#this is 100% me being self indulgent and i don't hide that fact

[laithraihan]

I really don't care about whatever someone ships or doesn't & I do believe you that it's not meant shippy & I think that's fine, because it's fiction so you can make up a bond between whoever you like however you like. But that goes for everyone else alike.

Art will be interpreted as soon as you look at it not after digging for the artist's own opinion, so I can't say I'm surprised that people look at it and think it's shippy first. Sure, some were annoying about it I grant you that, but I think it's because it simply comes of hypocritical to act like a ship interpretation is nuts when the art simply does look like that on first glance.

The average MP100 viewer will not interpret a familial bond between these two characters who canonically barely interacted, but you did. (& more power to you) Maybe your average follower will not interpret a romantic implication in your artworks, but others will. (& more power to them)

I really don't think people lack parental love to see it shippy, I think people simply expect parental love between, well, a parent and their child. Not someone you personally declared to be a "weird uncle" to a girl he barely knows. I didn't even want good night kisses from my actual "weird uncle" as a kid idk man.

Again, I don't see the slightest issue with the platonic relationship you make up for them. I just also get where the romantic interpretations are coming from.

Your uncle/niece interpretation sincerely is farther removed from canon than ship interpretations are from your artworks.

Interesting message so I'll answer this genuinely.

To start off: I Never once implied that it was crazy that other people would interpret this as romantic at first glance. I quite literally said that I understood the confusion because these two barely interacted in canon. Which is why Im always happy to explain my intentions. Experiences vary so what one considers normal may not be normal to someone else: I'm very much aware of this but y'all clearly aren't.

When it gets to the point where people say "this artist drew that AND said it wasn't shipping even though we can obviously tell theyre delusional and in denial", that's where the problem is. I provide an explanation, that explanation gets ignored, people either answer "lmao just admit it" or they treat me as if I'm the worst person alive and they refuse to accept they must've been wrong about their interpretations. They proceed to openly "discuss" this (by just mocking me repeatedly, nothing constructive) in a public space where they think I can't see it almost as if they forget I'm an actual person who can come across these messages at any time.

What others ship or don't ship is none of my concern, I stay away from circles I dislike. But when people constantly attempt to force me into "admitting" I'm into something that I have zero interest in out of malicious intent, then naturally it'll annoy me.

I'm sure you didn't really mean to imply that I was merely outraged at the thought of someone interpreting this as romantic if they didnt know every single thing about my headcanons which is why I'm answering you sincerely. So please forgive me for assuming the ones who compared a peck on the cheek to some nonsense like "platonic breastfeeding" have never experienced any sort of familial love growing up 💜

#asks #and whether or not you think my headcanons are 'so removed from canon' is also not an issue by itself #this is 100% me being self indulgent and i don't hide that fact #i draw whatever i want whenever i feel like it and if others dislike it then i understand #but please don't act like these people were totally oblivious when making these comments: they knew very well what they were doing

[seerofmike]

something im starting this year is a very self-indulgent, "my year in review" thing where i list 7 video games i enjoyed this year + 7 movies from this year that i liked because as time goes on i feel like i'm getting worse and worse at determining what i did and when i did them so this is basically just a place for me to journal the things i enjoyed this year for future reference.

all the movies are 2022 releases but since i'm hardly ever on top of current video game releases. my games list is gonna be all over the place. im mixing them up. feel free to read if you want yippee it's meant for me but since its being posted publicly ill write em all up as little recommendations. going in no particular order other than alphabetical and alternating between a movie and a video game i liked this year. also why 7 of each ? because 7 is my favorite number fuck you

The Batman

-hmmm. thoughts. congratulations to our second gay batman, robert pattinson. ok this is only half a joke. i love the riddler being a twitch streamer terrorist i like when media modernizes older characters it's funny. gotham truly felt like a shithole in this movie. soundtrack fucked. can't fight city halloween was on my spotify 100 wrapped

Inscryption (2021)

-i fucking suck at this game, i still have not beaten the trapper and as i understand theres like 2 whole other parts of the game to go or something??? so no i have not beaten it yet. but i have also sunk an unholy amount of time TRYING to beat it and i didn't get sick of it. it's a very dark but very entertaining card game and it has a free demo. even if you don't like card builder games i think you should try. it has a very unique atmosphere and premise

Bullet Train

-yes i liked the cringe brad pitt action movie. fun fact this was actually specifically tailor-made for me in a factory! it has a large cast of assholes trying to kill each other and it's funny and wacky and i love the directing. that sounds so fucking nerdy to say but i want to be a film director so im gonna say it. the directing of the action sequences especially was really impressive to me because there's only so much space/movement your camera can (believably) achieve when filming in a small, rectangular, ever-moving box like a train and i think mr david leitch did it very well. also tangerine and lemon funniest characters in an action comedy ever

Milk Inside a Bag of Milk Inside a Bag of Milk (2020)

-i kind of don't want to say much about this on the off chance someone reads this and also decides to play a game on this list but. listen. play it. it's like a dollar. it's very short, it's about a girl dealing with mental illness, and that's all i'll say about it.

Glass Onion

-mr benoit blanc u are so fruity. but ohg this was fun. it was fun! and it was especially more fun to rewatch it and see all that i missed and the small moments that they weren't really trying to hide from you. i enjoy the concept of being gaslit by a movie. also janelle monae is always so fun to see act

Paradise Killer (2020)

-honestly, there is so much i hate about this game. the sprites are awkward. the voice acting is bad. the platforming is abysmal. yet it's still here because i think its world is genuinely insane and unique and it knows the exact type of vibe its going for with all these terrible people in a vaporwave reality and it achieves it and also its a murder mystery and i like those. give it a try

Everything, Everywhere, All At Once

-yeah we all know her pussy slaps. there really isn't anything new for me to add. it's funny. it's got good action. michelle yeoh best actress award NOW!!!!!

Pathologic Classic HD (2015)

-yea this one is kinda cheating. i started it last year and got like 2 hours into it and gave up and then did a bunch of other things but i finally figured out how to get my controller hooked up to my laptop this year and i played it. 100%'d it. its proudly displayed on my steam profile.

look at that. awful. horrible terrible plague walking simulator 0/10 am playing again

Nope

-i love jordan peele. i love keke palmer. i love daniel kaluuya. this movie was made FOR MEEEEEEE it was very slow and tense and i know a lot of people complained about the slow pace of it but the build-up made (SPOILER) reveal all the more terrifying. speaking of terrifying, the scene where everyone (SPOILER) is the scariest thing ive seen in years and i think i have claustrophobia now :) also akira homage <3

A Short Hike (2019)

-this one was soso cute and relaxing :) it was very funny and had a cute artstyle and i beat it in like 1 hour. not a very big commitment but its charming enough to want to come back to

Puss In Boots: The Last Wish

-ummm. so. puss in boots??? that shit slapped????????? it had NO reason to be that good. like obviously the animation has been spiderverse'd which SLAPS but the they put their whole puss(y) into this movie and they didn't have to. it's good. all the characters were SO fun, literally all of them. i love the stupid little dog. he is my scrimblo. go check it out if you haven't it is NOT the soulless cash grab i thought it would be

Slime Rancher (2017)

-so like, conceptually, this game is weird as fuck. a first person shooter where you suck up little jellies and feed them and harvest their poop. its insane. its also very relaxing but also very ...management-y, like the way stardew valley is where its technically very relaxing but you are doing SO much to maximize ur profit for the day. i love that shit. look at those things. theyre adorable

Sonic the Hedgehog 2

-ohg. knumckles

SOMA (2015)

-ok so i don't actually get scared that often BUT here is a mike secret. ocean shit SCARES me i do not like anything set under the ocean and the fact that this game takes place underwater freaks me the fuck out. i dropped my 3 hour save file to switch to little baby for bitches mode after 3 hours not because the monsters themselves are scary but because emotionally i cannot handle monsters on top of a deep sea setting. also the story was really good you should play it

#mike 2022 year in review

[truckfreaks]

one thing i love about s2 of good omens is that it is 100% about continuing the story in a way that Makes Sense within the context of the narrative, while also giving The People the slow burn romance they've always wanted from phale and crowley - AND it's very, very aware of that fact! (i jumped out of my seat when Nina said what she said to crowley in the finale!)

it makes no effort to hide that it's entirely self indulgent, and what's more is its still utterly fantastic. it's still a lovely story. it still surprises you over and over and over, DESPITE being everything you hoped it would be. i don't want to call it predictable, because that would be incorrect - but I do believe there is something to be said for taking a fan-favorite thread and following it for as long as you can possibly take it while remaining in-character and in-universe.

and not coincidentally, this is one of those things that i think gaiman has, over the years as a story teller, REALLY excelled in and balanced nicely with that sort of "self indulgent" writing. (there's a reason why Neverwhere is one of my favorite books - he took a concept that was never able to come to full fruition on television, but desired to expand upon and continue the story - and I am so glad he did!)

and like, i know this is all stuff that's likely been said before and much more eloquently by other folks, but i also know neil gaiman reads through these tags every now and then and there's really nothing quite like seeing folks happy with the work you've put out. (also, i looked for more Tori lyrics in this season - Waitress in the finale of s1 really made me holler - but didn't pick up on any. so maybe if he sees this he can also demystify that for me lmfao.)

anyways. thank you Neil, thank you Terry, thank you Michael and David, thank you self indulgent queer writers, thank you subversive fanfiction, thank you maximalist hedonism, thank you tiny free dinners, thank you weird little angels and demons and creatures of the world, i love you

#good omens #good omens season 2 #neil gaiman #terry pratchett

[evilasiangenius]

Current writing update (untitled stories are listed by file names): 1. Mistakes 7 aka The Alexander Romance is 99% done.

I have a few chapters to edit Down to the last three chapters, set in Heaven, and then have to write the end notes (oh my god not looking forward to that, I wasn't keeping good track of references early on) and post the last few chapters. It will be 100 chapters + 1 chapter end notes. Oh crap, just remembered there are at least another one or two cut chapters/scenes to add for funsies, including one with Aziraphale and Crowley in disguise punting on the Nile in ancient Egypt. I'm afraid of checking the word count. Notes file is going to be its own novel XD

2. Crossover Wackiness aka The Last Temptation of Adam is 95% done.

It needs some editing, and I'm a bit behind right now because the Crowleys surprised me and I need to work with them. This is what happens when you have two (2) versions of Crowley in a story, inevitably they will do something surprising that requires more reflection. Part of me is surprised that this was a surprise. Not looking forward to notes section, I seem to have lost/misplaced much of the text of the reference file. 3. Mistakes 8, no title, though it's called 'sleeping beauty' as shorthand Sleeping Crowley. I posted the first chapter:

About 7000 words so far. Pretty much fully written, around 10k. Just needs some final polishing while posting. Here are the first two paragraphs of my sketch: Aziraphale who is just back from Heavenly indoctrination brainwashing runs into Crowley who is back after being punished in Hell. But Crowley is already asleep when Aziraphale finds him, out in the forest next to some rudimentary shelter and a fire. Aziraphale doesn’t want to leave him out there since the land is crawling with bandits and barbarians so he takes Crowley away and carries him to safety.

Ivy and rose-covered abandoned Roman villa, living upstairs in the ruins. Doorways blocked off for safety, windows shuttered and boarded over. They’re confined to a few rooms in the back, two downstairs and one upstairs where Crowley is sleeping. Two downstairs are a kitchen and a small servant’s bedroom, upstairs through servant’s stairwell to a storeroom that Aziraphale has converted into a bedroom for Crowley.

Weird self-indulgent nonsense after this, you've been warned. I don't even know if I should ever post any of this.

4. Mistakes 9, no title. About 8000 13000 words so far. First two paragraphs of the sketch: Satan was accidentally destroyed by Adam Young and Asmodeus has taken over Downstairs because of his proximity to power as The Voice of Satan, the Metatron equivalent Downstairs. He is hiding the fact that Satan is destroyed, because otherwise the war between Heaven and Hell would immediately restart and Heaven would win. Once he has consolidated his power Downstairs, pretending to be Satan (not long, had this plan as a possible backup for ages), he goes onto the next phase of his long term plans, getting Crowley back. Which means he spends time watching Crowley and Aziraphale and when he realizes that Crowley has essentially left Hell for Aziraphale and vice versa, he decides that to get Crowley back, he’ll steal Aziraphale.

Since Aziraphale no longer enjoys the protection of Heaven, Asmodeus will take Aziraphale from Crowley with the goal that without Aziraphale, Crowley will willingly go back to him, or Aziraphale will fall in love with him. Asmodeus is going to try to finagle it so that ideally both outcomes will happen, but either way he wants to win. However, Aziraphale figures out Asmodeus is trying to seduce him and...is trying to seduce Asmodeus (non-sexually) in return, thinking that if there’s not much he can do while being a captive of a Prince of Hell, at least he can maybe change Asmodeus for the better.

Asmodeus thinks he's being very clever here and is going to win, but he forgets that he walked into this with a handicap. 5. Reversed Rome, no title. About 24k words so far. I didn't write down a sketch because I was working on this by itself for a while so the outline was in my head, but it's about ordinary Angel Crowley and the Prince of Hell Aziraphale returning to Rome together (work orders). Immediately their relationship is on the fritz due to the interference of another shitty Prince of Hell (that guy). They part ways for about a year. Crowley ends up dating a cute pansexual patrician for a while and exploring sexual desire, which is not supposed to happen as an angel. In the meantime, Aziraphale fills his time with music lessons, learning all the top 10 most depressing Sappho songs.

And of course, there's the usual asshole hanging around in the background, causing problems...

#mistakes were made #writing updates on current stories

[kakiwrites]

being good enough for the captain

Genre: slight angst and fluff

A Tooru Oikawa x reader

Synopsis: being oikawa's best friend, you only want the best for him in everything. Oikawa thinks you're the best for him. But what if you think otherwise?

a/n: so this is one of the rare occurrences that this actually feels personal to me and is very self-indulgent. I kind of just vomited this out. Hope you guys enjoy my work dump!

 Tooru oikawa was on a different level with the ladies and you knew that for a fact.

 Ever since you were little, Oikawa has always attracted the girls. As little as kindergarten, he was getting a lot of confessions and gifts but he turned them all down in favor of spending time with you and iwaizumi.

  you always felt your heart beat faster when he chose you over them.

 Years went by, more and more girls lined up by oikawa's feet to try and woo him over to no avail. He welcomed them with open arms and was very open about having a relationship with one of them.

 You agreed with him 100 percent. He deserved only the best. So you agreed to help him find a girl that would suit him inside and out, opting to push away the dull ache of your heart in exchange of seeing Oikawa happy and satisfied.

 "this isn't healthy for you, idiot. You're going to hurt yourself more." Iwaizumi warned you again and again. He told you over and over to stop downplaying your feelings and actually face them.

 But you didn't listen.

 Because you knew that if you actually told oikawa what you felt that he would brush you away just like all the times you advised him to pick between the bad and the good. You weren't good enough for the grand king and you knew that. That was why you were helping him despite all the pain. He needed someone he could love freely, not someone who would weigh him down.

 "shittykawa, when are you going to ask (y/n) out already?" Iwaizumi asked out of the blue while the pair changed in the locker room. Oikawa looked up at him at the sound of your name. he's admitted to his other best friend that he likes you, likes you more than a friend. You've been there for everything and you were the only one who made his stomach fill with butterflies with every interaction you have.

 He would've confessed a long time ago if it weren't for the mixed signals after he agreed to let you help find his perfect match.

 He was making you search far and wide for his one true love when the person he truly yearned for was right in front of him.

 "what's with the sudden question iwa-chan?"

 "(y/n) is in pain, shittykawa. She's been destroying herself to build you up. I don't like seeing her hurt, okay?" iwa snapped, looking at his friend, his eyes pleading Oikawa to finally put an end to all this pain for you. The brown-haired captain could only sigh then nodded once in agreement. This has been going on for too long. He can destroy you even more if you mindlessly ignored your heart over and over for his sake.

 "you're right. You won't see her in pain any longer, iwa-chan." he simply said before he ran off in the darkness of the night to complete his plan just for tomorrow.

  "did you see? Oikawa was carrying a big bouquet!" the girls squealed as they ran in the halls during lunchtime. Bouquet? Did someone give it to him? No, no girl had the courage to do so.

 He brought the bouquet for someone else.

 You subconsciously balled your fists into your shirt, just right above your heart. Why was it hurting you? He found someone he finally could love. You should be happy.

 But why does it hurt so bad?

 Still, you picked up the pace, plastered on the biggest smile you could muster and headed to the cafeteria where his fangirls gathered around your table to try and get a peek at the bouquet.

 You pushed the crowd to finally get to the table. The bouquet was filled with roses and different colored flowers that could wow anyone in the room. You felt you smile falter because of it. But still, you pushed through and sat down beside the setter, tossing a fake teasing grin that didn't go unnoticed by the volleyball pair.

 "oooh~ flowers~ who are they for?" you asked, trying to play it off as a joke so oikawa would come clean to you about his one true love. You needed to get this over with. Maybe then would your heart feel a little bit lighter. "are they for Yuki in drama or maybe Kami in the 2nd year? Tell me!" you whined, leaning into Oikawa to really sell the deal but the boy only looked back at you, pink blooming on his cheeks.

 Iwaizumi then stood up from his seat, ushering the fangirls away from the scene that was unfolding, effectively giving the two of you privacy. It was only then did you stare back at tooru seriously. You could've swore that oikawa could hear your heartbeat from where you stood.

 "t-they're actually…" oikawa paused to take a deep breath, taking the flowers into his hands then handing them to you. "for you. I like you, (y/n). You're my one true love and-"

 "this isn't funny anymore, tooru." you cut him off as you tried to hastily wipe your tears away but they kept coming. "this isn't a funny joke at all."

 "that's because it isn't a joke, alright?" oikawa raised his voice a little bit, causing some tables to turn and stare at him in question. They didn't matter at the moment. He placed the flowers back on the table so he could cup both of your cheeks in his hands, using his thumb to wipe your tears away. "I really really like you. There isn't anyone I like more. You always talk about finding the best girl for me when I have you. You're the best." he whispered, making sure you were the only one who heard him.

 "b-but I'm not perfect-"

 "don't you dare finish that sentence. You are more than perfect to me, Even if you don't think so." he said, placing his forehead against yours.

 This time, the tears that rolled down your cheeks weren't from pain or sadness. They were now from the relief and happiness that flowed through your body until the warmth finally reached your heart.

 "I like you too, Tooru."

 And with that, you felt a heavy weight getting lifted off of your shoulders. You were finally free to speak your mind and actually tell him what you feel.

 You didn't have to hide your feelings anymore.

 And that is all! Hope you guys enjoy this! I had a blast writing this down and it really helped me sort out and actually think about my feelings more. Requests are open so please don’t be shy to leave any requests in my ask box! Love you guys 💖❤️💕

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#haikyuu x reader #haikyu x reader #haikyuu #haikyu #tooru oikawa #oikawa #tooru oikawa x reader #oikawa x reader #kaki writes