#STAY BY MY SIDE (1)

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Hiii everyone, say, how do your Hawkes go go about sharing their estate? If they do it at all? Is everyone free to come and go or are they more private? Or do they only invite their LI to stay? I'm curious!! :)

#lay rambles #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #oc: lilian hawke #both my hawkes are very social w their friends but i love comparing their boundaries around it #theres variation in rules for specific ppl with both of them ofc but theres still general differences #with liam its all very open and everyone can p much come and go whenever #they dont get extra keys (theyll get lost and he doesnt want randos finding them lol) but they know where to find the spare key #and bodhan and sandal and orana know to let them in whenever #hes very lenient in this this regard but he does have rules abt what he does and doesnt want them to do #mostly its about not making too much of a mess lol bc liam prefers to clean himself #(he doesnt trust the crew with his household and also he has particular ways of doing things and Hates when theyre done differently) #so things like keep your dirty garb at the entrance dont cook by yourselves (this was banned after they did it one (1) time lol) etc #also no fucking allowed. do that somewhere else for the love of the maker he does NOT want to walk into that in his own house #(and it also comes back to liam not trusting them with cleaning but also Not wanting to clean that up lol) #also he is not fond of them going into his room uninvited. most of the house is chill but that is *his* space #he accommodates these rules by e.g. having spare slippers and a little washing basin in the entrance hall for dirty shoes/feet #always makes sure to have snacks in stock that he knows they like #food will have notes abt what to leave for leandra/orana/etc but otherwise food is prepared with his friends in mind #and in general he'll make sure to adjust the space/routine in little ways to accommodate them #(air out when fen isnt there cus he doesnt like drafts; keep curtains open cus anders prefers open spaces; etc) #lilian on the other hand doesnt like when her friends come into the estate without a heads up (cept for emergencies) #but once they have her 'ok' its basically mi casa es su casa #dont yknow. overdo it and get too rowdy but otherwise do whatever #however. she also expects everyone to clean up after themselves. she aint here to play maid and youre all adults #also liam has a general 'please try to not be too wild when leandra is here' and lilian doesnt #not cos she doesnt care but cos leandra is bothered by sth she can speak up herself #oh and lilian uses the basement space as temporary refuge for anyone who needs it (mostly escaped mages) #also side note: both offered gamlen to stay but he refused (out of pride/remorse) #...this got long and i ran out of tag space lmfao so this is it for now xD

[bl-bam-beyond]

COMING SOON...

TAIWANESE STUDIO VIDOL HAS MORE OR LESS PROMISED 4 BL SERIES IN THE 2023 YEAR, FIRST GIVING US

STAY BY MY SIDE then YOU ARE MINE AND NOW...

VIP ONLY (2023, TAIWAN)

Trailer Highlights

Premiere: NOVEMBER 24, 2023

Available on: GAGAOOLALA & VIKI

Starring: STAN HUANG as GU JING

XUAN CHEN as LIU LI

TIM CHENG as REN

KURT HUANG as LAI TSAI

MDL SYNOPSIS: Gu Jing is a good chef who owns a creative and retro restaurant. He opens his restaurant anytime he wants. Gu finds that there is a boy who always gets the quietest seat and that boy is Liu Li. Liu is a gay theme novelist who rents a room upstairs from Gu's restaurant. Gu starts to send Liu a bowl of spicy beef noodles.

Gu becomes the person Liu confides in, the person who keeps him company during breakups. Gradually Liu realizes that his fantasies may be different from reality.

VIP ONLY is slated for 10 Episodes

Vidol's Final BL of the 2023 year will not air until February 2, 2024 it's called ANTI RESET. No other VIDOL BL's for 2024 have been released.

Star of VIP ONLY STAN HUANG was seen briefly at the end of VIDOL's recent BL YOU ARE MINE as SHUN YU contemplated his feelings for his boss SHANG ZHOU.

@pose4photoml @lutawolf @thewayofsubtext @kingofthereblog-boysloveed @peter-184 @absolutebl @bengiyo

#COMING SOON #NEW BL PREMIERE #VIP ONLY #VIDOL'S 3RD BL OF 2023 #STAY BY MY SIDE (1) #YOU ARE MINE (2) #VIP ONLY (3) #ANTI RESET (2024) #TRAILER HIGHLIGHTS #AVAILABLE ON VIKI & GAGAOOLALA #My GIFS #MYGIFSET #MY-GIF-EDIT #BL-BAM-BEYOND FAMILY OF BLOGS #FULL TRAILER ON YOUTUBE #ALSO 2 TRAILERS ON VIKI

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[respectthepetty]

A Taiwanese BL is back on my screen and Hidden Agenda starts Sunday. Y'all can't tell me nothin'!

Stay By My Side is a story about roommates who HATE each other, and how they will fall in love when they realize they need each other (for supernatural reasons!).

One of the main characters pulled an Ayan (from The Eclipse) and kissed his roommate during an arm-wrestling competition to secure the win, which is a good distraction technique.

Sports are involved!

And it has my man from Be Loved in House: I Do.

First episode down, and it gave me exactly what I needed.

Enemies-to-lovers with a supernatural twist loading.

#stay by my side #stay by my side series #taiwanese bl #episode 1 #I liked it!

[tatzelwyrm]

So last week they adapted "Do not go far from me".

This week they did "Take me instead, you raven bitch!"

Next week... "Life needs things to live"?

#the legend of vox machina #tlovm spoilers #critical role #cr 1 #vox machina #i am really looking forward to 'lady vex'ahlia' #and 'do i look like i come from money?' #and 'they are definitely not worth you' #and 'will you stay at my side?' #but 'life needs things to live' is one im sure they're putting in there

[hydn-jpg]

i just read all the current chapters of id2 and i. i need to lie down

#i am. genuinely unwell #wtf #i honestly didn't have high expectations going into it bc yknow it's a sequel and i also hated the ending of book 1 but ????!!!!?? #it's so good!!!!! #(to me anyway idc what yall think) #i was on the edge of my seat the entire time holy fuck #it had me screaming and crying and giggling ?? what ?? #is it a perfect book? of course not. am i genuinely enjoying it anyway? hell yeah !! #just as book 1 brought me back to the choices fandom #book 2 is singlehandedly rejuvenating my interest in choices #my head is swimming with drawing ideas!! #esp a particular scene in ch. 10 >> #can't wait for the next chapter!!! #also i thought there'd be more fanart by now?? #maybe it's just tumblr search doing y'all dirty but i hadn't been able to find a lot #for book 2 i mean #if there really isn't any then damn #i gotta do everything myself around here /j /lh #side note it is currently 8 am and i have not slept A WINK #literally stayed up all night to read lol #hydn.txt #immortal desires

[arttsuka]

*shape of you intensifies*

#we are staying in a hotel and literally on the other side there is a bar and they're playing music loudly and I can't take it anymore #sorry for the random post but like. pls I want to sleep tone it down out there #sketching this at 1 am and I hav e to wake up at 8 #art #personal art #random #i couldn't bother to actually draw my own hair but pretend i have long straight-ish hair #might delete later

[newvegasceo]

i realize how little i have in common with my peers simply because im not constantly on tik tok/instagram/facebook 👴

#first i just dont get 80% of the references bc i simply dont engage with them/im not curious enough about them #second new people or those that i know cant go 15 minutes without scrolling on their phone or texting #the few friends who would let me stay at their house would always sit on their phone the entire evening not really engaging with me #or trying to engage with me by showing me something they found on their phone.... girl- #i broke up with my last partner bc they were chronically online and wouldnt go to sleep without at least 1 hour of phone time in bed #im mainly complaining about the bed time phone usage thing bc it used to drive me crazy as an insomniac #and considering how many people do it just makes me completely disinterested in sharing a bedroom with other people #i am old so that must be it tho #i barely use my phone that thing can last 4 days on one battery charge (it's a good battery but still) despite my occasional yt usage #i like in person talking and i just think people lost touch with their social side the last few years :( #and it's hard for me to feel like im having an engaging conversation with someone if they're constantly checking their phone #it makes me feel really lowly of myself it hits my self-esteem hard bc this behavior shows me im too boring to have their attention #even tho they were the one to invite me over/go out with me... bro. #personal #delete later

[metaphorthejesterdraws]

OKAY GAMERS HERES SOME MORE WACK ART

(ALTERNATIVELY TITLED: ✨✨THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DONT DO CEL SHADING FOR A REALLY LONG TIME AND THEN TRY TO DO IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!✨✨)

i was thinking about how people talk about sans having nightmares and that's fine and well and all but like. nobody ever seems to talk about papyrus having nightmares (if at all it's rare, or maybe i just haven't ever seen much of it).

then i got to thinking, in my usual "i-overthink-everything-i-make-eyecontact-with-and-then-some" way, how likely would it be that BOTH of them have nightmares? and if in the same night, what would happen???

which led to this weird headcanon that whenever both of them have nightmares (or just generally can't sleep or whatever) they just watch movies together

UH ANYYYYWAAAAYS THAT LED TO THIS

shadings kinda broken but ehhhhhhhhhhhhh khgfhfygkhj

#dont tag as ship plz #sans #papyrus #undertale #my silly undertale headcanons #they are best brothers forever your honor #i LOATHED SHADING THIS!!!!! #on the bright side i found a much better way to cel shade so whoohoo #Honestly I'm Not Sure Where I Meant To Go With This? #But Here We Are Anyways????? #stay tuned next time for when i practice speech bubbles #which have been my no. 1 mortal enemy for YEARS #the way i drew their house is based on like #50 roblox undertale rp sessions #and a frantic search on TSR #so there are probably inconsistencies!!!!

[deus-ex-mona]

man. this song reminds me of physiology class

#throwback to physiology class [x] years ago when this clique sitting behind me drank a sip of water every time #our lecturer said the word ‘infarction’ #they kept tricking her into saying the word which was pretty funny at the time #but that’s just what this song reminds me of with the frequency at which they say the phrase ‘white day kiss’ #of all of the new album songs to get stuck in my head… it’s this and abs. #can’t stop thinking about meoto but white day kiss is looping in my mind aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i. i think i need some sleep. but my album’s supposed to arrive within the next 2 hours and aufhhfjfjjfjrjdjdjdjdhs #5-7pm delivery is too cruel of a delivery slot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #g god i really shouldn’t have stayed up for meoto… maybe i’d have a little more sanity then… #i keep going back to my tl to look for typos and im just. wondering if this song is really real. #like. dammit. promises to stay by each other’s sides forever???? even through reincarnation too??? #wh. what are the chances that we’ll get a meoto mv this week? (pls say more than 0) #i think we could all windows movie maker a 1-2 image white day kiss mv from the honeypre event illusts if we tried hard enough sooooooo #i sure hope that if any new song gets an mv this week it’ll be meoto!!!!!!! #pls lemme see them being in love all through the seasons ill c r y #ok i’ll shut up for now see you within 2 hours (maybe) when d to the h to the l finally gives me my album

[velvetjune]

Already making up an entire Alan Wake 3 game with Alice’s perspective going to the dark place guiding Alan and others out of it with her art, and a subplot where Barry (most important character ever) comes back to Bright Falls from influence of the Blessed cult

#and this is also how the FBC can stay involved (for the parautilitarian and OOP/altered item seeking cult) 😤 #alan wake 2 #I need a third game so badly. #tbh I consider Alan wake 2 to be much more conclusive than 1! but it still leaves a lot of fascinating threads and characters #that can be explored in one more game (personally I hope the DLCs don’t wrap everything up since it’d deserve a full game for it) #it feels ridiculous to be posting to a side blog with 0 followers. however! I need to yell about Alan wake constantly #and do not want to subject any followers on my other blogs to it #also thoughts for Alan wake 3: Alan Alice Barry endgame romance 🫶

[ichorousisopod]

moved one of the bark pieces from the pied enclosure to the powders' and I'm really scared I didn't get all of them off of it, there's little crevices that they're very good at hiding in

#mine #isoposting #I think I got all but one out #but perhaps that one got shaken off too #I really couldn't find it anymore #well I guess it's not an issue #if I see it in the wrong enclosure I'll try my best to capture it and return it to its friends #I just wanted that wood moved so badly #bc the pieds have a much lower enclosure #and it's kinda a tall piece of wood that takes up too much space #and it was getting moldy but had no space to stay out of the wet side #they still have another piece of wood there but now it's more balanced #and I think my powders will enjoy a large piece to congregate under #they have a few miniature scraps but no large one #I still haven't caught all the powders 😔 #there's a few small ones I see still crawling around #and I KNOW there's 1-2 crumbles still in there #I have less of them than I thought though #I think I've caught around 20 #and there doesn't seem to be that many more left to catch #I probably have like 30-40 total at best #despite all those babies #then again I don't think I've caught many babies... and it does take months for those to grow #I've only had these since August?... October??? #I started with 25 and I lost most of my crumbles. so let's say 15 #and I know at least 3 died from climbing up the tank #so I suppose having 20~ now is reasonable given that I sorta started more with like. 10

[bl-bam-beyond]

STAY BY MY SIDE (2023, TAIWAN)

Episode 10 The Finale

After watching a horror film with friends Gu Bu Xia (HONG WEI ZHE) begins hearing the ghosts. But just then in comes loving boyfriend Jiang Chi (YANG I HSUAN)

Unaware that his friends left the live feed going Gu Bu Xia and Jiang Chi proceed getting cozy as boyfriends should. All captured LIVE.

@pose4photoml @lutawolf

#STAY BY MY SIDE #TAIWANESE BL SERIES #THE FINALE #I LOVE THE WAY JIANG CHI LOVES HIS MAN #I'M GOING TO MISS THEM #My GIFS #MYGIFSET #MESSY GIFS...SORRY #MY-GIF-EDIT #PART 1

[vgbndangel]

Mild trauma trigger warnings with depression + probably more about me than you ever wanted to know.

I promise this might be the only super serious post I make. Maybe.

But I see a lot of stuff around and figured I wanted to write something on a more serious note, imagining that it might maybe slightly help even one person.

I'm not here to judge or shame anyone--quite the opposite really. Life is hard. We all cope in different ways. (And often develop traits or even kinks from our experiences--me included I have a lot of darker kinks even, and that's okay 💕)

I might not even post this tbh since some of it I've never told anyone but I'll keep things a bit vague.

*** Actual stuff 👇 ***

From a young age, I was cripplingly, embarrassingly shy.

Like can't talk on the phone, play with people on the playground, make friends shy.

I'm not really sure *why* but I just felt "different" and found it impossible to really connect with anyone.

This led to me being in my own head a lot and over analyzing everything.

As you might imagine I had no friends growing up. (Shocking I'm sure)

None. Zip. Zero. Nada.

My parents didn't understand me, my brother didn't understand me. I just felt completely alone.

Naturally, I read a lot.

Mostly fantasy books about other worlds, magic, adventures, friends, and romance.

Every novel I could find at the library. (I was also obsessed with Harry Potter fan fiction oops, don't @ me, no one irl knows this and that's how it's gonna stay)

I started to wonder a lot about "the meaning of life" and really didn't understand what the point was--everyone around me always seemed so much happier.

I desperately wanted to leave and go to any of these worlds that I read about. I thought if I died would I be reborn in a better, happier world. That's how I became suicidal at 14 - no external trauma, just a self-fulfilling prophecy of depression and loneliness.

I never tried to act on these thoughts or tell anyone. I would just spiral downwards whenever I was alone.

Now fast forwarding a few years, I went off to boarding school--for academic reasons not behavioral ones.

You'd think putting a lonely, depressed kid to live on his own would be a recipe for disaster. (Also my parents had no idea I was depressed since I never talked to anyone)

But actually it wasn't! The school had a lot of structure for forcing people to interact even for someone like me.

I made a few friends and started to see some happiness in life.

Around this time I started dating someone for the first time (all of my knowledge of relationships came from books and fanfictions mind you).

As you might expect, this person became my entire world.

There was a lot of drama of course--we were teenagers in boarding school what do you expect? We broke up, got back together, had a lot of sex in risky places, and made very many unreasonable promises.

We dated for two years before graduating.

We went to different universities far away and talked about making it work long distance.

A week after she moved away, she broke up with me by phone with no real warning.

I was devastated and was actively suicidal for the first time.

Three years went by - we talked on the phone every month or so (she would talk to me whenever she was lonely as a last resort and I would eat up the attention).

If you take anything away from my post (if anyone made it this far)--don't ever do this to yourself. Block them until you've gotten over the relationship!!! You deserve to be somebody's first choice.

I started to feel happy for the first time getting away from school during an internship. I didn't know anyone and I started learning how to be happy by myself and with myself. For the first time, I found myself living in the moment rather than imagining a better moment.

Second major takeaway I want to impress upon you dear reader--focus on baby steps to feel better rather than "visualizing yourself at the finish line". For basically my whole life, I had wanted to get better and not getting to this imagined "happy" led to constant downward spirals.

I have had a lot of ups and downs since then. But measuring my progress instead of focusing on how far away an imagined, moving finish line is has helped me immensely.

A lot of time, people treat happiness as a very concrete thing. You're either happy or you aren't. The things we read and experience create "checklists" of happiness for us. And mostly it just feels so far away -- there's always something "missing" or not perfect which sours everything.

I'm not perfect now--even today as a highly functioning adult I have (many) days where I want to just stay in bed. I have insecurities and oddities. And that's okay.

Life (and relationships) is about learning and growth. Trying to be a better person and finding small happinesses in small steps.

Finally, if you're struggling with depression or trauma try talking to someone you can trust--a therapist, partner, close friends, a help hotline, anyone. My biggest regret is silently struggling because it could have ended up with the worst ending.

You matter and have value 💕

[Sorry if this came off as kinda soap boxy. I know I'm writing from a position of immense privilege. I could also probably cut out some of the personal background, but I didn't want to. ily for reading this whole thing.]

#scarred from relationship trauma #mental health #tw #me #you can tell it's serious because i only used 1 emoji #time to curl up in a blanket #seriously the hp ff stuff stays between us #a small glimpse into my vulnerable side #normalize sensitive doms #maybe i'll delete this later #stay tuned for my book /s #feeling smol and vulnerable 🥺

[sysig]

Ughhhh

#The new layout update just hit me #It's So fucking ugly #I'm staying on my blog/1 page for the next forever idc idc #Literally why is it so cramped who's idea was this the dividing lines down the sides just make it more claustrophobic #Yuck yuck #XKit please I beg #Tumblr glitch #I wish lol

[monstersbutt]

i have nothing to say here i just wanted to make an actual finish drawing that's not just a clean sketch so anyway here's my dol pc he is bad at everything /j

#degrees of lewdity pc #my bad art habit is drawing 2 separate hands when i could have just drawn 1 and copy pasted it onto the other side #:) <- me when im screaming inside #my good art habit is that my style somehow stays consistent #random particle effects go brrrr #does this need a mature filter? #nah