#I'm so scared of losing him

[untitledducklett]

[Attached is a photo of a lithe looking absol that almost resembles a mega absol without the wings. A dull sheen, like unpolished metal, can be seen on his headhorns and claws. His head is buried in Cael's skirt as if he's trying to somehow crawl into it and away from the pain]

Normally I don't post these sort of 'crowdfunding' type posts, not even back on my chattoter, but I'm really desperate and my boy isn't looking too hot.

Does anyone happen to have any cans, junk, or metalworking scraps? I was going to get some but, unfortunately, the rain hit before I could make it to the store. Thankfully we were able to get back to the apartment safely but Berior isn't doing too hot after the exposure. I live in Lumiose right across from Red Cafe; not sure if there's a safe way to get it over here yet but you're welcome to crash here. I also have a drone I can send out (made of plastic unfortunately or I would have scrapped it already). I've got a few more days worth of iron-rich meat but I've scrapped about everything I don't absolutely need.

#high stakes pokeblogging #pkmn irl #team snagem dark sky #Normally I have a pretty decent stockpile #Unfortunately it seems a member of either the vanitian leavanny or Ariados line got into it #I've been giving him tin foil but they seem to cut it with something that doesn't sit well #I'm so scared of losing him #We've been partners for ages now #animal illness tw #tw: animal illness #tw animal illness

[do-you-know-this-queer-character]

Do you know this queer character?

Li Yu is MLM and uses he/him pronouns!

#so uh. what the fuck is this source lmao #when I was trying to find confirmation of the queer rep I found that it has mpreg so i'm very scared of everything about this #also the person who submitted this submitted a stock image of a common carp in the photos box and I'm losing my mind sorry I didn't use it #li yu #the disabled tyrant's beloved pet fish #the disabled tyrant's pet palm fish #tumblr polls #fandom polls #poll #mlm #he/him #manga #books #xue shan fei hu #lgbtqia #do you know this queer character

[q-starhalo]

I think I've said this before but there's something about the fact that q!Bad is related to Death in a way. He's a Grim Reaper, part time or not, he's a Grim Reaper. And his relationships with the eggs are just so unique. Especially with Tallulah.

Bad and Tallulah value family in a unique way I must say. We always tease on how Bad misses Skeppy and question his actions (ex. Skeppy toaster) but character wise, Skeppy is the only person Bad knows that will never leave. And now he's gone. One of his main comforts. Gone. Taken away from him. Just how he had to take away the souls of people who didn't want to be taken away. It hurts. And he knows that hurt, especially with the dead eggs.

Wilbur has been so soft with Tallulah and that has been her comfort since the beginning. The softness and gentleness. Tallulah wanting to hear his letters is comfort to her because it's from someone who held her so gently. So gentle like his voice. And expressive. Expressive like his music. He's a storyteller and Tallulah finds comfort in Wilburs stories.

Both situations are so unique yet so similar. Both of them miss someone who is now gone. So when Tallulah calls Bad a father figure, when she asks him when Phil isn't around to take her back home or if they can talk in a quieter place or if he can read her the letters from Wilbur, it hurts. Because Tallulah has found comfort in Bad. Bad, a Grim Reaper. Bad, one who holds so much guilt and sadness for the eggs deaths. Bad, someone who understands her in a similar way. And Bad, he understands her worries and her feelings because he's in the same situation. It's easier said than done when it comes to missing someone and they both know it. It hurts badly but it's something they're trying to accept.

Just, the implication that a little girl finds comfort in a Grim Reaper (and an Angel of Death, can't forget about Phil) hits me a lot.

#Can we just talk about these two? please? #don't even get me started when it comes to Dapper #Bad is so scared of losing Dapper and this is a Grim Reaper you're talking about #wouldn't blame him though everyone he knew died when he arrived and caused destruction #but still do you get what I'm talking about? #sorry if the wording doesn't make sense by the way #qsmp #badboyhalo #q!badboyhalo #qsmp tallulah

[ineed-to-sleep]

I'm watching Berserk and I may or may not have hyped myself up to turn my vampire ocs into dark fantasy characters. mmaybe

#sketch tag #so uh. pepper is kind of a guts basically jdjgkckkc #they're both in an army and they butt heads a lot bc pepper is big and stronk but very impulsive and reckless #but there's no griffith situation or anything like that it's just that vince worries abt her #and he's way more restrained as a fighter and a strategist. maybe a commander or second in command #and just like in vtm he's very paranoid and afraid of change. so he worries abt her and is also unhappy in the army but too scared to leave #so he broods a lot and mopes around and gets on her ass abt her recklessness #and just like in vtm pepper is impulsive and has a lot of pent up frustration and she uses the battlefield to release all of it #sometimes overexerting herself and nearly getting herself killed #she also wants to leave bc she's not sure she believes in what they're fighting for anymore. but then she loses her coping mechanism #things change when they have an argument where he reveals he cares abt her sjfjjfkf YES very cliche I am thriving #and she's dismissive at first but after being alone for a bit his words start sinking in #and when they're on a battlefield again there's a moment where they have to retreat and she's about to absolutely not listen to that #but then she has a change of heart bc she remembers what he said + she cares abt him too so she doesn't want him to be hurt by her actions #neither by him getting worried nor trying to come to her aid and putting his life at risk #so she retreats #and he's very happy abt that he thanks her later for what she did #and then she's like yeah sure I guess I didn't die but also guess what. I'm bored #everything she wanted to release back there she just didn't. so she's still frustrated and especially bc she had to admit defeat #and she's an extremely proud person. she's irritated #and he's like aight. I'm gonna fight you then #and she's like what. and he's like yeah #so he picks up a sword and throws another one to her and there's a *sexual tension play-fight* hell yeah babey #I'm having sm fun w this au can you tell jejfjckckkc #eventually they do desert the army they're in bc things get worse and pepper decides she no longer wants to be a part of it #and in a fight or flight moment she pushes vincent to make a decision and he leaves with her #and like the story is only getting started there bc then there'll be some big misteries in the story they're gonna uncover #which. I haven't figured out what they are yet #but either way akhhdskfha I'm having a lot of fun w this #sleep.txt

[oatmealcrisp-freak]

i just can't see kuboyasu as a yandere, i've failed

#yanderes i'm so sorry #it's like #yeah he's loyal yeah he'd kill for his partner yeah his partner getting hurt is deffo a rage trigger but yanderes are so obsessed with thei #partner that they can't realize if they're hurting their partner or scaring them and yeah kuboyasu has a hair trigger on his rage #but he's trying so hard to move past it and he has a strong code of ethics he'll beat you up if you're trash and his partner isn't trash an #i just can't see him going so overboard that he'd lose sight of his partner's needs in that way #which basically means i have to rethink the breakup fic anyways

[summerfullofsnow]

me when bl fans stop trying to find "the good one" to root for and learn to look at characters as multifaceted beings with their own motivations and personalities

#playboyy #playboyy the series #dead friend forever #dff the series #idk these are airing currently and i'm having many thoughts #jbls especially have so many morally grey characters that i LOVE but fandom has decided are irredeemable #segasaki uncle jim way vegas kijima boston jiwoo etc #and the worst offender of all! #jaewon breaking up w jihyun bc he was scared of losing him! some ppl were acting like he personally killed their dog #don't even get me started on how gmmtv moralizes it's own shows to pander to the public & sponsors </3 #i'm sorry i'm in a hater mood #mine #thai bl #japanese bl #but i guess that's too much to ask for when half of these people can't even watch playboyy wo making fun of it #like i get it you don't like it. do you have to mock the actors' english or the sex scenes when both of these things are just stylization #to let the viewer understand the characters better

[dylanconrique]

“you scared me." 🤝 “yeah i about had a heart attack.” 🤝 “i can’t lose you the way i lost her.”

the holy trinity.

#*and this is icarly! #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #for those of you who don't know tim 1000% whispered almost inaudibly under his breath those three words 'you scared me' #right after lucy comes to from him giving her cpr #i swear you can only make it out with headphones at full volume.. and you have to listen very intently. no distractions. #IT'S HAUNTED ME AND TAKEN SO MUCH SPACE IN MY BRAIN FOR YEARS SO I KNOW I'M RIGHT #can't believe we got the other two quotes in the same episode though #the writers are deeply insane for putting those lines in the same script #tim's number 1 fear has always been losing lucy in some way #she's been such a pivotal part of his life since she was first assigned to him #so much so that he doesn't even remember nor could he imagine his life without her in it #god i MISS THEMMMMM!!!!!!!

[best-enemies]

I've reached season 5 on my CSI rewatch and I'm a few episodes past "Swap Meet", where a woman is murdered after attending a swing party with other couples from the neighbourhood. Near the end of the episode there's a moment that made me jump from my seat:

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two cups. He hands her a cup of tea.)

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - BRASS' OFFICE]

Erin Brady: Everybody fantasizes about other people. (She glances at Grissom.)

Even you, Mr. Grissom. A neighbor, a friend ... girl at the office.

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - HALLWAY]

(The door opens. Paul Brady walks out of the hallway. Erin Brady walks out into the hallway. Sara is sitting in the hallway chair watching them. She watches as they meet and kiss.)

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two culps. He hands her a cup of tea.)

LIKE!!!!!!!

Right after Erin ends her sentence with 'girl at the office', the first time Sara and Grissom meet again, he brings her tea. This might be an innocent interaction but to me it seemed like a nod to this relationship they have where both are into each other, know about the other's feelings, but can't/won't do anything about it (although Sara has kind of given Grissom an ultimatum). I don't know if it was intentional - I'm guessing it is, because I picked it up immediately. I might or might not have squealed in delight.

#csi #gsr #i'm very Normal about them btw i don't think about them 50 times per day or anything #need to talk more about these two here #because im obsessed about them in a Normal way #sara is like. my dream wife. i totally get grissom being in love with her for years and barely holding it together #i would not though #i'm 1000% sure she's bi. but the writers have been cowards so far #also she and i dress THE SAME. yes i love 2000s clothes so what #i could talk about her forever she's everything to me #and grissom. oh grissom. i also get why she's been in love with him forever #i mean what the FUCK went down in san francisco did they hook up and sex was so good it scared them #and now they have to live with that tension and they're scared of crossing that line #nah i'm guessing with these two they just REALLY clicked. like. they were an instant match and they knew it #but grissom didnt want to lose focus on work or whatever and they lived in separate states you know #but oh my god i totally get sara. grissom is such a silver fox. he's like one of the hottest old men i've ever seen in my life #you know what i 100% get tumblr sexualizing old men it's completely valid i'm in this now too #he has this LOOK. whenever he's angry at a suspect. and he looks angrily at them. i'm chewing on my keyboard just remembering it #and his smirks #AND THE WAY HE LOOKS AT SARA #im losing my mind #i love all of gil grissom but seasons 4-5 jesus fucking christ #ok enough with the sexualizing i love him as a character SO MUCH. he's absolutely fantastic #one of the things i love the most about him is that he doesn't judge people. whenever the team is confused about someone #or this persons' lifestyle #he's always trying to understand them and not judge them #like a true scientist he wants to understand the nature of things and people #and he's such a sweetheart i love him so much #like there are so many things i love about him i can't fit them all in the tags. same for sara #they're a perfect match for me

[dirtytransmasc]

maybe it's because I'm in the "I'm so obsessed and hyperfocused on my little guys I will make any song seem like it's about them even if it couldn't be any father from actually relating to them at all" stage of my Theon and Asha hyperfixation but like...

I feel like 'I bet on losing dogs' by Mitski is about them.

it's about Asha and her relationship with Theon.

he's her baby brother. the baby brother who looked up at her smiled when she had gone in his room, intent on strangling him to stop his cries. he's her losing dog. the dog she keeps fighting for when no one else will. she never gives up on him, not truly, even when he is so clearly doomed, because she loves him, she won't give up on him.

and Theon is, in so many senses, a dog. he's been passed around from owner to owner, home to home, trained and beaten and domesticated, made to behave how his owner at the time sees fit. he's a good dog, a good beaten dog.

and now, in a way, he's Asha's dog. she doesn't want him to be her dog, she wants him to be her brother, and Theon's trying, he really is trying, she knows he's trying, but part of him will always be doomed to be a dog waiting to be hit, waiting for a command, waiting to be trained.

he's her losing dog, she knows it, knows he's doomed, deep down, there's little hope, he'll die a damned dog, but fuck it she doesn't care, he's her blood, her baby, he will be by her side no matter what. she'll always go back for him, she'll always fight for him, she'll always tell him to stay, she'll always give him a chance, she'll always try.

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#(this post is based on the show. I'm half way through season 6) #I don't even know if I'm saying anything coherently but I tried #they make me feel insane. feral. ill. all of the above. #I think- scratch that. I *know* asha is so much softer for theon than she lets on and I don't know how more people don't see that #like yes. she wasn't perfect when it came to handling theon #but like... she was doing the best she knew how to do with the way she was brought up #I mean. the ironborn have a very tough it out or die mentality. they don't do “mental health” (I mean... look at euron. does it look- #like they do mindfulness and processing trauma?) #she only knew how to tough love theon. that was it. she wanted him to get better but didn't know how to actually make it happen #but that doesn't change the fact that she loved him with her whole being. that she hated seeing him in the state he was. that she didn't- #want to make it all better like any big sister would. #because she did! she loved him! he was her baby and he was hurting and she didn't know how to fix it! #she's brash cause thats all she knows. she's tough on him cause what else could she do? she had to have been scared and worried about him. #I think part of her brashness was her trying to cover up just how worried and conflicted and confused she was when it came to his situation #so this post caters to what I think the soft innards of asha greyjoy would be like. she loves her baby brother very much. #I mean. the way she looks at him when she tells him the story of him smiling at her or when she kisses his forehead when he agrees to be- #*theon* again. for her. the love in her eyes is undeniable. #to asha and her losing dog- I mean brother #they're gonna be the death of me #asha greyjoy #theon greyjoy #yara greyjoy #got #game of thrones #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #the second row of images is from the scene where asha (she will never be yara to me. sorry got. asha is the superior name) is telling- #theon the story about him being a terrible baby and how he smiled at her.

[bird-inacage]

Episode 11 | Prapai’s ‘I can’t even bear to look at you right now’ face.

I cannot stop gushing about this scene, and I won’t apologise for it. This face he repeatedly makes just utterly kills me. It’s like he’s thinking ‘Don’t -do not even. How could you? You have no idea. Absolutely no goddamn idea how scared I was for you.’ I can practically feel his heart in his throat, heart still pounding, nerves haywire.

#LITA #love in the air #love in the air series #love in the air episode 11 #prapaisky #prapai x sky #sky x prapai #the palpable fear #the slight shell shock from feeling so scared for the first time in his life #the 'i'm not angry AT you but im angry and disappointed WITH you' tone #we've seen stronger and stronger glimpses of his anger #but im not mentally prepared yet to see him fully lose it

[buttercup-barf]

Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #that's it that's the only tags i am putting this in. maybe someday i will have the balls to do more but for now that's about it #while i have the chance - and since posts with more of my yapping in the tags don't pop in people's feeds much - i might as well ramble- #-about these guys here. self-inserts or not i'm projecting only half of my bullshit on each one of them. creativity 👍 #backup is tall and pale and has sharp canines and more of a dull brown hair colour with tired grey eyes. no amount of babyface or soft- #-hands can really help a motherfucker when he's grimacing so much because he just Hates being around half the people on the team. #cleaner meanwhile is on the shorter side and has constantly flushed skin and brighter colours and whatnot. you can't see it because of the- #-mask most of the time but they do smile a lot more and have a more cheery disposition towards life and see the whole team as their friends! #backup transitioned fully (albeit not very legally lmao) and is scared shitless of not being seen as a man although the last time that ever- #-came up was years ago. he holds onto his last name as part of the heritage he loves and loathes at the same time - attached to his culture- #-and religion and bloodline while also resentful of his family and the regime he knows someone else on the team suffered under. #cleaner just kinda binds and calls it a day. he only does it to confuse the team because while he doesn't identify with being a girl he- #-loves the confused looks his epic gender reveal moment gets. they do not remember their family name or where they grew up or what even got- #-them to this kind of mental state. and he's chill with it he values the here and now way more than some dark edgy backstory. #backup despite trying to be an honest man is afraid of vulnerability as well. he stubbornly refuses to express love towards certain people- #-lest they feel disgusted and turn away. he's afraid of consequences afraid of losing the people he loves afraid of his ''interests'' being- #-what drives them away. it doesn't by the way and he just wasted time being a cold indecisive loser for several months lmao #cleaner wears a suit that hides all of them yes but they pretty much never lie. he is always his truest self and he can always just burn- #-people who don't like him enough to make it a problem. they are a lot more comfortable indulging in their interests - be they innocent- #-and juvenile or violent and dangerous. he is quite open with his affection and his fascinations that backup would rather keep secret. #i want to establish that these two can only exist in separate universes because they both have feelings towards the funny assistant lady- #-and the funny inventor guy (selfshipping for the winnn) and would fight over those two. cleaner would win by the way #it's also a really funny point of comparison. cleaner is objectively more fucked up than backup and still managed to be more normal about- #-their feelings and live as a healthier and happier person than that guy. comedic gold honestly #OKAY I'M DONE if you read up to here you get uhhh a cookie :-)

[cinna-bunnie]

there's this really funny thing cishet women used to do to me when i was a bi man where, upon learning I'm bi, suddenly pull out their phone to start looking up all their favorite men to see how i feel about them.

and like. I'm bi. i have all the choices in the world and there's all these beautiful queers with cool genders and ways of expressing themselves, and even some cishet ppl who are really just having fun with themselves - and you choose to show me the most boring chiselled men in suits??

by the time we hit somewhere from the 6th to 10th man feelings get HURT before I'm finally asked “well who do YOU think is cute!!?” and I blow their mind with my choices every time because i have good taste.

I'm sorry.. I don't know how to tell you you're picking from the bottom of the barrel here.. have you seen queer people?? the average woman??

#they lose their minds (good) over how beautiful queer men can be but.. won't date one #obv I'm being v general in my wording but I'm just thinking about like 2 or 3 specific people I've talked with irl #the last time was this girl trying to find a distraction on her dating app and she'd keep showing me dudes and I'd keep going #(⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) ... as long as u like him .. #i ghosted her over it actually 🧍‍♀️ she needed help getting the ball rolling so i helped her out a bit #and the dude she was talking with is so... he's an ex boot boy.. makes being street his whole personality but he's not black #and then she's over here wooed by him like a baby looking at some jangley keys.. girl.. we r not the same kind of person.. #we're not even Close 😹 lotta red flags w that one though i was kinda scared to let her get any closer to me but that's a whole other rant

[4ever-the-nme]

This is why I freaking love this show so much! You'd think with this particular crew (Big, Bucky, Brownie, and Cheese) that this episode would be a light-hearted comedy, and yet we end up with three grown men sobbing over their losses and a profound epiphany for Cheese. Every expectation is subverted, which is why this show is my freaking favorite!

#random #reservation dogs #rez dogs #reservation dogs 3x06 #frankfurter sandwich #spoilers #it's so sad how open of a wound maximus left on bucky and brownie #and i think i called him maxwell instead of maximus in my previous post so whoops! #cheese really is the sweetest and emotionally mature person on this show #i'm so sad that he was scared of losing his friends #but that he thought better of pushing them away #ugh i love this show! #also still puzzled by the bigfoot family but Big really has seen a lot

[outlying-hyppocrate]

does anyone ever just casually have the most violently disgusting intrusive thoughts that make you absolutely sick to your stomach or (:

#random thoughts #i mean genuine intrusive thoughts. images you don't fucking want in your head. they're always there #they found my dreams and now they live there and i am scared to sleep. they're always there so i write about them #always there always there 13. but we can turn them into poetry. write a pretty story or a song. they love it #i'll turn it into something pretty until i can't anymore. after the tortured poet loses his shiny value you toss him to the red pools #by the puppeteers' feet. see? just like that you paint a picture #if i talked about them then i'd have my limbs snapped again so. instead! happy pictures happy pictures #this could've gone onto the vent blog but. it's not really a vent. i'm seeking attention the way i always am </3 #hopefully this isn't relatable to any of you. h

[phantastragoria]

Marvel Comics will have to pry Peter Quill's Master of the Sun design from my cold, dead hands.

#guardians of the galaxy #peter quill #star lord #my doodle tag #universe: 616 #all the artistic renditions of him by other people that will now never exist because marvel got scared of him looking silly #well I say NO I'm going to draw him like this until I DIE I refuse to let this look go #so so sad that we could be losing the space magic aspect of him and the element gun ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[aberooski]

so that surprise song mashup, huh

I AIN'T GOTTA TELL HIM I THINK HE KNOWS HE'S GORGEOUS !!!!! 😭😭😭

They are everything to me she has no idea but she did that for me I stg ✋😭

#AND I LOVE THIS SM 😭😭 #AUGH I'M SO NORMAL (lie) #ugh the way they just are lover and reputation too like fuck #like reputation is hard shelled and mean and scary on the outside but on the inside she's so emotional and vulnerable and kind and loving #the hard shell is a facade and it gives me chazz how he was at the beginning like his inauthentic self he had to be around others #as a way to cope with the pressure from his brothers and try and accomplish what they demanded of him #but in actuality he's a really sweet kid and is such a hopeless romantic and is just such a vulnerable soul who feels very deeply #but doesn't understand how to express that or to recieve it from others because of how emotionally stunted and neglected he was for so long #like he's so reputation to me #and atticus being lover is just so right too like lover is happy and glittery and colorful and fun and there's so much love there #but is also anxious and scared of losing that love and it's a deceptively sad album #and atticus is much the same as a person like he's summer incarnate that's what I always say and he loves so much and cares for everyone #so so much to the point where it can be self destructive for him. but that's just it he destroys himself with his love for others #I go back to him saying that nobody needs him anymore and that there's no one to protect after everyone is taken by darkness in season 4 #and how sad he is like he doesn't have a purpose anymore. he's afraid of losong the people that he loves #because they are his purpose for being at this point. he's been through so much and had his entire sense of self so shaken for a while #it's kinda fucked actually #but anyway.... atticus would also unironically adore ME! #hey kids spelling is fun indeed 😏 #I didn't mean to go off like that was not what I was expectinf myself to do but okay queen go off akaksksk #ugh they are my everything 😭 #yugioh gx #chazz princeton #jun manjoume #atticus rhodes #fubuki tenjoin #stormshipping #taylor swift #aberooski asks