#Christmas Boredom

[soaringeag1e]

Christmas Boredom

Dean x Fem!Reader

Warnings: Language?, A Mix of Sadness and Fluffiness

Words: 782

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A light dusting of snow was leftover from a bit of snowfall earlier in the week, but nothing that jeopardized the roads too much. Christmas was right around the corner and honestly, it felt different this year. In a good way though. A really good way.

Needing some things for dinner and just a few things to stock up the cabinets at home, you had run out to the store along with a trip to the post office and stopping for gas plus a few other things that came to mind while you were out. Needless to say, instead of spending just a couple hours out and about, you were gone for more than five hours. But you felt accomplished, your to-do list was now crossed off.

Once you pulled down your street, you admired all the decorations that your neighbors have been putting up over the past few weeks, loving how creative a lot of them were. It’s only when your eyes catch a certain batch of new decor that you become a bit shocked.

Pulling into your driveway, you can’t take your eyes off the roof as you put your car in park. Leaving the groceries for the moment, you climb out, your eyes glued to the top of your house as you walk a little closer. Your smile slowly comes back along with an excitement within you as you look over the string of lights that somehow just decided to blanket your house for the season.

“I can’t tell if you’re in the Christmas spirit or if you’re just bored!” Those gorgeous green eyes you love so much eventually pop out from behind a large snowflake decoration that’s standing tall on the shingles and then something else you love joins them. That damn smirk of his.

“Uh…both!” The man admits before securing the snowflake for good and then he turns to climb off the roof. You know he’s perfectly capable of doing such a task, but the thought of him falling still makes you nervous.

When his boots land on solid ground, he turns, his smile growing as he leans down and kisses you sweetly, melting your heart and probably even the snow around you.

“Hi.” his gruff voice sends shivers down your spine and always has. You love it just as much as you love him.

“Hi.” When your eyes go to scan his handy work, his green orbs drop to the snow at your feet before he lets out a heavy sigh.

“Do you know how hard it’s been to not look up weird things or to check the news for suspicious activity?” Your expression softens. “I mean…I am trying so hard but it’s just…” he huffs, slapping a hand to his thigh as he scans the neighborhood.

Feeling his struggle, you step forward and place your hands on his cheeks. He seems too ashamed to look you in the eye at first, but eventually he does. But you can see how bad he’s beating himself up for all this.

“I want this.” he admits, his voice coming off crackly. “I really do. I want you to know that.”

“I do know that.” you tell him, your voice as soft as your touch. But he still hates himself for struggling with the normal life.

“I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be.” you tell him, a little more firmly. Your hands press a little tighter on his face as you force him to look at you once again. “It’s hard. I know it is and I am so proud of you.” he scoffs, not because he doesn’t believe you but because you know that he doesn’t think there’s anything for you to be proud of. “Hey. You’re doing better than you think.” He tries to hide his eye roll, but you know him too well. “One day at a time.”

“I just don’t want to let you down.” Hearing that hits you hard. Your chest starts to hurt and tears instantly fill your eyes.

“You’re not.” you tell him as strongly as you can, but your voice is weaker than you want it to be. “I swear to you that you’re not.” With tears in both your eyes, Dean leans in again, kissing you like he hasn’t seen you in years. “Now…” you get out when he takes a second to breathe, getting him to hold off on another kiss. “If you end up going on a hunt and lie to me about it? That’s a different story.” That’s what brings his grin back.

“I won’t. I promise.”

“Damn straight you won’t. Because you’ll be taking me with you.” Dean’s smile grows before he captures your lips again.

“That’s my girl.”

#Christmas Boredom #Merry Christmas #dean #dean winchester #dean x reader #dean winchester fanfic #dean fanfic #dean winchester x reader #dean x reader christmas #supernatural fanfiction #supernatural dean #supernatural #supernatural fic #supernatural fanfic #dean winchester fic #dean winchester fluff #dean winchester imagine

[maranescence]

I forgot I made this shit

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc ragatha #tadc caine #tadc pomni #tadc jax #tadc gangle #tadc kinger #funny #memes #alignment chart #glitch productions #the amazing digital circus pomni #I made this sometime during Christmas out of sheer boredom #tadc zooble #lol these tags are in a shitty order #my brain is not braining #I need to stop staying up til 5 AM making shitposts

[trainqueen379]

Since christmas is coming up, have a very quick doodle of a festive Electra (tho he’s not too fond of the decorations being on him)

(His components dressed him up like this)

#starlight express #stex #stex electra #electra the electric engine #i promise he adores all the sparkly ornaments and christmas lights just not on himself #boredom doodles #school doodles #my art

[underground-baby]

New snap addd me 😈💵😇

Battygirl1134

#Snapchat #legginslove #cutie w a bootie #curvy girls #princess #wanna see how hard i can cry #hardtimes #entertain my mind #christmas lights #bratty #sure why not #im fine 🙃 #crop hoodie #boredom

[gideonisms]

my sister just got covid & she lives with my parents so I might not be going home for thanksgiving which Means I get to like. Sit around my house alone for a week I guess?

#am ngl as much as i say i like to be by myself that will make me crazier #i guess i could just stay at my aunt's! and then we could watch christmas movies #i don't have a bed in there anymore bc it is here. idk #she also lives right next to them & they bring her meals a lot #but i mean i have been vaccinated #hm. #well on the upside i may be finishing all of my fics out of sheer boredom

[llanekee]

When I’m not trying do anything in particular I lack the will to think and think I should write a will Because wouldn’t that be a better way to kill time

Spend some life doing something useful Than overthinking the ways I could be useful Like stacking the folders and files with substance Like holding a candle to the darkness of morning

I miss you, I miss the person that I could’ve been At least, that person burns holes into my memory Gives me a vague sense of direction

What I’ve to do in particular But how do I still end up not doing anything specific Maybe it’s because I’m yet to write a will And I’m killing time with my uselessness

-by Lane Key :]

#poetry #my poem #original poem #poem #poems on tumblr #poetic #dont steal #sad poem #life #life purpose #boredom #life and death #cant wait for christmas depression

[francisforever2014]

we live such extravagant lives you and i . is so meeee rn like i haven’t done a Thing in weeks

#bestie left for christmas with his grandparents for the week and i’m going to KILL MYSELF from boredom #doing Nothing with somebody you love is so different from doing nothing by yourself it makes me so sad #i’m gonna kms for 10000 other reasons but that’s just the winter break vibe baby

[neims-skeleton-obsession]

I’m waiting for my hair dye to do its shit so imma answer some asks

#I’m not even gonna bother doing proper tags on this #I’m dyeing it dark brown btw. boredom go weeeeeeeee #I was gonna do it when school had finished for Christmas but I m. so bored

[pissjesus]

Repeating the mantra “for every ‘it’s so over’ there is an equal ‘we’re so back’” every time it’s 1am and I finish a drawing and lament that I’m deeply uninspired and I’m losing the one thing I’ve always enjoyed. When inevitably a few days later I’ll come up with something. Repeat cycle

#combination of realizing I have no idea what to get/make *anyone* for Christmas #knowing I will have no money by the end of the month cuz my jobs are fake and I don’t get pto #and the ever increasing realization I am mad at a lot of things #I miss having constant ideas and being inspired by everything. now I’m just like god damnit I have to find something to gnaw on #to distract from the Sisyphusian boredom of making money just to buy groceries and pay rent and barely have fun #or I started my period and it’s 1am and I’ll feel like I’ve never had a problem in my life in 2 days

[milo-is-rambling]

Who was gonna tell me that reading is fun sometimes

#I will bring shame to my eight year old self NO MORE!!!! I LIKE READING AGAIN!! YIPPEE!!! #I think I seriously enjoy reading about the brain and body and trauma like it’s so strange to spend two hours laying in bed with a book but #it’s so nice #I really enjoyed science growing up even into high school I just didn’t have the patience or motivation to finish essays #and my freshman year science teacher got fired halfway thru the year after they found out she didn’t have a teaching license and then my #class got split up into an advanced science teachers class who was way ahead of everything we had learned and then I hated the class and #science in general then in sophomore year I had another shitty teacher who didn’t care about teaching and I literally would find recourses #and send them to the teacher to put on the projector and then I would talk thru the resource that’s fucking real I literally had class #periods where I TAUGHT my sophomore year science class. GAHHHH I still get so bad at that fucking teacher I don’t even remember her name but #she pissed me off so bad cause she paired me with the two guys who always made fun of me just bc I was smart and they were annoying. anyways #depression and adhd and boredom happened and I almost failed that class but still passed in the end and then in junior year during covid #I was taking a biology class and an anatomy class that was supposed to be seniors (seniors did the advanced class and they offered regular #class to select juniors) and I ended up being the ONLY junior who wasn’t doing the advanced course. like. everyone else got assignments and #I had to ask hey what’s the easy version of that assignment cause I’m technically in the easy class even tho we’re in the same class period #and then Covid and I stopped caring at all about anhthing and then dropped out of school and moved down the entire coast so yknow. #I never stood a chance at being good at science but I’m realizing I might actually be passionate about it cause I have been since I was #little I just kind of ignored it and forgot but like. for one birthday I got a telescope and for one Christmas I got a microscope. like it’s #well known to everyone but me that I like science apparently oh my god what’s wrong with my brain !!!! anyways. #I like science now it’s weird to feel passionate about learning I haven’t done that in a long time #oh my god when I took my GED test my highest score was in SCIENCE AND NOT ENGLISH #THIS IS ALL SO OBVIOUS I LOVE SCIENCE WHY AM I NOT DOING SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE RELATED TO SCIENCE

[merrcat]

Merry Christmas 🖤

#selfie #cute selfie #boredom #bored #i look cute #high #getting high #i look good #merry fucking christmas #merry christmas #merry chrismas 2022 #happy holidays

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

actually I don't think you guys understand. the last time I was genuinely absorbed with a book was probably Les Mis, which I listened to as an audiobook throughout half of 2020, and the last time it was an actual paper book would have been Legacy (KOTLC book 8) which came out the first Tuesday (Thursday??) of November 2019 and for which I disregarded every responsibility I had to speed read it in one day. I've had such a hard time reading the past couple years, like really just so distracted and fixated on other things that I've had to actually set timers to make myself sit down and read a goshdang book, and I'm just. gobsmacked. absolutely appalled that I picked up a book off a thrift store shelf just because I recognized the title, flipped to the first page out of sheer curiosity, and have now dedicated more time to reading in the past three days than I have in possibly the last entire year. it's not even the kind of thing I would usually pick out to read!! I'm not quite sure what to do with this tbh

#but i hope it ends up with me getting back into my reading habit #like i read a whole book in one day (a doctor who one) Christmas 2020 bc my cell service was down #so i couldn't text anyone or read fanfic online #but that was more of a making-do-out-of-boredom thing. it was fantastic!!! but it wasn't my first choice #and I'm literally sitting here in bed with a flashlight to read this like I'm a kid again but grown up and enthralled with the world #that's being weaved in front of my eyes #remember when I've said that good worldbuilding will draw me in more than almost anything?? this is UNBELIEVABLE worldbuilding #like i can't articulate how descriptive and evocative it is. it makes me FEEL what living in it is like. #like seeing the world pass by out a car window but the window is a book in your hand #I'm just.... ????? holy heck #i did NOT expect for this to happen when i picked up a book in a thrift store #it was nearly new with just one nick in the front cover and now three days later the spine is bent and pages dogeared #and for once i didn't flip to the last page. #Lu rambles #oh yeah this is about station eleven btw

[eatingfood]

somehow I would feel relief if instagram didn’t exist anymore

#or imagine if people who use it too often #got less excess to it after a while #because I feel like people forget real life #they have no patience #they do stuff out of boredom and attention #while their self doesn’t get the love and attention as it should #connections get superficial #they lose themselves on it #friend send me another video of some funny stuff probably #it’s all so meaningless to me #I liked her last video yesterday and send some heart emojis #but this time I don’t feel like going on it #it’s the same thing #she never answers back #she sends it and thats that #if I send something there’s no interest or attention #I’m not going over own boundaries #and maybe choose a day for christmas #thats more important than insta videos #I think I had it with instagram #it’s super unhealthy #I won’t be affected by it #I’ll only answer if it’s worth it

[danishsweetheartmp3]

one thing i’ll give season 7 is that they didn’t shy away from fanservice like…kieu my and fatou kiss for basically no reason in half of the clips they’re in together and the other half is still them being cute

#bring it back ❤️ #but also unironically i think s7 is better than s8 at this point #there was genuinely a good foundation and some really lovely scenes like the cem evi and everything with umut #and of course the christmas eve clip #druck #ALSO yknow. s7 wins to me solely because they had david come back #basically i prefer s7 because the Potential gives me way more to think/be insane about #but this season is just straight up boredom #also there was a clip today? apparently?

[arizonaconservativegal]

At this point, the primary thing keeping me going is the fact that Ted Lasso comes back on Wednesday

#2023 has been a long year my friends #i havent had a day off since christmas #and im staring down the end of my current work contract with both relief and anxiety #because i desperately need a week off but also i dont have anything else lined up yet #financially i'll be fine but i know as much as i'm looking forward to a break i'll be crawling out of skin with boredom after a few days

[kittyprincessofcats]

For months I’ve been looking forward to my sisters coming to visit today.

For months I’ve been excited.

Then I got sick a week ago. (Did a Covid-test back then, negative.) Then I started feeling better from yesterday on and thought “okay great, so they can come over, since I’m feeling better.”

Then L. (the younger one) got sick and couldn’t come over.

Then, just because I wanted to be 100% sure, I did a Covid test this morning... positive. Then I went to a testing center. Positive. Then I did an express PCR-test because F. (my sister) is pretty health paranoid and asked me to. Positive.

So... now I’ll be spending Christmas all alone with my depression and f*ing Covid.

Worst timing ever. I hate everything.

#personal #I didn't even have time to wrap their presents yet #I bought all these Christmas decorations and was going to buy a fake tree today #Why did I move so far away I'm regretting that choice more every day #Should I just call my dad? The one I'm trying to cut off? And ask him to pick me up so I can spend Christmas at home? #Because at least then I'd be there with /someone/ #At least then I wouldn't die of depression and boredom