#because I can't write anything else

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[nostalgia-tblr]

"are people not into that?" i ask, after posting my weird niche shit to the internet, despite knowing it to be weird niche shit.

#jsyk sylkius or anything adjacent to it does not “Do Numbers” in any way and i observed this some time ago #i assume that's the “rival ships” element at work but who knows really #that sort of thing is like femslash in that everyone approves of it but nobody actually reads or writes it #but who would have thought sylvie beating loki with a stick would not bring in droves of readers???! shocking twist there! #& i don't consider sifki a rarepair but my rarepair standards are VERY strict like if there's >5 fics a pairing is basically mainstream #chasing popularity would annoy me though & i just don't have the mental spoons to try writing stuff i wouldn't personally read #yeah i *could* put my blorbos to work in a coffee shop but what cost to my own enjoyment levels? AT WHAT COST FANGELA??? #you can't please everyone so you may as well just please yourself and if anyone else likes it you've found some fellow freaks so yay #i don't mean please yourself in a wanking sense. though feel free to do that too it probably counts as a cardio workout idk. #BUT ANYWAY #fic related #ps i am v glad there's the “warning: loki” tag because i think/hope it acts as a filter for 'he did nothing wrong in his life ever' types #who are Valid & etc obviously but i write my morally grey characters to be morally grey and the tag might help avoid conflict #though tbh i write almost every character to be morally grey in some way so i can't claim to have left my comfort zone here #(i'm not joking when i say the 1987-89 run of Dr Who shaped my entire future fannish life from a young and apparently v impressionable age)

[korumimi]

I saw some people talking about the mission of Fit and wondering if he would betray Pac if it was necessary or something like that.

I think Fit would be uncomfortable for not talking about that with Pac (if/when they get closer/in a relationship) but I think Pac just trust him so much that he would say something like "You don't need to tell me if you think is safer, even though I like the fofoca" and then say "If you need to betray me I know it's for a good reason, don't need to worry about me :D"

AND THEN Fit would be "oh okay nice!" But wait a minute. Why would Pac say that??? Because Pac would totally sacrifice himself for anyone he loves (just like he already did) and he thinks that he's disposable and this would be the conflict because Fit wants to show that he cares and don't ever want to Pac to feel like that but he doesn't know what his mission could ask from him and what if this just turns more hurtful for him in the future but also don't want to let him thinking about that of himself.

But Pac would be so sad if Fit just vanish, like Mike, Richas and Forever. He would be so lonely again. He would blame himself thinking that everything he loves just leaves him some moment and that he deserves it.

What if Fit think about it and just start to be distant with Pac because it could hurt them in the future. It's better to avoid all this feelings now so it won't be worse after.

I'm just so normal about them you know.

#i can't #fitpac #hideduo #pac qsmp #fit qsmp #i just wanted to rumble about it #because i cant think of anything else #i would love a fic about it #but i dont know how to write fics #sorry if my english is bad not my first language #q pactw #q fitmc

[cuubism]

hello friends. despite my 9 million existing dreamling wips i'm feeling the need to branch out a bit for the sake of my mental variety. what pairing other than dreamling should i write a little something for? could be romantic or platonic

other way of phrasing i guess: any pairings you really want to see more fics for in the fandom?

#i actually do have one someone asked me for ages ago i've been meaning to get to so i'll try to do that too #bonus points if it still involves dream bc you know i love dream XD #probably wont do any romantic pairings /between/ the endless because well yeah #but open to exploring pretty much anything else... feel free to send whatever if you want. dont worry about if i'll like it #if i can't vibe with it or find it uncomfy i just won't write it no harm no foul #not me soliciting little prompts fully knowing that motivation is a fickle beast and who knows if i would get to writing them XD i want #to though! or like. idk. if anyone wants to share headcanons about their favorite pairings i am happy to receive them #the sandman #a couple that are bouncing around my head already: #rose meeting desire. this could be really interesting i think (they are of course her grandparent) #calliope and lucienne post-calliope's imprisonment: i think their dynamic could be interesting since they both have/had close relationships #with dream. but of course calliope's relationship with him fell apart. i think lucienne with whatever context of it she had would probably #be sympathetic to calliope's perspective but still staunchly On Dream's Side so the speak bc she is ultimately very loyal to him... could b #an interesting convo. #additionally - calliope and johanna. both suffered things recently. both had curious interactions with dream where they recently saw both #his vicious side AND a kinder more understanding side of him... [dream gave rachel a peaceful death at johanna's request etc] #but they've come out of their suffering really differently (granted it was different types of suffering. but) #wow here i am asking for people's ideas and then just coming up with my own XD #anyway #wait two others: i'm fascinated by the potential dynamic of lucienne and the corinthian they only had like one short scene together in the #show but can you imagine. spending eons being loyal to dream and then going opposite directions with that loyalty. being among dream's inne #circle so to speak except lucienne is her own entity while corinthian was /created/ by dream. they have the most fascinating venn diagram o #personality traits and narrative positions... #secondly. and this is kind of crack. but like. imagine johanna and corinthian in the same room XD 'hi i'm an exorcist and this is my pet #serial killer' 'yeah my lord gave me a vacation to go kill some demons' why doesn't he try to kill johanna? bc she tried to destroy him #first time they met and he can't help but respect it XD

[corseque]

if I was the dragon age developers and I just finished writing my 1,043,424th flag to keep the worldstate of the game consistent after all the 100 branching paths the story took since origins, I would be desperately looking for a way to reset the game board and destroy the world so that I could restart without having to deal with decisions developers made more than a decade ago

#especially when the fandom throws hissy fits about not every 21342342353453466 version of the story being perfect and thought of #Dragon Age #I can't imagine writing a fifth branching path game in a row #I feel like there was a reason mass effect was only a trilogy lol #don't mind me it's just 10pm so it's time for me to think about how Solas is going to be successful in his task #or something equally world-ending will happen #because anything else will retread Inquisition with the 'we have to stop the bad guy oh wow we did it whooweee'

[cod-dump]

Soap: YOU SHOT A TANK AT ME!!

Graves: I missed, you're welcome.

Soap: NO!!! YE DON' GET TA JUS--

Graves: Also you blew up my tank, so I think you won.

Soap: Well--! Yeah!! But--

Graves: I don't see you with burn coverage over 20% of your body.

Soap: *angry grumbling*

#submission #source: me planning that nikpricegraves fic i told you about lol #god i can't wait #now i gotta write more on my sugar daddy au because now i can't focus on anything else at the moment #john soap mactavish #phillip graves #cod mwii #incorrect quotes #call of duty #modern warfare ii

[cerise-on-top]

what do u think Farah, Kate, Valeria’s types are, like personality wise or physically? love ur stuff so much, there isn’t enough stuff for the cod women and it is the worse💋

Hey there! I don't think they have a type per se, to them it's more important to have a good connection with someone! So I only wrote about what I think they'd like their partner to be! I didn't write about any physical appearances, though, since I think that sort of thing doesn't matter at all! The chemistry is important to them more so than anything else!

Valeria’s, Farah’s and Laswell’s type

Valeria: She’d likely be into someone who knows what they want from the get go, who can get aggressive at times but knows when to be quiet as well. Someone intelligent, who knows not to mess with her and her business too much, willing to let a lot of morally interesting things slide. Someone who can be loud at the right time, who isn’t afraid to stand up for themselves. However, I think she’d also be into someone independent. She doesn’t have a lot of time for a relationship, always out and about somewhere, so she’d want someone who can take care of themself. Someone who knows how to do house chores is also a big plus. You don’t have to worry about her doing nothing, if she wants to she can hire a maid or something, but it’s sort of domestic to her to have a partner who knows how to cook and use a vacuum cleaner. That way she won’t have to worry too much about coming home to a messy home. Her ideal partner would be up for going out with her from time to time, and wouldn't be shy in front of other people either. Someone motivated would be nice as well. Just someone willing to do things with and for her. But the most important part would be loyalty. Someone who knows that what she does is wrong, but stays with her despite it. Valeria can’t allow someone to work against her, not even someone she loves.

Farah: She’d probably like someone chipper. She’s surrounded by war and death at all times, so having someone cheerful with her, who can lift her spirits when she’s feeling down, would be ideal to her. Besides, she loves the domestic parts of life as much as the next person, so she wouldn’t mind settling down somewhere with someone, but she also wants to be with someone willing to go out with her to maybe explore the surroundings a bit. Doesn’t have to be a lot either, just watching the sunset while going on a walk with her would suffice for her. Her ideal partner would be open for most things, from cultures to just some outings. And although it’s only a small part of her, she secretly does wish for someone who’s not straight. That way she can share her experiences with someone else and not feel as alone. Someone who can show her something new almost every day would also be appreciated. Farah is a very loyal person, so she’d love for her partner to be the same. Communication is key, so someone willing to talk to her if something bothers them, regardless of what it may be, would also be nice. It would also be nice if that person could stay calm during most parts of their life and not lose hope immediately, someone who trusts that Farah will come home safe and sound to them and not freak out about every small thing. 

Laswell: I think she’d be into someone calm. Someone a bit older, maybe even a few years older than her, who has seen the finer things life has to offer and who can appreciate them. Nothing would faze them and they would never raise their voice. Someone, who doesn’t need to see the world anymore, who has seen most of it. Someone stable and content. While Laswell could take care of someone, she doesn’t want someone reliant on her since she’s abroad more often than not and doesn’t have the time for someone like that always. While it would be nice if that person could speak up for themself, she doesn’t mind having to speak on their behalf from time to time. That person doesn’t have to be the next Einstein, but she’d love someone she can have sophisticated conversations with over a glass of wine. Someone willing to drink some wine with her in general would be nice. Laswell is too old to want very many complications, so she too would appreciate someone willing to say what bothers them so they can work it out together. Not everything needs to be perfect, but she’d prefer it if she could talk it out with them. Although she can splurge a little bit here and there, it’s important to her that her partner is responsible with money and doesn’t buy everything that comes to mind. She wants them to be well off, and that is, mostly, only possible if you know how to save money. She thinks butches are hot, but she’s not opposed to a cute femme either.

#cod #valeria garza #farah karim #kate laswell #I wasn't sure if I was going to write this request in the first place #I always felt bad whenever I read about a character's type and I very much was not that #and I don't want other people to feel bad because of it either #so I'm just gonna say it again: The chemistry you have with those characters is more important than fitting into their type #there's another word I'm looking for but I for the life of me can't remember it right now #anyway if you vibe with a character then by all means imagine yourself with them and don't listen to what I have to say #this was just for fun and really shouldn't make anyone feel bad #if you're the things I listed then that's great! but even if you're not the girls would still love and adore you all the same! #again these are just desirable traits for them more so than anything else! nothing to go by! #I can tell you that the girls would love you just as you are!

[sapphire-draw]

I feel a little guilty about not posting anything for Malroth day... so I looked back at what I had already drawn to see if I had anything.

I found this thing. Set atop the gate of Moonbrooke's castle walls.

I never truly 'finish' any drawings. I just try to convey my thoughts through the canvas, then move onto the next. Spending too much trying to polish a single drawing drains me, because I know it would be futile in the end. Thoughts aren't perfect.

This is all just to say 'I can't draw for crap, but I still want to contribute to the community'

No text because dialogue hard.

#dragon quest builders 2 #dqb2 #malroth #dqb2 malroth #dqb2 builder #Not a good writer (can't write malroth dialogue) #I usually default to comedy because if the joke doesnt land then its a humour thing... but in anything else if I fail its my fault...

[leotanaka]

jughead almost immediately removing himself from the musical aka the narrative the moment that someone else (kevin & clay) starts writing their own version of it and in turn, his removal from controlling the narrative ends up allowing the characters to take back control of their own narrative because when jughead writes and rewrites the story, it ends up trapping the characters deeper inside the narrative and the cycles they are desperate to escape until they are repeating the same behaviours over and over again but when kevin & clay write and rewrite the story, it ends up giving the characters back their agency because they're trying to help them which then allows them to break free from the narrative and walk away.

#riverdale #riverdale spoilers #rvd text #rvd meta #rvd narrative #jughead jones #kevin keller #clay walker #like i love jughead this isn't anti-jug or anything just to be clear but the show has imo perfectly established how traumatised jughead #really is and that he never actually deals with any of it and then this season you go from his comic episode whereby it demonstrates so #clearly that despite good intentions his anger heavily influences his writing and storytelling and then the next episode he acknowledges #that his father abandoned him and writes about it. we don't know what he wrote exactly but he wrote something and it slowly starts to #change him for the better #and the story really does start to slowly change from that point too #and even clothing wise. someone pointed out that jughead's clothes (pjs especially) drastically changed the moment he wrote about fp #what that means i have no idea but you can't not notice it #and when you look at the musical episode especially kevin and clay had an idea in mind for it - a narrative they were trying to push #but then saw what it was doing to the characters and were prepared to take a step back and listen to them and what they want #and change the story accordingly and while it ended with the majority of them leaving the musical #they left because they were given the freedom and choice to do it because they weren't being forced into a role someone else assigned them #like that's the point: THEY COULD LEAVE! #THEY MADE THEIR OWN CHOICES! #THIS IS STORYTELLING!!! #and i won't hear anything bad against it

[mellowwillowy]

On hiatus for an indefinite moment.

#CW: Rant #Things are not looking well art and writing wise #And I can't seem to grasp anything well anymore seeing how much I've downgraded in everything #Art block and Writing block hit well but I know I'm nowhere near 'getting better at it' #It's just a bullshit reason for me to keep myself away from everyone #I can't even think of anything creative anymore unlike how I did back then #I'll be lurking but maybe not responding to anything #And I'll probably lurk somewhere else #I plan on going through my drafts and try to see if I can do better with my old WIPs and Ideas #I hope I can feel the same spark I used to feel last year(s) #I'd probably only be away for a week (please be so because I wanna write too) so heyyyyyyyyy fingers crossed #(sobs) I haven't even written anything proper for the celebration #WHAT IS THIS AHAHHAHA SOME SORT OF GRADUATION FAREWELL SPEECH? #Ta-ta~ #nb: everyone is bored of my saggy ass writing #no one likes it anymore #I have to WRITE BETTER

[lesbianalicent]

did you guys know that writing is the hardest thing in the world and you should never ever do it

#writing for a new fandom is literal hell to me #fic in general has always been difficult bc i find it hard to write characters who aren't mine and my standards are insane #give me an hour and i'll churn out 10 pages for my ocs but fic? no matter how clear an idea i have? Hell On Earth #ESPECIALLY if i haven't written for it before. oh my god. #i've been struggling to write bg3 for months now i feel insane #but i can't write for anything else because of the hyperfixation. help m

[aquanutart]

an upside-down truth / a fallen star

#the dragon prince #tdp #aaravos #gif #aquanutart #hi i would like to thank everyone who said on my last pic 'i am reblogging this for the puffballs' #as well as 'your tags have murdered me' etc #truly made the whole experience worthwhile. i still can't tell if anyone got the joke but i no longer care #next in our series of 'it's 2022 why don't you make a brush' i should really make a star brush #instead of sitting there going dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot ... #even traditional art has a shortcut method for this (it's called putting masking tape on everything and then: splatter) #(advisable to do this first before drawing anything else...) #the good thing is it doesn't actually take a long time to do the dot dot dots it's just kind of repetitive #and you get bored and start writing about it in your tags and then it takes longer because you're not working #i listened to the ff8 soundtrack while making this #i had actually planned to listen to the triple triad music the entire time but #it turned out i couldn't take it for several hours #even though i quickly realized my mistake i ended up having triple triad stuck in my head the whole time anyway. i did this to myself #anyway i was determined to finish this before season 4 dropped #because i also had the idea three years ago and i need to post it before the new season possibly makes it obsolete #threw a wrench into my own schedule by deciding at the last minute that i needed to animate it and i don't know how to animate #then tdp kind of also threw a wrench by releasing the first episode a week early but it's okay i'm still basically in time #i'd personally like it if aaravos were someone who warps and twists the truth and/or has a warped perspective rather than outright lying #i'm convinced there's a meaning to the upside-down star arcana and maybe rotating the key of aaravos can unlock something ?? #saying this suddenly gave me flashbacks to the rotation keys in skyward sword rofl what if he's being held in prison #by his own startouch marking being upside-down because it's out of alignment with the universe or something #TWO MORE DAYS let's GO i've been waiting three years to have my theories blown apart

[kiwichaeng]

Technically it's almost 1am on Thursday for me but I'm sure it's Wednesday somewhere in the world. Thank you for the tags @paperstorm @fallout-mars @lemonlyman-dotcom @heartstringsduet

“It’s my fault,” TK’s voice is quiet in the dark room. The sound of shuffling from the bed makes TK look at it. He had thought Carlos had fallen asleep.  “What do you mean?” Carlos’ asks, turning his head to face TK. His voice is raspy like he was halfway to sleep. Moonlight streams through the open windows and illuminates Carlos just enough for TK to make out his features. He lifts himself up against the headboard and rubs his eyes.  Guilt punches through him again as he takes in Carlos’ tired form.  “Fuck I’m sorry. I thought you were asleep.”  Carlos shrugs, then winces when the movement pulls at his injuries. TK looks away and to the side. No matter how much Carlos seems to think otherwise, he can’t stop himself from directing the blame at himself.  “What’s your fault TK?” Carlos sounds more awake this time, his voice soft. TK can feel Carlos' gaze, feel it begging him to look at Carlos. TK keeps his eyes stubbornly away.  He waves a frustrated hand across the hotel room as if that encompasses the mess they’re in. “This—all of this.”

Open tag since I'm so late <3

#might take a slight break for a while till after my finals because I'm so anxious these days about them that I can't do anything else #kinda swamped and progress is way slower than I'd like :( #evie's writing #autopsy fic #I think of this baby all the time. Lives rent free in my head

[slightlytoastedbagel]

actually On Your Feet gave us two good things (well. three if you like Realize which I do). Kohane's "it's frustrating" line and the great crack fic idea of Vivid Bad Squad getting cancelled online for skipping school to yell at The Kotaki Taiga as he was about to go back to America.

#no because. he went there to continue radder's dream yeah? the one about becoming world successful musicians #and they had a record label for a bit. they were definitely going to make it at least somewhat. #so we can assume taiga is at the very least a semi well known musician yeah? #one that someone about to either leave or enter japan might know about. who will see this musician they enjoy #being shouted at by a high school girl in her school uniform about how they will surpass him or something along those lines #with three other kids (in uniform from a different school) standing behind her #and then going onto sekai universe twitter to post about it and the taiga kotaki fans taking it by storm #taiga gets off the plane in america and finds he's trending and it's because people are making fun of a blurry picture of his ex pupil #meanwhile vivid bad squad just don't know because it was contained entirely on twitter and. #be honest can you see any of them having twitter because i can't. an maybe but akito doesn't have time for social media and toya is toya #and kohane is a tumblr girlie if i've ever seen one #however it does give the great concept of someone else seeing it and debating if they should say anything #because mmj definitely has an official account they could have seen it on and also there's ena shinonome and mizuki akiyama #but anyway this also means when they do put on the event to surpass rad weekend (or whatever their goal ends up being) #there will be a crowd of people looking at it and going “isn't that the group of kids that twitter made fun of ages ago?” #and then taiga kotaki stans on sekai universe twitter will be stunned because they did in fact surpass him #if it wasn't for the gcses i would write this but alas. enjoy my weird thoughts #bagel's rambles #project sekai #i am scared to main tag this one but. fuck it we ball

[itstimeforstarwars]

What if i skip ahead to the satine parts what if i skip ahead to the korkie integration what if i skip ahead to cody and satine being chaotic and competent together to the chagrin of jango and the kryzes what if i skip ahead to ventress what if we went to tatooine what if what if what if---

#chit chat #galidraan au #i had coffee for dinner and i cannot be bothered to go to bed when i know i will not sleep well anyway #i can't decide what to work on and my brain is buzzing and i have exited out of half my current wips #bc i am full of ideas and also completely stuck at the same time #so i keep coming back to tumblr #lmao #i don't want to stop and do something else but i also am not getting anything done #maybe I'll write the mace windu side plot #i can't post that because that's the main story but it will at least be written down

[birdmitosis]

The good news: I am 1,624 words into Chapter 5 of [Wear whatever feathers you choose.] It may be going a bit slowly this chapter, but it is definitely going! The bad(?) news: I am 2,112 words into a totally unnecessary one-shot I couldn't get out of my head again, and this one might be a longish one. It started off as like 800 words of having a panic attack during sleep paralysis and now it's totally gotten away from me.

#paracold of course because i can't write ANYTHING ELSE APPARENTLY-- #it's fine it's fine it's fine #the next chapter seriously shouldn't take much longer i just got hung up on a few moments/details #the one-shot i literally just started writing like 2 hours ago #it's also Actually Yuri for the first time!!!! HELL YEAH #slay the princess #fanfiction #fanfic #shipping