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my ass jiggles so cute when you fuck me from behind just fyi

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Birthday brunch looks

#me #black women #black tumblr

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Tagged by the gorgeous @thandelyon

Last song I listened to

Favorite color Blue

Last movie watched I honestly can't remember. Do sports docs count? If so, 38 at the Garden.

Currently watching X-Men '97, Abbott Elementary, and The Sopranos

Sweet/Spicy/Savory I'm a sucker for a sweet/savory combo, like chocolate covered pretzels and chocolate covered nuts.

Relationship status Single

Current obsession Since I moved a few months ago, finding the best bbq and pizza near me.

Last thing I googled Anymore in Spanish - I knew I knew the word for it (shout out to my 165-day streak on Duolingo), but I was drawing a blank.

Tagging (no pressure though) @khimerah, @eemanee, @nikidanger, and anyone else who feels like it.

#SoundCloud #fkj #bas #risk #songs

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Where there’s smoke 💨🔥

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#played this twice in a row on my way home today #full crate #back on 74 #jungle

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#when... when it slips in

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What was that shit you was talking during brunch?😈💦💦😈🥵

#just got back from brunch #this is needed like a motherfucker

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And to the ones who love to talk you thru it let me just say this you are amazing and highly favored. Have a glorious weekend ☺️

#and also hi

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I wanna see more fat women in pics

More fat women in couple pics

More fat women being fucked

More

Fat

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Scatter-brained...

I can't find the post about the greatest movie deaths to reblog it, but I just want y'all to know that topping my list is Queenie the dog's death in Crooklyn. Also included is Sonny from The Godfather and Samuel L. Jackson's character in Deep Blue Sea.

Life been life-ing like a motherfucker lately. And while some of it is just happening to me through no fault of my own, there is some of it that's also just me dealing with the consequences of my actions. I'm trying to focus on the things I can control, but it's easier said than done.

Death been death-ing like crazy too. From family to friends to friends who are family... This shit don't make no sense.

I'm 33 now. I haven't had a birthday party since I was 9, but I'm planning a birthday brunch for myself next weekend and I'm excited for it. And grateful that I have people to invite and who I know will show up for me. I'm really out here with chosen family. I came out here knowing no one. I might sound like a broken record at this point, but I'll never stop thanking God for that.

Had to kick my roommate's boyfriend out of the apartment a few weeks ago. I'm still shaken up over it. She told me he's not welcome back until I say he is and I told her I don't know if I'll ever be comfortable with that again (read: I absolutely won't be). She says she understands and that that's a consequence he'll just have to live with... but I'm very aware that although she's saying that now, she may not be so understanding on a May 15th or a July 20th or... you get it. I hope I'm wrong, but if she's shown me anything thus far, it's that I can't always believe what she says.

This same boyfriend showed up unannounced at my place last Sunday night to "apologize." We talked through the call box and that was only long enough for me to say (and repeat several times) that I'm not in a place to accept an apology right now. He kept trying to convince me to talk, asking for "a minute of your time" and saying that he's really a good guy.

First off, anyone who calls themselves a "good" person, I'm wary of. I feel like that's the type of thing other people should tell me about you or that I should clearly be able to see for myself through your actions. Secondly, your solution to getting kicked out of some place is to show up to that place unannounced and try to force the person who wanted you out to accept your apology on your time and terms? Fuck all the way out of here. Thirdly, the lack of self awareness it takes to say you understand why what you did (not listening to us when we told you to leave) was wrong, but then to refuse to listen and leave AGAIN as you try to apologize is mind-boggling. Every time I think about it, I end up even more pissed.

I've been closing all my fitness circles nearly every day this month and I'm really proud of me for that. I even went and worked out on my birthday. Who is she?

The economy is a mess, the current job market is big trash, and the non-profit org I work for has fallen on hard times and informed us that there will be layoffs at the end of this school year. I'm applying and have been applying, but finding the energy to keep doing so is draining in a way I don't think I've experienced before.

And, on top of all that, my sleep schedule has been terrible. I thought it was just a side effect of my period this month, but that thing been gone for a minute and I'm still struggling.

April 13th (the day I promised myself I'd get back on a dating app) came and went. I downloaded an app. I created a profile. I consulted friends about which pictures to post and choose... but them fucking prompts? I know I'm supposed to show off my personality, sell myself, etc. I just ain't got the energy right now...

#scatter-brained #scatter

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#it was #the wedding date #for me 😅

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#learning

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This year is about self-improvement.