#and cost so much money

[tj-crochets]

Turns out it was not an error at the MRI facility, my insurance (which is literally the best insurance available in my area as an individual) just won't cover it* That is incredibly frustrating, both because what's the damn point of paying so much for health insurance if it doesn't cover testing, and because I get so much stuff from the insurance company about how they support preventative testing and care but when it's time to pay out they won't put their money where their mouth is. *technically they are "covering" it in that it was approved and the total cost will only be what they've negotiated with the MRI provider, but the insurance company isn't covering any of that cost. At all. None of it.

#the person behind the yarn #fuck the us healthcare system #I left a message with my neurologist asking what the MRI is for #because I'm pretty sure she doesn't think there's anything wrong with my brain physically #also I have been sick for almost 12 years now #I am pretty sure if it was something bad enough to show up on an MRI they'd have figured it out sooner #so do I want to spend the better part of a thousand dollars on a test that will prove nothing and answer no questions #I know I should get it #I'm just so tired of tests that prove nothing #and cost so much money #and I know I am lucky that I can cover that cost if I need to. I am so lucky! #but I am just tired #it's been 12 years and I have appointments with THREE new specialists I've never been to in the next month #well. two months #and two of them almost definitely aren't going to find anything wrong with me! because I don't have those damn symptoms! #it's just checking boxes and covering bases #but if the cardiologist can't find what's wrong with me when I have Very Very Obvious tachycardia #I sincerely doubt the gastroenterologist will find things when I have no gastro symptoms

[unparalleled-innocences]

I KNOW hating kids is stupid and immature and speaks volumes abt your character but these bitches and their fucking 'skincare smoothies' ive been having to clean up while Sephora outright encourages this bs are REALLY testing my fuckin patience

#AND THE KIDS ARE HORRIBLE TOO??? #theyre fucking screaming at their parents/employees to buy skincare products they DONT FUCKING NEED #and cost SO much money #and not to mention the parents that just drop their kids off and expect US to babysit their kids #LIKE WHAT THE FUCK??? #i ended up just fucking quitting. I was done #Ive been getting a steady supply of income via family/friend commissions so I should be fine

[its-your-mind]

Getting ready for an arctic expedition with the M9 and BH who are both equally prepared to survive and exist in cold weather

#critical role #bells hells #the mighty nein #cr3 #c3 #cr2 #c2 #cr official art #IT COST THE M9 SO MUCH MONEY TO PREP FOR EISELCROSS #IT WAS SO COLD UP THERE #c3e96 #cr spoilers #cr2 spoilers #c2 Spoilers #cr3 spoilers #c3 spoilers

[hellenhighwater]

I'm debating starting a youtube. One of the things I love about learning how to do stuff is sharing the process and skills involved with people and that seems to be the preferred platform for that kind of thing; I find that with a lot of what I'm making it's so niche or weird that there's not easily findable tutorials on how to do what I want to do, so maybe it would help if I made them? Tiktok is okay as a quick and easy way to slap process videos together but I kind of hate it and I also don't like how unsearchable and short-lived content is there.

Youtube would be a lot of work, and I'm not convinced it would be worth the effort, but on the other hand, if I could get some traction there, it would be nice to have passive ad revenue to offset project costs without having to directly sell the random crap I'm making.

I dunno, guys. This site has been home for my art for a long time, and I don't see that changing, but it would be nice to have resources to put into some of the larger projects that aren't directly sellable.

#there is so much I wish i could do if i could justify the cost of the projects #and i can already do a lot! I'm not complaining #but ugh #marketing art. not the most fun. #and to do it properly i would need to spend some decent money on camera gear #because my phone would not cut it #still not putting my fucking face on the internet though

[ganondoodle]

1 year since i got scammed by nintedno leaving me forever yearning for a game we will never get and an extreme worry for the future

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #dont think they will learn anything #i know its pessimistic but like #as if the critics were in any way as loud or popular as those worshipping it #i feel so bad for having contributed twice to its sales and earnings #i bought it normally (later sold that to a coworker) and the collectors #which i sold but i only got back the money a normal new one would have cost #and it was also only bc i was buying sth else and it was literally in prime condition #like he said it wouldnt matter bc he cant give me more but then even he said holy shit thats literlly like unopened lol #i mean ... most of it was never opnened xD just took the game out once and put it back once thats it #i feel extra scammed bc it was the first and only collectors edition i ever owned #and i dont think i will ever buy one again #and might regret that #i still wish i had known how much i liked botw to get its special one ... but i didnt have the money back then either way #but id rather miss out on that than spend so much money on sth i will forever regret having spend money on #and i worry for the future bc the “story is the least important part” guy and “lol you can only like the old games bc nostalgia” guy- #-being in charge of the franchise arent giving me much hope for anything better #especially after totks success

[abra-ka-dammit]

Crying at the emergency vet at the asscrack of the morning after waking up to the sound of my baby boy choking down a long mesh-like ribbon that then broke off in his mouth when i tried to remove it

#stupid shit #this cat is abt to cost me so much money #i dont even know where tf he found the ribbon

[saturnvs]

commissions open: pride flag horse icons! now closed

hello :D i mentioned a short while ago that i wanted to do pride flag icons/profile pictures as june is approaching and now i'm opening them!

my dear polaris is the model for the example drawing. it will be a simple headshot with some minor rendering + the background being the pride flag of your choosing! if several flags apply to you, i can provide the same drawing with different backgrounds without extra cost.

edit: if you would also like the drawing without a flag background that can be arranged as well!

the horse in question can be an oc, a horse from real life, a fictional horse from a show or a video game ... you name it! all the horses are welcome here :)

price: $15

paypal only. full payment upfront!

I may not be able to work very fast at the moment but I will do my absolute best considering the circumstances!^^

if you're interested, send me a message here on tumblr and i'll get back to you as soon as possible! alternatively, you can also email me at [email protected]

what i need from you:

clear reference images of the horse

for you to tell me which pride flag(s) i should add to the background

payment

that is all! i will then let you know when i've started and let you know when i estimate i'll be done.

if you are not interested in getting a commission but still want to help out, you can find my tip jar here: https://ko-fi.com/saturnvs

happy (almost) pride!

#commissions open #art commissions #commissions #horses #horse art #pride #a busy bee and a very stressed bee at the moment #but i need to get some money in and this could be fun :D #as some may know we are moving this summer and it's .. not looking easy at the moment #money goes to myself my mom and my sister for food and other costs! and on the occassion some art supplies and clothes :) #you have no idea how much i appreciate all of you #you genuinely help put food on the table #thanks to money i saved up from comms i was able to buy gifts for my sister's birthday and help my mom with bills #so thank you again #i hope the people who said they were interested see this!

[kylejsugarman]

jesse’s natural instinct to be a caretaker is like. it’s something fundamentally Small, but to me it’s the best part of jesse’s character in how soft and subtle it is while still coloring every relationship he has. the way they integrate this aspect of his personality, this instinctive urge to Take Care of people even when they wrong him and even when he’s enacting violence against himself or others, into his character is one of the quietest things in the whole show while still being hugely influential. we get so much from those moments: from “i was the one who drove aunt ginny to her appointments and made her lunch”, from the mentioned interest in sports medicine, from the way he takes walt’s shoes off as he lays him down on the couch in “fly”, from the automatic grab for medical equipment when he realized the cartel doctors were going to prioritize gus over mike. he wants to take care of people, even if he doesn’t always go about it in a “good” way or loses himself along the way.

#syd squeaks #in a lot of ways it’s what makes his fondness and care for children so compelling and genuine and not like. manipulative #jesse cares so much about justice and the innocent and even if it comes at a personal cost he puts his money where his mouth is #breaking bad #jesse pinkman #he is sooooo special to me

[multifandom-nerds-blog]

I'm rewatching Trollhunters in the background right now, and the disfunctional mother son relationship between Jim and his mom is making me crazy.

Like, he's taking care of the household and his mother for years as a teenager and before probably. She is sometimes giving half hearted comments about him not having to do so much, but very obviously she's not gonna make him stop do all the cooking and cleaning. Y'know. Both because they've been living like this for years, and because it's obviously also very comfortable to have someone do all the house work.

Then Strickler comes into the picture, and if we ignore the whole Troll and changeling side of the story, Barabara gets very offended cause Jim doesn't want her to meet him privately. Again, ignoring the whole magic and trolls stuff, STRICKLER IS JIMS TEACHER. If Jim hadn't figured out that Strickler was a changeling he probably wouldn't have a problem with it, but the fact that he does, no matter the reason, should be enough for Barbara to put a stop to the relationship. Her child is clearly uncomfortable with her seeing/dating that guy, for whatever reason, and even clearly vocalized it. But she doesn't care about, or rather, she tells Jim that she "wouldn't expect something like that" from him. Obviously not, cause she may see him like her child/teenager he is, BUT DOESN'T TREAT HIM LIKE ONE.

And then Jim, unknowingly to Barbara, becomes the Trollhunter, and his behavior changes. He's suddenly doing reckless stuff, sneaking out, getting bruises, landing in detention and even at the police station, barely avoiding a police report. What does she do? Asking him what's going on? If everything's alright at school? If he has any other problems? Maybe trying to lower his workload around the house, which again, he's doing most of that as a teenager and longer probably.

Nah. She doesn't do anything until he lands in the hospital. Except for again, dismissing him rather negatively at the one topic he's openly expressing any negative opinions about (Strickler). And after he lands in the hospital she now starts not asking questions, but demanding answers. Demanding answers from a teenager in a difficult situation who is also now acting much more like a teenager than he ever did before, from her point of view at least. Except she obviously doesn't know how to deal with a teenager, cause she has never had to raise or live with a teenager. She instead lived with a child pretending to be an adult for years, that was partly much more of an adult than she was, who did way to much work even before Jim became the Trollhunter. So she throws punishments at him and grounds him, but does he listen?

No. Cause why should he? Not only is he dealing with things much more important than being grounded, yknow, saving the world, he's trying to protect her from the sheer knowledge of the supernatural and physically protecting her from getting harmed. And again, for the majority of the time since his dad left he pretended to be an adult. He was and is the main adult in the household, dealing with important things she doesn't even know about.

The only one's treating Jim like a teenager are teachers, other children and Blinky and Aaargh sort of when they're not in the middle of Troll business. Strickler, in the first episodes where Jim doesn't know about his true identity, is much more of a parental figure to Jim (also after his redemption later on tbh) than his mother.

In summary: Barbara is treating her son like an adult, almost like a partner, instead of a child/teenager. And when that isn't possible anymore she doesn't know how to properly treat him. She also doesn't really care that her son is uncomfortable with her being around Strickler, or Strickler in general. And it takes Blinky telling her (when Jim is 16) that Jim might be affected by his father leaving when he was five years old.

Jim meanwhile is treating his mother more like a child/teenager instead of the adult and MOTHER that she is. Seeing her as his responsibility. Cooking for her. Cleaning for her. Telling her to rest and take breaks.

They obviously love each other other. And their relationship might not be toxic, but it's very much disfunctional. In a way that is mostly negative for Jim.

#toa #toa trollhunters #trollhunters #jim lake jr #jim lake junior #barbara lake #walter strickler #trollhunters strickler #tales of arcadia #blinky #aarghhh #trollhunters blinky #Barabara; just because Steves mother has a relationship with one of his teachers and it working out between him and her son #Doesn't mean it's gonna work out for you #If you're a parent and your child is uncomfortable with a partner of yours #YOU BREAK IT UP #Especially if your child is still living with you #Seriously #Okay I know trainer Lawrence probably only became Steves stepdad later in the series #And they also had to work some things out first #But at least they didn't try to kill each other and trainer Lawrence was actively trying to be a good parent/friend to steve #And don't get me started on “A vespa costs so much”: YOU'RE A DOCTOR #Don't know much about new jersey or wherever the show takes place but doctors earn good money almost everywhere #Especially with how much nightshifts and over time hours she has #Not being sure about your 16 year old driving I understand #But don't try to excuse it with money when you're obviously not poor and he's been wanting it for so long that you could've easily saved up #The money till his 16th birthday #Okay I ranted about this long enough #Also the fandom is dead so nobody will read this probably #Byeee

[dinitride-art]

Little will sketch with a pumpkin !

#my art #byler #miwi #Will byers #I bought two prismacolour pencils #and… I fear this is going to become a problem for me #why do nice things have to cost so much money

[daftpatience]

one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it

#theres no peace #every little thing reminds me we are poor #seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time #im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly #the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job #and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support #and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money #because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live #its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin #time #cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for #sorry for the ranting i cant sleep #truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin #more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful #i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it #i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things #spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income #not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it

[l3irdl3rain]

I am so sorry for your loss of our little grandma Merill. It was so sudden and unexpected even in her age. I know you usually do fundraisers after one of your pets passes away but how much would screening your porch cost? Could we maybe raise some money for you so even the younger cats could get their porch time and you wouldn't have to worry?

Thank you! I really should start doing fundraisers for shelters again. I think I got out of that habit when Duncan passed and just never really gotten back into it.

As far as a fundraiser for me, I still have hang ups about people giving me money so I’m not so sure. When somebody buys me a significant amount of stuff for my Amazon wishlist or a particularly large tip comes through tumblr I always feel a little guilty and weird about it.

#also tbh I have not had my dad over to help me calculate the cost #so idek how much money I would need #ask

[satansxknitwear]

Still swingin' 🌻😎

✨My links✨

#Check out my OF (in my links) for this full set unsensored and for a little tour of my toy box!! #Also any support in the form of reblogs... tips.. treats... Etc you could give me right now would be endlessly appreciated 🥺i miss my blog #Satans knitwear #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #I hope this week treats you deliciously my loves!! #Im traveling to see my besties on friday and i am SO NERVOUS but cant wait to be reunited at last #Train tickets cost so much money omg. But its gonna be worth it. I might get you guys to help me pick out some outfits #Gotta be hotter than hell for my girls #Strappy lingerie #Pretty lingerie #Harness lingerie #Stockings and suspenders #Pasties #Tassles

[obsob]

happy autumn!!!

#mine #original #heeheh ordered some new prints yesterday..... #i went to th library also! got a book ive already read to read again before reading th sequel #and also a new book...hehehe...... #ive been reading on my kindle so much it will be nice to read a real book #if anyone wants to send me £30 so i can buy th hands of the emperor by victoria goddard that would b great #why so. why costs so much money. relax #th second book comes out in nov heheheHEHEHE #book im reading rn is pretty good but also these guys are rock hard at like any given moment #theyre like we need to be sneaky...people cant know...anyway want 2 hve loud passionate sex behind this tree #which. i mean im not complaining. #th last book i read was pretty dull but all the reviews are like 5 STAR CHANGED MY LIFE did we read the same book #anyway. happy saturday! #also they updated how u do posts n i gotta say......being able 2 edit tags? godsend #gods know i cannot spell

[haunted-xander]

IT'S NOT A WANT IT'S A NEED!!!!!!!!!

#what do you MEAN they dont actually release until 2025 #i need them NOW #pre-order isnt enough i need them in my hands IMMEDIATELY #i dont care how much money it costs me currency is temporary Leveilleur twins is forever #square im shaking u so hard rn how dare u just drop this one me WHEN I CANT ACTUALLY GET THEM UNTIL LIKE A YEAR & A HALF ANYWAY #alisaie leveilleur #alphinaud leveilleur #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles

[gncrezan]

🌟 COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!! more information can be found here! i’ve been very on and off this blog unfortunately, finishing up uni and finally graduating. i’m currently looking for a job and i need money inbetween work to be able to help out my family and apply for visas, so if you can comm me, tip me on ko-fi, or just rb this post, that would be amazing! you can find more examples of my art under the tag my art ! :’) 

#why did i get an art degree. no money no job no bitches!!!!!! #ANYWAYS . IN ACTUAL SERIOUSNESS. visa and other costs are ramping up this year and i'd like to be able to take some pressure off my family #please help if you can !! i have been meaning to keep up with so much new content ........ #i mean. as soon as i get this stuff sorted LOL eg. helping my family move to a new country and more... #YES. THANK U . HOPEFULLY I GET A JOB SO I CAN STOP BEGGING FOR COMMS!!!! #art commissions #commission post #commission sheet #artists on tumblr #commissions #commissions open #oc commission #edit sorry lads i hit post and realised one thing was off. i just adjusted background prices to be more spenny this year. sorry