#that doesnt mean stop however

[luck-of-the-drawings]

FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.

#cw gore #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #chip jrwi #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE #CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER. #HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I #EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND #AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY #YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN #THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN #CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION #bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain.. #thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive. #and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN #AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up. #neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...' #RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this... #the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT #better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO.. #I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible #i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!

[gibbearish]

ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.

it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.

but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.

people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored

#youre allowed to make up scripts for people in fact good luck stopping yourself since thats kinda just part of how conversation works #is you try to predict how your audience will react to a certain statement #and my therapist actually encouraged me to practice run stuff i wanna talk about in sessions because That Makes It Easier To Talk About #like who cares if it's rehearsed‚ it's still the truth‚ yknow? #however that only applies to the things /you/ want to say. you are the only one aware of this script and the only one who agreed to it in #the first place which is why you plan contingencies into the script #is because you only have control over one character and can only take guesses at what the others might say #if you guess wrong and they do something different that doesnt mean /theyre/ not following the script #it means /your/ copy was a misprint and you filled in the blanks wrong. so do what good actors do and improvise. you'll get back on script #eventually. or not‚ if your guesses devolved into wildly speculative fanfiction‚ but frankly you knew going into it that #most of your script was guesswork so you should be prepared to have to make some things up on the fly #or see again: prepare contingencies #if your guesswork on your copy of the script turns out to be wrong‚ wouldnt it be sooo handy to have a second copy which follows this #version of events much better? #and if not that one‚ maybe this third? how about this fourth? etc etc etc #but really just. when guessing at what others will say. know that you are guessing and dont hold it against /them/ if youre wrong #sorry ik that wasnt super related to the post itself im just also passionate abt that #plagiarism #james somerton

[oceanwithouthermoon]

one of the WORST things i see in fandom/ship discourse is when people say "straight ships just dont sit right with me.." like hey.. what do u mean by that.

ESPECIALLY if we're talking about GIRLS who EXCLUSIVELY like mlm ships... i dont care what you say, i think youre fetishizing gay men and youre weird for this. (same thing with guys who exclusively ship wlw but i see that less in fandoms.)

but then, on the other side of this we get people calling them "heterophobic.." NOOOO THAT ISNT REAL IM LITERALLY RIPPING MY HAIR OUT THAT IS NOT A THING.

its not "straightphobic," in fact its literally more homophobic than anything (do not deny that its super fetishy, we all know that its fetishization so dont play dumb..)

(im not saying u have to ship straight ships btw i literally dont care, ship what u want, im SPECIFICALLY talking about people who hate on them, call them toxic because theyre straight, comment on every post that their gay ship is better, etc.. generally just people who are super annoying and fetishy about it. not just people who ship what they ship.. the thing im talking about is basically watered down fujoshis..)

#this happens in EVERY fandom #its inevitable i think.. but im tired of seeing it #lemme tag some of the fandoms im thinking about sorry u can ignore this post lol #pjsk #project sekai #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #any anime actually #EVERY anime actually.. #im not going to tag mlp because i think it deserves to be untainted by this #HOWEVER.. i have seen people do this about fluttercord and pinkie pie x cheese sandwich #mfs act like the ponies having semi-canon husbands and canon baby daddies makes them homophobic #because they 'ruined' the gay ships #SHUT UP OH MY GOD #they didnt ruin anything i hate ship discourse ur literally weird #just cuz ur ship isnt canon doesnt mean u have to stop shipping it #i love twipie!! it will never be canon and I DONT CARE!! #tloz #the legend of zelda #lemme elaborate on that one #i see lots of people hc link as transmasc (lovely hc) and then say that that makes zelink a non-straight ship #hey buddy. thats literally transphobic. whats wrong with u. #sorry for posting discourse again im just bein silly

[lemonyinks]

I didn't like Mekt much but I do hate seeing him only utilized as a villain, as if Legion Worlds didn't happen.

Where is the Mekt who admitted that he was wrong to let his loneliness and jealousy dictate how he acted? Where is the Mekt that worked to be better? Where is the Mekt who welcomed Ayla home and put himself in harms way to help her save their parents farm? Where is the Mekt that delighted at the idea of seeing Garth again and was sad to hear he wasn't really coming back?

I don't know. Maybe it's just me but Mekt works so much better as a character of redemption and reconciliation than as one who stays bitter and antagonistic. He's more interesting that way

#this is just about post zero hour mekt i dont know much about other mekts' #losh #legion of super heroes #mekt ranzz #inkytalks #AND I AM NOT EVEN SAYING YOU AHVE TO LIKE HIM #OR THAT HIS SIBLINGS *HAVE* TO FORGIVE HIM #this still works if THEY are still bitter to HIM for what he did #BECAUSE THEY WOULD HAVE A RIGHT TO BE #but he doesn't deserve the watered down one dimensional asshole characterization I've seen in a few fics that are ABOUT pzh #my ideal rannz sibling dynamic is ayla being bitter and hostile to mekt garth being wary and hurt and at first unable to be around mekt #while mekt himself just feels so guilty for what he did and desperate to make up but willing to give them however long they need #even if that means he doesnt get to be in their lives ever again... #and then eventually they fall into a comfortable normal that is still not fully recovered and still bitter but they can #have breakfast togther without incident #they can talk about things like the weather or town gossip #they can work together on the farm in comfortable silence #ayla slowly grows less suspicious of mekt and begins to trust him a little more #garth stops feeling like mekt is going to lash out at any given moment and can spend time around him alone #things arent great and they probably wont ever heal all the way their relationship will always be strained #but he's trying and thats all they care about #and things are kinda sorta okay

[water-beats-earthbender]

Look, i love Katara, i really do. She's one of my faves, which is why it pains me when season 3 fics make her out to be a complete bitch. Yes she hated Zuko, yes she was mean to him, but y'all take it too far.

I especially hate in the "the gaang learns how Zuko got his scar" fics when the whole story of Zukos scar comes out bc Katara goaded him. Zuko does not owe them that. Zuko went 3 years on a boat with never mentioning how he got his scar. He never tells anyone in canon about it and only talks about his scar in season 3 to people who already knew. The audience only knows about his scar because IROH told the story. Zuko is not telling to story unless it's pried out of him (the exception being the "I assumed you already knew" trope in the fics because i love that and that is a valid assumption that Zuko would make).

But making Katara unnecessarily cruel and then having Zuko tell the story of his scar as a gotcha moment is leagues out of character for him. And Katara. The og gaang does kinda deserve to know why Zuko was chasing them, but at the same time Zuko does not owe them his traumatic backstory. The story of his scar is not something that he's telling the everyone with ears about.

Katara glares at Zuko, threatens him in private, doesn't like to accept his help (the keeping rocks from crushing you), and makes snide comments (mainly after Azula attacks them). But she still let Aang go alone with Zuko to the temple of the sun warriors. She threatened Zuko, but was the one to catch him when he was falling in the western air temple. She's grumpy and butter in the Southern Raiders but them forgives him and hugs him. Then Zuko and Katara are basically inseparable after that. She can't be too cruel towards him. Lowkey Zuko would probably accept bad treatment bc that boy has insecurities but Katara would never act like that and she wouldn't forgive herself for it because her main character trait is compassion.

#atla zuko #zuko #Zuko's scar #katara #atla katara #atla #avatar the last airbender #stop making katara into a complete bitch in ur fics guys #i read for multiple ships but like when youre trying to make zutara happen in your fic dont make katara too much of a bully post DoBS #like obvs yes shes mean and she hates him #and shes right to #however #there is such a thing as too far #and having her taunt him about his scar is too far #its a disservice to my bestie Katara #or in Zuko joins the gaang early fics people use season 3 katara without the backstory that leads to season 3 katara's anger #before Cross roads of destiny katara would be suspicious of Zuko butbshe would not be cruel #she doesnt like him and would yell like in canon but also like in canon her anger fizzles and she bonds with him #its only after she thinks he betrayed or manipulated her thta shes cruel like season 3 #sokka is sceptical but tbh guys without katara holding a grudge in s3 zuko would assimilate into rhe gaang much easier pre s2 finale #katara can be mean but shes not cruel and she wouldnt be that awful

[stinkrascal]

everyone needs to understand that you dont really need to justify why you like a thing, sometimes you just like it cuz it fucks and thats totally cool. i saw someone on tiktok who calls themselves goth n they were having an identity crisis bc they like harry styles music and its like, i just wanna hold their hand and be like Nobody cares like at all. you dont have to change your wardrobe and makeup style just cuz you like basic music its fine. nobodys gonna take your goth card away or whatever

#'im goth' 'im cottagecore' 'im y2k' i dont care #u can enjoy those styles thats fine but just cuz u like it doesnt mean you have to fit that aesthetic always no matter what #you dont even have to call yourself goth or cottagecore or y2k u can just dress however you want #do you know what i mean. does that make sense #it just makes me sad when someones like I wanna be goth but i really love taylor swift :\ #girl you can still dress in all black its fine nobody is stopping u just cuz u like taylor swift #IDK i just think its weird to let an aesthetic hold u back from doing stuff you like just cuz you dont 100% fit the aesthetic WHO CARES!!

[arundolyn]

ma’am this game is rated T please behave

#nine the phantom #blazblue #loops #misc #crow.gif #blazgif #IDK I SAW IT LOOPED AND THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY LIKEI COULDNT NOT HONESTLY #i love making looping gifs of her i do however they Need to stop making it three frames long #specifically. #because. #when i wanna make her glowies work it has to be 30 frames long IF it's timed normally which i never fuck with that anyway but #just like..... i mean it doesnt take long but it makes me feel like im going insane cause its so unnecessary. let me make her glow in peace #im literally the OH SHIT im okay now content aware scaled gif when i do that like #it takes maybe two minutes or so but in the middle of it im like fuck dude help this sucks. #its so funny like nobody can say fuck however nine can have everything everywhere all at once

[girlbob-boypants]

At the risk of seeing discourse and bad faith takes in the notes, I'd like to apply nuance to the Malenia vs Radahn fight

In their states before the fight, Radahn was stronger. This is because Malenia's training was based around suppressing her rot, the very thing that made her a demigod and an empyrean. The Scarlet Rot was eating at her, yes, but that's only a negative because of her desire to be separate from it (sort of like the difference in the omen twins, actually. Acceptance vs repression). This put her at a disadvantage to a demigod who had fully embraced his powers.

And this was something she knew. That's why she removed Miquella's Needle. She needed a final gambit in case exactly what happened, happened. Radahn literally disarmed her and so she brought her true power to the battlefield.

"But Radahn was holding back the stars, he was carrying his horse." Yes and he chose to do that during his attempt to claim the throne. He chose to do that despite knowing he was facing Malenia, Blade of Miquella. Tactical decisions are just as much a part of battlefield power as raw strength.

As warriors on the battlefield, Radahn was barely able to get an edge over Malenia. As demigods with their full powers, Radahn never stood a chance.

Not...that any of this matters cause in game all that's happening is I'm getting my ass beat

#girlbob.txt #elden ring #its also important to remember they were fighting for different things #proven by the fact that if malenia had desired the throne shed stopped her only competition #instead after recovering from her ordeal she chose to stay in the haligtree and wait #cause she fought radahn not to win but to stop him from taking the throne before miquella could #says in the lore she thinks hes truly worthy of being a god and she says she's waited for him #meanwhile radahn looks up to both godfrey and radagon #so contending for the status of elden lord is literally just following his idols #however empyrean doesnt mean most powerful demigod it means most capable of creating a new age #thats why miq mal and ranni are all chosen but godwyn never was #actually real talk the answer to 'whos the strongest demigod' is pre nobk godwyn lmao

[toytulini]

dont get mad at me this is a subjective opinion but like. like i enjoy stardew a lot and this is by no means a criticism, more of like. just a Wish.

I want a game very similar to stardew valley in terms of play and "difficulty" but animated/artstyle like, botw.

#toy txt post #if anyone gets on my ass about this i will turn reblogs off so fast im just wishing and this isnt even hating on the artstyle of stardew #more. wishing i could further customize the house and grow crops in botw or totk #you can do more house customization in totk but its still not enough also my house in totk is like. maxmimum number of buildings #which i cant remember? but its that many of just fish ponds stacked on top of each other in a spiral and then every blood moon i get that #many free easy sanke carp #anyway the point is i really loke both games and i dont hate the artstyle of stardew. but its not like my favorite? #also sorry for making this post more disclaimers than opinion at this point i just really want to get it across that i Like Stardew Valley #and i likw the artstyle and this is not like a call to action on the dev or a demand or anything it is me daydreaming about a game that #doesnt exist. also if i had the controls i have in botw maybe i wouldnt be getting mugged in the mines so much #also im a fake gamer so i dont know all the right terms but i know there are like Other Games that have like the exploration vibe and #probably the ability to customize a house and give gifts to ppl and shit however all the ones im thinking of......... #to be clear here when i say art like botw i dont just mean like oh expensive 3d rendering and all that shit. like a little but like #CRUCIALLY. NOT AIMING FOR REALISM. it (DAYDREAM GAME MADE UP) needs to be stylized bc #listen i was being nice w the sv i dont hate the stardew valley style. im not going to be nice here: i fucking despise games trying to look #like real life and real life ppl every single one ive ever seen is uncanny valley to me EVEN DESPITE the many advancements they have made. #i recognize theyve made a lot of advancements. and i recognize this is also a subjective opinion i hold. but i just think all the ones ive #ever seen are so fucking ugly stop trying to capture the realism just lean into some stylization please im begging youuu #the worst part is there are games whos premise i would probably find interesting? but theyre so fucking ugly im not spending over $40 on #that shit ESPECIALLY if it has the audacity to be first person pov #i can maybe be tricked into it in this regard if its heavily ocean centric. i can be bribed with ocean

[majorshatterandhare]

Shout out to my fiddle/violin teacher for teaching me Shipping Up to Boston, because, as a result, most of what I hear when listening to No Happy Ending is “bosenberry strawberry strawberry, bosenberry strawberry pie, bosenberry strawberry strawberry, strawberry strawberry strawberry pie”

#the mechanisms #ouatis #no happy ending #i dont know if this is gonna make sense to anyone else #i assume that this is a normal method for teaching fiddle but i have no way of knowing #the thing is. at the end the fiddle stops but you can keep hearing it in the accordion because its just the length of the notes #and the bowing of the fiddle A determines the length of the notes but B is very parallel in sound at least to the accordion #idk if any of that made sense idk shit about the accordion #and i used the term ‘fiddle’ throughout here because a fiddle is typically a violin. but afaiaa nastya played a viola. #now the black one they had that didnt have a hollow body (and thus i think is electric. but again idk shit) has five strings which means- #its *both* a viola and violin. usually these combo instruments have a viola body because the lowest string needs the larger body to sound- #good basically. and the highest string can resonate well in the larger body. whereas as the sound of the highest string is great in the- #small body of the violin but the lowest one gets fucked up. however since that instrument doesnt have a hollow body i have no idea how that- #affects it. my assumption would be that even in this form the viola size is more common. since it is in the typical form. and that since- #viola is what nastya played anyway thats what they would have wanted #all of that is to say that i dont know which instrument they were using for performances or the recording of ouatis. but either way.- #fiddles are typically violins and it my understanding that nastya played a viola. therefore i just said fiddle instead of violin or viola- #wow! over explaining my beloved /j #gonna just state again that idk SHIT about the accordion and thats what i think im hearing but i could be wrong

[rohirric-hunter]

This is another project I have going in LotRO: the cosmetic appearance these bows share used to be fairly common, but many loot tables have been reworked and these seem to be the only two that are theoretically still obtainable. And. I want it. Very badly.

I believe that I once had the Deadly Defender’s bow on my first character, but I wasn’t interested in cosmetics at the time and discarded it, but the memories are fuzzy so I can’t be certain. Additionally, I have no idea where I would have gotten it, since I didn’t do any group stuff at the time and given that it is bind on acquire but not a quest reward or barter item, I can only imagine that one gets it out of an instance chest somewhere between level 40-42. Stat-wise, it is identical to the Carved Lebethron Bow, the crafted bow of the same level, with the one exception that this item’s durability is tough while the crafted bow’s is normal. Indeed, stat-wise this weapon is entirely useless anymore, since a critted Carved Lebethron Bow is much better and critting recipes is a matter of ten tasks these days. It seems that when the game was new, this was quite a nice find, however, as I found a reference to it in the patch notes from February 2008, where it is described as a “rare weapon” that was likely meant to be somewhat of a prize for level 40 characters entering the endgame. While the loot tables have been altered quite a lot, many other items on this list are still available (and actively being used on some of my alts).

I have a lot less information about the Ashwood Recurve Bow, though my suspicion is that if it is anywhere to be found, it would be from the Isengard instances, as it is significantly better than the Bow of the Rider, a min-level 75 crafted bow that comes from Theodred’s Riders rep traders, but not as good as the Great River Bow, a min-level 75 crafted bow that comes from Men of Stangard rep traders. However I have never gotten anything except armor from those instances, and my personal belief is that this bow only still exists in the game’s files to be used in the character creation screen, where it is the default bow a hunter character will hold while you customize them, displayed along with other level 75 cosmetic gear available in the greater Dunland area. Part of the reason I believe this is because of the -10% Fire-arrow Miss Chance stat: as far as I can tell “Fire-arrow” is not currently a skill for any class in this game, and it would be an odd buff to add to the fire oil consumable which is class-locked to hunters and wardens, especially given that this consumable does not seem to increase one’s chances of missing. Some monster play characters have a skill called “Flaming Arrow,” but I can’t imagine a level 75 item being associated with the Ettenmoors. It seems to me that this is a reference to a deprecated skill, but this item was not updated to reflect that and therefore is no longer available for player use.

So all my hopes are hung on the Deadly Defender’s Bow, and all my hopes are aimed at instance reward chests. These loot tables have been altered, but not reworked entirely before level 50; unfortunately I’ve noticed a trend of not finding very interesting loot in these chests if one is playing through the instances overlevel, so I’ve been working on leveling a hunter to level 40 to run through instances on-level in hopes of acquiring it. This item is not referenced on the wiki (which is unsurprising; their database on non-quest reward items is understandably a bit thin) but I did locate a page someone made for it on lotrobuild.com. Unfortunately I’m unable to tell how old this page is (and therefore how long ago someone else had the item). But I do think it’s convincing evidence that it is still acquirable in-game.

I have, very occasionally, gotten bind on acquire rare gear as a normal drop from non-level scaling Vol. I instances such as Garth Agarwen and the Angmar endgame instances, and to be entirely honest the Deadly Defender’s Bow seems more in line with that sort of gear than what I get from a regular instance reward chest; the obvious problem, however, is the fact that there are no level 40 non-level scaling instances. I have gotten up to level 38 gear from Garth Agarwen, once, but never any lower than 50 from Angmar stuff. Part of me hopes that it may be available as a rare drop from a non-world instance, but that seems unlikely at best.

That’s where I’m at in the search right now. But if anyone else knows anything about where to find either of these bows (or other bows that share their appearance) please, please, please let me know!

#lotro #if anyones wondering how i got the tooltips thats thanks to lotrocompendium! a very useful addon for this search #although it has its limitations. my understanding is that items have to be manually added so it doesnt show EVERYTHING #also it does show deprecated items #and it stopped being updated at around level 85 #however i have never gotten an error message when using it to look at item tooltips #so i believe it can only show me things that exist in the games files in some capacity #that doesnt mean i can get them though. necessarily #its entirely possible that this only exists still because someone still has one somewhere #and probably they have some kind of rudimentary program that will delete it when the last person gets rid of theirs #to save on server space you know #thats what i would do #gosh look at that bow it is so beautiful #how come they got rid of that appearance and left us with all these dumbass crafted bow appearances that are bizarrely spiky

[im-smart-i-swear]

Buddy is into art right? Is he into watercolours, acrylic, oils or any other medium? Or does he like working with most of them?

buddy's relationship with art started fairly early - they found a way to make dyes out of plants! he did it bc taka was complaining about all their clothes being dull and boring:) and then figured out how to make paint so the kids had something to do, and to his surprise it was really fun?? they could just make stuf??? with his hand??

art is something very special for buddy, its something shiro never did, thus it feels removed from his legacy - its safe, its diffrent, its theirs. hes not a prodigy or a profesional and their grasp on stuff like color theory or anatomy or pespective is practically nonexistent, but the end goal isnt really the point for bud. its all about the process babey!! its about the thrill of seeing something come to life from the sheer power of his will, its about losing himself and forgetting about all the problems around them, its about the excitement of doing something he was ever supposed to do

so i think theyre mostly into paint, but also would like pastels and chalk a lot! i feel like his style is very impressionist and and focused on colors and movement, so they pefer mediums that are.. uhh ...loose??? the medium itself doesnt matter that much, but they like to get messy and always end up covered in paint or chalk dust(to tashi's exasparation)

#my funky guys #buddy started out like 'hmph. i guess i'll humor the kid. not that i care about any of you. shut up.. by the way whats your favourite color #'yeah kid i made you paint. so you'll stop bothering me. oh you want me to paint with you?? yeah sure. whatever- wait hold on this is kinda #nice actually?? fuck' #also its VERY importrant to me that bud loves bright colors. he spent the first year(??? or however long that was) #forced to only wear whithe black and gray. so now they have an aversion to the grayscale:) #normally buddy is very self concious and constantly comparing themself to shiro #but bc shiro never dabbled in art that means bud has nothing to compare himself to and thats very freeing #also i think its funny how much he doesnt give a shit if the end result looks good #bc then i imagine tashi in the background w/ his sewing skills like 'god i wish that were me.' #thank you for the ask!!!

[carp-esh-ove-lem]

i think me making a dropout/d20/naddpod sideblog is inevitable at this point

#ty xeph my beloved for givin me the final push to get dropout #dam i dont even remember if there was a specific thing u did xD i had been wantin to get it for a while already tbh #anyways i wanna look at naddpod stuff on here so bad but also started from the beginning and ;-; spoilers #lol it’s so weird it’s been YEARS since ive been invested in a fandom/media n cared abt (or even had the opportunity to care abt) spoilers #tbh i usually dont care but even if i did #a lot of the time the content ends up easy to catch up on yknow? limited series & books and stuff n all #or fuckinnnn yt series that u dont need to be caught up from the beginning lol #this however. i do Want to experience the story for realsies n all that #anyways. the sideblog is definitely fuckin happening imma be real #idk when i’ll stop being a coward and *nike voice* just do it #but it’ll happen it is quite literally inevitable. ive gone past the point of no return #i Do need to dwell on a url though. that may take A Bit (read: far too long) #i think i was considering maybe a silly dumb ref to andhera from acofaf #bc that was the first campaign i watched and they are Best Boy. god i fucking love andhera #but also. man idk #ikikik ik u can change urls l8r but this is How I Am *awkward smile* #i Need a silly little ref that Satisfies Me. it doesnt even hafta be a good or recognizable reference (<- historically true) #but it’s gotta be good to Me Personally bc im ~like that~ teehee #anyways screaming crying How will i ever catch up to naddpod #i mean tbf. im at ep 26 for first campaign and it’s been maybe a week? maybe under (or over??) a bit?? #so theoretically it hopefully wont take me more than 2 months to finish bahumia campaign even w school starting factored in #hopefully. idk #d20 shit is gonna take 50 goddamn yrs tho xD im in my naddpod arc rn #and all ive seen is acofaf and most of coffin run. and am keepin up w neverafter ofc #and idk even which intrepid hero campaign to go for next. i was thinkin unsleeping city but like damn i dont even know for sure yet #ALSO i HAVE to watch mice&murder first now. idk if it’s any good but Conceptually im just. oh my god i need to get my grubby lil hands on it #but again. before that im In My Naddpod Arc currently and im like. most of the way thru coffin run. god i’ll finish it i promise #it just didnt Grip me as much as the other stuff ive consumed so far. i dont dislike it tho; it’s cool but brain didnt stick as hard #and im like literally one episode from finishing too. like 20 min of the penultimate and the final one thats it #anyway im evidently fuckin rambling i’ll shut up now

[snekdood]

Ppl gotta understand that just bc you do x thing because you're mentally ill, doesnt mean your actions dont have the same effect if you weren't. Like if you've been manipulative to your friends, you cant get mad at them for not sympathizing entirely with you when you go on about how they dont accept you for your mentally ilness. Regardless of your reason, you were still manipualtive, you fucked with peoples trust. Theyre still gonna have trust issues about you even if its bc of whatever mental illness you have.

#im not saying its cool for them to abandon you but cmon. you have to consider sometimes other people and what they can handle #bc if you keep manipulating your friends or whatever theyre gonna get used to being manipulated and expect it from other people #whatever the case. people have limits. your friends have limits. im not saying theyre always justified. im not saying your friends are #never abliest. but they do have limits. and if you're yelling at them all the time about being perfect or whatever you cant exactly #be surprised when they dip out. #like for example. im a p aggressive and angry guy. clearly. if youve seen any of my posts. #ive always got something to rant about. and while im not quite as much like this irl its still a thing about me. im very very vocal about #whatever injustice i percieve happening to me or others lol. but i can understand why me being intense and angry and ready to throw hands #at the drop of a hat would make some people want to avoid me. i understand it makes some ppl feel scared and unsafe. #its not something i try to do. i dont try to make ppl i like feel unsafe. i try not to be that way around ppl w those kinds of issues #but im not gonna throw a fit and be like 'you guys are okay with bpd until i get really really angry and call you a cunt' #like... uh... yeah. i dont blame ppl like that for dropping me entirely if im getting angry all the time around them and it triggers them #and i dont seem to stop or be able to stop. #sure its not great. sure i dont want to be as aggressive and angry around anyone let alone ppl afraid of that sorta thing. but this is #the current state of my being. its something im working on. and i can understand why some ppl cant handle me right now as i am. #idk. just. shit like that man #another example. im hella hella HELLA bad at communicating via technology. unless you're in front of my face my mind just forgets we were #even talking sometimes. this naturally will cause issues. how am i gonna get upset at someone for being mad i stoped responding #in the middle of a conversation? sure i didnt mean it. this is purely unintentional. however that doesnt change the fact of my actions. #it doesnt change the fact that that person might feel unwanted. i can apologize day and night but until i actually try to be more attentive #of my phone this is just gonna keep happening yknow. how is it fair to get mad at other ppl for getting mad at you over that?

[hartmannyoukaigirl]

An adult playing video games or watching animation is obviously immature and cringe since, of course, Adults should only be sports fans who break their TVs when their favourite football team loses and then go to P/rnhub to relieve their stress and anger like REAL MATURE ADULTS do.

#obvious sarcasm #this take is so fucking stupid #im a teenager and theres a long way until im an adult but i dont want to ever stop the things that i love enjoying #and an adult in their 30s watching cartoons for kids is WAY WAY WAY better than 99% of things out there. geniunely #like even IF theyre immature.. so what ? as long as theyre a decent human being who cares. like seriously who the fuck cares #the people who say that are always p/rn addicts or drug addicts or alcoholics or in a failed marriage/relationship or whatever like fuck #off #just bc youre miserable doesnt mean others have to be #i hate how maturity means being in a relationship and stopping all things fun and having a family or whatever #and the better people will be "uhm you dont need to marry and have a family however if youre an adult who prefers having fun than #relationships then imo ur like....superrrrr cringe and immature' like stfu actually #same mfs wouldve lost their virginity by 16 like those people dont deserve to have an opinion on anything #im still a teen but god damn is this mindset stupid #adult life seems to be bleak bc adults are always insisting that it HAS !! TO BE !! bleak unless youre a failure and a dissapointment and #should kys #ppl turn 25+ then start having the worst opinions of their lives

[saturnsuv]

hate philosophy profs <3

#socrates dick is literally so far down your throat that you can’t take any criticism of him #like maybe YOU should get some critical thinking skills before you start commenting on my paper and proving that you’ve missed my entire #point #like no i didnt say he deserved to die simply bc he was being a dick #in fact if you read it at all my thesis said the exact opposite <3 #i think socrates was a dick but that doesnt mean he should’ve been sentenced to death #HOWEVER. his absolute horribly arrogant speech after he was found guilty literally assured he was going to have some penalty #like that was my point. i didnt say he deserved punishment bc he sucked i said he created it for himself by pressing the buttons of the #people literally passing judgement on him #AND THEN. on the second part. i am going to beat my prof over the head about the second part of the test #YES aquinas said things like grandparents cease to exist NO that doesnt negate my point that all objects cannot stop existing #do you think your grandparents arent made of matter? do you think their matter just disappeared when they died? NO #the matter never stops existing so the fundamental units of objects can never Not exist. so there is never Nothing there is ALWAYS matter #somewhere in something #AND I DONT CARE if paul fucking edwards would disagree that theres an origin point to the universe i didnt say there was philosophically #i said there was scientifically which is better than philosophically #i am going to beat him over the head with this stupid fucking philosophy textbook like who cares about this shit. who fucking cares #i think i should be able to respond to professor’s criticism on my tests i think i should get to tell them why they’re wrong #yes i know none of this makes any sense to anyone but me #also philosophy enthusiasts dni #sam speaks