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horrorsbf · 5 years

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a quick rewrite of a drabble i reblogged yesterday. gonna see if u can rewrite stuff like you can redraw things

No one can find out about this, The Caretaker thought to himself. Trying to make the use of both his hands, he fumbled out a small blue pill with one and holding a plastic cup of orange juice with the other.

He had to remind himself about this over and over again. He wasn’t a liar, lying was a bad habit to get into when raising children, so covering things up involved the same expert precision that doing a two-handed pill-pop with one.

Tilting his head back, he downed the birth control with a slosh of orange juice. He was alone in the kitchen. No one was going to find out about this.

In this Christian family? you’d be out of a job before you can scream ‘In the name of God.’

Before he can put up the case, he hears someone outside the kitchen. He has to decide his course of action based on who was coming in. Maybe it was too late to shove it into his pocket, so he just bats it to the side and hopes.

“You’re up early.”

Jam- Dr. Corenthal. he’s your boss, dammit, and a doctor. give him that credit.

The father of the family, the man who hired him, the man going over to the coffee maker to see if he can chase away the all-nighter Caretaker saw him doing. He radiates warmth and soft mornings.

The cup feels cheap, now. Of course it does. It’s a colorful, plastic cup meant for children. Dr. Corenthal is holding a ceramic, white mug.

Why the hell are you getting self-conscious over a cup? why now?

“it’s not early, dr. corenthal. i think you may’ve slept in.”

He laughs at the jab. Moments like these make the Caretaker happy that his boss isn’t as pristine and serious as the mugs he drinks out of.

“I must’ve. Maryanne was nowhere in the house when I looked.”

Maryanne. His “wife”. Caretaker hated the simmering jealousy under his skin hearing her name. A reaction when she spoke was fitting, sure, but her name was such a little thing.

She was the mother of the family. You’re the odd one out here.

“she went for groceries.” The lightness of the Caretaker’s earlier comment was gone.

“She didn’t take any of the children with her?”

The inflection of Dr. Corenthal’s tone wasn’t questioning. He knew the answer. They both did, hearing the four children play in the living room.

He was surprised.

Not of his wife, Caretaker knew. Not because he thought she was bad. He didn’t think the man could speak aloud any hatred of her. He was just surprised because both he and the Caretaker like to make shopping a family outing.

“nah, but they can entertain themselves for a little while. ‘m glad, honestly. bunch of kids close in age, in the same family, ‘s like a playgroup that came included,” Caretaker muses between sips of his orange juice.

Dr. Corenthal steps closer, up against the counter adjacent from Caretaker. Even if the younger man was blocking some of the light from the window, just enough came through to caress the older. Caretaker was glad they were talking, because he would have no other way to defend his stare.

“I agree. They’ve been perfect from day one. Maryanne always wanted a big family, I’m glad I was able to fill that want of hers. She always wanted to be a mother.”

The Fairmount four were far from perfect, but they were perfect enough to the two men...and the wife of one of them.

“maybe she should start acting more like one to them, then.”

The sharpness in the Caretaker’s snark surprised both of them. He felt his face get hot from the whiplash, drinking the little amount of orange juice left in an attempt to shut himself up.

This is the day you’re going to get fired. A mouth like that, with your birth control in broad daylight? Inevitable.

“You... are probably right.”

The sigh underlying Dr. Corenthal’s response should’ve been expected.

“She loves them, though, she must. Sometimes I can’t help but wonder if they were her actual flesh and blood she might be different towards them.” He mutters the last part, looking away towards his hands.

That’s... an odd way to phrase that.

“why didn’t she just have her own kids, then? if it would’ve made things better?”

“She’s infertile.”

There isn’t loss in Dr. Corenthal’s voice. Simply fact.

“ah,” The Caretaker doesn’t know why he asked that, but the answer he got wasn’t surprising. He couldn’t find any tampons in the house, nor pads, nor anything. He just assumed Maryanne was old enough that she couldn’t do it anymore, not that she never could do it at all.

“well then, she’d be massively ticked off if she found out i was able to have kids n just choose not to.”

Goddammit, goddammit, goddammit, you JUST told yourself not to tell. and you just did! you’re going to put on the street. kiss this job goodbye.

“You do?” He asks, shocked, and then looks over to what Caretaker can only assume is his pill holder. “...You do.”

“yea,” Another hope that the anxiety doesn’t come through his voice.

“Is that why you disappear for a whole day sometimes?”

He notices?

This is one of those times that Caretaker finds himself in awe at the doctor. Instead of accosting him, he inquires. Even as an old man, a father, he keeps his curiosity with him. Caretaker can’t help but think back to when he dipped out of church service to go look at the graveyard. Maryanne yelled at him. Dr. Corenthal just asked why he went there instead.

He felt listened to.

“yea. i get on one of those shit greyhouds and ride down, n walk to the nearest planned parenthood. it’s a couple hours forward and back. i only do it on days i know the kids won’t need me for nothin’.”

“It sounds like a long trip. I could drive you down one day if you’d like, it would be much faster.”

As appealing as that sounds, the freshly recalled memory of how loud and angry his boss’ wife can get was bold in his mine like revived watercolor. The Caretaker shakes his head.

“’s fine. it’s my own fault for doin’ something so extra,” He chews on his lip and looks over at Dr. Corenthal, bathed in sunlight, again.

“please don’t tell your wife.”

“I would never dream of it, David.”

#drabbles #letters from eden #casually writes a 1k fic in a tumblr post #emh #uhhhh yea babey its gay

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your-localghost · 4 years

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so um who wants to read a 50 page essay of me and my mom's journey through the IT movies?

too bad you're reading it

so like i saw this goddamm clown, and i, also being a clown, said to my mom, also a clown, "lets watch this clown movie lol" and she said yes. and in the like first five minutes we are already awwing and stuff because??? omg georgie and bill are so cu- oh. oh my god. oh this us not what we thought at all-

so enter Losers. instant RELATE i am also a LOSER hellO?? hAh look at these 2 idiots theyre bickering like an old couple an- oh my fucking GOD of course there are bullies. one of them looks like draco malfoy??? guYs did draco malfoy play in this movie we see him like 2 times-

oh my god oh no poor bill he is trying to find his brother :( but alsO BEV IS SO PRETTY??? IM SO GAY???? and yeah i really feel the New Kid On The Block like same man i didnt even get to meet a pretty girl and a buncho losers who will go jump into lakes with me

OH and the lake scene? it bites me in the ass later. i fucking passed it off as a "theyre bonding" moment and then it transforms into a feelings plane and crashes into my house

me: they just keep leaving their bikes

mom: well It takes kids, not bikes

fastforward and??? the fight secene?? the fuckijgn fi Ght SCE ne??? o H M Y GO D

bill was so desperate to find georgie?? richie was so scared he would die??? beN BEING SCARED HIS FRIENDS ARE GONE?

i AM ALL OF THESE FUCKERS

and oh?? bev's dad??? hate the vibe this dude gives to me. like this dude def did more than mentally abuse her and im so glad she beat him up

uhHHH??? WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT EDDIE STANDING UP TO HIS FREAKSHOW OF A MOM??? HOW HE WAS SO MAD????? HE THREW HIS PILLS ON THE GROUND HELLO, HE STRAIGHT UP YEETED HIS FANNY PACK??? MAN the things a gay goes through for his friends

bill's speech on georgie, like, dude just fucking stab me it will hurt way less

fastforward more, the oath??? how scared stan was??? like i ddint really feel any connection with stan other than his actor played my fav character, stan, in ianowt, but uHm? i still love him??? so mUCH???

oOOOH i just realied i didnt talk about mikey

ahem

THE ROCK FIGHT THE FUKING ROCK FIGHT THE ROCK FIGHT OH MY GOD

THESE LOSERS ARE SCARED SHITLESS OF THOSE SHITBAGS BUT THEY SEE ANOTHER LOSER AND THE FIRST THING THEY DO IS THROW R O C K LIKE FUCK YEAH YOU FUCNKY LITTLE MIDDLE SCHOOLERS STAND UP FOR YOUR FELLOW BULLIED I LOVE MIKEY SO M7CH OH MY GOD

so between the 2 movies we realized it wasnt on netflix and went on various websites to watch the 2nd movie, got progressively angrier until i got my laptop and just watched it blindly because we are both blind

okay heres the tea yall

they completely erased bev's character in the 2nd movie. in the first it was emphesized SO MUCH just how brave she was compared to the others. she took the first step, she wasnt afraid to go into the house she fought her abusive dad and in the 2nd movie it was all gone. i really liked the fact that bev wqsnt a damsel in distress until in the 2nd movie she was. while in the 1st movue you forgot that gender roles existed in the 2nd it really seemed like they wrote bev as a "woman" rather than "bev" you dig me??? okay rant over. basically fuck the 2nd movie bev and im not just saying this because her 1st movie actor made me realize i was a lesbian. on to the movie

oh mY GOD HOMOSEXUALS??? WILL THEY HAVE A PART IN THIS STORY OH MY IM SO EX- oh. right. oh hey theres mikey :D

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me: who's this??

mom: its bill look, its his surname

me:

me: you remember bill's surname but not richie or ben's names?

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oh theyre all grown up!! oh bevs fighting an abusive man again and uh

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mom: i have a feeling stans gonna kill himself

me: hah can you imagi

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STANLEY??? BABEY BOY OH NO???? and also are we gonna let the spider with the baby head thing pass?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY DONT REMEMBER ANYTHI-

"this is like a virus its been eating us for 27 years!" YEA MIKEY ITS CALLED PTSD YOU FOUGHT A FUCKING DEMON AND DIDNT SEE A THERAPIST????

also the whole tribe thing seemed really out of story and like it didnt belong there at all? idk maybe its just me but i dont wanna believe that bill's 3rd eye opened after he got drugged by his friend idk

so like hightlights because ive got many rants about the 2nd movie

what the fuck do you mean bev got out of jer specilized hell after ben recited 1 fucking poem are you kidding me are yOU FUCKING KIDDING ARE WE REALLY DOING THE SAVED BY LOVE BULLSHIT AGAIN OH OKAY

OH OKAY FUCK YOU

SO BEV GETS SAVED IN THE FIRST MOVIE AFTER BEN KISSES HER WHEN AT THE TIME HE PRIBABLY THOUGHT LOVE WAS AT ITS PEAK WHEN YOU GAVE YOUR 2ND GRADE CRUSH A BADLY WRITTEN POEM

AND UFKCING HELL IT HAPPENS IN THE 2ND MOVIE TOO??? DOES PENNYWISE JUST THINK "oh these bitches hetero bettet keep them alive" BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? THIS WOULD ALL BE OKAY IF

IF EDDIE LIVED TOO

FUCK I RELATE TO RICHIE SO MUCH??? HIS FIGHT WITH HIS PEERS AND HIS FIGHT WITH HIMSELF OVER HIS YEARS LASTING CRUSH ON EDDIE?? OH MY GOD IT WAS SO OBVIOUS THIS MOTHERFUCKER WAS GAY AND I DIDNT REALIZE UNTIL THE 2ND MOVIE WHEN HE HAS A BREAKDOWN BECAHSE HIS SOULMATE GETS STABBED BY HOMOPHOBIC FORTNITE DANCING CLOWN WHILR HE TRIES TO SAVE HIMA DN THEN FUCKIN G DIES EVEN THOUGHT THESE 2 IDIOTS HAD MORE CHEMISTRY THAN BILL+BEV AND BEN+BEV COMBINED OH MY GOD IM SO MAD THE HETEROS GET TO LIVE BY TRUE LOVE BUT THE GAYS DONT AND UG G H H G G HH "hes dead" NO HE FUCKING IS NOT THIS ISNT FAIR I LOVED EDDIE SO MUCH

well uh now that we got my love for richie on papet um

the lake scene

i cried and i had to watch heteros kiss underwater while wiping my tears. its only cool when percabeth does it guys

the lake scene aside i full on BAWLED LIKE A BABY at the ending because i felt so bad that stan died already and i felt bad that not only was richie facing years if bullying and homophobia anf the loss of his friends it finally is confirmed that richie had a crush on eddie and i

i just cried man? it hurt me so much as it weighed on me how many jokes richie made, how scared he was when he saw the missing paper of himself, his flashbacks to people calling him names, his speech to eddie and that he had to get dragged out because this fucker obviously couldnt let go of his feelings. and between all of that and stan's letter my brain blocks out everything and focuses on one

R + E

oh my god

OH MY GOD NO

NOW i dont really like watching movies. as a writer myself im really critical of everything involving the world building, the characters, the plot and all that jazz and usually the acting is so bad that i dont feel for the characters but THIS ONE. T H I S O N E

my mom turned to me and was SO SHOCKED to see my flat out CRYING because i just dont do that man, and she just asked my what made me cry and i just made a noise like "hhhnnnn" and she nodded and went "richie's love story" and i, still crying, went "hhhnnnn" but in a higher pitch

and im just so mad? that eddie didnt get to live?? we didnt get an "i love you" or even a "im gay" from richie??? we didnt get to see them holding hands and letting go of their trauma together and being gay and happy yet

yet the fucking bad-writer-white-boy and boo-hoo-i-had-no-friends and not-bev get happy endings??? mike can get a happy ending because he is a well thought out character

thESE 3 ON THE OTHER HAND OH MY GOD

bill had to change his endings which really makes me angry because ima writer yada yada

bill has been bullied his uh what whole life? he got told his opinion didnt matter and from what i remember even his parents shut down his ideas and i feel like he should have made the endings how he wanted instead of changing to what the public wanted. thats what he defended as a kid, thats why he was in the losers club unwilling to change, because they were losers. yet he changed.

ben should have stayed fat or at least have abnornal weight because that also defeats his story with bev. it makes it seem that suddenly and magically when ben is hot bev can BEGIN to consider that she loves him.

i already ranted about bev.

mike is decent i guess? i like that he didnt stay with whoever the fuck that was in the first movie because he seemed very aggreasive to me. im glad the chose to research into pennywise because others were too stupid not to (RICH AND EDDIE GET A PASS AGAIN BECAUSE THEY SHARE HALF A BRAINCELL AND I LOVE THEM)

well stan is just tragic

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me: who the fuck is afraid of spiders why do they keep showing up

mom: its stan?

mom: he brought the hair things and all

me, about to cry: oh m y god

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so TL;DR: we really liked the first film! the acting, the plot, the creepiness is overall better and you get to relate to a bunch of Losers who get abused by their parents

the 2nd film doesnt exist. i refuse to acknowledge it exist EXCEPT for the ending where stan writes a letter about how he would like to meet hks friends again while BREATHING and richie and eddie carve their initials on a piece of wood and get to be gay.

if your name starts with B your opinion is invalid in the 2nd movie

also can anybody give me fanfics where the fortnite dancing clown doesnt exist and richie goes to therapy to heal from the bullying and once he gets over his homophobia he gays with eddie??? specific i know but im willing to write it if it doesnt exist

#ghost reviews movies #i guess?#it (movie)#it (2017)#it (2019)#spoilers #tw abuse mention #tw homophobia mention #tw suicide mention #this is a #rant #AND A #vent #BECAUSE OF RICHIE AND RICHIE ONLY #long post

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