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tagged by @ante--meridiem

Currently reading: I'm on the verge of quitting The Unspoken Name by A.K. Larkwood, not because it's objectively bad but because I'm not enjoying it for reasons I might noodle on about on my book blog. I have a stack of library books so I'm not sure what I'll try next.

Currently watching: @sinceyouaskedme recommended Mic the Snare and I've been watching some of his discography deep dives, which led to a very funny situation where I watched the one about Radiohead and then listened to Ok Computer by Radiohead for the first time (regarded by many as one of the greatest albums of all time), and it was very good, and I was like, I can't go online and be like "Oh my god you guys I'm sure know one else knows this but did you know Ok Computer by Radiohead is good?!"

Currently obsessed with: I looked up what turned out to be The Second Coming by William Butler Yeats on Friday because I was trying to figure out where one of its lines came from, and first of all holy shit I did not realize how much it is to 20th-21th century literature and pop culture as Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen is to ao3. All those are from the same poem? Second of all, it's very good (much like Ok Computer by Radiohead is very good, one could say 🙂). I ended up looking up a list of ultra-famous poems, because I realized that not having taken any lit classes beyond high school means there are many ultra-famous poems that I haven't ever come across. I'm resisting the urge to say something defensive, because not knowing certain poems when you could have Taken The Initiative And Looked Them Up Whenever is something people get so wildly mean about, like hiking, but I didn't and who cares. And now I have! (Did you guys know The Waste Land by T.S. Eliot is also very good?!)

Last song listened to: Silence by Lizz Wright, best known round this blog for being the artist I discovered by getting her 2008 album The Orchard buying thrift store CDs last summer, which I then listened to for months because. I mean. When I went to get that link I paused writing this for two minutes to relisten to the first half of the first track because 😭😭❗❗, 10/10 Ok Computers by Radiohead, source: dude trust me. Also previously seen round this blog for Goodbye on (ironically) the Astrid-Caleb reunion, race you to the top section of my Astrid fanmix ("so you take the high road/and I'll take the low" indeed).

Silence is also from her first 2003 album, and I cagily didn't link it first because I feel like it's a little less overtly knock your socks off, but it too is !! (I feel like it really kicks off at the end of the second verse with the vocals and instrumentals on "that silence is a song.")

tagging with no pressure to do it, @sinceyouaskedme @perpetualnovelboyfriend @smirk47 @cindereleanor

#music #i haven't looked up any analysis of the waste land yet because i wanted to let it percolate first #but i want to so i can. you know. actually get the vast majority of the references. that poem is all reference (okay not all). #not commenting on the whiteness and maleness of ultra-famous poems lists since i assume we all have noticed #but i did read poetry foundation's bio of yeats and take a moment to be glad that guy did not have twitter

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This year's prompts!

Hello, everyone! I have reached spring break and finally had time to work on this.

While I had been hoping to create a tongue in cheek list of prompts based on various blorbo posts, when you start sifting through them they tend to boil down to the same general sentiments, which is not helpful for prompt creation. So, I went in a different direction.

Monday: What about sad wet cat women? Highlight a podcast starring women in the leading role(s).

Tuesday: This too is yuri... Spotlight a F/F ship (or platonic or familial relationship between women if that's your preference).

Wednesday: WIP Wednesday! We all have art/fic/meta we've been meaning to get to. This is your day to finally commit (as long as your WIP is about podcast women, of course.)

Thursday: Nobody understands her like I do... Recognize a woman from a podcast you think is niche and/or underappreciated.

Friday: God forbid women do anything. Celebrate a female villain. Defend your #problematic fave.

Saturday: Self-indulgence Saturday! Make something you've really wanted to make but haven't because you thought it was too self-indulgent, niche, or silly.

Sunday: Free space!

Remember -- Podcast Girls Week will take place on July 8 - 14. I can't wait!

#i managed to delete my reblog of this while 'going through my drafts' (Or So I Thought) #(you know how tumblr autosaves drafts if you leave a reblog open in another tab long enough? #and then you're going through your drafts and think 'i finished reblogging that podcast girls week post! #i'll delete the draft!' but you're not in your drafts. you're in your blogs/posts viewer. #yeah #but maybe blessing in disguise because i think i reblogged the one before the date was corrected so now i can spread the Update #podcast girls week 2024 #in not june but july

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it’s 3am and i currently wholeheartedly believe that eiffel intended to say “i love you”. not as a declaration, but as a star wars reference. he wanted to go out on an “i love you” / “i know”. he wanted to go out on a joke, and he trusted hera— who’s probably heard him recap this scene dozens of times— to finish it. he wanted to go out on a bit, and he wanted her in on it, and honestly i think that’s the purest form of love there is.

#oh my god #wolf 359 #cannot emphasize enough how much the [looks up] [pie to the face] meme it was to start #reading this post and get to 'not as a declaration‚ but as a star wars reference.' #yeah i'll accept that into my worldview

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I did make the booklr! wroughtironcliches

#too new to be tagged apparently alas so a link in link format

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Also, if anyone has any benign timewasters to recommend, that would also be very helpful. My go-to when I want to turn my brain off for a few minutes has been book review sites for genres I'm only kind of into (because then my brain is focused on whatever it's reading, but not enough to get annoyed when a reviewer has a Bad Take), and while I'm proud of myself for finding something banal and sticking with it instead of making my default "turn my brain off" activity doomscrolling social media (which does not actually turn my brain off any more than it does anyone else's), my mainstay sites have been annoying me lately and I think it might be the better part of valor to give it up and start learning puzzles, or ??

I'm thinking about starting a booklr, which I wish I mentioned in my original post because now I feel like saying so looks like I'm sulking about not getting any book recommendations here so far, but it's something I've been thinking about on and off since last year - I feel like it will Be Good For Me to have a place to talk a lot to hear my head rattle. I'm realizing that not really having a place for that (between not taking up too much airtime in conversations with friends and by dint of having just moved being at the "Oh, you enjoy movies? Perhaps we should do something such as view a movie together at some time!" level of friendship with anyone local for the next while) is Making Me Weird and journaling only goes so far. (I also want to get around to starting to actually use Dreamwidth, especially in the context of tumblr's last 2-3 trashfires, so I guess I'll see what I get to first.)

Blog updates 2024 edition, or more specifically, one big, potentially very good update: Last year when I did my 2023 blog updates, almost but not quite a year ago now, I said I might be within a month or so of things no longer being in serious crisis/my life being basically okay-adjacent. It is hard to write this even now but it turned out that that didn't work out - things did get better, especially for a chunk of six months in the middle of the year when I had safe housing and things felt wonderful compared to the last few years, but neither external circumstances nor my own ability to deal with {PTSD, external circumstances, &c} got to the point hoped for where I would be able to say "I'm living a life where things are more or less normal and okay." Even though I never quite reached things being okay-adjacent during that chunk of months and things got not great again end of summer to now, having that time of things being close to almost okay-adjacent was a very important springboard to me for make it to a point now where I might be within reach of actually okay-adjacent.

Right now, what I said last year about potentially being within a month or so of things being basically okay is potentially true again, and I think I have a better shot at it this time for both external reasons and personal "knowing more about what to do to get safe and having my shit together" reasons. I might be within reach of things being okay-adjacent and feeling like I have a real normal life outside of crises (here defined as safe housing, employment, no people hurting me in my immediate vicinity, financial and scheduling ability to manage physical medical issues on a day to day basis while still eating without mental health issues getting in the way of that, clothing in drawers not trash bags, nothing actively medically scary).

If so this will be for the first time since 2018 so of course it's a big deal to me. Right now of course I'm both excited and relieved things might work out soon and terrified that they won't.

Meanwhile (the reason beyond updating that I'm posting this!), as I get ready to fully move into the place that will hopefully be the "safe housing" part of this, it's been really hitting me that even though living a life that is normal-adjacent and okay-adjacent will inherently be orders of magnitude better than the last 5+ years and of course I'm prepared to be extremely grateful for that, I'm still going to have all the grief and emptiness I have now. Even though I will as always be (too) busy in some ways trying to get everything done in a day while dealing with chronic pain, no longer having so much time soaked up trying to survive whatever the problem of the week or PTSD meltdown of the day is means that I'm going to have hours and hours of empty time to fill every week.

When I talk about loss I know some people's minds will jump to the worst case personal scenarios so I will clarify that I am fortunate that by grief I don't mean the death of an immediate family member, not that kind of grief. A lot of different things - people who have been awful, deaths, horribleness in my neighborhood that was like family, lost time, and all the losses prior to the last few years in some ways since grief doesn't fully go away, and then things like a close friendship breakup last year that is not as painful as any of the above since we are both alive and managed to be kind to each other throughout the breakup but it's still over. It has been hitting me that a lot of the work of grieving everything from the past couple decades, like the work of dealing with PTSD, is what I had to get through these past couple years to have a chance of getting my shit together, but now that I've made enough headway on the work of grieving to be able to have a chance at my life being okay, the losses and emptiness themselves will still be there ("still be gone"?)

If anyone has suggestions for fun stuff to do, book and movie recommendations, &c, it would be a really good time for them! If anyone can recommend social stuff, e.g. friendly good-boundary-having discord servers, that would be amazing. I think y'all know my favorite things in fiction and music (fiddles, writing fanfic that comes to a screeching halt 2-3 times a chapter to talk about food, thoughtful meditations on torture?, swords) but I'm usually down to at least give media outside my wheelhouse a try.

#it's like #i feel like i have a mouthful of glue #will talking about books make me stop feeling like i have a mouthful of glue? who's to say

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Blog updates 2024 edition, or more specifically, one big, potentially very good update: Last year when I did my 2023 blog updates, almost but not quite a year ago now, I said I might be within a month or so of things no longer being in serious crisis/my life being basically okay-adjacent. It is hard to write this even now but it turned out that that didn't work out - things did get better, especially for a chunk of six months in the middle of the year when I had safe housing and things felt wonderful compared to the last few years, but neither external circumstances nor my own ability to deal with {PTSD, external circumstances, &c} got to the point hoped for where I would be able to say "I'm living a life where things are more or less normal and okay." Even though I never quite reached things being okay-adjacent during that chunk of months and things got not great again end of summer to now, having that time of things being close to almost okay-adjacent was a very important springboard to me for make it to a point now where I might be within reach of actually okay-adjacent.

Right now, what I said last year about potentially being within a month or so of things being basically okay is potentially true again, and I think I have a better shot at it this time for both external reasons and personal "knowing more about what to do to get safe and having my shit together" reasons. I might be within reach of things being okay-adjacent and feeling like I have a real normal life outside of crises (here defined as safe housing, employment, no people hurting me in my immediate vicinity, financial and scheduling ability to manage physical medical issues on a day to day basis while still eating without mental health issues getting in the way of that, clothing in drawers not trash bags, nothing actively medically scary).

If so this will be for the first time since 2018 so of course it's a big deal to me. Right now of course I'm both excited and relieved things might work out soon and terrified that they won't.

Meanwhile (the reason beyond updating that I'm posting this!), as I get ready to fully move into the place that will hopefully be the "safe housing" part of this, it's been really hitting me that even though living a life that is normal-adjacent and okay-adjacent will inherently be orders of magnitude better than the last 5+ years and of course I'm prepared to be extremely grateful for that, I'm still going to have all the grief and emptiness I have now. Even though I will as always be (too) busy in some ways trying to get everything done in a day while dealing with chronic pain, no longer having so much time soaked up trying to survive whatever the problem of the week or PTSD meltdown of the day is means that I'm going to have hours and hours of empty time to fill every week.

When I talk about loss I know some people's minds will jump to the worst case personal scenarios so I will clarify that I am fortunate that by grief I don't mean the death of an immediate family member, not that kind of grief. A lot of different things - people who have been awful, deaths, horribleness in my neighborhood that was like family, lost time, and all the losses prior to the last few years in some ways since grief doesn't fully go away, and then things like a close friendship breakup last year that is not as painful as any of the above since we are both alive and managed to be kind to each other throughout the breakup but it's still over. It has been hitting me that a lot of the work of grieving everything from the past couple decades, like the work of dealing with PTSD, is what I had to get through these past couple years to have a chance of getting my shit together, but now that I've made enough headway on the work of grieving to be able to have a chance at my life being okay, the losses and emptiness themselves will still be there ("still be gone"?)

If anyone has suggestions for fun stuff to do, book and movie recommendations, &c, it would be a really good time for them! If anyone can recommend social stuff, e.g. friendly good-boundary-having discord servers, that would be amazing. I think y'all know my favorite things in fiction and music (fiddles, writing fanfic that comes to a screeching halt 2-3 times a chapter to talk about food, thoughtful meditations on torture?, swords) but I'm usually down to at least give media outside my wheelhouse a try.

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Started having this discussion on discord and I am bringing it to tumblr. Most space stations do not have showers for obvious reasons, but Wolf 359 references the Hephaestus's showers several times. How do they work? For the purpose of this poll, I am not accepting the answers 'the writers didn't think about it' or 'that part of the station has gravity somehow'. Play in this 0 gravity space with me.

#wolf 359 #initially voted tube but got to the last sentence of the rb and [snort] #changing my answer #with all the affection for him in the world #to 'water is involved because eiffel is doing something catastrophically wrong'

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Listening to the new episodes of my podcasts like:

#...yeah #sometimes i catch a glimpse of my reflection while i'm listening to something and it's a time

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i am a big believer in letting music (and other media) come to you when you're ready for it. you may only know vaguely of an acclaimed beloved artist and suspect that you'd be into them but just... not ever get around to it. and then in 15 years one of their songs just hits you the right way and what a gift to suddenly have all of their works to explore! there is no hurry; what is good is always good.

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This global strike is for 1 week. It starts on January 21st and goes until January 28th. These folks on X have complied information for people to read about. This is the LEAST we can do. The bare minimum. Unless it is for necessity or you have to work of course -please participate.

As always, free Palestine!

#palestine

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help needed asap !!

my palestinian coworker’s family is still in gaza and are mostly injured. they are in need of immediate help! their family is mostly located in Belgium so if anyone speaks Dutch or knows of any organization that can help me get started in the right place to bring them over to Belgium please let me know asap!

I’m struggling to find any resources due to the language barrier. But please, PLEASE reach out to me if you are able to help in any way!

#I am not familiar with Belgium or otherwise knowledgeable but I am wishing your coworker and their family so well #I hope you find people who can help

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[ID: a post that has been edited to say "physically, yes, I could relisten Wolf 359 but emotionally? Imagine the toll"]

#wolf 359

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Hey folks!!

Because work is screwing me again I’m opening up 3 portrait slots and 3 crayon pwyw slots (look at the link for details regarding crayon slots) for the moth of January!

Portraits will be copic on 5.5”x8.5” paper. They will be 50cad plus shipping; and if the design is complex there will be an added 5-10 charge.

For portraits I take PayPal; the crayon pwyw is through ☕️ (please read the info in the link fully)

Message me if interested! I will be updating available slots in the comments of this post. Thank you!

#commissions

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sometimes a song is good because you saw it on a fan edit for your favorite ship like ten years ago

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You ever just stare at the wall and miss Isabel Lovelace?

#wolf 359 #believe it

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A year after the defeat of Trent Ikithon, Astrid and Eadwulf are settling into their lives as Eadwulf works helping other former scourgers and Astrid contends with her fellow archmages of the Cerberus Assembly. But when Wulf's voyage to a white stone city across the sea leads to a method for the safe removal of residuum--and the powers it bequeaths--and Astrid's plans put her at odds with the headmaster who sent them to Ikithon two decades before, both have choices to make about their magic and their future.

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Astrid Beck/Eadwulf Grieve, Eadwulf Grieve & Cassandra de Rolo, Astrid Beck & Cerberus Assembly, Astrid Beck & Eadwulf Grieve & Beauregard Lionett, Astrid Beck, Eadwulf Grieve, Cassandra de Rolo, Marion Lavorre, Caleb Widogast, Yasha Nydoorin, Beauregard Lionett, Owelia (Critical Role), Unnamed Human Scourger (Episode c2e070), Ludinus Da'Leth, Zivan Margolin, Other(s)

Shadow Magic (Dungeons & Dragons), Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), Angst, Death, Suicide, Grief, Combat, Gore, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Additional Warnings in Author's Notes, intramural sports jock Eadwulf, if you want emotional conversations but also 2k of Astrid 4vs1 high-level wizard battle you are the target audience for this, Glyph Chant, Bioluminescence, neither a recovery arc nor a corruption arc but another secret third thing

#middle chapters are done and posted!! #i'm completely normal about this and not at all going aaaa aa on the inside #we got astrid and marion #astrid and ludinus #wulf and cass sparring #astrid leveling up to level 14 #astrid getting completely hammered and going on a monologue referring to caleb as bren widogast #use of glyph chant to peel potatoes #discovered when editing that my original tumblr tag was #a & e causing problems and solving problems on accident and on purpose! #and yeah they're doing that #percy essek and the marion & astrid rel tag didn't get sent to the shadow realm i just decided it looked overtagged and pruned ruthlessly #like they do very much have scenes but not on the same level as some of the other tagged characters #astrid beck #eadwulf grieve #fic

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happy WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S BEEN SIX WHOLE YEARS SINCE THE WOLF 359 FINALE to all who observe

#wolf 359