Fifteen
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough, you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And your mama's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing around your room when the night ends
'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin around
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then, I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had
To a boy who changed his mind
And we both cried
'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be
At fifteen
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Don't You
Hey, I knew I'd run into you somewhere
It's been a while, I didn't mean to stare
I heard she's nothing like me
I'm sure she'll make you happy
Sometimes I really wish that I could hate you
I've tried, but that's just something I can't do
My heart knows what the truth is
I swore I wouldn't do this
So I walk outta here tonight
Try to go on with my life
And you can say, "We're still friends"
I don't wanna pretend
So if I see you again
Don't you smile at me and ask me how I've been
Don't you say you've missed me if you don't want me again
You don't know how much I feel I love you still
So why don't you?
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Bigger Than The Whole Sky
No words appear before me in the aftermath
Salt streams out my eyes and into my ears
Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness
Because it's all over now, all out to sea
Did some bird flap its wings over in Asia?
Did some force take you because I didn't pray?
Every single thing to come has turned into ashes
Because it's all over, it's not meant to be
So I'll say words I don't believe
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
You were bigger than the whole sky
You were more than just a short time
And I've got a lot to pine about
I've got a lot to live without
I'm never gonna meet
What could've been, would've been
What should've been you
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TAYLOR SWIFT
at the 2023 MTV VMAs in Newark, New Jersey (September 12, 2023)
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Sad Beautiful Tragic
Long handwritten note, deep in your pocket
Words, how little they mean, when you're a little too late
I stood right by the tracks, your face in a locket
Good girls, hopeful they'll be and long they will wait
In dreams, I meet you in warm conversation
And we both wake in lonely beds, different cities
And time is taking its sweet time erasing you
And you've got your demons
And darling, they all look like me
Distance, timing, breakdown, fighting, silence,
The train runs off its tracks
Kiss me, try to fix it;
Could you just try to listen?
Hang up, give up, and for the life of us we can't get back
A beautiful magic love there
What a sad, beautiful, tragic love affair
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mirrorball
I want you to know;
I'm a mirrorball
I'll show you every version of yourself tonight
I'll get you out on the floor
Shimmering beautiful
And when I break it's in a million pieces
Hush
When no one is around, my dear
You'll find me on my tallest tiptoes
Spinning in my highest heels, love
Shining just for you
I want you to know;
I'm a mirrorball
I can change everything about me to fit in
You are not like the regulars
The masquerade revelers
Drunk as they watch my shattered edges glisten
Hush
I know they said the end is near
But I'm still on my tallest tiptoes
Spinning in my highest heels, love
Shining just for you
And they called off the circus
Burned the disco down
When they sent home the horses
And the rodeo clowns
I'm still on that tightrope
I'm still trying everything to get you laughing at me
I'm still a believer but I don't know why
I've never been a natural
All I do is try, try, try
I'm still on that trapeze
I'm still trying everything
To keep you looking at me
Because I'm a mirrorball
I'll show you every version of yourself tonight
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Don't Blame Me
I've been breaking hearts a long time
And toying with them older guys
Just playthings for me to use
Something happened for the first time
In the darkest little paradise
Shaking, pacing, I just need you
For you I would cross the line
I would waste my time
I would lose my mind
They say, "She's gone too far this time."
My name is whatever you decide
And I'm just gonna call you mine
I'm insane, but I'm your baby
Echoes of your name inside my mind
Halo, hiding my obsession
I once was poison ivy, but now I'm your daisy
And, baby, for you I would fall from grace
Just to touch your face
If you walk away,
I'd beg you on my knees to stay
I get so high
Every time you're loving me
Trip of my life
Every time you're touching me
Every time you're loving me
Don't blame me
Love made me crazy
If it doesn't, you ain't doing it right
Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
I'll be using for the rest of my life
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The Last Time
I find myself at your door
Just like all those times before
I'm not sure how I got there
All roads, they lead me here
I imagine you are home
In your room, all alone
And you open your eyes into mine
And everything feels better
And right before your eyes
I'm breaking
No past
No reasons why
Just you and me
You find yourself at my door
And just like all those times before
You wear your best apology
But I was there to watch you leave
And all the times I let you in
Just for you to go again
Disappear when you come back
Everything is better
And right before your eyes
I'm aching
No past
Nowhere to hide
Just you and me
This is the last time you tell me I've got it wrong
This is the last time I say it's been you all along
This is the last time I let you in my door
This is the last time, I won't hurt you anymore
This is the last time I'm asking you this
Put my name at the top of your list
This is the last time I'm asking you why
You break my heart in the blink of an eye
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i’m in love with this photo🤎🍂✨
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So It Goes...
See you in the dark
All eyes on you, my magician
All eyes on us
You make everyone disappear
And cut me into pieces
Gold cage, hostage to my feelings
Back against the wall tripping when you're gone
Met you in a bar
All eyes on me, your illusionist
All eyes on us
I make all your grey days clear
And wear you like a necklace
I'm so chill, but you make me jealous
But I got your heart skipping when I'm gone
Because we break down a little
But when I get you alone, it's so simple
Because baby, I know what you know
We can feel it
You did a number on me
But, honestly, baby, who's counting?
I did a number on you
But, honestly, baby, who's counting?
Who's counting?
And all the pieces fall right into place
Getting caught up in a moment,
Lipstick on your face
So it goes
I'm yours to keep
And I'm yours to lose
You know I'm not a bad girl
But I do bad things with you
So it goes
Come here, dressed in black now
So it goes
Scratches down your back now
So it goes
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It's Nice To Have A Friend
School bell rings, walk me home
Sidewalk chalk covered in snow
Lost my gloves, you give me one
"Wanna hang out?" Yeah, sounds like fun
Video games, you pass me a note
Sleeping in tents
It's nice to have a friend
Light pink sky up on the roof
Sun sinks down, no curfew
20 questions, we tell the truth
You've been stressed out lately, yeah, me too
Something gave you the nerve
To touch my hand
It's nice to have a friend
Church bells ring, carry me home
Rice on the ground looks like snow
Call my bluff, call you "Babe"
Have my back, yeah, every day
Feels like home, stay in bed
The whole weekend
It's nice to have a friend
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closure
It's been a long time
And seeing the shape of your name
Still spells out pain
It wasn't right
The way it all went down
Looks like you know that now
Don't treat me like some situation that needs to be handled
I'm fine with my spite;
And my tears,
And my beers,
And my candles
I can feel you smoothing me over
I know I'm just a wrinkle in your new life
Staying friends would iron it out so nice
Guilty, guilty
Reaching out across the sea
That you put between you and me
But it's fake and it's oh so unnecessary
Yes, I got your letter
Yes, I'm doing better
It cut deep to know ya,
Right to the bone
I know that it's over,
I don't need your closure
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I had a marvelous time ruining everything
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Last Kiss
I still remember the look on your face,
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me, so why did you go away?
I do recall now, the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That July ninth,
The beat of your heart, it jumps through your shirt
I can still feel your arms
But now I'll go
Sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I'd roll my eyes and then you'd pull me in
I'm not much for dancing, but for you, I did
Because I love your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions
So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you you wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in the weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
I never thought we'd have a last kiss
I never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
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cardigan
Vintage tee, brand new phone
High heels on cobblestones
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
Sequin smile, black lipstick
Sensual politics
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
But I knew you
Dancing in your Levi's,
Drunk under a streetlight
I knew you
Hand under my sweatshirt
Baby, kiss it better
A friend to all is a friend to none
Chase two girls, lose the one
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
But I knew you
Playing hide-and-seek and
Giving me your weekends
I knew you
Your heartbeat on the High Line
Once in twenty lifetimes
To kiss in cars and downtown bars
Was all we needed
You drew stars around my scars
But now I'm bleeding
Because I knew you
Stepping on the last train
Marked me like a bloodstain
I knew you
Tried to change the ending
Peter losing Wendy
I knew you
Leaving like a father
Running like water
And when you are young, they assume you know nothing
But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss
I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs
The smell of smoke would hang around this long
Because I knew everything when I was young
I knew I'd curse you for the longest time
Chasing shadows in the grocery line
I knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired
And you'd be standing in my front porch light
And I knew you'd come back to me
You'd come back to me
And you'd come back
And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite
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mad woman
What did you think I'd say to that?
Does a scorpion sting when fighting back?
They strike to kill and you know I will
What do you sing on your drive home?
Do you see my face in the neighbor's lawn?
Does she smile
Or does she mouth, "Fuck you forever"?
Every time you call me crazy, I get more crazy
What about that?
And when you say I seem angry, I get more angry
And there's nothing like a mad woman
What a shame she went mad
Now I breathe flames each time I talk
My cannons all firing at your yacht
They say, "Move on"
But you know I won't
And women like hunting witches too
Doing your dirtiest work for you
It's obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together
No one likes a mad woman
You made her like that
And you'll poke that bear 'til her claws come out
And you find something to wrap your noose around
And there's nothing like a mad woman
I'm taking my time
'Cause you took everything from me
Watching you climb
Over people like me
The master of spin
Has a couple side flings
Good wives always know
She should be mad
Should be scathing like me
But no one likes a mad woman
What a shame she went mad
You made her like that
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Hey Stephen
Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving
But I know I saw a light in you
And as we walked, we were talking,
I didn't say half the things I wanted to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window,
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy, you might have me believing
I don't always have to be alone
Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I got some things to say to you
I've seen it all,
So I thought,
But I never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving?
I think you and I should stay the same
'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself
They're dimming the street lights, you're perfect for me
Why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now, so come on and come out
And pull me near and shine, shine, shine
Hey Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well, they're beautiful
But would they write a song for you?
I can't help myself
I can't help myself
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