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“Because *you* have confidence problems?”

I kind of forget that you’re human sometimes. I mean, your life consists of being a literal rock star. You get to play shows full of people who came just to see you. You get to talk to fans telling you just how awesome you are. You don’t have to have a real job- instead you can play video games all day.

But I mean, you also have meetings with management. And do a bunch of Not Your Band stuff, including learning music for a multitude of other bands. And schmoozing, God, do you schmooze a lot. You also are about to go on the biggest tour of your life- which has to be pretty stressful. 

So I’m sorry that I don’t see you as human. I’m sorry that I make fun of you when you do normal things like eat broccoli and go to the bank. I’m sorry I laughed when you said you were feeling kind of down. I’m here for you, when you just played for 300 people and for 3. I’m here when you want to talk about an awesome day and when you want to vent and when you start to wonder why you didn’t just stay in IT. 

Basically, I wish you the best. And when you’re not feeling your best- I’m here to be your Support.

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“Shout out to everybody who’s trying to get their life together. Working on yourself is the hardest part of life. The rest comes after.”

Maybe this isn’t the hardest part of my life. I mean, after I graduate, things will probably be harder. Multi-year relationships that will fail will probably be harder. Unemployment. Death of someone close. Finding happiness. Figuring out where I belong. All things that will probably be harder than right now.

But fuck it, this is the hardest part of my life *so far* and that means something. I’m just staring at bills I don’t know if I’ll be able to pay. All my assignments and commitments that I have to balance with two jobs. And a boyfriend who already feels forgotten enough. I mean, I’m not overwhelmed at the moment, but I’m so ready to be.

I’m not sure how I’ll pay for everything. I’m not sure how I’ll complete all my assignments. And all my community service. And work. And eat. And have a social life because apparently sitting at home watching Netflix and going to bed at 10 every night is not what my boyfriend calls “fun.” 

So shout out to everyone who’s trying. I mean, if I can get through this year, I’ll be golden. I’ll have a career. A mothafuckin’ career. But there’s a lot in the middle. And I’m very concerned. 

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Anxious or Nervous

Am I feeling anxious or nervous right now? Okay, anxious is when you really want to get something over with and it’s good but nervous is when you really want to get something over with and it’s bad. So wait, which am I again? 

I’m not ready for all this adult stuff to be happening all at once. This time next year I’ll be graduating. Freaking graduating with a job, no not a job a career. This time next month, I’ll be starting a summer community immersion class where I go to different parts of the city and also outside of class complete 60 hours of community service. This time next week, I’ll be starting my new job. And this time tomorrow? Well I don’t know.

I can think long term right now. I can think to the fall, when I’ll start student teaching. I can think in a year when I’ll be graduating and starting my career. I can think even five years from now, when I’ll be finishing my commitment with the University and free to do....anything. I can even think inside those five years. Somewhere in there, I’d like to have enough money to buy a new car, and possibly get an apartment by myself. I can think of events I’m going to, assignments that will be due, life events that will happen. 

But I can’t think short term. I can’t think about where my boxes of things will be tomorrow. Will they be here? A new apartment? Someone’s garage? I can’t think about whether I do find a cosigner and get the apartment tomorrow or not. I can’t think about where I’ll lay my head if I don’t. How much do truck stop showers cost? How uncomfortable is my backseat? How hot do summer nights get in a black car? 

I’m so overwhelmed right now. But am I anxious, or nervous?

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So wait...Were you drinking the cereal milk the whole time to acompany the rest of the meal?

I just ate peanut butter on a banana. On the second banana, I figured that I needed my milk. By the time I finished the banana, I still had milk, so I finished off the jar of peanut butter. But even after that, I still had milk, so I poured some cereal into my mug. But that was too sweet, so I...

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everything that's happening in the world right now is just really overwhelming and i'm gonna be hiding under my covers till world war 3 is over.

#ferguson #protests #riots #everything #oh my god so overwhelmed

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Oh my God!!! This episode!!!!!

#supernatural #supernatural 200 #spn200 #supernatural 200th episode

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Hi. Okay, you're in a band. You're in a successful band. That just finished a tour. That has an album. That is writing another album. That has a recording label, and their music in video games and all sorts of stuff. You're also cute. And play an instrument. In a freaking band.

So have enough self esteem not to ask me why I like you every time you call me on the phone. Even if the only reason I talk to you is because you're in a band YOU'RE STILL IN A BAND. It's reason enough for me to like you.

It's my job to have no self esteem and ask why the boy in the band likes me and talks to me and doesn't go out because he's busy talking to me and wants to buy me a plane ticket to see him over the holidays. Don't take this away from me. 

#text post #self esteem #band guy

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Someone explain this shit to me because I'm just watching the video repeatedly saying "Fuck you! This can't work! How THE FUCK????"

Video

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I have now blinked wrong and effed up my eyeliner three times. This is why I can't have nice things. 

#eyeliner #makeup #text post #blinked wrong #don't blink #blink and you're dead

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I really hate taking my glasses off at night. They're just such a part of me that without them I feel just plain wrong.

#glasses #night #text post

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I'm not saying I look good in a top knot. I *am* saying that I've worn a top knot every day for over a week now.

#top knot #hair #fashion #I dont look good #I don't care

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So wait, did I watch a video from 2012 or did Alex Day just promote his book?? He knows thousands of people are watching because he's a total asshat, and he decided "bet I can make some money off this" ???

#alex day #alex #day #douchebag #text post

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LABOR DAY WEEKEND Y'ALL!!!! K SO, FIRST OUTFIT, IT'S MY BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY, SO OF COURSE WE HAD TO LOOK SLUTTY AND PARTY!!! RIPPED JEANS, CROP TOP, FLANNEL SHIRT AROUND MY WAIST, HELLA 90S GRUNGE. I WAS A HOT ASS BETCH RIGHT THERE!!! NEXT OUTFIT, BFF'S BIRTHDAY PARTY AT HER HOUSE, THATS HER. HELLZ YEA! I GOT THIS DRESS AT A MEXICAN BOOTLEG STORE FOR $6 FUCK YES!!!! AND YEAH THATS THE FLANNEL SHIRT FROM MY WAIST, IT'S THE PERFECT THING EVER. CLASSY AS FUCK. I'M GONNA RECYCLE THE SHIT OUT OF THAT!!!!! LIVE LONG AND PROSPER BETCHES!!!

#frugal #fuck yeah frugal fashion #fashion #style blog #labor day weekend #labor day #party outfit #90s grunge #style

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ALRIGHT GUYS AND GALS, STRAP IN BECAUSE THIS IS MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL SHIT. CLASSIC? CLASSY? MOTHER FUCKING AWESOME? ALL OF THE ABOVE? YOURE GONNA IMPRESS THE HELL OUT OF YOUR FELLOW TEACHERS AND YOUR STUDENTS IF YOU SHOW UP TO SCHOOL IN THIS SHIT. THAT DRESS IS SOME UGLY-ASS KMART SHIT BY ITSELF, WITH THAT BUTTON DOWN? I LOOK LIKE ONE CLASSY MOTHERFUCKER. MY PROFESSOR GAVE ME HELLA COMPLIMENTS FOR THIS CLASSY SHIT. OUTFIT IS A WIN.

#classy #first day of school #clothes #fashion #frugal #frugal fasion #fuck yeah frugal fashion #classic #teacher #teacher clothes

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IT'S HOT AS BALLS HERE BUT I GOTTA LOOK CLASSY AS SHIT FOR MY FIRST DAY AT WORK SO HERE Y'ALL GO! SEE THOSE BLUE PANTS? MOTHERFUCKING SEAHORSES ON THOSE BITCHES! THAT SHIRT? FUCKING THRIFT SHOP SHIT. THOSE SHOES? MOTHER FUCKING WALMART. I LOOK CLASSY AS FUCK RIGHT NOW. AND ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING RICH-ASS PARENTS THOUGHT SO TOO. 

STAY FUCKING CLASSY, TUMBLR

#style #blog #style blog #motherfucking blog #hot as balls #classy style #work #work style #teaching style #stay classy tumblr

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When exactly did “he’s an attractive adult male…oh he has kids, nvm” become “LOOK AT THE HOT DAD!!! I WANNA BONE THE HOT DAD!!!”

I’m not sure, but I think it’s coincided with Jared, Jensen and Misha being awesome/attractive dads. 

#hot dads #supernatural #grown up #jared padalecki #jensen ackles #misha collins #misha #jared #jarpad #jensen #jared jensen misha #seriously #they're amazing dads #but i still wanna bone them