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I'm here!

Crazy past 2 weeks!!!

My boyfriend and I moved in together into our own apartment and it's honestly been such a great adventure. I have my first class today and I'm so nervous !!!

At least I won't be there by myself 😄 Wish me luck!!

#texas #nervous #anxious #school #broke #grad school #masters

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MY BOYFRINED GOT THE JOBBBBB!!! 😭😭💗❤️ I'M SO SO SO PROUD OF HIMMMM

Late

So we have this thing at work where we work from home on Fridays. It's been like this since May and I've gotten super used to it. So my bf has a job interview in SA and I told him I'd go with him, but surprise surprise. My boss JUST NOW lets us know to come in tomorrow on a Friday 🤦🏻‍♀️ AHHHH

Well now my bf has to go alone and we were supposed to go look at the apartment we will be moving into and other stuff around SA...

The timing is just not good but oh well lol. Something like this WOULD happen to meeee

#he did that for us #he did it #proud girlfriend #im proud #my baby #so smart #so handsome #loml #heres to us

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Friends

Sometimes I wish we never would've been friends. I think I really need therapy...

I understand the world doesn't revolve around me, but I can't help to think the way I do

My friend moved out of her place and with one of her other friends. And it hurts. Why?

The obvious thing to do is say I'm happy for her and go on with my day. But the thing that goes on through my brain is this...

*Friend moves out and doesn't tell me or my other friends* *I ask her if she moved out in our friend group chat, she says oh yeah like 2 days ago*

My brain: She didn't tell you because she doesn't really care to tell you. She outgrew you and that sucks. I wish I was a more fun friend because she has so many friends and I'm jealous because I'm such an introvert and don't know how to have a good time. Why am I so boring? I wish i had an edge like her. Why don't I matter enough to her for her to let us know she's moving and let us know?

*Goes to her tiktok just because and goes to a video I commented* *Sees she replied to every comment except mine even though I was the first person who commented*

My brain: Oh yeah she just doesn't care

AM I OVER THINKING AND OVER ANALYZING?

#friendship #friends #anxious #stuck in my brain #i need therapy #sad thoughts #introvert #introvert issues #why am i like this #i wish someone cared #no one cares about me

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Late

So we have this thing at work where we work from home on Fridays. It's been like this since May and I've gotten super used to it. So my bf has a job interview in SA and I told him I'd go with him, but surprise surprise. My boss JUST NOW lets us know to come in tomorrow on a Friday 🤦🏻‍♀️ AHHHH

Well now my bf has to go alone and we were supposed to go look at the apartment we will be moving into and other stuff around SA...

The timing is just not good but oh well lol. Something like this WOULD happen to meeee

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A while

It's been a while since I've written anything. I don't even know if Tumblr known where my life is headed. I've had opportunity to write, I've just been lazy...

BOOOO! WE HATE LAZINESS HEREEEE!

But it's ok becuase I've decided that was the last chance I had to be lazy

#lazy #lazy writing #stuck in my brain #texas #life is hard #anxious #laziness #busybee

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November

November is so far yet so close... The United States has become a dictatorship at this point with a façade that it's a democracy. The Supreme Court are dooming everyone in this country just because they can and us normal people are such a joke to them.

Like you're telling me that taking out a bean from my body will send me longer to jail than a rapist??? I don't understand that logic... It makes nooo sense and they don't even care about the living so HOW and WHY do they care more about the unalive.

Correction: PRE-BORN. Because if you have lived and die after, they give the same care as if you were alive,,, NONE. They even charge you taxes for DYING... FOR DYING???

I hate this country so much but so do I hate this world. I want to move to New Zealand because it sounds so peaceful. I thought after the pandemic our world was going to come together but NOPE. The quite fu*king opposite.

This November I'm making sure ALL my friends are voting, ALL my family members that can are voting, ALL the people I know that are eligible to vote to vote. I never cared about politics but the fact it's now a life or death type of situation, it's more that just politics right now.

FUCK THE SUPREME COURT. TEXAS WE NEED TO VOTE BLUE. CHURCH AND STATE SHOULD ALWAYS STAY SEPARATED. MY BODY MY CHOICE. MY RAPIST SHOULD NOT GET LESS TIME IN PRISON THAN ME FOR NOT WANTING THE SPERM HE FORCED INTO MY UTERUS THAT STUCK TO MY OVARIES.

#fuck the supreme court #pro chocie #dictator #vote blue #november #roe v wade #abortion rights #reproductive rights #roe vs wade #my body my fucking choice #my body my choice #my rights #universal healthcare #abortion #texas

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One more dayyyy 😄

Tomorrow is July 1st and do you know what that means????

STRANGER THINGS SEASON 4 PT 2 COMES OUT!!!

AHhhhh! I'm so excited!! I have some theories but I haven't looked into them because I like going into shows blind. Like shows that I'm looking forward to. I haven't even watched the trailer for the second part and don't want to because I don't like spoilers lol.

The only thing I'm scared of happening and don't want it to happen is that Stave is going to die but I'm really just crossing my fingers that he doesn't 😔

#stranger things #strangerthings #st4 #netflix #anxious #what is going to happen #excited #nervous #tv series #netflix shows

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Manifesting 🧘🏽‍♀️

I'm going to move to a new city and have a great new life. I am going to go back to school, and live in an apartment with my boyfriend and a roommate or 2. I will be happier, have clearer skin, get back into exercising, maybe get a new puppy.

#moving #manifesation #love and peace #happy mind #good things #positivemindset #positive mental health #positive manifestation

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Ok but how?

So I'm clearly still hung up on Elvis after watching the movie. And it got me thinking...

There is no way Elvis only has one child... I mean... C'mon...

You're telling me that he slept with so many girls and not ONE of them got pregnant? You're telling me EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE GIRLS was on the pill or used a condom... 😒

#elvis movie #elvis #life is hard #stuck in my brain #random thoughts #cheater #cheaters #austin butler #hound dog #horn dog

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Hound Dog

My boyfriend and I went to go see the Elvis movie last night and it was an experience. Personally, I enjoyed the Aretha Franklin movie more, but we're not here to compare.

So of course I know who Elvis is or WAS, but I never bothered to learn anything about his story. The story the movie portrayed was interesting because it portrayed Elvis as both good and bad. I mean, a rockstar that cheats on his wife? DIGUSTING, MAKES ME HATE HATE MEN... But I wasn't surprised honestly, I was just still hoping that wasn't his story but oh well.

I never knew why Elvis was always connected to Las Vegas, but with the movie I finally understand. These things are probably already known by like everyone who knows about Elvis, but I had just never bothered to know anything about him besides that he is Elvis Presley 😂

I have to admit tho, Austin Butler looked SOO FINEEE, in the movie. I never imagined he would play Elvis but I bought it for a good second. He looked so good in his wardrobe and I could eat him up 🤤. On the other hand, wow if it weren't for his iconic voice and face I would've never known Tom Hanks played Parker

#Elvis #elvis movie #austin butler #tom hanks #las vegas #vivalasvegas #hound dog #movie

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Jinxed

My cousin and I ended up going to the concert of her dreams and it truly was one of the best concerts I've been to in a while. It was so energetic and full of love, it was so perfect. Up until the drummer suffered from horrible heat exhaustion and the rest of the show had to get cancelled 😔 The show was really good and yes I'm disappointed that we didn't get to see the entire show, especially because the show was my gift to my cousin for her birthday. 💔 I'm just glad that everyone was okay, the drummer is doing better, and that my cousin was still able to see her favorite band in concert, even if it wasn't the full thing.

Something is better than nothing and hopefully I can take her again the next 5SOS tour 😥

#concert #live muisc #heat exhaustion #texas #texas heat #this heat is no joke #happy birthday #5sos tour #5 seconds of summer #ashton irwin #recovery

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Oh no

This weekend I have a concert to go to but my coworker didn't come in because apparently she got covid.... bitch what 😩 and yes she came yesterday 😰

#anxious #what #ahhhhh #pls stop #back luck

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Animal crackers

So recently I've been craving animal crackers. I never crave them but last week when I was walking around my house I saw a container and thought that it had animal crackers. They were just chicharones and they're good but I started craving animal crackers out of the blue.

I never went to the store to get some animal crackers but yesterday when my bf came over he brought me some animal crackers and they were SO GOOD 🤤

They truly filled my cravings. I love food and snacks

#animal crackers #snack food #snacks #midnight snack #so yummy #craving

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Weekend

This weekend my friends and I's plan to go to Six Flags finally left the groupchat!!!! And it was sooooo much fun.

I was afraid because I thought it was going to be packed since it was a holiday weekend for Father's Day and also because of Juneteenth. But it was surprisingly dead and it was great because we got to go on just about every ride and I think sometime too fast because we ended up feeling sick afterwards but at the end of the day we were all fine. 😊 It was also really hot so at that point it was nice for the lines to go by really nice. We had to come back that same day which kind of sucked bc it would've been nice to spend a night at SA but either way my friends and I chismiamos all the way back so it was a pretty fun ride back.

I knocked out so fast that night. I ended up sleeping about 12 or 13 hours and it was amazing 😍 BEST SLEEP I'VE HAD IN A WHILEE!!!

The next day was father's day and my family came over and had a normal sunday celebration but instead of a carne asada we had brisket and it was deliciousss 🤤🤤 It was so crazy to me because the day before I told my friends I hadn't had brisket in a long time and then the next day we have brisket!

It was a very good weekend and I wish all my weekends could be like this one but sadly they all won't. but these are the type of weekends worth living for.

#weekend #six flags #fun times #friends #best friend #road trip #travel #sometimes life is good #familia #family #sunday

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Thurs, Fri

I forgot to write about my days last week and I thought they were pretty significant so I would like to put it out there.

Thursday: I woke up in the best mood of the entire week. When I woke up that morning something felt different and my mood took a 180 in the positive direction. I didn't feel lazy to go into work or have anything negative on my mind regarding school. I came to work and it was a normal day, I was actually being productive and it felt nice, I was being a good adult hehe. Then out of the blue my boss tells me and my coworkers we could leave early and ummmm HELL YESS!!! So we all left at exactly 1 and I went shopping to Ulta and treated myself. Then I went over to my boyfriend's and his family from SA was coming down to visit and I ended up meeting them and they were very nice :) Me and my bf also had a very heated but important conversation and we've been arguing a little too much recently but this time we got to somewhere really positive and we let a lot of build up out with resolutions of what we can do to better our relationship.

Friday: My bf and I woke up in a much better and positive mood than the night before. I woke up to work from home that day and did my things, nothing special, besides finish applying to my hometown and SA schools for my masters 😥 we'll see what happens from there... By the time I knew it it was already 4 pm and I finished my work and I just laid in bed with my bby for a few hours until I had to go home and pack and get ready for sunday. It was a good day overall, better than the prior days thats for sure

#workhard #work stuff #school #relationship #stuck in my brain #stay productive #life is hard #life is a journey

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Realization

I've sadly come to term with some things. I can go back to school but not the one I want. I'm going to suck it up, go to school at home, save money, and see what I can use that money for in the future.

I'll try applying to scholarships for next year and maybe I could transfer. I feel like I'm giving up but I'm also okay with that because it beats having all these anxious feelings that only let you sleep 5 hours.

#give up #oh well #life is hard #i need money

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Today I meet with an advisor to help me out with my letter of intent. I feel like I should've done this ages ago, but at the same time I didn't feel any motivation to do this in the past