#ALSO i am very sleepy so i'm going to do the rest of these tomorrow

[lynnbanks]

Jet lag and brunch

(Would like to add this before you read that y/n (ivy) has Pernicious anemia and you will probably more about it in later stories. I would also like to add I'm not completely sure what this is just wanted to get it out there if there are any mistakes let me know hope you enjoy)

Our first morning/afternoon back at the lake house and if we don't hurry we will be late to brunch with luke parents and jack

Luke is still pretty jet-lagged so he is struggling to get up. “ lukey it is time to get up,” I say while rubbing his bare back long forgotten where his shirt and pants were the second we got to our room at the lake house before crashing onto the bed taking me with him.

“Lay with me for a second please.” we don't have time but I indulge already having myself ready knowing he would likely brush his teeth put on anything he can find at the top of his unpacked suitcase with a hat and be out the door.

“ ok sleepy butt we have 20 minutes to be out the door so in five minutes you need to be up and getting ready” he dismissed me by pulling me into bed with him and onto his chest mumbling “You smell good baby” voice still deep and gravely from sleeping 10 hours straight “ hmm thank you” while I run my fingers through his unruly curls “you ready to eat” I ask in a whisper as to not disturb the calm air around us seeing as we haven’t had a lot of alone time in awhile with all the crazy schedules “mmh yes very ready” “ok then let’s get this show on the road.”

Jack meets us downstairs and we all loaded up into the car, Quinn won’t be in till next week and we will probably do a fancy dinner to celebrate all of us being together and all the boys have accomplished this year.

When we get to the restaurant we meet up with Jim and Ellen in the parking lot, before we go in give a hug to both me and Luke after not seeing us for a while, we walk in and the conversation starts flowing.

Luke has his hand running up and down my leg, with the occasional squeeze, we talk about what we want to eat and enjoy each other's company, our server comes and takes our order not without giving Jack a few long stares and some flirty giggles, while we wait for our food I scoot closer to Luke and lay my head on his shoulder while he wraps his arm around me and kisses my head

“ y/n when are you free next maybe we can go get our nails done for the start of summer” “ I am free Sunday I was also thinking of getting my hair cut and finding a new swimsuit along with the other things we will need for the house we could make a day of it” luke perks up “ you have infusions tomorrow baby you should probably take it slow; don't worry about the other stuff I've got the rest.”

Luke gave me a soft squeeze on the arm to let me know he was still there with me, and all I can think now as I look up at him and smile is I love him. The rest of lunch goes pretty well me and Ellen walk out arm and arm talking about the rest of the details for our “girls’ day”. Me and Ellen have always been very close so I am looking forward to it

when I get to my car Luke is holding the door open and before I get in he pulls me into his body and gives me a soft kiss on the lips his constant need to touch me has always been something I love about him my little luv bug; instead of pulling away fully I lay my head on his chest and look up at him “Hmm I love you” he smiled “ oh really well I am IN love with you so” I laugh “ stop being so competitive Warren”

Back at the house Luke and I decide a nap would be how we spend the rest of the afternoon, so we make our way to one of the larger hammocks we had put in last year for this exact reason.

As I lay with half of my body on top of Luke he plays with the fingers on the hand that isn't playing with his curls we talk about nothing and everything; conversation had always been so easy for us never seeming to get tired of what the other has to say.

“I have missed this with you,” Luke says softly almost like he is saying it to himself; still very tired from the time change and travel that comes with the job on top of all the physical parts of the game.

I just want to rap him up and keep him in my pocket “Well you are about to see a whole lot more of me so be prepared to get sick of me” I say with a slight chuckle “ I don't think I will ever get tired of you” he says with a smile in his voice “ glad to hear it warren”

#luke hughes #luke hughes x reader #luke hughes blurb #luke hughes x you

[oflights]

Hello! Top 5 fave folklores/fairytales? :)

ohhhh i LOVE this one! wow okay this is so much fun:

Petrosinella by Giambattista Basile, which is one of the origins of the Rapunzel fairytale! It's a Neapolitan fairytale where a pregnant woman steals parsley from an ogress and has to give up her baby as punishment. The ogress teaches the baby magic and when she grows up, she escapes using magic acorns that turn into animals to attack the ogress. It's very fun even aside from the whole hair thing.

Pintosmalto, again by Basile, where a woman who doesn't want to marry anyone her father chooses makes her perfect husband out of treasures that her father brings her instead; a queen steals the husband away and she has to go get him back.

I'm a sucker for the genre of Irish fairytales where a fairy king steals a queen or a bride and then her husband goes crazy trying to get her back. The one where Fionbharr steals Ethna is fun, the king literally digs all the way down into the fairy realm under a hill until he's close to destroying the palace and Fionbharr is like fiiine, take her back just don't mess up my house.

Similarly I love anything set in Tír na nÓg. I love Niamh and Oisín (and I really like Yeats' version!) Niamh takes Oisín to live in Tír na nÓg with her for what he thinks is 3 years, but is actually 300. He wants to go back to Ireland and she's like okay, but don't touch the ground; he goes back and falls off his horse and immediately ages 300 years and dies.

The Brown Bear of Norway is long and twisty and honestly needs a good retelling someday. When my dad read this story to me as a kid, I went around telling people I was going to marry a bear when I grew up, because to me the point of the story was she should've just dealt with him being a bear sometimes (I was unconcerned about the kidnapped children).

ask me top 5 anything! 🌱🌰🧚🏻🐻

#asks #littlewinnow #top 5 lists #ask meme #i'm sorry these are all irish and italian lol i literally could only think of the ones i heard as a kid and like #greek myths #which is a whole separate genre tbh #ALSO i am very sleepy so i'm going to do the rest of these tomorrow #there are sooo many good ones i still have to do i'm so excited lol

[prettyoatmeal]

can i request konig angst and fluff fic plss like an argument etc i love your work so much 🫶🏽🫶🏽

Apology Accepted

1 order of Angst coming right up!

Genre: Hurt/Comfort

Summary: Everything had gone wrong today, all you wanted to do was forget about what had happened and move past it, the very very very last thing you needed was König having a go at you. But when he finds you having a few drinks after you've missed his calls and messages, he isn't happy.

Warnings: Arguing (sorry, I'm not good at writing conflict), angst, slight mentions of alcohol addiction.

Word Count: 1856

Masterlist here!

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It seemed nothing had wanted to go right today.

Waking up was a disaster. You had accidentally set an alarm for 6 pm rather than 6 am. Curse 12-hour time. Waking up late with such little time to get ready and leave, you couldn't have your usual morning sit down with König. Or really talk to him all that much really. A simple ‘Goodbye’ and a kiss had been exchanged between you two before you had to leave to make it in time for the train. It was understandable, you were in a rush.

When walking to the train station, it had suddenly begun raining, causing you to have to run to the station with your work clothes to get soaked.

Even though you left the house late, you found yourself arriving to the station couple minutes earlier than you normally would have, so you took that extra time to fix yourself in the bathrooms. Unfortunately you had misread the time and took too long in the bathroom, missing the train to the city, ultimately making you an hour late to your job. Your boss was understanding, though it didn’t mean you were completely off the hook. You agreed to stay an extra hour in the office in compensation for your tardiness.

That was until you realised you were in such a rush in the morning that you had completely forgotten the paperwork you were required to bring back that day. Maybe it was for the best, it would’ve gotten soaked. You’re lucky you kept your work laptop in your desk the day before otherwise that also would have gotten soaked. So you’d stayed back even longer to make up for the lost paperwork, working yourself half to death out of guilt, promising to bring it in tomorrow and take an umbrella with you next time. 

The stress of the day was taking a toll on you by the time you had been taking the train back. You were so awfully tired, practically half asleep on the ride back, completely ready to call it a night the moment you get home. You were so out of it by the time, you hadn’t noticed your phone buzzing in your pocket.

Unlocking the front door and walking in, you were greeted to the warm lights of the kitchen shining in your eyes. 

“I’m home!” you called out, kicking your shoes off before closing the door once more. Walking to the kitchen, you washed your hands before immediately pouring yourself a shot of Scotch straight from your liquor cabinet. Feeling yourself getting restless, you pinched your nose before letting all the liquid run down your throat at once, coughing at the burn in your throat. You poured another glass and filling the rest with coke. Letting out a sigh, you took a sip and leaned back against the counter, letting your muscles relax. Small sips turned to swigs, swigs turned to drinking the glass in a single go again, earning another cough from the fizziness and burn. This only resulted in you pouring yourself a third glass. You didn’t want to think about today. Today was filled with nothing but humiliation and disappointment. But the disappointment wouldn’t end there.

Hearing his heavy footsteps approaching, you look up at him with half lidded eyes, feeling a little hazy from your sleepiness. 

“Schatz! You’re home so late. You haven’t responded to my messages.”

He was fresh out of the shower, his hair damp from what looked like a quick attempt at drying it with a towel. His voice was filled with concern, worry. You quickly took your phone out only to see missed calls and unread texts from Köing.

19:20

Missed Call

Missed Call

‘Hey, you missed my calls. Where are you? You don’t normally stay out this late.’

‘Hello hello?’

‘You there?’

‘I hope you’re safe. Please call me back. Love you.’

20:12

‘I’m getting worried. Please reply.’

‘Hello’

‘Hello’

Missed Call

‘:(’

‘I hope everything is okay, hope you get home safe. Love you.’

The guilt had begun to set in again, frowning at the phone you’re holding in front of you. How could you have not noticed your phone buzzing so much? It’s not like it was on silent either. Maybe the buzzing was lost to the loud noises on the train.

“I’m sorry, I mustn’t have noticed.”

“So you come home and immediately start drinking?” Your stomach dropped. “Where were you? It’s almost 8:30, you finish at 5.”

König had always been protective over you, especially in a world like today. He hated it when you wouldn’t respond to his messages or calls, it would always make him extremely anxious. What you’re doing, who you’re with, what if you’re in trouble and he wasn’t there to help you. With a heavy shame flowing over you as you take a look at your glass, you placed it down after swallowing your last sip and slid it across the bench out of your reach.

“I got to work late and forgot some important files, so I stayed back.” 

“So you couldn’t have called me to tell me you won’t be home on time? That you’ll be hours late and I’ll be stuck worrying about where you are. You couldn’t just send me back a text saying when you got off the train? For heaven’s sake, you’re walking home. Walking home alone in the dark, anything could happen.”

You looked down with a frown. You’d left in the morning with barely any words said and hadn’t heard anything else from you until you’d arrived hours later than you normally would, he had every reason to be upset.

“Honestly, I expected better from you, (Y/N).”

But not to scold you like if you were an incompetent teen.

“Excuse me? I am fully capable of protecting myself. Quit trying to treat me like a child!” You snapped back, looking back up at him, only to see disappointment in his eyes. Disappointment. You’d already gotten soaking wet in the morning, missed your train, was late to work, and had to stay back for hours after. You didn’t need to take this. It wasn’t very often you’d see that look from him, and definitely not directed at you. It only made your stomach drop more.

“I’m not, but you know how worrying it is when you don’t communicate these things with me.” He groaned, “just... go upstairs and take a shower. You smell of alcohol and rainwater. I don’t want to start arguing with you about this.”

And so you did just that, chucking your keys down to the kitchen counter and making your way upstairs. It was probably for the best, the stress from today had finally caught up to you causing tears to well up in the corners of your eyes as you made your way upstairs. König didn’t follow you, but you couldn’t care less at that point, you didn’t want to see him right now, you needed that space. Finally stripping yourself from your terribly uncomfortable clothing in front of the bathroom mirror, you finally felt a small sense of relief.

After brushing away the alcohol from your teeth and dressing yourself in something warm and comfortable, you had finally collapsed into your shared bed. After holding it in for so long, tears couldn’t help but fall from your eyes as a tsunami of emotions washed over you. Everything from today that could have gone wrong went wrong, you thought you could’ve at least relaxed at home, but you couldn’t. All you could do was think back over the day, the goddamn Scotch hadn’t done its thing. Not to mention how König looked down on you, those dark eyes he’d only ever really use on the battlefield. Looking down on you like one would with a child. The alcohol wasn’t helping either. You felt upset with yourself, you felt shame, you felt humiliation. You couldn’t help but sob into your pillow, holding it to your face as tightly as you can to muffle the sounds you were making. It wasn’t even 5 minutes before you felt yourself drifting off to sleep, ready to put this day behind you.

You slowly awaken to the sound of porcelain being placed on top of the wooden bedside table with a small clang of metal, as well as a particularly nice smell. Something warm and homey. You feel a dip in the mattress as König sits down next to you. Opening your eyes, you pry your face away from the pillow and you glance over to the table. Goulash. It’d smelt wonderful, but you couldn’t bring yourself to eat.

“Schatz,” he whispered out, “warmed up dinner for you.”

His voice was soothing, calming. Nothing like how it sounded before. You’d glanced up at him a few times before finally shaking your head ‘no’ in response. You weren’t hungry, quite the opposite of it. It felt as if you were to put anything in your mouth, food or not, you’d throw up. You knew he could tell you’d been crying, your cheeks still warm and streaky, your eyes still puffy and red. Each glance you took at him with your glassy eyes shattered his heart a bit more. König’s figure blurred in front of you, whether it been from your drunken state or the dried-up tears in your eyes from earlier, you weren’t sure.

“I’m sorry.” He muttered out sincerely as one of his rough, calloused hands made its way up to your tear-stained cheek. His hands were large against your face, caressing the plush skin of your cheeks. They may have been rough, but they were also gentle, soothing, calming. Your blinking became slower as you leaned into his warm palms.

“I’m sorry I made you feel like I was disappointed in you. I was just so worried… today was rough for you, I should have been more… kind when choosing what to say.”

His words brought tears to your eyes once more. You didn’t want to talk about this. Not right now at least. You may not have wanted to, but you knew you needed to. Confrontation was always a heavy topic, didn’t matter who was in the wrong. His calm expression turned to concern once more as he noticed how your eyes welled up from his apology. You leaned into his hand more, as if you were trying to cover your flushed face with it, his palm catching the stream of your tears.

Apology accepted.

Sitting up finally, you wrapped your arms around him as tightly as you could manage with König doing the same. It felt like home. You hadn’t realised how homesick you’ve felt until he’d pulled you into him so tightly. He felt like home. You felt yourself melting into his chest as you let out a long sigh you didn’t know you were holding in.

“I’m glad you’re home safe, I’m sorry I hadn’t said that earlier, Liebling.”

All you could respond with was a small whimper.

“I know, I know, ” he whispered back, placing a small kiss on top of your head, “I love you, Mous. I need to work on showing that more often.”

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I'm sorry, this isn't proof read 😭😭 please dont mind any gramatical errors or just bad story building in general

Goodnight <3

#könig headcanons #cod mw2 #könig mw2 #könig cod #call of duty #konig cod #Konig mw2 #König x reader #König fluff #König imagines #Konig imagines #mw2 x reader #Konig fluff #Konig Angst #mw2 x reader angst

[gentlebeardsbarngrill]

02/24/2024 Daily OFMD Recap

TLDR; Cast&CrewSightings; Samba BTS; David Jenkins; Rhys Darby; Damien Gerard; Guz Khan!; SaveOFMD Crew Billboard; AdoptOurCrew Saturday Sillies; Making A Difference; Articles; Love Notes; Daily Darby/Tonight's Taika;

Been a long Saturday yall. Hope you enjoyed the BTS and general clown/honking going around!

== Cast & Crew Sightings ==

= Samba Schutte Feat. David Jenkins! =

Samba's back with more BTS for us today!

This time the Crew Shoutout is for Chaos Dad himself: David Jenkins! So good to see Chaos dad having such a great time BTS. We love you David!

Videos on Tumblr:

Video 1

Video 2

Video 3

= Rhys Darby =

Rhys decided to take it up a notch today on his Tiktok/Instagram and tell... someone they've created a monster. Who might that be?

== Damien Gerard ==

Our crew-mate @patchworkpiratebear got a Cameo from our lovely Father-Teach, Damien Gerard! There's a bit of a story behind it, see below! Cameo link

== Guz Khan! ==

Hey! It's been a hot minute since we've seen our friend Guz Khan-- and now he's showed up on a cat! Good to see you sir!

== Save OFMD Crew ==

There have been questions raised about the billboard that the SaveOFMD Crew have been posting teasers for on their socials. The Crew had a meeting today wherein they discussed the concerns of the fandom, and have taken that feedback to heart. They are currently working on a clear information packet regarding the logistics of the current billboard efforts. They have kindly asked for your patience while they finish putting those last touches together!

== @adoptourcrew Saturday Sillies! ==

Our friends over at @adoptourcrew were kind enough to set up a new Saturday Sillies this week! This time they made custom OFMD Wordles! There were WAY too many images to include in the recap, so if you'd like to check them out, please visit the tumblr post below!

Wanna play? You can visit a tumblr post here

== Making a Difference! ==

Thank you to everyone who contributed to, or shared the fundraiser for Trans Pride Brighton! They've finally met their goal and can stay open another year! You made a serious difference in the lives of trans and non-binary folk in that community!

== Articles ==

Deze HBO-serie is gecanceld, maar had een 95% op Rotten Tomatoes

Schwule Romanze zwischen Piratenkapitänen

== Love Notes ==

Hey lovelies. I hope you had a fun Saturday/Sunday wherever you are. I know some of you are already closing out the weekend. We made it through another day-- and there's all sorts of action going on across all the platforms. I hope you got a chance to have fun, but also to rest. I know you know this, but even though I do too I often forget it. Rest is so very important. It's so easy to burn out, especially when we're constantly exposed to so much online. I think to myself "oh it's fine I'll just get a few more things done" and then it's suddenly 3 hours later and I've had only 4 hrs sleep in the last 30. Please please please give yourself self care today. Go brush your teeth, or take a shower. If you feel like you can do more, brush your hair, or make yourself a nice cup of tea. Do something for you that makes you relax and feel rested. On your last day of the weekend, make sure to take a few moments to yourself and just remember how awesome you are. You may not feel like it sometimes, but I can tell you now you truly are Awe-some. You bring so much life and love to this world and you deserve all beautiful things you want. Anyway, I'm very sleepy and I'm rambling again (what's new). Sleep well and enjoy your day lovelies, see you tomorrow.

== Daily Darby / Today's Taika ==

I'm being lazy tonight again yall. Just two goofy gifs that caught my eye, sorry I am running on fumes. Tomorrow I'll try to find some themed ones for ya <3

Rhys Gif: Courtesy of @fandomsmeantheworldtome

Taika Gif: ohnotheydidnt.livejournal

#daily ofmd recaps #ofmd daily recaps #ofmd daily recap #daily ofmd recap #our flag means death #ofmd #rhys darby #taika waititi #samba schutte #david jenkins #chaos dad #daddy jenkins #guz khan #damien gerard #save ofmd #save our flag means death #adopt our crew #save ofmd crew

[lovelybrooke]

Where Am I? (Chapter 2)

A/N: Here's the second chapter of Where Am I. I'm not going to post any new chapters to Tumblr, so if you want to read the rest, check it out on Quotev. Likes and reblogs are appreciated. Enjoy!

Chapter two: Chapter 2: Why are You Here? | Where Am I? (Slight Yandere One Piece X Female Genshin Reader) (quotev.com)

   You stared up at the night sky, watching the stars. The Strawhats were still here, judging by their ship in the harbor. You peered down at the village below, wondering what Luffy and the rest of his crew were doing. Ever since you left work, you kept wondering why Luffy was so interested in some random witch.  Honestly, it was probably because he was so childlike, he doesn’t have a grasp one what it’s like to be a mage.  

        ‘He’s probably more of a fist first type of guy.’ you thought while rolling your eyes. You sat back up with a big stretch, pleased with the many cracks you heard coming from your back. You turn and walk back inside, getting ready for some much-needed sleep. You were extremely happy that you didn’t have to go to work tomorrow, and you could spend your day relaxing.  

        The feeling of the sun coming through your window and hitting you while you were sleeping is a strangely pleasurable feeling. In was like a weight keeping you trapped in your bed, not that you were complaining. Sadly, all good things must come to an end, and the moment the loud banging on your door started, you could tell your day wasn’t going to be that great. Slowly, you get up out of bed, slugging your way to the front door. You unlock it and slowly push it open just enough that the person outside could see your face, but not enough that they could see anything else. The harsh rays of the sun that you were just basking in not too long ago cause your eyes to water. You sluggishly move your hands to wipe the sleep out of your eyes, while also trying to focus on who's at the door.  

        “Hey lady...wait why are you here?” He said while looking around. “He said the witch lives here.” 

You were too sleepy to process what he said, only worried about how he found out where you lived.  

        “How did you find me?” You asked.  

        “I asked the mayor where the witch is, and he told me to come here.” Your eyes shot open, now fully awake.  

        “What do you mean he told you to come here. I’m not the witch!” You quickly tried to defend yourself, but you really didn’t know how.  

Luffy looked at you with a strange look, like he was studying you. It made you feel weird, like he was sizing you up. 

        “I don’t believe you.” He said after a long pause.  

“What do you mean you don’t believe me?!” you said, baffled. Honestly you couldn’t believe the audacity of this kid, waking you up at the crack of dawn just to argue with you, you couldn’t believe it.  

        “I think you’re the witch and you're lying.” His arms were now crossed, as if he wasn’t the one who caused this whole horrible interaction.  

        You let out a deep sigh, debating in your head whether to just tell him the truth. You wanted to keep up the act, but you knew it would be a long, and very annoying, battle. In the end you chose to just tell him the truth, show him a few spells, and hopefully he’d get bored and move on.  

        “Fine, you found me. What do you want.” Luffy’s eyes widened, and a very loud gasp came out of his mouth. Suddenly, his face was centimeters from yours.  

        “Please join my crew!”  

        The door was slammed in his face the moment they came out of his mouth.  

        “Hey come on! Please!” He was moving around the outside of your home, peering in the windows, trying to find a way inside.  

        “No! Leave me alone!” you screamed back.  

        You could hear Luffy huff in annoyance, which almost made you laugh if you weren’t so scared.  

        No sound was made for a while, and you were positive Luffy had left. You breathed a sigh of relief. ‘Thank god’ you thought. You were still pretty sad that you couldn’t spend your weekend sleeping though and now that you were all worked up you were starving, since you missed breakfast. You decided that lunch at a nice restaurant would help, and as long as you didn’t go to the more well-known places, you shouldn’t have to worry about Luffy.  

        So, you got dressed and cleaned yourself up, getting ready for your day out. You were honestly kinda excited since you haven't been able to eat out due to how busy you were. You decided to eat at one of the smaller, family-owned places since it didn’t get that much business and you could hopefully avoid any chaos.  

        You entered the restaurant, which was basically dead, like expected. A nice young girl, who you assumed was the owner's daughter, sat you down at a table near the back and gave you a menu which you started to skim.  

The bell above the door rang, causing you to look up. The person, or man, was tall with blond hair. He was flirting with the hostess, who you couldn’t help but feel bad for. You could tell that the girl was flattered by the pretty man's complements. You rolled your eyes and looked back down at the menu, hoping to find something to fill the empty hole that was your stomach.  

        You could hear feet shuffling towards you, prompting you to look up from your menu. To your surprise, it wasn’t someone coming to take your order, it was the man, smiling down at you.  

“Is anyone sitting here ma’am?” He asked oh so politely. You shook your head quickly, watching as he took a seat across from you. He extended his hand out for you to shake, which you did, maybe too fast.  

He gave you a small smile before asking you for your name. “______” you responded with a timid voice. It wasn’t every day that some random man comes sitting down willingly conversating with you and you really didn’t know how to deal with it.  

        “I’m Sanji.” He told you. “I’m the cook for the Stawhats.” He reviled while leaning back in his seat. Suddenly all the respect you had for this man washed away. Your face went from wonder to disgust in a matter of seconds.  

        “Did Luffy send you here. I already told him I’m joining your stupid pirate gang.” The words came out a little bit harsher than need be, but you didn’t really care that much.  

        Sanji’s gaze hardened slightly at the words, but his politeness never faltered. “No, Luffy didn’t send me, but he was disappointed at your response. And since he is my captain, it is my job to at least make you reconsider.”  

        You leaned forward slightly and tried to appear at least somewhat intimidating. “Look Sanji, you seem like a great guy, but I have too much going on here and I can't just uproot my whole life to go on an adventure with a bunch of wanted criminals.” Your words weren’t completely true, but they carried weight. Other than work, you didn’t have really anything of worth on this island, no friends, no family. But you couldn't handle more change, you were just getting used to your new home, and you hadn't even found your vision. 

        You couldn’t tell what Sanji was thinking, but you could tell your words affected him. He leaned forward so that he was sitting straight up and looked at you directly in the eyes.  

        “You know I was like you once, absolutely hated Luffy.” you relaxed slightly, no longer as tense as you were before. He was focusing on nothing in particular, staring off into the distance. “He came to the restaurant I worked at and asked me over, and over, and over again to join his crew. It wasn’t until he helped me realize my dream that I finally caved in.” He spoke fondly with a reminiscent smile on his face. He looked back at you, eyes filled with what looked like hope. 

        “Look I know he’s stupid, and annoying, and too much sometimes, but he’s smart, and a good captain.” You were surprised at how quickly he went from praising to insulting his captain, but you could tell that he was loyal to him.  “Just think about it.” He finished, sitting up from his seat. You just stared down at your hands in your lap, contemplating everything he just said. As he walked away, you finally found your voice.  

        “I’m going to refuse you know” You doubled downed.  

        “Well then we’re going to be here for a while, Luffy won’t take no for an answer.” 

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[pbandjesse]

Happy Easter to those who celebrated and happy trans day of visibility for everyone. It was a nice day off. Not as full and exciting as yesterday but it was still really good. I feel more rested. Still tired but not in an upsetting way. Like I am just a little sleepy and cozy.

I had a ton of trouble falling asleep last night. But I got to sleep until 9 so it was fine. When I woke up I was still real tired though and thought I would take a nap later but that just didn't happen. Ah well.

I got up and got dressed. I need to wash my hair tonight but that's a late problem. I would go find Sweetp and have some breakfast.

I would spend time in our room. Making the bed. Picking outfits for the week. Laying in bed and scrolling on my phone. It was a lazy kind of day.

Eventually I would go down to the studio and actually got some work done. I put on a video and set up my new folding table and it is just so nice to have a good surface to cut fabric on. It made it a lot easier and I was able to get 14 new bears cut out with the new pattern I drew out. Longer arms so I can make them segmented. I'm very pleased.

I would set up my machine and sewed 4 of them before I stopped to have lunch.

I would make cream cheese wontons. And they were good. And after that gave me some energy I did some cleaning and vacuuming. I also realized how nice it was outside so I figured out how to wedge the screen door using some blocks of wood so I could have the back door open. And it worked! Like it's not perfect or permanent. But for now it's great. I will have to figure out a bit for drilling into the metal or the stone of the house itself for actually attaching a door. But for now this makes a huge difference.

Once I had that set up I would clean the floors and put some stuff away. I also hung up a few things we had sitting and waiting. I sorted the mail we had sitting on the island. It felt good to get stuff done.

I had another food break. And hung out with sweetp. I considered doing an Easter thing but I chose not to do anything but rest. Just enjoy the day. And waited for James to get home.

When James did get back I had to unwedge the door so they could come in. But that was fine. Getting it wedged again was the hard part. But we will try again tomorrow probably to get an actual screen door that actually fits. Or another solution. The weather won't be as nice tomorrow so it's not a rush but it is something I want to handle ASAP.

James would jump into making us Tex Mex. And they would get on a call with friends to play DND while they cooked and I played Pokemon for an hour. It was fun but since it's so close to being completed totally it's barely fun and it's just grinding. But it was still nice to play a little.

Now James is sitting on the couch still playing with their friends. And the sun is setting. And I would like to go wash my hair. And hopefully sleep better tonight.

I hope you all had a really nice day. I love you all. Goodnight!

[bonesandthebees]

I am so mad rn I fell asleep at like 7 pm I didn't mean to I just woke up and was hoping it was at least like idk 3 am but NO it's 11:30 pm and im not tired enough to go back to sleep so now I have to choose to either stay awake and be on my phone or lay in the dark and hope that's enough to lull me to sleep and I'm pissed bc I have a full day ahead tomorrow and I'm not asleep right now so I'm going to be miserable in the morning but I'm not staying at my house rn so my body is doing the weird thing it does when you stay at a friends house and it's weird about sleeping and I kind of wanna hurl myself off of a cliff rn and my phone is lagging as I write this out and it's pidssing me off even more

But yes I enjoyed the one shot I don't remember its name right now but the qsmp one it was very good and I loved the ichor children concept that's so cool :)

Oh anon I’m so sorry as someone who has dealt with anxiety-induced insomnia to the point where I had to get therapy for it I know the frustration with not being able to fall asleep. Currently my go to solution whenever I’m not tired and can’t sleep is the anxiety meds I got prescribed for that exact issue lol, but obviously you can’t do that so here are my tips

If possible, find some melatonin or at least see if you have chamomile tea. If you don’t have either of those, what usually works for me is to turn on a long YouTube video on my phone and just watch until I get sleepy. Old vods are always a good option if you want something to be interested in, but it’s probably better to watch them from a calmer cc (Niki had a super long let’s play series where she played a story game called beyond two souls and I used to listen to that whenever I had trouble sleeping).

My current go to for sleepy videos are either ASMR videos (but I know those aren’t everyone’s tastes), or two specific channels: Baumgartner Restoration or NileRed. Baumgartner is the channel of an art conservator who makes long and very detailed videos showing his conservation and restoration process for paintings clients send him. It’s so fascinating to watch, and his voice is really calming at the same time. I literally turn on a video of his every night before I sleep and rarely get more than 5 minutes into it before I’m passing out. NileRed is a slightly more…energized channel of a guy who does a lot of weird and cool chemistry! His voice is also really even-toned and calming to listen to, but the main reason his stuff helps me sleep is the minute he starts explaining ochem concepts I knock tf out. I did a full years worth of ochem in college it’s like an instinctual reaction to want to pass out hearing it again 😭

Anyway. Find some videos like the ones I suggested—preferably at least 45 min or longer. Just watch it and try to focus on the content rather than the fact that you can’t sleep. If you start getting sleepy, great! If you’re unsure but you’re kind of tired, try closing your eyes and just listening to the video. I’ve fallen asleep like that so many times before it’s my last resort method

Hope that helps!

(oh and last note: if you can't fall asleep again, try to remind yourself that's okay. the more you stress about not being able to sleep, the worse it'll get. even just laying in your bed with your eyes shut will help you feel more rested.)

#ask #daisy anon

[timeoverload]

Today was a pretty easy day for me. I had 29 cases but it wasn't as stressful because they weren't moving too fast. Nothing bad happened except I still haven't found that muscle hook. Hopefully it turns up tomorrow. I was happy that I got to eat breakfast and lunch and it wasn't terrible.

I did get very angry with the morning team lead earlier. He started telling me how he feels about trans people and I do not agree with his opinions. I told him I didn't want to have a debate about it but he wouldn't stop so I sort of blew up on him. He was telling me that he thinks trans people are mentally ill and he refuses to treat them with respect because he doesn't believe in that. He's always preaching about God and going to church every Sunday but obviously it hasn't taught him how to be a compassionate person. I remember a verse from the bible that says, "Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself." I think he needs to read the book again. I believe if God exists then they created trans people and Jesus loves everyone. They have always existed and it's not a trend. He tried to argue that they are just "seeking attention" but I don't believe that's the case. I think all humans can be attention seeking and that's just the way we are. He needs to stop hating people just because he doesn't understand them. He said that we will have to agree to disagree and I was so mad that I had to leave the room. I also don't think that was an appropriate conversation to be having at work period. I don't want to be forced to be around a transphobic asshole. I barely said a word to him the rest of the day. He says so many horrible things and thinks it's funny. I don't think he realizes how mean he is. He was talking about one of the surgical techs and couldn't remember her name so he referred to her as "the ugly bridge troll". He makes so many disrespectful comments about women. He told me he would leave his fiancée if she didn't shave her legs and I think that's shallow as fuck. He believes a man should make all of the decisions in a relationship and I don't agree with him. He is just so rude and has the biggest ego. He's always pissed about something. I know I have been complaining about him a lot but I am forced to spend hours of my life working with him by myself. I hate coming in to work in the morning now. I think maybe karma is starting to catch up with him because he has been having a lot of bad things happen to him. He has been having a health issue and may need to go on leave. I don't want anything bad to happen to him just because I don't like him but it would be nice to not be around him for a while. He said he is going to come back to work the next day after his procedure because he "lives to work". He's crazy and irresponsible. He also spends at least half of his day talking instead of working anyway. I already know his doctor isn't going to let him do that. He thinks it's fine for him to come in to work anyway and is expecting everyone else to wait on him and bring him stuff to do while he sits. I'm not doing that and that's a bad idea for so many reasons. I really need to stop talking about him but I have been bottling it up and he has been driving me bonkers. I am going to try to stay away from him as much as possible. I'm sorry for going on a rant.

Anyway, there was an add-on at 4:15 and that didn't get done until 4:45. I didn't leave on time because it took me a while to get everything cleaned up but it's ok. I'm so glad I'm home and that it's almost the weekend. I am feeling strange right now. I think I might be getting sick but I can't tell. I have a sore throat but it's not that bad so maybe I will feel better in the morning. I am very tired and achy though. I'm sorry I haven't been on here as much. It's hard to use my phone at work and when I get home I am so sleepy. I am probably going to order a new phone on Friday. I have fallen asleep several times lately with the light on and my keyboard in my lap. I think I need to go eat something really quick and get ready for bed. I need to relax because I have 32 cases tomorrow and it might be a rough day but I hope it isn't. I don't like Thursdays very much but I will try my best to make it a good day.

I hope everyone else has a wonderful day tomorrow!!! Thank you for listening to me vent because that means a lot to me. Talking about stuff usually helps me feel better. I love you all!!! :) 💖💖💖

#personal

[daisynik7]

hello darling wife<3 i’m assuming that by the time you read this it’s morning or afternoon, if that’s the case i hope you slept well and had a good fill of breakfast and fluids to start, unless you don’t eat breakfast:) i have arrived for my bi-weekly(?) delivery of love and kisses for my pretty, pretty wife 🥰

one day until friday and then we have the weekend, whether or not you have plans, i hope it’s well spent ...cuddling me, duh. and nanami.  here’s a reminder to do something extra nice for yourself today, and tomorrow, and the day after:) and of course bundle up, blankets in the dryer, and have some hot cocoa. my brain’s been kind of slow to process the change in seasons and colder weather conditions, and it’s just now starting to hit me lol. 

i hope your spirits are kept high even with the colder weather, but if not it’s okay too! <3 i’d very much appreciate it if you’d do for yourself what you wish upon others. tend to your innermost needs, spoil yourself (i will accept no counterarguments 😶), and if it doesn’t financially compromise you, just do it. with work, social life, and this hellish app:/ i hope that in the midst of everything you find yourself and your needs a priority of utmost importance 🫶🏼

my sincerest apologies if the words are not wording, this just reeks of chaos and randomness it's 5 am and my bilingual brain has been brawling with itself lately and my English is actually starting to deteriorate 🫠, i’m also sleepy (i told you your wife is a sleepy girlie, it’s literally morning lol)

anyways I’M SO LUCKY TO HAVE THE PRETTIEST, SWEETEST, WIFE with THE PRETTIEST BRAIN WITH LOTS OF GROOVES AND SQUIGGLIES (i briefly read somewhere that the more texture, the smarter??? idk 😃), i’m saying it again but im so proud of you, even if you just woke up, you’re doing well! 🥹ok bye snookums have a good day! <3 

accurate representation of me rn, need wifey and nanami cuddles asap 😤

snookums! my precious angel, my most decadent sweet! sorry this is a late reply! I've been out all day, but I'm back now, ready for your cuddles! I usually drink iced coffee as my breakfast in the morning whenever I'm working in the office, but tomorrow I wfh, so I may treat myself to a home cooked meal of some sort :)

I treated myself today! I went out with a friend for dinner and we shared chicken karaage, okonomiyaki, and takoyaki! here's pics of it to whet your appetite 😋

we also got boba and chatted in the car for hours, so it was very nice to catch up! I imagine this would be a typical date for you and I, indulging in delicious food, then some sort of dessert after. ♥️ and of course, snuggles to end the night!

make sure you bundle up too! it's been very cold where I am and I have finally broken out the hoodies and sweaters. don't forget your fuzzy socks and beanies (if you wear those)!

thank you for always reminding me to be kind to myself! I've been in a bit of a funk lately, but seeing you in my inbox is a huge help, more than you know. also, please never ever apologize because you are so eloquent and I'm always in awe after reading your lovely messages to me. 🥹 I hope you were able to get enough rest today (you were up early/you stayed up late!), but if not, I hope you can use this weekend to do so.

ahhhhh you are SO PRECIOUS. I'm the lucky one to have you! I love you so so much, thank you for always being so good to me, so sweet, so kind, so absolutely lovely in every possible way. going to fall asleep soon, dreaming of you and nanami, the two most precious loves in my life!! have an amazing weekend snookums!

also this pic is very much an accurate representation of us, don't you think? 😘

#my lovely thea #lovely moots #I LOVE YOU

[parameddic]

@hvndredstories / look, owen out of nowhere had something to say to nikolai and i am letting him, it's owen as a guest muse but also maybe just a drabble, it is either a gift for you or it is a curse but i thought it was fun to watch!

"He hated Buttercup for days, y'know." Owen moved through the living room, but did not ask them to move from the couch, where TK had drifted off buried beneath Buttercup's fur and resting on Nikolai's shoulder. Owen had arrived home a little earlier than he'd said he would, not without apology (it hadn't been planned, he didn't end the night early on purpose) but yes, without texting first. "Well," he said, as he slung his coat, folded, over the back of a kitchen chair, "'hated'. TK's never really hated anything in his life. But he didn't like that dog for days. Wouldn't let it near."

Really he should have been asking if they'd had a nice night. If Nikolai had seemed a shade less - well, shady - then Owen might have wanted the answer to be yes. Owen paused in the arch of the living room's entry, taking a second to look at them properly. He sighed. That same mannerism of TK's, corner of his mouth pulling as he dismissed a thought he wasn't going to voice.

"Buttercup won him over." This was a point he was making, said the way that he stood, a little tipsy from the night. He'd tell TK about the place he'd found downtown, tomorrow. With the good vegan steak. They'd go together, and Nikolai would stay home. Owen didn't think that Nikolai was a bad person but he did think he was a bad influence, and TK had historically not done great with one of those, in his life. "TK doesn't have it in him. Buttercup was sick - he's better now. He's better now - and he, TK, he said he 'couldn't fall in love with something he knew he was going to lose'. And look at him."

Look at him, Owen said, with his eyes on his son, asleep on this man's shoulder, comfortable and maybe even... happy, a little. Owen didn't know if he had seen TK very happy before without it kinda sorta raising red flags. He had told Owen once, I think I really have feelings for him, Dad.

"That's my son. He can't even... choose it. That's just who he is." Gave and gave and gave.

"Buttercup." Said sharply, to rouse him; Buttercup whined and sat up, warmth suddenly leaving TK, who himself began to rouse. "C'mon, boy. Bathroom and bed." Buttercup, a good dog, picked himself up with a bit of a shake and clambered off the couch in Owen's direction, leaving TK to further turn his face into Nikolai's shoulder, seeking the warmth of a dog-blanket that had just been taken from him, until he peeled one eye open, squinting at the figure silhouetted by the entryroom's light. "Dad?" A sleepy just-woke-up catch in his voice he'd had since he was six years old and had that cough that wouldn't go away for weeks.

Owen watched him very-sleepily reinstate space between them, between TK and Nikolai, that would not have been there if Owen had not come home early.

"Don't mind me," Owen told TK, "just passing through. Dinner got cut short." After opening the door for Buttercup he moved further into the kitchen, so he was not there to witness TK exchange a glance with Nikolai about a 'cut short' dinner--

"'Cut short'..." under his breath, barely even voiced, but then: "What did you do?"

"Why does it have to be something I did?" It was something Owen did. But he was not in the living room to watch the way TK dismissed chasing it, either, he was busy putting away the very nice bottle of wine he'd picked up on the way home, and he asked, "Give you a ride home, Nikolai?" over his shoulder, loud enough to be heard. Guy never wanted a ride home. Not unless it was from TK. "I'm headed out again, anyway. I need to pull some old favours from the Chief."

#also i'm putting it under a read more because i have at least 3 different people i can name who skip everything owen related in the show #'it' (buttercup) #ic #v; nikolai #guest muse -> owen strand #hvndredstories #i am not going to sit here and talk about the things that are coming out of his mouth but know they Sure are coming out of his mouth

[laumalikbarnes]

Hey, so i decided to post something here :) I'm an Wattpad writer and i have some readers there, so I believe it can also work here :) just a remind:

*English is not my first idiom!!* Actually, i still learning, I wrote it on Google docs and correct the English in the Google translate, so, if there's something wrong, ignore it, please :)

*warning*: nightmare! It's just a cute imagine of Oscar Piastri cause him is very forgetful in the F1 fandom. Enjoy it! <3

— hmm... Hi? - you whisper when the phone is answered, you're not sure why because you're home alone.

- What happened, honey? — the voice on the other end of the line is thick and sends a shiver down your spine, Oscar must have woken up already, makes sense considering it's 3 am.

“I… Hm… I had a nightmare…” Your voice is still low, you're embarrassed. All of a sudden, calling your boyfriend in the middle of the twilight when he's halfway across the world just because you had a nightmare seems ridiculous. "I'm sorry honey, I..."

You say it, but you're interrupted by Oscar's sleepy voice, you feel your stomach twist, you love the young man's Piastri voice, even more so when he's sleepy.

"no need to worry, my love, come on, tell me everything you dreamed of." he asks, you hear the sound of something calling and the music of Lando's sleepy voice.

— I dreamed that… — you sigh, afraid that if you say it out loud, it will become even more real.

— come on, my little one, tell me, it was just a nightmare, it can't be that bad… —he asks, you curl up a little under the sheets, pulling your legs towards you.

“I… dreamed it was raining on your run… your car skids and… hits the sergeant… head trauma… affecting your memory… you forgot about us…” you sniff, he's sensitive after that nightmare, it was too real to just ignore.

Oscar is silent for a few seconds, speaking after a sigh.

"I need you to relax, okay?" None of this will happen, it's just a nightmare my little one, it doesn't affect reality, okay? Can you relax for me? I can't go back to London to hug you right now, but I'm here for security, okay? nothing bad is going to happen tomorrow, on the contrary, I'm going to be in the top 3 in my GP at home and I'm going to talk about you in every interview, but I need you to relax first, ok? — his voice is peaceful and you would like to see him, his eyes would be so kind right now…

“Okay,” you say, sniffling one last time. You spend a few minutes in silence, just listening to each other's breathing, trying to believe that he is telling the truth.

“I love you,” he says, that Australian accent that makes your heart race. Do you remember how you loved the British accent before you knew the Oscar accent.

Because nobody's British was cool when compared to your Aussie.

— thank you…- you whisper, appreciating the way he makes you feel safe, even being an ocean away.

— always a pleasure, my little one. —you hear him moving on the sheet, both rooms are quiet. The feeling is so good that it feels like you are in a parallel reality.

— I... - you yawn and before you can say anything else, Oscar speaks.

“It's too late for you to stay awake, little girl. I know you have an exam tomorrow, so close those pretty, fluffy eyes of you that I love so much and rest. I need my future doctor no later than tomorrow — you smile sleepily, happy to hear his voice and he keeps talking — when I get back to London, I'll take you in the buggies bump bump, I could take you in the kart, but I don't no I want to risk it, my medical future is too precious to risk it. I need to keep her safe and to myself, I'm sure I'll be needing a doctor like you in the very near future...

He kept talking for a few more minutes, but you didn't listen. You fall asleep between a sweet phrase that Oscar was saying to you in any twilight, a smile on your face and a heart full of warmth.

Oh, it's so good love Oscar Piastri…

#f1 fanfic #f1 fluff #f1 x reader #f1 one shot #oscar piastri #f1 imagine #formula one imagine #imagines #imagine #f1 x you #cute boys #fluffy #fluff imagine #boyfriend

[allylikethecat]

talk shop tuesday!!

i’ve decided that moving forward all my talk shop tuesdays will be long and obnoxious with multiple sections 😭

sec 1, ME!!: work was fine, patients were especially cranky today for whatever reason and a doctor got on to me ab “not giving him the info he needed” even though I PUT THE ORDER IN THE PT CHART AND HE WASNT PICKING UP HIS PHONE SO I COULD VERBALLY CONFIRM W HIM!!!! but then i had a publix sub for lunch and felt better. also think im building a caffeine tolerance cause i drank two energy drinks and was still yawning all day lol. love and hate healthcare

sec 2, YOU!!: after just dumping all my stress above it’s only appropriate to ask how your day was.

sec 3, Talk Shop Tuesday!!: How do you feel about collaboration fics? i’ve seen a couple in other fandoms and was wondering your overall thoughts about them. Also, how would you feel about someone else writing a sort of au of your fics? like another take of something you’ve already written? would you feel like it was plagiarism or would you be interested in it?

thanks for tolerating my insane asks lol

-🥤

AHHH Happy Talk Shop Tuesday Dearest Smoothie Anon! Thank you so much for this lovely and long, fantastic ask!! I love the multi section situations!! It's so much fun!

1. I'm glad that work went well! You are truly a hero working in health care omfg I am constantly in awe of everyone that does! Three of my IRL besties are nurses and I am just like constantly in awe of them (it's actually really funny they all only ever met because of me, yet they all work in the same field lol) Also yesss Publix really has the best sandwiches - I miss living in an area with Publix! They are next level. I feel you on the caffeine thing, I'm like I just had a large coffee AND a Celcius why am I sleepy? I saw an article though that they're thinking that caffeine might cause people with anxiety to like... calm down? Idk i just kinda skimmed it but was like that sounds like me haha I hope that you continue to have a good week! And that that doctor gets over himself and actually like... reads the charts moving forward

2. I'm good!! Work was chill, then I rode Pop and he was my perfect angel baby as always (he had his PEMF appointment this morning so he was an extra happy boy after getting zapped with the expensive happy magnet lol) and then I made myself a lil homemade personal pizza for dinner and am going to read some more of The Familiar - my friend also asked if I'd get tacos with her tomorrow so I'm like super hype about that now lol I am very food motivated 😂

3. I LOVE reading collaborative fics! They're always SO FUN and I love seeing how different author's bring their different writing styles and perspective together! I think writing one with another author would be super fun! But I know that I can be *a lot* so I doubt anyone would want to write one with me lol In terms of the second question I honestly have no idea how I would feel about someone writing fic of my fic lol I think it would be like a huge honor but I'd probably also get self conscious that they'd find all the flaws? I truly have no idea and also don't think my fic is worthy of that kind of honor - I'm still just so surprised and flattered and excited every time someone reads / comments on / sends me an ask about one of my fics - someone else writing fic about it would probably send me into cardiac arrest lol

Thank you SO MUCH for sending me such a lovely fun, multi part ask! I hope you don't mind the novel I wrote in response - it's always such a pleasure to hear from you! I hope that the rest of your week goes well! Thank you so much again!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #anon ask #keep it kind #fanfiction #matty fic #gatty #fanfic #questions #answers #talk shop tuesday #sorry that this got so long #i got excited #and like in terms of the last question #i guess i cant fathom a universe where anyone would want to write fic of my fic #so like i cant figure out how to answer lol #thank you SO MUCH for this ask #and for reading and being so lovely #smoothie anon #🥤 anon #🥤

[meditating-dog-lover]

Update (health)

So good and bad news.

I met with a functional medicine doctor today! I was able to order some functional testing that will help me with my eczema. I'm so happy and the consultation was extremely helpful and beneficial.

I'm very happy I'm in a privileged position where I am able to access and afford functional medicine doctors for my chronic condition instead of only having access to in-network dermatologist who over-prescribe steroids.

I also met with my therapist right after my consultation and spoke about some stuff and did an EMDR session (I used vibrating hand wraps for the bilateral stimulation, not actual eye movement).

That all went well. I then go home and everything was fine as well. I walked my dogs. We did have a presentation at work today and had Panera catering boxes, and I took one. I took a bite of the sandwich when I got home, only for me to develop a scratchy throat and pain in my mouth. It turned out the sandwich had hummus in it and I didn't even know. I'm more reactive to tahini than I am to sesame. I am very allergic to all sesame products. So I took Benadryl immediately, which does help me. Unfortunately I was feeling unwell and nauseous. I couldn't comfortably eat the rest of my food (I made something else to eat). I ended up vomiting (twice), which never happened to me before due to an allergic reaction. It was to the point where I was gagging and nothing was coming out because I cleared out whatever I had left in my stomach.

And because of that, I had to retake Benadryl because I assumed I vomited the first dose out. I was fine for an hour, I had some stomach discomfort and some throat itchiness and tightness, but nothing too bad and I knew it was getting better. I got sick again, worrying I vomited the second dose of Benadryl out. But I started feeling sleepy, which is a side effect of the Benadryl. So it means that I've absorbed it despite all the vomiting. My mom called my grandmother (retired nurse) for some advice and she said I'll be fine.

Thankfully my allergies can be managed by Benadryl. But I do have an Epipen and need to get a prescription for another one because my insurance didn't want to cover my initial prescription. So I'll call my allergist tomorrow so we can get this sorted out. I never had to use one, mainly because Benadryl has always helped me and I don't like the idea of sticking a needle into my skin myself. However in the event of a serious allergic emergency I will, and thankfully that was a never an issue. Even after today's horrible reaction, Benadryl on its own did the trick. Though Benadryl and any other OTC antihistamines won't help some people with allergies and they will need to use something stronger like an Epipen.

I did take a short nap, and now I'm feeling much better and was able to eat and drink water. I made sure to eat and drink enough because I knew I had cleared everything out, so I was definitely hungry and thirsty. No weird reactions from that, thankfully.

I feel great now. In general I am in great health and feel great, despite my eczema. So whenever I feel sick or something happens, it feels like absolute hell to me because I'm not used to the feeling. It really is a privilege. So when I have an allergic reaction, it does feel like hell. I'm so thankful there are medication out there than can save my life when stuff like this happens, and put me out of any pain or discomfort. Allergic reactions are so uncomfortable. I'm happy I feel better. I'm also thankful I'm not allergic to foods that are very common. Sesame products are found in foods like breads, sandwiches, trail and party mixes, and dips. But they can be easily avoided on my part. But shit happens.

I also developed a rash on my face and my hands started to itch (but not in the form of a full eczema flareup). Speaking of which, my skin is doing fine and the redness and bad dryness is gone. I do have some dry areas and tiny cuts, and the skin areas that were broken during my flareup from 2 weekends ago are healing. But they are still there and will bleed again sometimes (I applied sunscreen on my hands and face today and the mechanical force of my rubbing my hands caused the skin to break and bleed again, which is annoying). But the skin is healing and my palms completely healed. There is minimal dryness, not as bad as it used to be. I have more skin softness in areas that used to be covered in skin flakes. I am back to using cocamidopropyl betaine containing soaps, as I don't think that's the ultimate root cause of my skin issue.

My functional medicine doctor says there is a link between the gut microbiome and eczema, which I also believe in. The traditional treatment method is steroid medication, which is anti-inflammatory. Same with flaxseed oil, which is a natural treatment. Both are anti-inflammatory, but they're not anti-microbial. Doctors recommend patients with eczema to do bleach baths, and bleach is an antimicrobial agent. This leads me to believe that it is recommended because eczema has a microbial source. For example, people with eczema do have staph. aureus on their skin. In my case that could be why my flaxseed oil wasn't a perfect solution. It could be due to the presence of bad gut microbes that trigger skin microbiome imbalances (the presence of staph) and cause eczema. It's also rooted in microbiome imbalances, not just inflammation. Those imbalances do cause inflammation though. My doctor recommended I do the GI MAP test, I can't wait to test it out because I've heard a lot of people with eczema say it helped them. I also did a skin culture test yesterday at my derm office despite using some antibiotics since last week. We'll see how those turn out.

Also my dog today noticed I was not feeling well and jumped on me to cheer me up (she's so empathetic). I was feeling nauseous and had throat tightness and just felt awful in general because of my allergic reaction. In the process of her jumping on me, her nail scratched one of my skin lesions and it hurt so bad. I got upset because of the pain and felt bad afterwards because it wasn't her fault. She is feeling fine now.

I'm also experiencing some tooth sensitivity which I do experience from time to time on random occasions (usually my upper right teeth). I have gum recession and bleeding there and in general throughout some areas in my mouth (nothing severe), so this can be the cause of this sensitivity. I went to the dentist less than 2 months ago and did xrays and was told I have no cavities. And my hygienist spent an hour cleaning out my gums which was so satisfying. So I really need to stop worrying about my teeth. I have dental trauma due to bad experiences with dentists. I had a dentist who damaged my permanent molar when I was 14, and dentists who were patronizing and awful and some who recommended unnecessary procedures because "I trusted them because they're doctors and they know what's best". I feel like this harmed my teeth, and it sucks because teeth cannot heal like skin can. So any damage or procedures are lifelong. Thankfully I did a lot to improve my dental and gum care by upgrading my toothbrush and floss, using toothpaste with xylitol, supplementing with D3/K2 and magnesium and avoiding a lot of junk food, and getting a tongue-tie release to promote nasal breathing and avoid dry mouth. And I saw a new caring and educated dental team. I've healed a lot but not 100% of course. Just because I'm mainly focused on eczema, it doesn't mean I've healed from any psychological dental trauma, even if my teeth improved by the above mentioned methods and using a quality toothpaste that removes occlusal stains. It will get better with time and I know it because I did a lot to help myself and my new dental team is very caring and helpful. It's like they set a new standard for me.

I've been still intermittent fasting (not today though given the emergency I was in), but I've been doing great. Again I'm heavily focused on my eczema now, but the IF is going well. I'm eating mostly healthy and have been doing so since last April (almost a year). I used to get sugary coffees and eat chocolate and Crumbl cookies and Chick Fil A along with it, and full bags of chips. It's gotten better. I cannot say my diet is 100% perfect, and no one has a perfect diet. But it's definitely pretty healthy overall and I do take supplements to fill in any gaps. But my current diet is so much better than my old one, at least I can be proud of that. Believe me there is nothing cute about sugar addiction. I have hidden boxes full of cookies in my bedroom closet. I have not had healthy eating habits growing up, and I'm working on breaking that cycle. Whether it be overeating and eating a lot of sugar and junk. I'm eating better portions now and IF helps with that, and I do eat healthy overall. I even had some Crumbl over the course of a few weeks 2-3 weeks ago and even that was too sweet and too large of a portion. Thankfully I don't eat there that often. I did deal with some cravings recently and it could be a period thing (I no longer really get premenstrual cravings though).

Once I get my eczema out of the way, I can possibly see how I can improve my diet if really needed (I don't think it needs too much improvement). I am a picky eater though and eat the same stuff all the time. Some healthy foods I do not like, even junk foods. So while those foods may be healthy, nutritious, and filling, I may not be fully satiated because I personally didn't like them. I wish I enjoyed a wider diversity of healthy foods. That's something I can work on. I do eat the same fruit, yogurt, nuts, dark chocolate (my absolute favorite), bread, potatoes, cheese, etc... daily. Working on diversity can help a lot. But I'm happy to report my eating improved a lot. I feel like I wasn't super focused on my diet because of my current eczema mess. Though once that's out of the way, things will go back to normal. I do take supplements to fill in any dietary gaps, but I don't believe they replace a healthy diet. They just "supplement". I'll get my cholesterol and sugar evaluated in a few months when I'm due for my blood work. I hope I'm in the normal range (I already am anyways). I do want to be honest with my sugar and cholesterol levels and consumption. My functional medicine doctor also wants me to do some additional blood work, specifically for certain vitamin levels, so I'll be doing that too.

Walking is phenomenal for blood sugar too. So is stress reduction But given my poor dietary history, I want to work on my A1C/blood sugar and cholesterol, which are already in good ranges. I will continue the IF and healthy eating and supplementation to fix any gaps. This "reversal" in food perception and psychology, and how I evaluate my health results, will take time. I'm just happy I'm a lot healthier now and I love intermittent fasting.

My sleep has gotten better since I started working. I also drink a lot of water. But really, I feel like intermittent fasting and eating healthy and eating less sugary and fatty foods and supplementing helps a lot with my general wellness and my blood sugar and cholesterol. I'm someone who ate poorly growing up, so this change will make me feel so much better without feeling deprived. Even having no dental issues is something new to me, so I'm benefiting from new things in my healing journey and it's great. I now nasal breathe and take my fat soluble vitamins and magnesium like it's a daily routine (well breathing is something you do 24/7, it's just that I'm able to nasal breathe comfortably, even when I sleep). And I'm going to address my gut health of course, which will really help my eczema. And stress management helps too, which I'm currently working on and my new therapist is so helpful. Things will get better. 1 bad day of an allergic reaction won't ruin the rest of my life. I feel better now thankfully.

[pbandjesse]

I breathed weird and now my chest hurts and I started coughing. Very annoying! But that's okay! I had a pretty good day and I'll do my best to feel better with a good night sleep. I am trying very hard to be positive. Because I'm real tired.

Today was a pretty good day though. I slept weird. And woke up super tired and unhappy. I was snippy with James. I felt really mean. James was just trying to help and I was like. No. Go away. And told them to stop trying to help me and I was mean and told them to just go to work and leave me alone. I was a huge bitch and that wasn't cool.

I would text them as soon as I left to walk to the nursery. I had eaten and felt a little better. Emotionally I just felt bad that I was mean to my husband when they didn't do anything. They accepted my apology because they always do but man I need to stop letting my emotions get the better of me.

I got the nursery and headed up to the flamingo room. Their were already a couple kids there. And it would be a good day. Even though I was real sleepy.

We had some art. Some snacks. And once Mr Will was there we had our morning meeting. The kids were extra cuddly today. And it was for sure a test for me because I was tired which makes me quick to be overwhelmed. But honestly I think I did good setting boundaries with the kids. Even if they were entirely to wiggly.

I would work on another embroidery. And the kids had lots of questions and were very sweet encouraging me and suggesting the next places I should stitch. I had them count the stitches as I did it and guess the next colors. Really tried to get them involved.

I also got a few of them to try crochet!! They were able to actually get a couple chains going and that was amazing for 4 year olds.

Recess was good. Mostly I just chilled with some of the girls. It was a good day. I felt dumb that I grabbed a bunch of tissues before we left and I forgot them back at the school and everyone was so snotty!! But we handled it.

To make a lot of kids laugh though because we do this thing where as we're walking them to and from the school to the playground anytime we get to an alley or a street one of the teacher runs ahead and kind of guards the road. And when I do it I hold my arms straight out to the side and I tell them that I'm protecting them from cars kidnappers murderers robbers takers henchmen thieves, etc etc etc. And they start saying other things and they're like what are you doing and every time they do it I list all of the things off and it makes all of them laugh and it's very silly. Kids love repetition and long lists.

Lunch was fine and we got ready for nap. And then I went to my break. I did not really like my lunch. It kind of upset my belly. A lot of the kids were a little off too. And I'm sure I'm about to get sick from them. Because I have terrible luck with this. But I am hoping I'm just paranoid.

The rest of the day was pretty chill. Some taking advance of the end of the nap time book reading. But you know it's all good. I wasn't interesting to arguing. And once everyone was up we got everything packed and soon enough it was time to go back outside.

I was excited to go home though. I enjoyed hanging out with the kids but I was very tired and ready to be with James again.

After playing with the kids until 4 I said goodbye to everyone and said I'll be back on Monday.

James was waiting for me across the street. And they took me home. We got cozy in bed. And just chilled together until the sun went down. James would make me a mini pizza and fries. And eventually James would go do their podcast and a late start dnd game.

At 7 I would go and work on the studio. I did one more row for my crochet blanket. Number 8 done!! And once that was done I went and took a bath.

I washed my hair and now we are chilling in bed. James just finished their game. And soon we will go to sleep. Tomorrow I'm back at the museum for a 3 activity day. And then I have to make sure I'm ready for my workshop on Saturday!! I'm excited but also nervous!!

I hope you are all having a good night. Take care of each other.

[hulijingemperor2]

It's a few years later.

Ruhua, Xuanli's second child is 6 and the twins, Ruxuan and Ruming are 5.

Now Zixuan and children came to spend a day with A-Yao in Jingjing.

Ruhua is a pampered and confident little girl, who knows that she's living a life of glamor. She's also a daddy's girl, so most of the time She'll be accompanying Zixuan~ even in his imperial court.

She would sit on his lap and say, "you heard HuangDie!!" Ruhua is in fact a female Zixuan. She also has beautiful peacock feathers (like the rest)

Ruhua's first words was Diedie and gold.

Ruxuan is like his brother Jinling.

He loves spending time with his uncle, A-Yao, and his twin sister.

Some say his first word was Foxy.

Ruming is Yanli. She loves lotuses and calm delicate things, and Yunmeng lotus pier is her favorite place.

Jinling has to carry Ruming with him to lotus pier, in which he doesn't mind doing

Ruming is also Jiang cheng and Wei wuxian's favourite~ because they could pretend that they're older than Yanli, lol.

Ruhua is afraid of insects whereas Ruming wouldn't hesitate to hold one.

Her first word was Niang.

All three children loves pranking Jinling.

And they refer to their uncles and elders like this:

Yao~ uncle Foxy/ Xiao shushu.

Mo xuanyu ~ uncle mo.

Jiang cheng ~ grape Jiujiu.

Wei wuxian ~ Xian da jiu.

Lan zhan ~ ice uncle.

Lan xichen~ uncle smiles.

Nie mingjue ~ tall Shushu.

Huaisang ~ maid Shushu

Xue yang ~ candy uncle

Su she ~ uncle Sushi.

Meng Shi~ Meng Nainai.

Madam Jin~ Jin Nainai!!!

Rusong and Jinling: Song and Ling gege!!!

~~~

Yao: *in his study, with Ruxuan on his lap.

His fox tail was also resting on his little nephew, as that was something Ruxuan is fond of*

Ruxuan: *hugs his fluffy tail* uncle Foxy. *points* what's that? On your desk?

Yao: ink. *smile*

Ruxuan: what's that used for?

Yao: to write and draw with.

Ruxuan: can uncle Foxy draw?

Yao: hmm, maybe if I try. But I feel that you're a better artist than me.

Ruxuan: mnnn. *points* what's that?

Yao: a brush holder.

Ruxuan: what's that used for?

Yao: to hold pens, Xuanxuan.

Ruxuan: ohh. Uncle Foxy, do you like hats?

Yao: mhm.

Ruxuan: why?

Yao: because it's stylish.

Ruxuan: I want to wear it!

Yao: hmm. *takes it off, and puts it on his head*

Ruxuan: i can't see! Uncle Foxy, am I blind?

Yao: no darling. *lifts the hat* see!

Perhaps the hat is too big for you.

Ruxuan: why?

Yao: *laughing*

Xuan, don't worry. I'll get you a hat that's your size.

Ruxuan: I thought you were tiny. We all call you Xiao shushu. Which is little uncle. You're really tiny.

Yao: but you're tinier *pinches cheeks*

Ruxuan: *gasps* tinier than Xiao shushu?!!!!

Yao: yup.

Ruxuan: uncle Foxy.

Yao: mn?

Ruxuan: why do you and Song gege have dimples?

Yao: we were born with it, dear.

Ruxuan: is everyone born with dimples? Why aren't I born with dimples.

Yao: genetics dear.

Ruxuan: that's a big, funny sounding word, uncle Foxy.

What's that? Is that a bug? Or a disease.

Yao: no *laughing* it's like how you're a peacock spirit because your A-Die is also a peacock spirit.

Thats due to genetics.

Ruxuan: ohh. I feel very smart now.

Yao: baby, you're always smart.

Ruxuan: uncle Foxy. Song gege and Ling gege are going to make a kite for me later.

Yao: well that's lovely!

And today is an excellent day to fly a kite.

Ruxuan: yea!

Ruming: uncle Foxy, what are you doing?

Yao: stamping some documents, darling *yawns*. I'm almost done.

Ruming: are you sleepy? If A-Die and A-niang didn't ban me from making tea, I would have prepared it for you. I almost burnt my fingers while trying.

Yao: omg! Mingming! You should be careful.

Ruming: I was!

Yao: you're still very small, dear.

Ruming: ok, uncle Foxy.

Yao: good.

Xiying: Huangdi.

Yao: yes. They're respectively approved, filled and stamped.

Get them to the ministers.

Xiying: certainly huangdi.

Xiying: just a reminder, tomorrow you have a meeting with the empress of Phoenix spirits.

Yao: excellent.

Xiying: and the complementary gifts are arranged.

Yao: tell the rest of the staff that they're doing a wonderful job.

Xiying: will do, Huangdi. And we love to be in your aid.

Yao: *smile*

Ruming: are you an emperor? A-Die is an emperor too.

Yao: yes I am. *gasps* your A-Die is also a Huangdi.

Ruming: he didn't tell you?

Yao: no. Why did he hide it from me? This makes me sad.

Ruming: I'll talk to him! He should have told you his secret.

Yao: who else knows? Does my Mingming know?

Ruming: yes I do! Ling gege,  Hua jiejie, and Ruxuan gege too!

And A-niang!

One time I saw A-niang kissing the emperor. Is it right to kiss the emperor like that?

Yao: oh my.

Jinling: *enters* guys! Xiao shushu is working. Why are you troubling him?

I was looking for you all over and couldn't find you.

Ruxuan: that's the point. We didn't want to get caught. Right Ruming?

Ruming: Right! Ling gege. What are you doing here?

Jinling: *pouts* He's my Xiao shushu too. I can meet him whenever I want.

Ruming: you're the one who's disturbing him, Ling gege!

Ruxuan: Ling gege, uncle Foxy is working.

Jinling: have some manners for your gege.

Yao: babies. Stop arguing. A-ling, you're sounding like Jiang cheng.

Jinling: *terrified* oh no! I can't be!

I'm sorry, Xiao shushu.

I don't want to be cranky like Jiujiu!!!

Yao: *pats his head lovingly*

Jinling: *kneels by his side* love you, Xiao shushu.

But are they bothering you? 

Yao: not at all. *kisses him on his forehead* A-ling. I could multitask. Also I'm almost done.

Jinling: how?

Yao: practice! When you and Song'er were around this age, I used to do the same.

I would have both of you on my lap, while doing my work.

Jinling: wow Xiao shushu.

Zixuan: *walking in with little Ruhua*

Ruhua: Dié, I loved feeding uncle Foxy's koi. Dié, why are his koi so big?

Zixuan: because they eat a lot, darling.

Ruhua: I want some more koi.

The princess of peacock spirits needs more koi, Diedie.

Zixuan: *smile* as you wish.

Ruming and Ruxuan: A-DIE!!!!

Zixuan: my babies!! *kisses them*

Ruhua: uncle Foxy! We're back! I want a koi from your pond.

Yao: oh you want koi fish? Baby princess.

Ruhua: mhm.

Yao: how about I give you two!

Ruhua: *jumping up and down* thank you uncle Foxy!!

Zixuan: hmm. Looks like Ruxuan was questioning you, huh?!

Yao: he has all rights to question me.

Ruxuan: A-die, uncle Foxy thought me a new word!!

Zixuan: aw really?! What's that?

Ruxuan: gen.....gen..tic.

Uncle Foxy help me.

Yao: genetics.

Ruxuan: yea that one!

Zixuan: my baby has a big vocabulary now.

Ruxuan: yup!

Zixuan: little Ruming.

Ruming: A-Die! I'm upset with you. You didn't tell uncle Foxy that you're an emperor.

Zixuan: *gasps* you know you're right.

Yao: *pouting*

Zixuan: I wanted to surprise him. But I guess you told him everything.

Ruming: yes! I look out for uncle Foxy.

Ruxuan: me too!!

Ruhua: me three!!

If they upset you, I'll throw them in jail.

But I won't do that to A-Die.

Rusong: *enters* guys, do you still want to make kites?! I got the paper, string and ribbons.

Ruxuan: YAAYYYY!!!!!

Ruming: Ruxuan, Ruxuan, let's go!! Let's go!!

Ruxuan: uncle Foxy, I gotta go. *climbing off his lap*

Yao: be careful.

Rusong: Diedie. *hugs*

Yao: *kisses him on his dimple* Song. You're excellent with children.

Rusong: learnt from you.

Ruhua: Song gege, did you get shiny ribbons too??

Rusong: of course I did!

Jinling: let's go guys. *holds their hands*

Rusong: did you get the paint and other material?

Jinling: yup.

Zixuan: we have such a happy family.

Yao: yess! We sure do!

Zixuan: now it's time to think about the future.

Yao: I agree. Well Rusong and Jinling have their future set.

Now we have to plan for these three.

Zixuan: they can do whatever. Once it makes them happy.

Yao: that's how it's supposed to be.

I want them to be successful in life.

Zixuan: same.

~~~

Next day, a special someone came to meet A-Yao.

~ Due to toxic rumors going around the jianghu (except for the hulijing empire), A-Yao and Qin Su once decided to divorce. Because Ayao didn't Qin Su's reputation to be ruined.

At that time, Rusong was 6.

Now Qin Su, who's a half hulijing lives in her Laoling Mansion, as she runs the sect until Rusong succeeds her. Rusong and A-Yao however meets her during the Fall season~

..............

Xiying: Huangdi, someone special is here to meet you.

Yao: ah, bring them in.

Qin su: *entering with a few maids*

Yao: A-Su?

Qin su: Yao huangdi.

Yao: what a surprise! How have you been?

Qin Su: I'm good. What about you and our Song'er?

Yao: we're fine. please, have a seat.

Qin su: thank you..*sits*

Qin Su: I came to tell you something important. Well I was contemplating on this for a long time.

Yao: tell me.

Qin Su: I think  we should go back together.

Yao: aww A-Su, that's music to my ears!

I missed you dear.

Qin Su: I missed you too!!

And despite being away from Jingjing, I knew what was going on.

Yao: that's great.

But if we reunite, would you be happy?

Qin su: Yao huangdi, obviously I would.  I have you and Song'er. And now jingyi!

Team dimple and my goddess mother-in-law.

Yao: ah yes. And Zewu Jun too.

Qin su: nah I don't like him.

Besides, we'll be happy.

Yao: once it pleases you. Also I love you a lot.

Qin su: I love you too.

Yao: I'm glad you're back.

Yao: come A-Su. Our children are busy practicing music cultivation. Let's go surprise them.

Qin Su: mn.

Yao: I have some many things to tell you

I don't know where to start.

Qin su: same here.

Laoling was a bit in a crisis because of the Jin Sect.

Remember, they fund us.

Yao: right. Jin guangshan hasn't done many things.

Hoarding his money.

Qin Su: yes.

Yao: Zixuan and I will deal with him. Rest assured.

Qin Su: fortunately our son will also be the Laoling sect leader.

Yao: yes.

Also I won't let guangshan trouble him and A-ling.

.

On the other side,

Rusong: *playing the Xiao, which manipulated some wind into a tornado.*

*then golden strings came out and pulled whatever was in its way~ sucking it within itself*

Jingyi: *playing his guqin, which tore a few of xue yang's fierce corpses apart.

Jingyi: you're awesome! Where did you learn that tornado thing?!

Rusong: thanks to Shizun. And I learnt guqin string feature is from A-Die.

Jingyi: what happens when the golden strings pull them into the tornado?

Rusong: they get severed by the stings, and disoriented by the tornado.

Jingyi: wow.

Rusong: You're a amazing too, didi.

Jingyi: are you sure Xue yang won't be phased that we used four of his fierce. I can't be paying him for fierce corpse damage.

Rusong: my and my cute Dianxia privileged face asked him. And he said go for it mini boss Dianxia.

Jingyi: niceeee!

Jingyi: Rusong,  show me how to shoot an arrow using a guqin.

Rusong: sure.

You just have to hold your quqin like this and~~~ shoot.

Qin Su and A-Yao: *clapping*

Rusong: *turns around* A-niang!! A-Die!!

Jingyi: A-Die's wife?

Rusong: *hugs Qin Su*

Qin Su: Rusong Rusong Rusong! *showers him with kisses*

My baby is all grown up! Baby Rusong!

A-Yao, baby Rusong.

Yao: *smiling* yes our baby has become so mature and elegant! *strokes Rusong's hair*

Rusong: A-niang, I miss you.

Qin Su: awww. How are you, Song'er?

Rusong: I'm great, A-niang.

Jingyi: niangniang.

Qin su: Yi'er! *hugs*

Jingyi: *emotional* waw. I never felt so much love from parents before.

Qin Su: *cups face* don't worry. A-Yao and I would give you so much love.

Yao: Song'er, Yi'er.

Your A-niang is here to stay.

Both: really?!

Yao: mhm.

Rusong: I'm so happy!! I'm happy that I have you both and A-Yi. *pats head*

Jingyi: Rusong.

I'm not a baby.

Rusong: but I'm older. *smile*

#the huli jing emperor #foxyao #meng yao #dimpledlianfang #hulijing emperor 2 #jin guangyao #jin zixuan #part 2 #su she #the untamed

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary73

11/23-24/2023

thursday - friday

slow day.

tonight an old friend messaged me on discord, a good old friend not one of the bad ones i have, someone i know from school. we talked about his current career in teaching, and how the students are right now. he said some heartbreaking things, or he i guess was articulating things i was aware of, what anyone feels is so heartbreaking about kids who say they can't read, for instance, when in reality, in my friend's words, never were taught that they do actually know, or can comprehend things, and can interface with parts of the world they felt alienated from, that they can enter into that territory, they have been wholly disabled by people in their past not caring about them, the educational world, parents, everything, you know. even stuff that seems like a solution or escape is just a kind of reaction to not being able, ever, to interact with some things. it makes me think about gamers, i guess, the archetypal gamer, only knowing game music, stories from games, but primarily living in a social soup of memes, pornography, and videogames. this isn't to say anything bad about games themselves but that is a kind of space people head towards because they've been pushed away from everything else it seems like.

but he is well, he has gotten engaged, hugely exciting news. i remember when he met his soon-to-be wife, i asked him to hang out one day, and he said to me, i have to hang out with a girl who loves deftones today, man. and it's been history, at least, i'm basically certain i think, that this is the same woman. i am really happy for him though, i love talking to him, i wish he was out here still.

he will message me tomorrow, too.

anyway, my day was very tiny, i suppose. i spent a lot of today reworking another song, i also wrote a song, somehow, i didn't mean to, i just wanted to mess with new distortion plugins, somehow, i wrote a cc esque thing, i dunno if it'll be on the album, i do quite like it though. and i also wrote new riffs, using these distortions to get something. it's really satisfying sounding. since i'm able to use vst3, there's a lot of really interesting/crazy distortions they seem to be getting out now. very wild to me, i didn't expect them to be like, as good as they are. or not that they'd be bad, just that they wouldn't be different, really.

the song has gotten closer to where i want it but i think there needs to be a re-recording of some vocals, and some parts need re-written lyrics. but after that, i think it'll be in the right spot, roughly at least, a place where mostly i'd just be messing with levels.

but anyway, i am so sleepy. it's 3 am, i need to sleep soon, i also took a rest day today because my body was sore, but tomorrow i am going to really try and work it, i guess.

so,

byebye!!!