#and I was so upset when I woke up

[crusheswhimsandfancies]

#I still haven’t seen ghostbusters #I never watched it as a child so I don’t have the nostalgia for it #but I watched this clip last night #and he’s so adorable #🥺🥺🥺 #in fact I liked his character so much that within this 9 minute clip #I felt so sorry for him #when he’s banging on the glass windows and no one is helping him #my heart #poor baby #in fact it played on my mind and I had a horrible dream #in the dream I was watching one of his films I’d not seen #but I knew something bad was going to happen to his character #he was playing a sweet innocent in the closet gay guy #who ended up getting taken advantage of #and I was so upset when I woke up #even though it’s a silly and not real thing to get upset about #it’s been popping into my head all day #need to write it down to purge it from my mind #also gutted that this was the first rick dream #normally my subconscious does better than that #very disappointing #Youtube

[bdsmrist]

kim: okay kitsuragi. get ur shit together. hes been out for two days. hes bound to wake up soon. what should i say? “thank you”? i mean, that goes without saying, but its not enough. “how are u feeling”? no, thats a dumb question. the answer is “bad”. should i just not say anything at all? wait till he speaks? wait no- knowing him, that might make him feel insecure. he needs something to hold onto… words to hold onto… right! his gun! didnt it have an encryption on it? right, yes— “sunrise parabellum” —thats perfect. short, poetic, and familiar. at least as familiar as someone in his condition could be. okay. cool. shit! okay hes waking up. okay, keep calm, lieutenant. wait till hes all there… okay, now.

kim: … sunrise parabellum….

kim: *nailed it*

harry: eeuuugghhh…. k-kiiiim…. where the ffffuck is ur pissfaggot jacket-

#thats was the first response i clicked on when i first woke up #cus i was SO UPSET he took it off #like genuinely devastated #but i cant stop imagining how that must be from kims perspective hshdbdhd #like ik my gameplay kim was like #…………….. we almost died detective #disco elysium #harrykim #kimharry #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois

[moonpaw]

yknow going into one piece I didn't get why people liked zoro so much. he seemed just like Basic Anime Coolguy. but then I realized that he is actually the most ride or die mf in the series on top of also just being awesome all the time. and also probably the dumbest strawhat tbh, though we love him for it because he just ends up as a himbo anyways

some scrawny kid saves you because you were tied to a post for 9 days and about to be killed and he wont give you your swords back unless you say you join his crew so you go fuck it. ok. but i'll kill you if you fuck with my ambition

cue to zoro becoming extremely loyal in .5 seconds and the #1 luffy enabler

also in early one piece i like just how.... young zoro seems? he's 19 and as cool as he tries to be, his age peeks through every now and then with him being kinda dumb or goofy

#one piece #ough i wont say much cause i dunno how far you are #but zoro during thriller bark was. yeah #god #also like a month ago i had an upsetting dream that zoro was secretly a traitor and turned against luffy and the straw hats and when i woke #up i was upset for 1 whole second before i remembered that there is absolutely. no way in hell. that zoro would ever #go against luffy like that LMAO #luffy would say jump off a bridge and zoro would say how far #god and a scene VERY late into the series where luffy needs a break and just trusts zoro completely to #pass out on the battlefield for a quick nap #i love their relationship and their trust so much #ough #mp answers

[tsams-confessions]

i saw the post about the show artists being "bootlickers" and maybe you shouldnt post mean things about real life people just doing what they love and drawing? i can tell you for certain they are seeing that and are upset by the mean accusations

they have thoughts and opinions and ive seen them disapprove of actions in the show and actions of other team members.

all in all theyre real life people that this confessor was being horrible about and these may be confessions but you gotta remember to enforce your own rules. the third rule of dont be a dick needlessly and i can tell you that post was dickish.

hi, you're referring to this post yes?

we both looked at that post and reread it and, no, we agree it doesn't break the rule. there are plenty of posts about real people on this blog and in fact one in the queue that mentions two by name. if the people mentioned by that anon approach us themselves and ask for it to be removed, it will be, and if they're facing any sort of harassment due to it we'll address it, but as things stand we do not see an issue with keeping it

also, the "enforce your own rules" part was unnecessary imo, because it's not as if we don't. you dont see the filtering process behind the scenes, we dont just let anything in. that rule more refers to things such as "this unstable 15 year old system that had an episode once is responsible for all the ableism systems face in this community" (real thing we got submitted once) than the post in question. people are allowed to be harsh in their criticisms here, that rule is primarily about crossing the line

thank you though for reaching out about it. if you'd like to discuss further, feel free to send another ask

#not a confession #mod 1blood #i would normally describe where that line *is* but i couldnt put it into words for the life of me #usually the process is seeing the post. figuring out if its upsetting to me for personal or objective reasons #and if its the latter i screenshot and send it to 4bones to ask if he sees the same issue i do #if he doesnt? we'd discuss and come to an agreement. if he does? it gets deleted #im happy to elaborate on anything if asked. i just woke up like 30 minutes ago so i might not've been super clear here #4bones if you wanna add to this when you're up feel free #i know this is long i just wasnt sure how to condense it

[h-doodles]

truly not sorry but once again thinking abt miranda/mc/mia in RL. i need them SO bad. like, 2 of the most morally unsound persons (Mia & Miranda) + their little meow meow. Knowing both are so possessive and destructive (TO OTHERS) when they love and instead of running, fully embracing the chaos of it. Loving them despite their delusions of grandeur, the crimes, the secrets, and the deaths (+ undeaths) caused (or ordered!) by their hands. Acknowledging this is fucked up but you can't help it. Lovingly bitching abt their fights but fully done and gone to do anything else but to soothe and continue loving them, because after all those years of waiting and doing and redoing everything to be perfect was worth it for this.

also did i mention being their little meow meow. sorry Miranda, MC was the original gremlin in the relationship and Mia being the fucked up feral racoon she is now is not solely by her doing, MC was and IS the enabler in both relationships that it bled over sm and OUGHJJJJJHHHHhhhh im being so emo abt three (3) women being utter menaces frfr

#sorry but i truly love it when corruption didnt spread #it was in there all along #ALSO GOD. sorry but RL Miranda/Mia happened once to me in my brain. Dreamt abt one loop that they get so fucked up drunk they slept together #and like. they didnt process it until MC comes back fr and sees the unresolved vibe #miranda's screaming shaking crying throwing up when mia alludes to it in front of mc and mc is like. huh. good for u actually. #mia: so u dont mind? that we fucked once???? #mc: babe did u forget the stint of us fucking drunk before i met miranda. i expected u guys to do it more actually. #miranda: you WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. #mc: dont worry my love i truly do love and adore u!!!! and i wouldnt mind if u wanted to bring mia in really #mc (inside her mind): my god. these bitches gay. #mc (still inside her mind): miranda doesnt know mia's a menace when she's starting to fall and mia doesn't know mira's circling her either. #mc: god i love u both but u need to opem ur eyes really. my god. #then i woke up #and thought. hey. if this was plausible eva gets to have three (3) mommies fr and IM upset its not real ekdbdofjd #anyways dreams were sponsored by cinder's re8 harem fic #thank u cinder <3 #resident lover #mother miranda #mother miranda x reader #mia winters #mia winters x reader #mother miranda x mia winters #mother miranda x mia winters x reader #personal.txt #clown.txt #simp.txt

[narwhalandchill]

hoyo rly just went and put straight up whale sonar (Very Obvious clicks starting 1.53) into wrath of monoceros caeli all the way back in 1.1 already while presumably going all tee hee abt it like its just a funky easter egg slash potential lore pipe bomb as if it wouldnt be actively ruining my goddamn life 3 years down the line after noticing it for what it was (yes shut up it took me this long after watching whale documentaries all week to hyperanalyze silhouette of catastrophes sonar to realize they used it before too) like i cant stop thinking about it

like nvm the fucking fact that the title of the track Itself is soooo fucking suspect w what we know now like. isnt it Curious how youd call a song meant for a moment depicting childes Individual Personal rage at Us the wrath of the celestial narwhal. Not the wrath of the "harbinger" not the "snezhnayan warrior" or w/e. but The monoceros caeli . That is what serves as his namesake for this moment in golden house .

they straight up said HIS wrath = the celestial narwhals wrath like Huh indeed 🤨

and Then theres this shit like the tusk drop man like he Already displays shared core characteristics with the narwhal its soo

embodying and embracing a solipsistic character and arrogant ambition so immense the sole image capable of reflecting its essence back at him in full turns out to be no less than the cosmos-cruising godlike all-devouring narwhal?? 🤨🤨 that just fucking Happens to be your own constellation? AND the creature you woke up at 14 just by balling it and tripping on your way down to the abyss??? 🤨🤨🤨 who you remain inexplicably connected to??

Ajax you are not fucking dodging the same/parallel/split/mirrored one singular entity with your narwhal allegations . Like yes its very hard to have anything concrete on the subject of their undeniable similarities but the parallels are paralleling a bit too hard methinks .

(like hypothetically given some themes of chivalry and loyalty and looking after his family in his weird dysfunctional way Wouldnt it be funny if the narwhals core motivation was also one of protection and preservation in its own eldritch way like maybe one thats all abt a sorrowful voyage of entropy and eating world after world with the ultimate goal of preserving life itself and giving birth to a new living one in its own stomach even as the universe with all its stars dims down and dies one da---- oh whoops Thats Canon)

theyre sooooooo undeniably connected but howwww what does it all ultimately pertain hoyo i need the fucking answers 😭😭

anyway tho to talk of the sonar a bit more the singular other occasion featuring it in genshin OST is obviously in silhouette of catastrophe and the thing that interests me in particular is the like. Specific nature of the sounds/references used

bc. yes theres clicks in wrath of monoceros caeli but its also like. Whose clicks? that ones not a question for silhouette obviously the entirety of the sonar references utilized is very much like. You Are Being Hunted Down In The Dark By Sound Alone By This Particular Narwhal. the clicks grind the way sonar of a whale hunting very very close to its prey would. the EDM adjacent beats intensifying and overlapping on the way to the 2nd beat drop invoke the closing in on prey. its looking for you. You are already dead (nani??!?) etc etc

but the clicks in wrath of monoceros caeli are more distant. almost curious? like. literally. theres none of the frantic nature used in silhouette with how the sonar conveys what is quite literally the imagery of a whale lunging for prey right within its reach. the clicks are uniform and sound out during a lull in the melody. their frequency doesnt speed up the sonar is just There. its more reminiscent of sonar toothed whales use when theyre just looking for information . looking out towards anything that might ping back in the distance . just keeping an eye out

and like as much as of a mr "same entity allegations undodged" childe ajax tartaglia foil hat 5head i am. it must be noted that the dude himself has Not exhibited a particular tendency for sonar clicking (and if it was His sonar id be expecting clicks Much more akin to silhouettes sounds of whale on the hunt given the emotions present during the 3rd phase aka bro is angy). but. Well. we all know who very much has and now im kinda just

okay Sure it could just be a theming thing. as has been noted already. ajax' links to the narwhal are Shady. so his boss fight OST featuring both whale call motifs (the electric guitar mimicking whalesong is still soooo) and this particular sonar might well just be intended as establishing that connection too (or maybe even foreshadowing the strengthening of their bond later in fontaine thru childes growth in power). which is already based we love it

but. also . Also. if you just let me get a bit creative (read: insane) with the possible implications of the clicks' presence in particular . Like just a little bit . Hear me out

Did. Did ajax start malding so hard during golden house that his own fucking narwhal (naturally concerned) popped by through their connection to just. Click him up a bit to see whats up with its favorite human . All the while the mans just fully in the flow state murder edition not noticing a thing .

. Is this a regular occurrence

#this is now a certified headcanon im never letting it go actually #childe but he thinks he has tinnitus from this strange clicking sound popping up in his head every now and then #(childe voice) 'yeah i just get this craazy tinnitus whenever im upset or in danger or injured or all 3 isnt that funny.' #'somehow my otologist didnt believe me when i said it just goes away on its own when im fine again like go figure lmao' #pov youre just trying to chill and drink up this primordial sea juice ur swimming in before finding ur human and gtfo of this planet #except said human is just that fucking insistent on getting himself into near death combat situations for the kicks and bragging rights #forcing you to keep checking in hoping he wont notice (which he will not bc hes the toxic clueless half of this entityhood and or soul bond #theyre so weird and dysfunctional its unbearable actually . i love them #just the concept of the narwhal checking up on childe since he freed and woke it up but unfortunately is also an insane person..... 😭😭 #genshin #rambles #childeposting #narwhalposting

[yosanosfav]

jujutsu kaisen leaks, bsd s5 ep11, csm quanxi comeback…

i feel too many emotions at the moment

#fyodors end upset me deeply #i don’t want to even talk about nikolai’s reaction. THE LIGHT LEFT HIS EYES. #and it’s gojover? what? no #i was so shocked when i woke up to the leaks #BUT QUANXI…. #i’d be her fourth gf #bsd #csm #bungo stray dogs #chainsaw man #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #csm spoilers #jjk spoilers #bsd spoilers

[rexscanonwife]

Grrggh...good morning everypony = w = I rewatched the episode of the ppg reboot where Utonium gets a girlfriend...

#jane journals #self insert talk #🔬 starkissed scientist 🔬 #i woke up at 5 in the gah damn morning and MY HEADPHONES are gone so im gonna have to ride the bus w/o them >:[ #hell on earth 10 dead 4 missing!!! #and i choose to do this before i go ajfjg #anyways this sucks #like im not bothered by love interests but this whole reboot is ass and the characters are badly written #but theres like....at least one or two cute moments where utonium is smooth with it >//< #it cant even get the FIRST THING RIGHT ABOUT HIM THO #in literally THE FIRST EPISODE he says that spiders creep him out and they basically just. not even ignore but contradict it entirely #for why? the purpose of this ep where the love interest studies spiders and turns into one ig #they could say that hes PRETENDING to like them because he likes her. but they didnt do that #ALSO why spider? why not werewolf? that would be hot #and the love interest is that bland brand of 'adorkable' thats so disingenuous #on the other hand i DO like spiders. and the way she talks to one and like treats it like a pet...yeah id do that ._. #and idk they always write utonium as way more harsh than he'd usually be especially with bubbles #he wouldnt tell her shes being SELFISH by not wanting to give away her last piece of popcorn to a spider #especially when she barely got any #maybe he'd remind her that its GOOD to be generous BUT NOT CALL HER SELFISH #but yeah....theres maybe a moment or two 😒 #like when his love interest spoils a whole MOVIE for the girls and ofc theyre upset #but he holds her face and says 'everything i need to see is right here'...>//< #THAT was smooth #and idk they don't play with the idea of the girls wanting to break them up ENOUGH #they just write one fake email and its done. then spider reveal #it sucks maybe i shouldnt have started my day this way 😂😂😂 #whatever hopefully work is good!! #and i always have og utoniom to think about 🥺👉👈💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘

[beesinspades]

I wish I could say i'm taking the rejection of my application to that zine well, but alas </3

#i am. normal levels of upset not at all crying #and my brain is stupid so now the huge excitement i felt for it is ruined for me and it breaks my heart #but thats the risk with me when applying to zines and i knew that when i applied #still hurts 🥲 #if you know me you know how crazy excited i was over this zine so.....it blows #crying over it like a little baby #the worst is not knowing why they didn't pick me but i understand telling everyone the reason of their rejection is too time consuming #anyway. i applied as a pinch hitter too (which i usually never do so that tells you how serious I was haha) but i doubt they'll need one #and they might not pick me if they do #anyway anyway #i woke up every hour of the night because i was so nervous over this mail #so now im sad crying AND sleep-deprived #i got three hours left time to try to finally sleep properly #god im so embarrassing #beelio rants

[bunnihearted]

📓🖊️🧸

#i feel so lonely now bc i have no one to talk to sksksk #my sisters gets mad whenever i try to talk 2 mom and she just slammed doors nd got irritated at me #nd my mom is so stressed nd in a bad mood so she just got annoyed when i tried saying smth to her #so ig i should just vent to my bestfriend beloved diary confidant thats been here for me for 5yrs<3333 #anywayyy today was rough.. i woke up w a headache after 3hrs of sleep :(( #but still had to get up nd get ready nd eat boxed mashed potatoes for breakkyy 🤢🤮 (it's so gross after eating it everyday lol) #then w my hunchback nd achy stomach i went to school. it was frustrating bc ppl r so fkn rude #they bumped into me at the bus nd i had to sit like a weirdo caging my left stomach side from everyone. had to elbow some dumb fkn guy bc he #pressed his backpack into my side. so i had to basically push it away from me lol he thought i was so weird. but move tf away asshole?????? #got to school nd checked myself in the mirror nd i was so pale i look like absolute garbage its annoying :(( #it was next to insufferable to endure class bc my head hurt so bad (it was the worst part i think) nd i couldnt sit up straight so my back #hurt so bad too sksksks :< #but i managed to write a little but on my assignment #then i left a bit earlier bc i couldnt stand it anymore i was feeling so bad #wrnt to the library bc i had to return some books. could only carry two small ones tho so have to go back multiple times sksksk #felt soooo bad but ate some more disgusting mashed potatoes nd took a nap w an ice pack. took a migraine pill even if it upsets my stomach🤣 #now a few hours later i feel better physically #buuuuuut im so miserable im not even kidding #idc if it sound pathetic or fatty but genuinely that moment w a cup of coffee nd a small chocolate treat everyday makes me feel sm better #like im not kidding!!!!! it does a lot for my peace of mind sksksk T-T #im so miserable bc i cant eat anything still im so hungry :(( #and im weak. im pale. my skin's dry. it's itchy bc of malnutrition... i feel faint nd dizzy nd slow nd just not good at all #im so frustrated i hate this sm i wanna feel strong and healthy!! i dont wanna be constantly hungry. i wanna go to the gym nd go for walks #i wanna be able to sit up straight nd not get back pain!!! #i know i know it's only been 8 days since surgery and it takes time to heal i get it..... :( #but theres just too much going on and im so sick and tired of it all #mostly i just wanna be able to eat and feel strong bc i feel so weak nd i miss food so much sksksksk

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[gillianthecat]

Can I finish these two lab reports in the next 3 hours and fifty minutes? We're about to find out!

#blogging as an accountability practice #hw lb #gillianthecat goes back to school #I'm half done with one so it may be possible #i could easily be finished by now if I'd started working when I woke up #but I did need a non rushing day cuddling with my kitties in bed so I'm not upset with myself #let's go!

[boilingrain]

I wish that the game actually let me work with them instead of forcing me to be untrusting & kinda mean

#I guess the Traveller is upset about them being Fatui even though I'm cool with it #I mean... we're on friendly terms with Childe so it's not like we've never been on good terms with any of the Fatui #anyways I had a dream last night that I was able to pull Lyney & I was a little sad when I woke up b/c it wasn't real #I already have Lynette & Freminet so not having Lyney yet makes me a little sad. I don't want them to be separated :( #genshin impact #lyney #genshin lyney #lynette #rain's adventures in: genshin impact

[sallytwo]

alright time to guess about what my dreams are about tongith

#i napped earlier. for an hour. and i woke up and it felt like years had passed #like i was literally walking the halls and was like. this feels more like a dream than my dream did #during the nap i had a pretty standard vivid apocoplyse dream. which is normal. and then a really grotesque vision of my own death #so let’s see what we get tonfirh #it’s been a solid week where i’ve had the most vivid awful dreams ever. #like i’ve always had weird dreams and sometimes they’ll flare up for awhile like my apocoplyse dreams . but it’s usually because of somethin #not just. middle of the semester time for senseless violence and images of your friends all dying. like idk where it’s coming from mmm #can i have a nice dream tonight. like when i dreamed about my friend and i going to disney. please #that was actually one of my most upsetting ones cuz it was right after she’d stopped talking to me and hated me #so having a dream where we were together and okay and the sun was shining it was all okay. and knowing it could never happen again

[aropride]

how to stop talking in sleep easy cheap free immediately

#text #MY SISTER SAIDNI DID BUT I DIDNT BELIEVE HER I THOUGIHT SHE WAS JUST HEARING ME LAUGHH AT POSTS WHILE AWAKE #its not like full Words judt like sounds and mumbling incoherently i guess #but my roommate said inwas making noises this is so deeply embarassing #Always thinking abt the time wien i was 9 at summer camp and my cabin leader woke me up bc i was saybg ‘no’ over and over and sounded upset #i woke up and she was like Were u having a nightmare? :( #and i was like What no im fine why #I rarelyy remember nigjtmares or anything so. #and obviouwlt i dont know when im talking in my sleep #AAAHHHH. THIS IS SO BAD AND AWFUL.

[thethingything]

oh our sleep schedule is well and truly fucked. because of course it would go to shit at a time where having a regular sleep schedule is especially important for us remembering to take meds at the right time

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I woke up at like 5:45am very disoriented after a very vivid and confusing dream #I'm definitely dissociated to all fuck from my emotions because I can tell that if I wasn't I'd have probably cried by now #I do not want to deal with this but here we are #I also had stuff I mant to do during the time I ended up sleeping for instead so I'm upset about that too #but I mostly just don't want to be on the wrong sleep schedule again #especially when I'm already so stressed and irritable and struggling to keep up with stuff #and our routine is basically the one thing that lets me actually remember to take my meds properly and stuff like that