#NEVER GROW UP MAKES ME CRY

[ellies-enrichment]

I’m here to let you know that if I watch your long live edit you are contractually obligated to pay for my therapy

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it made me cry. i wanted to do more with it but i mentally couldn't handle doing more with it. i swear the next video CAN'T be that sad i refuse to let it happen

#its.... so much to explain but long live is so special to me #never grow up makes me cry #long live makes me cry for different reasons #its a mess i was a mess #my apologies as always apology video with tears & therapy money on the way to you #dilf-din #asks

[oatbugs]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago. #(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year) #(hed come across the bridge on a lake) #we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared. #it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much. #and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine. #she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

[katierosefun]

modern family is all fun and games until you get to the scenes where you burst into tears because the once-vaguely homophobic dad now refers to his son's husband as family, and also the academically gifted daughter realizes that her dorky, clumsy dad was always really proud of her and just never surprised because he just assumed she could do anything, and also the eldest daughter who eloped comes crawling back to her parents' room and whispers that she still wants her parents to be present for her wedding, and also the anxious queer lawyer character admits that he was terrified that his husband would just leave him alone with their baby daughter, and also that the once-vaguely grouchy dad looks at his stepson and tells him that what makes a family is who sticks around, not who you're blood-related to and anyways what was i saying

#caroline talks #modern family #god. . .. the way i really do love this sitcom. like have all the jokes aged well? ehhh not really #there are some jokes that land pretty badly now but i still do love this show so much and i'm so sad i'm on the final season #it's like. oh yeah. family is complicated! it's rough! #but everyone can change and grow. people can become better. it won't be perfect and it'll suck sometimes #but everyone is trying their goddamn best. #i will say though i burst into tears at hayley coming to claire and phil and going '. . . i was going to elope but i realized #that i really wanted you guys there :(' #and god also how i love gloria and jay and claire and phil and mitch and cam's relationships #and like i love the kids but the adult relationships make me cry the hardest #because it's like. when claire explodes on phil bc 'YOU NEVER TAKE MY ADVICE YOU'RE ALWAYS FOLLOWING SOMEONE ELSE'S!!!' #and phil goes up to claire and presents her with this photo album and goes '. . . honey i'm ALWAYS following your advice.' #and when i think about mitch freaking out bc he thinks he might have had another kid and he thinks cam might ditch him for it #and cam is just like '. . .. mitchell i love you.' and is just like. we'll deal with this together. #and it's just like!!! ough!!! ough!!!

[biblionerd07]

I tried watching some of the Ian/Mickey scenes from season 11 and it made me ill. These are IMPOSTERS. That is not Ian and Mickey!! Especially Mickey!!! Look at how they massacred my boy. But one of the most frustrating parts is that if you watch the deleted scenes it shows that someone in that writers’ room DID know how to write Ian and Mickey but the producers or whoever makes that decision were like “nah, no meaningful conversations that show how much they love and respect each other and are working on their relationship. These fans who’ve been watching the characters struggle for a decade want them to continuously argue and beat the shit out of each other and act like they hate each other!”

#John wells if I ever catch you #there were a very few small spots of goodness and I credit ONLY Noel and cam for that #they were doing their level best #some of the things they had coming out of Mickey’s mouth made me want to drive my head through a wall #in what world am I supposed to believe Mickey was getting blow jobs from other guys #and making a joke out of Ian’s bipolar???? #like the one time they remembered they even wrote Ian as bipolar and it was for a shitty line where Mickey throws it in his face #it feels like every season is a whole new show and not connected at all to the others #and then it starts feeling like every EPISODE is a whole new show that’s not connected #why was there like a goofy soundtrack as Mickey’s literal Nazi abusive rapist father moved in next door #Noel was giving us everything and they made a joke out of it #and then they made a joke out of Mickey being conflicted and crying after terry died?????????? #I want to kill them #Ian saying frank was worse than terry????? girl in what world?????? #Mickey was NEVER insecure about bottoming and he was always adamant about how much he loved it but suddenly it’s an issue #from ‘liking what I like don’t make me a bitch’ back when he could barely LOOK at Ian to…this #also Ian used to be very sweet even when he was being stubborn and self-righteous and even violent #but they really lost his sweetness #and I know it wasn’t just cam growing up bc there were glimpses of it in the way he chose to have Ian move and hold onto Mickey #but the writers seemed hell bent on all of the characters being so horrible to each other #in the early seasons they could sometimes be cruel and selfish even to each other but underneath it all they loved each other #and it feels like when they decided to lean solely into goofy comedy that lost that #it’s just sad to see a show that started so good end so badly #I’ve seen people talking about a spinoff with Ian and Mickey and I don’t even fucking want it with these writers #maybe if cam and Noel were producers and got to choose the storylines #they’re the only ones I trust

[bunnihearted]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[lonesomecupid]

currently crying

#i had never seen these before #and god did it make me emotional #maybe its because my mother did also loose her father at eleven ans she talks about him just like John's daughter does #it makes me sad he never got to seem them grow up #i can't stop crying yall #send help #john bucky egan #major john egan #john egan #callum turner #mota #masters of the air

[clementine-writes-things]

"I've got a busy day tomorrow. I should really go to sleep."

*proceeds to listen to the Born To Die Paradise Edition album while sobbing into my pillow*

#lana del rey #aka lizzy grant #lana del slay #born to die #i love lana so much #this is a daily thing for me tbh #DON'T MAKE ME SAD DON'T MAKE ME CRY SOMETIMES LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH AND THE ROAD GETS TOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHY #LETS GET OUTTA THIS TOWN BABY WE'RE ON FIRE #BEEN TRYING HARD NOT TO GET INTO TROUBLE BUT I #OURS A LOVE I HELD TIGHTLY FEELING THE RAPTURE GROW LIKE A FLAME BURNING BRIGHTLY #I'VE GOT A BURNING DESIRE FOR YOU BABY #THINK I'LL MISS YOU FOREVER LIKE THE STARS MISS THE SUN IN THE MORNING SKY #LIKE A GROUPIE INCOGNITO POSING AS A REAL SINGER LIFE IMITATES ART #MON AMOUR SWEET CHILD OF MINE YOU'RE DIVINE DIDN'T ANYONE EVER TELL YOU IT'S OK TO SHINE #AND THERE'S NO REMEDY FOR MEMORY YOUR FACE IS LIKE A MELODY IT WON'T LEAVE MY HEAD #COME ON BABY LETS RIDE WE CAN ESCAPE TO THE GREAT SUNSHINE #THIS IS WHAT MAKES US GIRLS WE ALL LOOK FOR HEAVEN AND WE PUT LOVE FIRST #TELL ME IM YOUR NATIONAL ANTHEMMMMM #BABYS ALL DRESSED UP WITH NOWHERE TO GO #WE GET DOWN EVERY FRIDAY NIGHT DANCIN AND GRINDIN IN THE PALE MOONLIGHT #IVE NOTHING WITHOUT YOU ALL MY DREAMS AND ALL THE LIGHTS MEAN NOTHING WITHOUT YOU #I WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF TIMEEEEE #NOW MY LIFE IS SWEET LIKE CINNAMON LIKE A FUCKING DREAM IM LIVING IN #DIET MOUNTAIN DEW BABY NEW YORK CITY NEVER WAS THERE EVER A GIRL SO PRETTY #HELLO HEAVEN YOU ARE A TUNNEL LINED WITH YELLOW LIGHTS ON A DARK NIGHT #WOULD YOU BE MINE WOULD YOU BE MY BABY TONIGHTTTTTT #YOU MAKE ME CRAZY YOU MAKE ME WILD JUST LIKE A BABY SPIN ME AROUND LIKE A CHILD #I NEED YOU I BREATHE YOU I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU! #HEAVEN IS A PLACE ON EARTH WITH YOU TELL ME ALL THE THINGS YOU WANNA DOOOOOOO #ONE FOR THE MONEYYYYY TWO FOR THE SHOWWWWWW

[thedreadvampy]

I tried listening to Olivia Rodrigo and I'm sure this is really good for its target audience of Teen Girls Going Through A Breakup but has she actually ever put out a song that isn't about a guy cheating, breaking up with her and moving on to someone else?

like babe he's not coming back it's been 2 years you gotta find something else in your life

#red said #it's not to my taste. tbh #content aside pop music is going through a very early 2000s breathy oversinging phase #hated it with xtina and alanis hate it with ariana and olivia sorry #it's a personal taste thing but to me however hard you go with the backing track that kind of soft pretty vocal style kind of #drags it back into midtempo sludge for me #also tbh it's just extremely normal music. like i went over to her yt bc people were talking about how Weird vampire is #it's not though????? it's super not???? #anyway the only one I've got anything out of is good 4 u cause she sounds more involved and less self-pitying on it #every other Olivia song I've heard sounds kinda the same bc they all have the same earnest self-pity vibe #which is what a lot of people need out of music! music that makes them feel the depth of their anger and sadness! #but idk it's never done it for me i like there to be something of a tongue in cheek or a hysterical edge #i think most of the songs I've heard from her are just too controlled and polished for them to not sound to me #like she's the person who sees you crying cause your partner is in hospital and goes YEAH I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL #MY EX CHEATED ON ME 5 YEARS AGO AND IT REALLY TRAUMATISED ME AND I'M STILL NOT OVER IT and then you have to comfort her #like i recognise she's a 20 year old making music for teenagers so that is. appropriate. #but i struggled with the wallowing then too. were i a Teen at school with Olivia's character i would be so desperate to tell GROW UP #and it's not the lyrics it really is the music #heartbreak is a perfectly good theme to write on but oh my god not every song about it needs to be a mouthful call to arms

[ssiegfriedsystem]

「A hundred years had passed. So, so much has changed in the world, but not as much to Kazukiー

And the golden vestiges of someone still donning an all too familiar scar, smiling on the back of his mind.」

#read tags #given how kazuki is...well he is immortal #i kinda wonder what would happen a long time after the post-series #100 years immediately popped to my head because i was listening to lyrico's kiseki no hana #everyone he knew on the island would be dead #:( #idk if kouyou is still alive #i mean most likely yeah but im not sure if he has the same blessing of eternity like kazuki #would make me fucking emotional if he doesnt #of course there are the mir children/core that keeps being born again over and over but theyre never the same person. yk #what if tatsumiya ended up sinking forever for good in the future #back to kazuki he probably had stopped aging and stuff like that (but still grows. aging =/= growing guys) #so he remained pretty much similar to how he look 100 years ago. just longer hair #i like to think he decides to grow out his hair so he keeps remembering soushi #soushi is technically still there in a way because he stays in kazukis memories #as sad as it is #bro im gonna fucking cry what if kazuki gradually forgets soushi #not in a moving on way but in a its been so long that his memories of him starts to slowly fade way #in the angstier scenario he starts forgetting soushi to the point of almost forgetting him completely #and hes traveling the world all alone again #for eternity... #(this considering kouyou doesn't have the eternity blessing) #FUCKING BAWLING #soukyuu no fafner #makabe kazuki #minashiro soushi #soukazu

[ashpkat]

and even though you have to / please try to never grow up

#can my posts pretty please show up in tags thx #dude i cried drawing this #not because i thought it was sad or whatever never grow up just always makes me cry #just always will #alastair hunt #callum hunt #magisterium #the magisterium #btw the lyric change is because on a live performance taylor changed it from #“want to” to “have to” #destroyed me #taylor swift lyrics for caption

[jadeclaymoresworld]

There's so much I want to say about finally having a Disney princess like Kit but I don't know how to put it into words.

All I know for sure is younger me would have loved to see Kit.

To see a Disney princess that isn't the one that needs rescuing in the story.

A Disney princess that knows how to fight and fight she does, she fights for everything she believes in and she fights to get her brother back.

And to have a knight like Jade. The closest we ever got before is Mulan and I love Mulan, but there's just something about Jade.

The love story between Knight and Princess has been done over and over before, but it's always a male knight saving his princess.

To get Jade, a female knight, and Kit, a princess that doesn't need rescuing is refreshing.

And I love that young people can grow up and see these two, to see the love they have for each other and it not be made to be seen as wrong or something they have to hide.

Seeing Kit and Jade just makes my heart happy.

I've spent 28 years not seeing myself in any Disney princess or knight, as much as I wanted to fight for my own princess.

I dunno, there's so many feeling I have for Kit and Jade and the show in general.

I know how I feel seeing them and I know what I want to say I just don't know how to really put in words beyond being grateful to finally see myself in something Disney.

#Willow #Kit tanthalos #jade claymore #personal #its hard to say what i want to say #i just know that it makes me want to cry hwppy tears #for the kids that get to grow up seeing this #for knowing that younger me would have loved so much to have seen this #it just makes me so happy so fucking happy #because even if we never get anymore #disney cant take kit away from us #they cant take jade from us #they cant take tanthamore from us #and i hope more than anything we get more #because im not ready to let them go

[soona-kit]

honestly i wish people could realize how much this first skypainting event really means to me

#msm #my singing monsters #whiz bang #whiz-bang #the third image was originally made as a vent piece but over time i was actually starting to appreciate it for what it is #because honestly it really is why i love this new event so much #as ive had the displeasure to grow up alongside people who would never appreciate me if i told them who i was on the inside #and seeing my absolute favorite game actually caring for who i feel i am really makes me wanna cry tears of absolute joy #anyways uhhh sorry for vent-ranting in the tags for the 716282828th time cus no ones gonna read this in its entirety except myself so lmao..

[itspileofgoodthings]

the fact that I have to make decisions and choices completely on my own and no one can make them for me is absolutely terrifying and disgusting and painful and I have never been more aware of it than this year.

#cannot explain the level of heartbreak I feel at every support I have ever leaned on being ripped away from me #juuust enough so I cannot lean on it with my whole weight #so that I have to trust myself #like. absolutely everything in me is in revolt against that #this is so dramatic!!! and sounds ridiculous!!! and all that is happening is I am being forced to grow up #and move out of comfort zones and be an adult who trusts her own judgment #and yet I feel the most profound grief #I feel like some version of me has died and will never come back #and it is just …. SHATTERING #and it makes me cry #sorry it’s just 3:00 in the morning and I’ve woken up and can’t sleep #so this is me screaming into the void for one second #in the words of Kathleen Kelly ‘thank you dear void’

[napping-sapphic]

Fav starter? (Pokemon) or fav pokemon/s

Just curious cuz you give cute pokemon vibes

Like, I dunno, a shinx or a springatito

I thought about this for SO long lol and perhaps it’s a basic answer but i HAVE to say turtwig and bulbasaur i love them so much, i love their designs and turtwig was also my starter in diamond which was my favorite game and i used it through my entire play through because it was my baby😌

#asks #other favorites include psyduck and gastly lol #OH and treecko!! beloved!!!! it was my starter in the first pokemon game i ever played!! #ruby i think?? #basically all my starters just ended up as favorites i just get so attached😭😭 #oh my god i also have SUCH a soft spot for plusle and minun #they’re so cute😭 #i absolutely loved them as a kid and all the annoying pokemon boys at my school thought i was dumb for it #they’re SO underrated #lil baby bunnies #also i count all the evolutions as one pokemon PLEASE don’t make me choose between turtwigs evolutions i will cry #also i never got to talk much about pokemon with people growing up so!! if yall wanna share what are your favorites??👀 #also #🌳<- tree for you in honor of turtwig😌

[coleheinous]

original by ashepoems

#this is a poem that makes me sob uncontrollably when i read it #something something never had a childhood #felt like i was forced to grow up too fast #i miss being my moms baby #poetry #i highly suggest viewing the original #ik we clown on tt but there are some people using the medium in a very genuine and artful way #i also showed this to my mom. didnt realuze it would make her cry #it just. encapsulates how i feel so well #cole talks #poems #mommy issues #depression #SoundCloud

[hella1975]

there may be an influx of ethel cain mutuals atm and im even willing to share the podium but i will ALWAYS be the strangers mutual. stay humble

#BUT GOD IS TELLING YOU AND I THAT THERE IS DEATH FOR ALL OF US #IN YOUR BASEMENT I GROW COLD THINKING BACK TO IT I WAS ALWAYS TOLD DONT TALK TO STRANGERS OR YOU MIGHT FALL IN LOVE #FREEZER BRIDE YOUR SWEET DIVINE YOU DEVOUR LIKE SMOKED BOVINE HIDE HOW FUNNY I NEVER CONSIDERED MYSELF TOUGH #YOURE SO HANDSOME WALKING OVER TO ME NOW I TRIED TO BE GOOD AM I NO GOOD AM I NO GOOD AM I NO GOOD #WITH MY MEMORY RESTRICYED TO A POLAROID IN EVIDENCE I JUST WANTED TO BE YOURS CAN I BE YOURS CAN I BE YOURS JUST TELL ME IM YOURS #IF IM TURNING IN UOUR STOMACH AND IM MAKING YOU GEEL SICK #WHEN MY MOTHER SEES ME ON YHE SIDE OF A MILK CARTON IN WINN-DIXIE’S DAIRY ISLE SHE’LL CRY AND WAIT UP FOR ME #WE’LL MAKE LOVE IN YOUR ATTIC ALL NIGHT EUPHORIC IN SOME STRANGE DELIGHT IM HAPPIER HERE CAUSE HE TOLD ME I SHOULD BE OH #YOUR SO HANDSOME WHEN IM ALL OVER YOUR MOUTH WHEN IM ALL OVER YOUR MOUTH WHEN KM ALL OVER YOU MOUTH I TRIED FO BE GOOD #AM I NO GOOD AM I NO GOOD AM I NO GOOD WITH MY MEMORY RESTRICTED TO A POLAROID IN EVIDENCE #I JUST WANTED TO BE YOURS CAN I BE YOURS CAN I BE YOURS CAN I BE YOURS IFNIM TURNING IN YOUR STOMACH AND IM MAKING YOU FEEL SICK #AM I MAKING YOU FEEL SICK??????? AM I MAKING YOU FEEL SICK?? #AAAAAAHSHSHAGAFFGQGQUUAHABSBSNJASHDJCNCJSKAIAJABBSBDBNDJEJAMQLWOOSKZNANBABDHIAJQBBANAAKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #FOUND YOU JUST TO TELL YOU THAT I MADE IT REAL FAR AND THAT I NEVER BLAMED YOU FOR LOVING ME THE WAY THAT YOU DID WHEN YOU WERE TORN APART #I WOULD STILL WAIT WITH YOU THERE DONT THINK ABOUT JT TOO HARD OR YOULL NEVER SLEEP A WINK AT NIGHT AGAIN #DONT WORRY ABOUT ME AND THESE GREEN EYES MAMA JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU I DO AND ILL SEE YOU WHEN YOU GET HERE #ethel cain