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[xmo-rmon]

"Inseminary" review:

Screamed into the pillow

#fantastic. huge #i'd make it smaller if I ever made it again #but it did the job in 2 seconds

[xmo-rmon]

hey I'd like to thank you personally for talking about the Timpanogos tribe I don't know if I would've ever actually found out that two of my family members are right on the ancestors page of their website. Knowing the church is probably directly responsible for the half of my family tree that's conveniently missing has just put so many puzzle pieces back together in my mind I have no regrets whatsoever for leaving the church as soon as I was able. Thank you

And thank you so much for sharing this with me, things like this are exactly why I even started making this art in the first place. I'm so glad and really honored to have helped you. Truly, sincerely, more than the tone of a tumblr post can accurately convey. Good luck out there friend

#asks #exmo #exmormon

[xmo-rmon]

Just an extra tidbit re: the body safety of “Inseminary” - before using this toy, I’ve never actually had a reason to use condoms, and I was/am actually kind of thrilled about it because that’s just a realm of my special interest (sex) that had otherwise gone unexplored. That’s how much of a geek I am. There’s also an enjoyable added mentality to it, esp if you think about it as wearing a barrier to protect from the hateful scriptures sinking in.

I also had to special order a pack of non-lubricated condoms because the kind you can get at the pharmacy are all coated in silicone lube, and therefore unsafe for silicone toys. I use our water-based lube both inside and outside the condom instead (X-Lube, which I can’t recommend enough).

Also, just for the record, before using it on my partner for the first time I recited both sacrament prayers and fed them a bite of bread and sip of wine. You know, to bless and sanctify this dick, for the souls of all those who partake of it,

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #nsft #i havent quite taken it myself yet #i’m a switch but i lean towards service top most days #and its way too big to use during solo play #but when I do I will return with a review of my own work

[xmo-rmon]

Tl;dr - I have been using condoms, the paper is fully sealed but there are air bubbles unrelated to the paper

I’ve seen a few people ask this so I figured I’d say - rest assured everyone I’m very aware of material safety, sex toys have been my special interest for I’d say almost a decade and I worked in a sex store for nearly a year. I definitely took body safety seriously when designing this. It might not look like it in the photo, but every piece of paper is fully coated and sealed. There was one sticking out the very bottom when I unmolded it but I pulled it out with a pair of tweezers. All that being said, because I didn’t use a vacuum chamber there are some bubbles on the surface, so to be safe I have been using condoms (non-lubricated with water based lube added to protect the silicone) on it and plan to boil it to fully sanitize every few uses just to be sure. The paper also did not inhibit curing and did not affect the structural integrity of the silicone at all.

Still, thank you everyone for the overwhelming lovely feedback, it really means a lot 💖

“Inseminary”

or “Lockpick to the Priesthood” or “Come Unto Me” or “Pearl Necklace of Great Price” or “Faith is Like a Little Seed”

Authentic stolen holy text, Near Clear silicone, gold pigment.

I went to the mormon church’s website, looked up their views on homosexuality, noted the scriptures they referenced, ripped them by hand out of the bible and book of mormon I stole from their chapel, and then mixed them into a silicone dildo of my own design like confetti. A dildo which will of course be used for homosexual purposes.

I’ve wanted to try dildo making for literally over a decade. I don’t have any fancy equipment like a 3D printer or a vacuum chamber, I made the sculpt by hand, and I fucked up a lot along the way, but all that being said I’m proud of what I was able to accomplish and I learned a lot. I put in more gold than I meant to, but honestly, it was meant to represent scripture’s gilded edges, and as it turned out, it looks really beautiful or quite filthy depending on the lighting, which feels entirely appropriate for scripture.

It was hard to read all of those verses. But as I tore them up I bathed them in the intention to take words that were meant to inflict queer pain wherever they go, and say “Actually, I pull those words out when I want some queer pleasure.” Build joy where they want you to have it the least.

Read about/donate to the Timpanogos tribe, for whom brigham young sent out an “extermination order”

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#replies #figured replying on this version would be better

[xmo-rmon]

“Inseminary”

or “Lockpick to the Priesthood” or “Come Unto Me” or “Pearl Necklace of Great Price” or “Faith is Like a Little Seed”

Authentic stolen holy text, Near Clear silicone, gold pigment.

I went to the mormon church’s website, looked up their views on homosexuality, noted the scriptures they referenced, ripped them by hand out of the bible and book of mormon I stole from their chapel, and then mixed them into a silicone dildo of my own design like confetti. A dildo which will of course be used for homosexual purposes.

I’ve wanted to try dildo making for literally over a decade. I don’t have any fancy equipment like a 3D printer or a vacuum chamber, I made the sculpt by hand, and I fucked up a lot along the way, but all that being said I’m proud of what I was able to accomplish and I learned a lot. I put in more gold than I meant to, but honestly, it was meant to represent scripture’s gilded edges, and as it turned out, it looks really beautiful or quite filthy depending on the lighting, which feels entirely appropriate for scripture.

It was hard to read all of those verses. But as I tore them up I bathed them in the intention to take words that were meant to inflict queer pain wherever they go, and say “Actually, I pull those words out when I want some queer pleasure.” Build joy where they want you to have it the least.

Read about/donate to the Timpanogos tribe, for whom brigham young sent out an “extermination order”

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#thank you for the id i should have included and forgot

[xmo-rmon]

There’s surely a lot to be said about the fact that I can only remember the sound of nursery songs if it includes the sound of me crying

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #feast and testimony #i feel ghosts of the feelings #feeling like a bad person for not being calmed by the music #feeling unsafe and insecure with the other kids #just wanting to go home

[xmo-rmon]

Two decades in the mormon church inform my work, but it was kicked off when I read about brigham young and his militia’s attempt to exterminate the Timpanogos people, and the fact that I had to go looking for this information to learn about it. The mormon church was built on mass murder, and I was out of the church for ten years before I even read the name of the people that were slaughtered.

Everyone should know this. Exmos, mormons, and nevermos alike. The church deserves the full weight of this. The Timpanogos people deserve their land back, they deserve every dollar that has gone into building lavish, white and delightsome temples and malls. But the church won’t even acknowledge that the violence happened, much less drop a single dollar on its victims.

So, in what small way one poor, disabled exmo can, I’m going to make them.

All my religious materials will be stolen from them and used to benefit the people they harmed in some way - no one who sees my art will do so without reading the name Timpanogos and what brigham young did. Any money I make from this effort will be donated to them.

I want to hold up a mirror to the church and invite members to consider why the reflection is frightening to them. I want to empower exmos, pimos, and anyone who opposes the church (and make them laugh). I want to embody the fact that Korihor represents a fantasy that will never come true: mormons never having to be asked to think about what they do or what they’re told again.

I’m Korihor unmuted, and I’m gonna fuck your shit up.

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#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #feast and testimony

[xmo-rmon]

I’m totally floored by the volume of response and the loveliness of said response to the scripture dildo, you guys. Thank you so much! It really means so much to have people recognize my vision for this weird passion project of mine lol

#i was like yknow even if only a couple people see this im proud of what i made #then got my face blasted by rainbows when I checked my phone #its just lovely

[xmo-rmon]

“Inseminary”

or “Lockpick to the Priesthood” or “Come Unto Me” or “Pearl Necklace of Great Price” or “Faith is Like a Little Seed”

Authentic stolen holy text, Near Clear silicone, gold pigment.

I went to the mormon church’s website, looked up their views on homosexuality, noted the scriptures they referenced, ripped them by hand out of the bible and book of mormon I stole from their chapel, and then mixed them into a silicone dildo of my own design like confetti. A dildo which will of course be used for homosexual purposes (with non-lubricated condoms and water based lube, for safety).

I’ve wanted to try dildo making for literally over a decade. I don’t have any fancy equipment like a 3D printer or a vacuum chamber, I made the sculpt by hand, and I fucked up a lot along the way, but all that being said I’m proud of what I was able to accomplish and I learned a lot. I put in more gold than I meant to, but honestly, it was meant to represent scripture’s gilded edges, and as it turned out, it looks really beautiful or quite filthy depending on the lighting, which feels entirely appropriate for scripture.

It was hard to read all of those verses. But as I tore them up I bathed them in the intention to take words that were meant to inflict queer pain wherever they go, and say “Actually, I pull those words out when I want some queer pleasure.” Build joy where they want you to have it the least.

Read about/donate to the Timpanogos tribe, for whom brigham young sent out an “extermination order”

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#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #blasphemy #sacrilege #my art #2024 #this was honestly so much fun #fucking expensive #but so fun

[xmo-rmon]

I have no idea. I left the church about 10 years ago and I only stumbled upon this info a few months ago when I wanted to find something shitty about brigham young to vandalize a mormon bathroom with. It’s like, I had vague knowledge of the mountain meadows massacre for a while, and they even portrayed it in “under the banner of heaven”. But the fact that there was a specific tribe that the mormons tried to wipe out is just not talked about even in most exmo spaces?? I really feel like we have a responsibility to spread awareness of that shit and to take action/donate where we can, having belonged to a group that benefited from and indeed was built upon the violence enacted against them.

Another thing I somehow only recently learned about was the fact that the remains of one of these Timpanogos men were kept on display in a window in temple square in utah literally until the 90s. He was not properly reburied until 1996 - and it was his skull that was on display while the rest of his bones were kept in a cardboard box in a basement at BYU. There’s literally a photo of a mormon man proudly smiling as he holds the stolen skull like a kid who caught a fish.

I should not have had to go looking for this information.

The way that mormons talk drives me absolutely fucking mad. Every word is a delicate lacy curtain draped over a huge pile of shit. Carefully chosen to make sure their ugliest beliefs and intentions are hidden behind gentle and flowery language that circles itself for so long, anyone who is not paying attention might lose their point entirely.

What's stuck in my head right now is how their website says "brigham young said things that would be considered racist today", because there is so much refusal to take responsibility baked into those words.

1 - It is a deliberate decision to mention that he said things and not that he did things, which is far more important. If he just spouted hatred to the congregation, that would be bad enough. But he also murdered so many people. He literally sent out the mormon militia - a fucked up concept in itself - to, in his own words, exterminate the Timpanogos tribe. He sold their women and children into slavery after making them watch the heads of their men rot. But there's not enough flowers in the world to make that look cute, so the mormons just conveniently don't mention it.

2 - This does not in any way indicate that the general stance of the church is that brigham young was wrong to say these things. There is so much barely concealed meaning to unpack. It's not that it would be racist today, it is that it would be considered racist today. We're not going to actually own up to our second president's horrific racism, we're just going to acknowledge that you think it's racist. We will conveniently avoid directly saying our feelings about it, because people would stop thinking we were cute if they knew we literally have to agree with everything every prophet has said and done or the concept of the "one true church" falls apart.

3 - The term "racist" wasn't coined til around the 1920's I think, so it's a helpful technicality to go "it wouldn't have been called racist back then because there was no word for it". But amazingly, things exist before we find succinct words for them - what would inspire us to come up with those words at all? The things that defined racism came long before the word. And that definition, prejudice and hatred and harm toward other races, is something he openly and proudly practiced. Are you going to say that we can't retroactively call anything a spear if it was made before we called it what we do today? The past does not become meaningless when the words for that meaning changes.

"brigham young said things that would be considered racist today" is the most cowardly limp-dicked empty imitation of an acknowledgement. It's just saying "we know that you wouldn't like what he said". Great! We know that too! We also know how you feel about it so you might as well find a spine and admit it!

#feast and testimony #replies

[xmo-rmon]

The way that mormons talk drives me absolutely fucking mad. Every word is a delicate lacy curtain draped over a huge pile of shit. Carefully chosen to make sure their ugliest beliefs and intentions are hidden behind gentle and flowery language that circles itself for so long, anyone who is not paying attention might lose their point entirely.

What's stuck in my head right now is how their website says "brigham young said things that would be considered racist today", because there is so much refusal to take responsibility baked into those words.

1 - It is a deliberate decision to mention that he said things and not that he did things, which is far more important. If he just spouted hatred to the congregation, that would be bad enough. But he also murdered so many people. He literally sent out the mormon militia - a fucked up concept in itself - to, in his own words, exterminate the Timpanogos tribe. He sold their women and children into slavery after making them watch the heads of their men rot. But there's not enough flowers in the world to make that look cute, so the mormons just conveniently don't mention it.

2 - This does not in any way indicate that the general stance of the church is that brigham young was wrong to say these things. There is so much barely concealed meaning to unpack. It's not that it would be racist today, it is that it would be considered racist today. We're not going to actually own up to our second president's horrific racism, we're just going to acknowledge that you think it's racist. We will conveniently avoid directly saying our feelings about it, because people would stop thinking we were cute if they knew we literally have to agree with everything every prophet has said and done or the concept of the "one true church" falls apart.

3 - The term "racist" wasn't coined til around the 1920's I think, so it's a helpful technicality to go "it wouldn't have been called racist back then because there was no word for it". But amazingly, things exist before we find succinct words for them - what would inspire us to come up with those words at all? The things that defined racism came long before the word. And that definition, prejudice and hatred and harm toward other races, is something he openly and proudly practiced. Are you going to say that we can't retroactively call anything a spear if it was made before we called it what we do today? The past does not become meaningless when the words for that meaning changes.

"brigham young said things that would be considered racist today" is the most cowardly limp-dicked empty imitation of an acknowledgement. It's just saying "we know that you wouldn't like what he said". Great! We know that too! We also know how you feel about it so you might as well find a spine and admit it!

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #feast and testimony #feeling rabid this morning

[xmo-rmon]

“Eternal or Nothing”

I mean the more literal question is right there - can I wager 10% of my life’s income? Sure, if it’s in the motherfucking casino of zion.

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#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #sacrilege #blasphemy #my art #2024

[xmo-rmon]

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #okay I’ll go cool off now

[xmo-rmon]

Uh huh

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #gosh we just dont know how it could have happened

[xmo-rmon]

You know, I am by no means a fan of anything joe smith did, but I feel like, despite what he might have said or thought, his intentions were ultimately relatively small-scale because his con was entirely for immediate personal gain. ie: getting to do whatever he wanted with no consequence, mostly in the form of fucking as many women (and girls) as he wanted to while also claiming ownership of them. It was entirely about his own ego. I think mormons like to go “well he allowed a few black men to have the priesthood! he wasn’t racist!” No, he definitely was. He held no respect for black people, but he held no respect for anybody. You think a man who manipulates everyone around him into being his loyal followers is choosy about who can come and tell him he’s a good boy and back him up on the idea that he should get to do whatever he wants? That’s like saying “well he allowed women to be mormons, so he wasn’t misogynistic.” Uh-uh.

And I really do wonder, if things had gone differently, if he had not met the people he did, if he had lived out his life, if his little cult would have fizzled out or at least ended up very fringe today. Men like him start cults all the time. I mean look at jared leto and his harem island.

What I mean to say is, I wonder where the church would be if he never met brigham fucking young.

mormons love to either bury the horrendous things that man did or said, or even say “he said some things that would be considered racist today” and “we need to forgive past prophets for saying things that were normal at the time” and “the church as a whole can’t be represented by one man alone and it’s easy to understand what we truly believe.”

You absolute buffoons, the things he said and did were outrageously racist even for his time. He was a completely batshit mass-murdering maniac. Yes racist sentiments were common in his time but they were not universal, and even then, the average consensus was absolutely not “black people were cursed by god and the greatest blessing we could give them would be to kill them all.” Even in the speech where he says that he acknowledges that most people will not agree with him.

And you cannot create a system where one man is the king that speaks to god and go “well one man doesnt represent the church.” Yes he does, by your design. And no, it’s not easy to understand what you believe, because you’re so flowery and vague in order to avoid taking responsibility for anything. You worship joe smith for giving you the church as you know it today, but he fucking didn’t. You have the church as you know it today because a heartless, cruel man turned it into a colonizing force and literally called to exterminate the indigenous people that stood in his way. The church as you know it today was only made possible by mass fucking murder; you don’t get to go “well that’s not what the church is actually about”. If all that never should have happened then you are basically saying that there should be no mormon church. The very foundation of your institution was built on suffering and death.

“At some point the church stopped giving the priesthood to black men and we have no records as to why”

I wonder who you named your fucking university after then you fucking lying coward

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate #feast and testimony #if there is an afterlife i will find brigham young and rip him apart with my teeth

[xmo-rmon]

“Pearl of great price” she’s so pretentious. It’s a fucking cheap plastic bead

#exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate

[xmo-rmon]

As thy days may demand, as thy days may demand, as thy days may demand, so thy sucker shall be? 😳

#we like low hanging fruit here in the garden of eden #exmo #exmormon #apostake #apostate