#ugh i hope it turns out well

[hunterbunter3000]

A sneak peak of the Sweetheart bf!au fic I'm working on rn 🤭🤭:

Their breathing was in sync. Everything they did up 'til this point was in sync.

Leo has never, in his life of being a mercenary, been in tune with someone before.

Her knee dives deeper into his chest, eyes moving to her wide thigh, scattered with new cuts and sweat that makes her golden brown skin glisten like dirty gold. 

"I'll say this again," she grits, her arched eyebrows furrowed, making her heated gaze look sinister. She points her gun to his head, his eyes looking deep into the hole of death. "Who are you?" 

Leo feels his heart shiver from her demanding voice. He looks at her. Like, really looks at her this time.

She's fucking gorgeous.

Her brown eyes are practically on fire, burning his walls down and melting his heart. "Answer me!" The gun is now on his forehead, but he doesn't care. If this is his last view, he doesn't mind dying. And if this is his last words, he has no regrets.

"I'm your new boyfriend."

Secret Boyfriend. ☆ (coming soon)

#HEHEHEHEE 🤭🤭 #ugh i hope it turns out well #and yes #the boyfriend's name is Leo #cod fanfiction #cod modern warfare #cod x female reader #cod oc #male oc #fanfic oc #141 sweetheart #mercenary #cod x y/n #task force 141 x reader #cod au #black fem reader #black reader #black!reader #cod imagine #141 sweetheart x bf #°[---hunter teasers 🤭✍️✨️]

[babacontainsmultitudes]

[just venting a bit into the void you understand you understand 😌] Lately I've been feeling very caught between "I have a lot of thoughts on Sparrow and Normal and all that with the ending and teen talk and feel like I need to get them out and voice them for my own piece of mind and resolution" and "I am lacking the strength and energy to actually sit down and write it all out and kind of really just want to fully move on to other things (AUs, fics, anything else)" but my brain can't seem to commit to either and that's quite frustrating cause it's just left me very restless. *Sigh*. Idk! Just needed to complain about that a bit ig, it's silly but this is what has been ailing me as of late.

#Then there's also a part of me that's like “does anyone even care at this point? haven't I already talked about them too much?” #but I have seen many a take that irk me... #and perhaps at the center of it all nagging at me is that persistent conflation of love and pride #Less about that in Normal's mind so much as in Will's and the fandom's 🤔 #Also that reoccurring issue of the fandom going ''Normal thinks this therefore it is The Truth'' though I believe I've discussed this befor #And... Hooks Will could have grabbed onto but didn't... Quite a few of those... #And the double standard/negativity bias in fandom of ignoring that Sparrow says both that he loves and likes Normal while doodlerized #But not treating those with the same legitimacy we do the pride thing. And ignoring Sparrow's demonstrations of love and change... #And what the love wolf scene actually implies about Sparrow (as I see it) with his own explanation of the pride thing in mind #But also!!! Also on Norm's epilogue and how despite everything taken at face value (i.e. no teen talk influence) I don't actually hate it #and I think it's plenty salvageable #And gah also that like *regardless* of how things turn out with Normal and his dad- #Well I haven't listened to much of the teen talk just the directly Sparrow-relevant clips #so I don't know quite how cynical Will is or isn't about Normal's future #But like. UGH. What I'm trying to say is even if things didn't find resolution vis-a-vis his dad #(which tbh I could go either way on- it's the meta misinterpretations of Sparrow that Bother me not so much Normal's) #(Well that's complicated. Again it comes back to the love vs. pride thing gosh this is so vague of me lol) #With all the positive influences in his life (and just the fact that life is long? and therapy is a thing?) I just don't see Normal- #being Miserable for the rest of his life. Like. I mean I won't elaborate here really but damn it no he can absolutely turn out alright stil #blugh #BUT YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN THAT'S A LOT OF STUFF AND THAT'S ONLY VAGUE RAMBLINGS ABOUT *SOME* OF IT #Like I'm proud of a lot of my essay posts (which I'm hoping to eventually compile in a masterpost eventually actually) but they take a whil #And if my heart wants to do other things... Ah idk... #ANYWAYS a vent to vent a vent to vent

[marinaiguess]

Don’t mind me, just trying to get the hang of writing again. I saw a video of a kitten getting scared by the sound of an electric guitar and thus, an idea was born.

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He visits her often. More often than a few months ago. More often than he’d like to admit. It’s not that he doesn’t like it, quite the opposite really. He likes it a lot. Besides, what would be the point in searching for the Chaos Emeralds every time he wanted to travel across dimensions if he didn’t want this? The problem lies elsewhere. Why? Why does it seem like he can’t get enough? An answer he has been striving to find for a while now, a question that keeps him up at nights. 

“What is this, Sonic?”

At the sound of his name, he pushes his thoughts aside as his attention is quickly reverted to the feline in front of him. 

“What’s what, your highness?” he smiles sheepishly, cradling his electric guitar in his embrace as he watches Blaze get up from her chair and kneel on the floor, next to the hedgehog, to inspect the amplifier he brought along. His grin only grows as Blaze glares from below, before turning around again, curiosity taking the best of her. 

“This machine,” she says, never backing back from the foreign object. “I’ve never witnessed anything similar to this.”

Her head tilts left and then right and then left again, in an attempt to gain more information about it. She brings her hand closer to it but quickly retracts it. With a frustrated huff, she sits on the floor, on the scarlet carpet that adorned her bedroom, allowing her face to rest on her palm. She seems very interested in it, way too interested, like she is trying to crack a code and her words finally make sense to him. 

“You don’t know what it is?” He raises a brow. 

She turns to him in response, her eyes flicking between his and the guitar he is holding on his lap. “No.” She shakes her head, but there’s not a hint of embarrassment in the notion. Only...curiosity, the need to learn about it. 

“Wow,” Sonic huffs amusedly. To say he was surprised would be an understatement. “You guys really are way too far behind on the technology department. You need to up your game if you ask me.” 

Blaze whips her head at the side and Sonic’s smile falls, replaced by a barely audible wince as he closes his eyes.

“Wrong topic.” he shifts on his seat. “Sorry.” 

Her gaze is now turned to him, to his emeralds eyes that are looking right back at her. She smiles softly, accepting his apology. 

He smiles back, unable to do anything else but that. “That’s an amplifier. You plug your guitar into it, so it can produce the signature electric sound.”

“You mean that’s a guitar?” she points at the instrument that is connected to the ‘amplifier’.

Sonic rubs his nose. “An electric guitar.” 

At that, both her arms fall to her sides as her jaw drops. Sonic cocks a brow at her. Playing the guitar is a great achievement (and it does make him look good) but it’s not that impressive. At least, not impressive enough to gain such a reaction from Blaze. However, he is reminded that he has mentioned that he is a guitarist from time to time when she’s been around, so, why was she so taken aback? Unless...

”Don’t tell me you haven’t seen one of these either?” he asks, taking his guitar in his hands to bring it closer to her. “You don’t have guitars here?”

Blaze pushes the guitar back to Sonic’s chest with a single finger. “We do have guitars.” She giggles at his relieved exhale. “Just- not electric ones.” She shruggs and Sonic fights down the urge to let his jaw drop to the floor. If he wants to be honest, it shouldn’t be as much of a surprise to begin with. But it doesn’t really matter.

He bends forward, closer to Blaze who stays perfectly still as she follows his every move with her golden eyes, shining as bright as a thousand suns, trying to understand what he is planning this time around.

“Then, Blaze,” he smirks confidently at her perplexed expression. “Allow me to demonstrate.” 

He reaches for the amplifier, turning it on without taking his eyes away from her, without moving back. And to her credit, Blaze didn’t flinch either, despite her eyebrows shooting upwards in apparent question which only added to Sonic’s satisfaction. It is always rewarding to see her expression turn into this wary one she has now, he can almost hear the gears turn in her head. 

“I’m all ears.” she says, smiling slightly as he sits back on her bed, right at the spot he was before. 

Sonic’s own grin never brushes off from his face. He places his fingers on the neck of the guitar and he strumms on the chords gently just once. The sound that plays through the amplifier is pleasant, not too loud but not too quiet; exactly as it should be and exactly as he was expecting it to be. 

What he wasn’t expecting was Blaze jumping backwards, her fur standing on edge, her ears and tail perfectly still and her eyes wide open, focused on the source of the sound.

Sonic doesn’t know what to make of that at first but he can’t help the snort that escapes him. Thankfully, she ignores him (or is too focused elsewhere to hear him), carefully crawling close to the object once more. 

But she shots back again, hands and feet quickly planted on the floor as Sonic plays the same chord again. This time, he cracks up, laughing at the scared cat who only now turned her attention to him. Sonic can’t seem to stop and Blaze joins him, as their laughter fills the room. 

When they eventually slow down and stop their laughing, they’re both laying on the ground, next to each other, catching their breaths. 

“You really are a scaredy cat.” Sonic wipes a tear away.

Blaze glares at him (at least, she tries to) and brings a palm lit in flames close to him. Sonic slowly pushes her arm away from him and that earns him a giggle. She extinguishes the fire from her hand and looks at her ceiling while he watches over her movements. 

“In any other case, I would be too embarrassed to speak. But that was unexpected, even for me.” she grins, giving him a side-glance. “It was funny if I’m being honest.”

“You shouldn’t be embarrassed.” He’s quick to interrject. “You, uh, you made me laugh, you made yourself laugh. That’s what counts.” 

“Well, what can I say? Your laugh is contagious.”

“Huh.” He’s lost in her eyes for a moment, the golden pools that always seemed to have the power to draw him in, like magnets, he couldn’t resist.

He shuts his eyes in a hurry, before he acts on a whim or does something stupid and clears his throat while getting up, gaze stumbling upon the discarded guitar on the bed. “Alright.” An idea pops in his mind and he smirks. “Don’t go anywhere.” he says in a sing-song voice.

“Where could I go anyway?” She rolls her eyes behind his back, whispering words she knows he is able to hear.

“Oh, I don’t know.” Sonic reaches for his guitar, adjusting the amplifier at the same time. “Maybe you’d want to test out other cat insticts and you’d jump from the window to see if you can land on your feet-”

“Sonic-!”

“Or maybe you’d want to find out if you really have 9 lives.” he finishes as he lays back down, next to her, guitar on his chest. 

She rolls her eyes again but this time he doesn’t miss it. “You’re unbearable sometimes.” she smiles.

“Oh, I know, trust me.” he winks in response. “I’ll play something. But can you not get scared? I don’t know how much laughing I can take after this.”

“Sure. No promises though.”

Mimicking his companion, he turns his gaze to the celiing, letting the fingers dance on the chords, letting them play a song he’s never heard before. He is happy Blaze seems to be enjoying it because he doesn’t know what the hell he is doing. 

And if he lets his heart take on, leading the fingers to play a song that says all the words he wants to say through some notes, all the words he’d never be able to speak otherwise, he doesn’t let her know, too afraid to reveal his emotions to her but also to himself.

And so, he keeps strumming, he opens his heart to create a song at the spot just for her.

Even if she doesn’t know.

#lame lame lame #ugh shit #i wont delete it cuz i spent like 2 hours on this but it didnt turn out to be what i hoped for #oh well #sonaze #sth #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #Blaze the Cat #sonic and blaze #sonaze fanfiction #sth fanfic #short fic #sonic plays the guitar your honor

[sieglinde-freud]

think this is the first time ever i have been disappointed to see an awakening banner

#ann cries about feh #I WAS SOOOO READY FOR BABY RAM VILLAGERS MAN #SO READY #BABY KLIFF… WHERE YOU?!???? #cuz like. sorry i love the ram kids so much. and NONE OF THEM HAVE ALTS #ok well. thats not true. valentines faye and alm and celica have a few #but 1) v!faye was SO long ago and 2) alm and celica NEVER get seasonals #they got valentines and then??? AND THEN WHAT?? #brave alts cuz they won and legends bc its mandatory for lords. ????!!?!!!!?!!! #THATS IT???!!!! #not that baby hell is the best outcome but i thought theyd be a shoe in eventually #also for an awakening baby banner i was. kinda hoping if it happened itd be like. the second gen??? #bc. theyre the babies??? #BABY LUCINA IS LITERALLY IN THE GAME #i mean i guess itd be weird to have a newborn out on her own like that #but idk i think baby lucina + a few others would be a much better idea than chrom and lissa im sorry #do we not have enough chrom alts. #+ consider if we got like. cousins duo baby lucina and owain. cMONN owain doesnt have enough alts considering hes. yk. OWAIN?! #itd be nice if emmeryn was there though. though again her being relegated to BABY BANNER is kinds insane #ugh idk. couldve had duo baby celica and faye and i think that wouldve been adorable #or not. actually high chance intsys would ruin that and turn them into only talking about alm… #instead we get to have lissa and emmeryn only talking about chrom! whoop de doo! #i think theres actually child chrom lissa emm art out there somewhere i forgot where but #thats probably why. but that doesnt make the missed opportunities hurt any less #whatever ram gang fs next year!!! #please #what if we got baby awakening tiki and its j y!tiki again lmfao

[figgyblossom]

☠️☕️🌄

#i dod nooooot fall asleep last night 🥲 #was just on my phone... well in my defense for a while i was just playing sudoku & tetris so like not as bad as instagram doom scrolling BUT #it did turn in to that around 1 am 🥲🥲🥲 also like ~wow~ crazy anxiety and busy stress brain i couldnt turn off #hence.. the scrolling and no sleep #so i got out of bed around 5am. started a load of laundry. fed the cats. made coffee. and am now chilling before i FINALLY take my car to #the auto shop at 8am! (it is currently 6:03am) #i have no much work to do today so heres hoping i didnt just fuck myself over by a million 🙃 #ugh. anyway. good morning yall <3

[orcelito]

Been finishing up act 2 of bg3. It's a good thing I find the battle systems so fun bc Hoo Boy there sure do be battles

#speculation nation #im going the epic hero direction this run. mostly bc i care about saving innocents' lives as much as possible #which means Killing Necromancers...... ugh. #cloudkill my beloathed. me n my homies hate cloudkill (used against us at least) #i got my vampire kicked into a fucking CHASM i had to reload a save 😭😭😭 #he's been phenomenally unuseful in these fights bc theres so many people and so few places to hide #usually hes one of my biggest damage dealers. and sometimes he can get a good shot in #but a lot of turns hes just firing one dinky lil arrow and then hiding in the corner #...... i keep forgetting about the fancy arrows. i have so many of those. i should try to remember them when i get to the Big battle. #which. hmmm. we r gonna hope it's not Too difficult a battle. ive been able to get thru every battle so far in this game #turns out im Pretty Damn Good at this game. to the point where i'll brute force it and still end up fine. #the literal only battle i had to leave and go back for was the big spider queen thing in the bottom of the well. she was scary. #im level 9 now tho and full of so much guts n grit. and loot. holy fucking shit the loot. #im looting every body (including fallen allies. sorry guys ur gold's goin to a good cause.) #i have karlach with a like 460 carrying capacity but she STILL keeps getting encumbered. from all the armor. #im making fucking Thousands off this tower capture im gonna have so much fucking money #once i leave here and can actually. sell them all 😂 #anyways i have been having fun! had to stop for the night bc it's late. but i will be killing thorny ass tomorrow. mark my words.

[femme-malewife]

...Not tonight though. I have work in the morning.

#(has to be up in less than 6 hours) #i hope work gets delayed or cancelled again....that would be so awesome... #sigh....though i cant imagine w all the snow and ice we'll be very busy...even though its our big discount day #ugh... #Well anyway... i THINK i have an okay grasp on the characters #im a lil hesitant. 58 chapters wasnt enough for me to really grasp onto them #i need to understand characters inside and out before i can write them. When i can enter my hyperfocus writing mode #its easy to let the characters write themselves and im nothing but their vessel. helping them move along. #for me writing isnt like being a puppeteer controlling puppets. The characters do the work. #a Vessel is the best way to describe how i feel when i truly write. #the world around me disappears and the story pans out. Sometimes i get so into it i practically turn into my protagonist #so...im not Quite sure im at that point yet where i can let these beloved chars write themselves #let alone what situation to let them get themselves into #hmm. #ill try to think of smthin. #there isnt a whole lotta info out there abt the chars tho so i cant rely on that many sources or interpretations #its gonna be shaky at best if i do write them... #which my writing is Always shaky when i cant fully get into it. Thats how it be #when im unfocused it shows in my writing. #i have to let my subconsciousness drift and let my mind warp to another reality... #anyway hi im sane if you read all this!!

[celestial-sapphicss]

something really sweet happened today and i wanted to share!

so in my college (it's a 2 years course), the 1st year students of the club im in threw us a farewell party, and we were completely blown away! they all had prepared speeches for us and got us personalized gifts, it was all so sweet i almost cried! and since im also one of the heads of the club, i felt so proud and emotional!

last year, we had the worst toxic seniors to the point that i had mental breakdowns because of them, and had vowed to create a safe environment for the new students and im really happy we could do that 🥹

#vi.txt #personal #AAAAAAAA MY HEART IS SO FULLL #i had worked so hard for this club and it opened up so many new things for me and it made me come out of my shell im gonna miss it so much #since my college started in the online mode the friends i made were not who i thought they were they completely changed in the offline mode #but since everyone already had their own core groups i was stuck and its anyways difficult for me to make new friends #because when i bond its kinda all or nothing for me so i just kept holding on hope that things would get better with time but GAAAAAH #but the 2 of the girls i was closest to turned out to be quasi pick me girls #they went on to include bigoted homophobic boys in the group which made me so uncomfortable #and they did that despite the fact that they knew im queer and when i pointed it out they didn't really acknowledge me ugh #anyways the point is this club would be my safe place as i like all the people in it #it kinda put me on the spotlight as well and expanded my circle!!!! #and while i can't wait for my student life to be over i will miss this club a lot and im kinda sad to let it go!!!! #im so happy it meant even a little as much to the juniors as it meant to me 🥹 #this is why i was awol all day and im v tipsy rn so ill reply and rb and everything tomorrow!!!!! #i hope y'all are having a good day 💌

[rxtgallows]

being the same age as most long term lolitas were when they started getting into it but its different now bc there is just so much less of a community it feels like... like for me i feel more like i am finding a lot of individuals but no local communities bc its just rlly died down i think... like i found a 2013 pph article about a lolita meetup downtown. i dont think that wld happen now even if i COULD find a local community

#i think if theres not a lolita tea party/panel this year at pcm i will host one next year... #by then ill have been actively in the subculture for like a year and ill know a little more.. rn im JUST starting out i wld have no clue #what to do... but like i have ideas for stuff that wld be soo fun and ive always wanted to host/participate in an event or panel #once i was picked to participate in the fandom state alchemist test or w/e its called but then they wldnt let me after they saw my boot #which was so fail bc i absolutely cld have done tthe challenges with a broken foot. BLAH anyway #or like i hope they try the jfashion show again UGH probably not since it had to be cancelled due to lack of participation... #i jst would looove to have lolita friends in the area... idk how successful i wld be at converting someone and my sibling doesnt count #or ONE lolita friend... i only know of one lolita in maine and shes pretty well known in the NA lolita community from what i can tell so #ive met her a couple times actually she is very nice. idk what i am trying to say tbh #im more open to making friends at pcm in a lolita context and not a cosplay context bc every cosplayer ive interacted with for more than a #passing comment or picture turned out to be like umm a freak #or one of my moms students <- student who made all the dresses for the haunted town tour cosplaying kanaya that one year and then me showin #my mom the meetup pictures and her going omg.... thats d/////// #she was a really really incredibly seamstress btw her costumes were beautiful. anyway. iconic. #i think probably i havent talked to anyone in a while and it is wearing me down i have to make these massive posts every day

[captainmaxatx]

Look I love HTTYD way more then the next guy but I am keeping my hopes for this remake low

Live action remakes are so hit or miss and the first movie is so iconic that I just really don’t think they will be able to pull it off

I haven’t been doing well mentally recently so that’s definitely effecting my opinion but I’m kinda mad about it, like they already fucked yo with the last movie just leave it alone

#HTTYD #how to train your dragon #I also don’t think a lot of things are gonna translate well #my one hope is that watching it in live action will make people realize how fucked up astrid is #ugh I hate this #anyways not to kill you with cringe #but I have an elaborate daydream world in my head where I’m famous #and I mean elaborate I have made whole movies for me to be in #and one of my roles is in a live action HTTYD #which obviously turns out great and people love it #and they make the second and third with the third having been re written #but in the first movie they had to do the same thing to me as they did to Chris evans in catfa #to make me look small #so I’m like kneeling on boxes and stuff lol #anyways if you read this far wtf #you wanna hear about the movies I made up? #so yeah this live action is gonna be shut but the one I star in in my daydream world fucking slaps

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#me: itll b done monday. itll b done Monday. no more of this experiment after Monday. #my boss Saturday morning: we made some changes to the end of the experiment. u dont have to take measurements sunday and Monday. youll do #it Tuesday and Wednesday. #me: ...i cant even. if i have to fucking do that. why would u do this to me? why the fuck cant i just fucking do it sunday/Monday? #im not fucking doing that. im not. fuck off. why would u do this??? is it bc my birthday is Monday so u think ill b sad abt being in the #lab? bc im im fucking not in the lab and this fucking experiment is still going ill spend the day crying and unable to do fucking anything #bc i just kno ill have to come back on fucking Tuesday and do this again #is it bc u think the post processing will take too long so u wanna split between days? bc i will fucking sit there all fucking night #on Monday if it means i can fucking get this over with. ugh. great start to this fucking day. fantastic #ive already emailed back like: um hey some of these changes make sense bc um what the fuck??? it doesnt make sense to offset my #measurements? so what thr fuck???? but like more polite and hopefully less frantic sounding. god. i hope she doesn't have a valid reason #for this. i dont wanna fucking do that and i will fight back #email. me. back. my fucking stomach hurts abt this >:-[ also i didnt get a lot of sleep and came in at like 6.30am #bc i forgot to measure prewatering weights over the 2 weeks. oops. so im maybe not that steady #but i fucking hate this idea. and im not saying i refuse to do it. but i fucking refuse to do it #well see if i hold out. agh. birthday present to me. i get to be selfish and end this project early. and by selfish i mean i get to protect #my brain a tiny little bit. a teeny tiny bit. except my apartment is now so fucking cold ill probably end up in the lab anyway #bc everytimr thry turn on the air in my building its like so so so cold snd i dont have temp control and i wont complain #unrelated #i need my answer before 5.30 or my head will explode

[tsukinohana]

hhrghrhgrhhffghggh trying out horror podcasts and theyre not scary, dialogue is contrived, narration is off, the writing is just subpar, they're pro cop, etc etc ugh

#i didn't know that tma was the best when i started ok. i didn't know it was gonna be an anti capitalism anti establishment anti cop #lgbt and just so fucning well written i took it for granted i'm sorry i'm sorry #god. #one of these i skipped pretty far before i realised that they weren't selling me a mattress it was the narration #bitch just talks like an ad reader #why are you so hyped this is meant to be scary #anyways. some of them just explain the thing too much so it's not scary #god and when they try to have a reaction towards and they're like 'wow how are you alive. anyways it's your turn mike' 🥱 #that's not how people speakkkkk ugh #anyways i have read all the rec lists and i will get to them there MUST be another one that's good i just haven't found it yet #holding out hope ! #the storage papers seemed promising but pro cop on the second ep 🧍‍♀️ #also idk about this soundscaping i'm sorry alex please forgive me every time i rolled my eyes at you i didn't know i didn't know #i love and appreciate your work now i do #mel.txt

[im-no-jedi]

oh yeah, I saw the supposed “leaks” for season 2 this morning and I legit LOL’d

I do not trust a single “leak” for any SW content ever, it’s always at least 80% wrong

remember when the entire plot of TBoBF got “leaked”? ahh good times 😌🙄

#literally the only thing that was right about that leak was Krrsantan #we really thought we were gonna get live action Rex and Echo #and it turned out to be three episodes of Mando and Grogu LOL #so yeah I'm calling bs on that TBB leak #one or two things might be legit #and boy I hope it's the one about Cody and literally NOTHING else #well I guess that one about Omega meeting [REDACTED] would be cool #but the one about Rex (and Omega)? NO PLEASE NO UGH WHY #I already knew I was probably going to have to retcon stuff for MLWTBB #but uhhhhhh YIKES HAHAHA #😬😬😬 #star warz

[arcane-strangeness]

#Delete later #There's so much shit happening in my life right now and this has been haunting the back of my mind for ages and I just ugh #What do you do when your boyfriend is going through some fucked up shit and won't respond to your texts asking if he's ok if he wants to #Hang out later or even just talk about things #Like I asked if he wanted to go to a mall later and it turns out he's going to mfing Arizona and. Didn't tell me at all? #He's going through a lot of stuff right now but I kinda want just like. Basic details of what he's doing? #So I can talk to him without sounding like a idiot? And not have to worry about him when he ghosts me for a couple weeks? #And the whole reason I'm questioning things isn't because he's being frustrating I've been thinking about this for a looong time #At first I thought I might have just been demi aro? Because like we were best friends before we were in a relationship #And I really do care about him I just don't know to what extent (what defines romantic attraction anyways? Never been clear on that) #And I'd break up with him and say I just need a couple weeks to sort things out and I think he'd understand #But also he really doesn't need that stress right now things have been getting really bad on his end #Our relationship isn't actively hurting me but if this trend continues it might eventually #I just really want to talk to him. About things. I hope I'm not doing a bad job handling this #Ufhfhdjajajajahrgehehh #Worth mentioning that Phoebe from Ghostbusters is making me question things as well. #Things are confusing all of the time :(

[lunarflwrs]

when canvas lets you see the five number summary it's crazyyyyyy but also makes me feel so good about myself

#im like ugh i thought id done so well on the listening portion of my japanese final wtf #and it turns out the highest score was just one point more than me no one scored full points #anyway. crazy to me that at least one person simply did not take the final like.................. bruv #ALSO IM GETTING AN A AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #I THOUGHT A WAS 95% AND ABOVE BUT ITS ONLY 94% T.T I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER #I WAS BOUTTA BE SOOOOO UPSET TO GET AN A- FOR LITERALLY LESS THAN A PERCENTAGE POINT #ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa if i dont get full points in my chem final i'll be just a few decimal percentage points from 94% im crying #she's a very leniant grader usually i hope that's also true for he final T.T

[ashlinnjarnheim]

i'm so upset i can't think of anything coherent to say. these days were supposed to be fun and lighthearted. we were so happy about everything. we waited for such a long time for this. it's honestly heartbreaking to see what's happened and is happening with fans attending the rio shows. it's equally as heartbreaking to see the undeserved, not to mention exaggerated, backlash taylor's getting when all she's done was try and take care of herself, her team, and her audience. it's even more heartbreaking for us brazilian fans to deal with so many xenophobic comments & attacks when most of us are actually standing with and supporting her. i'm so,,,,,,, overwhelmed with all this.

#laura speaks #these are not even my dates yet but i feel so heavy hearted. #i hope she gets well #i hope everyone attending today gets home safe i hope they get to see her #i hope people stop blaming all brazilian fans for the action of a few #i hope everything turns out alright. just. ugh