I sat with my feels for a little too long today and this happened… nothing too detailed but there is a sprinkling of smut, just a pinch. I also didn’t edit this at all hehe ♡ WARNING: Panic Attacks
Kiri’s had impostor syndrome since day one! Questions himself and his abilities even though he’s clearly proven himself time and time again. He wants to help even if he’s got no idea how and it pains him so deeply when he can’t. It’s this drive to always be useful that makes him give 110% of himself all the time…
It’s what makes him keep smiling even though he’s screaming on the inside. It’s why he lays awake at night with a brain unable to slow itself down. He hate that it gets too much for him at times. Telling himself he’s the unbreakable hero, he should be able to handle everything and anything!
He can take on a few extra patrols… he doesn’t mind some extra volunteer work…he can fill in as a guest on that one talk show.
It was just one question that was asked, he didn’t even remember what it was, but it struck a nerve. One that almost brought tears to his eyes and had his words lodged in his throat.
Thankfully he managed to get out of there before making a fool of himself on live television. He found a hall with no one in it and slid down the wall, tugging at the tie around his neck so it was no longer choking him like a noose and then finally settled with his head in his hands.
His whole body felt tense, like he wanted to claw and rip at his skin. All those emotions he’s kept under lock and key were fighting to be free and this time, they were winning.
Every negative option he had of himself was on replay, screaming loud in his head that he didn’t even hear you walking up.
You flashed your visitors pass to get backstage and went looking for him the moment you heard him stutter under the bright studio lights. You knew this break was coming. He’d been over working himself for months, barely sleeping, and when you asked if he was alright he just smiled and told you of course he was.
It was the only lie Eijiro ever told you. You couldn’t force the truth from him, that never worked. You just had to wait.
By the time you found him he was so curled in on himself he looked like a ball with knees press to his chest and his head rest atop them. His hands were locked above his head like he was trying to shield himself from danger only he could see. So, you sank to your knees in front of him to help him fight.
When you put your hands on his shaking shoulders his head shot up, wide. red rimmed eyes meeting yours. “C’mon, big guy, it’s time for a break…”
He didn’t fight you on it. Didn’t insist he was fine. He just nodded his head and let you help him back on his feet.
It was harder than anything for him to let others help him. Take on tasks that were usually his. But little by little he let you take care of him.
Let you drive him home, let you help him out of his suit, let you wash his hair in the shower. Let you make him dinner and even clean up afterward. Let you massage his aching muscles for once.
He let you get on your knees again between his thighs and put your lips around him. He let you help him ease his tension. He let you have control, work him past the bend of your throat until he found his relief.
But, it wasn’t until he had you cuddled up beside him, holding him close, that he let himself find safety and relaxation.
He let his guard down. Let that mask slip away. Let all his insecurities show and let you love him anyway.
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Oh wow, it’s 8 of March tomorrow!
I’m not really feel like a girl. Like I feel but it’s about 60-40% of my gender. But I love women and female characters, so I can congratulate everyone with International Women Day :)
Have a great day/night, darlings :3
CW: BRIGHT COLORS
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💌send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome.💌 💞
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I was watching old videos and came across this one of my first born child playing with Cloud the bunny back in 2013 ♥︎ my son is 10 now and Cloud is 12
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Red, but in an affectionate way!!
Purple bc you are an intimidatingly talented person
Brown bc I can see you throwing tf down if needed
Love you! <3
Mibo, you can hunt me for sport ANY time 😘
The rest of this is also accurate lmao THANK YOUUUUU
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