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I grew up in the Mormon church, in a very conservative and religious home, in a neighborhood and city that were both ~99% Mormon. At 16, I stopped believing, and I told my mother. She refused to let me stop going to church, and insisted that I try believing it again. So I stopped talking about it and went back to pretending to believe. Pretty much everyone I'd ever met was Mormon, and I was afraid that if any of them found out I was an atheist, they'd rat me out to the church leadership, and word would get back to my parents. I never tried to talk to my family (or any other Mormon) about it again while I was living at home. I was scared, but I don't know what I was scared of.
Two years later, I left home for college. (I made up a lie about a non-deferable scholarship to explain why I was going to college before a Mormon mission.) Once I was out of the house, I told my parents again that I didn't believe. They didn't argue. I even moved back in with them for the summer of my freshman year. We had a few arguments about politics before we all learned to avoid those topics, but religion never came up.
A couple years after that, I started having occasional nightmares and flashbacks involving the first time I told my mother I wanted to leave the church. (I still have those.) I'd always been bad at writing to family, and this just made it harder. I wrote home less often and took longer to answer messages.
It's been eight years since I left home. I've moved to a different continent, and I haven't spoken to any of my relatives in over a year. I never talked to any of them about why. I never told them that I'm bisexual, that I'm trans, or that I've changed my name and gone on HRT. I feel like nothing I have to say about any of that would mean anything to them (except that I'm being led astray by Satan, which they already believe), so it isn't worth the effort. Especially since I don't really care about any of them that much.
I've gotten a couple of messages from relatives since I stopped answering. (None from my parents.) For the most part they seem to be following my cue.
I'm never sure if going no contact like this was unreasonable. Should I have explained what was going on? Sometimes I wonder if the fact that I've been happier since cutting them off is enough justification, or if it just makes me a bad person. Did I just make everything harder than it needed to be by keeping it all a secret for two years, then blame my parents for it when I moved out?
Am I the asshole?
What are these acronyms?
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jay-catsby · 2 years
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YO OMG. it's my six-month anniversary of starting prozac!!!! this is such a big deal for me that I'm gonna talk abt it a little. these have been far and away the most amazing six months of my life. I was depressed and struggling with OCD from age ten onwards, and I spent most of that time perfectly aware that things were pretty bad, but I didn't appreciate the extent to which I wasn't living until after I was correctly medicated. I've cried more in the last six months than in the entire TEN YEARS prior to starting medication, because that's what alive people do! I've fallen in love with my life, with my career, with my studies, with a person - and I've felt everything associated with that love, both positive and negative. That's what people deserve to feel - it's not about being happy all the time; it's about being able to experience the full spectrum in balance, from the lows to the highs. The thing about being medicated isn't that I'm always happier. For the first time in my life, I'm content. I go to bed without feeling guilty and I wake up free from dread, regardless of what happened yesterday or what's on my schedule for today. I am finally at peace; I'm no longer striving for something unattainable, because I have it. It isn't easy, it isn't always happy, but it's my life, and I'm in love with it!
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sleepygaymerdisease · 3 months
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redstonedust · 1 month
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i appreciate the attempts a lot of game devs are making with gender neutral character creation, and i appreciate that it's actually a very difficult task to implement that depending on the game's base code. but it's so funny to me when you hear an uproar because some game has "entirely removed the gender option from character creation!!!!!" so you go to check it out and its just like
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snarkspawn · 5 months
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based ofc on this
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shurinpat · 2 months
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booped out
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may12324 · 4 months
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Halsin- Archdruid of the Emerald Grove
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hansoeii · 8 months
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Astarion 🌠
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hofudlaus · 11 months
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also posting these two on their own :-) based on This post by @outpastthemoat
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bashzzey · 10 days
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I bet sour lemons are alien to him in the land of sweets 🍋
Also have silly bonus from aggie :]c
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Max Jax? Max Jax.
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gibbearish · 4 months
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just saw on the hbomb subreddit that james somerton briefly reactivated his twitter and changed the name to agayraconteur, then 8 hrs later deleted it again because people were noticing, so. everyone who went all in on "he'll keep popping up again and again in new forms" cash your bets in now LMAO
edit: hey yall this post is very out of date but has been getting spikes of notes since the second apology video so i'm gonna be marking it unrebloggable
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nomnomroko · 5 months
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also them (((: ?
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Michael Afton teaches Vanessa the first rule of FNAF
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glassiskies · 6 months
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in which aziraphale reverts to old habits, crowley is outraged, and they still do not talk about it
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aliquistis · 8 months
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I love how bad Astarion is with his cover story. You meet him and he's like "I'm a magistrate" then he stealths, disarms a trap, double dashes and backstabs a goblin all while giggling about spilling blood and you're just like hm yeah that's the legal system for you
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osokooma · 6 months
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I finished watching Scott Pilgrim Takes Off yesterday and AGHHHHH
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