it doesn't count! Of course it does. Admit it. You were just as happy when you gave you one, hmm?"

#yikes.txt #COUNT YOUR DAYS YOU SICK BASTARD !!! /LH #omen under the mistletoe at 11:59 like thank god its not christmas . and then the clock strikes 12 #do you have to kiss under the mistletoe on christmas eve.. or is it just christmas... im not sure #ANYWAY MERLIN WHEN I GET YOU MERLIN. YOURE DONE FOR

[evil-lan-zhan]

Ohoho! I'm getting the special edition of mdzs, I grabbed the last one (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

#thank god the people by my books a million dont have taste #its been on the shelf for months #(⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠) #anyways i cant have it till christmas which is fine #mdzs #this is about stinkin mdzs

[thewolvesof1998]

🌲 name your 5 favourite christmas songs and pass this on to a blog you love 🌲

Hi love!!!!!

Gurl I have a whole Christmas playlist that’s six hours long this is the perfect ask for me (but also the worst because I it was so hard to choose):

1. I want a hippopotamus for Christmas by Gayla Peevey - this was easy because when I first heard this song like 5 years ago I knew it was going to be an all-time favourite.

2. Mele Kalikimaka by Bill Crosby and the Andrew Sisters (but I quite like the Kasey Musgraves cover)- again I heard this song five years ago and I'd never heard a Christmas song about warm Christmas which is what I grew up with.

3. I don't know what Christmas is (but Christmas time is here) by Old 97's- This is a new love, It was made for the Marvel Guardians of the Galaxy Christmas special but I love it so much.

4. Santa aint coming to town (he's drinking this year) by Thomas Mac- I don't know it just silly and I love it.

5. Happy Xmas (war is over) by John Lennon (I also love the cover by Miley Cyrus.)- A true classic, can't have Christmas without some old school rock Christmas songs and this is one of my favs.

thanks for your ask <3<3<3

My Christmas Playlist

#honourable mentions too #The whole Jason Manns Christmas with friends album but especially #have yourself a merry little Christmas with JENSEN ACKLES #12 days of Christmas with MISHA COLLINS #I want an alien for Christmas by Fountains of Wayne #is this Christmas? by the wombats #Christmas is all around (love actually) #Step into Christmas by Elton John #Thank god its Christmas by Queen #Christmas in the air (tonight) by Scouting for girls #Wolf gets mail #Wolf answers #Wolf rambles

[aq2003]

i forgot to say i have gotten thru empty child and boom town so i just have the last 2 episode finale . jack ....... hes a freak and i barely know anything abt him

HES A FREAK AND I LIKE HIM SOOOO MUCH. AHAHAJWHWKDIZHW. the bicon ever

#hope u enjoy the finale !! and also idk how ur watching the show but if its pirated make sure u pull up like #the order of the list of episodes on wikipedia bc the christmas specials in ten's run are like important to the plot/overall story lol #i got it right but almost fucked it up on series 4 thank god i didn't watch it out of order #dr who #9 era

[nutzworth]

being 16 is something that can be so evil. maybe jane crocker was right

#me #jane crocker haters have clearly never been a girl and 16 #not saying im a girl but the sentiment is there you get me #im nonpracticing but its still prevalent in my life #i go to church every christmas and easter #but my relationship with god is a little rocky you know #thats about how much im a girl. thanks

[wumbsie]

⭐

#it was only a minor collapse! #its pretty much resolved itself #i only get pangs of pain and even then i should make a full recovery and have good lungs again #thank god #ive been a mess this morning about it all #i can finally go home for christmas too because of it!!! i can finally SEE people #my flatmate went home days ago ive been so lonely #human contact... #that isnt the hospital... #yay :) #ramble

[yuichi-ro]

Its meeeeeeeeeeee 😁 Here with a ? that I don't think I've asked yet lol

Ahem- How does Baji and Hanma go about Lucas's first bday party where friends are invited. It's not just family anymore. But an actual bday party with other people and other kids. Are they stressed? Going with the flow? Hoping it all just kind of comes together? Totally on top of it?

And are they crying at their child's first friend bday party? Are you crying?

Haajee ♡

I was writing Wakasa smut and you interrupted me with actual thinking 😐

Though it's a full household, it's not like a big family? If that makes sense. Like we don't associate with a lot of extended family. It's basically always my mom and grandma and then Baji's mom. Hanma is severely low contact to no contact with his family. And he certainly really doesn't let them get to indulge in grandkids (if his parents are even in the picture tbh) So the birthday party thing once we have kids is pretty intimate for the most part.

First birthday for Lucas it's only family. As is Ren's first birthday. And probably the following second birthday for them too doesn't involve friends either bc the boys are just that close knit that they wouldn't really notice or care if other kids were there. So we make it to Lucas's third birthday before having to throw an actual official kid's party where other's are invited.

I am stressed. I am the stress monkey. I'm the one trying to make everything perfect. Look perfect. Taste perfect. No meltdowns. No tantrums. I'm the one pulling my hair out dreading and freaking and running on fumes until it's over.

Baji or Hanma aren't as stress driven as I am. They aren't useless though they at least let me be as neurotic as I am while doing what they can to pick up the slack. Baji really likes decorating whatever the theme is. Hanma puts the gift bags/party favors together for the other kids and his own. Baji is aloud to cut wrapping paper but Hanma is the only one allowed to wrap and tape things. I am the only one cooking and baking though. We do successfully get a fairly presentable party together. It's very obvious low budget but it's still enough to wow a three yr old

The day of the actual party I am too wound up making things go on time to be emotional. And to be fair I'm not an overly emotional person (I cry later that week or six months when I see pictures again at random) Baji is pretty much on kid duty. As a giant child he speaks their language and avoids adult duties by being on kid watch. Fair trade I'll give him that I don't wanna entertain toddlers. Hanma on the other hand is the outlier. He doesn't exactly have a "job" on birthday day besides appease the other adults and make sure they get what they need (he's charming, illegally so, so I put him to work) and picking up slack with the kids or with me cooking/hosting. He's honestly the one that gets emotional. When Baji's squatted down next to Lucas showing his kid how to blow out his total of three candles and keeping Ren from doing it. Seeing his son excited before I can even light the candles. And even if it's only like two other kids his age plus Ren, Hanma is getting teary eyed bc he just didn't have this. Any of it. And is never certain he deserves it when he steps outside the hectic bubble to be an outsider again. Hanma's friends are pretty much just me and Baji only. He's acquainted with people we're friends with but his friend group is really only his partners. And he didn't have this kind of just puking cute domestic kind of lifestyle growing up that he knows he missed something as a kid. He just never understood what it was he missed out on until he's getting to see his kids enjoy so much of it.

The kids and the family make Hanma teary eyed. He'll deny that he isn't but that bitch is wiping the corners of his eyes in his tshirt acting like no one's watching. But we know he's a giant softie on his kiddos and them growing up both excites and scares him to no end.

#after birthday parites and playdates though? Baji is extra tired and sleeps so well those nights #its like exhausting a dog so they're twitching in their sleep and honestly its perfect XD #hanma's a softie and we bait the kids to say shit like /eww dad likes us/ to him all the time when he's getting in one of his moods #doesnt happen a lot #specifically around events like birthdays and christmas #baji gets emotional on christmas #birthdays its whatever #but christmas he cries at least once #thank god these husbands arent THAT much of criers or else id kill myself #wifey.♡ #three.selfships #haajee.♡

[the-kipsabian]

whenever i feel bad about my existence i remind myself that kip appreciates me

#tho probably not as much as i appreciate him tbh #i mean i have him permanently inked on my skin #but yeah i have. a few stream clips saved on my phone where he talks about things and its just like #okay so chronologically first theres the cameo from last christmas after i came out as a fan with the first fanart he loved #then theres the new years donation shoutout with his incredible be yourself and do what makes you happy advice #(literally just if people dont love you for you just fuck em lol) #then theres the next one where i missed the stream after jersey but he stays how humbling it was to him to see my tattoo in person #and then the more recent one where he talks about fan interactions and how cool all the art and seeing people dress up is #and he just casually drops me by name to specifically mention the tattoo and how. to quote exactly. 'its fucking insane i love it' #like. idk man. if nobody else likes me in this life kip sabian does and i feel like thats pretty good you know #just using it as a positive vibes whenever i think im not worth a hot garbage and shit #just. get yourself a blorbo that appreciates you being a fan as much as you appreciate them being your blorbo lol #and also humble them for life. i know thats harder to do but god its so worth it #i cant wait to meet him again one day oof #sorry im just feeling things today i really just rather be home and in bed but i have to be here today unfortunately #so im thinking about this while i dont want to work anymore lol #that is all. sorry and thank you if you read all that #night is an absolute mess on main #..im also still convinced i never actually have told this man my name and yet he knows and remembers it #in case you needed to know that cause it makes me very soft too lol

[lunarflwrs]

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#animal death #grief #// #idkkk chocolate was 14 and he lived 4 months after we learned he would die soon. #mimi was TWO and he took ill FIVE DAYS before and he couldn't be saved it's just unfair and awful and despicable to take him so young #just last week i posted about him being on the bathroom rug! #just last week he jumped into the library bag! #just last week he was birdwatching and clicking his tongue to let us know there were birds! #just last week he was exploring the christmas tree! #just last week he was perfectly alright as usual! #i need. a dorian grey portrait of my kitties so they will never grow old or sick and instead only the painting will i #i need this new yearly ritual of a cat dying to stop immediately. #i need to stop all feelings i #literally screeching like a banshee but in its original context not a humorous one #i watched whisper of the heart and it's soooo feel good thank god for ghibli #i need to rewatch howls and totoro and kiki's and their entire filmography except the sad violent ones #im gonna make an emogothic mourning playlist and feel shitty and awful and wronged brb #&

[punk-raphaelite]

having my yearly freakout right before my birthday where I tighten all the privacy settings on every social media I have so no one could ever know anything about me or wish me happy birthday ever.

I'm extremely close to changing urls just for a bit so heads up

#m #my post #god i fucking hate my birthday even more than christmas #literally have flashbacks every year for a full fucking month #thank god I changed my number #might do it again in a few years #birthday trauma is fucking awful I dont even like people wishing me happy birthday #and someone always refuses because 'that's no fun :( its your birthday!' so I get reminded anyways