#which tbh. isn't me at all.

[g0reoz]

.

#idk man like i've been in pretty rough shape lately but it's hard bc. as bad as it is #i don't want to die. i am not suicidal. like. we've been past that already the problem is that i DO fucking want to be alive yk #and to do that i have to burn all this fuckin energy being someone my parents don't hate and like #i wanna get out. i know it'll happen eventually. but it cannot fuckin come soon enough #i'm so tired of this!!i'm tired of sitting there crying in the bathroom i'm tired of lying in general like i am So Bad At Keeping Up A Fron #t and yet #here we are. here we are #and then i feel stupid for complaiing because not much is Actively Happening to me right now which like!!!! thats the point. it is not happ #ening because i'm slowly killing myself trying to not lwt it. i fuckin hate confrontation. don't wanna deal with it. #but. fuck. i really want to just tell em sometimes!!! i want to fucking explode and i know that my likelihood of being alive and well would #drastically decrease and my future would be fuckin OVER so i just have to make it a little longer. #i know i can do it. but will i. will i fuckin do it #how am i gonna not burn myself out yk!? like it does take massive amounts of energy #i don't even know. i want someone to tell me they love me and mean it. that shouldn't be too much to ask. #especially because this empty bullshit hurts just as much as someone saying they hate me. because they do!!! #that's the thing. they love me because i am not all the things they hate and threaten violence over. #which tbh. isn't me at all. #feels bad man idk #.woof.

[hrokkall]

DIVINE LIGHT SEVERED

#Ultrakill #Gabriel Ultrakill #Taking a break from artfight by (squints at writing on hand) drawing? #I know the Act 2 ending cutscene is PHENOMENAL but the Act 1 cutscene gets overlooked. #The description of the light getting ripped from Gabriel >>>>>>>>>> #Unrelated but I've been seeing a LOT of bird Gabriel hcs lately? Which isn't unwelcome just have No Idea why there's so many all at once #Robots are kind of birds to me too tbh but yeah I definitely see the Angel = Bird type mentality #Going to draw Gabriel and V1 doing the eagle death spiral next. Half joke. #Open to interpretation whether it's a territorial fighting death spiral or a courtship one. Given the context of the game either is likely. #Hrokkall Art #eyestrain

[generalsmemories]

every time i see someone shit on the xianzhou story quest on twitter i die a little bit inside.

#narus' corner #SO LET'S TALK ABOUT HOW EVERYONE HATED XIANZHOU BECAUSE EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHERS AND ANCESTORS HAD PULLED UP THEORY AFTER THEORY #AND WHEN SAID THEORY DID NOT FCKING GO ALONG WITH WHAT THE ACTUAL WRITERS HAD IN STORE HELL BROKE LOOSE #ion think u understand #maybe im biased. i probably am but the way hoyoverse tackled immortality with xianzhou is quite bittersweet honestly #YA'LL WANTED UR DOOMED YAOI AND YURI AND TBH ME TOO BUT THEY ARE STILL FCKING DOOMED EVEN IF SOME THEORIES DID NOT GO AS MOST SHIPPERS WANT #THEY STILL DOOMED MILADYS AND GENTS AND NONBINARY PEEPS DAN HENG IS SUFFERING FROM PTSD AS WE SPEAK. #u look at xianzhou and see predecessors suffering the consequences of what their ancestors wanted because of immortality and vow to stop it #because they been fighting people against GALAXIES who wants a taste of that immortality who also don't KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES OF IT WHICH I #LITERALLY GETTING MARA-STRUCK WHENEVER UR MEMORIES OVERLOAD FROM LIVING TOO LONG AND GO: damn this was shit writing cause i didn't understa #IMMA AAAH #eternal wars where when u find peace after winning you DON'T BECAUSE YOU TURN MARA-STRUCK FROM THE AMOUNT OF TRAUMA U HAVE #when immorality isn't immortality in a sense u can't be killed but long lifespan but then u can't even live said long lifespan #because u get mara-struck from participating in wars to protect AND YA'LL COME OVER HERE AND SAY BAD WRITING?! #and don't come with what the fuck is phantylia doing #ion think u understand how fucked we would've been if phantylia managed to actually absorb that ambrosial arbor AS A GODDAMN EMANATOR #OF DESTRUCTION OF ALL THINGS?! YA'LL WANT INFINITE HEALING WHILE GETTING BLASED OR SMTH!?! #and the aftermath which was probs the most hated on #imma just. #imma shut up LMFAO

[svtskneecaps]

here's how it goes:

everyone spends valentine's day in DEEP denial. tubbo isn't dead, he CAN'T be. when they die they come back, that's how it is, how it's ALWAYS been. the island is hell but at least fatalities don't stick, except in specific cases and all of them in the same white shells. of course philza jokes, he's thinking about tubbo, he can't stop. he's expecting tubbo to jump out at any moment, he's expecting to go to fobo and see tubbo hidden in the basement throwing darts at a picture of fit and pac looking at each other, he's expecting to go back to the dungeon and the body is gone (he hopes). tubbo's not dead. he can't die. none of them can, just the eggs.

(it never takes this long to come back; he knows something is wrong)

here's how it goes:

tubbo tells the kids "i'm on my last life." the eggs have always had lives. i don't think some of them have ever understood that the players have infinite chances, with their insistence on protecting their caretakers from deaths like their caretakers do for them, charging back into the eye worker war, refusing to back out of a dangerous dungeon before their parents do, wanting to protect. i don't know if they understand that to the players, death is like spit in the face: unpleasant, sure, but no big deal.

tubbo tells the kids "i'm on my last life" and of course they believe him. death is their constant companion, no more than two doors down. some eggs are used to it being a breath away.

here's how it goes:

tubbo is dead. the children mourn him. the players are scared. defiant. they always are. who among them has died? dan, missing; spreen, gone; maximus... well there was no body, no announcement, surely-

(how long did it take pierre to accept it? to realize it? to take down the missing person posters? not a day. not a day.)

juanaflippa died and there was a court case to save her. bobby died and the whole server journeyed to save him. when is the last time the players have taken death lying down?

here's how it goes:

tubbo dies, and he dies unloved (fit's arm is stretched out to save him). he dies without purpose (sunny is there, she's waiting, she knows he won't move). he dies and no one cares (chayanne refuses to leave, his godfather, he failed his-)

here's how it goes:

the valentine's party is so loud but too quiet. there's a name in the air, even when no one is saying it

"wow sure is good tubbo isn't here" phil says (he's said this before, he'll say it again, but isn't it strange how many times? perhaps even he doesn't believe it. perhaps he's trying to convince himself.)

here's how it goes:

a creature with too many faces comes. it tells them the truth they won't face. tubbo is gone.

quesadilla island says, "not for long"

#qsmp #shut up vic #block game brainrot #idk not fully satisfied w this but it's 1:30am where i live and i have work #just had some Thoughts. if you're curious this isn't intended to bash any character #i'm not putting character tags on it bc i don't feel like throwing it to those specific wolves idk how this is gonna go over #just it bothers me how people are acting. wanted to throw some cents in the ring #i feel like people are focusing hard onto their fav's lore and missing the other side so. #tbh was a half attempt at throwing what i got out of it which is hopefully close to both #or at the very least it's Equally Neither Option :) #anyway goodnight from me sweet dreams #if you hated this don't tell me lmao #((yes i tire of angst; woe hope be upon ye)) #((me: i'm tired grandpa; the qsmp angsting further: THAT'S TOO DAMN BAD!')) #((maybe i LIKE hope qsmp maybe i LIKE defiance)) #((catch me hoping all over the place smh))

[squishosaur]

why is twisted wonderland like "i am going to ruin your life maybe destroy your worldview a little bit <3 i am going to make you get attatched to these ridiculously named anime boy versions of disney characters and then watch them go through every trauma imaginable that keeps getting progressively worse and more complex as we keep going. i am going to fundamentally change you for better or worse and you will never be able to watch a disney movie again without thinking of me. i am going to make you watch as these awkward teens navigate through Evil Highschool and you have to find Your place in it, knowing fully well that, at the end, after all of that, you will leave all your friends and return to your own world alone again" but also "omg hey girl do you want to see your babygirl as a bunny or a plushie perhaps? say yes"

#or maybe you're normal about your interests #in which case please teach me because i am in shambles #chatter #actually though i've never really met someone who just casually enjoyed twst?? #even my irl friend who plays twst is More casual than Me but even so they are so crazy about new lilia and malleus and ortho and idia card #like we sat there and analyzed every detail on the masquerade outfits #and then i know people who are not actively playing the game but will go 'i was just thinking about leona and vil' or ' #'i miss idia i hope he is okay :3' #tbh who ISN'T more casual than me?? #like. obsession-wise. not gameplay-wise. bc i am not grinding All The Time #but i have like. 2 entire sketchbooks (probably the first that i have ever filled the entire way) that are JUST twst #kinda cringe but whateverrrrr #anyways i started an azjm comic at like 10 last night and i am not done yet but i'm WORKING ON IT #kept drawing lilia but i'm not posting because i Messed Up #twst spoilers

[solsticethebatearedfox]

when u really really desperately ship a ship bc projection juice (aka using said ship as a means to work through your own internalized shit about being aroace) vs your desire to respect characters canon identity and not erase what limited representation people have

#fabriz #idk just reading discourse in the tag #and i don't really wanna get involved #and tbh despite being very “i ship fabian/riz!1!1!!!” i also sincerely doubt it will be canon and i think that's a good thing? #i mean obviously i hope for it #but i think having a canonically aroace character who isn't interested in romance is more important #but also i have never seen canonically aroace characters interested in romance #which is a big chunk of the reason why it took me so long to realise that could be me - because i didn't realise it was an option #in conclusion #i think fighting over shipping isn't worth it #we should all be advocating for more queer content in general #especially aspec rep #idk feel free to reply with your thoughts just plz be nice!

[thebuttsmcgee]

Man. I just get so actually legitimately sad each time I remember that toh ended and that we live in the post-toh world. Like it really is over.

Ms Dana Terrace has said that she'd like to do more given the chance (and after some quality time off of bigger projects, just to chill), but as far as we know, it's the end.

Heck, we barely got anything after the final episode, no books, no special merch, no dedicated little chibi shorts, nothing really, aside from the, thankfully fun, get-togethers of the cast and crew!

Idk. Ah well actually nah, I do know, that this show just meant an enormous lot to me. Incredibly huge, the kind that you can't break away from and wouldn't want to anyway. The kind that feels like, man, where would I be without it.

Happy 1 Year, to the end of The Owl House. Thank you, The Owl House.

I hope the future is bright, for all of us.

#The Owl House #TOH #Owl House #and tbh. its also why I havent exactly been posting as much! #I just. really miss it man. #and thinking so hard of how great it all was. gets me choked up for real lol. #I do hope theres more for us in the future. I really cant say for certain. #Cause to be less sentimental and more analytical for a moment #TOH was d1sney's biggest original ip hit that wasnt a movie for both such a long time and in a good long time! #Yes yes the internet doesn't always entirely mean the reality of things (which is why financially bcg is their biggest hit technically) #but to actually think back upon it all #TOH always had news articles and video essays and huge followings on tons of communities #especially on youtube! which isn't that easy! Youtube will always be dominated by bigger named things so the fact that toh DID get trending #number 1 more than once? Was incredibly impressive. And not just that but the viewer demand and count were through the roof! Huge in general #television numbers. All to say that is is that toh was an enormous hit. both financially and to people. so. yeah. It's. kind of in the air? #I guess? that no one really knows what could happen. I mean hell amph1bia is still getting books. #Granted....lets not forget ofc that disknee really. really. reaaaally doesnt. like. toh. ×^| but who knows! #personally? still hoping for a save the light styled game someday. or just some game that I can play on my switch someday. #but yep! Enough of my rambling. Thank you for everything The Owl House. really. Truly.

[frostfairysteve]

which one do you like more: ftm steve or mtf steve? or the special third option oOoOo

The secret third option is that I love femme Steve the most, be it ftm!Steve realising it doesn't make him less of a man to enjoy femininity, nb!Steve finding themselves, or mtf!Steve realising that she doesn't have to be "Steve Harrington" if she doesn't want to, and she doesn't.

I do think that there isn't enough amab representation in any fandom spaces, so while I as a ftm person do love seeing ftm!Steve, it's not my preferred way to go for my own ideas.

#uploxy #my answered letters #steve harrington #i'm trying to remember my own aus but i think steve's eddies is my only ftm!steve one and that's because it wouldn't work otherwise #tbh unless i specify otherwise all my steves should be read as genderqueer #thank you for the question btw! #i feel so awkward using amab/afab/mtf/ftm because that's not how i would want to be talked about. #it's putting too much weight on how my body looks/what it looked like before. which isn't who i am. a person is more than their flesh #with that said i do get how those terms help people. they were helpful to me when i was new to being trans and knew nothing #and they make it easier if you're looking for something specific on a site with a tag system

[oh-meow-swirls]

i have so many left. blasters t why are you like this istg.

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #yw3 #sighhhhhhhh #i've only finished the cluvian keyhole. and i've started on all the cluphinix ones #i'll have to go back to the suspicious room soon i think #i still don't understand how the t level works which is super annoying because the level scaling is so weird??? #why does the cluphinx spade mouth end at level 80 the other two only go up to level 60....... #apparently they were version-exclusives in the japanese version??? like fuck sukiyaki players i guess jeez- #... does that mean i only have to do one?????? how does blasters t work i'm so confused #oh i don't even have to do any of the cluphinx ones. fun i'm just wasting my time. i love blasters t so much #sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh #blasters t is fun tbh but it is also so annoying at the same time i just want to be done already #THIS ISN'T EVEN GONNA GET ME ALL THE QUESTS I'M MISSING I'M PRETTY SURE SOME #ARE LOCKED BEHIND THE TOWER OF ZENLIGHTENMENT TOO #i'm just mad i finished all the hailey quests honestly :////// didn't even get anything in return #whapir's just eternally telling me i don't have any detective requests. i never will again-

[dirhwangdaseul-archived]

idk if i have stated in so many words before but kinda weird for people not to care about the brown men of the story on account of them being men

like most people did to javi irl what the yellowjackets did in the show lol, dismissed always, no more than the little kid, he was already dead

#and like i know you're not only being weird about their race but also that they get inbetween your girlhood fantasies #as if the story isn't based around the lord of the flies which is exclusively a look into white british boys behavior #so i ask of you what does that mean for who the yellowjackets represent like are they truly girlhood #or considering me and the other fans of color conferred and realised this shit wasn't even written with black or brown women #in mind or their ethnicity for input in the writing like idk adding kessell to the writing ffs anyway #so it's clear this was written with white womanhood in mind like #don't y'all think it reflects a particular female rage more trapped in time and space than entirely universality #which is ok if racist tbh but it still allows a look into a particular face of womanhood and not all encompassing #and again travis and javi were right there the tragedy is of childhood not girlhood there he didn't even get to be a person just the #annoying little kid in most of their eyes it's kind of sad #and telling y'all could dismiss javi and travis so easily before lile they're not brown men #fuck im angry #yellowjackets

[babacontainsmultitudes]

[just venting a bit into the void you understand you understand 😌] Lately I've been feeling very caught between "I have a lot of thoughts on Sparrow and Normal and all that with the ending and teen talk and feel like I need to get them out and voice them for my own piece of mind and resolution" and "I am lacking the strength and energy to actually sit down and write it all out and kind of really just want to fully move on to other things (AUs, fics, anything else)" but my brain can't seem to commit to either and that's quite frustrating cause it's just left me very restless. *Sigh*. Idk! Just needed to complain about that a bit ig, it's silly but this is what has been ailing me as of late.

#Then there's also a part of me that's like “does anyone even care at this point? haven't I already talked about them too much?” #but I have seen many a take that irk me... #and perhaps at the center of it all nagging at me is that persistent conflation of love and pride #Less about that in Normal's mind so much as in Will's and the fandom's 🤔 #Also that reoccurring issue of the fandom going ''Normal thinks this therefore it is The Truth'' though I believe I've discussed this befor #And... Hooks Will could have grabbed onto but didn't... Quite a few of those... #And the double standard/negativity bias in fandom of ignoring that Sparrow says both that he loves and likes Normal while doodlerized #But not treating those with the same legitimacy we do the pride thing. And ignoring Sparrow's demonstrations of love and change... #And what the love wolf scene actually implies about Sparrow (as I see it) with his own explanation of the pride thing in mind #But also!!! Also on Norm's epilogue and how despite everything taken at face value (i.e. no teen talk influence) I don't actually hate it #and I think it's plenty salvageable #And gah also that like *regardless* of how things turn out with Normal and his dad- #Well I haven't listened to much of the teen talk just the directly Sparrow-relevant clips #so I don't know quite how cynical Will is or isn't about Normal's future #But like. UGH. What I'm trying to say is even if things didn't find resolution vis-a-vis his dad #(which tbh I could go either way on- it's the meta misinterpretations of Sparrow that Bother me not so much Normal's) #(Well that's complicated. Again it comes back to the love vs. pride thing gosh this is so vague of me lol) #With all the positive influences in his life (and just the fact that life is long? and therapy is a thing?) I just don't see Normal- #being Miserable for the rest of his life. Like. I mean I won't elaborate here really but damn it no he can absolutely turn out alright stil #blugh #BUT YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN THAT'S A LOT OF STUFF AND THAT'S ONLY VAGUE RAMBLINGS ABOUT *SOME* OF IT #Like I'm proud of a lot of my essay posts (which I'm hoping to eventually compile in a masterpost eventually actually) but they take a whil #And if my heart wants to do other things... Ah idk... #ANYWAYS a vent to vent a vent to vent

[bylertruther-moved]

will says that el has a book of letters from him because he’s just pointing out that they kept in contact regularly whereas he and mike didn’t but somehow mike interprets that as if will was implying there should be something romantic between them too and it stumps will bc that’s not what he meant at all and he doesn’t realize yet why mike is actually so mad or who he’s mad at, and while we clown mike for being oblivious i think will is oblivious too bc this isn’t the first time mike’s done that and yet. will doesn’t question it. he never does and they never talk about it. he just continues with what he’s saying about how they used to be best friends. they never talk about the fact that when will fights to salvage their friendship mike talks about it as if it was more than what it was and as if continuing as they were would get between his relationship with eleven. which implies that he himself feels that their relationship is inappropriate if he wants to date eleven concurrently and explains why it’s the only friendship within the party that seriously falls apart and why will is the only party member that he completely changes his behavior n actions towards and why he’s the only party member that he no longer touches once he dates eleven. which again also explains why after they start dating it’s only when eleven isn’t around that he allows a softer, more open and present mike to reappear around will. it’s just like. why would he do any of that if he’s not projecting? will is literally the one with a canonically confirmed interest in him and yet he’s mad at the roller rink because will is ignoring him [or so he thought at that point]. he’s not mad that eleven lied. he’s not mad at what those bullies did to her. he’s mad that will didn’t talk to him. he’s so mad and hurt by will that he doesn’t even console his girlfriend who was encircled, taunted, and had a milkshake thrown on her all on tape. he stays by will’s side despite everything, even when she’s fidgeting and crying to the side of them. to top it off he even makes a passive aggressive bitchy little comment at dinner afterward because he’s still. mad. at. will. will is the one that ruined his day. not those bullies being cruel to el, but will. it clouds his vision so much that he can’t even pretend or begin to attempt to entertain the idea of being there for her when she so clearly needs him. how does anyone fucking watch any of that and not get what’s going on. HOW????

#byler #YOUR GIRL JUST GOT BULLIED SEVERELY AND YET YOU'RE MAD AT THE BOY WHO USED TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND? #WILL IS SAYING THAT YOU NEVER TALKED TO HIM AND SOMEHOW YOU THINK HE'S SAYING YOU NEED TO TREAT HIM LIKE #YOU TREAT ELEVEN? SOMEHOW YOU THINK HE'S TALKING ABOUT WANTING MORE THAN JUST FRIENDSHIP? #WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN THINKING IT YOURSELF... WHEN WILL HAS NEVER ONCE MADE A MOVE ON HIM #OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT......... #MAKE IT MAKE HETEROSEXUAL SENSE IT JUST DOESN'T IT DOESN'T IT DOESN'T IT DOESN'T 🤯🤯 #will NEVER implies anything romantic between them he NEVER does and yet MIKE the one with a girlfriend is the one that ALWAYS #ALWAYS ALWAYS MAKES THAT THE TOPIC OF THEIR CONVERSATION! he's the one that brings it up! he's the one that rejects will #when will isn't even making any kind of offer!!!!!!!!! #why would he do that if that isn't something that he feels! that he thinks about! that he's projecting onto will! #this is such a clusterfuck this is liek . this shit is more complicated than the fucking vecna plot at this point tbh #none of them know where the other is they're literally all in different fucking worlds my GODDDDDDDD #will is oblivious. and if he let himself realize what mike is doing and actually face it he would put mike on the spot about it. #mike's friendship is more than enough for will. it's enough to just have mike in his life. meanwhile mike is the one that refuses to see it. #he refuses to let himself even consider it which is why he puts that onto will and refuses to face the world around him. #he doesn't want things to change. we knew that in season three and we ESPECIALLY know that now. jesus christ.. #so much is happening in this show. #it's just insane to me tht mike has such a big heart and he cares abt the people he loves nd would protect them with his everything #and when el gets bullied like that.... he just... he's focused on will. because of-fucking-course he is. he's angry at will because #he doesn't want things to change but will's existence in his life will himself is enough to bring forth change in mike that he's scared #to accept. for whatever reason. because why is he constantly doing that? making things romantic? it's not will. it's HIM. #why can't you be his friend and continue to date eleven when you can do the same with everyone else? why is it JUST will? #why do you think that he's propositioning you whenever he talks to you about your friendship? #i'm telling you: it makes no heterosexual sense. #my thoughts #my posts

[sarah-yyy]

at that time of the year where i have No Motivation to work

#i MIGHT get a raise next month after my performance review like i'm holding my breath since i got a significant one in april #but would be REALLY nice and would really raise morale #would make me not think about quitting law to work at bunnings every day #also would make me less 😒 about the partner just fucking around and making me do all his work #like yesterday!!! he just took the day off without even giving me a heads up like ???? #man i mean he did tell bossman it was because his child was ill and i do appreciate that it may be stressful for you to juggle- #-work and also an infant child but......????????? #literally your wife isn't even working atm and she could've probably dealt with it?????? and i was SWAMPED yesterday #and again? no notice??????? like was bossman the one who had to do all your appointments or was i the one who had to pick up on your slack #i'm not even convinced his child was sick yesterday tbh low key think he's got a side hustle he's working on #which is fine you do you #but man we are understaffed i am working at bloody capacity I GO INTO WORK AN HOUR EARLY JUST SO I CAN CATCH UP #and you really out here playing these games with me???????? #why tf should i 拼死拼活 just to make money so you can profit off just fucking around #ANYWAY yeah y'all can see i'm reaching my max tolerance on this :/ #work stories

[bladesofkyber]

God of War: Ragnarök

deyr fé, deyja frændr    |   cattle die, kindred die deyr sjálfr it sama     |   every man is mortal ek veit einn at aldri deyr  |   but I know one thing that never dies dómr vm dauðan hvern   |   the glory of the great dead Hávamál 77

#i am alone in this #but def one of the top side characters in the game #i cried during this scene #which tbh isn't a unique experience for me #i cried through a lot of this game #and 2018 #Hávamál 77 #follow the dog #birgir god of war #God of War: Ragnarök #i know i know all my gif posts are long af #i just have a lot to share #i promise next time i wont put everything in 540x300 #videogameedit #dailygaming #gamingedit #mine: gifs

[whileyoureinschoolidothisallday]

Me: -excited to join the mentorship discord-

Me: -everyone in the YA tag IMMEDIATELY devolves into YA shouldn't be having so much sex in it-

Them: The last book I read had an 18YR OLD protag and their hobby was READING smutty books (I want to emphasize that the issue wasn't that they were watching porn, or even having sex, it was them READING porn. at 18) NOBODY does that at that age! I mean I read fanfiction but not amazon kindle stuff that doesn't count

Me: ....-closes discord-

#risa is an author now #If I lose to these people I swear to god LMFAOCXSFGHKKL #I'M SORRY THAT'S REALLY MEAN BUT IMMMMMMMCFGHJKKURG #You'd all have to forgive me and give me the space to be Dabi levels of jealous for a bit lmfao like what do you MEAN #btw they're trying to walk it back now cause me and a couple people were like 'don't know about that chief' #they didn't mean it like that they meant it's weird YA HAS to have romance in it. Which is a thing!!!!! #but that's 100% different words than what you were saying babe #OMG JK THEY HIT ME WITH THESE 'okay but isn't it weird when authors sexualize their teen characters like some of them go a little TOO far' #yup yup yup I'm going into the tub #goodbye #this person iS 21!!!!!!!!!!!! #they said 'I would prefer steamy scenes with 30yr olds tbh' and I was a bitch and said 'they make those thankfully!!!!!!!' #=) #I am BEGGING YA authors to be normal for 2 seconds please. PLEASE.

[reginrokkr]

𝐂𝐋𝐗𝐈𝐈𝐈. Today I woke up earlier than usual and chose violence upon seeing yet another couple of details missed in translation that make me salty, specially because they're related with Travail and, once again, with the subtlety play Dain is known for in many miscellanies.

So apparently, the first detail that I read up is that the use of thrones or divine thrones of Celestia doesn't necessarily allude to a throne of power, given that gods in Teyvat are pretty much rulers. But instead, it's more so related with the concept of "throne of destiny" given that the Chinese term used for both thrones and constellations are one and the same. This could give some room for speculation and wonder if, when there is mention in Before Sun and Moon that the second throne came and warred against the Primordial One and 3/4 shades, a new vision of the future was also brought. Which, for better or for worse, could fall in place with Phanes' concerns about the rise of delusions and more that comes with Forbidden Knowledge. But knowing what's happening and the premise that at least to some extent he's responsible for the mess we're witnessing by the hands of the gods: even though the Second Who Came brought Forbidden Knowledge, in terms of raw knowledge is it actually negative or positive? And my reasoning to wonder this is that the Abyss is known for delivering knowledge and it's also known that the Abyss acts like some kind of gateway to influences outside Teyvat, and the potential that some of these tried to enter or are even aware of what's happening but their way to Teyvat is blocked. It would make further sense if we think that its skies are fake as yet another layer of "protection" from the outside.

And now what concerns Dain, he's always tied with destiny in some shape or form. Starting from the fact that he was searching his own destiny when he lost everything with Khaenri'ah's destruction, to his title as the confluence between the past and the future (future isn't exactly a 1:1 of destiny, but they are related), the fact that he has something to do with reweaving all threads of destiny and rejecting this world, which to my interpretation what he's rebelling against is the fate / Heavenly Principles as he keeps saying time and time again that he's an advocate that everyone is masters of their own destiny, as in saying that it's not being the case as things currently stand. To wrap this point up, it's curious that the Heavenly Principles (sometimes interchangeable with destiny / fate) started with Phanes and that, if the Second Who Came is meant to represent a new destiny, the Heavenly Principles continue to predominate.

◜That (divine) throne (of destiny) in the high heavens was never a seat reserved for you from the start.◞

Reading this brings something new in question: what isn't reserved for someone is that they can't achieve godhood despite that's what it's said to be the case (perhaps godhood but with a shit ton of small letters that no one reads) or that it is their destiny that they aren't allowed to choose? We have a "Loom of Fate" operation undergoing, and a new interpretation of Lumine's quote of "I won't rest until the Abyss has engulfed the thrones" is added if we re-shape the quote as "I won't rest until the Abyss has engulfed the constellations".

◜But oh, you who oversteps your bounds, do not stop walking here. For none can watch the fire burn from the other side of the river. Watch...◞

This here is what makes me salty the most, and it's because apparently the Chinese wording of "overstep" can also mean "to usurp". While for now I don't have anything major to say about this, it's the subtlety play that I talked about earlier that makes me raise an eyebrow because in the past (recent and distant) Dain proved to have a way with his words that at first glance and given the timing, it's hard to pay attention to as something relevant but once more information comes that is related to that, it makes you realize that his word choices aren't coincidental and this is one more detail that sheds some light with that. If anything because any knowledge about usurpers seems to be among the highest most classified knowledge of this world (there is an interesting ranking of that, but the lore is too extensive to make one of those) and as always, even though he doesn't state it openly, he once again says something that only those who know about it would understand.

#◟༺✦༻◞ events to be remembered in blue veins ┊addendum.┊ #this makes me even more excited about him tbh #because for one I wonder again: how much do you know mister #but on the other I wonder if all of this is also from Irminsul #which would imply that Irminsul was a thing since the draconic era #and in case it isn't; granted that Celestia seems to have some power over it #as when N.ahida says that the prophecy of Fontaine was already carved in Irminsul a very long time ago #just how much of a big energy this man has #to be out in the wild like that shouldering the weight of lore jdfhg #this man deserves more recognition istg #but I guess that since with him it's all subtleties so far #hard to grasp #it makes sense