#which yknow most of them don't

[skitskatdacat63]

I have a problem.

Further evidence:

#me: I avoid drawing racesuits bcs they're too complicated and I don't really know how to draw them. #Also me: constantly draws one of the most overcomplicated designs ever #and i also am constantly in the depths of researching 18th century clothing #atp maybe i just have zero interest in race suits #(tbf it's honestly less the level of detail. but more all the sponsor names and lack of freedom in drawing them) #(yknow one solid design that you cant really deviate from. i dont have a lot of interest in drawing that type of thing) #(but i will do it for chibis! much more simple) #also there was chibis ive drawn as well but they dont fit #ive mostly draw peak era vettonso cause duh #but ig id really like to draw matador versions of all their eras i think that would be a lot of fun #its fun to put these in a gif together #see how ive evolved at both drawing matadors but also painting #but god i still think i really like that renault one the best...... #its just tough to beat. and its crazy cause i went into that w just. zero experience #and ive leveled up since then but it has this energy i enjoy so much and i just rly love how i drew his face ah... #but do tell me if you so wish which one you like best?? #catie.rambling.txt #matador au #catie.art.

[icicleteeth]

Oddly enough I feel more comfy anxietyposting here instead of twitter so uh. I preface this with Yes I’m A Grown Adult but I am irrationally anxious about This :’)

#i'm 26 coming on 27 and not had my wisdom teeth pulled and every year that passes by the thought of it freaks me out #main reason is because they never gave me issues or pain and anytime i saw a dentist they said it's likely i don't need them pulled #but as i get older it's like. is this the year they're going to start giving me problems?? should i have just bit the bullet and got them #out when i was younger despite them not giving me issues?? which in itself is terrifying because #everyone i know who's got the procedure talks about how awful it is and how much pain you're in for weeks afterwards and it's like hhhhhh #i'd rather not go through that much pain if i don't have to yknow? but also *do* i know if i don't have to? what if by the time i find out i #need to get them out it's too late? i've heard the procedure is more risky if you do it at an older age (though dont know how true this is) #like i think about this an irrational amount despite my wisdom teeth not affecting my life at all :') #but yeah...sorry for bein anxious outta the blue here; i don't post here much but it's still in a lot of ways where im most comfy Rambling

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

hngnwntnentnrneenfnenfengndngrnengnf

#HNNNNNN #survived a full youth group overnighter none the worse for wear!! #despite some hits to my pride (wiffle ball. also I lost at foosball several times alas) I think mayhaps I am even better for it #had a full functional one on one conversation with the sound guy which was. wild #but I was just wondering how long he'd been doing production stuff so I asked and we talked about it for?? several minutes??? #also girl it's so weird bc I really really do not want children but how is it that watching him be SO good with kids #is one of the most goshdang attractive things I've ever seen #like it's almost cognitive dissonance bc I can't stand the thought of having kids but I also love doing youth group #and also that is. very attractive to me that the sound guy is so good with kids. #I spent like half the time watching people play ping pong. I played ping pong a little bit too as previously mentioned #also ough I love being with the kids... being a youth leader is so so fulfilling #like I never thought it was a ''calling'' until this year but it fills me up so much #and I think the kids like me #at least one girl in particular likes me skdkfnskgnskgns #even though I'm a doof and don't know how to play baseball #I just hope that my motivations are for THEM and not for ME yknow?? #Lu rambles

[theokusgallery]

#if you had any hope nick could ever be redeemable here's your sign that that's just not gonna happen

Bold of you to assume we don't want to make him worse

LMAO that's the spirit

#ask #anon #arsenic #me too anon. me too #my unethical boy... #he hasn't killed anyone or anything in the storyline i have planned out which is a fucking miracle #...in all fairness it's just because i want him to have as much plausable deniability as possible #and yknow. murder makes him undeniably a. murderer #anything he does to sunny is something sunny technically agreed to. i want to keep that a theme #i don't know how to say this in a way that isn't horrible but- #i want people to be able to victim blame sunny in a way that sounds so reasonable they don't realize it's victim blaming. #toying with the idea that sunny is not /at all/ a perfect victim. i like it when you can question the morality of his actions #(instead of having it clear-cut that Nick Is Bad And Sunny Is The Poor Unwilling Victim™) #the perfect victim doesn't exist and i'm kind of tired of seeing that type of abusive relationship be so... black-and-white #most of what i've seen is so over the top and neatly separated into good and bad boxes it doesn't feel real. #in the real world no one's perfect. sunny sure as hell isn't. but while that would make him toxic to anyone who isn't Nick- #-it doesn't mean he's not a victim #(also we all know what happens to domestic abuse victims when they have a cluster b pd. the fuckin. victime-blaming festivals i've seen) #tw victim blaming #i talk so much in tags i have to add trigger warnings about them. i should really stop rambling #rant

[the-punforgiven]

Yknow I never got why so many articles I see on like, eccentric or insanely weird, outlandish, impractical, and/or ornate armour always gotta compare it to Dark Souls

Like yeah, Dark Souls has like, the Catarina Armor and Havel's set, I guess the Armor of Thorns though it's wackiness it toned down somewhat, but I dunno, tbh I always found Dark Souls's Armor designs seemed like, remarkably sensible compared to most other fantasy media I've consumed

#I don't remember what this was about #I just remember liking soulsborne games distinctly because their armor designs were good #modest and practical #barring a couple exceptions of course #like Havel's set was special to me distinctly BECAUSE it looked like crazy Mobile Game Fantasy armor #and that was the exception to the rule #like Souls armor buy and large would have like #nice etchings or filligree on most fancy armors #as opposed to most fantasy media I'd see which was like #Stark white plate lined with intricate golden patterns shaped like angel wings extending a full foot off the shoulders #the breastplate is a weird little pyramid that covers the chest area #their faulds having an entire human man sculpted from gold built onto them #and every other armor piece being covered in golden spikes and shit #while also looking like every plate on it is like three inches thick of solid metal #their helmet has like three visors all overlapping each other for no reason #and wings and horns bolted to the sides #yknow that sorta shit #Pun's text Posts

[magnusmodig]

rough childhood headcanon qs / @clxscdeyes / no longer accepting !

╰┈➤ 7 . how old was your muse when they realized they had childhood trauma?

||. one whole "today years old" post!ragnarok and hela's reveal. Except, even then, according to the movie, not really because Thor is still in heavy denial about all of it where Odin is concerned. I've spoken a bit (here) about how Thor adores his family; he idolizes them and views them through blinding rose-colored glasses, (especially when they're deceased) and that is especially true of his circumstances.

So, very often times when the truth clashes with the rose-colored view of them (namely: his father), Thor does one of two things: find a way to justify the words or action with the surrounding context of the time to make it make sense (e.g., well he scolded me harshly because i was talking back), or avoid it altogether. (this is his go-to. no talking about it; thor would rather not right now, so he does not.)

Key example being: he would rather focus on how his father changed his ways, and the Odin that he knew and grew up with was a man who had turned away from pursuing war for war's sake, and was instead one who valued peace and life. He would rather focus on that aspect of Odin, and take in the broader picture of Odin's life. REGARDLESS of the fact that what Thor is deeply, personally affected - not with the realization that Odin changed his ways once upon a time - but by the fact that he lied to him, manipulated him, and controlled and shaped every aspect of his being, for Thor's whole life, JUST to avoid another Hela. Someone who Thor is not, could not be farther from, and never knew about, because Odin (apparently) kept the matter of his true first-born a closely-guarded secret and seemingly would have continued to were it not for Odin's death, Hela's escape, and Ragnarok all coinciding at the same moment in time. And this, all because Thor rationalizes it as "well, I wouldn't want to be remembered and judged based on the person that I used to be. I should extend that same kindness to my father, because he too, changed." (x10 because now Odin is dead. And it's in poor-taste to speak ill of a dead man.)

The problem namely being: Thor only talks about things when Thor decides it's time to talk about things ; when he is ready. ...but as this is a topic that ripple effects down to Thor's core, good luck getting him to open up about it, even just with himself.

#(yknow what sucks most about this is that 2011-2015 thor was on a trajectory where) #(while he still wouldn't talk about a lot of things he wasn't as firmly rooted in /absolute denial/ like he is now >>) #(he would lock up and not talk about his personal feelings but he was still /thinking/ about them) #(- and could grow ready to share his thoughts once he processed through all of it.) #(or at least he would broach the broad concepts while still lightly brushing over 'k but how did it make THOR feel') #(dude would rather choke than talk about his own feelings no support system for thor he's so dumb) #(which is also just so funny because he never /denied/ the fact that he's feeling under the weather either) #(he just... won't elaborate on why he is or how to feel better.) #(but anyways) #(to rationalize the trajectory shift away from 'thor being able to talk about deeply upsetting topics for him even if it's uncomfortable') #(i've decided that so much has happened in such a short amount of time and there's /so/ many things eating at him-) #(-that he's subconsciously decided he's not going to talk much about any of them. because there's just too much.) #(the vibe of 'if i talk about this now i'm going to fall and if i fall i don't know if i can get up again because it's finally too heavy) #(-and i can't afford to fall down bc there's too much at stake outside of me so i just will not take the chance') #(he can if he's ever with someone he truly trusts and he can speak about it NORMALLY if that person pushes him enough) #(because you've always had to needle thor to /actually answer your question/ rather than talk half-way around it) #(//stares at thor 2011 where he never opens up to jane even once not even at the fire-side chat) #(but until then it's big denial mode bc ragnarok messed him up something fierce and i'm not even talking about-) #(-the order of in-universe events that happen in the movie orz) #( ooc . ) — stories that leap from the page . #( answered . ) — black feathers fall to a raven's call . #clxscdeyes #( headcanon . ) — glory to the man who toils for his land . may it ever prosper .

[wandaxpietro]

relapsed thinking about eriklorna again. fucked up fucked up fucked up

#daddaughter about a questionable father and a very angry daughter who are also mirror images of each other is so real to me #his favorite daughter... his youngest daughter... #the thing with the two of them to me(tm) is that wanda&pietro are such a unit(tm) that erik and lorna will always be left behind #lorna and pietro are very close but she'll never escape the wanda&pietro(tm) yknow #once wanda is there it's her her and only her #similarly erik has fucked up w the twins obvi but even if he didn't it'd still be wanda&pietro and then everyone else #it's fascinating. #i think she's his favorite bcuz of that but also bcuz she has his powers which means she understands(tm) #aka they both have that vague canonical magnetic mutation disorder that's just bipolar #and she's also the one he respects the most out of his children historically (even when he uses her like he does everyone) #<- which is hilarious bcuz then leah williams came along and ummmm. yeah #the thing about the leah williams eriklorna dynamic is that canonically it's bad and completely inaccurate to their histories together #BUT it's also really hot to me personally. which is a dilemma #dad who tries to mold his daughter into the perfect little woman... the pressure of their 'legacy' and his being overbearing just leading #to her rebelling... it's great idk. #but also not great bcuz this woman doesn't read comics. so i'm permamently stuck flipflopping #which eriklorna dynamic i like the most lol #like... do i listen to my head or do i listen to my pussy... so complicated smh #txt #don't even get me started on ultimate eriklorna i will never shut up about it

[camerica]

#i just want to appreciate for a moment #that the winter soldier put steve in the HOSPITAL #that's hard to do #but he did it #and also #he's THE most terrifying villain they've faced to date imo #because everyone did everything RIGHT #and still- #well #thanos was pretty scary #but the threat never felt REAL yknow #like you knew the stones still existed (until they didn't) and #they could prolly just undo everything by getting them back (which they did) #but everything with tws #felt inevitable #terrifying #the threat was certainly more believable and palpable #this kinda stuff goes on every day and we don't know about it #but phew anyways #all this to say #that tws stepping to the side to avoid a burning vehicle #is the hottest shit i've ever seen in my LIFE

[t3tr0m1n0]

i can't pretend i'm immune to coming away from a story with One Dude who's very particularly special to me but at the very least there's like 85% odds that he ends up transfemme in my brain

#and that's assuming i didn't choose the ''guy'' with nonbinary coding & take that to its logical conclusion instead #but the other examples are. i mean. sho minazuki & **** ***** & uh davey newsies #there's others too i think but i probably can't remember them. shrug #plenty of stories where i care lots about the women too or. don't really care about anyone Extremely so #the cast of fe14 is really unengaging. my most liked were (roughly) shura & rinkah. i thought they were neat when i was younger #and fe13 my only favorite is robin who's not got a set canon gender. yknow #in commoddities i mean violet's the tgirl right there but i do think drew's a he/him lesbian + rudy's got something going on #which isn't even getting into jean's she/they swag. guess this comic doesn't really count when lots of them already are queer #puyo puyo's got a good ensemble cast but other than eccolo no one's hooked me. i mean i like arle but not in a lot of ways she #is portrayed as & sig has the autism swag so i can't Not like him. i could see him transing her gender #the exception to all of the above is axel because while i like him a lot i don't like him So much that i'd trans his gender #c u thru the q #also sprach #i exclude from the contents of this post any of my ocs because that'd just be cheating. of course i like rosa & ashley & duncan &

[kkujo]

no more "i don't see your flaws". i do see your flaws and i'm telling you it doesn't matter and i love you anyway

#something i've noticed on a lot of those cutesy posts is being like 'my partner is so perfect they could never do anything wrong' #and like. i get it ik what's meant by that and it's okay to be like my partner is perfect #but i feel like some of them genuinely believe that their partner can do no wrong which is an unfair standard to hold them to #and an unrealistic expectation #ur partner is human. they're gonna make mistakes there will be times when they get things wrong. there will be times when u get things wron #that's just life yk like can we stop doing the whole 'my partner is a flawless being who can never make mistakes' thing #also something much more loving is 'you acknowledge your flaws and i'm proud of you for trying to improve' #rather than lalala not listening noooo you don't have flaws!!!! YKNOW???? like it feels almost invalidating to view someone as flawless #that said. i will continue to call my gf the most perfect flawless sweetest little thing forever and always #rbs off bc ed mfs keep rbing and i'm in recovery lol y'all need to stay in your lane and stop rbing content from random fucking blogs #please give a shit about triggering people and rb from other ed blogs bc you're exposing recovered bitches to your gross shit ✌

[rubys-domain]

i might be terrible for feeling like this. but the sheer amount of schadenfreude i have after finding out that freminet is likely going to be a shit unit is through the roof lmao

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #> from watching the zajef prerelease video on him #so i main chongyun right? that means (despite me trying to minmax even though i know my f2p damage will never measure up to spenders) #i generally don't care if the numbers are bad if a unit feels fun to play #hell even if the character is op i would be 90% less likely to use them if i didn't have fun using them (looking at you kuki) #but his kit looks like i'm not gonna enjoy it too #which leaves me with zero motivation to pull on the childe/zhongli banner now #now to watch zajef's lyney video and see if i get tempted to pull for him or if my primos will be safely stashed away for future banners #yknow. i kinda wish i mained a meta dps. or was inclined to main any of the meta dps's #quite frankly all the meta dps's gameplay bore me to death #i'm not saying this because i'm starting to dislike chongyun #i fully intend to be the most obsessive whale solely to optimize this exorcist boy far beyond the boundaries of reason #(that day is not coming anytime soon but you get the picture right? i'm still very much a ride or die for this lil guy) #i'm just tired of people calling him a shit unit. even on r/popsiclemains ppl call him suboptimal or subpar #i know all of those things are true #but it's not surprising that hearing it basically every single time he's mentioned is going to take its toll eventually either，is it? #this is why i just don't bother trying to be part of any community. with any kind of media，i'm someone whom ppl would say has “bad taste” #i just wish chongyun had a niche but still decent playstyle that he's unarguably the best at #being the best shatter dps is not it since shatter's numbers are basically terrible no matter what you do #if they somehow buff shatter in fontaine (since freminet's kit wants to shatter) then maybe i'll make it my main playstyle. but yeah... #the only times i bring out my shatter team are when fighting against pyro/electro enemies，or farming mushrooms #i guess it'd be nice to have zhongli since layla does disrupt reactions that i want chong to be the one proccing #but i just don't feel like breaking my back for yet another 5 star after how long it took to get kokomi #and he's basically guaranteed a rerun in natlan anyway so yeah... #i'm gonna be honest. now that i have kokomi，my motivation to pull for anyone else is almost nonexistent #maybe nilou so i can use kokomi as a driver. but other than her... unless natlan characters are really fucking cool #besides albedo and venti，i don't think i'll ever pull for a new 5 star ever again #after those three i'd only be pulling for vertical investment #or begrudgingly pulling for utility like zhongli

[taconafide2]

pale princess and the six pygmies continues to haunt my mind as an incredibly lore relevant book that we can't really decode right now, the number 6 hasn't been signigicant anywhere in the game as far as i am aware but i do have an idea who the pygmies might be.... a very vague one based only on the assumption that the pale princess herself is istaroth

#which. i think is the most likely option so far #unless we get another figure introduced who would fit?? #so. i think the traitorous pygmy is venti. because yknow. he's the prodigial son. #not sure who the other 5 are but i think us getting either venti or columbina lore would help expand upon on the idea..... #or dispute it that's fine too as long as i learn wth is that book about #ok ok this is just. the bare bones of this '''theory''' i don't want to explain further now dhsbf #i'm kind of staying away from the idea the book is about khaenri'ah right now #though the moonlight kingdom easily fits them #but there's a line at the end of the books that talks about a prophesized catastrophe (separate from the events of the book) #so that's either about khaenri'ah or a future event..haha... #yeah the more i read it the more it sounds like it's referring to the traveler destroying 'the abyss' but i need someone else's #interpretation;_;

[eviltext]

2023 is the year of realizing things. as is any year, really

#p #um. hello low empathy community #it's been bothering me for a while that im not very good at like. picking the right course of action when someone is upset? #and it doesnt bother me very much either which i only recently realized might be concerning. #like when someone cries in my vicinity i dont feel sad i just feel a sense of duty to alleviate their sadness? or to calm them down #oh oh and like brain-wise if we're talking face to face especially with a group of ppl i can consciously gauge everyones mood #but only if im paying close attention. like it takes a huge effort. #and i can logically understand why someone would feel upset but i don't feel it in me personally yknow? #ooh god damn. it;s so much harder by text especially if the other person is playing some kind of mind game man it's so hard.. #ugh this is all so hard. why #im very good at mirroring though lol that saves me most of the time

[skrunksthatwunk]

im finally going to replay y0...

#it's been a little over 2 years #and ive never replayed any of the games before so im very interested in what this is gonna be like #i just played them slowly and in order + lad ishin at the end #i kinda wanted to do the judgments first but uh. they're never on sale <3 #someday though #ugh im nervous though #not about this but like. ok real ones will remember that a couple of months ago i mentioned i finally asked my mom for like. mental health #assistance that wasnt her telling me to stop spiralling. the two appointments we could do were like. next week or october #i technically have enough time to get my shit together but ive also like. never talked to an actual doctor about this stuff before #and she kept asking me if i could be more specific than 'general longterm mental health issues' (and anxiety which she added) #but like. i dont wanna tell her Shit about that yknow #especially not like. just woken up at 2pm no preparation #also she added anxiety on her own. so you KNEW it was an issue and you didn't fucking do anything about it? at all?? #truthfully i don't think it's nearly as big of an issue as before. i get stressed about stuff sure but it's pretty circumstantial #like these days i dont have anxiety about much of anything because im not trying to decide my entire future between 8 hour days in the #bright lights and eye contact factory #girl you don't have any idea what we're getting into by doing this #anyway if i get an ocd diagnosis that'll be the most awkward because that's the only one they actively joke about and that i've butted head #with them on. (i mean theyre also shit to npd/aspd ppl i just haven't chewed them out for it yet bc every time i do that i end up useless #for the rest of the day at least and i gotta pick my battles) #and idek what i wanna do about the Probably Autism going on man. i've been thinking about doing foster care/adoption for years now #when im older/if im ever financially stable. a diagnosis could basically nuke my options for that #but they'd NEVER believe a self diagnosis #whatever FUCK JT ITS YAKUZING TIME!!!!!!!!! #OH AND IT'S THE FIRST TIME DOING ONE ON LEGEND #which im nervous about bc i never really play stuff on anything but normal #so uh. 😬😬