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bmongmong · 3 years

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Chapter 12 - Here

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Description: You're a young girl, who's a little bit introverted and afraid to be under everybody's eyes. You only have your best friend, but it's ok for you. You don't want to be popular and believe in minimal things. One day you meet a guy. Or two?

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Jungkook's pov

I hold Jungwook close to my chest as he keeps sleeping. I smile a bit at the memory of last night and at how we cried together. He really let it go out of his body and from his sleeping face, it seems like he finally found the peace.

I'm thinking about y/n. It seems like she was right that night, indeed Jungwook confessed his error. But at this point I'm really scared to meet her. She suffered a lot and I guess she doesn't want any more trouble. I really don't know what to do.

As I keep thinking about the situation, I feel my brother waking up, by rubbing his face on my chest. He looks really cute right now.

"Good morning" I say chuckling a bit. He's just humming and whining a bit and eventually sits up.

"Did you think about what to do?" he asks me with his husky voice. I just nod and pat his head. "Don't tell anyone..." he says, but I'm confused.

"What?" I ask frowning my eyebrows in confusion.

"That I cried"

He's blushing so hard and looking away. I still can see his eyes a bit puffy and watery and some tears lines down his cheeks. I just chuckle and nod. I would have never thought that everything would have gone this way.

We got up and had breakfast together. Then he grabs my hand and drags me upstairs inside our room. He makes me sit on my bed and I see him walking towards the closet.

"What are you doing?" I ask scanning every single move that he makes. He doesn't answer, instead he start throwing some clothes on his bed. "Jungwook?"

"You have to meet her. Now." He says still looking at the clothes. I quickly stand up and grab his hand.

"Jungwook....stop." I say serious.

"But you have to, or else it's going to be too late" he says frustrated. Maybe he's doing this because he's feeling guilty and wants to fix everything.

"It's already too late" I say forcing a smile. I didn't want to make him feeling even more guilty and sad, but I had to be straightforward and tell him how things really are.

I see him looking at the ground and after a couple of seconds, starts putting all the clothes back into the closet. He doesn't say a word, but I can feel what his going through thanks to his face expressions. He seems torn.

After a couple of hours, I went to the kitchen and prepared lunch for both of us, while he stayed in our room. I keep calling his name as the lunch is now ready, but no answer. I decide to go to him and tell him that it's time to eat, thinking that he didn't heard me earlier. But as I reach the room, I see him laying on the bed, giving me his back.

"Jungwook, lunch is ready, come downstairs"

"I'm not hungry..."

What? He's not hungry? He usually eats like a pig and now he doesn't want to eat? What's wrong with him?

"Jungwook what's wrong?" I ask as I sit next to him.

"I just don't feel like eating, right now."

I know what's the real reason, he's just acting all grumpy.

"I'll meet her" I say and I see him quickly sitting up and turning to face me with wide opened eyes.

"Really?" his face is lightened up. I swear, how he changes so quick.

"Yeah, but please come and eat." I say rolling my eyes and smiling a bit at his childish behavior. I see him standing up and hopping out of the room.

"I can't believe him..." I whisper to myself as I keep sitting alone in our bedroom.

Now we're eating happily. Or at least he's all happy and bouncy. On the other side, there's me, nervous and anxious. I'm hesitant to go, but I guess my brother is right. Even if we don't end up together, at least I have to listen to what she has to say.

As we finish eating, I start washing the dishes while Jungwook heads upstairs. Once I'm done, I reach him in our room and see him with some clothes in his hands.

"You have to dress up nicely" he says hopping up and down.

"Ok 'stylist', let me put on what you chose" I say laughing a bit at his excitement.

I start to undress and suddenly I feel some hands on my back. That makes me flinch a bit and I quickly turn around to see Jungwook smirking.

"Seriously, I think you have a really nice body brother!" and with that he starts touching every part of my torso, making me laugh and twist around.

"You look so good!" my brother shouts as he claps his hands happily.

"Now all you have to do is to call y/n and ask her to talk" he then continues, changing his expression into a more serious one.

"But how? I mean, what do I tell her?" I ask a bit nervous.

"I think it's better to talk outside her house. Maybe ask her to meet at a café"

I also think that that's a better idea. I want her to breath fresh air. I also don't know how to act. My brother keeps telling me to be natural, but I don't think that'll work. That's because, when I'm with y/n, I'm usually clingy and touchy and also sweet. So I don't think it's a good idea, considering that we're going to have a serious talk.

I take my phone, open the chat room with y/n and start writing a message:

Jungkook:

Hi y/n. It's Jungkook. I hope you're doing fine now. I texted you because I wanted to talk to you. Face to Face obviously. I hope you're free this afternoon and willing to meet me. I'll wait for your answer.

As I send her this, I can feel the nervousness increasing inside me. It's really taking over me. I feel my legs trembling and my chest heavy. I can't wait any longer, but I guess I can't do anything, until she texts me back.

Half an hour as passed and I'm laying on my bed reading a book and waiting for y/n's response. I start to give up as time is passing and eventually end up sleeping.

"Jungkook wake up!" I hear my brother shouting. I wasn't sleeping, but I was trying to. "Y/n answered you. hurry up!"

With that I sit up and take the phone in my hands and read the message.

Y/n:

Hi Jungkook, I'm pretty good now. What about you? Of course I'd love to meet you. Where would you like to talk?

I can't believe she actually accepted my offer.

Jungkook:

Let's meet at the same café. In about an hour. See you later!

I start jumping up and down, but not because of happiness. I'm feeling nervous as hell and I can't stay still for a moment. I feel the adrenaline running from my legs up to my chest, making myself shiver in anxiety.

"I'll go!" I say stuttering a bit.

"Isn't it a bit early?" my brother asks.

"I'm not talking to you" I say looking at nothing.

"Then who are you talking to?" he says confused and looking at me spacing out.

With that question I realize that I was talking to myself, trying to reassure and calm me down. I start walking out of the room putting the phone in my coat's pocket. I run down the stairs stumbling a bit and reaching the entrance door. I take a deep breath and walk outside.

I don't know why but I'm walking as fast as I can, even though I still have a lot of time. As I walk down the street, I keep thinking about a proper speech, but nothing good comes out form my mind. I just keep thinking that she might be really mad at me, for not listening to her that night.

I arrive at the café and wait for her. It's only been twenty minutes since I sent her the last message, so I still have forty minutes to think about what to say. In the mean time I sit at a table and order two glasses of fresh pineapple juice.

Another ten minutes as passed and it's still pretty early, so I decide to play a bit with my phone. As I play the games, I feel a lot more nervous. Maybe I just used my phone as an excuse to not look anxious. And then...

"Can I sit here?"

As I hear that voice I turn around and I see y/n standing with a sweet, yet nervous smile.

She's beautiful.

Y/n pov

I'm walking to the café to meet up with Jungkook. I wanted to arrive earlier than agreed. I guess I'm just nervous and don't know what to say once I'll see him. It's actually been a while since we last talked. My parents told me that he visited me at the hospital, but I was asleep.

As I approach the building, I see a familiar figure, sitting down at a table and playing with his phone. I also notice two drinks on the table. I silently walk towards that person and stand still once I'm close enough.

I wait ten long seconds before talking to him. I admire his hair and back and I slightly see him tilting his head, as he loses the game he's playing.

"Can I sit here?" I try to look as comfortable as possible.

I see him turning around and widening his eyes, once his gaze meets mine. He then looks at me up and down, from heat to toe. He seems surprised to see me this early, but I could say the same, as he arrived even earlier than me.

I just wait silently for an answer, but it seems like he's spacing out, looking directly at me.

"Umh?" I hum, trying to make him come back to earth and earning a positive response, as he keeps nodding his head.

It's a bit awkward, I have to admit it. Neither of us is talking, until...

"I've already ordered something fresh to drink. Here" Jungkook says handing me the glass of juice. As I take a sip from it, I can sense his eyes on me.

"So" I say after drinking "It's been a while" I smile sweetly. I actually missed this. Me and him, alone. I still don't want to get straight to the point, I fist want to enjoy some time together.

"You're right" he says smiling and scratching the back of his head.

"How have you been?"

"Oh, I think fine. What about you?" he asks, looking at me and showing a shy smile.

"I'm feeling better now, thanks" I try to make the situation more comfortable for both of us, by showing my best smile. With that I receive the reaction I wanted, a big big big smile from Jungkook.

"So..." he starts talking, making his beautiful smile shading. But before he could continue talking, I quickly interrupt him:

"Oh did you know I talked with your brother? Both him and Rosé told me that things between him and you got much better" I say nervous. I think, I'm not ready to start talking about me and him.

"Oh yes. We're actually really close now. We talk about everything and go everywhere together. it's the first time in my life, that I've felt this way towards my brother" as he talks, a shy but sweet smile appears on his face. "That's also one of the things I wanted to tell you about. But before there's something else-"

"Oh Rosé also told me that now all of you guys hang out together! That's great!" I say forcing an awkward smile. I try not to look obvious, but I guess it's pretty noticeable how much I want to avoid the main topic of the conversation.

"Y/n...we'll have to talk about it anyways." He says understanding my intentions. "Let's talk about it. the sooner, the better"

At his statement I drop my fake smile and slowly nod, looking at the table.

"Jungwook talked to me" he continues serious. I widen my eyes. What? Did they talk about me? What if they fought for me? Knowing that also Jungwook likes me, is making me a little anxious, even though he told me that he's not the right one for me. But still. Why did they talk?

"He told me about his feelings towards you" he states looking at my hands, which are playing with my long and puffy sleeves. I try not to show a reaction "I know he told you too. When he visited you at the hospital"

"Did he tell you about the visit?" I say concerned. I'm worried that these two really fought.

"Yes and he apologized for everything. He says that he's moving on, but that he can't do it until we both forgive him"

"But...I've already told him how I really feel. Even after all he did, I still don't think of him that way. I mean, I'm not mad anymore"

"That's what I said too." He says looking now at his hands. "So...I guess that the thing with my brother is now solved, right?"

"Yeah" I say nodding.

After that, we stay silent and not look at each other. I think we're both preparing for the next topic, which is going to be about him and me. I can feel the pressure and the tense air that is surrounding us. I think almost ten seconds has passed and it looked like it lasted for forever.

"Now..." he says looking at me, almost like asking for my consent. I nod to reassure him, or maybe to reassure myself.

"Y/n. If only I listened to you that night..." he says lowering his head. He's sad, but he's not crying. I want to answer him, that he's wrong and that it's all my fault. But I find myself biting my lips really hard, to contain myself from crying. "I'm really sorry y/n."

No, no... why is he blaming it all on himself? We all know how things really went. Why is he acting like that? I don't want to speak, or else I'll burst out crying and I don't want him to see me like that. But the pain is too much to handle. I'm thinking that if I don't say anything, we'll go at home by ourself, without coming to a conclusion. Or maybe not the conclusion that I'm hoping for.

"Now I know the truth and I feel guilty. Because if I listened to you that night, nothing of this would have happened." He continues, while playing with the glass of juice in front of him. I swear, my stomach is carrying something really heavy and it hurts too much. Also my heart feels like it's about to break at any moment.

"You suffered, mainly because of me. No...only because of me"

"Stop it!" I shout looking at him and letting a tear drop without realizing. He looks at me shocked. His mouth is slightly opened "Stop it Jeon Jungkook! You also know that it's not true!" he stays silent and watches me starting crying "Why are you so selfish? Perhaps you're thinking that blaming it all on yourself, will make me feel better. But it's actually worse!"

He's looking at me with his eyes, which are now shining due to tears. It looks like he's fighting to keep those tears in place and not letting them fall.

"Now we all know how things really went, so please..." I continue "please..." at that moment I start sobbing hard. I can see him finally letting it go and bursting out crying as well "Please Jungkook. Stop all of this. I think I have to apologize to you, for both kissing your brother and dancing with him. I don't know what got into my mind at those moments, but I know I really hurt you"

As I finish my sentence, I see him opening his mouth to complain about something. As I predicted, he's telling me that it was his fault, so I quickly shush him and talk again.

"Jungkook. Can I be honest with you?" I ask and see him nodding, after a bit "I think that all three of us need to apologize. And also, it's all of our fault. There's no one, who's more guilty than the others. We're all the same."

"I agree with that..." he finally speaks rubbing his eyes "I just didn't want to put more pressure on you." And with that we ended the conversation.

Or I thought...

"Y/n I need to tell you something" he says, now looking directly into my eyes, more serious then ever.

"Jungkook, we already talked about this. We all apologized so everything is fine now and-"

"I know. It's something else"

I don't know why, but the anxiety that left my body a minute ago, came back, this time stronger.

"I love you"

I freeze on my spot. I still see people around us walking and talking, but it seems like time has stopped. Every second that passes feels like an eternity and I can feel my heart hurting. But it's a pleasant type of pain. We waisted so much time, not talking to each other because of a stupid misunderstanding.

"I love you y/n" he repeats "And there was no moment in which I stopped thinking about you"

I can't say anything. I'm still sitting down clenching my jaw and trying not to cry. But obviously I fail. As he keeps looking into my eyes, I burst out crying and Jungkook just sits there looking at me. Everybody is looking at us and I feel like shit.

Suddenly Jungkook's take some cash out of his pocket and put it under the glasses of juice. Then he takes my hand and drags me out of the café. He doesn't say anything and so do I.

We're walking and I'm covering my face, as I keep crying silently. I honestly don't know where he's taking me; all I know is that my body is carrying a lot of pressure and pain. At some point I feel some stairs and eventually remove my hand from my face, in order to look where I'm stepping.

"Where are we going?" I say, but he doesn't answer. He just keeps dragging me, without turning back to me. After a couple of seconds, I realize where we are. The subway.

Still holding my hand, he buys two tickets and then drags me again, towards the rails.

After ten silent minutes, we got on and sat next to each other. I think he's out of his mind, but at the same time I trust him. I have to say something, I need to get this thing off of my chest, or else it'll keep hurting like hell.

"Jungkook I-"

"Not now" he stops me "Not here..."

And with that we stayed quiet, him looking straight on and me looking at the ground. Now I'm calm and pacific, but fore some reason that scene comes back to my mind. 'I love you' those words. As I keep remembering them, I feel a tear dropping on my knees and after that a thumb on my face, cleaning my slightly smudged make-up.

"Please, wait a bit more" Jungkook says looking into my eyes.

Now we got of the subway and we start going up the stairs. I have to cover my eyes due to the strong sunlight, which is making me blind. But then I can see clearly where we are.

At the beach. The same one of that night. As I stop walking, remembering everything about that day, I see Jungkook turning to face me.

"Let's go" he says grabbing my hand and guiding me towards the cool sea. As we walk, I can feel his hand tightening the grip and rubbing his thumb on mine, making me calm down a bit. He knows how nervous I am right now, and I think, it also shows.

When we were close enough, we stopped. Him still holding my hand and giving me his back.

When he turns to me, I feel my heart skipping a beat.

"Jungkook..." I say at a low voice. He doesn't answer and just starts at me, so I'll just keep going with my speech "Let's start from the beginning. I want to do things right this time, without any mistake. So please...forget about our first date and the things that happened that day" I really want to start over again and remove all the bad memories.

"Sorry, but I can't forget it" he answers coldly.

My hearts breaks and hopes drop.

I think that he still wants my apologies and that he can't take those memories off of his mind. Why did I even ask him? I lower my head and the guiltiness hits me again.

"Y/n" he continues "I can't forget about that day. The pain that I felt and the tears that I cried...and our first kiss"

I quickly look up to him, ready to say something, but he smashes his lips on mine, catching me off guard. As I realize what's happening, I give in into the kiss and feel a tear running down my cheek. I ask for entrance with my tongue and after meeting his, I start to feel my body lighter. It feels like all the pain and anxiety have gone and I've finally found peace.

Our tongues are moving in sync, exploring each other mouth, and our lips crashing into each other, has we move our head to the rhythm of the slow, yet passionate kiss. I feel his hands slowly making their way to my lower back and grabbing my shirt tight in his fists. As he loses up the grip on my clothes, I feel his hands pushing me forward, making my body touch with his.

I put my hands around his neck and get us closer to each other, squishing our bodies even more, still kissing passionately. I can feel every muscle of him on my torso and also I feel him lifting his right thigh in between both of my legs.

I feel him smiling through the kiss and, as we keep going, I slowly move my hands from the back of his neck, to his chest. I slightly press my right hand on his left pectoral, feeling his fast heartbeat, like i did last time. And his heart is beating even faster than that day.

As we deepen the kiss, I start to remember every single moment I spent with Jungkook.

From that day, when I protected him from those bullies. Where everything started.

To every single sweet moments we had. And when we almost kissed inside his room.

Also at Jimin's birthday party. When we talked alone and again almost kissed on that big and comfortable sofa.

His face during our facetime on THAT day. All the emotions I felt, while preparing for the date.

Him showing up at my house and asking my parents for permission to take me out.

Our hands together and my confusion when we arrived at the subway.

Also my happiness when we ran and laughed at the beach right after. The romantic dinner at that restaurant and the flying soap bubbles.

Then, the kiss. I can still feel every movement we made with our lips and, somehow, re-enacting now, as we keep making out at the sound of the sea waves.

All I can remember, are only positive things.

We keep kissing as the wind hits weakly our faces and bodies. Both of our hands are fighting to explore our bodies and I can sense our figures getting even closer to each other, making both of us feel the other's body warmth.

After being satisfied with kiss, I feel him pulling away and looking at me into the eyes. I feel my face lighting up, as he speaks to me:

"I love you y/n"

"I love you Jungkook"

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bmongmong · 3 years

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Chapter 11 - Hurts

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Jungkook's pov

"I'm ok" Jungwook says over the phone and I sight in relief "But Y/n is not"

"What?! What happened to her?" I feel my heartbeat increasing and almost making my chest exploding.

"She collapsed due to undernourishment" he says and I stop for a second, remembering that Rosé told me that she seemed skinnier "Come fast!" he shouts and hangs out.

I stand there for a couple of seconds, processing what's happening and once I realize I rush out of the house and start running. It's very dark outside, but the weak yellow light generated by the street lights is more than enough.

I see some people looking at me, as I run down the street. They might think I'm crazy, but I don't care honestly, I need to reach the hospital asap.

It took me a while before getting there and once I entered the building, I asked a nurse to see y/n right away.

"Calm down sir, what's your name?" she asks me.

"J-Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook. I'm y/n boyfri-" I stop as I realize what I'm saying. The nurse looks at me and raises an eyebrow "I'm one of her classmates." It actually hurts as I correct myself.

"Some of your friends already came, I'll take you to them. They already saw y/n, but she wasn't awake." She says as she starts walking down the hallway, holding some medical records in her hands.

She makes me enter a room, in which I find Jungwook, Rosé, Jimin and y/n's parents.

"Guys!" I shout "How is she?" I feel myself almost tearing up.

"Jungkook..." I hear y/n's mum standing up and coming towards me "Don't worry, she's fine now" she continues still crying.

"She didn't eat for days. She told us at every meal, that she already ate something, so we thought that everything was ok" says her husband.

I start crying out loud, feeling guilty. I don't know why, but I feel responsible. Maybe I was too rough with her. If only I would have listened to her that night, maybe things weren't as bad as now.

"I'm sorry Miss and Mr..." I say bowing to them "It's all my fault! If I treated her better, she'd be fine by now" as I keep crying and bowing, I feel a pair of hands on both of my shoulders. I look up and it's y/n's mother.

"Jungkook. Y/n didn't told us much about what happened. She just said that you too had an argument and that it was her fault." She says as she sweep away my tears with her thumbs.

"That's right Jungkook" Rosé says standing up "You don't have to feel guilty"

Everybody kept comforting me, except for Jungwook who's now in a corner sitting on a chair. He doesn't seem mad or sad. He seems nervous. I see him playing with his fingers and moving his leg up and down at a fast pace as he keeps sitting. I don't want him to feel alone or anything else, but I neither want Rosé to start a fight with him. Because, after all, we all know that Jungwook did something.

"Jeon Jungkook" I turn around to meet the nurse "She's still sleeping. The others already saw her, so you can go by yourself inside"

I quickly nod at her statement and follow her, almost running.

We stop in front of a white door. "You can go inside" she says and leaves.

I silently opens the door and make my way in, closing it behind me. I slowly walk towards the bed, which his holding y/n's sleeping figure. I see a metallic stick holding a sack in which is written something unreadable and from that a tube comes out and ends up in a needle, stuck in her arm. That drip actually gives me thrills.

After inspecting the things around her, I look at y/n. She seems so tired. Her face looks dehydrated and I see her cheekbones poking out. She's very pale and her eye bags are really dark and puffy. Then I look at her hands and I see some veins popping out. I decide to take one of her hands in mine. It's really cold, so I take the other one too and start rubbing them against mines.

"Y/n" I say at a low voice, as I sit next to her "I'm so sorry for this. If you only told me everything. No...if I only listened to you that night. You know things are great now. Jimin and Rosé keep going out and kiss in front of everybody. They're really happy together. Jungwook started treating me nicely and now we're really close. Crazy right? I couldn't believe it too. Regarding me...I kept thinking about you." and with that I start crying hard. I couldn't say nothing more.

"I'm sorry y/n. Now I have to go" I say sobbing and place a gentle kiss on her lips. "I love you" that's the last thing I say before leaving the room.

As I close the door behind me, I lean my back on it and sob hard. My stomach and heart hurt so much and my legs are shaking. I slowly slide towards the ground and now I find myself sitting on it, with my knees on my chest.

It's been a week now. And now I'm with my brother, Jimin and Rosé at a café. We're all drinking some fresh juice and talking about random stuff.

"I disagree with that" I hear Rosé saying to Jimin "I prefer black and white"

"But also black and gold looks good!" her boyfriend says.

I swear, they look like children right now. I actually find it cute.

"Yeah, but Black and white is bette- oh y/n is facetiming me!" she says. As I hear that name my heart skips a bit and I look at Rosé with worried eyes. I haven't heard or seen her since that day at the hospital.

"Hiii y/n! Oh you look so much better!" the blonde girl says to her friend "You also seem to have gained a bit of weight. Finally!"

"Yeah, I feel so much better now. Also my parents wanted me to thank you for visiting me last week. Sorry but I was sleeping and I didn't notice you guys" hearing y/n's voice makes me feel so much better. I actually sight in relief, knowing that she's all better now. But now there's only silence.

"I'm sorry..." y/n says and Rosé gives her a confused look "That day that you visited me you told me to eat more, and I promised you that I would have treated myself better. I broke that promise and made all you worried." After that I hear her sobbing and crying "I'msuch a bad person and I only lied to all of you."

"Y/n..." Rosé says trying to hold back her tears "Please don't say these mean things to yourself. We all know how amazing you are and how much you love all of us. It happens to argue with friends, that's normal. So please cheer up and smile for me." there's silence and after two seconds Rosé continues "Good. I love your smile" I guess y/n did what her friend said.

"I think I'll come back from the hospital in maybe two or three days. I guess I'll see you then Rosé" her voice seems calm and sweet and from her tone, I can feel that she smiling.

"Sure, now rest and eat something"

Jungwook's pov

As Rosé and y/n end their facetime, I quickly grab my phone from my pocket and pretend to receive a call from a friend.

"Ok I'll come as fast as I can" I say trying to sound believable. "Sorry guys, but I have to go. It's something important"

"Yeah sure. Be careful as you get home later" Jungkook says smiling sweetly at me.

Now I'm running as fast as I can. I have to do it now, I can't stand this pain anymore. As I run down the street, I see people looking at me. I guess also Jungkook experienced this that night.

"I'm here" I say panting. I enter the building and wait for the staff to notice me, until a young lady approaches me. I tell her my necessity and she responses with a nod and a smile. Now we're walking down the white hallway. I feel my heart beating so fast. I hope nobody can see me right now, because I look really pathetic. Also my reputation would be ruined.

"Here we are" the young girl says to me, then she bowed and left me there.

I only have to enter this door and then everything will follow its cycle. But why can't I open this damn door? It's the first time I feel my heart hurting and all of my muscles numb. I feel like I can't move.

I give up, I really can't. I slowly turn around and start walking away until I hear:

"ATCHUUUU"

Someone inside that door sneezed. That made me come back to my senses. I quickly go back to that door and open it, looking inside.

"Hi. I didn't expect you to come" y/n. She's so beautiful.

"O-Oh sorry. Can I come in?" I say nervous.

"Please don't stutter ahahah. You're making me uncomfortable" she says chuckling and gesturing me to reach her. I slowly walk and close the door behind me. As I walk towards her, I can feel my muscles tensing up and my fists clenching really tight.

"May I know the reason of your visit?" she asks me with a sweet smile.

"I-I wanted to talk to you..." I say looking down.

"Jungwook. Please. Look at me in the eyes as you say it. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable or uneasy. Just be yourself" she says serious. I slowly look up and see her fairy skin glowing under the sun light that is poking through the window.

"I want to redeem myself. I'm sorry. For everything. This time I'll be honest with both of you and myself. We all know how things really went. I want to tell you that it was not because of you. But I've always done these type of things, especially towards my brother. Every time a girl approached him, I would steal her from him, but the joke would end after a couple of days. I don't know why, but this time it was different for everyone of us: you, Jungkook and me. You, because you really liked him, and him, the same. Me...I guess the same too. But I'm not the one and I know that."

"Jungwook...you've changed a lot" she says smiling. As I see her beautiful mouth curling up into a smile, I start to cry. It's the first time I cry in front of someone, but I couldn't contain myself.

"Y/n I'm so sorry" I say sobbing "You don't have to apologize for anything. It's me the one who's wrong. I'll understand if you won't forgive me. I just wanted to take this endless pain out of my stomach. It really hurts... it really does" as I start crying harder, I look down and then feel my cheeks being cupped by her tiny and cold hands.

"Jungwook. Look at me. The past is in the past. Let's look forward" and that made me explode. Now I'm crying and screaming, leaning my harms and head on y/n's legs and letting the pain go out of me. As she caresses my hair she keeps telling me that everything's going to be ok. But for some reasons, her words hurt me even more. They hurt, because I know what I did to everybody and that the pain I'm feeling now it's nothing compared to what they felt because of me.

This are the consequences of my actions. And it hurts so much.

Jungkook's pov

It's been a few days since me and the others went to the café and Jungwook has been acting strangely. He seemed sad. I've never seen him like this, so I decide to talk to him.

"Jungwook" I say catching his attention "Is everything alright?"

"Yeah, why?"

"O-oh nothing. Just wanted to say that, if you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you"

And that was our last conversation for about two days. He seemed to avoid me, but I tried to ignore that and just think that he was tired.

Rosé told me that y/n got finally home from the hospital and that now she regained almost every kilo. I'm actually happy to hear that, but also sad, knowing that she won't be part of my life anymore.

Now I'm reading a book in my room alone, laying down on my bed. I hear the door opening slowly and I see Jungkook standing on the side of my bed. At first I don't bother him, but after a couple of minutes it starts to give me anxiety.

"Please sit down, you're making me nervous!" I say chuckling a bit.

"Jungkook, let's talk"

Now I'm really nervous. I see him taking away my book and sitting next to me on my bed. He's looking into my eyes, making me shiver a little. I look away in both embarrassment and fear.

"I'll tell you everything. From the top to the bottom" he says as he keeps staring at me

"You know how I enjoyed stealing your girls in the past years. It really made me feel the best in the world, knowing that all women would fall on the ground for me."

I don't know where he's going with this, but I'm listening carefully at what he's saying, still looking away.

"It was the same this time. You found another girl and I just had to steal her. But something went wrong. Both you and her started to have real feelings. And I guess me too"

At that I widen my eyes and finally look back at him.

"Please don't ask me why, when or how. I guess I fell for her too. She's not even my type. But the thing is, that something didn't go as planned. She didn't fell for me, but I fell for her. And...I also fell for you"

I start blushing, my mind wondering what that could mean. I'm thinking bad things like he fell in love with me, so I start blushing hard.

"I know what you're thinking. Put those thoughts away please" he says chuckling and shivering as he imagined the romantic scene between me and him "What I'm trying to say is that I felt wrong. With the other girls it was different, because neither of you or them were truly in love. But this time I feel like I fucked up really bad. It was supposed to be one of my pranks, but I guess I'm getting bad at this."

I'm actually confused. He's saying lots of things in a mixed order. He's never been good with speech and I guess it shows.

"Ok I'll get to the point" he says noticing my confusion "I'm the one who kissed y/n first and the one who teased her during Jimin's party. Maybe it's too late but I wanted to take this pain away and start all over. I know I was selfish, waiting to tell you. But I couldn't find the right words or moment. If you won't forgive me, I'll get it. I said the same things to y/n and-"

"You talked to y/n?" I ask at him.

"Yes, the other day at the café, I faked a call and went to her. Don't worry I did nothing to her. I just told her everything, like I'm doing right now with you. she's very kind to forgive someone like me..." he says forcing a smile and looking at the bed. I notice his eyes teary and I quickly hug him.

"Jungwook" he doesn't answer, he just wraps his hands around my body. "let it all out"

And with my words, I feel him sobbing hard in my arms. At that sight, I can't also contain myself and lean my head on his, which is now resting on my shoulder. While we cry hard, I hear him mumbling something as he sobs:

"I'm so sorry. Please forgive me"

My heart breaks at his words.

"Please...please" he can't talk due to the sobbing and crying. I just hold him tighter and caress his back with my hand.

"Shhhh" I say to calm him down "Of course I will forgive you"

We ended up crying all night and falling asleep.

The next morning, I wake up, with him still in my arms.

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Chapter 10 - Change

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Jungkook's pov

It's been a few days now and I haven't seen y/n since the date night. I'm not mad at her. After all it's not the first time that my brother steals a girl from me. It actually happens all the time.

But this one was different. She made me feel some type of emotions, that I didn't even think they could exist.

That hurt me a lot. If she only would have told me.

Even now, I'm willing to listen to her. But I don't think I will believe her. It's not believing in her or no. I guess it's something else. But I don't know how to describe it.

It's really sad these days since y/n doesn't come to school and Rosé told me that she doesn't answer her text messages. She's planning on visiting her one of these days, without telling her. I think for now, is better this way. I think, it' would be too awkward if the two of us meet right away. We both need some time.

Honestly, I don't think I can face her.

Also my brother, Jungwook, seems different. Usually after stealing my girl, he would tease me for forever. But after that morning in class, when Rosé was that angry, he didn't do anything to me.

Perhaps because I don't leave my room when I'm at home and when I'm in class I'm always by myself in a corner, like the beginning of school.

I think Jungwook noticed that this time it was different, for every single one of us. In the past I've never really had feelings towards those girls. But this time I really fell in love with y/n. That's why it hurts more than ever.

I'm in my room now, and as I keep thinking about my life, I hear a knock on the door.

"Come in" I say.

I see Jungwook entering the room.

"You don't have to knock on the door. It's also your room" I say, now looking at the book I'm holding. I didn't even realize that for all this time I was reading a book, while thinking about all that mess.

"I prepared a sandwich. Here" my brother says putting that thing on my desk. And leaves right after, closing the door silently.

"What's wrong with him?" I question myself. He's strange. He's never done stuff for me. He also has never talked to me, if not for school stuff.

I slowly took the sandwich he made for me and look at what's inside, to see if he may poisoned it or not. It looks like a regular one, with a bit of salad, tuna and mayonnaise. I'm a bit hesitant at first, but eventually end up giving a big bite on it. it's actually good!

I smile a bit at my brother little present. I know it's only a sandwich, but it's actually the first gift I've ever received from him.

We don't hate each other. We just disagree with everything.

Another day has passed and now it's Thursday morning.

Y/n didn't show up at school today. Again. I think she won't come until next week at this point.

Now we're waiting for the teacher to come inside the classroom, but I start to feel a bit hot. I try to make some wind with my hands in front of my face, but I keep sweating. I suddenly choke on my spit and start coughing hard.

"Here" I hear Jungwook voice. I turn to face him and he's handing me a bottle of water. I quickly grab it and start drinking right away, to make myself calm down and be able to breath properly.

"T-Thanks..." I say surprised by his actions and hands the bottle back to him.

"you can keep it" he says, now looking at his notebook.

Everyone is looking at me and Jungwook shocked. My jaw drops. What? It's the first time ever he talked to me in front of our classmates. I guess everyone else is surprised about this, as I see their widened eyes and mouths opened.

I try not to think too much about this and keep doing the lesson.

As the class ends I feel someone calling my name:

"Jungkook, I didn't understand this part of the lesson. Can you explain it to me real quick?" it's Jungwook again. he doesn't look at me. His eyes are focused on his notes, in particular on a specific line at which he's pointing is finger at. I nod, but before explaining it to me, I look up worried, to see everyone looking at us again.

What's happening to him? Since when did he start studying?

Before leaving the classroom, I grip on Jimin's arm, hinting him that I needed to talk to him.

"Do you perhaps know what happened to my brother?" I ask a bit unsure of his possible answer.

"I honestly don't know Jungkook. Both me and Rosé were so shocked, when we saw his behavior today. I don't really know what got into him. But I guess it's better now, that he gives you some respect" he says patting my shoulder and leaves with his girlfriend.

Now I'm in my room, reviewing today's lesson, when...

"Jungkook!" I hear my brother screaming from downstairs "Come here please". Please? Did he really say 'please'? What is happening again.

As I make my way on the steps I see him on the couch, holding a pen and looking at a book, which is laying on his knees.

"Oh you're here!" he says enthusiastic "Come fast"

I quickly run to him and see him trying to solve a problem. As I look at the description, I notice that it's the homework that our professor gave to us. He's really doing homework?

"Did you hit your head or something?" I ask him confused.

"If you don't want to help me, you can go" he says to me. I slowly sit next to him and start explaining everything.

Once I'm done with my explanation, I hear him saying:

"Thanks brother" and going upstairs in our room. He's really strange. Not that I don't like this, but I think that there's some reason behind his behavior.

In a blink of an eye, it's Friday morning. I'm changing into my clothes and getting ready to go to school. After preparing all my stuff, I go downstairs to eat breakfast and I find Jungwook eating.

"I prepared some pancakes for both of us. Want some?" he asks me. I'm a bit hesitant but eventually end up sitting in front of him and trying the dish he prepared.

"It's really good!" I say widening my eyes and looking at him. And at that moment I freeze.

Is he really smiling at me? I mean, he smiled even before, but this time it's not one of his evil smiles or grins. I'm literally speechless. Did I really do something to him? I don't know if to be happy of afraid.

"Good, now I'll change into my clothes. I'll meet you at school" and with that he goes into his room.

I'm literally shocked.

Now I'm in class. It has already passed an hour and y/n hasn't shown up yet. This makes me feel sad a bit.

"Jungkook" I hear Rosé calling my name, so I turn to face her "I forgot to tell you that yesterday I went to y/n's house, to check on her" I can feel my eyes lighting up as I hear that name.

"How is she?" I ask a bit concerned.

"She seemed ok. She was wearing very baggy clothes. She said it was because she wanted to be comfortable around the house. But from her face I could notice that she lost a bit of weight. A part from, that she seemed fine"

I'm a bit revealed to hear that actually. I mean, after all I still love her. This feeling won't go away, but on the other hand I don't want to go back to her after knowing that she kissed my brother. Everybody says that it was Jungwook who first kissed her, but my brother didn't say so. After all there were only him and y/n at that moment, so anybody doesn't really know how things went. Except for Jungwook and y/n.

Who should I trust? My brother? The one who made my youth like hell? Or Y/n? the one who stole my heart and right after broke it, lying to me?

As I think about these questions, I notice that the professor is testing my brother on the problem I explained him yesterday. I don't know why, but I want him to get a good mark. As he writes on the white board, it seems that he got my explanation and that he understood the problem.

"Great Jungwook! Now you can go to you seat" says the professor after a while.

All eyes are glued on Jungwook, as he walks towards his chair and sits. I also look at him and I see him forming a kiss with his lips and looking at me.

What was that? Everybody are now looking at me, and I'm blushing really hard. Like what the hell? Am I really blushing because my brother just sent me a flying kiss? What is happening really.

Now I'm in my room, with my brother. I'm at my desk studying and he's laying down on his bed, watching some videos with his phone. I don't know why, but I really like this sensation. The fact that we're both in the same room and I don't have to be nervous.

"AHAHAHHAHAHHAH" I hear him laughing hard "JUNGKOOK COME HERE AHAHAHAH"

I turn around and see him holding his belly and crying with laughter. I stand up and sit next to him, but I feel his arm around my shoulder and he makes me lay next to him, still with his arm around me.

"Look!" he says smiling like crazy. He shows me a really funny video. As much as I try to hold in my laughter, I explode and laugh with him.

I feel so happy right now, it's the first time I laugh like this with my brother. I don't want this moment to end.

We ended up watching funny videos all day long and laughing together, him still with his arm around me.

By the end of the day I look at him and realize how much time we've wasted over some useless and random fights.

And that's how we ended our day: laughing like crazy and holding each other.

A couple of days has passed and now it's Monday morning. I spent the rest of the weekend having fun with my brother, watching funny videos and studying together. I still don't know why he's changed so drastically, but I don't want to know. I'm afraid that if I ask him, something bad will happen. So I'll leave things like this and enjoy these precious moments.

Another class just started everyone looks shocked as I ask Jungwook to go shopping with me today. And they freeze even more after they hear my brother saying yes to me.

After classes, we headed to buy some clothes right away. I asked Jungkook for some advices. I wanted to try some new styles.

Now I'm in the changing room trying on other clothes, when I hear my brother saying:

"Wow Jungkook. You have a really nice body!"

I turn around seeing him looking at my body and quickly cover my self in embarrassment, looking away blushing. He insists to see my body and once I give in, he keeps complimenting me more. He's talking about how good my abs look and about my pumped chest and arms. It's not that I do much, I just some random exercises when I'm alone.

"Great, now you have a whole new wardrobe!" Jungwook says holding a couple of bags full of new clothes.

"Jungwook" I say firmly "Why did you change all of a sudden? Not that I don't like the situation right now, but I'm really curious. Please be honest" as I ask him that question I see his big smile becoming small.

"It's just..." he says looking down "I just think that we had no reason to fight over stupid things" he the continues with a sweet smile. It doesn't seem like he's faking it or forcing it. It rather seems like it's the truth and that there's something else, but I don't want to ruin our relationship, so I won't ask until he's fully ready.

Now we're back home and I'm putting my new clothes in my closet. Jungwook is helping me and in the meantime and he's singing a sweet and romantic song. The words he's singing reminds me of y/n. It hurts a little. No, very much. It really hurts like hell.

Why do I still feel this way towards her, even after what she did to me? Or maybe she didn't mean to cause all of this chaos. She lied to me, I get it, but for some reason, I've already forgiven her. Unconsciously.

Me and my brother decided to watch a horror movie. We're not afraid of these kind of movies, but I have to be honest, we both really hate jump-scares. Speaking of that, one of that comes right after and we both jump in surprise.

I find him hugging me tight and I freeze, without knowing what to do. His head is now resting on my chest and his arms are around my body. after a couple of seconds he slowly looks up at me and we lock eyes. It's actually really awkward but funny at the same time. I burst out laughing.

"AHAHAHAHAHAH THE STRONG JUNGWOOK IS AFRAID OF A MISERABLE HORROR MOVIE" I say laughing and teasing him.

"That's not true!" he shouts back at me, making me flinch and become serious.

We're looking at each other. Him mad because of my teasing and me scared that I may ruined our relationship, until...

"Pff" I see him laughing a bit and then we both burst out laughing again and holding each other.

The days went by pretty fast and I really enjoyed my time with my brother. We really became close and talked about everything. Y/n didn't show up once and now I really miss her so much. I think this feelings towards her, will never go away. A part from that, things were going great, until Friday.

We're in class right now and I'm talking to Jungwook, explaining him another math problem.

"You need to do this, in order to solve it" I say.

"Ohh I see"

Now I'm used to everyone staring at us. I mean, as long as I'm happy with him, nothing else matters, right? I still think that there's something more behind his sudden change , but I don't really want to make him angry or sad, so I just stick with this and keep my doubt.

As the class ends, I start to think about y/n, again. maybe I should go and visit her. Or maybe she doesn't want to see me. Right. Wait, what? She's the one who lied to me, so it should be me the one that doesn't want to see her. But why do I feel this way? Is she really the right one for me?

I kept questioning myself the whole day, until 4 PM.

"Jungkook!" I hear my brother calling my name "I'm going to hang out with Jimin and Rosé. Do you want to come?" he says smiling brightly.

"No, I think I'll stay at home today. I'm really tired, I think I'll sleep a little"

"Oh..." I see him a bit sad "ok, make sure to rest well!" he then says, showing me a sweet smile.

He left, and now I'm alone in my room. I stayed in bed all day, thinking about my brother and y/n.

Now it's 8 PM and it's really dark outside. My brother will come home at any moment, so I'll prepare something to eat for both of us. I grab my phone and head downstairs. I open up the fridge and look what's inside. I see a bag with some steak in. As I take it in my hands, I remember the date with y/n and when I fed her a piece of the same steak. I smile a little at the memory, but then I feel a tear leaving my eyes. It keeps hurting even more than before. I really like her. No, I love her. Everything she does.

I hear my phone ringing and as I take it out I rub my eyes, making my tears disappear and then look at the screen. It's my brother.

"Jungkook, come to the hospital! Now!" he shouts. He seems out of breath, like if he ran.

"Why? What happened? Are you ok?" I ask really worried.

"I'm ok" he says and I sight in relief "But Y/n is not"

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Chapter 9 - No words

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n pov

After a bit we arrived to our destination. As we get off of the subway I feel Jungkook holding my hand. I smile and blush, but I want to show him that I care about our "relationship". So I naturally intertwined our fingers. He looks a bit surprised by my actions and whispers:

"You're so cute"

Uffff why am I always the one that blushes really hard? He's too good at this, even though he didn't date many girls. I feel really great with him, I feel safe.

As we go up the stairs, I see the sea from far away. Oh my god. A date. At the beach. Watching the sunset together. I think I can die in piece after that.

"I know it's early now, but we can wait for the sunset and go and dip our feet in the sea" Jungkook proposes. I'm really excited, as we reach the beach I quickly let go of is hand and start running.

"Try and catch me if you can!" I shout at him. But I'm dumb. I'm wearing high heels and I'm running on the sand.

I hear his laugh getting closer and closer until he reaches me and takes me in his arms, carrying me bridal stile.

"I won" he says with a cocky smile "I need a prize"

"Ummh, do you deserve it?" I say, still in his arms. He just nods trying to hold back his smile, but obviously fails. "Ok I'll give it to you"

"Yesss! Finally-"

"Later" I cut him off. I see him disappointed a bit, but I want to play a little. Also I want to find the perfect moment. "Come on! Let's dip our feet in the sea!" I say getting off of him and removing my heals.

"Ok princess" he whispers, but I could hear what he said. That made me blush very hard. I actually liked that.

As we dip our feet together, we start screaming and laughing. We ran and jumped for a bit, then he takes my hand and I rest my head on his chest as we keep laughing. It's a bit difficult to stand still, since I can feel my feet sinking down the sand. To prevent me from falling, he hugs me tight, holding my head with one hand and caressing my back with the other one.

"This is perfect" I whisper, so that he can't hear me.

"What did you say?" I can feel his heart beating so fast.

"Nothing" I say with a childish tone. He starts tickling me and now we're back to laughing out loud. We look like an actual couple. Except that we're not. I really wish things between him and me would be like this for forever.

About an hour has passed and now it's 7.30 PM.

"Let's go and eat dinner" Jungkook proposes as he puts on his shoes, after his feet were fully dried.

"Yessss, let's go!" I say "I'm really hungry right now!"

We're now at the restaurant, eating our food.

"You were really hungry y/n!" Jungkook says smiling like crazy, as he sees my already empty plate. Then he cuts a bit of his steak and stick it to his fork. "Here, say ahhh" he says bringing the fork close to my mouth.

"It's embarrassing..." I say blushing and checking around us if someone was looking.

"You still have to give me my prize" he says knowing that he was right. I give in and open my mouth. "Aaaaammmmmm" he says as he puts the piece of meat inside my mouth. "You're so cute y/n" he states as he looks at me chewing the piece of meat.

He gave me a pretty big piece and now my cheeks are full. I probably look stupid. But he seems to enjoy this, so it's ok.

After he finished, he asks the waiter for the bill and eventually he received it.

"How much is it?" I ask him "Should we pay half and half?"

He hides the bill inside his pocket and gives the waiter banknotes.

"Thank you so much" he says to the staff man as he goes away.

"Jungkook!! I wanted to pay too! You've already paid for the subway ticket and now you're also paying for the dinner" I say pouting.

"Y/n seriously. Stop it. I'm the man, I pay" he says smiling.

"But also women should pay..." say looking at the table. I feel a little bit guilty. He does so much for me, and the only thing I did to him was to hurt him.

"Ehi princess" he says patting my hair "Please don't be sad, I really want to pay"

After that we go out of the restaurant and decided to go to the beach again. As we get close enough the sea we decide to sit on he ground. But before doing that, Jungkook takes off his jacket and put it on the sand and gestures me to sit on it. I nod and smile. He's really kind and heartwarming.

While we admired the beautiful sunset, we started talking about random stuff, from school to my parents. We were laughing and smiling like crazy. I felt so happy, I really couldn't stop smiling. I felt the excitement running through my body.

It's very dark now so we decide to turn on our phones' flashlights.

"Oh I have a surprise!" I say searching for something in my purse.

"What is it?" Jungkook says laughing a bit.

"Ta-daaaa! Soap bubbles!" I say as I open the lid and making some bubbles.

"Wow it look so pretty" he says as he pops a bubble. "Like you" I choke a little, inhaling some soap, due to the surprise. I mean, he's been complimenting me all day, but I didn't expect it right now.

As we make some more bubbles, I look at Jungkook and suddenly feel something hitting my heart really hard.

It doesn't hurt, but it makes me cry without realizing.

"Y/n why are you crying?" Jungkook says worried "What happened?" he says rubbing my tears away with his thumb. I don't really pay attention to his question. I'm mesmerized by his self being. He's really perfect, in everything. I think I just fell in love.

"Y/n answer me! What's wrong?"

"O-Oh, sorry, I think some bubbles went into my eyes" I find an excuse. He seems to believe it, since he sighted in relief. Then he got back to making some more bubbles.

"Jungkook" I say. It's not like I'm the one who said it. It's more like my mouth spoke by itself.

"Yes?" he says without looking at me. He's too busy making bubbles.

"Do you want your prize?" I ask.

"What do you mean y/n? You already gave me the prize. When you let me feed you the piece of steak. I didn't win any other game" he says confused and now looking at me.

"You're right. You didn't win any other game. You won over my heart" and without thinking about it twice, I connect our lips. He seems shocked at first, but after a couple of seconds I feel his right hand on my left cheek.

Then we pull away and look at each other. But I want more.

I close again the space between us and give him a long kiss. I can feel him whining a bit and his tongue brushing against my lips, asking for entrance. I open my mouth, letting his wet tongue invading it.

Our tongues are now moving in sink at a slow pace. It's a very romantic kiss.

But things get heated pretty soon. I feel both of his hands on my waist and suddenly he lifts me up, making me sit on his lap, with his hips in between my thighs.

I fasten the pace of the kiss and I hear him groaning, as I deepen the kiss even more. His hands are now resting on my lower back, pressing my body against his, while I move my hips to the rhythm of the kiss.

I can hear him mumbling something in between the kiss.

"Y/n...you make me go crazy"

I go rougher on the kiss to make him stop talking. Not that I don't like it when he says these kind of things, but now I need him.

My hands trail from the back of is neck to his pumped chest. I press the right one against his left pectoral and I feel his heartbeat going crazy.

I feel him pulling away, but before he could do that, I bite his lower lip, making him moan.

"That's exactly how I imagined it, since the beginning" he says breathing hard and running out of breath.

We're both breathing hard and trying to calm down. He cups my cheeks with his hands and presses our foreheads together. We lock eyes together and just stare at each other. Before standing up, he presses our lips together one more time and kisses me passionately.

"It's time to go" I say smiling through the kiss. I hear him whining, but he keeps going. His hands are now all over my body and I feel like I can't contain my little moans. I slightly push him away and say:

"Jungkook, we're going to be late" and I stand up putting on my shoes. I see him leaning his body a little bit backwards and looking down.

"What's wrong Jungkook?" I ask a bit concerned. But then I notice where he's exactly looking. I can see something pocking through his white jeans. I widen my eyes and blush really hard. I turn around, giving him time and privacy to fix himself. I didn't think it was that easy.

I can hear him standing up and putting on his jacket and, still facing the other way, I say shyly:

"Let's go"

But I feel some arms around my belly.

"I'm sorry y/n" he says, but I can feel him smiling a bit "I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable"

"Don't worry Jungkook. I-I'm also sorry, I didn't want to do....that" I say covering my face due to embarrassment.

After that we eventually got to the subway and after a bit, we arrived at our hometown. Now we're walking towards home on the dark and empty road. He insisted to get me home first, like always.

We're almost here, but before heading towards the entrance, he pulls me into a hug.

"I really hope you had fun today" he says caressing my upper back. I nod at his statement and hug him back.

"Can I have...." I whisper.

"Can you have...what?" he says confused. I don't answer and just hide my face in his chest. I'm too shy to say this out loud.

"Perhaps you want this" he says taking my face with his hands and lifting it up, so that now I'm looking at him. Before moving, he gives me a reassuring smile and then connects our lips together. This time, I'm the one who asks for entrance. As I brush my tongue against his lips I hear him chuckling a bit and eventually giving up, making his tongue meeting mine. As we deepen the kiss, we hear someone talking:

"Wow, so you guys are a couple uh?"

We quickly pull away and turn around to meet the person who just talked. I can't believe my eyes. Jungwook. What is he doing here, outside my house?

"W-What are you doing here?" Jungkook asks his brother.

"I could ask you the same, little brother" he has an evil smirk. Then his attention drafts to me. His gaze makes me remember all the things that happened between us and with that, my anxiety comes back and hits my body.

"I came here for a reason" the evil one says "You know that I love you, right?" he says looking at his brother, who's now crossing his arms and rolling his eyes. "I want to tell you the truth, because I don't want you to suffer anymore" and with that I feel like the world fell on top of me. I feel my legs shaking.

"What do you mean?" Jungkook says confused "Now I've finally found my happiness" he says referring to me.

"And I'm glad about that" his brother says smiling "But I want to tell you that, your happiness is just an illusion" he says pointing at me. Jungkook looks at me confused, but he changes expression as soon as he sees mine. All my facial muscles are clenched and my mouth trembles.

"Y/n. Is everything ok?" he says a bit worried. I don't answer and just look at Jungwook, who's now approaching us. He puts his hands on both of mine and Jungkook's shoulder and says:

"Did she tell you?" he locks eyes with his brother and I start to feel a bit dizzy. Jungkook shakes his head in response, not knowing what to expect.

"I guess I'm the one that has to tell you" Jungwook says glancing at me for a second and focusing on his bother right after. "One day I was at a café with Jimin and we coincidentally met Rosé and Y/n"

I feel my eyes wet as I remember about that day. All my emotion gathering up at my brain, giving me total confusion.

"Jimin and Rosé had to talk about something" the long haired guy continues "and left me and y/n alone. We talked for a bit, bickering a little. You know, she's a hot head. But then...I find her lips on mine"

I see Jungkook's face dropping and finally I feel a tear leaving my eyes.

"What? That's not true!" I say interrupting him "you kissed me!" I try to defend myself.

"It's that true y/n?" the poor guy asks me with tears in his eyes. I stay silent and Jungwook answers for me.

"Of course it's true, but she didn't want to tell you. I guess she thought you wouldn't believe her"

"Why....Why y/n?" Jungkook says stuttering a bit. He's not mad or sad. He's disappointed. His facial expression is killing me inside. I feel the guiltiness and the pain building up as the conversation goes on.

I know that's not how things went, but no words come out of my mouth.

"Oh and also Friday night, at Jimin's birthday." Jungwook continues grinning a bit. "She was staring at my body as I danced to the rhythm of the music. Her gaze didn't leave me for a second!" he says in disbelief, but he's faking it.

"Stop it..." I say at a low voice.

"Then she approached me" he says smirking.

"Stop it..." I repeat as he goes on.

"And she pressed her back against my body" he says now looking at Jungkook. I keep telling him to stop at a low voice, but he doesn't want to listen to me.

"Then I started kissing her neck and she even pressed my head deeper, in order to make her feel more pleasure"

"Please stop it..." I say sobbing silently.

"She didn't push me away" Jungwook continues. From his tone, it seems like he's the right one "I guess she really liked my dick rubbing against her ass-"

I slap him really hard on the face. He's looking at me smirking, as he cups his cheek with one hand. Jungkook is looking at the ground. None of us is saying a word. Until:

"Y/n... if you'd told me, I would have believed you. After all of this time. After today. After all of our hugs" Jungkook says as I start crying harder "After our kisses...I don't think I can believe you now"

With that I feel like someone hit my heart with a hammer. I felt a shot and then nothing for about two or three seconds. But right after it felt like hell.

I know it didn't go this way, but all that leave my mouth are only hums and stutters. I forgot how to speak. I reach out for his hand, but he quickly puts it in his pocket.

He looks at me, one more time. Shakes his head with his teary eyes. And leaves right after. I feel my legs shaking even more, till I can't stand and fall on the ground. Then Jungwook lowers his body at my level and says:

"I told you I wanted to do something fun" his smirk doesn't leave his mouth.

I see him walking away too, leaving me out of my house, still on the ground. I stay like this for a bout 5 minutes processing what just happened.

Rosé's pov

It's very late now, but for some reason I can't sleep. I'm still waiting for y/n to tell me about her day, when I hear a knock on my door. I quickly go towards the entrance, hoping that my parents won't wake up. I slowly open and...

Y/n is standing there, with her make-up all over her face and really red eyes. She doesn't say a word. I look around to see if my parents were somewhere near us and when I see no one, I quickly grab her wrist and drag her to my room.

She doesn't say a word. As she sits on my bed, I look for a pajamas to give her and after finding one, I ask her:

"Did you warned you parents that you're not going home?" she just shakes her head. I look for her phone in her purse and quickly send a text message to her mum, pretending I was y/n.

After she changed and I helped her taking off her ruined make-up, I make her sit on the bed again and ask her to tell me everything.

"Jungwook....that bastard" I say in between my teeth "I swear tomorrow I'll break his legs-"

"No Rosé" she interrupts me "He's right. It's my fault" it looks like she's hiding her emotion. I want her to open up and take out all the pain. At least for tonight.

"That's not true y/n. We all know how things really went. It was him all along." She knows I'm right, but I don't know why, she keeps blaming it all on herself.

I take her hands and look at the ground. The I finally hear her start sobbing hard.

"I know it's not my fault" she says showing me a really painful expression "But if only I told him..."

Maybe that's right. If she told him about the kiss, I think things would have been ok by now. Jungkook is not that type of guy who just gets mad and throw stuff. He would have listened to her and also believed her. But we can't turn back in time.

After crying for half an hour, she fell asleep and so did I. Now it's really early in the morning and me and y/n are heading out of my house before my parents could wake up. As we pass by her house she says:

"Today I feel like I don't want to go to school"

It's the first time she stays home from school. I guess this episode is really too much to handle for her. I nod and see her getting inside her house. I don't think she'll tell the truth to her parents. Maybe she'll just say that she feels a bit sick.

Now it's my turn.

I'm walking as fast as I can to school and once I entre my classroom, I surprisingly find only Jungwook and Jimin.

"You asshole" I say as I walk fast towards the long haired guy and punch him in the face. I feel Jimin's harms around my body and pulling my up so that now my feet are not touching the ground.

"Rosé, calm down!" my boyfriend says to me "What happened?"

"This bastard deserves a lesson" I say looking angrily at Jungwook, who's now smirking like crazy.

"So" he says "I guess your friend already told you everything" he's really cocky and bossy. I suddenly spit on his face, earning an evil laugh from him.

"Rosé!" Jimin calls my name "Stop it! Can you tell me what happened?"

"This son of a bitch ruined the relationship between y/n and Jungkook. He told his brother bullshits. We all know that's not how things went" I'm really angry and I think it shows. If Jimin lets go of me, I think I'll really beat Jungwook up.

"You told you brother about the kiss?" Jimin asks the evil guy.

"Not only that. I also told him about how me and y/n danced together, grinding at each other's body"

With that, I break free from Jimin's hold and push Jungkook against the wall. I was about to punch him again when I heard someone behind me talking.

"Stop this" it's Jungkook.

"Jungkook!" I shout turning to him "You know that's not how it really went! He told you the wrong version of the story! If you only listen to y/n, I'm sure everything will be alr-"

"Stop it. I've heard enough from everyone of you" he says. He's not mad. Not sad. I can't describe his state. He looks emotionless, but at the same time very hurt. I'd never expect our group to end up like this.

No words.

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Chaper 8 - Date

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n

I freeze a bit. Why does he want to talk to me? I bet it's because of what happened earlier.

While I nod at him, I notice Rosé and Jimin going upstairs, holding hands. Then I remember about the surprise. I see Jungwook going after them. I need to stop him.

"Don't go Jungwook!" I shout.

"Why can't I? Do you want me so bad?" he answers me smirking.

"No!!! it's just...leave them alone please..." I say almost whispering. Both him and Jungkook look at me in confusion, but then I hear Jungwook saying:

"Ahhhhh, I see. Rosé needs to show something to Jimin. I see" he says smirking and laughing.

I just look down a bit embarrassed. He then continues:

"Don't worry love birds. I'll leave you two alone as well, so that you can talk" he then walks towards me and stops almost closing the space between us "Unless you want me to stay" he looks like the devil.

"Go away. We'll talk alone" his brother interrupts him. He just laughs and leaves right away, going outside of the house. Now it's only me and Jungkook.

"So..." I say blushing hard and preparing mentally "What did you want to talk about?"

"Earlier, tonight. Why were you dancing with him?" he asks. He doesn't seem mad or sad. He rather seems like he wants to understand what got into my mind. I don't know what to say. I just don't want to hurt his feelings.

"I actually though it was you..." I lied "you know, my head was spinning like crazy and you two are both wearing black suits. Not to mention about your faces, they're almost the same and I was too drunk to notice the little details..." it's actually a good excuse and it seems to work.

"So..." he says blushing and scratching the back of his head "You thought it was me, right?" I nod, not knowing what the point of the question is. "So wouldn't you mind if I do that to you?" he says blushing even harder and looking away.

I'm blushing too at his statement. Of course I wouldn't mind, but I'd never expected him to be this straight forward, especially knowing how shy he is.

"Umh, y-yeah, I-I mean, I w-wouldn't mind..." I say trying to look confident, but it's pretty obvious how nervous I look. It's a bit awkward right now, so I decide to walk towards the sofa and sit on it, laying my legs straight on it. As I sit, I look at my hands and start playing with my fingers due to nervousness.

I'm too distracted by my hands, that I don't notice Jungkook walking to me and standing in front of me.

"Y/n" he says. I don't look at him, but from his tone I can feel that he's really serious right now. This is making me even more nervous. He doesn't even say anything else. So I decide to look at him. He's so handsome.

He leans one knee next to my right thigh, on the sofa and his hands on the sides next to my hips. He slowly brings his face down to my level. He then put his other knee on the other side, next to my left thigh.

So now, I'm sitting under him, in between his legs. As I notice the position, I can't take my eyes off of his strong legs. They look pretty muscular and pumped.

Then I feel my face being lifted by two of his fingers.

"My eyes are up here y/n" he says with a husky voice.

Rosé's pov

Now I'm going upstairs holding Jimin's hand. I want to give him the real present. Me.

As he guides me to his room, I start to feel a bit nervous. Like, it's not the first time I go into a guy's room, but this time it feels different. I need to be confident.

As he opens the door and gets us inside, I quickly push him against the door and lock us inside.

"Someone seems needy" he says smirking. He knows the effect he has on me and he gets cocky every time. But I like it this way.

I start kissing him roughly on the lips and I feel him laying his hands on my hips, bringing me close to his core.

Then I suddenly stop the kiss. He whines a bit and seems upset. I grab him by his shirt and kiss him again, turning us around. As we keep kissing, I start walking and then I feel the bed with one of my knees.

At that moment I push him hard on it, making him laying down. He tries to sit up, but I quickly push his chest down with my hands and sit on his lap.

"So this is you true nature?" he says putting his hands behind his head.

He looks so hot right now, even though he's wearing his pajama. I can feel his member getting hard under me. I take off my shirt and say:

"You should open your present now. Happy birthday Jimin"

Y/n pov

My heart is beating so fast and I feel my legs trembling a bit in between his. Our faces are getting closer and closer and I start to feel something in my stomach. It's pure pleasure. I can feel his hot breath on my lips. I slowly open a bit my mouth, not being able to breath only through my nose.

His hand goes from my chin to my cheek, moving away a strand of hair that was in the way. He's looking at my lips and I'm doing the same. I'd never thought that it would have happened like this. Not that I'm mad about it.

I see him closing his eyes and getting even closer, so I do the same.

"Wow little brother, you're really good with girls"

Me and Jungkook both widen our eyes and get away from each other really quickly at the sound of Jungwook's voice.

"Oh sorry I didn't mean to interrupt you two, but it's too cold outside." he says walking towards us.

"Great" I hear Jungkook saying under his breath as he sits next to me.

"I guess we can't sleep upstairs since Jimin and Rosé are having fun. I think we have to sleep on the sofa. All three of us" Junwook says.

How are going to sleep in three here? I mean, there's enough space, but that would mean that two of us have to sleep together on the same side, since it's a two-block sofa.

"So, which one of you wants to sleep with me?" the long haired one says opening his arms to us.

"JUNGKOOK!" I quickly say.

"What?!" I hear both of them.

"Y-Yes, I want to sleep alone" I say stuttering a bit. "I'd never imagine you would say this" Jungwook says and then continues "I thought the two possibilities were rather sleeping with him or, even better, with me"

They look at each other a bit disgusted and I continue saying teasingly:

"Or maybe one of you two wants to sleep on the floor"

"NO" they say at the same time.

It's been a while and I can feel both of the twins sleeping soundly. I slowly stand up and looking at them. What? They're practically hugging each other unconsciously. I laugh a bit and take my phone to take a picture. After saving it, I try to sleep.

It's the next morning now. I slowly wake up feeling a bit dizzy. Then I remember about last night, it was crazy. I start to feel anxiety building up as I remember about me dancing and rubbing my body against Jungwook's. But then, I suddenly smile to the memory of me and Jungkook almost kissing.

"AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!" I hear someone screaming. It seemed like it was two people. I turn around and find the two twins looking at each other shocked. Then Jungkook kicks his brother out of the sofa, making him fall on the ground.

"Ouch! What's wrong with you?!" Jungwook says rubbing his behind.

"Why the hell were you hugging me?!" the other one shouts.

"I could ask you the same!"

And they kept arguing, for about five minutes until I stop them saying:

"You've been hugging the whole night" I show them the picture.

"Delete it!!" they say at the same time.

"Nope" I say smiling hard.

After a bit Rosé and Jimin went downstairs and the blonde girl told me about their crazy night. Now I'm 100% sure that Jimin received his true gift. Obviously I told her about my crazy night too. She was shocked. But we laughed remembering how crazy we both were.

We ate lunch together and after a bit we eventually got to our own houses.

Now I'm laying on the bed, still thinking about the two twins.

I really like Jungkook. He's the perfect guy for me. Everything would be great if it wasn't for his brother. But for some reason, I can't get him out of my mind. When we danced and when he kissed my neck. I touch that particular spot as I remember his lips on it.

I start to feel guilty all of a sudden. I hurt Jungkook, not once, but twice. And this time he even assisted at the scene. I'm so dumb. I want to cry, but I can't. It hurts so much, but I don't know how to get this pain off of me.

I passed the rest of the day on my head still feeling a bit dizzy.

Now it's Sunday. I slowly wake up to my phone ringing. Who could it be this early in the morning? I look at the screen. JUNGKOOK IS FACETIMING ME!! WHAT DO I DO?! OH MY GOD?! DO I LOOK GOOD?! I MEAN OF COURSE NO! I JUST WOKE UP! But then I also notice the time. 1 PM. What?! I quickly grab one of my pink lipstick on my desk and put it on. It looks natural, so I think it doesn't look too much. I also fix a bit my hair and rub my eyes. Ok take a deep breath...1,2.....3!!! I answered!

"Good morning y/n" he says with his raspy voice.

"It looks like I'm not the only one who overslept" he continues laughing. The combination of his raspy voice and his face is really one of the hottest things ever.

"Yeah ahahah I didn't even hear my alarm" I say a bit embarrassed.

"I called you because I wanted to ask if you're free today afternoon. And also because I wanted to see your face" that made me blush so hard and I guess he noticed that.

"U-Umh yeah, of course. I'm free" I stutter a bit. I'm actually excited, I hope he'll ask me out!

"Great I'll come to your house at 4 PM and take you out on a date" he says smiling warmly. YESSSSS I'M GOING ON A DATE!! MY ACTUAL FIRST DATE.

"Where are we going?" I ask curious.

"That's a secret" he says winking.

"Ufff but I want to know!" I say pouting.

"I'm not telling you anything. Bye Bye y/n! Oh and remember to wear something cute!" and with that he hangs up.

What just happened. I NEED TO CALL ROSE'!!

"Roséééé!!" I shout through the phone "I need your help!!"

"You don't have to scream like that. I woke up ten minutes ago"

"Oh, I guess everyone of us woke up late today. Anyway. JUNGKOOK ASKED ME OUT"

"What?! Really? When?!"

"A few minutes ago he called me!! He said that he'll come to my house today at 4 PM and he didn't tell me where we're going. He only told me to wear something cute."

"Ok don't panic y/n. Now let's both eat lunch and at about 2.30 Pm I'll face time you, so I'll help you with your make-up and outfit!"

During lunch, my parents kept asking me about the party and, of course, about Jungkook. I showed them on picture of last night with all of us. They noticed Jungwook right away.

"Who is he?" my mum asks "He looks exactly like Jungkook!"

"They're twins" I say while eating my food.

"What?!" both of them say, letting their forks falling on the plate and making some little pieces of food flying over the table.

That's the reaction I also had when I found out about them. How crazy ahah.

It's 2.30 PM and I just facetimed Rosé. Now I'm putting on a bit of make-up and she's guiding me through the whole process.

"I think you should put on a very natural orange peach blush"

"What?" I say. She know much about make-up, while I suck.

"Oh god y/n. umh... that one on the right" she says pointing through the screen at that blush.

"Great, you look so good y/n!" she says after I finished. I have to be honest. I'm kinda cute. I did a very good job!

"Now I have to decide an outfit" I say standing up.

"And we need to hurry up, it's 3.45 PM"

"What?!" I shout. Did it really took me that much to put on make-up? I swear, I'll never get how times flies every time a girl has to get ready.

After trying on some outfit, I finally find the perfect dress. It looks a bit romantic, but I guess that'll be ok.

"You look so good y/n! I think today he'll kis-"

DING DOOOONGGGGG

Rosé got caught off by the doorbell.

"It's him!!" I have to go Rosé! And thank you so much!" I say starting to bounce everywhere due to the adrenaline.

"Go get him girl!"

I slowly go down the stairs and I hear Jungkook's voice. He's talking with my parents. They're praising him for how good looking he is. I swear, they always have to embarrass me.

"Oh you're so kind Miss-" Jungkook stops noticing me going down the steps. "wow y/n. You're gorgeous" he says under his breath, but everyone could hear what he said.

"Hi Jungkook! I thought you'd wait for me outside" I say giving a death stare at both of my parents.

"Oh by the way. Why did you come here Jungkook?" my mum asks the boy.

"I'm here to take y/n on a date" he says showing his bunny smile.

"Yes, that's righ- WHAT?!" I know that we're going on a date, but I didn't expect him to say that in front of my parents.

"Aaaawwwwww really??!!" my mum says shaking her hands and jumping up and down.

"Yes! But I wanted to ask for your permission first" he say looking at both of them.

"Of course, you have our blessing honey!" my mum says taking his hands. Why are they like this. I want to bury myself.

I quickly grab Jungkook's hand and drag him out of the house saying goodbye at my mum and dad.

"Wow, your mum seems to like me" he says smiling. That damn smile...

"Please forget about what just happened" I say covering my face in embarrassment.

"Shall we go now?" he says pointing out his hand. I shyly grab it and we start walking.

After about ten minutes of walking, we reached the subway. He told me to wait for him at the second rail. I wonder where we're going. After a couple of minutes he comes to me with two tickets.

"No Jungkook, I would have paid for mine. Wait I'll give you the money" I say searching for my wallet in my purse, but he grabs my wrist and says:

"It's ok. I'll pay for it" he says. His voice is calm and soothing as always. It makes me feel comfortable.

As we get on, we see that there is only one seat available.

"You sit" Jungkook says smiling sweetly. I blush and do as he says. I swear, this is perfect. I feel like my feelings for him are increasing even more. It's like my heart is about to explode, because it's full of passion.

After a bit, I actually feel bad. I'm here, sitting comfortably and he's standing since we got on. I quickly stand up and tell him to sit, but he shakes his head. I insist more and he eventually sits. Unexpectedly, he grabs my waist and makes me sit on his knees. I look at him in embarrassment, since it's full of people who are watching.

"It's ok" he says taking my hand in his. He started caressing that hand with his other one. I'm living in a dream. I start to feel butterfliers in my stomach as he moved a strand of hair behind my ear.

"You're beautiful" he says at a low voice. I'm about to cry. This is too much for me. I did a lot of bad things towards him, I do not deserve any of these. But I really love the romantic scene that he's showing me.

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Chapter 7 - Party

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Rosé's pov

I see y/n on the ground, crying really hard. Then I look at the room. There were pens and pencil on the floor, pieces of paper everywhere, a broken mirror on the ground. Then I notice something in y/n's hands.

In the right one she's holding her teddy bear, which is ripped everywhere. On the other hand she's holding a cutter. I assume she used that on the teddy bear.

I close the door behind me and slowly walk towards her. I take from her hand the cutter and put it on her desk. Then I start to clean her room while she's still on her knees. As I put things on their spots, we stay silent.

Once I'm done with cleaning, I take her hand and pull her up and make her sit on the bed. I can feel the bad energy coming out of her pores. What could have ever happened?

She suddenly hands me her phone and the first thing I see is the chat with Jungkook. They seem happy, I don't understand why she's acting like this. But now I remember that she was with Jungwook.

"What did he do? Did he see this conversation between you and Jungkook?" I ask her, predicting what happened. She just nods and look at the ground.

"Y/n it's ok if he knows. After all the 'relationship' between you and Jugnkook won't be secret for forever, right?" I say as I caress her back. "Did Jungwook do something else?" as I ask this question I can feel her breath being uneasy and I see her start crying harder.

"He kissed me" she says sobbing. I'm shocked. I mean, it's just a kiss, it's not the end of the world. But at the same time I know that it's difficult for her, since she's always been inside her little bubble for the majority of her life and perhaps, that was her first kiss.

"I'm not mad because of the kiss" she says, proving that my assumption was wrong "It's because I hurt Jungkook. If he'll find out about this, he'll be disappointed in me."

"Y/n it's not your fault! It's Jungwook's." I try to reassure her, but it doesn't seem to work.

I stayed with her until she fell asleep. It was early, but she seemed tired.

A week is passed since then, and y/n seems to feel a little better. During classes we tried to act as natural as possible. We didn't tell anything to Jungkook, but his brother kept sending hints and saying teasing things, only to make me and y/n look even more nervous.

Y/n pov

It's Friday morning and it's Jimin's birthday. I slowly wake up and feel the anxiety hitting my stomach, like every other morning.

"I promise" I say to my ceiling "if something else bad happens, I promise I'll go back to white. My life will become white again. I really promise"

By now, I got used to this feeling of oppression, since it has been more than a week. As I stand up, I hear my phone vibrating. It's Jungkook. Every time he texts me, it's like a stab in the chest.

Jungkook:

Good morning y/n! Would you like to take the bus with me today? 😊

It's the first time I take the bus, I usually walk with Rosé. I feel nervous, but for some reason I smile. I quickly send a message to Rosé, saying that I'll go to school with Jungkook. And, of course, I said yes to the sweet guy.

He told me that he'll wait for me on the bus and he also told me the bus line.

Now I'm at the bus stop waiting for it to arrive. I see it coming from afar and I quickly take out my hand to gesture the driver to stop. As it stops and opens the door, I slowly walk inside. There aren't many people and I suddenly see a hand waving from one seat. As I look better I notice it's Jungkook.

I go to him and sit next to him. I don't look at him in the eyes as we start talking, but I notice something different in him.

He's now looking somewhere else and I take this opportunity to look at him.

He's very handsome today. Not that the other days he's not. But today he's particularly handsome. It looks like he did his hair and put on some cute clothes. The combination of his cute side and his handsome face, gives him a strong aura. Maybe it's just me, but he's really attractive.

He suddenly looks at me asking:

"Is anything wrong ?" he also shows me his warm and calming smile.

I swear, he'll make me melt someday. I just shake my head at his question.

"Tonight there's Jimin's birthday party! Since tomorrow we don't have any classes, we can stay awake till early morning" he says excited "He also said that his parents will go out for a couple of days, so we have his villa all by ourself!"

"It's going to be funny!" I smile at him. I'm actually nervous, I'm afraid something bad will happen tonight.

The morning went pretty fast. I kept staring at Jungkook and tried to ignore Jungwook's teasing, nothing new. And now I'm walking home with Rosé.

"Y/n, this early afternoon I'll go to Jimin's house to help him with decorations and stuff. He said that you and the twins can come at 6 PM. Here" she says handing me a piece of paper "This is his address"

I think there'll be no problem for me to get to his house, since now I kinda now where he lives.

"Oh right!" she shouts, making me flinch a little "make sure to wear something elegant!" she says winking at me.

Now I'm at home and it's 4.30 PM. I quickly prepare a bag with comfortable clothes and shoes, because we'll all sleep at Jimin's house. Now I'm putting on make up. I want to keep it very natural, but at the same time chick. Once I'm done with that I start to look for a nice outfit.

I think this'll do!

It's now 5.30 PM and I think it's time for me to go to Jimin's house. As I take my purse, I open the door and head downstairs. While I walk, I can hear my parents talking to someone. Who could it be? I guess it's none of my business. Finally I reach the leaving and I see the person to whom my parents are talking to.

What. The. Hell.

Jeon Jungkook.

He looks so good. The suit that he's wearing, looks perfect on him. I'm speechless.

"Oh my god y/n!!! This is the guy you studied with that day, right?" my mum asks me with the biggest smile ever. I've never seen her this happy and it's kinda scary. "He's so handsome!!"

"Hi y/n" Jungkook says with a warm smile "you look beautiful" as he says those words I can hear my mum screaming due to the excitement and my dad crying at the back. Seriously what's wrong with them.

I see Jungkook looking at me from head to toe. He's blushing so hard.

"H-Hi Jungkook" I say nervous "what are you doing here?"

"I came to pick you up. I know Rosé is already at Jimin's place and that you'd be alone. I didn't want you to walk completely by yourself in the dark, so I came to keep you company" his voice is so soothing and makes my anxiety go away. I actually forget about everything bad every time he talks.

"Let's go" he says holding out his hand. After smiling, I reach out for his hand and hold it tight.

"My princess!!" I hear my dad crying again "she grew up so fast" he's really embarrassing. I really want to bury myself.

I drag Jungkook out of my house and apologize for the embarrassing things that my parents said in front of him.

Now we're walking, still holding hands. I feel so nervous because it's only me and him, but at the same time I feel butterflies in my stomach. The excitement is pervading my whole body and I can feel my legs shaking from the adrenaline.

"I know I already said that" Jungkook says after ten minutes of pure silence "But you really look gorgeous" I feel him tightening the grip on my hand.

"You also look handsome..." I say really embarrassed.

"That's not true" he says laughing. I stop walking and look at him straight in the eyes.

"No, really! You look so good right now" I don't know where I'm going by saying this. It's not that I just want to compliment him because he also did. I really feel this way. But now I look pathetic, I'm really telling my crush that he looks handsome.

"Ok ok I believe you" he says laughing and suddenly pull me into a warm hug. I can feel one of his hands on the upper back and the other one on the back of my head. "Seriously y/n...you're driving me crazy" he whispers. WHAT DID HE SAY?? WHAT DO I DO? DRIVE HIM CRAZY? Is this a dream? Please, can someone give me a slap in the face? If this is a joke it's not funny! I'm really freaking out.

I don't know what to answer. I prepare myself mentally to ask him about his feelings, but he speaks before me:

"Let's go or else we'll be late" and with that he started walking. As we keep going, we just stay silent. It's not awkward. I feel like if don't say a word, I won't embarrass myself any further.

Now we're here. We ring on the gate bell and wait for an answer. Finally we hear Jimin's voice ordering us to enter and keep walking until we get to the main door of the house.

"Wow it's huge!" I say to Jungkook as I look at the garden.

Now we're at the front door and I knock on it. After a few seconds, the door opens and we are welcomed by Rosé. She looks gorgeous.

"Hi guys! Come inside" she says to us. As we get ourself in, I can't stop thinking at how big this house is. It's even bigger than the twin's house.

When we get to the living room I see Jimin, setting on the speakers and the microphone for karaoke.

"Wow Jimin! Did you dye your hair pink?" Jungkook asks smiling. He actually looks good with pink hair.

"Yes! Rosé helped me earlier. It's one of those hair dye that goes away after a few washes. I guess that in a couple of days I'll be black to blonde. I just wanted something different for my birthday" the pink haired guy says.

"You look handsome!" both me and Jungkook says.

"You also look gorgeous y/n" everybody turns around facing the guy who just complimented me. It's Jungwook.

Wow. He's honestly handsome. I just nod at his statement and slowly look at Rosé. I'm a bit scared right now, but she reassures me by taking my hand and smiling at me.

"Shall we start drinking?" Jimin asked excited.

"YESSSSSSS" everyone of us shouted in response.

Now I'm with Rosé and she's preparing a drink for me. It's not the first time I drink, but I'm a little bit worried, because she told me that during Jimin's parties, everybody gets wasted and throws up everywhere.

"Don't worry y/n" my best friend says handing me the drink "I'm good at making these things. I bet it tastes good!" she smiles brightly, before taking a sip from her drink.

I do the same as her with mine, after she handed it to me, and it actually doesn't taste bad. I give her a thumb up and we go to the boys who are now dancing like crazy. They seem to have fun and the only one who's not enjoying the party, it's me. I'm still thinking about the kiss between me and Jungwook and the fact that I'm scared that he's going to ruin everything between me and his brother.

People say 'drink to forget' right? That's what I want to do. I clench my fist and drink all of my drink in one breath.

"One shot!!!! Well done y/n!" I hear Rosé screaming. Right after that, everybody lifts up their drinks and scream at the same time:

"ONE SHOT!!" and they drink it all. We're all laughing.

"Y/n do you want another one? I can make it for you" Jungkook says smiling at me. I nod and smile back and then we head towards the kitchen. As he starts making the drink, I decide to talk a little:

"You seem good at this!"

"I'm neither the best or the worst. I just put a little bit of alcohol and a little bit of soda. Usually I put less alcohol, but tonight it's a special night" he says winking at me. I blush and quickly look away.

After a couple of seconds he gives me the drink and makes another one for himself.

"Jungkook!" I hear Rosé calling his name "Make some more also for me, Jimin and your brother, please!"

"Of course" he responds laughing a bit. He's really kind and this gives him another point.

Suddenly I feel a hand on my lower back and I quickly turn around, to see Jungwook. I step away a little and I hear him saying:

"Hi two love birds. Is the party good enough?" he says smirking at me. I wanted to answer but I get caught off by Jungkook:

"It's perfect" he says handing his brother the drink he was preparing for himself. "You can go now and have fun" he says with a fake smile. I guess Jungkook gave him his drink, in order to not bother us anymore.

Jungwook just gives him a fake smile as his, and leaves.

Then Jungkook kept preparing the drinks and after that we got to the others.

"Thankssss" Rosé says. She seems so happy today. I wonder what will happen to her and Jimin. She told me that she wanted to surprise him.

It's now 1 AM. Jimin opened the present we got for him and we ate the cake that Rosé prepared. Now we're all wasted. We're all dancing with a drink in our hand.

My head is spinning like crazy and I feel my body very light. Is not that I don't know what I'm doing. It's just that I don't care.

As I keep dancing, my attention drafts to Jungwook. He's all sweaty and hot, as he dances as well. He notices that I'm staring at him. I see him taking off his necktie and unbuttoning a bit his shirt. He then looks at me smirking.

He's so hot right now. I don't know why, but I'm so attracted to him. He slowly approaches me and puts his hands on my hips. I honestly don't care, we're just dancing after all. He then turns me around and pulls me closer to his chest, by putting his hands on my lower stomach.

As we keep dancing I can feel his pelvis on my ass. As we move to the rhythm, I feel him grinding on my behind. It's the first time someone dances like this with me and it actually feels good. It makes me excited. Then I feel something wet on my neck and I find out pretty soon that it's his mouth. I put my hand on his hair and pulling a little.

But then, someone separates us.

"Leave her alone" I look up and it's Jungkook "She's drunk. Tonight she's with me, not you"

"Oh little brother, I didn't know you were looking. To your information, it wasn't me who initiated the act. She was glaring at me and we started dancing naturally" Jungwook answers to his brother.

Jungkook slowly gets closer to his brother and I see Jimin immediately running and standing in between them:

"Please guys. At least not on my birthday" the pink haired guy says. The other two just nod and look at each other. The bad guy has an evil grin on his mouth, while the other one seems rather pissed.

After about twenty minutes I hear Jimin saying:

"Guys, let's change into comfortable clothes"

Me and Rosé went to the bathroom, while the guys changed together in the living room. After changing we get to the others. Jungkook quickly approaches me and says:

"Y/n, I need to talk to you"

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Chapter 6 - Interesting

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n pov

"ROSE' I'M FREAKING OUT!" I shout over the phone. I called my best friend to tell her EVERYTHING, as soon as I got into my room.

"So" she says taking a small break "basically you got to the twins' house, thinking that you and Jungkook were going to be alone. Then you see Jungwook shirtless doing push-ups. After that you studied and you almost kissed with Jungkook. His brother interrupted you two and they almost started a fight. You stopped them and rushed out of the room. You were having a panic attack and Jungkook calmed you down, while hugging you. You both apologized to each other and he insisted to get you home. Once you arrived at your house you gave him a kiss in the cheek and then ran away."

It took me almost an hour to explain her what happened and she just summarized everything in less than two minutes.

"Umh, yeah that's basically it." I say, fascinated by her talent.

"I'll tell you what I think" as she says this I feel nervous, but also curious. Like a kid who discovers new things day by day. "On one side there's Jungwook, who acts like a bully but at the same time, he saved you from those girls and keeps teasing you. He's the classic bad guy that falls in love with the cute girl"

As she talks about him that way, I feel like gagging. It will never happen. Me and Jungwook? No way. She then continues:

"On the other side, there's Jungkook, who's the perfect guy that treats you amazingly, but also told you that you're only one of his close friend. He's also jealous of his brother flirting with you, that's why he almost punched him. He's the cute boy that wants to protect his girl, but at the same time is too shy to say what he feels"

She's doing a very detailed description. I'm amazed by her sixth sense.

"So basically, you're in between two fires" I can feel her evil smile as she tells me that.

I suddenly start to feel nervous and guilty. I don't know why, but I feel like something bad is going to happen. I'm also a bit scared, I don't want to be the reason for a fight.

It's morning and I wake up with mixed emotions. I smile as I remember about the sweet and warm hug between me and Jungkook. But then reality hits me and I also remember about Jungwook and the whole drama.

The morning went pretty normal at school. Jimin and Rosé kept flirting and kissing, Jungkook and Jungwook kept giving death stares at each other. And I was just in the middle of them. Like Rosé said.

"I want to do something fun" Jungwook says grinning and looking at me. He didn't really whisper, so Jungkook heard what he said. I hope these two won't fight here. I'm sweating a bit and starting to feel hot. Luckily Jungkook doesn't answer, he just glances at him and then gets back to his homework.

Now I'm going back home with Rosé, who is talking to me about Jimin, as always:

"He's so sweet y/n. Why did I wait this long? Oh right! His birthday is coming in a couple of weeks. He wants to invite us at his villa." She says smiling. But I'm not so convinced with this idea. I hate crowded places, and knowing how famous Jimin is, he's going to invite tons of people. I guess my best friend noticed my concern.

"Y/n" she says taking my hand as we walk "He said that this year he wants to do something smaller than the previous ones. He said that he's going to invite only the four of us: me, you and the twins."

"Really?" I say a bit surprised. I guess it will be fine, as long as I'm with Rosé. I just nod and accept the invitation.

As I get home I feel observed by both of my parents.

"What happened?" I ask confused "Did I do something wrong?" I wonder what's wrong with them. They're just silent. I feel the palms of my hands sweating, this is killing me. After ten awkward seconds, in which I raised an eyebrow at them, my mum decides to talk:

"You have nothing to tell us?"

What? What do I have to tell them. I show them my confused face, as I think about what it could be. But nothing comes to my mind.

"Do you have a boyfriend?" my dad gets my attention with his sudden question.

"WHAT? A B-BOYFRIEND?" what is wrong with them. They know I'm single.

"Yesterday Rosé came here to give you this" my mum says showing my one of my notebooks.

"That's my notebook! I couldn't find it anywhere." I say smiling and lifting my hands to take it, but my mum quickly snapped it.

"You said that you were going to meet with Rosé yesterday." My dad says.

My smile drops. I'm sweating even more. I don't feel nervous, I rather feel pressured. They see that I can't come up with an excuse, so my mum decides to keep talking:

"She told us that you went to 'Jungkook's house'"

That's it. I'm doomed. They're going to kill me. Not that they don't want me to have a boyfriend, but they want me to tell them everything. I clench my fists and lower my head, hoping that they won't scold me too hard, but I hear a giggle coming from my mum's mouth. I slowly look up and see the both of them smiling like crazy.

"Is he cute?" my mum asks.

"How old is he? Can I trust him?" my dad takes over.

They're bombarding me with questions. My jaw drops and I'm in disbelief, expecting a totally different reaction from them.

As they keep questioning me things about him I just stop them:

"He's not my boyfriend! We're just close friends and we met just to study!"

"Yeah sure...FRIENDS" my mum says emphasizing that particular word. I swear, they're starting to get on my nerves. How do I get out of this? As they keep teasing me, I feel the anger growing inside me. I could explode in any second. But then I receive a call from Rosé.

"Oh Rosé is calling me, I have to go, byeee" I say rushing into my bedroom.

As I get inside I answer the call.

"Hi y/n!"

"Hi Rosé, you just saved me"

"From what?"

"My parents. They know about Jungkook. Kinda"

"Really? How?" by the sound of her voice, I can understand that she's playing dumb.

"HOW COULD YOU TELL THEM!" I scold her.

"AHAHAH I didn't mean to, really. I honestly thought that you've told them. Or at least that you've told them that you were going to study with a friend" she has a point.

"Anyway...why did you call me?" I try to change the subject as soon as I realize that I'm wrong.

"I know we just separated only half an hour ago. But today I don't feel like staying at home. So I wanted to ask if you wanted to come with me to the same café"

"Oh sure!! I'll wear something cute and get there! Bye" and I hang out.

Rosé took me to some clothes shops and made me buy a lot of new clothes. I'm looking for a cute one.

It's nothing too special, but I still like it. I slowly open the door, preventing it from cracking and tiptoeing outside. Fortunately my parents didn't hear me and I run as far as I can.

As I walk I receive a message from Jungkook.

Jungkook:

Hi Y/n! what are you doing? 😊

Y/n:

I'mgoing out with Rosé 😊

Jungkook:

You're so cute :D <3

My heart skipped a beat on that. I didn't expect that at all. As I keep walking I suddenly look at a window shop, in which I can see my reflection. I'm smiling so hard and I didn't even realize that. I feel so happy right now.

Without realizing I start hopping happily and arrive to the cafè, where I see Rosé waiting for me.

"Someone seems happy" she says as soon as I reach her.

"Yesss, he called me cute" I say looking at the clear sky. This sensation feels great. It seems like my life is going to the right path.

"I can literally see your eyes becoming heart shaped" she says laughing.

After a bit we eventually decide to sit at a table outside. As we keep talking about random stuff, I seem from a distance Jimin with Jungwook waving at us.

"Rosé look. There's Jimin!" I say to her, and she immediately wave back at him and gesturing them to come over.

Why is she calling them? I mean, I know she wants to greet her boyfriend, but there's also Jungwook! I hope he doesn't do or say anything wrong.

"Hi girls!" Jimin says as he kisses her girlfriend. "Is everything fine?"

"Yes!!" Rosé says showing her best smile. She looks so happy with him. I wish I could find someone like she did. I mean, there's Jungkook, but I don't know if he feels the same way.

The two boys ended up sitting at our table and getting something fresh to drink.

"So y/n" Jimin asks me "Rosé told me that you'll come to my birthday! I'm so happy" he says smiling wide.

"O-Oh yeah, I'll come and have fun with all of you!" I say trying to not look at Jungwook, who now starts talking:

"Oh yes, we're going to have a lot of fun" he smirks. I really want to punch him.

"Oh Rosé" the blonde guy says "I need to talk to you about something, can we go in that silent street? It's something private" I widen my eyes. I hope she gets my signals. I don't want to be left alone with the other one. But she doesn't seem to look at me and she just says:

"Is it really important?"

"Yes, it is" her boyfriend says.

"Ok lets go. Y/n I'll be right back" and with that they left.

It's really awkward. At least for me, because it looks like Jungwook is enjoying this, way too much. To feel less awkward, I decide to take my phone and chat with Jungkook. I swear, this scene looks so absurd. I'm sitting next to a guy and at the same time I'm chatting with his twin.

"You seem busy" Jungwook says.

"Yes, I am" I say coldly.

"Who is it?" he says stretching his head and leaning towards me to see the screen of my phone.

"None of your business" I say putting the phone on my chest.

"I see..." he looks suspicious.

As I keep texting with Jungkook, the guy next to me stays quiet.. I guess he got it now. But I spoke too soon.

He suddenly snaps my phone out of my hands and reads the messages. I try to get it back, but he stops me by putting his arm over me.

"Oh oh oh, look what we have here. My cute little brother. You two looks so happy" he says as he keeps scrolling up our chat.

"Give it back!" I shout finally managing to take my phone back.

"Uhhh someone is mad" he says in a teasing tone. I just ignore him, I don't want to mess with him. Thinking that now he would probably shut up, I hear him saying something:

"You know y/n. I like to mess with people, just for fun. And I really like to see people's different reactions every time. And now I want to see your reaction to one of my spites..."

As he says so I look at him and...

...he's smirking like crazy. He's seriously scaring me right now. I feel my stomach hurting a bit and my hands shaking. But I have to look confident.

"W-What are you t-talking abo-" he cuts me off smashing his lips on mine. I widen my eyes in surprise and freeze on my spot. He suddenly bits my lower lip hard, making me gasp and open my mouth. He takes advantage of that moment and slides his tongue inside my mouth. He's actually a good kisser, but I'm not giving into the kiss. I push him away and look at him shocked, as I wipe my mouth with my arm.

"Things are going to get interesting" he then says liking his lips. I stand up and run away from him.

As I walk fast I bump into Rosé, who was now coming back to our table.

"Y/n where are you going?" she asks me confused, but then she sees tears in my eyes "Oh my god what happ-" I didn't let her finish the sentence and just run away.

I run as fast as I can, but at some point I stop, feeling too tired. I bend down and put my hands on my knees, to find some support. I suddenly feel a knot on my stomach. I start to cry and sob really hard, as I feel the pain growing and pervading every inch of my body. My throat feels clogged and I feel like I'm running out of hair, so I start breathing really hard and fast.

It's not my fault, he did that all by himself. I didn't do anything, but why do I feel like this? Sad? Angry? No...guilty.

As I get home I quickly run to my rum and lock myself inside. how could he do that? Why does he have to interfere? Does he enjoys watching people getting hurt? He's the devil. My stomach starts to hurt even more and I can't contain my loud whines. Then I receive a text message from Jungkook.

Jungkook:

By the way, do you have something to do next Thursday? We can hang out and maybe eat an ice cream together ^^

As I read the message I start crying harder and harder, at the point that I almost puke.

Rosé's pov

Why was she crying? I ask myself. But then I remember that she was alone with Jungwook.

That bastard.

I walk at a face pace towards him and shouts:

"What did you do to her?!"

"Me? Nothing" I see him grinning, as he pronounces those words.

"I'm going to beat you up if you don't tell me" I say, but Jimin cuts me off by saying:

"Rosé, calm down" he then looks at his friend "What did you do?" he doesn't sound mand. It's like, he's given up. Almost if it's an habit seeing Jungwook making troubles.

"I just wanted to spice things up" Jungwook says flicking his tongue.

"Tell me what you did!" I shout expecting him to get surprised, but all I earn is an evil grin on is mouth. He then says:

"Why don't you go and ask y/n? I think she didn't mind it at all"

As he leans back on his chair, I feel the anger building up inside me. It has never happened before. Not this much. I clench my fists and start running to y/n's house. I can hear from afar Jungwook saying to Jimin:

"Don't follow her. I think she'll need time alone with her best friend"

Seriously, I hate him so much. What did he ever do to make y/n cry?

I run as fast as I can, and now I'm finally at her house. I knock on the door several times and her mum shows up.

"Hi Rosé! What are you doing here?" she says smiling. I guess she didn't see y/n crying.

"Can I see y/n?" I say out of breath.

"Of course, she's in her room!"

I quickly run to her bedroom and open the door without knocking and I see the most heartbreaking scene I've ever seen.

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Chapter 5 - Unexpected

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n pov

A few passed and thighs between Jimin and Rosé are going great. Lots of things has changed. I stopped feeling guilty towards my ceiling, which is great. I actually like trying new emotions and new adventures.

Even right now I'm feeling something new: being carefree. I'm not even listening at the professor, who's now talking to us.

I've also learnt how to handle my feelings towards Jungkook, without being obvious. Oh right! Today I have to meet with him at his house for a school project! I know it's school stuff, but I'm actually nervous. My whole body trembles due to the excitement, while my stomach feels a little heavy. I guess I can do nothing about this. Just have to wait.

As I hear the bell ringing, Rosé gets my attention, by tickling me and saying:

"Are you ready for the PROJECT?" she emphasizes that word. It sounded like we're going to do everything, except for homework. I try to look confident, but I fail and start laughing instead.

"Y/n" I turn around and it's Jungkook who's now giving me his bunny smile "Let's go!"

As he invites me to stand up, I hear Rosé and Jimin teasing us by making weird noises. I turn around and make some death signs with my hands and they both try to hold in their laughter.

As we're walking to Jungkook's house, I feel a weird sensation. Maybe it's because neither of us is talking at all. I don't know what to say, also is the first time I go to a guy's house. But then, I hear him speaking:

"So...today my parents aren't at home and Jungwook is out since this morning, so we'll be alone. We can concentrate better like this!" he smiles like crazy.

HOW CAN HE SMILE LIKE THAT, WHILE SAYING THAT WE'LL BE ALONE ALL DAY!??!?!?!?!?!?!

"O-Oh, that's great!" I try as hard as possible to look calm.

"Here we are!" he says opening his arms in front of a very big house. Wow it's really huge!!

"Is this your house?" I ask in disbelief "It's wonderful!!" my eyes are sparkling as I look at the huge building in front of me.

We're getting inside and the first thing I see is the kitchen, which is really clean and neat. Then next to it there's the living room, with the biggest sofa I've ever seen.

"My room is up the stairs. Shall we go?" he says with his soothing voice. He'll melt me someday, I swear.

Jungkook goes first and I follow him right after. As we go up the stairs, I start to feel nervous. I did everything Lisa told me: shave (don't know why tho, we're not going to do anything...right?), take a shower, wear a cute lingerie (also don't know why, Jungkook is not going to undress me...right?). I don't think something will happened, me and Jungkook are both too shy to do something like this.

Then we approach a big black door and he says:

"Here's it" and opens it slowly. As I walk in I freeze and widen my eyes...w-what?

I see Jungwook shirtless, doing push-ups. WHAT IS HE EVEN DOING IN HIS BROTHER'S ROOM? Not gonna lie. He looks so hot right now. Here I am again, visibly daydreaming next to my crush and in front of his almost naked twin.

"Jungwook what are you doing here?!" I hear Jungkook shouting "You said that you wouldn't be home till tonight!" he seems pissed. I mean, I understand, I'd be mad too.

"Oh you're home" the other one says as he stands up "Oh oh ohhh, look who we have here?" he says getting closer to me. I'm literally freaking out. Jungkook notices how uncomfortable I look and puts a arm in between me and his twin.

"Go away and let us study" Jungkook looks so intimidating right now. I feel like he's hiding a part of him. I don't know why he doesn't want to show it to us, but right now I don't want to find that out. I'm too busy at the moment. I'm afraid these two might end up fighting.

I don't know how to handle these types of situations. I open my mouth to say something, in order to make the two twins calm down, but nothing comes out. But then:

"Don't worry, little brother" Jungwook says patting his brother's chest "I'll leave you love birds alone. But please, don't do it on my bed" and with that he leaves the room, leaving me and Jungkook shocked.

I can feel myself blushing really hard. DID HE REALLY SAY THAT IN FRONT THE BOTH OF US?! He also said DO IT?! DO WHAT?! And then he said HIS bed? Now that I look at the room, I can actually see two beds. I guess they share the room.

"Emh... sorry y/n. I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable" he says looking away and scratching the back of his head. He's visibly nervous, I have to say something to get out of this awkward atmosphere.

"Don't worry Jungkook! I like your room!" seriously y/n...'I like your room?' couldn't you come out with something better? But it seems it worked.

"Oh really?" the guy next to me says "I appreciate it" he then smiles.

Great, now that we both feel more comfortable, we can start studying! We decide to sit on the ground with our backs leaned on the side of his bed. A meter away from me on my right there's the door and on my left, right next to me, there's him.

A hour as passed and my head start to feel a bit tired. So I decide to look up to relax my neck. As I stretch my arms and back, I decide to look at Jungkook's notebook to see at what point he is. From his notebook, my gaze goes to his hand, with which he's holding the pen, then to his muscular arm and then...

...his face.

He's very handsome. Also his concentration gives him more charm. I really like this type of guy and I'm actually starting to feel something on my stomach. It's not the usual anxiety. It's really pleasant. I feel like he's hypnotizing me. This is absurd, he's not even looking at me and still, he gives me this type of reaction.

While I'm staring at his beautiful features, he says something, still looking down at his work:

"I'm almost done, what about you?" I didn't really pay attention at what he said. I'm on another dimension right now.

As he didn't hear an answer from me, he turns to me and catches me staring. I don't really move, I just keep looking at him. And he doesn't seem uncomfortable. In reverse. I see him staring deeply into my eyes. As he says my name, I see him getting closer to me.

My heart is beating so fast, but at the same time I don't feel nervous. It's really strange.

We're getting closer and closer and I see his gaze going back and forth from my eyes and my lips. I can feel his hot breath on my mouth. We're so close, and...

"Wow little brother, I didn't know you were that fast with girls" Jungwook interrupts us.

We quickly get away from each other and blush very very hard.

"H-Have you ever heard of the words 'knocking on the door'?" Jungkook asks stuttering a bit.

"Why would I knock to enter MY room" the other one says.

He's kinda right, it's also his room. But he has no right to do so when there's a guest!

"Ohhhhh I see what's going on" the intruder says "Mr 'perfect twin' and Miss 'I'm afraid of everything' are a couple? Or maybe you just started dating? No no no, wait! I think I know. Perhaps you're both so desperate to fuck somebody, that you just decided to do it together. Am I right?"

As he says those words I see a smirk on his face. He really looks like the devil.

Unexpectedly, Jungkook stands up, grabs his brother by the neck and lifts his other hand, forming a fist.

I quickly stop his punch, grabbing his hand with both of mines and say:

"Stop it please!" I have tears in my eyes and both of the twins look at me shocked. "Please..." I say almost whispering and looking at the ground.

My heart feels broken for some reason. I feel like I'm the reason of their fight. The guiltiness doesn't want to leave my mind and decide to pervade my entire body. While I still hold Jungkook's fist, I can feel his hand relaxing. So I look up and see him letting go of the brother's neck.

I sight in relief as I rub my eyes, to make the tears go away. Just when I thought that everybody calmed down:

"Oh so you can speak?" Jungwook says laughing. As those words escape his mouth, I see Jungkook turning around to face him, but before something could happen I speak:

"Jungkook, it's ok. Don't worry"

Then I grab his arm, noticing that he didn't react to my word. I feel his muscles relaxing again and now are not tense anymore.

"I'm so sorry y/n.." he says "for having a dumb brother"

"Jungkook it's fine, really" I show my smile, but he doesn't calm down. Then the other one interrupts us, again.

"Can you stop being all lovely dovely in front of me?" he's laying on his bed now. Now he's making ME angry.

"Are you jealous?" I say. This is not me, it's just the anger that's talking. I usually just ignore those kind of behaviors, but this time it feels different. I look at him and I see him smirking.

"Why are you smiling?! I'm serious!" I shout at Jungwook.

"Things are going to be interesting."

I don't know what he means with that, but now I'm too angry to stay near him, so I just grab my rucksack and Jungkook's hand, and drag him out of the room, slamming the door behind me.

As we walk down the stairs, Jungkook keeps calling my name, but I don't answer him. It's the first time I feel THIS angry.

"Y/n!" he shouts pulling the hand with which I was holding his.

I then realize what happened, and how impulsive my action was. I quickly let go of his hand and apologize. I think I'm freaking out, literally. I'm shaking like crazy and my pupils can't stay still. I really look crazy and Jungkook seems to notice that I'm having a panic attack. As I keep bowing to him and say sorry, he grabs my shoulders and hugs me tight.

"Y/n, stop. Calm down"

As he talks to me with his calm and soothing voice, I feel his warm hand caressing my back and the other one holding my head, which is now leaned on his chest, making me feel his heartbeat. It's really calming and relaxing. As he keeps stroking my back, I instinctively put my hands around his waist and hug him back.

Jungkook's pov

It seems like she's calming down. I'll just stay like this for a bit more, until she calms down completely.

I keep caressing her back with my hand and I feel her hands and face on my chest. I like this sensation. It feels like I'm able to protect her like this. Suddenly I feel her hugging me back and hiding her face even more. She's adorable.

"Are you alright?" I ask trying to see her face, but she doesn't want to show it to me, but I feel her nodding in response.

"I'm so sorry for my brother. He's really annoying. And I'm also sorry for what you saw...I'm talking about me almost punching him. It's actually normal here. I just don't want to show this side of me outside"

As I talk, I feel one of her hands leaving my back and going to her face. It looks like she's rubbing it. Then she lets go of the hug and I see her smiling. As I look at her, I can see her eyes all red. Then she quickly turns around and grabs her rucksack.

While she's doing that, I look at my shirt. It's wet on my chest area.

"Y/n..." I whisper still looking at my shirt, without realizing that she's turning around.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry!! I didn't mean to get it wet! I-I'll wash it. I'm so sor-" before she could end her sentence I pull her into another hug.

"It's my fault y/n. If only I locked the door. Nothing of this would have happened" I say as I hold her.

"Jungkook it's fine" she says pulling away and then grabbing my shoulders "I am fine. And you are fine. That's what matters, right?" her smile shows up. It's so beautiful.

Now that y/n is ok, I can walk her home. She says that I don't have to, but I insist.

So now we're walking to her house. We don't talk, at all, but it's not awkward. I see her still a bit scared, so I decide to hold her hand. She doesn't flinch and just tightens the grip. I smile a bit.

We keep walking and walking, still holding hands, until we arrive at her house.

"A part from my brother, it was great today" I say showing my best smile.

"Yes, it was!" but her smile beats mine.

I put my hand up to wave her goodbye, but...

She gives me a quick peck on the cheek. I widen my eyes. I'm looking at her, but somehow my mind seems distracted. Then I see her blushing and running away. As she enters inside her house I touch my right cheek, right in the spot in which she kissed me. I find myself smiling like an idiot.

After a bit, I finally decide to walk back home... I have something to fix.

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Chapter 4 - Rainbow

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n pov

A couple of weeks has passed and I've given up with myself. As much as I try to be as emotionless as possible, I always finds myself trying new emotions. At this point I don't do it because I'm forced to, like at the beginning. Now I'm doing it because I'm curious. I've always lived inside my small bubble, afraid of everything and everyone.

Don't get me wrong, I still scold myself from time to time, but I don't listen to my subconscious anymore.

Things are going great, for real. Me and Rosé are always happy together, Jungwook keeps being mysterious, Jungkook keeps doing cute things, such as helping me with homework and holding my hands. He says that he does that because we are friends. It actually hurt a bit, now that I've finally accepted my feelings towards him. And then there's Jimin, who keeps hitting on Rosé.

Oh right I have to convince her to go on a date with him!! But how? I'm pretty sure she won't agree if I just tell her. I have to force her with some other way, or else Jimin will spill my secret.

Ok I got an idea! I decide to write it on a piece of paper and give it to Jimin now. As I secretly hand him, I see his face a bit confused. He pointed at himself like if he was questioning 'is this for me?' and I just nodded.

As he opens it and read it, I can see a smirk appearing on his face and gives a thumb up. The plan starts now!!

"Rosé" I say whispering "Why don't we meet up today afternoon at the same cafè? I have something to tell you"

"Yeah sure!! Let's meet there at 4 PM!" she says giving me a thumb up.

I laugh a bit, knowing how they do the same actions without realizing. That's kinda cute. I slowly turn to Jimin and mimic with my hand the fixed time.

I'm such a genius! Oh, what's this? I feel a new emotion. Is this what they call 'pride'? It's completely new to me. But I really like it! It makes me feel more confident.

I kept smiling all day until 4 PM. Now I'm a bit nervous. I'm afraid that things will not go as planned. But I don't have to worry, I'll leave everything to Jimin!

Rosé's pov

It's 4 PM, y/n should arrive any time soon.

I'm sitting at the cafè we agreed on meeting at. I feel a bit anxious. What will she tell me? Hope nothing bad.

It's been almost 15 minutes and she hasn't arrived yet. I start to worry a bit so I decide to text her. As I take the phone out of my purse, I hear someone talking to me:

"No need to text her. She's fine"

Even without turning I already know who it is.

"Jimin? What are you doing here? And how do you know y/n is fine?" I ask very confused. I guess he could see how fuzzy I looked, so he just laughed. As he sits next to me, he says:

"Me and her had an unfinished business. So I just asked for a favor" he's trying to hide his smile.

I quickly stand up and say:

"Why are you like this?! I'm going home!" but as I walk away he grabs my wrist.

"Rosé, please stop this" he says looking deep into my eyes.

"W-What are you talking about?"

"Oh? Did I hear it right? The confident Rosé just stuttered ahahah!" I swear he's so annoying. But his behavior make me smile every time.

"Rosé" he then continues "Can we just stop all this acting? I'm serious. I don't know what you did to me, but I'm changed. I noticed it by myself. At first I was like 'what the hell?!', but now I really like this."

"What are you talking about Jimin?" I already know what he's talking about, but I want to avoid this topic.

"That day. When we kissed" he says serious than ever.

I knew it. It all happened a year ago. I needed some money back then. So I agreed on helping him. All I had to do was to act as his fake girlfriend, in order to make a girl jealous. There were some rules, such as acting like we were dating only in front of her and no skin ship. But rules are meant to be broken.

I was with him that day and I felt nervous. I didn't understand why. He also seemed different. We were just talking alone in the hallway and suddenly I grabbed his shirt and kissed him. He wasn't mad at me, at all. Instead of stopping the kiss, he deepened it. After that he forgot about that girl and kept trying to hit on me.

Nobody knows about our kiss. Except for me, Jimin and y/n. Of course I told her, but I said that we kissed in front of the girl he was trying to make jealous. But I lied, there was only me and him.

Both him and y/n kept asking me why. Why don't I give him a chance if I like him? I've never answered that question. But it's pretty easy. I know his past and I don't want to suffer. Even if he's changed, other people aren't.

"I know what you're thinking Rosé" he says making me come back to earth "But you're making things even more complicated than they actually are. Since that day I felt the same towards you. No. My feelings grew even more. I'm not here to beg you. I just want to ask you out. Officially this time. If you want we can keep it secret at first"

I'm thinking at what he's saying and he's right. Even my feeling grew wider in the past year. But I don't want to give it to him right away.

"Can I think about this for a couple of days?" I ask blushing. I look at him and he's smiling so hard.

"Of course Rosé" his voice is so calm and soothing. It actually gives me chills.

He then puts on his sunglasses and asks me:

"Great, now where do you want to go?"

Jimin's pov

It's been a couple of hours now, and me and Rosé had a lot of fun. I didn't hit on her, I wanted to make her feel comfortable and just wait patiently for her answer.

She's different from other girls. She seems so strong and bad girl, but she's actually the sweetest. And her smile. Awwwwww I swear, she's going to kill me with her beautiful smile. She makes me feel some types of emotions that no one else was able to make me feel. I really changed a lot. The old me would have already punched himself by now.

Now I'm taking her home. I want her to be safe, so I stick to her and stay as near as possible.

I know she doesn't want people to know. Indeed I don't do nothing, just talking. Until we're almost at her house. The street in which she lives is not that much populated and there's no one else walking here, besides me and her.

I decide to take her hand and she doesn't do anything. She just keeps walking holding my hand. As she talks I admire her beautiful features. They are more visible thanks to her high ponytail. Suddenly I feel her tightening the grip on my hand and I can't help but smile at her cuteness. She makes me feel butterflies in my stomach.

Rosé. What have you done to me?

Y/n pov

I'm so happy! Rosé called me telling me everything that happened! Of course, she scolded me for not telling her about my secret plan. But while she was telling me every single detail, I could feel, by the way she was talking, that she was smiling like crazy.

Mission accomplished!

As I keep thinking about those two love birds, I suddenly feel guilty. I haven't told Rosé about my feelings towards Jungkook. I mean, I guess she already knows by now, because every time he does something I look at him smiling and when he talks to me I become nervous. But still, I have to tell her somehow.

I swear, by now, guiltiness is the worst sensation. Maybe because I'm doing something wrong to my best friend, the one who never let me down. I have to fix this.

I'm thinking about telling Rosé about my feelings, but I don't know when and how. But as I'm thinking, I receive a message from a stranger.

?????: Hi y/n :)

Y/n:

Who is this?

I feel so nervous. I didn't give my phone number to anyone. Who is this person? And how does he or she have my phone number?

??????:

Oh sorry I forgot to tell you.

I'm Jungkook! 😊

I feel my heart skipping a beat. As I read his message twice, I find myself smiling at the screen. I look so dumb probably ahahah, maybe like a psychopath, but it's ok I guess.

Y/n:

Oh I Jungkook!! How did you get my number? 😊

Jungkook:

Last week I asked Rosé if I could have your phone number. So here I am!! :D

Y/n:

Last week? How come you're only texting me now?

Jungkook:

U-Umh, because I didn't want to bother you ahah :(

Y/n:

Don't worry! You'll never bother me :D

Jungkook:

Happy to hear that! xD

We chatted for about an hour and now I'm laying on my bed looking at the ceiling and trying to sleep. It feels like I have something to say. To my ceiling. I feel guilty towards him too. So I just get it off of my chest.

"Sorry, I promised to be like you. White. But these days I'm all colorful. I know you'll be mad, but I want to be like a rainbow for a while. If it doesn't work for me, I'll go back to white, promise. I'm actually enjoying all these shades of color, it's not as bad as I thought"

And with that I drift to sleep, feeling lighter and at peace with myself.

I slowly wake up to the sound of my alarm. Without realizing it, I'm smiling like crazy. I feel like this week is going to be great!! My daily routine is still the same, but somehow it feels different. I have positive mind. The only emotions I'm feeling right now is happiness and excitement. I can't wait to tell Rosé about what happened last night. Oh right! And I can't wait to see her and Jimin!!

Now I'm waiting for her outside of my house. This time I went out earlier because I was in such a good mood, that I couldn't wait inside. I see her running towards me.

"Y/n!! Good morning" she says with the brightest smile ever.

"Someone is really happy today" I ask smiling even brighter.

"I could say the same" we exchange an accomplice smile. It's almost like a friendly competition. Who has the biggest smile.

"So, when are you going to give him an answer?" I ask my friend.

"Today"

"Good-WAIT WHAT?! TODAY?! Already?" I ask a bit shocked.

"Yes. I mean, we all know my feeling towards him. I've already waited for and entire year. I don't want to waste any more time." She says while looking at the clear sky. "and why do you seem so happy? Do I need to know something?" she asks with a smirk.

"Actually yes."

"Oh what is it? I guess something nice, since you're smiling like crazy" she laughs a bit.

"I like Jungkook" I say right away.

"What?!" she widens her eyes. I then realize that I said that without thinking. I start to sweat, but I have to play it cool.

"Really y/n?" she asks with puppy eyes. I just nod in response.

"I'll tell him when I see him!" she says smiling.

"What? No!! Don't you dare" I look at her as I scold her.

"Why tho? It's obvious that you like each other. If I have to be honest, I already knew about your feelings. I mean, you're too obvious y/n"

"Am I?" I say scratching my temple. I hope Jungkook didn't notice anything. I feel actually nervous right now. I have to be more mysterious, but I don't know how to.

"Don't worry I won't tell him. By the way, did he text you?"

"Yes, he did. So it was you, right? The one who gave him my number?" I say crossing my arms trying to look intimidating. I know she finds me cute when I act like this. Indeed she bops my nose with her fingers and says:

"You caught me" then she takes out her tongue to tease me. She knows me too well, so she's really good at annoying me.

Now we're in class and I see Jimin looking at Rosé. I look at her and I see her smirking. I guess she noticed him too. I swear I really like this couple!! I'll route for you two guys :D

I feel kinda excited knowing that she's going to answer him today. But at the same time I'm afraid that something will go wrong. I don't understand why, but I'm more nervous than Rosé, who now is calmly listening to our teacher. And then there's me. I can't pay attention to the lesson, due to all the emotions I'm feeling at the moment. I hope this will be worth it.

"Ok guys" says the professor "Now it's break time, enjoy your time" he says as he leaves. All my classmates go outside of the classroom and go to the school canteen to have a snack. In class there's only me, Jungkook, Jungwook, Jimin and Rosé.

At that moment I see Rosé standing up quickly and heading towards Jimin. She's going to do it! It only took her a few seconds to reach the guy, but it felt like ages! My heart is beating so fast and my stomach feels heavy. Why do I have to be this nervous?

"Hi flower. Is everything ok?" the blonde guy says to my friend with a warm smile. She looks at him for a few seconds. I can feel the tension, and it's really killing me! Come on Rosé, give him an answer!

Suddenly she grabs him by the collar of his shirt, pulling him towards her, and kisses him in front of us! I scream a little, but I can feel someone putting a hand on my mouth, preventing me from ruining this moment. I turn around and it's Jungwook, who's now signing me to shush with his index finger in front of his mouth. As I nod a bit frightened, he smirks.

After pulling away, I see Jimin melting and smiling like crazy. He's so cute!!

Then Rosé comes to me and gives me a thumb up. With that, I hug her and start to freak out. I know it's not much, they just kissed, but I've only seen these scenes in movies, so I'm a bit excited.

"Now it's your turn" she says to me and everybody heard that.

"W-What?" I ask widening my eyes. I try to give her signals to stop, but she doesn't. I think she's doing this on purpose. She has like an evil smile on her face, it's kinda creepy, not going to lie ahahah.

"I'm just kidding guys" she then laughs "it's just a joke. Right Y/n?" she says raising an eyebrow to me and I'm more nervous than ever.

I have two secrets now that I have to protect. The first one is the fact that I really suck with people. Others think that I'm just shy and they don't think that it's an actual issue for me. Only Rosé and Jimin know about this.The second one is my crush. Jungkook. Only Rosé knows.

These days I'm trying to protect these two secrets with all my strengths. It's actually tiring.

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bmongmong · 3 years

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Chapter 3 - New Emotions

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n pov

Another week has passed and it seems like me, Rosé and Jungkook have become a great trio.

As I walk towards school I receive a message from Rosé:

Rosé:

Y/n sorry but today I won't come to school. I feel very sick ☹

That's ok I guess. If she's ill, she needs some rest and-WHAT?! OH MY GOD, I'LL BE ALONE!! WHO'S GOING TO PROTECT ME?! I BET EVERYONE WILL LOOK AT ME. WHAT IF THOSE BULLIES COME TO ME BECAUSE SHE'S NOT WITH ME?! Ok y/n. You have to calm down.

I feel my heart pounding very fast and the palms of my hands sweating. This weird sensation is pervading all parts of my body. From my feet to my head. I feel my legs strangely weak, but somehow I can walk without any problems.

I find myself at the entrance of my class. I take a deep breath, but I cannot move. I just want to run away from here. I feel really pathetic right now. I'm all grown up and I can't even go to school by myself, without my friend. Then...

"Are you going to go in or stay here all day?" I turn around and it's Jungwook.

I don't answer, I just look away and try to find an excuse, but it seems like my lips are sewn. Nothing comes out, a part form little indescribable noises.

"Move" he says scoffing and entering the class.

I just stand there, embarrassed of what just happened. I'm still not used to people talking to me, except if it's Rosé or Jungkook. That's right. The good twin. We talk a lot actually and I feel comfortable around him. Of course, there are still lots of things that we both don't know about each other, but I think that now, I can really consider him a friend of mine.

As I'm thinking about the people I know, still on the edge of the door, I hear a voice speaking to me:

"Y/n don't pay attention to him" it's Jungkook. For some reasons I feel calm now. My legs are no longer shaking and my mind is free from bad thoughts. He then continues:

"Come on, let's go inside together!" as he smiles, he grabs my hand and drags me inside. At that very moment, I felt like I died for a couple of seconds and then I resurrected. But then I realize that it was just my heart skipping a beat, or maybe two or three.

Now I'm seated at my spot, still thinking about the two Jeons. Wow, they're really different. The kind one, Jungkook, can make my heart flutter with just a single move, while the other one, Jungwook, is just a bully. As I find myself drawing on the desk, still thinking about those two boys, I hear a voice talking to me. To my surprise is Jimin:

"Y/n. Since today Rosé won't come at school, why don't you stay with us?" as he invites me, I see his hands pointing at him and the two brothers. I nod in response and I see Jungkook smiling. I guess it's not going to be that bad, but wait. How does he know about Rosé?

"Umh...Jimin...sorry for bothering" I say at a very low voice "How do you know about Rosé?"

"Oh didn't she tell you?" he asks surprised and I shake my head. Then I see him blushing a bit and smiling "she texted me this morning. She said, she didn't feel well. And she asked me to take care of you"

My heart melts. Rosé. I really can do noting without you. I feel my eyes a bit teary, thinking about her love towards me. She's like a second mum to me.

In order to not leave me alone, Jungkook sat beside me, at Rosé's spot. I honestly felt a bit better. During the lesson me and him would write on the desk to have some fun. He then helped me with a math problem I couldn't solve. As he leaned close to me, I felt my heart popping out of my chest. His face was so close and once he noticed he quickly turned away blushing.

During other classes I kept scolding myself. Too much is happening in my life. But as I think about Jungkook I start smiling. As much as I want to be emotionless, I really like the feeling when I'm close to him. I guess I'll just allow this new emotion. But what type of feeling is this? Friendship? I honestly don't know, but for sure I know it's not the same emotion I feel when I'm with Rosé.

By now I've known Jungkook for a couple of weeks, or maybe three.

I think I'm too strict to myself.

As another lesson ends I can see Jungwook walking towards us and talking:

"Can you two stop being all lovely dovely? It's honestly annoying"

Me and Jungkook look at each other and start blushing. Then the kind guy next to me talks back to his brother:

"We're not...like...just stop it Jungwook" I feel him nervous. He's kinda transmitting me his anxiety.

As I look at the two twins, I notice their little diversities. For example, Jungkook has a little spot under his lower lip, and I actually find this cute. Then I notice that he also has pretty long hair. Not as long as Jungwook's, but they're pretty long too. Regard the bad guy, I notice the many tattoos on his arm. They're so many!! But it's kinda attractive. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING Y/N?! SERIOUSLY STOP!!

As I'm internally debating with myself, Jungwook gets closer to my face. He's just a few inches away from me. WHAT IS HE DOING? I'm seriously about to explode. I'm feeling too many emotions. My body doesn't know how to react to this. It's actually a mix of excitement and anxiety.

"Stop acting so innocent y/n" the bad boy says as he stares into my eyes. Honestly, his gaze is so piercing. I feel like he can see my soul sailing inside my body.

Now I can hear all my classmates whispering. Jungkook notices how uncomfortable I look and he pushes away his brother saying:

"Leave her alone" he's not nervous. He rather seems calm and serious.

As the gangster walks away, I notice a group of girls looking at me. I know Jungwook is pretty famous, but I didn't expect such reactions.

"Y/n just ignore that" I hear Jimin saying as he handles me a bottle of fresh water. "Calm down, I'll talk to him later"

I guess Rosé told Jimin that I'm easily conditioned. I'm talking about my emotions. Now I feel nervous, I'm afraid Jimin will tell everybody about this.

"Don't worry y/n" this one says "I won't tell anybody" he says winking at me.

I blush a little and look away. He then continues:

"But I need to ask you a favour"

"What is it Jimin?" I ask curious, still flustered, due to what happened.

"Rosé. Convince her to go out with me"

I just nod and he leaves. So I was right!! Jimin has feelings for her! Yess, I'm so happy. Wow my mood is like a roller coaster. At first I feel nervous and scared, then right after I feel very happy. So many mood swings.

Then I feel a hand on my shoulder. I flinch a bit, not expecting this type of skin ship, and turn around to face Jungkook, who's now talking to me:

"Y/n are you alright?" he asks. I can see that he's trying to look calm, but he's actually nervous.

"Yes, I think. Thank you Jungkook....for saving me earlier ahah..." I say a bit awkward.

"Don't worry. Even though he's tough, I know him really well and I know how to handle this type of situations" he seems a bit sad as he says this. "Do you need something?"

"O-Oh don't worry, I'll just go and get some fresh hair" I say and quickly stand up, leaving the room.

Now I'm walking down the empty hallway and stop at some point, leaning on the wall. I need some support since I feel my whole body trembling and shaking. As I turn around I see those girls that were looking at me earlier.

"So you're y/n? never heard of you" one of them says as the others start laughing at her lame joke. I'm just embarrassed and look down. I mean, that's what I wanted, not to be known. As I play with my fingernails due to nervousness, I feel one of those girls, grabbing my hair and making me fall on the ground. I put my hand in my hair to prevent her from pulling my hair even more, but she's really strong and eventually ends up pulling them a lot.

"How pathetic!" she says scoffing "I feel pity for you" and they start laughing.

I'm about to cry. I feel alone and helpless. I feel like I'm about to throw up all of my emotions. They're too many. And too heavy to handle. I feel my heart breaking into pieces as they keep making fun of me and pulling my hair. That's it. The end of a movie, where the main character gets beaten up and ends up dying alone. That's what I thought, until...

"Leave her alone" it's a male voice. He seems bossy and steady.

"Jungwook. What are you doing here?" one of those girls asks him "we just wanted to make sure she would never disturb you again. We saw what happened earlier"

"How many times do I have to tell you girls, that I will never date one of you? Now leave her alone and go away. And if I see you bothering her again, something bad will happen" he says threatening. Wow, he' really scary.

As I see those girls going away, I look up and see Jungwook looking at me from above.

His body looks so good. He has really long and muscular legs and wide shoulders. I see his black belt hugging his tiny waist and his tattoos moving in sync with his muscles as he cracks his fingers.

"Stand up" he orders me.

I'm so scared right now. I feel like I could die, if I don't listen to this man. I quickly stand up facing him, but my eyes are looking away.

"Look at me" he says.

I just widen my eyes and tense up my body. I'm sweating again, I can feel the heat invading my body. He then repeats himself and I obey. As I look at him I feel kinda hypnotized. Like if my life was an actual movie and I'm just an actress, who's acting.

He gets closer to my face and asks me:

"Did they hurt you?"

I look away and shake my head. I'm too embarrassed to look at him, but he grabs my chin with his fingers and turns my head to his. I feel my heart in my throat and I can hear every beat. My breath gets heavy and I feel a drop of sweat slowly going down from my neck to my chest. It goes really slow and it actually gives me thrills.

I see him scoffing and asking at a really low voice:

"Why you?"

Is he referring to me? Did I do or say something wrong? Am I going to die?

I see him getting closer and closer and I instinctively shout my eyes. But then I hear Jimin:

"Y/n are you ok? We heard some noises so we came to check"

What is he doing here? And he's with Jungkook!!

As the boy that's holding my chin hears Jimin and Jungkook arriving, he lets go of me and steps away snorting. I'm actually relieved that nothing happened. I couldn't stand another scandal. Then I hear Jungkook voice:

"Y/n! Did he hurt you?" he says concerned.

"No, not at all. He actually helped me..."

As I finish explaining them what happened, I see Jungkook's face changing expression. He looks disappointed. Don't know why.

As we go back to the classroom, I feel a mix of emotions, but I cannot distinguish them. It feels so strange. I try to feel sad, but I can't. Then I try to feel angry, but the anger doesn't come out. It's really really weird.

Now that all classes ended, I stand up and make my way to leave the room, but I hear Jungkook voice from behind calling my name:

"Y/n!" he says. I can feel the tension building up. "I-I wondered if I-I could walk you home..." he says rubbing the back of his head.

My head feels peace after that question. I know I can go home safely with him. I nod and smile brightly and I see his face lighting up.

As we walk down the street I see him a bit nervous. I'm too shy to ask if there's something wrong. But I guess that's what good friends do, so I decide to question him. But before I could say something, he speaks:

"Y/n...do you like him?" I see him blushing.

"Umh? Who?" I'm a bit confused. Who is he talking about?

"My brother..." he says almost whispering.

"WHAT?! Of course no!! I'm just grateful that he helped me earlier, but there's nothing more!" I shout instinctively and nervously.

I see his face muscles relaxing and his big smile appears.

"Good to know"

That smile makes me blush so hard, that I have to look away so that he doesn't see my red face. But I guess he noticed it anyway as I can hear him giggle.

Now we're in front of my house.

"Goodbye Jungkook! Thanks for taking me home. See you tomorrow!" I say turning around, but before I could walk away he grabs my wrist and I freeze.

"Y/n..." he says with his calm voice. I don't turn around. I just can't move my body. I feel his hand tightening the grip on my wrist and in just a blink I feel Jungkook back hugging me.

After a couple of seconds he lets go and I hear him stuttering:

"I-I'm sorry y-y/n! I-I didn't m-mean to..." as he says so I turn around as see him looking at the ground. It doesn't look like he's regretting his decision. I think he's daydreaming right now, like he's here in front of me, but his mind is on another dimension.

He's actually handsome. I don't know what I'm doing, but I think I'm looking at him under another prospective. Not as my classmate. Nether as my friend. Could it be...? No way, I'm not that type of girl that dreams these sort of things.

I just want to nod and get inside, but instead I say:

"Don't worry" and my body starts moving on its own and does something I would have never expected.

I'm hugging him. As I hug him I start to panic inside. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU Y/N?! WHAT ARE YOU EVEN THINKING? I HAVE ALREADY ALLOWED MYSELF TO HAVE A NEW FRIEND, BUT THIS TIME I'M NOT ALLOWING THIS!!!

Then I slowly let go and look at him smiling. He seems surprised but he shows me his bunny smile right after. I don't want him to see me flustered and nervous, so I just keep smiling. Then I greet him, still smiling, and go inside. After closing the door behind me, I look through the window and see him going away.

Then my smile disappears and I just...

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I scream as loud as I can.

"What's wrong y/n?!" my mum is running to me worried. She keeps asking me and shaking me, but I'm frozen. I have to admit it, that scream helped me. I feel so much lighter now.

As both my mum and dad are shaking me, I smile at the memory of a few moments ago. As I smile I realize. I'm doomed.

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bmongmong · 3 years

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Chapter 2 - White

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n pov

I weak up to the sound of my alarm. It's not difficult today for me to wake up, since I'm very nervous.

After turning off the alarm, I sit up on my bed and open the curtains next to me. The bright and warm light welcomes me and slightly heats up my sleepy face.

I slowly stand up and stretch my whole body. I can feel every bone cracking and every muscle stretching out. It's a good sensation, it makes me feel alive.

I open the door and head downstairs to the kitchen, where my mum is preparing breakfast.

"Good morning y/n, are you ready for today?" she says referring to the beginning of school.

"Yes, a bit nervous, but I guess I can do nothing about it" I say lifting a bit my shoulders.

As I eat the breakfast my mum made, I start to feel strange. The taste of this meal feels nostalgic. Like I'm going to be away from home for years, but it's actually going to be for some hours.

"Mum it was delicious" I say as soon as I finished eating.

Now I'm going up the stairs and I see again the picture with me and Rosé. Why do I feel so sad this morning? It's not the end of the world and it's not the first time I go to school. Maybe something bad will happen?

I don't want to think about this. I have to get ready now.

As I'm putting on my uniform I can feel my warm hands touching my bare skin and lifting up my clothes. Such a simple move. Like me. I have to be simple.

After a bit I finished getting ready and now I'm laying down on my bed. Unconsciously I find myself talking to the ceiling:

"I'll be back I promise. I just need to be like you. White. And everything will be alright"

I don't know why I have to be this dramatic every time.

Now I'm outside and it feels like it passed only two seconds: me waking up, having breakfast, putting on clothes and going outside. And now, as I'm walking, I realize that I'm almost at school.

I just blinked twice and I find myself in class, sitting next to Rosé, who's now complaining about Jimin. I don't know if it's me, but it actually feels like the beginning of a movie.

"...and now I find out that me and him have some classes in common!" Rosé continues talking.

I guess she really doesn't want to see Jimin. I wonder why, they look so good together. He's the bad guy and she's the good girl. I always tell her that the two of them are going to get together by the end of the year. But she doesn't want to believe me.

"So guys, that's it for today's lesson. Have a good day!" the professor says leaving us alone in the classroom. Seriously, why is time going so fast?

As I question myself about time, I hear some noises next to me.

"Oi nerd. Do the homework fast and give it to us once you're done." It's one of our classmates, that is bullying someone. I honestly can't stand this type of behaviors. I feel kinda angry right now.

Years ago I was in the same situation, being bullied because of my good grades and my shy personality. If it wasn't for Rosé, who protected me, I would still be like this.

I want to stop this bully, but as soon as I stand up I remember. "I have to be white". Right, I don't want to get in trouble.

After that scene, we walked outside of the building and now I'm walking home with Rosé who says:

"Why did you suddenly stand up earlier? Did you want to protect the guy who was being bullied?"

"I wanted to. But then...you know."

"Yeah. You didn't want to interfere. I know I know. Do you even know that poor guy?" she asks me.

Right. Do I know him? I honestly don't know. I think that, at that moment, I was too focused on being angry and mad at the bully, that I didn't even look at that guy. I hope things will change for him.

Every single other day of the week went by in the same way. Like a routine.

Waking up, having breakfast, getting dressed, going to school, having classes, assisting to people bullying other people, going home, having dinner, sleeping.

"Why is my life so flat?" I question myself looking at the ceiling.

On the other hand, Rosé's life is pretty chaotic. She told me that she had a lot to do. She also met up with Jimin to argue again. When she told me what happened, I laughed a bit. They are so cute I swear. Jimin has changed a lot since he knew Rosé.

While the only thing that changed in my life, is the anger towards bullies. Usually I would just ignore them, but this time is different. Those bullies kept asking that guy for his homework and he keeps reminding me of myself.

I couldn't say a word, I just handed them my homework and eventually started crying due to frustration. But I'm worried about him. He didn't give them his homework because he still didn't do it. They kept threatening him. I wonder what will happen next week.

I passed this weekend at home, studying obviously. But I was happy, everything was going great. There was just me, my teddy bear and the ceiling. Nothing went wrong.

As I look outside the window, I realize that is Monday morning and that another week has started.

"Great! I have to do like I did last week. Just be white. As always"

Every morning I feel the same emotions. I feel chills down my spine as I stretch my body when I get up. I feel nostalgic and sad when I eat the food my mum cooks. I feel like I'm going to lose everything, every time I look at the picture of me and my best friend. And once I get to school, it looks like nothing happened.

Now I'm having the last class of the day. As the professor says hi to us and leaves the room, I can hear those bullied. Again. I'm thinking about all the emotions I'm feeling. It was different in the past. I was kinda emotionless, except when I was with Rosé. This confusion is making me angrier. It's the first time I feel this type of emotion. Anger.

I'm literally daydreaming and I don't realize that I just stopped the bullies, putting a hand between them and the poor guy.

"What do you want?" one of those scary guys says. He's really intimidating.

I'm sweating. My worst nightmare has become true. Everybody is looking at us. I feel oppressed. The room has become black and I can only see everybody's eyes looking at me. their gaze is suffocating me and crushing my body. But then...

"Leave her alone" it's Rosé. As she defends both me and the other guy, I feel my eyes teary.

Even though those bullies are big and mighty, Rosé is more intimidating and scarier. Indeed they left right away. I don't know what's her past, even if I know her since forever. Sometimes I feel like she's the daughter of some of those rich men, that can get whatever they want with just money.

As I come back to earth I hear Rosé asking me if everything was alright. I just nod, but it feels like I didn't really answer. Then I hear another voice.

"Thank you, y/n and Rosé..." it's a boy and he's almost whispering.

I'm not really looking at him, I'm still trembling because of what just happened. I guess my life is ruined now. But then Rosé snaps her fingers in front of my eyes and this makes me turn my head towards her.

"Y/n you saved one of our classmates" she says laughing a bit "I honestly couldn't believe it. As I saw you standing up from the chair and getting in between those guys, I thought that someone was controlling your body or that you were sleepwalking" as she laughs at that, I feel a bit reassured.

She knows that her smile makes me calm down.

"I'm sorry for what happened. You didn't have to defend me ahah..." it's the same guy. This time I decide to look at him in the eyes.

"But thank you!" he says with a big smile "My name is Jungkook!"

He's actually cute. What? It feels strange. Did I just find him cute? I feel anxious. Why? It's the first time a boy talks to me.

I just nod in response and then start daydreaming, again. I can hear him and Rosé talking together. They're saying something about becoming friends. The three of us.

Another week has passed and me, Rosé and Jungkook became friends. Luckily the bullies stopped asking for his homework, maybe they're too afraid of Rosé ahahah.

Now is Thursday morning and I wake up strangely. I'm so strict. I find me scolding myself for letting something new happen. Maybe I'll just allow that. After all he's just a new friend. But somehow reminds me of someone. I've been thinking about this the whole week, but I can't figure out who he looks like.

Well I guess I have to stick with this doubt of mine. I'll let it sit with all my other queries that are archived inside my brain.

I just finished washing myself and now I have to go to school. At the very moment that I step outside my door, I feel a thrill running through my spine. I'm standing still at the main entrance of my house. What was that? Was that a sign? Something will go wrong. I can feel it. I don't want to go to school, but then...

"Y/n hurry up!" is Rosé who is waiting outside my house "Hurry or else we'll be late!"

As I see her smile, I instinctively walk towards her and forget about all my worries.

Now I'm at school, sitting at my desk with Rosé and waiting for the professor. Today I'm so distracted, that I forgot to greet Jungkook. Since the professor is not here yet, I guess I can turn myself to him and say hi.

I turn my head towards his desk. But I cannot say a word.

I see double. I'm crazy. I think I'm fainting. Am I the only one that sees double? What is wrong with me? I think I'm insane. I look down at my desk and try to calm down. I rub my eyes, thinking that maybe I didn't wash my face properly this morning and then I turn my head again.

Ok, I'm definitely crazy. There are two Jungkooks.

The Jungkook I know, has a warm smile.

He's very tidy and well mannered. Then I look at the other one.

OH MY GOD HE'S LOOKING AT ME!!! I quickly turn my face the other way.

He's the complete opposite of Jungkook. He has longer hair at the top and almost shaved on the sides. He's not even wearing the uniform. They look completely different! I mean, their faces look the same, but everything else is different!

"R-Rosé...who is the guy next to Jungkook?" I whisper to my desk mate.

"Oh that one is Jungwook. They're twins if you were wondering" she says as she takes out her notebook.

"Yeah I imagined that but- WHAT?!" I shout.

"Shh the professor is about to come!" one of our classmates scolds us.

Now that all the classes ended, I can finally ask Rosé:

"Who is the other guy?"

"He's the one that was with Jimin the day before school" she answers me as she walks down the street.

That's why he reminded me of somebody. Now I can delete that doubt from my mind. I actually feel a little lighter now ahahah.

"Don't hang out with him. He's the classic bad guy that makes every girl cry. That's why he's friend with Jimin. They're the same" she scoffs as she pronounces that name.

"But it looks like Jimin is changed. I haven't seen him with a girl for a while. Perhaps..." I say and hit her shoulder with my elbow.

"Don't you even think about that!"

Now I'm eating dinner. I don't know why but my homesickness is growing. But I'm rather at school or home. So it doesn't make much sense. Maybe I'm just tired. After eating I decide to refresh my face with some cold water.

I cup my hands under the faucet and put some water in between my hands. As I splash it on my face, I feel every single drop sliding on my skin. A few drops stop at the tip of my nose for a couple of seconds and then fall into the sink. Some others are on the tip of my eyelashes, making my eyelids feel heavy. After drying up, I decide to go to bed and rest.

It's been a very long day, but for some reasons, I feel like, from now on, days are going to be much longer than they used to be.

As I slowly wake up, I hear some birds chirping outside. It's a weird sensation. I try to be as emotionless as possible, but I really can't. I feel confused. Before standing up I say just one word:

"WHITE"

That's how I want everything to be. White.

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bmongmong · 3 years

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Chapter 1 - Just me

Blue pill or red pill - Jungkook

Jungkook x Reader

The imagines I used are not mine Credit to the owners

Y/n pov

"Ufffffff" I scoff.

"In a couple of days, school starts" I complain.

Right now I'm in my bedroom, talking to my favorite teddy bear. Don't worry, I'm not crazy. But sometimes I need to talk to someone when my best friend is not around.

My best friend's name is Rosé. She's very kind and funny and also very reliable.

We've know each other since kinder garden and, since then we've been together.

Talking about the devil: she's calling me right now.

I smirk. I'm not going to answer, because I know what her reaction is going to be. She's going to be so mad at me ahahah. I always do this, I like to bother her a bit.

I'm sitting on my bed, with my legs crossed, with an evil smile on my face.

She's calling me again. Ok I'll answer, but I have to be ready...1....2...3!

"Hi Ros-"

"STOP DOING THAT!!! YOU KNOW THAT I HATE WHEN YOU IGNORE MY CALLS!!" she scolds me.

I can't help but laugh at her.

"Good morning to you too princess!" I say, trying not to laugh.

"Yeah, yeah. I swear y/n, I'm going to kill you someday" she scoffs "By the way, school is going to start in two days!!" she protests.

"Don't tell me about it. Oh Rosé, I have an idea" I say whispering.

"Tell me, tell me!!" she seems excited.

"Why don't we meet up tomorrow? It's going to be our last day of freedom. We need to have fun!!"

"Yeah, why not?"

"Oh by the way" I say twirling a lock of hair "How is it going with the prince of school?" I smirk really hard and she seems to notice.

"I'VE ALREADY TOLD YOU THAT THERE'S NOTHING BETWEEN US! He just likes to tease me. And you know that we hate each other" as she explains this, she seems kinda annoyed.

"Ok flower, calm down, I was just kidding" I say laughing a bit.

After chatting for a bit, we end the call and now I'm looking outside of my window.

There's a really bright sun and a clear blue sky. It's really beautiful, but I don't know why it gives me anxiety.

"My life is so boring..." I snort as I touch the glass wall in front of me.

That's right. I'm just a normal student that only studies and hangs out with her only friend.

Regarding her, she's more popular and beautiful than me. I'm not saying that I'm ugly, it's just that I don't have much confidence.

But now I'm used to this. As much as I complain, I'm starting to like this lifestyle. No troubles, no enemies.

Just peace.

My parents are a bit worried, because I just stay in my room all the time.

I mean, I guess it's understandable. Their only child is a nerd, who just studies all day long and comes out of the room just to shower and eat.

But that's the way I like it.

When something is wrong or I have the feeling that something bad is about to happen, I just rush to my room and lock myself inside. Maybe I'm just running away from responsibilities. Or maybe I like to stay alone. I really don't know.

I look at myself through the mirror attached to my closet.

"I'm actually not that bad" I say as I try to look like a model during a photoshoot. But then I realize I'm talking to myself, again.

Why do I have to be this cringy? Luckily I'm alone.

Now it's time to eat and I can hear my mum calling my name. I have to go downstairs to the kitchen.

"Bye bye, my little shelter" every time I have to leave my room, it kinda hurts. And I'm a bit scared.

I swear, I look so dramatic ahahah.

I'm walking down the stairs and the first thing I see is a big picture of me and Rosé. It has always been there but every time I see it, my heart becomes warm.

My mum insisted on hanging it on the wall. She really loves Rosé, because when I talk about her my face lights up. That's what both of my parents say.

"I'm here mum and dad" I say as I walk towards them and sit at the dining table.

"Hi beautiful" my dad says as he sees me "are you ready for school?"

"Yes, as always I have to be prepared. I've been studying for a while" I tell him as I smile.

"Y/n, I know you want to be the top student" my mum interrupts us "but you have to enjoy life, go outside, make some friends and maybe bring home a boyfriend"

"BOYFRIEND?!" both me and my dad shout.

"Yes. B-O-Y-F-R-I-E-N-D" my mum marks that word and then continues "you're already 19 and you've never brought home a boy"

"Thanks for reminding me how single I am" I say giving up.

After I finished eating and cleaning the kitchen, I went straight to my room and now I'm here in my bed, looking at my white ceiling.

That color reminds me how much I love simplicity. Even when I was a little kid, I loved minimalism. When my dad was painting my room he asked me what color I wanted the walls. "White" I said. Even the furniture it's all white. Back then I thought that if my room was all white, people wouldn't have noticed it that much, so that I could stay away from problems.

I guess it was the same with my personality. I wanted to be noticed as little as possible. Until I met Rosé. The first thing she told me, when she first saw me, was "Why are you all white and black?". But that day I was wearing a pink skirt with a purple t-shirt. So I looked at her confused and she told me "I was talking about your personality".

Even though she was only four years old, she was very smart and fast-learning.

Since then, when I'm with her, I act like myself, without being afraid to be judged. Only when we go outside I contain myself in order to not be noticed.

She knows that I don't want to get in trouble, that's why, when it's only me and her, I'm a crazy weirdo, while when we're with others I'm the basic nerd who sits in a corner.

"Mmmh what can I do today?" I question myself still laying down.

"I think I'm going to study today too, since tomorrow I'll be with Rosé"

And that's how my afternoon and evening went.

Now it's Sunday morning. I'm very nervous for tomorrow, because today I cannot review my notes. This gives me much anxiety. But it's ok I guess. I think I need some fresh hair.

In the morning I cleaned a bit my room, I don't like when it's messy. Every single thing has his little spot, like everything in this world. Also I have a very very little spot in this planet and I don't actually mind to stay there.

Now it's early noon and I receive a message from Rosé.

Rosé:

Y/n I know you don't like to go outside, but at least wear something cute. I'll be there in 30 minutes!!! 😊

Something cute? I usually wear a basic pair of jeans and a white or black t-shirt.

I only have one cute shirt, but I've never worn it because I was afraid people would look at me.

It's not that I don't want to be observed by others. I just think that if someone starts complimenting me, people are going to talk a lot and then I'll be under everybody's eyes.

I just don't want to become "popular" among my classmates and other teenagers.

While thinking about all this, I changed into today's outfit. It looks cute, I already knew it. I just hope nothing will happen.

In the end it's nothing special. Just a pair of blue jeans and a white cute shirt.

As I put on my shoes I hear my phone vibrating. It's Rosé. She says that she's waiting for me outside.

I quickly run downstairs, say hi to my parents, who look at me shocked by seeing their daughter wearing something different, and then head outside.

I see my friend waiting for me. She's so beautiful, I swear.

"Hi y/n!! I was waiting for you!!" she says smiling brightly.

After walking down the street, we decided to stop at a cute café. We asked the waiter, if we could sit outside, because it was such a beautiful day.

While we're enjoy our coffees, someone greets us.

"Hi Y/n, Hi Rosé!"

We turn around and it's him.

I look at Rosé. It looks like she has mixed emotions. She seems nervous but at the same time annoyed.

"What are you doing here Jimin?" she asked him.

"Calm down honey, I'm just hanging out with my friend here" he answers pointing at a guy next to him.

"Honey my ass!" Rosé seems pissed. But I'm not really paying attention at what she's saying back to Jimin. I keep looking at the guy next to him.

Not going to lie. He's handsome.

Why am I even looking at him? He's way out of my league. He's too much. But I don't know why I can't stop looking at him.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" this mysterious guy says.

OH MY GOD IS HE TALKING TO ME?!

"O-Oh s-sorry..." I say at a really low voice looking at the ground.

"Ahahaha don't worry y/n" Jimin says smiling "he's always mad. It's not because you were staring at him. Nothing will happen"

After cutely arguing with Rosé, Jimin snd his friend leave.

"I swear to god, I'm going to beat Jimin's ass!" my friend says angrily.

"But it looked like you enjoyed talking to him, even though you seemed annoyed" I say smirking.

"W-What?" she's all red. Ahahahh I love making her feel all flustered.

It's the end of the day and now I'm in my bed. I'm so nervous. Tomorrow morning will be the first day of school.

I have a whole plan in my head. Be plain, white. Like the wooden beams on my ceiling.

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