#the thing is my meds have kicked in and i’m def less anxious than i was before

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yearning :/

#feeling chatty tonight sorry #i hardly ever get actual a crushes on ppl but i sure do have one now wahoo #is there another word for crush? it just sound very middle school afsgsgdgd whatever #anyway #like having a crush on someone feels super nice at first #then i realize it’s unrealistic and she won’t ever feel the same and even if she did it wouldn’t work probably #and then i’m yearning for a realationship but i can’t imagine myself with anyone other than her because BRAIN DUMB so???? #hence the yearning #like i’ve only had two serious crushes in my life 3 with the new one #this does not happen often i forget how much it sucks #both the last two ended badly babe you are cursing yourself #ugh #anyway if anyone is in love with me and not to be a stereotype but who wants to move in with me asap let me know <3 #will i regret posting? who cares bro i’m yearning #i should write a poem abt this #no i shouldn’t i have so many other things to do afsgsgdg #whatever #i miss talking to ppl i haven’t been super active recently #but it’s still difficult for me to actually talk to ppl bc i think everyone hates me hahahahhaa #the thing is my meds have kicked in and i’m def less anxious than i was before #but like i’m not cured? the fuck? #like i know meds don’t fix everything but still #i got off topic #point is #i’m sad and full of love and cannot adequately express it #<3 #my post