#and im fucking lonely

[frumdyke]

:(

#im just.. not coping #i keep crying. not for any reason im just sad in general #there is not enough junk food in this house and im really struggling to eat proper meals #and im fucking LONELY #and every time i talk to anyone in this house i just feel lonelier #im gonna stick a whisk in my ear and scramble my brain

[spearcast]

kinda very much going through it, like a lot

#rose.txt #to delete later #like every time i sit and am fine im suddenly not fine #the car and buying another car and money and money and money #i feel raw and vulnerable and have lost a ton of confidence in driving #which was like. all of the confidence i had #and my normal birthday month troubles are tenfold #i dont want to turn 26 i have been here too long already #i need a new job desperately and i need to find something with good insurance or i wont have any #i dont!!!!!!! think i should see 26!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and this is all making that feeling so so so much worse!!!!!!!!!! #what the fuck do i do #ig ill end up doing what i always do and keep moving forward but fuck man #shits hard #harder than ever #and im fucking lonely #on top of it all

[hobohobgoblim]

*girds loins*

it is time

#goblincore #naughty #pumpkin fucking #tradition post #trans witch humps pumkin because October #im so lonely

[sporkberries]

True Loves Kiss ( when kissing the messiah/the anti-christ please be cautious. though it may draw you out of the lonely it could also lead to severe facial scarring, but hey, you score either way!)

#jonmartin kissed in the lonely to me btw #im normal :) #jon braid agenda #also i think of jon kissing martin almost as cpr which is why martin is so despondent #my guy was GONE #lost in the sauce(the lonely) #dont like the JM one that much but i dont wanna look at it anymore :) #so fuck it we ball #need to stop posting stuff i dont like but if i dont do that ill never post anything ever and i quite like posting #im a poster #catch me posting #sorry im drunk time for real tags #tma #spork art #jonmartin #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #agnes montague #jack barnabas #i bet agnes and jack have a ship name but i dont know it #the magnus archives #thats it i think #anyways im gonna go to bed and wakeup with a hangover #gonna queue this actually #dont want notifications till i am OUT

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

prince and prince friendship. this is my vision

#blood cw //////// #violence cw /////////// #erikar #eridan ampora #dirk strider #karkat vantas #dave strider #im just crazy about the idea that eridan and dirk would get along #theyre both fucked up in the head but in a way where they go ''theyre a freak but theyre basically OK'' about each other #eridan is too stupid/stubborn to manipulate and dirk literally could not give less of a shit about eridan's drama #so they have like a net 0 impact on each other #they do not make each other better. they also do not make each other worse. #they just get really bored and lonely sometimes #''do u want to stave off the ennui and beat the shit out of each other'' ''sure i dont have anything else going on today'' #just super lethargic and almost transactional #since they only hang out when theyre both bored as shit. from the outside it almost looks like a moirallegiance thing #at least until they start trying to murder each other which is when it suddenly looks like a kismesis #but its neither #theyre literally just bored and love violence #eridan <> karkat btw

[noname-404s-blog]

#lonelier version of you #loneliest #lonelihood #im sad and lonely #tw depressing stuff #heartbreak #depressing shit #sadcore #depressing life #and heartbreak image #depressing quotes #sad quotes #sad thoughts #im crying #sad scene #im useless #im sad as fuck #im sad now #im sad and tired #i want to disappear #i want to scream #i dont want to be here #i dont want this #sadnees #sadnecessary #im a mess #messy moodboard #i am all messed up #you broke me #you broke my trust

[iiflywithmeii]

𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞

𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐞

𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐲 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲

𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧, 𝐬𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲

#madara uchiha #it’s fucking true #fuck you #fuck everything #fuck everyone #fuck everybody #actually bpd #bpd culture is #bpd feels #bpd fp #bpd problems #bpd safe #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #depressing life #depressing shit #i’m so lonely #i’m bored #bpd #sorry for being depressing #depressiv #im bored #i just wanna sleep #i hate it here #why am i like this #i hate this #i wanna die #i hate everything #i hate it so much #i’m outraged

[ineffable--gayness]

I may be completely stupid but I'm like 99% sure Cody wasn't mentioned or has a canon place where he is after that episode of tbb where he goes AWOL soooo I propose he went to Tatooine and lived a happy life with Obi-Wan

#Im a fucking sucker for Codywan what can i say.... #But fr tho #I swear he has no canon place in star wars after tbb tho #And obi would get sooo lonely #Codywan #Obi wan #cody star wars #Star wars #Tatooine #clone wars #the bad batch #Tbb

[treasureplcnet]

also quite obsessed with karl being as detached from the story as he is. there's nothing that makes him have to be the detective that has to be involved, but he unknowingly dooms himself by agreeing to work with the KYAL cult. every other detective basically deals with elias head on except weissman, who only meets him right before he kills him. like he's right when he says "by my choices" because everything that leads him to being mixed up with the mannix cult is himself. it's the gambling debts and the choice to do the dirty work for an organisation he knows nothing about. he's the only one that doesn't encounter that body doing police work and it's specifically because he's told to cover it up. he gets himself into the mess and eventually fixes it but the fact that esther always dies in the doomed timelines and he's always too late even if he starts wanting to change things ("till this child. esther.") it just makes me very ill

#sorry jane who heard this on her dms but now im posting it to tumblr cause im having a category 5 woman moment. AND ALTERNATIVELY: #i am also EXTREMELY obsessed with how its a time loop and the idea (so sorry tumblr user whose post i have lost and was inspired by) #weissman was just so fucking hard to deal with that they made sure that he was in their pockets. i just like the idea of the loop-- #--having like. fixed points that elias would need to ensure the dystopia (body is covered up/the investigation closes/etc) but #how they get there is a slightly slower process and the earliest loops were the messiest/most unpredictable #and what we see in the show itself is like. the most streamlined version over hundreds of loops and attempts #so karl specifically. lonely that he is and determined to survive. AND with a cruel streak against people he doesn't like #kept nearly blowing their operation so they began to incorporate him in it instead #there's also another tragedy in there if /esther/ is what they realise works best against him.. #just love and kindness for a girl that weissman comes to see as family and they immediately exploit it after learning during an early loop #im ignoring specific plot points here (polly seemingly panicking when esther shows up at the station) but I DO NOT CARE. #THERE'S ANGST HAPPENING RN. IM CREATING SCENARIOS TO HURT ME #now if i could write coherently this would be written as a fic but im stuck writing too long textposts #karl weissman #bodies 2023 #bodies netflix #sorry to the other detectives. weissman in particular is my babygirl who i devote most of my brainpower to #personal

[aslongasimhereyoureinvincible]

okay im sorry but just imagine being kageyama tobio. your parents are always working late, your sister quit volleyball years ago and now she's off being an adult and having a career, none of your teammates get why you care so much and the only guy who did, because he cared the same amount in the same way, graduated 2 years ago and also hated your guts. your peers have given you a cruel nickname just so they can reinforce how little they like or understand you, you dont have any friends, you have nothing but volleyball actually, your grandfather is dead and you are clinging to the promise he made you when you were a little kid because if you dont you might just go insane. you are so, so incredibly lonely.

and then, THEN, this scrawny 5 foot nothing kid stares you down outside the gymnasium bathrooms and promises to beat you, and he totally sucks at volleyball. like, he. is. terrible. but he can run, and he has good reflexes, he jumps so high he looks like he's flying, and most importantly he runs headfirst into a wall and then says 'we haven't lost yet' like its the most obvious thing in the world when his teammates ask him why he bothered. and you realise this kid is just like you, the same kind of fucked in the head you are. and youre furious, what the hell has this guy been doing for the past 3 years? your grandfather promised you that someone even better would come and find you are here he is, but you beat his team in less than an hour and you're pretty sure you'll never see him again, despite him promising to take you down, because never once in your life has anyone who was supposed to stick around actually do that. you're angry because you didn't have to be so painfully lonely all these years, you could've had someone who kept up with you, but he just wasn't there, because he sucks and you don't but he doesn't have to and that makes it so much worse than you just being a freak who was completely one of a kind.

and then you go back to your team, back to your last middle school tournament, and you play more games. only this time youre pissed. you know that there's someone else like you now, someone who will. not. stop until the ball has hit the floor and you don't get why your teammates won't just be better, try harder, move faster. and then they abandon you too. you thought you were alone before, but now you have absolutely nothing, not even volleyball. and you didn't get into the school your grandfather went to, and the coach you picked your back-up school for is in the hospital, and your plan for the next 3 years is to essentially bide your time until you get scouted into the v-league because you literally do not have anything left and you are doing everything your 15 years old and incredibly depressed self can because you refuse to let go of volleyball, no matter how lonely it makes you, no matter how much it hurts to cling on.

and then, AND THEN. that same scrawny dumbass from that 2-0 match in middle school is there and he still sucks and he's still the same kind of fucked in the head that you are and you won't give him one of your 'royal sets', not after what happened last time, you can't stop being lonely but you can at least try to not get abandoned again. and he says 'forget all that, i'll be here no matter what', and he spikes the damn set. he shuts his freaking eyes and he trusts you and you have just had the rug pulled out from underneath your damn feet because you understand, maybe better than anyone else, being ready to do whatever it takes to win but who the hell just fully puts their faith in someone else like that and maybe, just maybe, this kid was serious when he swore he'd get better and take you down.

he's invincible as long as youre there and so are you as long as you have him. you ask him if he's prepared to go all the way to the world stage to take you on, because you've never set your sights anywhere else, and he tells you he'll match you every step of the way. he picks up your crown, puts it right back on your head and proves to you that he refuses to leave you just like everyone else did, even at your worst. you tossed and he spiked and he said 'i'm here' and he is.

he is, and he never stops being here for you, chasing after you, making you chase after him, even when he's on the other damn side of the planet. and then 6 whole years after you first met him, first played him, first thought that maybe your grandfather would keep his promise to you, you get to play him again and you realise that he is your someone even better, always has been. actually, they all are. and you're not that lonely tyrant you used to be anymore, youre not that sad, abandoned kid hiding behind anger and obsession, you're doing the thing you love surrounded by people who love it in the same fucked in the head way that he and you do, and the man you love is there across the net from you, playing against you, and he's also there on the court next to you, playing with you, and either way he is here.

you got really, really good at volleyball, and somebody even better came and found you.

he's here.

#haikyuu!! #kageyama tobio #hinata shouyou #kagehina #girl please fucking help they make me INSANE #i am GOING FUCKING BONKERS I ACTUALLY CANT #I *CANNOT* THINK ABOUT THEM TOO HARD WITHOUT LOSING MY GODDAMN MIND #KAGEYAMA WAS JUST. SO FUCKING LONELY IT MAKES ME CRY #AND THEN HINATA. WHO WAS JUST AS FUCKING LONELY. CAME INTO HIS LIFE #aND THEY HAVENT LET EACH OTHER GO SINCE #GOD FUCKING D A M N I T FURUDATE #ok im fine now. #i promise i am behing so normal and hinged about them. #og post // #dear fucking lord

[jade-len]

you know it's bad when i read svsss and tgcf, stories about just two guys falling in love and getting together, and think, "god i wish i were in between them."

gay little domestic cottage core life with binghe and qingqiu? please and thank you. being sandwiched by hua cheng and xie lian, two pretty men who are hundreds of years old? i am blushing, kicking my feet and giggling

and again, it's not even that i would want only one of them. like in both of the relationships, the two love each other too much to the point it'd feel wrong if they were separated! it wouldn't feel complete, so you gotta be with both of them!

but that's the thing; i just?? i feel so incredibly guilty whenever i think about being loved by these mxtx couples??? like it's so stupid but i feel like i'm intruding in on something and it's like, everyone else seems to just want them together only, not wanna be with them. like it's fuckin taboo or whatever

i feel like with any other character from any other media it'd be fine to simp for and write/read x readers of them, but when it comes to these books, it's off limits! no way, what are you, crazy? yes, yes i'm unhinged and desperately want their love and affection simultaneously. i want to be in a happy little poly relationship with these overpowered beautiful men with long hair.

i can't be the only guy or whoever to feel this way?? to wanna be kissed by these characters? sandwiched?? i have two hands for christ sake and they all look so happy together and im just like "lord i wanna be with them so much". someone tell me i'm not alone cmon <\3

#okay i havent read mdzs yet but i'll probably feel the same way #god i just wanna be in between shen qingqiu and binghe or hua cheng and xie lian please please #im sad im queer and im ready for a gay poly relationship with these mfs #i love them all #i remember seeing some post where it was like 'hua cheng x fem reader headcanons' #and i was like 'huh thats interesting. not fem but i'll check it out bc ive never rlly seen anything like that' #and then it was like 'he'd leave you for xie lian' and it was fucking hilarious actually #but then i saw the comments on that post and they were all like 'omg i was about to unfollow and block you' 'thank god' etc #and i was just like #'damn?? do people really not like this type of stuff when it comes to danmei novels or smth?' #i don't know if it was just bc it said fem reader or bc yk it's danmei and hua cheng and xie lian are very much in love and happy #but it lowkey kinda got me self conscious lmao and i was hella feeling bad #also no hate to that poster or those commenters im just a lonely queer man #'he would leave you for xie lian' was fucking brutal though i laughed my ass off at thag KAHSNZJ #please i swear i wont stand out too much i can fit in i have long luxurious hair too let me show you my hair care routine guys </3 #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #bingqiu #tgcf #heavens official blessing #mxtx tgcf #mxtx novels #mxtx characters #hua cheng #xie lian #hualian #shen qingqiu #the scum villain's self saving system

[lemorgochan]

rereading pandora hearts music inspo [ID: Vincent gently hugs Gilbert, one hand on his back and the other on Gil's head. Gil is embarrassed and a bit sad, Vincent has a warm smile. Everything is in warm yellow and dark blue tones, there are few warm yellow stars. End ID]

#pandora hearts #vincent nightray #gilbert nightray #them. the #vincent loves gil so much it melts me #and gil gives me neuron activation i want to fucking eat him alive #no wonder vincent loves his adorable brother so much #but just this feeling is like ... damn .... he can feel such strong things wow #wish i was capable of that amount of love or could recieve it #i probably still kin alice so this monologue is very funny #tsundere comes out of mind jail and is mesmerized by emotions #i have friends tho im not lonely just depressed

[winkashino]

I love that Ziyal does the Dukat™ technique of looking sad and lonely when you want people to do what you ask of them. Pathetic wet dog father and daughter.

things past (S5,E8)

Sons and daughters (S6,E3)

#tora ziyal #gul dukat #kira nerys #star trek #ds9 #kira why wont you fuck my dad im SO lonely and sad

[bussyandbingus4life]

Petition for men to start wearing suits like it's the early 1900s again. Idc how unattractive a man is if they pull up looking like they just walked out of Peaky Blinders I'm buying a wedding dress.

#coquette #aesthetic #fuck it we ball #1920s fashion #i love men #cillian murphy #1920s #im so fucking lonely

[noname-404s-blog]

#you broke my trust #brokenheart #you broke my fucking heart #you broke my heart #heart been broke so many times #lonelly #im sad and lonely #loneliest #lonelihood #im sad and tired #im so tired #mentally tired #tired #i'm tired #im tired #heartbreak #tw depressing stuff #depressing shit #sadcore #depressing quotes #depressing life #and heartbreak image #sad thoughts #im crying #sad quotes #sadsaturday #sad again #sad boy #sad hours #sadgirl

[smalltowndoll]

Just say you're obsessed with me already ♡♡♡ look at all this attention, I know I'm pretty but my goodness! @fademotion I'm sorry but I'm taken, you have to find someone else to harass and degrade 😘

#like you're showing exactly what i mean when i say men are the issue here #i hate all men #men are the problem #lonely fucking ugly ass man #take a picture it'll last longer #im too pretty for this #girl rotting #this is what makes us girls #hell is a teenage girl #im just a girl #male loneliness #girlblogging #girl blogger #dollette #small town girl #small town doll #girlblogger #coquett