#I think everyone should have therapy

[dewitty1]

Saturday Six (Stuff)

Oopsie, forgot to post last week, because I was busy with work. But I'm taking every other weekend off for self care, even though I've got so much to do still. Here's what I'm working on. (•̀⌄•́)

My therapist says I'm making improvements. Meh, idk about that. I think it's more I'm just tired of reacting to my dad all the time. Though I'm still bloody angry as hell that it's up to me to do all the work to change.( •̀ω•́ )σ

It's only been two weeks and I'm sick of this snow and freezing cold. Mother Nature didn't even ease us into it, like usual. It just came out of nowhere.(*｀へ´*)

Even though I'm still hurting, I'm grateful to have a great physical therapist who really is trying to help me.(❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ*

I'm really grateful to have returning customers who are willing to give me another opportunity to work with them, even if I might have made a mistake (it's been a few years since I made a lady's item, and she's just now coming back to me, to have me fix it, oopsie! She's a sweetheart!)（*´▽｀*）

My adopted orange boy, Boots, is really becoming the lover kitteh. He loves the pets and rubs, though he still has some feral issues to work out. (=^-ω-^=)

#Saturday Six #About me #Personal #Please do not reblog #November 12 2022 #Carey rambles about her boring life and she's trying not to whine with her cheese so much but it's hard when her back is just killing her #Chronic pain is no joke y'all #Also mental health care is super important. Please get help from a MH professional if you are able to. #I think everyone should have therapy #Everyone should have Healthcare that includes MH care #Anyway thank you for continuing to read my ramblings #I appreciate you all so much for being here week after week #Hugs from mom or just a friend whatever you need right now ٩(๑•◡-๑)۶ⒽⓤⒼ❤💜 💙 💚 💛 ❤️ 💕 💖 #Have a great day or night wherever you are! #Now back to your regularly scheduled programming

[inkskinned]

maybe i'm a bitch but if i hear you go out of your way to judge someone's weight, i immediately lose trust in you & will probably forever find you a little unbearable . yes also the little floating bar over my head will start reading [hostile]. this is natural and u caused it.

#IF you do the therapy to stop being an asshole and make a POINT of being like #''i used to be a jerk about this but now i'm not'' #..... we can reevaluate .... #btw i hope this doesn't need explanation and everyone can be normal on this post #and not be like #what if i am a DOCTOR and i was aSKED #like we all know what i'm referring to here #you're like in target and lizzo is playing in the background and they're like #DID YOU NOTICE THAT LIZZO IS FAT? #or ur on instagram and like some dude's comment is like #NICE ART BUT WHY ARENT YOU THIN #like .... okay we get it. we get it . go to sleep . go to therapy. bye. #ALSO BTW i am in recovery for an ED and im saying this AS someone with Brain Problems #pls do not clown on this and be like ''actually i'm allowed to be rude and judgemental'' #no u aren't. none of us are. having an ED is not a pass for being a fucking dick #it can make you ACT like a dick. that isn't something you should be proud of or seek to continue #hence.... therapy!!!!!!!! #i know it's kind of controversial to say it but frankly i don't believe in infantilizing mental illness #by being like ''oh they can't help themselves'' #bc that kind of thinking is .... unbelievably toxic lmafo #you might not be able to control your split-second thoughts/judgements #i have ocd i understand #but like. . . .. you know #we both know #this post is not about ''u blurted something u regret'' #this post is about. THAT GUY

[yaniasogames]

erm. just popping in to say I’m not dead guys

#im not coming back but uhhhh i guess i should apologize for having a really cringy breakdown and making everyone worry #ive been doing a lot of self work and trying out different forms of therapy #and even though some shit has gotten worse i think im doing much better now so ummmm yea :3 #anyways watch puella magi madoka magica #also im pinning my digital horror vid cuz i want clout

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

i need to consume something or my thoughts consume me

#all my therapist telling me she wont treat me until i go sober taught me is to lie to the therapist #and it made me question therapy altogether but all my friends swear by it #but now i already told everyone im going sober so i fucked myself 😑 #well i should learn how to be sober during the week so i can get back into fitness #i have to call the drug counsellor she referred me to and see what she says #something has to change for sure… but im starting to think some people just arent meant to be fully sober #a lot of people dont see through or dont care about the bullshit but i do #and the bullshit just doesnt stop #i just need to be on top of that and have more self discipline and thats what i need to learn #how to not give into my impulses… and then i can do recreational substance use or something instead of abusing them #personal #but at the end of the day its about emotional regulation and self discipline and creating a better life for myself #because when its not substances then its the tv or food or shopping like the general issue is my lack of impulse control #so i dont really see how sobriety will solve all that it will just make me wish i had substances to ease my mind

[narwhalandchill]

#ugh theyre so unbearable . teyvat be damned idc they should kiss #anyway just bc theyre soulmates to me doesnt mean i dont think they arent dysfunctional as fuck #i need these 2 in couples therapy IMMEDIATELY #society if ajax n his narwhal communicated and stopped fighting each other is literally just renes vision of desolation #like traveler who. teyvat only survives bc these two have so many problems actually #overturn the world and consume a planets amniotic fluid unstoppable power couple speedrun any%. IF they talked 😔😔😔 #everyone point and laugh . #genshin #childeposting #mine

[takami-takami]

I am putting my heart soul and entire pussy into this slowburn fic. It genuinely has become a project, like, my therapist is hearing about this one yall.

#im not mentioning a therapist to be edgy or quirky by the way im saying it because i truly believe therapy should be normalized #and that everyone should be able to get one #we have physical health screenings regularly but not mental health? i think that needs to change #there is no shame in therapy see im open about it cuz i think its good #but anyway this fic is a Big Boy #🐇 rambles

[berryblu-soda]

local silly goofer was seething with rage and dumped it all in the tags, read at your own risk :3 <- personal stuff, wrote this after the tags, pretty okay now, just got it out of my system, love yall <3<3<3

#BITE BITE BITE RAGE RAGE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #<- same old same old ITS BEEN A FREAKING WHILE #my dad is so infuriating yall :D #i dont have it in me to hate him but boi? HES TRYING!!!!! #like; do you HEAR YOURSELF??? IS A SINGLE WORD THATS COMING FROM YOUR MOUTH BEING PROCESSED BY YOUR BRAIN???? #YOU PRIDE YOURSELF IN ALWAYS BEING THE SMARTEST ONE IN THE ROOM #sure; intelligence wise; probably; but emotionally? a speck of dust outnumbers you- #WINNING AN ARGUMENT FOR THE SAKE OF BEING RIGHT WITHOUT REGARD FOR ANYONE ELSE- #THINKING EVERYONE SHOULD BE AS COLD AS YOU; AND IF THEYRE NOT; IF GOD FORBID THEY SHOW TOO MUCH EMOTION #THEN PHYSICAL ABUSE IS JUSTIFIED?? #THAT´S NOT A GOOD FUCKING ARGUMENT!!!! #NOT EVERY ARGUMENT HAS TO BE WON; YOU DONT ALWAYS NEED THE UPPER HAND!!!! #the shitty way you were treated and raised should not be my fucking problem and i hope you get therapy about it #and then i´ll regret not being closer to him whenever he dies; but hes making it unmeasurably hard to consider being vulnerable #AGHHH- #this man has never apologized for a single thing is his damn life btw :3! #vent #*inhale* #sorry yall i´m good; just full of rage rn :D! #i spilled a cup of juice at church today and things got waay out of hand lmaoo

[strawberrybabydog]

Hi! Regarding your reblogged personal post on abuse and system accountability, we wanted to reach out to say that we personally don’t see anything wrong with being cold, dismissive, or even lashing out at your abuser. While it might make you seem like an asshole to those who don’t know about what you went through, that doesn’t change the fact that you were abused. No victim should ever be forced or expected to treat their abuser with kindness and respect, especially if their abuser still behaves poorly or hasn’t taken ownership of their past actions.

You don’t owe your abuser an apology. You don’t owe him feelings of remorse, either. Outsiders aren’t aware of the full story, and that may lead them to the wrong conclusions, but that is in no way your fault.

So sorry if this ask is invasive or unwanted. We just want to let you know that we’re in your corner, we understand what you’re feeling, and we’re wishing you peace, respite, and comfort! Hopefully better system accountability will come with time and practice, but in this particular instance, we don’t think any member of your system has behaved rashly or in a way that’s unjustified!

thank u i really needed to hear this. i feel like in general you might be right but yeah its complicated . more abt it below sorta if any1 is interested

our abuser does recognize what he does to us to some extent? but doesnt stop and keeps... trying??

we had more level-headed protectors near the beginning but This One Fella's anger just grows and grows with every betrayal. it is also (primarily) a prosecutor though and another problem with it, is it turns it's anger onto us as well during these times. i, myself, do not remember the specifics of what it says to our abuser, but our abuser describes her as having no limits and suddenly cutting deep. i do know that whatever she says can be very personal, and she is very mean-spirited. this is mostly the behavior we're unproud of - not just lashing out in anger, but throwing personal specific insults or using sensitive personal information against abuser. it's justified i guess, but still doesnt fully feel right. it feels relieving, but it's still Bad Coping

now that im typing this... maybe our hosts just need to become more comfortable sitting in anger in general. i feel like im describing a feeling of, all of my anger is unjustified and i should just Not Be Angry, and maybe thats just not fair to us? i dont know. it still doesnt feel right to use personal attacks, even if it feels good

it is a complicated situation and idk if there is a correct answer or not. im trying to figure it out. i know my words could never do even close to the damage he has done to me but hhhhh Hurt People Is Bad !!!!!! it is not good it sux !!!

#or idk maybe i have le woke liberal mind virus or whatever and my brain is just like Everyone Should Hold Hands Forever Yippie ^_^ #WHATEVA I GUESS. WE'LL FIGURE IT OUT IN THERAPY. HOPEFULLY #only good useful thing my dumbass abuser ever did 4 me is this bitch is sending me to therapy after 3 years. amen #after the amount of lying and putting me in psychosis on purpose/delusion planting i think its about time i go to therapy about it damn #bottom teir #help babydog #babydog helped #systema sobaky #big feelings #asks #personal #not dog

[johndonneswife]

#just need to vent rq lololol #my wedding lehenga came out so freaking beautiful #but it needs to be taken in a lot like. i lost 6 inches on my waist since i initially had it made for my body #and everyone at the shop was like ohh wow good job great you look so great now you look awesome #and my mom was like oh wow good job that’s good you did it #like lol #i wanted to just be like #‘thanks i had to go to iop therapy at an ed center where they literlaly taught me how to eat food. like a toddler. thanks’ #like i didn’t lose weight for an intentional reason but thanks for confirming you thought i looked horrible before lolol #idk i have been like every size in the book but seeing how much better ppl treat me when im smaller #i’m just like. :) #if my mom says anything about her body or mine tomorrow i will probably fucking lose it and if you see a woman in nj killing ppl on the news #it’s me. lol #it just really took me out of the experience bc i’m trying sooooo hard to be neutral about my body. and like. i don’t need to hear your #thoughts abt what i look like lmao #whatever my dress is beautiful and i’m so beautiful and i’m excited but i really do think i should be able to hunt ppl for sport #leave me alone #nothing you do can please ppl #when i was 20 and 100 lbs and killing myself and sick and miserable every single day my mom was also just like #wow you look great #meanwhile i was balding and fainting at the gym and failing my college classes bc i was obsessed w my body #text #also look at these cats that are just in luis’s apartment’s hallway like rofl who let them out of their apt!!!! so cute #my mom saying ‘you did it’ as if i was trying to do something made me lol #i wasn’t TRYING to do anything i just am healing my relationship w food and my body #bc i refuse to waste my entire life being bitter and miserable and ashamed of existing #like SOMEONE i know…. #anyway this could be you too! if you went to fucking therapy! #i ate ny pizza out of spite after all of this #sorry some of you can’t enjoy a fucking carb !!!!!

[katyspersonal]

It is only first month of 2024, and I've already lost not one but two subjects of nightmares, paranoia and reoccurring emotional torture. I really wish there was another way to get rid of these besides having extremely painful conversations.. but at least these scars are closing, one by one

#/vent #personal #and this time was like.. opposite of the previous one #previous one absolutely wrecked me with very ugly insight and basically made all puzzle pieces fall together #this one was just pain and crying and having my worst suspicions about other person AND self faced and confirmed #but again it got solved #I really want the power to move on without having a closure. #I hope I will be strong enough for it one day. #I just need to think.. #I think I really should avoid other depressed/traumatised people until something can be done with how I react at perceived threats #(which is eternity because hell I know when I will be able to afford therapy. probably never with how my life situation is going) #as jarring as being close only with 'healthy' people would be I just can't make things worse for both me and them #until I can change my default response from aggression into avoidance I'll just stay away from anyone with depression #I say very terrible things when I feel threatened and it is way too easy to make me feel threatened. it is THE easiest thing in the world. #I won't survive without close friends anyhow but there is category of people that can't recover from these words normally #I mean I am ALSO this 'category'. I also hurt from awful words thrown at me for MONTHS don't I #it is very hard to be aware of my glaring flaws when everyone that points them out is outright malicious and wants me bullied off the Earth #and then everyone who does think I deserve my human rights either doesn't see my flaws or doesn't mention them #so at least discussing it without outright intention to harm me was helpful for a change #maybe one day I'll have a friend that can be open if I've hurt them a lot so I can work on it but that's another story I guess

[sirnica]

I'm tempted to install tinder even tho I know it will just be really really bad for me, mostly because I need to see if there is a single single sapphic woman between ages of 28 and idk, 35 in this entire city.

#everyone i can think of are either older ladies who are very nice or like 23 at most and like nope #not going to do it because I'm sinking deeper into depression by the day and I'm already at the dept where the titanic is #just wondering for academic purposes #yes i should go back to therapy and maybe try new meds or something but complaing on tumblr is free and doesn't take up resources #i know I don't have to date people in my city this is just for academic purposes #i think they all moved out or are in relationships

[captain-lovelace]

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#Sometimes I think about the fact that without my OCD diagnosis I might be dead #Like given the intensity of how things ramped up last fall/winter especially #I was so terrified that I was sleeping like 2 hours per night in like half-hour bursts #And sometimes could barely speak #I have no idea what I would have done if I hadn’t been able to get some distance from it instead of #Believing it was all my fault and I was just uniquely awful #Suicide mention #Like to be clear: diagnosis is not something I think everyone should pursue and I think the actual *therapy* I was getting during that time #Was not actually helping #But having some way to say that the thoughts I was having did not reflect on whether or not I deserved to live #Was a relief

[skhardwarevers1]

me when I write poetry to cope with my bitchass teacher

#I think. I should seek help for these problems. Maybe. Juuuussst maybe #Will I though? No!!! Asking to see a therapist is like ….idk I feel like my parents would take it as like #“Hey you guys fucked up so bad that I have mental issues now love you !!!!” #And I’m not very good at asking for things #I get scared asking to leave the house without more than three days notice for fucks sake!!!! #Despite my very….outward nature here I’m actually extremely timid and afraid of everyone ever #It’s just here there isn’t much consequence to it. I don’t have to hear your voice or look at you #It’s just text on the screen #It’s easier. So much easier #vent #Also to add to the therapy point #I also feel like I’m gonna get hit with the “what are you depressed about” / “you don’t have anything to be depressed about” line so hard #That I’ll actually consider doing something drastic cuz I’m tired of this bullshit #I do it to myself too! That’s how bad it’s gotten! #I know I was joking about the “s.k trauma deniers” but people don’t normally get so terrified in a usually safe environment like that! #I KNOW there’s stuff up with me it’s just very hard for me to go out and do smth about it cuz it’ll snowball and ruin things

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

MY MUM JUST BOUGHT ME AND HER TICKETS TO SEE SIX?? UNPROMPTED???? SHE IS THE MOST CONFUSING WOMAN ALIVE??????? BUT YAAAAAYYYY

#she hates me but also doesnt but also does but not quite but does but doesnt but #see i have a worse relationship with my father but its so much easier because hes just an absolute bastard all round #my mothers flip flopping every day calling me an ungrateful waste of money one minute then buying me six tickets the next like?? #what am i meant to do about that??? #anywayz SIX TICKETS WOO FUCKING LOVE SIX #I WAS MEANT TO SEE IT RIGHT BEFORE COVID HIT AND I JUST HAVENT COME ACROSS IT SINCE #SHE SAW IT AND JUST BOOKED THE TICKETS FOR NEXT YEAR IM LIKE SO EXCITED #fr though why is she being so nice to be its kind of frightening #i think its because i had that breakdown in front of her before #she hasnt told me to get a job since then either #you guys dont understand how big of a deal that is #she always finds a way to tell me to get a job #anywayz everyone thank my mum for being a great mum <3 #for the moment as least #dont want to jinx it #maybe marrying my step dad last month changed her psychologically #omg maybe shes started therapy #am a little afraid because im in the process of starting testosterone (yay!) but havent told her and i should be on it by december so uh #its gonna be obvious by the time we go to see it #so im *scared* #she may very well take the tickets away but LETS HOPE NOT #im so sorry ive written an essay in the tags lmfao #mummy issues #mummy issues going wild fr

[suncaptor]

there's something specifically inside my head that is closing up that makes trusting anything so hard. i have to manually keep my mind open to the potential of anything being significant. i am so used to things being bad and things hurting and things not working and being powerless that it takes an exorbitant amount of mental energy to make sure I don't let myself shut down possibility. and I do it because I never want a certainty inside of me besides love to rule anything. but I want my brain elastic again. i want it open like breathing. it doesn't erase the unfairness or the critique or any of the bitter-built philosophy.

#it's so hard to describe what I mean. i think it's the combo of the like. specific part of my brain's development + the amount of trauma #I have endured + the degree of which that has been taking place on a backdrop of the world being incredibly injust no matter what I do #this is very very silly but the extent of how much this impacts me was made clear by how like. closed off I was to even liking an album by #my favourite singer. like obviously I am obsessively keeping myself open I would never let my preconceived sense of doom and stubbornness #control my willingness to let things in #but it shouldn't be so hard to keep my mind open to things like... liking my favourite musician of most of my life's music........... #and that's a VERY silly example but that's why it's easier to talk about. it takes so much work to be open enough for things like therapy #or religion because they've damaged me so much #how am i supposed to handle this on a backdrop of constant constant helplessness in the face of living insecurity and illness and trauma? #the problem is if you try so so so hard again and again and remain hopeful regardless of how illogical that hope is #but you get let down so constantly since you're never stop trying ever even when systems fail you again and again #and you're watching horrible things happen and everything that shapes you is horror #then regardless of how much you try it's so hard to let yourself let go of the very realistic lived experience of doubt and critique #and I DO. do NOT get me wrong. I am obsessive and refuse to be my own problem #but the act of doing so shouldn't be like this. it's in everything i do. from simple things like listening to new music to even the mere #possibility of a future #i am very worried this one is going to be misinterpreted bc I AM NOT saying I'm stubborn in the face of systems that have repeatedly failed #me. I AM NOT. I am saying to not be shouldn't take this work when it envelops the rest of my life. #if anyone reads this far please please acknowledge the degree of which I almost pathologically try again and again when I can guarantee #nearly everyone wouldn't and still fight to keep myself open to hope because that's just something in me that is like that. but BEING like #that is. repeatedly putting yourself in situations where you are powerless already and helpless to get better and then are hurt more and #there's no way to escape it's just the repeated nature of it and then trying to not be the issue. #it's the problem in itself. #my ambition SHOULD be smarter. #god I'll go into this when I fully understand it another time. i don't think i have this phrased in a way to make all the dots of what i #mean correlate in the significant ways to anyone but me #but hey i guess i'm expecting anyone to read this in a light to misperceive me in the first place instead of accept maybe I'm not explainin #well or giving me the benefit of the doubt. see. #delete

[twinknote]

me after having a Horrible few weeks: therapy this week is gonna Suck, i’m gonna cry and fall apart and it’s gonna be the worst

me at therapy: laughs like 5 times and makes a plan together for the week that i feel good about

#i think everyone in the world should have therapy with diamond #they are a miracle worker #they are everything to me #they are the reason i am alive on this big blue marble #the world needs more cool queer trans ND disability-allied trauma-informed anti-capitalist antifa therapists