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thank you to taylor for giving me the exact lyrics to describe my feelings about lucien vanserra: fuck it if I can't have him

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the angst with no happy ending fics have been insane lately like are y’all okay who hurt you

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Why is it just now hitting me that perhaps one of Lucien's love language to others is gift giving ??? Him gifting Feyre a dagger, the time he gifted her that wine because he knew it was going to be a harder winter solstice, the gardening gloves for Elain and the pearl earrings - which I am not saying Lucien loves Elain because they are so far from that but he gifts her things in hopes she'll like them/use them and at least know he is thinking of her.

It would make sense given Lucien's background too.

Growing up in the Autumn Court ruled by Beron and the tensions amongst his brothers would stunt a person's ability to properly express their deeper feelings. Even when Lucien has been outspoken it's hardly ever been about his pain or even small happiness.

Even if he once was more vocal we all know what happened to Jesminda as a result of his rebelious behavior.

Even when he makes friends throughout all the courts it doesn't mean he's verbally able to express himself to many of them. Socializing and charming people can become a game, really in the ACOTAR world a lot of social gatherings and opportunities are just networking. Forming alliances, feeling out enemies, and trying to gather information.

Actually, now that I sit with that for a moment I realize that is probably a contributing factor to Lucien befriending Jurian and Vassa. They're humans with a goal of keeping peace amongst humans and the fae, otherwise they aren't going to care for all the other court games happening even if they did they have short lifespans.

If I were immortal and found a few humans I got along with and felt comfortable around I would probably open up to them more about myself knowing they won't be around for long. I imagine carrying secrets to the grave is not as easy when you're fae and living for hundreds upon hundreds of years.

I could see how all of this could cause someone to express their feelings best through intentional gift giving. Not to manipulate or imply they could buy affection but as a way to show they're listening or paying attention and just can't freely say as they wish.

#acotar #lucien vanserra #ramblings #rambles

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crying because what do you mean lucien vanserra isn’t real?????

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These are so beautifully done

Gwyn and Azriel 🤍 by Artcraawl (link)

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Last night I had the random thought that Lucien would probably get really sad watching the scene in Lion King 2 where Kovu gets exiled as the song One of Us plays because the lyrics would hit too close to home for him and now I'm haunted by that mere thought

#lucien vanserra #acotar

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me: *reading about lucien* *giggling, kicking my feet, swooning*

me, after then looking at real men: THEY DON'T MAKE THEM HOW I LIKE IT

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Well....gonna go cry in my shower now about this 😭

BRB - crying in the corner at my new headcanon that Eris went back and made sure Jesminda had a proper burial on behalf of his brother because it really was the LEAST he could do.

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Every time I see someone say that Lucien screamed, "You're my mate!" to Elain after she emerged from the Cauldron, I think of this:

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Feyre: I am convinced Rhysand, Cassian, and Azriel share a brain cell.

Nesta: And it's not in use very often, it seems.

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Eris and Lucien Vanserra do not work in modern AUs because their peak form is wearing billowy shirts with tall riding boots, hair flowing in the wind of a meadow

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Can you blame me tho

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I have made the mistake of reading a Nesta and Eris fic and now I'm mourning what we could have had ......

I sit neutral on Nesta and Cassian's relationship and I have a draft I'm working on to go into detail about what I do and don't like about them as a couple and why I've gone from a Nessian fan to a neutral party.

However, when I sit here and think deeper about what potential plots we could have gotten from a Nesta and Eris pairing .... damn

#acotar #nesta archeron #eris vanserra

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Since I am bored and toying with my own imagination. Here is how I Imagine a Dorian and Lucien friendship would look like:

Recognizing one another's similiar traumas and being able to discuss them properly and respect one another's boundaries

Exchanging flirting advice

Exchange hair care advice

Fashion Icons. Would shop together or help pick outfits for each other and all of us would suffer from how hot they are

Sparring practices (This would be my version of Nesta gawking at Cassian and Az)

The playful shade these two could throw at one another with their quick remarks would be 10/10

These two debate for fun.

These two keep score of how many debates they've won against one another.

100% giving book recs to one another

1000% showing off their libraries to one another

Have little hopeless romantic sessions where they speak of their yearning

So many social events. So much partying together. Everyone loves them at these things. Makes many friends.

Gossips about the many friends they've made when it's just the two of them.

Dorian transforms himself into Eris just to annoy Lucien whenever they disagree about something.

These two 100% find themselves in a bit of trouble from having a bit too much fun but they are smart enough to get away with it each time.

Rants about their daddy issues

Rants about their problematic brothers

Lucien teaches Dorian how to catch a fish with his bare hands. This increases Dorian's desirability to ungodly levels which no one thought was possible cuz its Dorian Havilliard.

Lucien eventually gets to go see his mom and brings Dorian to meet her. She adores him. He adores her. Lucien gets a bit jealous and reminds Lady Autumn he is in fact her favorite son.

Dorian brings Lucien to meet Manon. Lucien is a bit intimidated and wonders how on earth his friend became so bewitched by someone who eats men but he really wants to pet Abraxos so he tries his best to befriend them

Finds Manon to be rather intriguing company. Debates whether he should suggest she meets Nesta.

Lucien succeeds in petting Abraxos - is very happy about it.

Dorian makes Lucien blush when he casually comments on how attractive he thinks Lucien is. Lucien appreciates the remarks but is flustered. (Seriously, Dorian's bisexual energy would vibrate at such high frequencies around Lucien - I just know it)

#throne of glass #acotar #dorian havilliard #lucien vanserra

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what Lorcan did is my roman empire

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Everyone's all like flexible Gwyneth Berdara is gonna be ruined by Azriel's giant wingspan, but no one talks about how a very tiny human Elide would be literally destroyed by her 7ft tall, hunky demi-fae male.

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Two gentlemen in agreement: