#as in almost the whole organ

[studentbyday]

hello, i drafted an aesthetic studyblr post for today, but didn't feel like posting it bc today is an ugly rant kind of day. (more kermits under the cut)

AAAAHHHHHH STUPID FREAKING WINDOWS- 😩😫😭🤬🤬🤬 so i was working on my laptop for these past few days which uses a different ms office version from the computer i switched to today and all my work was LOST!! 😭😭 all the notes i took on OneNote (at least it was just the psyc notes i had done on the laptop - idk what i would do if biochem or mol bio notes were lost. i'd probably cry for real) and all the work i did on that biochem paper? GONE!! my brother uses LibreOffice so i finally switched to that (altho their UI isn't that nice). at this point, i might as well switch to linux (unless that would cause unforeseen problems if i still sometimes do work on windows? idk) 😅 any recs for free notes apps that have a small learning curve and are OneNote-like?

the STRANGEST part is, some of the notes and lost files came back as i was working?? i didn't do anything and i *swear* i wasn't seeing things, so like, WTF??? not that i'm complaining. i hope the entire week of psyc notes i lost comes back. if not, i'll probs rewrite them if i have time. i hope i have time. i really hate this.

also, good thing i didn't like the way i wrote the biochem paper so far. i rewrote the thing in a google doc instead just to be safe and i like the way it flows much better now. AND!!! it's super annoying that i had to do this, but my handwritten notes on the main article i'm basing my paper on were confusing me. like, in terms of the flow of the biochemistry. so i basically rewrote those notes, doing this huge web in paint and idk if i could've done that on the first read instead of the way i did it. i hate feeling like i've done double work.

after rewriting the paper (i'm not even done yet - there are several things i wanna add yet and some facts i wanna clarify) and my notes on the article for said paper, i was exhausted. i tried to switch gears by reading the instructions/background for the biochem discussion post due tmr (that i was supposed to write today 😒) but i don't get it. it's like i didn't cover lipoproteins at all! i don't remember anything! what am i here* for if i can't remember anything?!

update: i answered 1 question for the discussion post. i still have to answer 1 more but i need to finish reading the background info first.

ALSO! i was supposed to study for 6+ hours today. i have no idea how long i actually studied bc i kept stopping and starting the study with me video and i worked through the breaks anyway, so the dinging timers were just annoying.

*"here" as in at uni, studying, although if in the right mood, it could also expand to my entire existence 🙂 (luckily i'm too angry rn to feel philosophical 😒)

okay, let's try not to end so sour. good things that happened today:

physio exercises ✅

skincare ✅ (i have added lip balm to the list asides from lotion bc the chapped state hurts 🙁)

mol bio quiz ✅

journal ✅

tomorrow will be better. and if it doesn't start out right, imma fight it until it is and i won't be defeated 😠

#rant #studyblr #studyspo #stem student #stem academia #100dop #stemblr #student life #cramming #ugh #words thrown at the wall #becoming that girl #is a truly unaesthetic and messy process #let's be real #self care #skincare #as in almost the whole organ #idk how i'd survive the winter if i only moisturized my face/hands #bioblr #premedblr #mental health #digital diary

[thespoonisvictory]

on my knees and begging for brennan to give me something to latch onto with mazey bc she seems conceptually so sweet but I can't get behind a date that is like two sentences of actual chatting and then brennan being like "you SEE she is very sweet and calm" rather than the organic development of scenes, like I wish she was better incorporated into the plot man

#fhjy #d20 #compelling romance arcs are hard!! #but brennan and lou have played so many I've enjoyed and have felt so organic #it's not even the fact that she was a deliberate love interest from the start #again ricky and esther are one of my fav couples and esther was absolutely designed as ricky's love interest #if we had ANY significant scenes where we just see on our own that mazey is great without being explicitly told it yk #like brennan having her check in on fabian even after his whole shitting episode lmao #even the date which lou deliberate makes fabian overplan is then described as chill and relaxing #and mazey could have clocked that fabian was freaking out!! #idk I love almost every npc we've gotten and fabian's arc this season I am just chomping at the bit for more substance from mazey #I feel like i'm going insane I want to root for them

[trans-axolotl]

oh i am so mad at cis intersex people rn i cannot do this

#personal #im at work so i don't have time to go into the whole rant but just know that im screaming #maybe i will come back and elaborate in a second #but all im going to say is don't you fucking dare say that you think trans people get too much attention #without fucking acknowledging the incredibly transphobic history of almost all us intersex organizations #how most diagnosis specific groups are incredibly transphobic and actively lobby AGAINST intersex affirming legislation #i can't get into right now #but i am so fucking done with cis intersex ppl publically advocating for things that enforce the sex binary and then #getting mad when trans intersex ppl say 'transphobia in the intersex community is a problem

[bilbao-song]

sooooo crazy what warmer weather and an impending elo tour does for an individual’s mental health

#tbh i have had mental whiplash w all of this bc i went from having almost no plans for the whole year to like #scrambling to organize a million things #nonsense rambling

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

LITERALLY JUST WROTE THE WORST MOST DISAPPOINTING CLIMAX OF HALLOWED BODIES BUT AT LEAST IT’S WRITTEN!!!!!!

#being disappointed with your own writing is the worst feeling in the world but also THE SCENE DONEEEEE #it’s literally so awful I don’t even wanna think about it LMAOOOO #in my mind I did whatever it is I wanted to do which I’m not even sure what I wanted to do #DO NOT CARE BOOK IS ALMOST DONE LETS GO ONE MORE SCENE #like the whole point of this scene is just confusing to me and I think a big part of why it doesn’t work is because it’s not organic to #the plot so far lol everything that I love in this book has been unplanned #the planned stuff ehhhh not very good #I actually have a feeling most of this book will come to be in revisions lol #so like okay whatever !!!!

[silvercaptain24]

*shaking*

Y’all shall rue the day I was allowed to be productive

#my whole closet has almost been cleaned out #so happy #ITS FINALLY BEING ORGANIZED AND ITLL LOOK SO MUCH BETTER

[lolli-says-stuff]

I ate so much bread today. It’s my biggest love besides Yassen Gregorovich.

#bread #alex rider #yassen gregorovich #bread supremacy #whole grain bread #loafs #rolls #wheat #bread is life #if Julia Rothman ate more bread she wouldn’t be such a bitch #probably not true but I believe bread makes almost everything better #except pasta #Pasta doesn’t need bread #but bread needs bread #i need bread #today I had organic bread #and rolls #and this weird bread you get when you order take out #that one was super delicious #also this organic bread is sooooo good #it’s made by these women who run a little organic store that’s adjacent to a little organic farm #they bake it fresh every day they’re open #alex rider books #alex rider tv #yasha > bread #but bread > everything else #in conclusion fuck you if you’re not Yassen or bread #or my cat. he’s cute too

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

they just didn't have to write him as "a great philanthropist"; "a generous benefactor of the empire bay planetarium"; "frequent officer of the empire bay press guild"; "a frequent target of political slander and false arrest because of generosity towards the press"

and at the same time write him as the first of the others to organize drug trafficking; a man who tried to kill all his competitors; "a shady bastard, even for guys in this business"; "ruthless modernizer"; a man who secretly views his close friend as a liability; "the man who killed his own boss" to take his place

"few will moan moretti's passing" from the lost heaven's newspapers and there's nothing like that in the cut-out news reports about carlo's death

#like do you remember . “Micky the Crab” who was falcone's soldier and whom falcone eventually left to clean the fucking toilets #when the guy lost almost all his fingers #and ofc i don't think this whole charade with charity and the press is sincere (can sense 100% money laundering w charity here) but #i think he still felt some appreciation for empire bay bc this city accepted & raised him instead of sicily #i believe that there were also good intentions with the planetarium and maybe other things #maybe not everything was just a money laundering #“your teeth are a gift from god u can sink them into anyone's flesh and call it an act of giving” this is what i mean #that fact that his fucking (ugly but still) MANSION is in a poor residential area it just feels like a slap #violently shaking carlo by his shoulders WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!! (gets shot right after) #the fact that he had a reputation as a shady guy among the mafia and a reputation as a philanthropist in society . carlo. why r u like this #this man is a fucking contradiction in some absolutely fucked up gross way and it's killing me. wouldn't want him any other way tho #m2 #like can you imagine. if he actually felt warm towards empire bay. can you imagine if he was actually interested in making this place bette #but still organized the drug trade(which is objectively even worse than a racket) #love mixed with selfishness and violence and greed and and in the end it's creation mixed with destruction #sorry i can't get my thoughts into sentences that make sense all this week #but this contrast is killing me and i think about it a lot and i just wanted to put it together in a compilation

[yngai]

a lot about ada's character in resident evil 6 flies over people's heads but i'm always thinking about ada's line as she's about to provide sniper fire & help jake & sherry, "i suppose i should return the kindness their parents showed to me." a lesser pettier woman might've indulged in letting the children of two people who've separately put her through hell suffer as recompense. while i won't say she goes out of her way to offer aid given the only danger she puts herself in throughout the whole exchange is zipping around to whisk sherry to safety & the only reason the ubivsto is chasing after jake & sherry is because ada failed to kill it previously, it does speak to ada's rather wrapped moral fiber, something always shown & never told

#* file // : OOC — ( 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐄 . ) #for reference on being put through hell annette blew her cover and got in her way throughout raccoon city #and wesker tried and failed to make her subservient to him while she spied on his operations #always finding ways to ensure her missions are way harder than they should be (also blowing her cover in south america for example) #the whole kill order on leon in RE4 which to me always read like a mindgame to test ada's loyalty #as wesker was aware she almost compromised her mission in RC for leon's sake and the organization saw it as a betrayal #which was revealed in death's door released two years later so who knows if it was in the mind of RE4's staff #RE is so inconsistent across each game it's hard to tell #the RE4 guidebook just tells you ada appeared out of thin air with no prior history and while she was mistrusted by the organization #they found her the perfect counter to wesker's activities as a double agent

[todayisafridaynight]

if i start to wonder what would've happened if arakawa did take The Right Baby and ikumi got back masato then no im not dont look at me

#snap chats #dont even look at me bro im not even playing #because OBVIOUSLY arakawa would then raise ichi yeah. thats a whole can of worms to open #but then what happens to masato ? ikumi and jo were already running back to get him #ok. more accurately IKUMI was running back to get him while jo was tagging along #so sure they open the locker and get him out but then what ? #assuming that the damage to masato's organs had already taken place what would they do then ? #would ikumi Also have rushed masato to the hospital? but then what ? #arakawa could have at least explained some form of the truth to the doctors and be like This Is My Baby Help Him #but what would ikumi and jo do ? would they admit That was their baby? because THEN what #or would they just give up the baby at the hospital then and there #assuming they even get to the hospital on time to save masato #like girl do not LOOK AT ME I WONDER SO BADLY WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF IKUMI WAS EVEN A MINUTE QUICKER #like whats the likely series of events to ensue... i almost wanna think they Wouldnt take masato to the hospital #they didn't even trust an adult to take masato instead of putting him in a locker #bringing him to the hospital would just invite a bunch of questions #and it wouldnt surprise me if the doc they saw wouldnt figure the real story #i HAVE to stop thinking i will be here FOREVER if i dont #anyway... to pivot.. i did some christmas shopping today //screams// #and while i was out this mate was like 'oh i really like your hair :)' and i was just. thanks :) i didnt shower yet <:) #every time someone tells me my hair's nice it is always on a day where i havent washed it and its like... should i just not #im not gonna even FINISH that thought NASTY but still. it is very funny lol #ok bye

[leatherbookmark]

i love how passionate and emotional fic seongjoong is when irl they're like... an arranged marriage... lol

#not to say that they don't like each other or anything but. atz in particular seem quite aware (and not hiding it) of the practice of #ships -- not as in 'fans produce fanworks of you' but rather 'fans like your dynamics! play it up a little' #and the leader + the second 'highest' member are almost always shipped together as the 'mom' and 'dad' #which kind of doesn't make sense because a marriage usually precedes having children but in kpop is like. well here's a group and you're #two eldest members so you automatically get the mom/dad positions. sometimes it works -- whether automatically or because the #aforementioned members feel the need to take care of other members as they're the eldest -- but sometimes the dynamic is clearly #just there for the fans. and i can't help but notice that a whole bunch of 'moments' in 'seongjoong compilations' are like... not authentic #moments of them enjoying their time together but them being awkward/having awkward banter/doing fanservice during fanmeetings #and that's Different from the organic air ie woosan have #this is not to make fun of seongjoong fans because I PERSONALLY put very dramatic seongjoong in my hashtag Fic Verse #but then my fic verse was kickstarted because of that hwalazia magic and a single line in atz diary from fever 1. so it is. shall we say. #not particularly canon-inspired. #but i WOULD kill and die for every single fanfiction in which seongjoong aren't romantic sweethearts at the first sight but rather Struggle #i feel like Struggling is this... sort of a facet of their Brand... and so is mutually taking care of each other lol #they're like. this arranged marriage couple who grew to care about each other. not like 'oh shit two months in i realized i'm incredibly in #love with my spouse!' but 'yeah yknow what i like you here. stay' #good afternoon everyone enjoy this meandering and probably incorrect analysis of a relationship between two kpop lads #shrimp thoughts

[hailperseusjackson]

ok but that little about the episode thing at the end got me fucked up. them saying how when joel kills that infected lady in the beginning, sarah shuts down, she cries. but when ellie sees joel beat that guy to death at the end, it doesn’t scare her, it brings her to life or however they phrased it, because she likes seeing someone defend her like that (after all, she’s scared of being alone, because everyone she knows and loves has died) like. how am i supposed to continue. they’re so alike and they were meant to find each other and i’m losing my mind

#and the whole bit about how sarah is almost the main character but because the story starts with tragedy she can’t be #something something about that idk #gosh. i have so many thoughts but don’t know how to organize or articulate them #i just need the next episode now tbh #tlou #the last of us #tlou spoilers #tlou hbo #tlou hbo spoilers

[seenthisepisode]

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#i am close to tears - beware there is a rant about my life in the tags ahead so watch out - it's nothing VERY serious but it's... well #also this is literally about supernatural convention so it's not like a serious problem but it is a problem for me personally #so anyway last year when they announced misha for purgatory con 8 in dusseldorf i was like yes yes yes and i bought the tickets because: #1. i had a whole year to plan a trip 2. going to spn con was this little dream of mine because i've been in this fandom for years so #so i thought hey i deserve a little treat. i want to and deserve to go to a con and they just announced misha and i'd love to go #(and then they also announced jensen. and then jared too so like all 3 main guys will be there so !! a Treat !! yay!) and also Why Not #because it's in germany so it's the closest i would ever get a convention because i am from poland [*] no conventions here sorry #so i was like yeah the stars seem to have alligned yeah AND I BOUGHT THE TICKET. and the thing is SOLD OUT. and 3 main actor men are there #and a lot of mutuals that i'd finally love to meet maybe if they feel like it or whatever but i'd love to meet tumblr people so there's tha #and now. i just spent 3 hours after work looking for flights and everything. and. the conclusion. after 3 hours of looking at every possibl #way for me to get to Dusseldorf at the days of the con. well. the conclusion is i have no way to get there. and i am stuck. #and there are flights and they are not even that expensive. but the HOURS are horrible. i checked different airports and even looked at #flights to dortmund and i literally have no way to get there in a way that makes any sense... because arriving at 4pm on saturday is #too late. and the other option is being there at 8 am - cool - but i have no way of getting to the airport at 4 am. i'd have to take #additional day off from work (not an option). and i literally don't know what to do. it's almost 1 am and i should be happily asleep and i #am trying to solve this problem lmao because on one hand i really want to go and i want to figure out a way to get there 1. on time 2. in a #way that won't cost me 1/3 of my paycheck ; and on the other hand i just want to email the organizer to return the ticket or resell it to #someone because i know there will be someone who wants to go because the event is sold out #WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS HARD...... #AS I WRITE THIS I AM FULLY AWARE THIS IS SUCH A FIRST WORLD PROBLEM i know!!!!!! fully aware!!!! #but i just :(( really wanted to go :((( but i am slowly leaning towards the option of not going :((( because money and time :(( #and the kilometers between me and the con place :((((( #personal

[littledreamling]

I saw a post joking that Death wasn’t the only Endless in the family that helped Dream find a boyfriend, which got me thinking: at what rate does Time (Dream’s father) affect Hob?

We know it does; his hair grows (presumably, or else he’s been REALLY careful with his haircuts over these 600 years) and it’s not explicitly stated but we can assume that he has some sort of healing ability, but my question is this: does he have any regenerative powers?

We’ve never seen Hob suffer from any injury that would require regeneration; he’s never (that we know of) lost a limb or been decapitated. Yes, he’s been drowned and starved to death, but neither of those deal a loss of anything. However, it’s assumed that his body will do anything it takes to survive, so could he survive decapitation? We have to assume so, but the ability to do so would put him at a much higher level than just an immortal human. If he does have regenerative powers (which, logically, we have to assume he has something of the sort), that has a lot of implications, too. Can he have piercings without the holes immediately closing the second he takes the jewelry out? Can he have tattoos? Could he be a perpetual organ donor if he wanted to be? I don’t particularly need official answers, but it would be a fun concept to explore

#I’m a biology major so these are the kinds of questions that are pressing to me #I need to know if he’s an Old Guard type of immortal or just a regulr human who doesn’t age and refuses to die #would Death herself grant him new organs if he lost vital ones? #this whole post probably wasn’t worded very well but it’s almost 2am and I’m sleep-deprived #I just needed to get it typed out before I forgot about it #I can make a new post tomorrow that’s actually thought-out and cohesive #the sandman #sandman netflix #hob gadling

[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

nothing like leaving your bubble and going to a place where the median household income exceeds that of your hometown on the order of thousands to make you realize that you. are very much out of place

#it was a young musicians orchestra performance on a college campus #my god was that campus beautiful. what the hell #i felt so out of place in it #give me back the don giovanni set arts building any day #but it was striking to me through that whole performance like #the affluence was so obvious it was almost uncomfortable #and i mean my thoughts prob aren’t the clearest bc 11pm but whatever #and i know it’s like come on em you picked the Historically Inaccessible Interest. you picked the Stereotypically Affluent Interest #like why should this be striking #and i know why. because i have always felt so keenly that there was a place for me in western classical music #because people who easily fit into that world welcomed me with open arms and gave me a space #but sitting there today made me think. we are not so very different. except i could never imagine this being my after school activity #(i’m not even counting my first group. it was never this well oiled and organized.) #anyway. yeah idk what i was going for here. i feel odd

[deathtodickens]

#bering and wells #warehouse 13 #dickens draws #skelena hells #skelena season #endless wonder wives #the tags i have accumulated wow it almost feels excessive #but look #let me click on one of these damn things and not be able to find exactly what i’m looking for #octoberween 13 #can’t forget that one #the best part about drawing bering and wells for a whole month is that my love for this ship is reignited #i haven’t opened ages in ages because of work and school but i just might next month #okay i’m done good bye #ps not Helena acting like she doesn’t know what human organs feel like