#before i even knew i was a lesbian

[reading-writing-dying]

Hey the feeling of liking someone a lot and they like you back??? Unmatched

#im seriously falling for this girl #so much it makes me nervous #but like shes told me the same #i am 26 years old and finally getting into a relationship for the first time #since my long distance one in hogh school #before i even knew i was a lesbian #but ive kissed her twice so far and wow #first time i wasnt sure how i felt #bc it was my first real kiss #not like a drunken peck from a friend #but then i kissed her again and i wanna kiss her more #i kinda understand kissing #for the first time in my life #i still question if im any good at kissing #bc its not like ive had practice #but im trying my best not to overthink #making out is still a hurdle illl have to figure out but ill get there when i get there #cant wait until next weekend tho #bc i wanna talk to my parents about her #and maybe also find a time to introduce her to them??? #only when shes comfortable with that obvi tho #its something we'll talk about #i dont get to see her again until thursday though #and boy i can not wait until the. #personal #tag ramble

[sonknuxadow]

just remembered that back in 2018 a few months before idw sonic had actually started they revealed tangles design a bit early and people were already saying she was gay just from looking at her and were getting the typical backlash of "omg not everything has to be gay stop saying every character is gay shes probably straight" . anyway i think thats really funny to look back at considering . everything

#wanna go back in time and show these people the whispangle lesbian flag panel and watch their heads explode #okay well they might not immediately recognize the gayness there since the current lesbian flag wasnt used yet back then. but still #somewhat related i just remembered ive seen people say that people are exaggerating and it just vaguely resembles a pride flag #bro it was the exact colors of the lesbian flag in the exact order they go in. #on a panel of two characters that are commonly headcanoned as lesbians . #who the writers/artists have admitted to trying to ship tease and said that they would make them canon if they could . #smiling and holding hands. in an issue released during pride month #i dont think its a coincidence #if it WAS a coincidence it would be the funniest coincidence ever though ill give you that #also even before whisper came into the picture tangle was still obviously gay like look at the way she interacts with blaze #ill admit that her liking blaze probably wasnt the writers intention though . but that shit was gay To Me #and to like every other lgbt sonic fan who was reading idw at the time . we all knew what she was

[ctl-yuejie]

ramblings on Li Ming (and Heart) and homosexuality

moonlight chicken has so many things to offer in terms of technical beauty and interesting themes but what i cannot stop thinking about is the different ways they approach homosexuality in the story.

we have Wen who has a rainbow flag on his desk and pictures of him and Alan on the wall. Wen, who openly flirts with Jim and has no qualms talking openly about his one night stand. Wen, whose step father knows about his sexuality and is close enough with him to discuss his love life.

Kaipa we don’t know too much about. But his mom knows and is supportive and some of the vendors and the chicken family seem to know. But if anyone was questioning in what reality this show is set with all the class discussion and corona featuring, his part of the story shows that homophobia exists and he is worried about how he fits in with his own family, the expectations of his mother and possible the awareness that he makes the family he has “different”.

Jim is arguably even more visibly gay than Wen in terms of what we see throughout the show. He opened the shop with his ex, they prayed at the temple together and even though he objected due to proprities sake eventually they loudly declared their love to each other and the whole neighbourhood knows. Wen somehow feels like he is living in the remnants of a bubble: his circle of friends seems very queer, his closest friend and the whole gym seem to be all part of that as well. This only might change now with him questioning his work and breaking up with Alan: some gatherings he won’t attend anymore apparently.

And finally, we have Li Ming. At school he doesn’t seem to open up to his classmates on most things and additionally is in the closet. While there wasn’t anything alluding to homophobic rethoric being spread at school we can see how the heteronormativity gets to him and feel that there must be good reason as to why no one knows. And it could just be how Li Ming is judging the situation based on vibes, we don’t know. His mother is or at least was homophobic but at the same time he is raised by his gay uncle who is surrounded by other gay people. And I love how it feels like this might have given him enough security to be comfortable with his own sexuality but how it also isn’t enough to shield him from the world at large.

With so many great shows coming out of Thailand and most of them getting more and more political it just feels so real and 2023 to me that Li Ming is part of a generation that knows who they are but still have to battle with the shadow that homophobia has cast way before they were born.

#moonlight chicken #i had this in my draft for a week now thinking if i'd get the time i could put this more leloquently but that was a lie as it turns out #might edit some stuff later #but for now i just have to write about how fantastic this show is for giving these varied realities of queer life #which are all influenced by their environment but also in the way the characters connect across generations #we don't know if him had a gay mentor who could've guided him #whereas li ming technically has him and his neighbourhood friends to reference #but li ming - understandibly so - seems more closeted than anyone else (minus Heart possigly) #in middle school everyone around me proclaimed how supportive they were of lgbt+ rights #but as soon as one guy came out he become the TALK of the school for weeks #he got reduced to his sexuality #and when he dated a girls some months after he got called attention seeking for coming out as gay before #and most people thought they were doing an open-minded thing #and despite knowing that i know that i am not the only queer kid who decided to not come out lest we'd become that talk of the whole school #and our dating lives scrutinized #even though all of us were super comfortable with who we are #and for me that was mostly the case because i had adult lesbian role models close to my family #so i knew i was good and that nothing strange was going on #but still - this othering made the school environment hostile enough to keep me in the closet #so yes - i am extremely delighted with how they depict this dynamic with li ming

[elliewiltarwyn]

As she looks upon them, seeing the way their hands so naturally curl around each other, something bittersweet resonates in Lily's chest. She still isn't sure she wholly understands the sensation, or what just happened to her -- what role she played in dispatching Mitron, in freeing Gaia from his grasp.

She's so beyond relieved to see Gaia safe, to see Ryne's hand in hers. To feel the soft grass spreading beneath their feet and witness the brilliant colors of the rainbow-colored crystal before them -- their mission appears to have been a resounding success on every possible level.

Yet this ache lingers in her heart -- similar, but not quite in the same arena as the lingering trauma from her first love, nor is it the bitterness that has weighed upon her since Yugiri's gentle rejection. It's not even the whirlpool she's been slowly drowning in since she first noticed the way Ellie and Mia have been looking at each other recently.

It's a strangely contented ache, as oxymoronic as that sounds. Like she's reconciled a part of herself. Like she has, for once, even though she's lost something in the process, accepted this turn of events. And she has -- she's really, truly, genuinely happy for Ryne and Gaia.

A voice within her is saying this is good, this is right, and she feels oddly inclined to heed it. Maybe she hasn't lost so much as she thinks.

a vague skeleton of the plot thoughts i have about Lily and Eden: seeing Ryne and Gaia's affection for each other blossoming forces Lily to confront some of her own conceptions of what love is after the trauma she's been through, and maybe learn how to process the broken pieces of herself she's never been able to pick up. And maybe she gets a hand when she realizes her soul resonates too much with the Ascian who wants Gaia all for himself. And maybe her reconciliation involves her literally reconciling with the man who turns out to be another shard of her soul.

so yeah Lily's ancient self was Artemis in case that wasn't obvious, and she probably ends up merging with Mitron the same way Ellie merged with Ardbert. and the point of this is ??? idk but it feels cool gshalkfakjfk

extremely silly bonus:

"What in the godsdamn-- Mia, is it just me, or--" "Ellie, I swear, if this is about the ghosts again, I'm throwing you into that lake."

#ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv miqo'te #ryne waters #gaia ffxiv #rynegaia #my ocs: lilyana tsuki #oc loreposting #this has been sitting in drafts for a while but seeing that post with the anon bitching about “special snowflake OCs” #and even though this still feels a little undercooked esp the writing i feel like posting out of spite lmao #like bruh you really think missing an eye is beyond the pale for special snowflake OCs? #i made one of my girls the reincarnation of an ancient lesbian before we even knew she was canonically a woman back then #this whole thing might just be an excuse to justify a power level increase for lily because she's recombining with one of her shards #(and somehow make it gay) #and maybe that's cringe but fuck it this game is special snowflake simulator 2013-2024 lmfao #long post #just in case

[anglerfishenthusiast]

it is incredibly frustrating to me that ive seen more people ship two men who do not fucking interact or even begin to have a dynamic with each other more than ive seen anyone even acknowledge the major female characters who have been relevant since before even boothill Came Out. im holding a gun to the head of all argenti x boothill fans until they can tell me the name of even a single woman (impossible apparently)

#i know i shouldnt be expecting more out of people but considering honkai used to have like an exclusively lesbian fanbase. come on. #ever since penacony dropped ive seen less than even a fraction of female character attention like come onnnnnn 😭 #despite the fact the fucking main cast of penacony is pretty evenly split male to female #like black swan and sparkle and acheron and firefly are just like. nonexistent to popular fan content #robins barely scraping by basically by proximity to sunday alone #but ive seen new fancy fucking argenti boothill art every day since even before boothill showed up or we knew argenti was even gonna show up #which he Barely showed up and not even in proximity to boothill like. please god. ppl would ship fence posts together if they were male #lemon squeezy.txt #honkai series

[handsomegentlebutch]

My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.

#butch speaks #it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head #when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god #the words came naturally to me #but they meant nothing #i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away #i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred #i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake #i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex #fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic #i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun #the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun. #not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO #the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love. #he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like #he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever. #he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer #then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there. #he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did. #but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there. #that wasnt for us. #my family wasnt even THAT catholic #i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group #i was an altar servant and in the choir #i even used to speak/understand a little latin #imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao #grateful to have grown up poor in that regard #hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually. #fucking hell. #i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[derpynat447]

Guess who's back into Winx club :)

Sorry to all my followers and mutuals who don't know what Winx is.

Go watch it. But....maybe stop after season 4?

#I don't hate season 4 and beyond #But I don't....love it. #winx club #winx tecna #winx musa #These two were my first ship before I even knew what shipping was #But I could sense the lesbian aura

[keekity]

ocs I never draw

#arguably my oldest ones #they’re like the reincarnations of lesbians from a story I wrote in elementary school before I even knew lesbians were a thing #I still had the story up until I moved like three years ago and now it’s lost in the void <\3 #my fart

[catlover4536]

@themissbanshee Your fem!wally design is so precious to me-

#I knew the second I saw her I needed to draw em ok #my lesbian heart demanded it #I hope I delivered #also note: #today I learned why people are bothered by Wally's stare #and even scared of it #because while drawing her big ol eyes I got a bit unnerved #and I was drawing her! #but yeah before this wally's stare was silly to me #I mean it is still overall silly to me #but I get why people don't like him staring too much today #:D #welcome home #wally darling #fem!wally #not my design #but by god do I love it #also I hope her dialouge isn't too weird #I am really bad at dialouge ok #my art

[maemil]

Did a little women of the clone wars sketchbook page. My ten year old ass was in love with all of these ladies when I first watched the show.

[ID: A photo of a sketchbook page. Star Wars characters Luminara Unduli, Aayla Secura, Ahsoka Tano and Barriss Offee are all drawn from the shoulders up in pencil. Aayla and Ahsoka are colored in fully with pencil, but only Barriss and Luminara's eyes have color]

#luminara unduli #aayla secura #ahsoka tano #barriss offee #star wars the clone wars #star wars #sw clone wars #the clone wars #sw art #my art #happy international women's day to these completely fictional women #doing feminism by filling this page entirely and still wishing I had more space for the other blorbos I wanna draw #vs the page after this which is technically a men of tcw one but it is not finished because i simply do not care about as many of them #Truly I would be drawing the same face 4 times if i stuck with favs only but clones felt like cheating #not lying when I said I was in love with them. I continue to be obsessed with aayla mostly because of my gay little childhood crush on her #and I *was* shipping barrissoka before I even knew what lesbians were #star wars is just about queer women kicking ass I think

[nomazee]

it always sends a little shock thru me when i find fic writers who write for fem readers but say they won’t write for fem reader x fem character for one reason or another i cant tell if it bothers me or makes me giggle

#nora??? ramble posting??? IN THIS ECONOMY??? #this doesn’t actually happen nowadays but i remmeber in my 2015 quotev days this was so common #and it confused me back then BEFORE I WAS EVEN OUT AS QUEER #baby me didn’t know i was a lesbian but i KNEW i was a lesbian u get what i mean #i feel like people who say this often are like ‘i just don’t know how to represent that kind of relationship’ #which IRKS ME IM SO SORRY it bothers me because it’s like #we’re … not that different! this is fanfiction! #nobody is expecting you to represent the woes and whims of a sapphic relationship #we read fics for fun most of the time #you do not need to have personal experiences in homophobia to write a fem reader x fem character drabble on tumblr #i don’t thjnk that like…ANYONE expects that out of a fic writer… #okay guys ramble OVER #all i do on this blog is write fics and talk about being queer #two best pastimes i fear #also omg i’ve gotten requests in my inbox and i swear i’m getting to them they’re so good im so excited to start working on them #i’ve been busy with so so much work but i SWEAR I WILL GET TO EVERYTHING SOON #nora speaks

[uncanny-tranny]

Holy duo of songs that weren't made to be explicitly queer, but can be read no other way: Jolene, Girl Crush

#lesbian #gay #bi #bisexual #lgbt #lgbtq #queer #look before i knew what being in lesbians with somebody meant i KNEW those songs were about being in lesbians with somebody #like yes they're technically about getting your man back but tbh it always felt like an afterthought... #...or a means to getting closer to the girl... #...'we both say we want this man but what we really wanted was each other' #like the man isn't important. he was the catalyst i guess but he doesn't matter #he doesn't hinge the women together the hinge is the womens' infatuation with the other - even if unreciprocated

[mayprilayunely]

tsubaki u got ur scarf a lil messed up there .......

#d4dj #d4dj groovy mix #dig delight direct drive dj #d4dj fanart #tsubaoi #aotsuba #aoi miyake #miyake aoi #tsubaki aoyagi #aoyagi tsubaki #fanart #so . i play d4dj too now . #intend to maybe draw it every once in a while even . #I LOVE WOMEN the game is so good #i love all of the girls they're literally all so amazing mwahmwah #i mean i did have pjsk on my phone for a bit before deciding #nah imma have 2 all girl lesbian rhythm games instead #bcs i knew my phone wouldn't handle all 3 #SO ANYWAY ! THEM . THEM =3 <3 #they're sososo good together they deserve everything good

[bucklikethedollar]

at least once a year i have to be reminded that sigourney weaver isn’t a lesbian

#i’m pretty sure i thought she was a lesbian before i even knew what a lesbian was #like i saw her in holes and just knew deep in my heart that she likes women #her not being a lesbian is the same to me as darren chris and james corden not being gay #like what the fuck are you talking about. yes they are. don’t lie to me. #bucky’s thoughts #sigourney weaver

[candied-cae]

Steve respecting Robin's secrecy as a lesbian no matter what made me so fucking happy all season long.

One of the biggest parts of Steve's character recently has been how he feels like he's failing all these expectations on who he is supposed to be and what he's supposed to be doing (ie. not being in College, feeling like Dustin is replacing him with Eddie, etc). And one of Steve's biggest traits as been his reputation as a womanizer. But even with his continued failure in that regard in S3 to mentioned redemption in S4, he never once tells anyone why he and Robin are just friends.

It would be incredibly easy for him to say "She's not into dudes, so really it's not my fault I haven't gotten with her, ya know?"

In the face of Dustin's continued pressing on the subject and the Nancy moment, he only has ever said that they are just friends. Because he respects Robin's decision on who she tells and understands that it is incredibly dangerous for that sort of news to spread in their time and place.

Sure, he'll tease her and encourage her to just go for it with Vickie, but he never tries to make her feel bad about being scared and never tells anyone (not even with the people he trusts in a "you can't tell her that you know" sort of way).

Because, even though Steve Harrington's first examples of abusive behavior were directed at queer people, he has accepted fault and grown from who he was in S1. And that's fucking beautiful.

More ST

#I love Steve Harrington #That is my bestie - my fav - my babygirl - my hero - my star #The second I saw season 2 and we started to see his character growth working - it was over for me #And just seeing him be so accepting of Robin's sexuality is so great #Even if he had a lil bit of a crush on her before he knew - as soon as she told him he never questioned or pushed her on it #it was just 'Oh. She's a lesbian. Well Robin we gotta get you better taste because Tammy Thompson was not it babe.' #And they can laugh and joke and he can annoy her by bringing up their shared affection for boobies! #It's not awkward or mean spirited #and it's never portrayed as a trust that Steve even remotely things he can betray #I love them both so fucking much #Steve Harrington #Robin Buckley #Stranger Things #Stranger Things 4 #Stranger Things 4 spoilers #Stranger Things 4 volume 2 spoilers #Character Analysis #ST meta