#they're all dumbasses here

[saphira-approves]

Okay so I finished Murtagh last night and I think I’m just going to put a lot of my slightly more coherent general thoughts here under a readmore. Spoilers ahead! Beware!

Right off the bat I want to bring us back to The Fork, The Witch, and The Worm. Not to Essie (although reliving that encounter from Murtagh’s perspective was EXQUISITE), but to Eragon, because the thing I love most about that story is that Eragon is glad to see his brother, even from afar, and is glad to see he’s alright, and hopes that Murtagh will one day join him at Mt. Arngor. We’ve talked recently on the blog about ill feelings and condemnation towards Murtagh during the war, especially on Eragon’s part, but the ending of The Fork makes it clear that—while I would love to see Eragon acknowledge and work through them—Eragon no longer holds those feelings, and in fact really wants the chance to reconnect with his brother and his friend, because he loved him like a brother before he even knew they were related, and after everything that’s happened, he loves him still—even if Murtagh is going to have some trouble believing or internalizing it.

And so I present the theme of this initial reading response: Murtagh is so, so loved, to an extent that he does not fully realize. He knows that Thorn loves him, obviously, but I believe it’s significant that—even though he has some Complicated™️ thoughts about Selena and harbors resentment towards her for, in his mind, choosing Eragon over himself—the memories of her that we actually get to see/“hear” (page 90 my beloved) are fully memories of Selena’s love for him. “…beautiful boy” anyone? “My strong boy?” That is her BABY and she LOVES HIM. Also, again, DESPITE HIS RESENTMENT, Selena’s love is the REASON HE KEEPS HIS SCAR! Scar lore alert! Scar lore alert! SELENA WAS THERE AND SHE’S THE ONE WHO HEALED HIM! (though I am still partial to thinking Brom was involved. I’ll write about that later it doesn’t matter right now)

(Also, on a bit of a lighter note, HIS HORSE TOY?????? Horse girl Murtagh CONFIRMED!!!! Little me would have been so jealous. …on a completely different note, I have woodworking connections and access to real horse hair. Hm. The Ideas.)

And then Tornac, son of Tereth, may your name live on forever. THE FIRST MEMORY WE GET OF TORNAC IS A HUG. THE FIRST TIME HE HUGS MURTAGH. MURTAGH HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH DO YOU KNOW??? I KNOW YOU KNOW A LITTLE BIT BUT DO YOU KNOW????? And the way he LEAPS to Murtagh’s defense when he falls in their escape, he REFUSES to let Murtagh languish in Urû’baen, that’s his BOY, his BEAUTIFUL STRONG BOY, that’s HIS SON, NO TAKE BACKSIES, MORZAN! He sees Murtagh’s darkness, yes, but more importantly he sees Murtagh’s goodness, and he knows Galbatorix will do everything in his power to destroy it, and that is something that Tornac simply cannot abide. You remember how I posted about Brom saying it’s easy to die for what you believe in, and then like ten pages later he dies for Eragon? Yeah. Yeah that one. That post. Do you see the point I’m making?

Tornac died for Murtagh. Selena did too, I’m pretty sure—it’s never been explicitly stated, in this book or the rest of the Cycle, but we know Selena was anxious to leave Carvahall as soon as Eragon was born, and that she died shortly after returning to Murtagh. I think Murtagh knows, on some level, but I also think that actually acknowledging it is going to break him just a little bit. Selena left Eragon and returned to him, presumably to spirit Murtagh to Carvahall as well, but she left too early. She wasn’t recovered. The real tragedy of this is that, if she’d left any later, she might truly have been too late—Morzan had been killed, and Murtagh would have been collected to Urû’baen before she reached him. Depending on how much she was coordinating with Brom, she might have known this, and made the choice to return to Murtagh anyway, because it was the easiest choice in the world. Eragon and Murtagh both believe that Selena left them. As Murtagh believes Selena chose Eragon over him, I’m pretty sure Eragon believes the inverse. In truth, Selena was trying to choose both of them, to save both of them. It’s a tragedy that she failed, but the most important thing about such a tragedy is that the love is there. It didn’t save them, not at first, not until much later, but the love is there and it matters because those are her babies, those are her sons, and she would gladly die for them. She did die for them. It was easy; she believed in them.

So yeah, I think eventually Eragon and Murtagh are gonna have a talk, and some revelations are going to be made, and a good long cry is going to be had all around. Catharsis! They need it!

But that’s not all! Murtagh is loved not only by the dead and the distant, but by the living and the near, too. Up to this point, the werecats we’ve met have been aloof, proud, intentionally distant. I always got the sense that Solembum likes Eragon and Saphira, but I don’t know that he would call them friends, even if Eragon and Saphira would, and he’s the most in-depth werecat we’ve met. But now we also have Carabel.

Carabel, who, from her position within Gil'ead, watches the people around them, and discerns their character: this is a skill I would say she has honed to near-perfection. When we meet her, she is desperate, though she hides it well. She sees Murtagh, and she measures his character, and what she sees is enough to make her take a chance on him, and she's right. Murtagh saves Silna, compromising his own principles to do so—swearing an oath he knows he'll have to break—and is so clearly relieved to see Silna safe with Carabel, despite the deceptions. We know, also, that Selena had been liked enough by Solembum for him to speak with her, and I wouldn't be surprised to discover that Selena was at least respected by werecats, if not outright known as a friend; it's possible that this, too, helped push Carabel to take a chance on Murtagh, though she makes no comment about it. Whatever the case, ultimately it is Murtagh's character that she gambles on, and Murtagh being simply who he is fulfills her hopes—not only in saving Silna, but his kindness towards her even when she was difficult, carrying her only when it was necessary and setting her on her own paws when he deemed it safe. Just in being himself, he earns love from two strangers, and the respect of an entire race.

(This echoes throughout the book, in all of Murtagh's interactions with children—he cares so much about kids. Not just as an abstract moral stance: he truly, genuinely cares for children on a deeply personal level. Essie in Ceunon; the two boys in Gil'ead he gives coins to, twice, and reprimanding their father for using them to pick marks; Silna; the children in Nal Gorgoth. In telling his story to Nasuada, he broke when he reached the children he slaughtered under Bachel's control.)

And Alín! Alín, who was raised to revere dragons, who cannot help but idolize Thorn. She is terrified of Murtagh, as a stranger and a strange man, but his connection to a dragon allows her to view him in another light. I can write so many essays about Alín, I'm probably going to, but here I'll just say this: despite her circumstances, despite how she was taught, despite how thoroughly she has been programmed by the cult of the Dreamers, the simple truth of Murtagh's compassion gave her the room to question, to think for herself, to ask herself if what she has been taught and raised to believe is truly right. Murtagh doesn't make the decision for her, he physically can't—it is Alín herself who finds the strength to break herself free, inspired by Murtagh, but not wholly because of him.

And in the dungeons of Nal Gorgoth, Murtagh meets Uvek, an Urgal shaman, and can I just say: I would kill and die for Uvek. He's got similarities to Murtagh that aren't discussed in plaintext, but are easy to draw: they both tried to be alone in the wild, thinking it would be better for them—different reasons, but they came to the same conclusion—but both have come to discover that they are better off in a pack. With friends. With brothers. With family. (As an aside, I really hope Uvek becomes one of the first Urgal riders.) I love the metaphor they share, about trust being a knife with a blade for a handle; and I love that once they decide to trust each other, they both jump in, feet first, 100% on board. That's always been Murtagh's method anyway (Eragon-era Murtagh my beloved, looking after this stupid dumb kid with his whole ass), and it is incredibly refreshing to see someone else with the exact same mindset throw their whole lot in with Murtagh. The gentle forehead bump! Uvek loves this crazy squishy Murtagh-man.

And finally, finally, Nasuada. The Guinevere to his Lancelot, and there's not even an Arthur for them to dance around, except for the Arthur of Public Opinion that would prefer to view Murtagh as dread Mordred. I couldn't keep from laughing, just a little bit, every time Murtagh was encouraged to/shown visions of taking the throne, because lol! Nah, you dumbasses, that's the love of his life for whom he broke his own shackles and turned on his tormentor and slave-master. The day he turns against her of his own volition is the day he is No Longer Murtagh. He keeps the newly-minted gold crown so that he can keep a piece of her with him—a coin!! A tiny little portrait!! An accurate tiny little portrait, to be sure, but one he'll soon be able to find in any decently full purse!! He may not want to admit it to himself, he may try to distance himself for her own good and the good of her rule, but he cannot truly deny his heart. As for Nasuada himself, she doesn't even hesitate to take him in—and she would have no reason to, having heard about Gil'ead, except that she knows him, she has seen his true being in a way only Thorn can relate to, and even in uncertainty she cannot believe evil of him. She's the one who reaches out to comfort him when he crumbles in telling his story, she supports him without a word when he struggles to stand, and she wants so badly for him to stay, Public Opinion be damned. She won't destroy what she's built, but she will move heaven and earth to be able to keep him near, for as long as he wishes to remain.

This whole book, really, was just a chorus screaming to Murtagh, "YOU ARE LOVED!! YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE AND YOU ARE LOVED!! IT IS THE LOVE THAT ENDS WARS, THAT DEFEATS FEAR, THAT PERSISTS IN THE FACE OF DEATH AND RUIN!! YOU ARE LOVED!!" And maybe he can't hear it yet, not with his ears, but his heart, eventually, might start to catch him up. And I absolutely cannot wait to see it.

#murtagh spoilers #one (1) aspect of my Many Many Thoughts on this wonderful beautiful brick of a book #anyway. i'm so glad we got to see murtagh be a dumbass. there were some eragon levels of dumbassery here. #'i don't have anger issues' sir yes you DO they're just not as bad as your father's #'i don't have anger issues' *proceeds to make decisions driven by righteous anger* #also HIGH KEY accidentally skipped a couple lines in lyreth's introduction and thought they were exes. whoops. #i mean they still could be. i might write that. we love a shitty ex in this series. #anyway this is far from all of my thoughts. i have so much to say about Alín. so much to say about thorn and his claustrophobia. #SO much to say about murtagh's thoughts on command and responsibility #i'm going to be here A Lot in the coming weeks #yeah i’ll do my nanowrimo goal today but first TWO THOUSAND WORDS ABOUT MURTAGH

[eyes-above--the-waves]

I cannot believe that some people's takeaway from the game (on Facebook, not here) is that this team is better without Mitch Marner because they played well and won a game without him in the lineup. Like...guys...can we please stop trying to run this poor boy out of town? It's just bumming me out at this point.

#how does he always become the scapegoat...HE WASN'T EVEN HERE TONIGHT!! #granted the same dumbasses who said this also said the team was apparently also better without Mo and JT #which just proves to me that they have zero critical thinking skills whatsoever #like yes there is a truth to how the other lines improve when they're given more opportunity to play but how is that mitch's fault? #he's been carrying this team on his back for years and playing a ridiculous amount of minutes per night #maybe talk to the coach about playing his 4 lines more evenly instead of deciding that your best all around player needs to go #anyway this was tonights stupid rant #mitch marner #toronto maple leafs

[wheredidalltheusersgo]

Today I learned that Brody once put Geoff in a surfboard bag while he was sleeping and put him on the airport luggage conveyor belt

#these two dumbasses are just out here doing anything without a second thought 💀💀💀 #They're letting all the impulsive thoughts win #total drama #td geoff #td brody #tdrr #breoff #grody #geody #broff

[pyr0peyt]

Redesigned the goobers

#I didn't rlly change Chiro's casual uniform all that much cuz I actually really like it #I added the jackets to their Hyperforce uniforms cuz in all honesty they're so fucking plain and boring #I did have another casual outfit in mind for Jinmay but it came out a bit ugly so I just went for the one ur looking at rn!!! #ALSO I had to redo the lineart Chiro's casual wear cuz my dumbass drew it on the wrong layer 😭 #it took like 2 hours for me to draw both refs; around 4 hours in total #accidentally made Chiro taller than Jinmay oh well #srmthfg #chiro #jinmay #pyro's art #redesign #alt text provided in both images :] #adding on I made them older here like around 15-16

[duckapus]

Squid Memes Squidbeak Splatoon (part 2)

Part 1 Here

More Harbor because he gave me Brain Worms

Born and Raised in Littol Beeg Bluff (yes the same Littol Beeg Bluff from "The Ballad of Dusty Grumpton" in the Factory Reset AU. I'm allowed to re-use my own ideas if I damn well please)

Comes from a blended family, and his stepmom and younger siblings (twin boy and girl around eight) are actually Koopa Troopas of all things.

The only playable Agent to both know and like his parents

Seriously Habor's moms are fucking awesome. Everybody in the NSS loves Harbor's moms

About 80% Humboldt Squid (aka Jumbo Flying Squid), which is why he's so fucking tall. It also means that he's really fast in swim form, to the point that he could probably outswim someone who'd filled all the slots on a piece of gear with Swim Speed Up without any Swim Speed Up investment of his own. (this is inspired by Lucky, another, very different version of Agent 4 made by EikaPrime on Ao3)

Eight

Yes she just goes by Eight. She was a little self-conscious about it at first but then she found out about SMG4 and the other SM64 Blooper Youtubers and no longer gives a shit

If she remembers her old name yet she's not mentioned it

Obviously doesn't remember her parents, but given the Domes are the kind of place where you can Start Training to Become an Advanced Military Hardware Engineer and Elite Soldier at Fucking Nine Years Old, I imagine she wouldn't have many memories of them even without the Amnesia

Contrary to popular fanon, my version of Eight doesn't have a scar from the Test Failed Bomb. This is because Respawn Pads (as long as they're fully functional) completely erase whatever the fatal injury was, leaving no trace apart from maybe some phantom pains if it was particularly nasty

She does, however, have plenty of scars from all the other shit she went through in that hellhole

Managed to complete every single test before she escaped

My version of Eight is a single year younger than Marina canonically is when they meet so I'm not going the Off the Hook Adoption route for this one (maybe in another AU with a more lose interpretation of Canon, but given this AU is specifically meant to adhere to Splatoon Canon as much as possible we're out'a luck this time), though she does still become very close friends with them

She's got Craig literally right there for any potential adoption attempts anyway

Very rarely speaks, but is expressive enough that most people can tell what she means anyway (you know Ferb? It's the exact same thing as what Ferb does)

Doesn't have a weapon preference. She's comfortable with any weapon she gets her hands on

Except Splatanas

She fucking hates Splatanas and everything they stand for

Configuring Frye's Palette in the Memverse was legitimately harder than dealing with her own Palette's stupid "Hacks or Chips, you can't have both" Gimmick Bullshit

Andi Finn

Has no fucking idea who her parents were and does not care

Actual supergenius who could probably build a functioning replica of Grizz's rocket out of scrap metal from just her memory of fighting on top of it. Never learned how to read before the NSS got ahold of her because she lived alone in the desert

Swears more than Bob

Can't remember where she learned Salmonid from

Somehow even the homeless kid has better hygiene than Paige

Made up her last name on the spot when she was signing up for a Turfing License (if you're wondering how she managed to sign up for a Turfing License when she couldn't read; With Great Difficulty)

Figures she probably isn't a full Inkling given her weird beartrap beak but doesn't give enough of a shit to take a DNA test about it

Yet

Paige dragged her home to their apartment almost immediately after the final battle against Mr. Grizz and she never left. It's not an official adoption but that's only because Paige is a bit oblivious to their own feelings on the matter and Andi doesn't know that paperwork is supposed to be involved

Almost exclusively calls Paige "Cap" even when they're out of uniform. I mean, she can't very well call them "Mom" or "Dad" since they're nonbinary, now can she? Paige has no idea that's what she means by it and just thinks it's a nickname because Andi gives everybody nicknames. Usually as insults

It took her 333 tries to get through "Splitting Crosshairs" (I legitimately Cannot beat that stupid kettle no matter how hard I try and want her to share my frustration but also want all four agents to have 100%ed their respective adventures so I'm just having it take her a comically long time to do)

Mains Explosher because it's the closest she can get to a Turf-Legal grenade launcher (for now...)

The Eternal Hunger, Devourer of the Bear

Is fine with people using Crabcake instead

Uses It/Its exclusively

Officially designated Agent 5 I will die on that hill

Was "The Eternal Hunger, Stabber of Ankles" before going through Return of the Mammalians

Will stab anyone who points out that it didn't actually eat Mr. Gizz, he just exploded

Extremely eloquent, but most people can't speak Salmonid so it just sounds like it's making the same gurgley noises as every other Smallfry

Once looked Marie dead in the eyes and said "No one will ever believe you" in perfect Inklish while they were alone. Has never said anything else in anything other than Salmonid where someone can hear it

Andi and Crabcake fucking hated each-other for the first third of their adventure before bonding over kicking Frye's ass and now they're inseparable

Actually gets its own uniform after everything's said and done. It consists of a little high-rez safety vest (like the one on Paige's field uniform), an earpiece (suction-cupped in place since it doesn't have external ears) in the same style as Andi's headset, and a clean black-with-thin-yellow-racing-stripes-on-the-sides pants...wrap...thing

It also got a new switchblade from Sheldon (the old one got lost in the space battle after it turned into Hugefry) with the same kind of black-with-blue-LEDs aesthetic as Paige's gear and a blade made of Sardinium

Also thinks that it and Andi are already adopted by Paige but that's for Salmonid Culture Reasons instead of Not Having an Education Reasons

Got separated from its swarm during a Run a few months before Return of the Mammalians. It wasn't too fussed about it and figured it could handle itself in the desert for a while and then either reunite with that swarm if it ran into them or join a new one if it happened to come across one. Because Salmonid Culture

Considers the NSS its current swarm

#i wish squid memes were real au #octo expansion #side order #return of the mammalians #new squidbeak splatoon #agent 4 #harbor current #agent 8 #eight splatoon #neo agent 3 #andi finn #little buddy #agent 5 #crabcake the smallfry #freaks(affectionate). all of them #paige is kind of a dumbass when it comes to their own emotions #andi may not know how paperwork works YET but given they're now part of a goverment agency they'll unfortunately learn pretty quick #not sure what (if anything) i'll have harbor's dad be like #but i'm leaning towards “great guy who's unfortunately currently Fucking Dead” #i like the oth adopts eight fanon as much as the next guy (as seen in one or two of my oth-related posts) but it just doesn't work here

[welcometogrouchland]

Find it funny how willow very much WAS the voice of reason a lot of the time in the demon realm but then she gets to the human realm and is so confused and scared that she sort of just sits back and tries to have fun and make memories where she can. We love a self care queen. Being stupid is good for her <3

#ramblings of a lunatic #the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #willow park #she did what she had to do as the mom friend but now there is an actual mom in the picture and she WILL allow herself to be 15 #which is good for her honestly. since i think (wishfully but i think) she might have some heavier stuff coming up in special 2 #like don't get me wrong her arc is 99% done BUT now she's gonna be reacting to belos possessed hunter and also HIM BEING A GRIMWALKER #IF we get a tad more wittebane lore she'll probably be there for it (along with gus- they're hunters besties and saw the statue) #((here's how ghost!caleb can still win /j)) #like who know maybe she'll be well adjusted next time we see her but also she did casually mention getting revenge so.. #(willow and darius team up when. if any bitches in this cast want vengance on that mold man it's them) #OR maybe there'll be feelings of...idk- guilt at not noticing hunter was getting possessed/not being able to help him? #or feeling protective of him since he (presumably) has no magic rn (he can learn glyphs but he was good at staffs) #and who knows what that stirs up in her since she's used to being on the otherside of that equation #again. 90% sure this is wishful thinking as a willow stan w/ brainrot. but let me dream /j #anyway yeah. dumbass willow for the win! stop trying to be the glue all the time! get silly with it!

[xhanisai]

My days, the ML fandom has the most conceited individuals in the fandom compared to all the other ones I’ve been in.

We have a huge fanbase full of people from all over the country because Miraculous Ladybug is an international successful cartoon- not the other way around.

Yes, this fandom is full of amazing talent and skills and we have so much fanworks of all kinds to enjoy.

BUT

We are not the only aspect that’s making the show thrive so get off your high horses sheeeeesh.

Also, warning. Don’t ever comment on my work saying shit like “omg so much better than canon” I will fucking give you a tight slap in the ass.

#ml fandom salt #again i hate talking about any kind of salt on social media because it's just a headache #and here i thought sonic fans were conceited af whenever a new fangame is released and the squabbling chickens there are like #'hurr durr they are SO MUCH better than SEGA ex deeeeee' #but nah dare i say it #the salters in the ML fandom are so much worse #you can't drown them out because they're everywhere #they are so ignorant and refuse to do basic research on how animation industries work and how many years it takes to write and create a show #and it fucking shows #imo #the salters are KILLING the fandom #compare us to 2015/2016 era #see how much livelier we used to be! #but now most people prefer to lurk and not engage with ML fan stuff because of fucking dumbasses like the salters #i AM a professional in the industry I KNOW HOW IT WORKS #IN TERMS OF ANIMATION AND ALL THAT JAZZ

[the-halfling-prince]

"How do we know you're not gonna kill us and take our food and water?"

"I don't want your stuff, I have my own stuff."

#Guys I've been watching too much agtube lately my dumbass was watching EP 3 of troa and deadass thought #'wow she's such a good actress she was able to go from snobby livia to serious maxton in two different shows-' #Girl its a doll. #They're all played by the same girl. #Also shout-out to everyone's favorite technically canonically lesbian of agtube #I say technically canonically because agsmiless has said way after the series was over- after being asked by someone here- that she could #see maxton as a lesbian #Anywho #agtube #agsmiless #the realm of arragara #realm of arragara #my art #my posts #I can't explain it but this outfit is so very 2014

[orbdotexe]

the temptation to make Exile ALSO be Crow/Wolf grows in strength every moment i think about it (please i had a horrible idea and it is 4am just kill me)

#Cayde Lives! Crow and Cayde get along! #usually that's a good thing in Destiny AUs! it means everything's OKAY!!! #not FUCKING here #We got: WOLF IS IN EXILE AND MISERABLE AND PROBABLY WANTING TO JUST D I E ALREADY #CAYDE IS ALSO MISERABLE AND CONFINED TO THE TOWER BECAUSE EVERYONE THINKS THEY'RE ACTUALLY PROTECTING HIM #CROW IS PITIED BY EVERYONE BC THEY THINK HE'S JUST ANOTHER VICTIM! AND HE'S MISERABLE BECAUSE NOW HE'S HAVING TO REPLACE WOLF AS HERO #THE VANGUARD IS EMOTIONALLY DISTANT FROM CROW BC HE REMINDS THEM OF WOLF AND THEYRE ALL IN DENIAL AND FEEL GUILT FOR #VARIOUS PERCEIVED FAILURES ON THEIR ENDS THAT MIGHTVE LED WOLF DOWN THIS PATH #(Zavala in particular is getting a fire lit under him bc I love him. what writer doesn't show their love through fucking over their muse) #someone STOP me before I start shipping them and before I make everything worse by killing Wolf before Crow and Wolf realize #orb rambles #the forsaken exile #oh yeah for people not in the know for the Content Box: #IM WORKING ON A HAUNTED POST AND A CAYDE+WOLF SHORT #be on the lookout for that? #(depending on how long my dumbass decides to take on it - considering the Stasis and Egregore was supposed to be posted like a month ago) #i have a love-hate relationship with my brain and its focus on this AU #it is way too late here and my dearest content box fools: uh... yeah.

[blueclearcloud]

I just am really not okay right now. My baby (Suletta Mercury) is sad and broken so i have lost all hope and happiness.

#mobile suit gundam the witch from mercury #2 WEEEEEEKS! #Y the fuck do we need a recap WE ALL WERE THERE #It's probably due to production hiccups or whatever but out of context it just feels weird at 17 to have one #Maybe at 30 #I want to see Miorine sobbing #Hurting rolling on the floor in misery #And or staring at nothing bc she hurt such a pure soul and took family from her #Does this sound cruel and mean? Yes yes it is and idc #If i have to see my baby girl in pain i need everyone who caused it to suffer greatly #Yes i know they're gonna make up somehow and it'll probably turn out great #But fuuuuuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkk thats gonna be such a long ass time from now #I need satisfaction #GIVE ME MIORINE GOING THROUGH IT WITH DEPRESSION #Genuinely never want to see Suletta sad ever again #Y m i a dumbass watching this while airing #Y is this world so cruel to my baby #The only reason im not cursing Prosperas name is bc shes obviously gonna die at the end probs gruesomely #So im just here to enjoy the ride bc i enjoy every second of her on screen even if i hate the consequences #One of the perfect villains your honor #Gundam spoilers #g witch spoilers #Again i m not ok

[emotargaryen]

i commented on a tiktok and it blew up and every single person replying to it is so fucking stupid im scared for my generation for real

#the premise of the tiktok was being like ??? when ur talking to someone and they dont know about famous historical events #im a tiktok reply guy i cant help it so i said 'my best friend had never heard of chernobyl i was like ???' #idk why the people latched on to THAT but they're going crazy #at first it was fine but then all the people like 'why is no one explaining' 'can someone explain' like girl google is FREE #i gave you all the context you need to look it up like you dont need to add anything else just look up 'chernobyl' #they're mad at ME for not explaining or they're like 'idk what that is either lol' like okay?? fucking dumbass #i should just delete it but i love conflict #shoutout to the one person who complimented my icon though (its the same one i have on here)

[storm-and-starlight]

having a mild freakout over forgetting a major canon event that actually influences literally everything about the character whose POV I am not only writing in but whose character arc is literally the driving factor of this entire goddamn fic

#like. the thing that is DRIVING ME NUTS is that I have been sitting here #trying for WEEKS to figure out an appropriate backstory event to drive the specific character development that I need for this fic #and it's right there! in canon! this ENTIRE TIME! #and not only did I forget about it I didn't even bother to skim the wiki! #me! who prides themself on writing things in-character and as true-to-canon for characters as possible! #and it isn't. actually. a huge issue. there is plenty of space in the narrative because like I said #I've been trying to come up with this kind of driving event for a while now and this just happens to slot in perfectly #because like... the themes of the character are all the same and the themes of the FIC are playing off the ones in canon and fanon #and since it's all connected it connects in the fic too #which means I don't need to do a bunch of edits to like... scene order and content I just need to slightly shift what they're about #and specifically what the main is thinking ABOUT while they're happening #which isn't really all that hard as editing goes #HOWEVER #I am both agonizing over the amount of editing I am going to need to do to the sections that drive character motivation #AND the sections wherein that character motivation and backstory drives character ACTION and therefore the plot #(this fic is like thirty thousand words already this is not a small task) #and I am also fully tearing my hair out over being enough of a dumbass to NOT EVEN THINK TO CHECK THE WIKI #WHEN I WAS ALSO AGONIZING OVER NOT BEING ABLE TO FIGURE OUT THE RIGHT KIND OF BACKSTORY #BUT IT WAS THERE THE WHOLE TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIME :( #anyways yeah I'm kind of an idiot and I've just made a whole bunch more work for myself because I was too confident in my own skill to just #check the fuckin' wiki and actually reread canon

[arcanaaa]

Yet another Trio headcanon that I must share because I have no self-control, so feel free to reblog @hellfrze and @shinebrightlikealion; during the start of their time together taking missions, the three of them would have discussed contingencies ( especially ones that Cana could predict ) and countermeasures to prevent unnecessary risk for their team. I can see the three of them developing a code word, carrying an enchanted item imbued with each of their magics, or a failsafe in the event that something goes wrong during a mission or if any of them need backup. This is mostly to ensure that they could find each other if they became separated, but also if one or the other was in serious danger, they could activate an item that holds each other's magic or recite a phrase that would alert each other that they were under duress or danger.

Each of them would have carefully considered their code word that would only be used in a context that no one else but they would interpret, something personal that the three of them would immediately recognize. However, the items that they each carry that are imbued with each of their magic essence would be items that they carry on their person:

Cana's armbands, an heirloom from her mother, are each infused with Loke and Gray's magic, with the Left armband charmed with Loke's magic, while the Right is fused with Gray's magic. With both her boys' magic infused in each armband, it allows them the ability to track her location in the event that they're on a dangerous mission that separates them. She can alert them just by rotating the band, or by just touching them. Cana would never have any reason for taking her armbands off, so it would act as a perfect accompaniment for any disguises. This also would mean that if her armbands were removed by anyone else than herself ( because the only time she would ever take them off would be to bathe ), it would alert Gray and Loke that she's in danger and to come find her ASAP.

It's also the same for Loke and Gray.

For Gray, both Loke and Cana's magic is imbued in his sword necklace where the stone is centered, and should he touch his necklace or it is removed by anyone else than himself, it would alert Loke and Cana that he's in danger. For Loke, because his primary source of magic that he utilized while he was a 'human' was from the rings he wore, it's likely that he would have either had one ring that Gray and Cana infused with their magic, or he had each of them imbue their magic on specific rings. Even as a spirit, Loke never took the rings that he wore, more out of sentimentality than necessity, and continued to wear them even after his banishment was lifted.

Even when they don't team up together as a Trio, they all carry each other's magic; whether this is a conscious decision on either of their part or not, their magic continues to hold strong in their respective objects ( and also proved to come in handy unexpectedly ).

#meta tag #headcanon tag #shinebrightlikealion #hellfrze #i should probably make a Trio hc at some point lmao #and make a tag for them #the dilemma is so real alsdjkfalk #BUT LISTEN. HEAR ME OUT. #if they're on a covert mission and one of them lands in hot water then the rest of the trio come in to save the day!!! #THIS ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPENS WITH THEM!! EVERY FUCKING TIME THEY'RE ALWAYS GETTING INTO SOME SHIT #And im not saying that they act irrationally (Gray) or act foolishly (Loke) by being distracted by individuals or monetary items (CANA) #BUT THEY EACH ARE PART OF A WHOLE DUMBASS AND SHARE 1 (ONE) BRAINCELL AT A TIME #and because they each carry a certain amount of pride and stubbornness. it tends to land them all in trouble in one capacity or another #so. hence why this is necessary #but also. they're all so fucking protective of each other #not just as teammates but as friends. their bonds are so solid but they become much stronger the closer they all become. #so yeah :') here's my analysis thank you bye

[kelin-is-writing]

ngl... today i kinda want to cry from how overwhelming work is 🥲

#kelin talks #kelin's ramblings #and my boss making me feel worthless too together with some rude customers #like– everyone today is genuinely making me feel useless worthless and like utter shit... #idk if i suck so much at everything i do like this troll says why is he keeping me here???? #they even put a tag on me with written 'intern' and that's like giving a free pass for customers to walk all over me #but these dumbasses think they're some merciful saint who came upon me to help when they do rhe opposite like– #my voice even cracked a little while i was talking to a customer #they all look me like i'm trash who doesn't deserve a single ounce of respect... 🥲💔

[just-slightly-chaotic]

<3

#don't mind me i'm just very sleepy and sleepy me is worse than drunk me #sleepy me has no filter and ranges from giggly idiot who loves everyone and everything to sappy and sad dumbass #and today is sappy and sad i guess :( #i've been like a ball of anxiety the entirety of june but these past three days have been super bad #i have to move and god i have so much stuff #and no car #and none of my friends have cars #and they're helping me move! of course they are. and i really love them for it and they're amazing #and i'll be living with a really good friend from now on and it's going to be amazing #but moving is so stressful! tomorrow i need to really go through my stuff #and i'm homesick i think #like normally i'm fine?? but then it's like the second i buy tickets to go home i become super homesick #i miss my brothers so much #anyway i should just go to sleep and stop thinking #i'll move all of my stuff one way or another because i don't have a choice and i'll see my brothers in literally just a bit over two weeks #i need to stop being silly #and also go for a walk maybe. touch some grass and look at some trees #tomorrow i'll climb to the main tourist attraction here that i won't name because that would be doxxing myself #and walk around in the park there

[byanyan]

laying here at 5am getting real emotional thinking about the way so many adults in byan's life have always downplayed or outright dismissed their life experiences purely because of their age. even though they've been through and seen so much more shit than a lot of those same adults ever have. like their childhood was basically taken from them on repeat but sure, yeah, they're a kid, what do they know about anything?

thinking about how that's undoubtedly part of the reason they just never talk about these things. one of the (many) reasons they have so many trust issues in people older than them. eventually you hit a point where you just can't stand not being taken seriously any longer.

#don't get me wrong they're obviously still a dumbass kid on a lot of levels #but they're a traumatized dumbass kid who's gone through a lot of things no one should have to #and someone blowing that off bc they've only been around for 17 years is so SO incredibly insulting #and big surprise: it's not something they react to particularly well #hhhhh rereading spacy's reply just really got me thinking about how often they've had to deal with this sort of thing #and I have too many thoughts about it to be laying awake writing about it now but here we are anyway #was too busy working on icons earlier for the thoughts to fully register so now they're all clawing their way back into my brain lmfao... #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME.