#borderline vent

[thefluoritebpd]

One of the worst things about BPD is the addiction to pain. You feel so hollow that when you feel any kind of pain, you want to continue it for no reason other than to at the very least feel something. I was just watching a triggering video and continued to trigger myself further, I started crying, and I still didn't stop. And now that I'm calm, I have no idea what to do with it, and the emptiness that came back, so I want to trigger myself again. Because even with all the mood swings, you're still hollow. That's probably why so many borderlines refer to self-harm as a coping mechanism. Love and pain are probably the strongest emotions I've ever felt, and that's probably why abusive relationships felt right in the past.

But also knowing this feels like people would diminish my pain, to he honest. I know it doesn't, and I still have trauma, I'm hurting, it doesn't matter who triggered me... but still.

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[booksbonesborderline]

maybe if i reinvent myself enough times, ill find a version of myself i actually like and want to be

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[autisticdreamdrop]

BPD things 10

"tell me about you" idk i'm mentally ill

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[bpdbean]

i’m so tired of my mood totally being determined by other people

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[lostcitysystem]

*telling someone I have BPD and the struggles I have with it*

Them: “Oh but you’re so nice! You probably have quiet BPD like you don’t get angry or mean at all!!”

Stop. Fucking. Stereotyping. BPD.

Even if I was a mean, angry person who happens to have BPD, it doesn’t mean I always show it. People with BPD mask their symptoms all the time due to fear of abandonment. If your first thought when someone tells you they have BPD is to say that they don’t because they’re “so nice”, you’re being prejudiced. BPD can make people angry and vitriolic and bitter and it doesn’t make them bad people. Just,,,, hhhhhhhhh,,,, be better to people with chronic mental illnesses.

(Obviously not excusing bad actions made by people with BPD or abuse or anything like that, just saying that you shouldn’t assume anyone with BPD is some sort of horrible person because of symptoms you read about or experiences you had)

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[2outta3aintbad]

Sometimes bpd is like wow I can’t fucking believe I’ve made it this far in life I’m obviously superhuman!!! Untouched by the dystopian hell that has driven others to madness!!! Clearly invincible!!!! Mental illness has nothing on me!!! And then you accidentally drop something on the floor and conclude that you should actually be exiled from the planet and yeeted into to sun for being the dumbest most disgraceful useless fuck-up ever to darken this universe with its existence

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[elainiisms]

i love my brain! my friends jokingly made fun of me and now i am ready to end it all!!!

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[chaos-in-one]

Cutely Googles "how to stop your mental health from spiraling to hell every time your fp goes offline, even when you know it's because they are literally just sleeping"

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[borderline-vents]

let’s face it… if you’re here, you may need this. it’s okay to reach out when you need help. let’s try to stay alive for each other.

international list of suicide hotlines from suicide.org

welcome to this blog.

we’ll post any vent here feel free to scream and cry and rage in our askbox we don’t judge. you don’t gotta be diagnosed to vent here.

we’re not a therapist or a psychiatrist we can’t give advice or diagnose you we’re just here to listen.

we got severe mental illness (5 diagnoses besides bpd) and ugly symptoms. we know what its like to be the black sheep and to be not taken seriously and even hated by loved ones.

when sending an ask it would be helpful to include potential triggers so we can tag them properly. we struggle to understand what needs trigger tags sometimes.

general tw for this blog it could get pretty dark here but we don’t want to censor bpd voices. we deserve a place to vent apart from our own blogs and hopefully this can be it. we’ll try to tag specific triggers on vents when necessary.

this blog is inspired by @borderline-culture-is and @borderlinereminders we love y’all and just wanted a venting space for people like us.

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[strawberryvent9]

Guys with bpd are like "I'm such a free thinker"

The same dudes when kangel :

Girl/feminine pronoun version

Non binary/gender neutral version

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[bpdincubus]

Love self sabotaging and splitting and causing all my friends to hate me and think Im a horrible person. I mean at this point I probably am a horrible person. If they all think it then it must be true and I should just die, right?

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[autisticdreamdrop]

BPD things 9

having Mommy AND Daddy issues

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[traumatizedjaguar]

The fact that someone can go an entire friendship with you, deceiving you and manipulating you, the weight of that comes crushing down on you. It causes trust issues, makes you scared what else could they have done that you’re unaware of, gives you anxiety about future relationships and worst of all, it makes you realize they didn’t love you. They aren’t even hurt by hurting you. They don’t care how antagonistic they are they excuse it. “I wasn’t trying to hurt you, so therefore you aren’t hurt.” Just bc you’re not affected by certain kind of emotional abuse, doesn’t mean others aren’t.

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[frank-ieros-bitxh]

what it's like having an fp i think my ideal world would be just me and them. because that way nothing would change for me, but they'd know what it feels like. the closest literary comparison i could possibly make is the way basil feels about dorian in The Picture Of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde, except this isn't romantic. is this romantic? i don't believe so, it transgresses that. i don't know if there's a word to describe how i feel about them, besides wholeheartedly. the way basil feels that he is entirely dominated by the existence of dorian, and that he is nothing if not fully and purely infatuated with him. i genuinely believe that there's not a thing they could ask of me that i wouldn't give them, or at the very least kill myself in an attempts to do so. i could be the most philosophically and academically inclined person in a room until they enter it, because then from that point forward i'm a child, desperate for the attention and affection i never received. i've carefully chosen the term "platonic intimacy" to describe this, the crave for such delicate interactions that i deny from everyone else. it doesn't matter who you are, if you try to hug me, or hold my hand, or any other form of gentle physical touch i will recoil, denying you the interaction. unless, that is, you're them. i will actively refuse verbal and physical comfort from anyone else under the sun, because i cannot, for even a second, let my guard down to accept said comfort. what if, in that second when my defenses are down, they recognize my vulnerability and attempt to cause me harm? that's why i refuse to be weak, unless it's with them. they wouldn't hurt me, and if they did, i deserve it and would feel the overwhelming need to end my life. i genuinely believe they wouldn't hurt me on purpose, but then again there's times their tone of voice changes, or their posture or their mood and it feels like my world is crashing down around me. what's wrong, darling? is it something i said? or maybe you don't like the way i said it? or is it the way i chose to do my makeup or my hair or dress today? please tell me what's upsetting you about me, so i can change it immediately so you'll love me more. please, just love me. a simple "love u" text instead of "i love you" feels like tiny daggers being injected into my bloodstream, making their way to my heart. i'd die for you, i'd live for you, my whole existence revolves around you, anything to make it not revolve around myself. no matter how hard i try to change it, my entire day is determined on how we interact. i could he having a great day, nothing bringing me down, but when i see you, you're distant and upset. you matter more to me than i do, please, just let me help. i'll make it better, i promise.

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[01922ventblog]

you ruined my life, but i love you so much

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[h3ll0kittygf]

it's so hard to not fall down the same path as my bio mom , i just wanna not feel .

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