#by that last question i mean what parts of iv theory do you have a hard time understanding

[kibbygutzzzz]

I saw your post about Feng and arcade in the New map, went to check your page bc it is funny and got jumpscared by your reblog of my art

Anyways, hiiii🌸

ooga booga

but also im very much a "the unknown is dwight" theory/au truther, although my favorite thing about the unknown is how up to interpretation he is!

getting into my theory however, first off, i mean. look at them.

same hair and the same pants. however, dwight has short sleeves while the unknowns are rolled up. so take that how you will.

there were also three lines of his in the lobby that stood out to me.

"i lived in dungeons long forgotten."

"i'll send you a postcard."

"prepare for the expedition."

the first one could potentially reference the fog itself and the various realms within, the maps the trials take place in. many of which are relics of the past, left to rot.

the last two stick out to me due to dwight having entered the fog on a camping expedition, being abandoned by his coworkers in the woods.

dwight before the fog was already a bit of a questionable person, having drugged his boss in his tome lore. granted, he had no idea it would result in his boss nearly beating someone to death, but it was odd he even did that in the first place.

take this one with a grain of salt as it references a non canonical game, but could give us insight into dwights feelings regarding the fog and being the "leader" of the survivors.

to paraphrase his monologue down to the most telling parts,

"watching wraith get eliminated was the first time in this unending spiral staircase of pain that is my life that ive felt even a modicum of joy."

"every minute that i'm alive is a nightmare."

"please, erase me from this existence. make it so i was never born. pull the plug on this experiment and let my soul be free!"

if this is how he feels about being in that resort for eternity, how do you think he feels leading such an increasingly large group of people? in a realm such as the fog?

dwight most likely finally went off the edge, and the entity took that opportunity to turn him into it's newest killer, possibly using him to lure in new survivors as well.

as for the the unknown being so violently deformed and twisted, i can see that representing dwights once altruistic ideals being contorted and twisted over time into resentment and a desire for power.

although. this is just a theory. i wonder what kind of theory :3c

#what if we call this au....... undwight #dbd #dead by daylight #dwight fairfield #the unknown #hooked on you #killer dwight #the unknown dbd #dbd theory #dbd spoilers #tw body horror #all things wicked

[dykesagainstgojo]

geto suguru, gojo satoru, and fatalism

im here once again with a long rant that i didnt really bother to reread. if you squint you can see it as a jujutsu kaisen 0 analysis. theres a part where i talk about geto in what can be seen as someone presenting passive suicidal thoughts, but its neither heavy nor explicitly about that so. just warning.

lately ive been thinking a lot about geto being left alone to do whatever he wanted for 10 years because gojo, the only person strong enough to defeat him, simply never tracked him down. almost as a consequence, i eventually put this together with the fact that, even though yuta was the one who did the "difficult" part of defeating geto, gojo was the one to deliver the final blow

one of the first things geto said after seeing gojo in that alley was "to think you'd be the one here at my end", but lately, i cant help but think: wasnt that actually the most obvious end? was there ever any other option of closure for them? and ive been into the idea of stsg + tragedy (as a genre) since i wrote this post, so this somehow resulted in me looking at them with some kind of lazy fatalistic lens

i really like stories where the character tries to flee from an imminent tragedy, but always goes back to the same place, because that is his fate. and, to me, this is exactly what happened with gojo when he tried to avoid killing geto. he didnt go after him, he spent 10 years standing still, believing the distance would be enough to run away from that moral duty

and then geto came back

and then geto went after gojo students. and then geto was the one who made their meeting happen. and then geto was the one who broke that barrier gojo had put up to avoid thinking about that unhealed wound. suddenly gojo was back to shinjuku, ten years ago, with geto saying that killing him or letting him go was his choice and that there would be a meaning to it

and i keep asking myself what was going on in his mind at that moment when geto appeared at jujutsu high? did he acknowledge that irony? did he acknowledge how that seemed like a bad joke being played on him? how long did it take for him to accept what that meant? was it in the classroom, after their talk, looking at the sunset and thinking about how they were actually quite similar to yuta and rika? changing the place of their conversation to the middle of the street, the same place where rika died her premature death? did he think about how they were also stuck at each other, cursed by love, and how the one who placed the curse must be the one to remove it? how, as said by the novel, the curse of geto suguru was a burden only he would be able to carry?

and this whole thing also made me think about geto. we know for a fact he thought that their friendship was over, that he wasnt someone gojo held dear anymore. we also know he thought gojo deserved to hate him, to curse him, to not take that last meeting of theirs and waste it treating him kindly so, to geto, what justified the fact that gojo never found him? i genuinely dont have a theory. im not even sure if i have a hypothesis that is in any way backed up by canon. but, what i can say almost for sure is that he never got it right. and him thinking gojo and him were best friends is proof of that

then the question thats left is: was geto ever aware of the tragic irony of his death by gojos hands? was dying by gojos hands ever a tragedy from his perspective? the way he never put up a fight against that possibility says otherwise. looking at his ideals, living a meaningless life seems a far more tragic thing for him. but wasnt that what he was doing already? doing his best for a goal he knew made no sense? whenever i think about geto saying he didnt expect gojo to be the one there at his end, i cant help but wonder: was that said in a positive way? was that a surprisingly satisfactory means to go? being killed by the person who cursed him and also the person he loved the most; to geto, was there a more meaningful death than that?

#jjk #satosugu #also yeah i know yuki would put up a good fight against geto since she was also a special grade but come on #i cant think of a single argument that would convince her to buy this fight #and also. its pretty much canon gojo was the only one from the four special grades to be above geto so. #jujutsu kaisen #gojo satoru #geto suguru

[richkidcityfriends]

your opinion on 2022 winter Olympics

okay so im assuming this is only about figure skating and i mean oml there was so much going on. below the cut bc i think this is gonna be long.

okay so FIRST OF ALL the kamila valieva situation. where to begin. (as a note: none of this is a statement on her except in relation to the 2022 olys)

the positive test being from rusnats and only being found out in february is weird. idk if we ever found out exactly why that happened? but i can only assume it was meddling from the russian end.

i think the media response was cruel, and i think part of that was a lot of people were trying to talk about it without knowing the full situation, but the amount of vicious hate and blame kamila received was unjustified. she was fifteen years old and in an abusive situation, to what extent she knew about the doping is irrelevant in my mind, the blame falls on the adults in power (mainly her coaches). eteri tutberidze is notoriously controlling and abusive, and there is no way any of that was happening without her being responsible. she controls the amount of WATER her skaters can drink. skating at that level, especially in russia, your coach is practically your primary guardian; if eteri told her to dope then there was pretty much nothing she could do. only eteri girls were ever going to go to the olympics, if she switched coaches that would have ended her life's goal (and the way they train is so all-consuming that to not get to the olympics at all would have felt life shattering).

should she have been been allowed to skate? i dont think so. at least partially bc it essentially proves to coaches that you can "get away with" doping as long as the people you are drugging are children. obviously having an athlete who has taken performance enhancing drugs is unfair to everyone else, but that goes without saying. HOWEVER i do understand the worry that the test could have been wrong or she might not have known, either way it would have been unfair to her. (the "irreparable harm" quote is always taken out of context - they meant that if she skated and was found guilty they could strip her of the medal, but if she was banned and found innocent there was no fixing it). ultimately though i think letting her skate was the wrong decision (especially since the case STILL hasnt been settled).

i dont think eteri told her to throw the free to make sure the others got their medals, because she looked so traumatised afterwards and eteri reacted so badly (ive never understood this theory tbh)

that was the first scandal from the olys but oml it was definitely not the last. there was so much going on. olympics from hell. lets talk about the womens podium.

(but first a note on ultra c elements: do i think the sport is suffering because of the increased value placed on jumps? yes. do i think artistry is important? absolutely. do i think there is a conversation to be had about the morals of training young children (especially girls) to do dangerous jumps that cause permanent damage to their bodies? one hundred fucking percent. things need to change in this sport. however. i will make repeated references to whether or not someone is jumping ultra c when discussing the podium, because that is how its scored atm, and i do think that they aren’t irrelevant (it is a sport, athletic feats are also important) just please please know that i am also taking artistry into account its just harder to objectively phrase in a short paragraph and this is already long enough). okay caveat over. please no one attack me. lets go.

look i KNOW the most pressing question is do i think anna deserved gold HOWEVER. have you considered. did anna deserve to be sent to the olympics at all. and this makes me insane because like?? skating like she did at the olys?? yeah she probably deserved to be there!! so it kinda seems mean to talk about this but ALSO i feel like we definitely have to not forget it so. the russian olympic team was pretty much based off of the podium for rusnats, which that year was kamila, sasha, anna. but anna in third place was veryyy controversial bc like. she had no ultra c elements at all (and her tech is DODGY so without them it gets even harder to justify her high scores) but elizaveta had a triple axel (and better tech) so a LOT of people thought that she should have come third, but rusfed just wanted to send anna to the olys instead (which i pretty much agree with).

but okay whether you like it or not she DID make the olympic team so. womens olympic podium. a grenade of a question. everyone is allowed their own opinions on it im not saying anyone is wrong if they think differently!!!!! also im only going to talk about the top five bc this is already wayyy too long.

i know on tiktok a while back the popular opinion was that wakaba should’ve been gold, which i don’t really agree with, however she absolutely should not have been fifth. no doubt in my mind she should have been at LEAST fourth, if not third. kamila should have been behind her i don’t care how many quads she was attempting, she fell like five times. she got through on reputation and the eteri bonus alone. kaori did skate cleanly, but with no triple c, and her tech isn’t great on some of her jumps, so wakaba (who fell on a jump, but had a triple axel, and generally better tech and artistry imo) could have come third and i would have been happy. anna i go back and forth on, because her artistry is alright, and technically she does jump quads, but her tech skills are SO questionable (her quad lutz is neither a quad nor a lutz). the tech bar for quads is lower than for triples, and i do kinda think that makes sense, but her quad tech is worse than most of the other quad jumping girls so it’s a fair comparison. i don’t think she deserved gold, but im never fully sure about silver either. honestly her, wakaba, and kaori can fight it out for second/third/fourth. in terms of actual skaters i like wakaba best, in terms of who performed best on the day i think you could make a compelling argument for any order.

that of course leaves sasha in first place. i know she fell on her triple axel in the short, but the only people who didn’t fall at all were anna (i’ll talk about her last) and kaori, and while triple c elements aren’t the only important thing, the skater who fell on one and landed five kind of has to be above the skater who attempted none at all, imo, so that puts kaori out of the running. wakaba fell once as well, and she definitely has the edge on artistry, but i don’t think sashas artistry was as bad as a lot of people say, especially in her short, so i don’t think thats quite enough to put wakaba ahead of sasha overall. sasha’s tech skills were so much higher than the rest of the skaters that i think it would be almost impossible to bridge that gap with artistry alone. lastly theres anna, who ofc actually won the ogm. two clean skates, slightly better artistry, much worse tech (i know sasha’s tech isn’t perfect either, but she’s definitely better – id say thanks to plushenko). annas tech should have been called, if not her edges then at least for prerotation. sasha fell on a triple axel and anna landed a double in the short, sasha landed five quads and anna landed two in the free. taking into account how poor her quad tech is, i don’t think that her artisty is enough to pass sasha.

however!!!! again i want to reiterate!!!!! everyone is allowed their own opinions on this!!! i do not give a damn if you think that anastasiia shabotova should have come first!!!! go you!!! to each their own <3

now for something that i do think you can wrong about. the reaction to sashas reaction to the scores was appalling. she was seventeen years old (a CHILD) in an extremely high stress situation and had been told by her (abusive, manipulative) coaches that if she landed all five quads she would win, and when this turned out to be untrue she got upset and had what was clearly a panic attack, asked not to be filmed and was ignored by every cameraman in the area, had to immediately go in front of millions of people while still being a mess, and was then attacked from all angles for being “ungrateful” and “showing bad sportsmanship.” show some empathy. (especially ppl who are still giving out about it now “on behalf of anna” when they seemed to be at least friendly again as soon as the very next day)

OKAY WE’RE ALMOST DONE i mostly only follow women’s so the rest of this is going to be brief

sui/han deserved ogm, my sister and i were rooting for miura/kihara to do well but we knew there was no chance for a medal. loving seeing them do so well rn.

nathan chen’s costume was ridiculous. last time i said my nathan chen take i got eaten alive on tiktok so im not gonna say much about him. he did deserve gold tho.

scoring felt harsh on yuzuru. wish he’d gotten another ogm but it wasn’t meant to be. im glad he got to attempt the quadruple axel at the olympics at least.

papadakis/cizeron ogm deserved.

oh MY god i forgot about the team event. pls someone save me. im so sorry i know no one wants this much. this isn’t even the worst i can do. i have talked at my friends for hours straight before about figure skating. i cant help it i have no control. we are going to ignore the team event okay. Just give them their medals. pls. i beg. they still don’t have their medals. i know it sucks for the rest of the russian team if they lose the gold bc kamila was stripped but you have to give the rest of them their medals.

anyway if you made it until the end here is a gold star ⭐ i don’t know how you did it.

#i am SO sorry #this is way too long #but anyway yes here is a brief (yes ik but i promise this is brief) overview of my most pressing olys 2022 opinions #yes this is almost 2000 words long and yes i wrote it instead of my english hw #oh also when i say you in the post that is the impersonal you. one. no part of it is directed in particular at anyone!!!! #im not giving out to anyone!!! #altho if anyone has any questions or anything pls ask and i will elaborate #asks #figure skating #roboobin #also idk if this is even legible its the middle of the night and im sick

[where-dreamers-go]

Reading and rambling: The Fork, the Witch, and the Worm

(Tales from Alagaësia VOLUME 1: ERAGON)

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PART TWO: THE WITCH

IV. Rhymes and Riddles

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The Witch, eh?

Rhymes and Riddles?? My brain is in the wrong fandom right now...

Eragon stared across his desk at Angela the herbalist, studying her.

It's my giiiiirrrrrrllllll!!!! Hey!!!!

Eragon, scoot over.

Actually, no. It's snowing??? It's winter! Was your harvest good? Do you have enough food?

(I, a Floridian in the USA, have never seen snow in real life. Anyway...)

Solembum! Hey, I always have trouble spelling your name. I second guess myself.

. . . but for the most part, the wards Eragon had set kept out the snow and cold.

Wait. You don't have curtains or shutters or SOMETHING? I know they're probably huge, but... brrrr

Elva is there too???

*visibly uncomfortable*

I wonder how her growth and lifespan will be.

Okay okay. We got Eragon who still feels responsible for Elva and cringy about not having finished the hold to live in.

I like how Angela is calling Eragon a different title or name every time. Like same. "Argetlam." "Kingslayer."

The last thing he wanted to do was offend this quicksilver-like woman.

Yes. Don't do that. Ever. I'm one who thinks she's one of the grey ones or whatever they're called. Something I barely remember, but I remember my thoughts of, she must be waaaay older and not human.

". . . how Nasuada's pet spellcasters in Du Vrangr Gata are making life difficult for harmless, innocent hedge witches such as myself."

See? See? I told you! (Okay, maybe not you personally, but I've said it out loud in rants at home.) It's a difficult situation... Tricky. I'd move.

Also, Elva is still so young and has had much thrusted upon her mind. She does have much to learn and some guidance needed. Hopefully nothing unnerving has happened... or was implied.

"An autobiography of sorts, if you will."

Uhh. Angela, what has Elva hinted to you? Or did you sense something? I need details. Are you okay???

Same. Except I have a lot of white hair from years and years of stress and anxiety. And genetics.

The curly-haired woman didn't look any older than her early twenties.

She made an expression of mock outrage. "Here now! You dare question my conviction, Shur'tugal?!"

Reading on, I love whatever kind of friendship this is.

Do you know what fun conversations you could have with them together? Or separately??

She called him, "Bromsson" now. I love her.

OHMYGOODNESS, I WAS JUST TALKING ABOUT THE PUZZLE RING A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO! Of course, I just remembered the puzzle part and how Eragon couldn't figure it out until he was elf-upgraded without his permission.

"And what perspective is yours?" he asked softly.

"That of the ring maker," she answered in an equally soft tone.

Okay. Okay.... Come on, brain, I know it's getting late, but you got this. Goodness, that's a good response, Angela. I mean, she's making the book, writing it, and all. But what else?

Then we have Solembum:

Beware of shadows that walk, human. There are strange forces at work in the world.

Why do I love those two so much? Would my opinion change if I reread the earlier books? (I read Eragon and Eldest in middle school, Brisingr is high school, and Inheritance in college.)

I would probably annoy Eragon with going back and forth talking with Angela if he had questions. Sorry, darling, I have worldly theories to discuss and ones to expand upon. Have a cookie.

Anyway, it looks like I get to read Angela's manuscript too? Yay!!!

#tftwatw #reading and rambling #eragon #the fork the witch and the worm #where dreamers go #the world of eragon

[morkofday]

5 Songs Tag - QL Shows Edition

tagged by vi @feralmuskyscentedhoepran​​ ♥ thank you once more for thinking of me with these cool tag games ^^ 

When you get this, list 5 songs from the Asian QL media that you actually listen to.

🎶They do not have to be custom-made for the series. 🎶Non-western tracks only. Let's support Asian music and languages! 🎶Feel free to tag anyone who may be interested in participating. 🎶Add #5qls tag to your post for others to find the new favourites!

all of these will be from thai shows as i mostly pick up songs from those. i've also been watching mainly thai shows lately so i don't have much else to choose from, sorry...

I. ข้างกัน (City) - Fourth Nattawat and Gemini Norawit (Cover) My School President OST / Original by Three Man Down

To be honest, I love both the original version and this cover from MSP. The cover just holds double the meaning. It is both part of TinnGun’s story – their first meeting, their beginning, the reason why Tinn fell for Gun and why they fit together now – and PuenTalay's story in their own universe. It connects these two universes too, and that is why I’m so fond of it. Also, Gemini and Fourth make this song sound even softer than it already is. (My other favorites from MSP ost are Healing, Let Me Tell You, and the cover of Just Being Friendly, tho the whole soundtrack is just phenomenal.)

II. ใครคลั่งรักกว่ากัน (Madly in Love) - Jimmy Jitaraphol and Sea Tawinan Our Skyy 2 x Vice Versa OST

This song is so very PuenTalay but also so JimmySea. It’s extremely soft, romantic, a little playful, cute, and just loving all the way around. It compliments both of their voices and styles, and just makes me super happy. The lyrics are nice too. My favorite part is the one where Jimmy changes the way he sounds in the chorus (Idk what to call it sorry). It’s towards the end of the song. It’s just super cool somehow and very addicting.

III. คลาด (Over the Moon) - Khaotung Thanawat The Eclipse OST

Absolutely obsessed with this song. One of the best theme songs a BL has ever had, hands down. Truly lived up to the hype I got from hearing this song in the mock up trailer. I love Khaotung’s voice, the visuals in the MV, the lyrics, the instrumental. Overall just a perfect song for me specifically. (To be fair, The Eclipse has had two of my favorite soundtracks with this and their Our Skyy 2 song. Instant hits, no question.)

IV. ก่อน - Pchy Dew The Movie OST

I don’t think any other piece of media has ever made me feel the way Dew The Movie does. It was, and still is, simply everything to me. And this song. This song. I cannot put into words how perfect, how wonderful, how special this song is. I cry every time I hear it because it’s just so fully packed with all these feelings I cannot describe. I love it. I love it so much. And for the love of god, if you haven’t watched this movie, go do it right now. 

V. ร้อยล้านวิว (Million views) - Stamp Last Twilight Pilot Trailer 

I don’t know how well this song fits the criteria for this game but I found this lovely thing bc of the Last Twilight trailer and now I cannot get rid of it. It’s been on my playlist ever since this trailer dropped in November and not a day goes by that I don’t listen to it. It’s just so good and always brings me back to these moments. I keep hoping they would keep this song in the show itself or that they will get an OST that sounds similar, instrumental and lyrical wise. Bc my god did this song hit again once I stopped being lazy and looked up a translation for the lyrics. Now I’m crying even more bc of it thanks.

Bonus: พระเอกจำลอง by Getsunova from the Theory of Love OST. One of my eternal favorites. This song just is the show.  Special mentions: These are western songs so I didn’t want to include them to the list itself but I have to mention that Blueming brought me back to sød ven’s music bc they used the song hollow for the show (the beach scenes to be specific). I am forever grateful. Also, I love the songs both Not Me and Never Let Me Go used in their soundtracks, specifically this one and this one (both are instrumental as these shows have made me appreciate instrumentals a lot more too).

Tagging: @dimpledpran​​ @snimeat​​ @wanderlust-in-my-soul​​ @dragonsareawesome123​​ @oswlld​​ @leonpob​​ @stormyoceans​​ @ayan-sukkhapisit​​ @nongnaos​​ ♥ 

#tag game #5qls #this is not that very diverse but #i am still so surprised every day that #these days i enjoy the bl osts a lot #in the past is used to not like them haha #but now it feels like they drop banger after banger #or maybe it's just bc i love many of the singers so much?

[thatonesongyouretryingtoremember]

✨️intro post✨️

I edit this over time so please check it kinda often for updates esp the last part with some posts I really like/ that I used real life braincells on, and the beginning for if I add more sideblogs. If you have LITERALLY ANY other questions not answered here, shoot me an ask in my inbox and I will probably answer. If I think it's in good faith but poor taste I'll just say that, so if you're being nice I won't be mad or at least I'll like the attention :3

I'm thatonesongyouretryingtoremember. Song for short and OneSong for long. Or Remy??? I use all pronouns or it/it's. My other blogs are @aroasexualboypussy which is a regular sideblog where I keep fandom rbs besides my own fandoms and spam rbs and @jupiter-jayfield-official which is a Mikhailgate blog/El appreciation blog kinda.I also made a blog called @twasagraveyardsmash and that's my "music blog" aka rambling, keysmashing, and reblogging about music I like, someone likes, or my other music- related posts. I have another ST rp blog as Max- @madmaxmayfield71 , and at some point I started a blog called @byler-freeze-book with the intention of it being a byler tag positivity blog but it kinda flopped. You can still send asks there tho <2 @angelbymadonna is my art blog. I also have a Miraculous roleplay blog as Zoe's superhero form, Vesperia @the-real-bee-holder-vesperia

Tumblr-spouse to @exhausted-enby-vibes <2, coparent of Mikhail Max

My blog used to have this glitch where it was hidden, but I didn't do anything to cause that, so if you see smthng lemme know. I also am still confused by tags on here, so lemme know if I tag something wrong. I also reblog most of the art I see, but I don't always know who's in it, so if I end up reblogging a problematic fanart on accident (which I haven't done yet) lemme know as well.

Hashtags I use

#song spouts bullshit, shitposts/non-ST posts

#song says a smart thing, new tag I'm gonna put on longer posts

#songs textpost bullshit, or #song's textpost bullshit, original textpost memes and meme formats

#artist song, my original art [find it on my art blog as well, linked above] [includes ficlets and visual art, the latter with image description]

#song's st rewatch, details and commentary while I watch the show!

#angela is jane, #angela ives, a theory I elaborate on further down in this post

Blog type/ content (I say content, what I mean is it's what my blog contains. It's for me, not you.)

I'll talk about my ST stuff first since that's what I'm primarily posting rn. I'm a fandom blog and will be for the foreseeable future. As far as ST, I have alot of ship content, but in my other fandoms I don't care as much about shipping. You can ask me about fandoms/media I like maybe :)

I ship elmax, byler, Lumax, hopclair, elumax, jargyle, jancy, Boyce, jopper, boycer, duzie, and a few other things. I also reblog some ronance, steddie, byclair etc content as well. My favorite ST character is Kali. Occasionally you'll see my blog possessed by the soul of a Kali disciple or elmax fangirl. I also some fandom posts besides my own if I'm reblogging art from my mutuals' reblogs ofc.

I post a bunch of shitposts about Stranger Things, and longposts related to theories or analysis I'm into at the time.

I am still not over Mikhailgate, btw. Even though I personally think Mikhail ships byler, alot of my mikhailgate content is willhail.

I also read KotLC, riordanverse (I've read 1-14 of chb chronicles and most of 15 and obv not Chalice yet, 1-2 Kane Chronicles, 1-3 mcga, and none of the spinoffs so far. Can't wait for the show!), and I watch The Owl House, Dragon Prince, and She-Ra 2018. I'm not as avidly in fandom for these but I like them. If there's something else you think I might like or don't know if I've seen/read, lemme know! At the time I'm writing this update, I'm sorry into Miraculous Ladybug! but I haven't seen the second half of S5 yet.

Stuff I want you to know

I have a detailed post about the history of mikhailgate.

My Spotify has tons of character playlists!

I have a theory about Kali's time at the lab which is actually a thinly disguised rant about her halfway finished arc.The theory is ass and I no longer believe it, but the rant still stands and I still believe she has more to offer.

^^pretty obviously not gonna happen but I like to keep it up :) it's an old theory that I no longer believe but I still think she should be in the next szn!!!

I wrote a thing about the Material Girl shopping sequence aka about El my beloved nobody else understands her <2.

Nancy and Steve are aromantic. (Check the respective tags as well, I have more)

Byler Week 2022

I'm right about El, nobody else. Jk but here's my super smart ST5 prediction! Aka thinly disguised El Hopper fangirl rant😅😅

Once again I'm the only correct person (/nsrs) so here's the official list my take of the party's riordanverse godly parents

Check out this post and this one and this one to start learning about the theory that Angela is the real Jane Ives!

There are tags for it too, #angela is jane, and #angela ives, make sure to check them out because there is always new input! This is related to the theories that El is actually not Terry's daughter, that El *is* Edward Creel's daughter (I'm not the guy to ask about those, shoot me an ask and I'll tell you who tho!) And that multiple timelines exist within what we see of Stranger Things!

#intro post #pin post #hopefully I did this right #song spouts bullshit #artist song

[midnightsandmadness]

hi, i just read your post about your experience with aphantasia and how you focused on relationships between people. i struggle immensely with the part before anything: conceptualizing. i describe it as aphantasia but with concepts/coming up with them. i cannot conceptualize anything without for example, reading prompts until one makes me go "oh!". if you asked me to "reimagine" a fairy tale, i wouldnt be able to do it, it just causes me immense pain. being unable to conceptualize as an artist, brings me actual physical and mental pain. ive taken writing classes, ive listened to how writers do their own conceptions, but none of it clicks, you know? it feels distant. like i HEAR their words and it makes sense in theory but putting into practice i will sit there for hours not being able to do anything. i dont understand it, and i feel like im alone in this. i wonder if this is something you might relate to or have heard anyone else describe.

So I'd really like more context if you could? Like is it that you have trouble coming up with ideas on your own? Without something posing a question? Or that your ideas don't feel original? Or does it feel like a mental block for coming up with ideas? Is it just the concept you have trouble with? (For example, I want to write a story about witches but you can't get past that?)

For now, I'm going to talk about my own history with struggling to conceptualize a novel idea or other project. What that means to me when I hear it.

I stopped writing for years. And almost blocked that part of myself off, and when I tried coming back it felt like trying to swim through glue.

Ideas felt forced and contrived and sooo difficult to come up with. It did feel painful trying to do anything of the sort. For the most part, I think this took a lot of time and constant attempts at creating something to start passing. I've been back at trying to write for the last few years. And it only feels like the last little while that things feel like they flow a little more naturally.

I really do think creativity is like a muscle. You have to be trying to work with it in some capacity regularly to make progress, to keep it active and healthy. You have to feed it the right nutrients, which I'd call other stories or media or music or whatever inspires you.

And it can take time, but all you can do it keep trying.

In the meantime though, I wanted to say there is nothing wrong with writing prompts. Or anything else that gets you writing. Maybe it's not the great novel you want to write someday, but you have to start somewhere. The idea for that great project is going to come to you one day, you just have to keep trying.

People act like passion is some magical thing you just feel light you up. And maybe it is like that for some people all the time. But it's not like that for me, writing can feel like work. It can be hard and scary and sometimes I feel like I'll never create something worth anyone else's time. Maybe right now I even feel like that most of the time.

But it doesn't always feel that way. What is it you love about creating? Find that and hold on to it.

(I hope you message again. I'm not sure I entirely understood what you're trying to get at, but I hope something here helped anyway. Good luck and dm me if you wanna talk!)

#writblr #ask #help #writing help #original writing #writers on tumblr #creative writing #writing

[stagefoureddiediaz]

really its because of you that ive become sort of. not obssesed but like whenever i watch the show i just. keep looking at the costumes! trying to look for the patterns in your theories and its become one of my favorite parts of this hahahah anyway, the point is i was reading some of your check theory posts earlier today and now i started rewatching animal instincts (mind you i havent read your costume meta for that ep, i shoumd have done my homework!) and it was just really interesting to see it play out perfectly! specially in the scenes with buck + connor and cameron. like, in the dinner scene buck (buck's in black, i already read that disscusion) but also connor was in check! and cameron's shirt had like a big floral pattern and all i could think about was how that was sort of a reflection on what they would bring to buck after that scene! (which also like, reinforces the idea that the sperm donor thing is a Bad Idea), then connor wearing check to buck's loft later, aaaand my favorite, which i actually spotted during my first watch, was the stripes haha (i also think like half my dash was people going insane over that last monday), and the fact that buck wasnt the only one wearing the stripes, but i dont remember exactly what was the difference between vertical and horizontal stripes rn hahaha because ofc buck saying yes to the donation is supposed to be this big life change for connor and his wife, but i dont know what it all means! im just here chilling and spotting the patterns. idk, your costume theory is stuck on loop in my head and i cannot stop thinking about it!

(and im not even gonna get into the slutty black tanktop of it all and chris's new patterned pjs! thats a job for the professionals)

how did i do? did i get the assignment right? hahahaha anyway thank you for helping me and all of us actually to appreciate the art and thought that goes into costume design, its really interesting to me and i wouldnt have started to learn more about it if it werent for you 💛 have a great weekend and see you next monday!!

jj / babygirldiazz

JJ/ babygirldiazz

I'm so sorry its taken me an age to reply to this! real life got a bit crazy for the last 10 days or so - fighting literal and metaphorical floods and fires at work so I just haven't had the brain power to go through my inbox properly until now!

I adore that you are having fun playing spot the patterns and see if they fit the theory. I hope you're now read the Animal instincts costume meta and that you enjoyed it. you're pretty spot on with your analysis of everything and the thing with stripes is that my theory is about the horizontal ones we see on lots of characters - which Conor was the one wearing in that scene.

The vertical stripes is a specific Buck thing, and they tend to accompany him being emotionally compromised (and invariably ending up making a less than stellar choice). This is really interesting and I've only just fully put two and two together on this (so JJ you get all the praise and gratitude for allowing me to spiral and go on a little Buck costume trawl) but the shooting is the first time we see Buck in vertical stripes.

And thats big - really big - because that is the moment Buck becomes emotionally compromised in a way that he hasn't been able to come back from. Everything that has been and is going on with buck stems back to the shooting. The shooting lead to a host of other choices that were less than ideal - things that he wouldn't have done, choices he wouldn't have made, if the shooting haddn't happened - letting Taylor into his life, saying ILY to her, moving her into his apartment, etc etc etc. all stem from the shooting and all are times when Buck is wearing stripes.

The ones from Let the games begin fit into this pattern - the zip front denim shirt and then the cream shirt both tie into Bucks reluctance to get a new couch - and the questioning of who he is and what he wants - the fact that he's essentially in stasis - and hasn't fully moved on with his life - leading to him trying out self help books etc as a way of figuring out what he wants from life - this is a trauma response in so many ways and those shirts are our sign - a theme the costume designers are using to tell us, the audience, that Buck isn't doing great - that he is mentally unwell and it's why these vertical striped shirts are becoming more frequent in their appearance - because he's not getting better - he's getting worse - spiralling more.

Thats why I've only just been able to really get my head around their use on Buck in the last couple of episodes - it can sometimes take a little while to figure out what a designer is trying to say with patterns and styles, and this is no exception. I fully expect us to be seeing more Buck in vertical stripes going forward until he either fully breaks down, or until he is able to start healing properly - and I'm pretty confident we won't see him stop wearing them until the shooting has been talked about by Buck and Eddie. Its sitting there hanging over them and this show is all the levels of insane and clever for the way they are using all the tools at their disposal to provide clues and information for those of us who want to spend the time looking.

Just going to sit here and feel even more feral about the shooting of it all than I already was!

I hope you have an amazing week JJ and feel free to pop into my inbox whenever you like - you've made my day!

💜💜💜

#kym answers things #JJ asks #babygirldiazz asks #spiralling about Buck and vertical stripes o'clock #I've finally connected the dots #911 on fox #911 spoilers #911 fox #911onfox #911 #evan buckley #buck #buddie #Buck and vertical stripes #they need to talk about the shooting #911 costume meta #I love the wardrobe team #911 wardrobe team keep on giving us the goods #kym costume meta #JJ this post is being added to my master pinned costume post - for posterity

[armedjoy]

a long and (later on) personal post about my engagement and future on this site beneath the cut

to start, some observations about my time here:

disco elysium holds the record for the first fandom im truly engaging with. i check the tags, read the 'spinoff' fiction, its fun. one could say our ideological milieus here are themselves a fandom, but in terms of something thats strictly media, this is it. going on 11 years here and thats what broke the streak, its that fucking good.

i regret deleting my sideblog 'information-nexus' back in '15. it was an organized and well-tagged news, theory, "how-to", and resource blog, but it was taking way too much of my time. i was attempting to make a whole ass virtual library on tumblr, which is far too ambitious for one person, especially considering that it would never pay bills. i shouldve opened it up to some friends to co-mod it and dialed back my involvement. oh well

i regret less the deletion of 'film-space' in '14. posts were just the movie poster with a brief summary of the plot and then a quick review. i came up with my own system that reworked the 4 star ratings into how id recommend based on genre preferences. film reviews in print seem to belabor the point and online reviews seem to lean too heavily on arbitrarily defined scoring. the point should be to either encourage or dissuade readers from seeing it, not remind them you're the wittiest person in the room or that you've atomized the medium into an exploded diagram, and i held to that. it forced me to watch movies more critically wrt to both the art form and the politics it portrayed. but i took an extended break from the site and lost momentum. it just seemed... pointless

ive been pretty bad with managing every inbox/ chat ive ever had - except this one, the personal blog. i tell myself "i'll get around to answering that" and thats been a lie most of the time. the vast majority of my time here is spent reading things that cross my dash, so getting a question on a completely different subject seems to exceed my bandwidth. i genuinely enjoy most of my interactions here but im simply not in the correct mindset most days. that said, most of the mail 'left-reminders' has gotten just feels like im being asked to do an undergrads homework.

i havent posted my face in, what, 8 years? which i might change. i mean im already fucked - ive posted some wild shit before [REDACTED] was a meme, and my face is already linked to this blog & backed up somewhere at fort meade. whats another hole in an already sunk ship, yeah?

funnily enough, i originally joined to post my photography & short stories. look how that turned out lmao

why am i posting this? ive been seriously evaluating my continued presence here. for some time ive had a desire to leave, which up to this point has been greatly outweighed by the reasons to stay. there are other platforms that are bigger, faster, algorithmically supercharged to provide every niche interest you allow it to know... but im still not as invested as i am here. tumblr's appeal is equal parts utilitarian and sentimental - no other platform has been this educational, informing, and entertaining. this place really is the internets bleeding edge for both humor and anarchist/ communist discourse. and for more personal reasons, i have greatly valued sharing this little corner of the internet with you all. i have enjoyed sharing each of your interests and discussions, witnessing your personal developments. know that this random guy on the internet is & always has been rooting for you.

ive had some serious rough patches over the last decade, and ive used this site as a grounding rod as much as a resource and social outlet. but my friend group is vast now, im living healthier, and im making positive changes. for the first in a very long time, i am truly feeling better, finally moving beyond 'managing' into 'growing.' and more than anything, i need to grow creatively.

simply put, writing fiction is the calling of my heart. and if im to commit to it, i cannot divide my attention. beyond being my sole committed creative outlet, it helps me manage daily life. writing feels like gardening: in the structure it builds to do it right, the determination it requires to continue when i fail, and the joy it inspires when i create. when an idea settles in and i can piece it together while going about my day, only sitting down to write when i know most of it. the emotion i experience after unwinding something that has rooted itself around my mind is tremendous and complicated - it feels like an exorcism, of sorts. the feverishness that seizes me to get it all down before it slips away, the relief when i know i can finally move on, the pride of creation, and the dreadful anticipation of being read - all of it is a bittersweet cup that i will gladly return to.

i need to make space for that, with whatever little amount of bandwidth i have to work with. i refuse to wake up one day knowing that i have postponed the only thing thats ever meant a damn to me, only to realize ive run out of time. i will not squander whats left.

at some point, i know i need to put this behind me. this, and several other self-imposed obligations, must greatly diminish or disappear entirely. it might be in a few weeks or a year, but it has to happen. i might keep this one up, sporadically popping in for occasional exchanges, and pass off the sideblogs to someone else. i've already scrubbed the archive. or maybe i'll just delete entirely; perhaps virtual presences are best if they resembled a sand mandala, something designed to be swept away to make space for something - or someone - new.

i had to write this down, get this all out, if only for myself. i cannot begin to estimate the amount of time ive spent here, so it had to be said for my own reconciliation of that time... and to keep myself to it.

when im ready to leave, i'll let you all know.

[an-old-telephone]

act of grace, or not?

I haven't even been on tumblr for the last half a century but the gay pirates show is gonna make me come back, i guess! but here we are, talking about episode 9, which ive seen some theories floating about what this piece of dialogue might mean:

“[...] But a friend of the Crown has prevailed upon me to remand you to his custody. You shall be released to Captain Hands in exchange for his service to the King.”

So a few things to note first:

At this point, Izzy's plan was get Calico Jack to get Ed off the Revenge, the English swoop in, capture Stede and do with him what they want

However, the original plan backfires when Ed returns to the revenge and gets captured along with the crew, so Izzy probably had to work fast in order to save Ed

I don't think signing a deal to let the English have Stede is enough to get someone to qualify as "a friend of the Crown", or count as "service to the King"

I don't think he signed an Act of Grace - once Ed and Stede go off to bootcamp, Izzy's still chilling on the Revenge. No sign of him going off anywhere, and it's not been that long since he signed this deal anyway.

Captain of what? Because at any point before Ed calls for an Act of Grace (aka, at any point when Izzy may have signed any deal with Badminton), Izzy would not be Captain of the Revenge. So Captain of what?

I saw a theory floating about that he used to be part of the English Navy and thus pulled some old strings, which makes some sense with this context. But it still feels like something is missing? Because if he deserted he would not suddenly be a 'friend of the Crown' for it, and I'm not sure how discharges worked at the time. But I highly doubt Izzy has a good relationship with the English Navy considering this is the man who was all "Do you really want to lick the King's boots?" So my question is, what the fuck did he do?? Is this going to have consequences, and return in season 2? Is this something to do with his backstory? I don't need sleep I need answers

#izzy hands #israel hands #edward teach #blackbeard #ofmd #our flag means death #meta #i guess?? #dont know what else to call it #act of grace #episode 9 #is this how i come back to tumblr to write meta posts about gays again #probably

[saintqueer]

first, i wanted to say thank you for your super long response essay to the earlier anon! i feel like your thoughts are always so nuanced and you laid everything out so patiently and thoughtfully! if you happen to read this and answer it, great, and if not no worries! take the time away from public fandom you need if you need it, take care of yourself and do what makes you feel good!

i guess my thoughts are half-question/half-theory. i definitely agree with you that it seems like there's been a real shift in energy from hl since 2020 and especially lately (and especially that we're missing a piece of the puzzle), but my question for you is, at least the way i read your essay (and totally could be misunderstanding you or missing nuance) it seems like you feel like at least some of this is coming from h&l themselves? and i wondered why?

at least for me, i've picked up on that shift, but i also feel like i'm picking up on a sense that h&l, and especially h, has a lot of plans going a bit off the rails/not to plan atm in general, which would obviously affect louis' plans to the extent they're larry-related/adjacent. i mean, as a glaring example, i can't imagine that whatever is happening with holivia right now is what they intended for this stunt - for most of the news around harry's first major leading role to be about whether or not he was a homewrecker who spent so much time sleeping with his director that the quality of the film suffered. (if that was the plan... idk man, get better pr people). it feels like a plan was made based on the original filming schedule, and between covid delays and post-production, the stunt is lumbering on without any real renegotiation despite the fact that an almost 2 year 'relationship' with no official confirmation in the face of what appears to be a custody battle and increasingly mainstream rumors about on-set behavior makes no sense and looks bad. (olivia's been notably silent on other projects she was supposed to have in progress, so again, something maybe happening behind the scenes there).that also ties in to something i thought when h was announcing his residencies and am coming back around to - that we may be seeing the end/untangling of harry's contractual obligations with jeff/full stop/maybe even CAA. (for good or for ill, as a former lawyer, i see him shoving all of those residencies in and can't help but think that's a way to meet a contractual obligation for a set number of tour dates that goes with his album obligations, since he doesn't seem to be planning on touring harry's house separately, and he's certainly distanced himself from the azoff set of celebrities he used to be more tied to, like kendall). and as for louis, i'm sure whatever plans he had made are inextricably affected by h's plans, especially if we're looking at something to do with bbg ending (idk....).

obviously there's a lot going on behind the scenes we don't know, but i just wanted to say i've picked up on a lot of the same vibes it seems you have, but i'm also just feeling like h's pr in particular is just... flailing, rather than part of a planned/coordinated push in line with h's long-term goals.

dude, you say that I articulate things well? the way you explained this was so perfect.

basically, i agree with most of what you're saying here and have had similar thoughts as well. like ive begun suspecting over the last 6 months that olivia is more central to whatever has been going down in the last year with both HL.

and i DO think harry is at the end of his rope with a lot of stuff. and i do think louis has made a lot of adjustments based on various factors.

ive entertained so many different ideas and possibilities that could explain the uniqueness of the past year even including blackmail. never landing on one because obviously i don't know shit. for me, the biggest confusion comes from them seeming to play along harder than usual while still looking miserable.

like i know olivia is a nightmare, but if harry really WANTED to sell it, he could do better. louis still looks far more happy with a stranger's child than his supposed son, he could be more convincing. YET they are still playing along far more and relentlessly than ever before imo.

about your question of why i think part of it is coming from HL, i should probably clarify. i don't think hl are sitting there like "this would be a great idea" but i do think that certain things can be avoided and i had hoped we would be past things like shitting on larries in a fans DMs or blocking your biggest UA. i would think that there would be a way to push the babygate narrative without flying a child out to a foreign country to spend the day with strangers. i feel like, despite the ways they are still constrained by narrative, i would hope that they would have the ability to the use the less harmful way of pushing it.

they very well might have a big grand plan they are working towards completing. nothing would make me happier. but the way things are constantly shifting and never in a specific and consistent direction, more and more it just feels like they are chickens running around with their heads cut off.

louis wants to be successful, harry doesn't want to lose the opportunities he has gained. i don't blame them for that, but we get caught in the crossfire. but not only us. THEY get caught in the crossfire because they don't seem all that happy and content to me. they seem tired of playing the game but utterly unwilling to stop because they are terrified of what will happen if they do. more than self-protection for me, it's like i want to protect myself from having to watch them run themselves into the ground with work and lies that can't be undone all leading up to some kind of horrific george-michael-esque outing scandal that i know will just break my heart because they deserve so much more. because the industry will turn on them one day no matter how well they play by its rules.

#anon

[stardustanddaffodils]

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

hi rain :]

HI OLLIE i like your pfp :D i dont know what it is but COLORS AND SHAPES !!!! :D

song i consider perfect HMMM.... ive been Really loving Bugbear by chloe moriondo lately, the guitar is SO GOOD and the lyrics are immaculate in a way that hurts! so maybe that one!! flowers on the grave is also a strong contender but like... its very long PFFT. nothing against long songs just sometimes when im listening to it i skip some parts or only listen to some parts and i cant put it on cds without taking up a TON of space. hug all ur friends by cavetown is also very!! yeah! yeah! thats it <333 and i think most of sleeping at last's stuff is pretty close to perfect in terms of both lyrics and musicality... theres one specific song of theres im thinking of but i cant remember which one rn <3

i just started music theory lessons!! i also have 2 do some research about trotsky for the play im in... did u know that he used his wife's surname for a lot of legal documents & stuff? and i wanna look more into absurdism/theater of the absurd, again cuz of the play im in :D its SO COOL i <3 absurdism

OOOOH.... i love that question. i gotta say poetry or songs. i think music is just something thats been so meaningful to me, especially over the past few years and especially as i get more into making it myself. but also i just love!! songs with lyrics that have Cool meanings or lyrics that make you go wait what does that mean. i LOVE analyzing song lyrics :DDD and then poetry isjust. its so beautiful i LOVE poems i love poems i love poems... i have been rediscovering a love for poetry and i think its just such a beautiful medium and provides such an interesting way of looking at things. i think all art forms in general are fantastic tho... i love analyzing things, and i love when things reflect like. the human condition, and i think all art kind of does that inherently! ive especially been enjoying exploring theater in that regard lately, tho. so yeah! uhh... in terms of looking for meanings i'd say poems plays and songs i'd say, probably vaaaaguely in that order. i like art and analyzing things can u tell. and in terms of like things that are most touching for me, i think tie btwn poetry and songs. but like also just all form of art cuz thats what art Does and im a sucker for it!!!!

#you opened the floodgates oh god oh no tobin what have u done /lh /silly #allyster tag #asks #carcinized

[wooahaes]

Hii, it's the first time I ever talked to anyone on this app (nevermind that I've been here for some time...) I just really have to say your Under The Sun universe is on my mind 24/7 🥺 I owe u my life bc of it, it's my comfort world 💕

I have a lot of... i guess I can call them theories (or what ifs), about the world and all that, everyone can expand it in many ways (I'm doing it for fun), for example: are they REALLY the only people left? What if the readers appearance not only brings memories to bois little by little, but maybe time - by that I mean seasons, they're getting more aware that it's not paradise and something is wrong. It can take turn to psychological story. Different thought: Are they dead? Even if they're dead, maybe this afterlife is the last chance for them to be together, perhaps they grow apart and need to take care of some businesses between each other to rest? Reader's character is a complex one, mainly bc she could also bring awareness (i really enjoyed wonwoo's part and his thinking), after things are settled maybe the dead are making peace with being, well... dead, so they can be chilling once more...

I just like to think about that stuff lmao sorry 💀 It got me invested and shit. I enjoy your writing and amazing ideas, wish u all the best ❤️

hi ive literally reread this ask a few times which is why i didnt answer right away <3

thats legit such a big honor and i'm glad i can bring you comfort with my writing <3

pls feel free to share any theory u want!! i won't really confirm/deny any of them, but i do absolutely Love reading that kind of thing <3 its fun to see how ppl can interpret the story in different ways!!

i will say i think i mentioned that the seasons are still a thing? it was probably a one-off line early on but they do keep track of different plants growing in different times of the year, the fics just never tend to go beyond summer since most (if not all) of the stories take place over a month or so and don't go super far past it. i think the only one that would diverge from that would be the poly ending if i end up writing it (and even then i don't think i ever planned for it to go super far--just beyond one month)

i do love the other parts of ur theories/questions tho <3 again, won't confirm/deny anything, but its fun for me to read these hehe so tysm for sharing!!

#wooahaes.ask #dialogwithdeath

[ichijikanme]

Heyy can you explain the difference between so,sx,sp.I know there's alot of stuff online but i really can't understand them😭

Why in the world are you sending in an ask to this blog, one that's three last posts are that raybans one due to being hacked, and last real post was from 3 years ago? What do you need help with specifically?

#how'd you even find this blog anyway you weirdo #by that last question i mean what parts of iv theory do you have a hard time understanding #i need to know what needs to be explained more

[tg-headcanons]

why do you think human food makes ghouls sick? i looked it up once, like what happens if you feed an herbivore meat (actually, i wanted to know about "beef fed beef" bc of all the "grass fed beef" commercials) and vice versa and the answer just seemed to be they die from lack of nutrients. but human food seems to be actually hostile to ghouls and i was wondering about your opinion on that

GREAT QUESTION IVE BEEN MEANING TO TALK ABOUT THIS!

Why Can Ghouls Only Eat Humans?

So ghouls can’t eat human food, in fact they can’t eat anything but meat from a single species, which is the cause of their problems. Not only is it bad socially in a world dominated by that species, but it doesn’t make sense as far as evolution goes. To figure out why a creature like this would have such a restrictive diet Let’s start with the reason the anime gives us

I know I’m not the first to say it, but enzymes don’t work like that. All I can say for sure about this answer is two things. One, it’s bullshit, and two, the reason why it’s bullshit has a decent enough motive in the story. The CCG and it’s branches, an organization bent on the eradication of ghouls, is the only source studying and releasing information about them. It’s likely that they knowingly gave out this misinformation to justify killing ghouls as opposed to helping them, because the ladder would be more difficult than just slaughtering them all and coming out with medals and glory. If they were to admit that ghouls don’t work like that, they would have to admit that there is a way for ghouls to eat other food, which I will explain

So with that bullshit out of the way, let’s talk about the reason given: enzymes, what are they? What do they do? Well they’re proteins in the body that speed up chemical reactions, that turn nutrients consumed into substances the body can use. Different types have different roles, lactase breaks down food, Amylase breaks down carbohydrates, and countless more break down countless other substances. However they can only do their own job. For instance, lactase can’t break down starches. So ghouls having an enzyme that rejects all food but human flesh doesn’t make sense. It would be digested by countless enzymes that take apart the individual type of nutrients found in it. There is no “human flesh” enzyme, there are only ones that take apart lipids, carbs, starches, and more

So they don’t have an enzyme blocking it, and the ones they do have work just fine, so at what point does the food become dangerous for them? If they simply failed to break it down it would just be passed along with the rest of the waste, maybe give them some stomach upset, but what we see is them becoming violently ill and even have sickness that lasts multiple days because of it. Before we get into the fantasy of how to TG world works, I want to find the most similar thing that actually exists, and The closest thing I can compare the symptoms to in real life is celiac disease. This is an autoimmune Disorder in which the gluten protein causes the immune system to overreact and damage parts of the intestine that absorb nutrients, leading to various symptoms including malnourishment, nausea, anemia, and headaches

They way ghouls digest suggests part of this is a species specific autoimmune issue. It would explain why their bodies have such an extreme reaction to non-human flesh food, but not why so many things trigger it. For that we need to turn to the fantasy element. That’s right, RC cells! We know that they only exist in humans and ghouls, and act as somewhat of a stem cell, and I believe this is why ghouls can only eat human flesh. This is the point where it gets more into theory

In the tokyo ghoul universe, rc cells appear to be the base for most cell replacement and repair in ghouls and humans. When they need to heal, these bad boys can act as stem cells for whatever tissue needs replacing, and it’s likely that they leave some sort of structural mark on the cell it becomes. Some extra bit dna and molecules here and there may change it into something noticeably different from other carbs and lipids on the cellular level. Enough so that it could slightly change the requirements to break them down efficiently.

Somewhere along the line of ghoul evolution, they came to rely on getting extra rc cells from their food, and humans and other ghouls were the only source. With the unusual proteins that rc based cells contained, they evolved enzymes that, while still functioning as they’re supposed to, are built to fit to rc based cells specifically. After enough generations of this specific adaptation being passed along, it concentrated more and more, but to the point where there were so few regular enzymes left that they no longer had enough to fully digest other materials. A few more generations and a body so accustomed to eating only one food would react violently to anything else it considers an intrusion. This is why natural hybrids are able to eat human food as opposed to full ghouls, having human dna replenished enough of those normal enzymes that they can supplement their diets with normal food like their distant ghoul ancestors who were able to do the same, a trait that is lost to modern ghouls

After so long not being able to digest anything but humans safely, ghouls start evolving to be disgusted by other things. It makes sense that a species that can’t eat something would grow to be repulsed by it so it’s less likely that one would want to eat it and then get sick from it

Now back to why the CCG keeps this under wraps. The simple answer is that this means ghouls can be helped and they just don’t want to, because that would defeat the purpose of their organization and, god forbid it, possibly lead to consequences for their war crimes. But if they were to try? There are ways for ghouls to be able eat human food, they just need medical intervention on a large scale

No one person can cure such an ingrained part of a species diet, but the CCG clearly has enough funding and manpower to research a treatment. Is it easy to change the enzymes someone’s body produces? Fuck no that would take a long time to actually figure out. But are there supplements that can be developed more quickly? Absolutely. With pure rc supplements and extra digestive enzymes ghouls could get all the nutrients they need, and if everything is digested like it’s supposed to be by the time it reaches the intestine, their bodies would not react so violently. By then it’s a matter of regularly taking medications, developing long term vaccines or other medical interventions that can change how enzymes are produced, and rc supplements that would rule out their need to eat humans for it

In all, ghouls are just like that through old evolutionary adaptations that inadvertently narrowed down the foods they could eat to the point where it became unsustainable and unhealthy, but they still have all the parts to be able to go back to their evolutionary ancestor’s diets with the right help. All that stands in their way is the carelessness of the government who has deemed them dangerous and unworthy of saving, and a lack of access to medical care that everyone would benefit from. Yet another tragedy of tokyo ghoul is that the very source of their conflict could have been avoided had information been free, study of ghouls not monopolized, and enough care been given to them to decide that they’re worthy of help

#tokyo ghoul #tokyo ghoul headcanon #ken kaneki #ghoul biology #tokyo ghoul theory #I did RESEARCH for this fandom clown shit #in for a penny in for my entire ass I guess

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OKAY. kudos to @cantbelieveivedonethis​​ for getting the ball rolling on this theory with this post. cannot stress that enough + i dont wanna steal her thunder

ive mentioned previously that ive had this theory for quite some time, so much so that a future plot point of my fic may end up getting spoiled if i talk about it too much but FUCK IT! c!connor lore comes first i’m saying my piece

(readmore for convenience that hopefully works)

The Basics to preface this theory, i would like to remind everyone of one important facet of c!connor's character that feels as though it's been forgotten recently; c!connor views himself as The Main Character. obviously, this isn't anything big in the grander scheme of the server. everyone considers themselves to be the main characters of their stories! but this post is about c!connor, not the rest of the server. (at least, not until a little later)

The Underdog imagine this; it's your first day on the server! your best friend just died. over the course of the next year you'll not only get kicked out of every home you build for yourself, but you'll also get tortured, horribly traumatized, and left to fend for yourself by everyone around you. and yet...

Despite Everything, It’s Still You c!connor still treats everyone that he comes across with kindness and understanding. i won't spend a whole lot of time talking about him as some do, but it's definitely worth mentioning c!tommy's importance to this facet of c!connor's identity. the kid treated him like absolute shit, and still doesn't really take him all that seriously most of the time. despite this, though, c!connor still treats him with respect and kindness, even going so far as to say that he misses him in the same way that he misses c!schlatt. and that's saying something. but, enough about tommy.

when we compile all of these aspects of connor's character and shift our focus to pandora's vault, though, some pieces start to fall into place.

The Hero's Journey an underdog who cares for those around him, despite how they might have once wronged him that's looking for a way to bring himself to the top as not just A main character, but THE main character? someone with a motive to revive his dead best friend, who he's stated that he misses dearly quite a bit? someone that knows exactly WHERE and WHO could possibly give him access to this capability to revive people? hmm...

The Belly of the Beast in case it wasn't obvious already from that last section, here's my claim: i don't think there was ever a fake military id, nor was c!connor arrested whatsoever. i think that he actively went to pandora's vault and asked to be let in in order to try to get the revive book information from c!dream himself. as the title of this section suggests, this would be c!connor's moment where he enters the most dangerous place he's dealt with yet, (i mean, to our knowledge. as of today [2/08/22] we have no clue what c!connor's been up to offscreen if tales s2 does end up showing him doing it!) which holds one of the server's most powerful people.

The Warden's Toll now, here's the part where i completely shift gears and talk about c!sam. y'know, the guy who threw his entire life and almost every real friendship away for the sake of holding c!dream in the prison until he handed over the revive book info? who had dealt with visits going wrong before, to the point that he had to watch a guy get beaten to death and then revived and then traumatized even more than he'd already been before? yeah, that guy! why would he ever let c!connor in the prison?

well, i've actually already answered my own question partly on c!sam's side of things. less so for c!connor, ironically.

The Gamble we know why c!connor wants into the prison. he wants the revive book to bring c!schlatt back. why would c!sam let him in? because the revive book is all that was holding c!dream inside anymore. as soon as the nitty gritty of revival was taken and given to the wider server, (or possibly just c!quackity. you know how he is!) the burden of the prison, of pandora's vault, the one thing that had taken everything from c!sam would have finally been worth it. he could go back to how things used to be before taking up the mantle of the warden!

The Heist so c!connor would be allowed in. not directly to the main cell, of course! the rest of the guards were nowhere to be found, and the incident with c!tommy prior was plenty a reason to not let visitors get locked into the main cell with the main prisoner ever again. so, instead, c!sam took c!connor to a standard cell. later on when the warden wouldn't be as busy, (hopefully because the other guards would show their faces) c!connor would be able to be escorted in to begin the interrogation. it was a perfect plan! all c!connor would have to do is wait for a little while in a normal cell, no biggie!

When Everyone's Super, No-One Is this, obviously, isn't what happened, though. we know the story. the day before the prison break c!ranboo was taken in, c!techno witnessed it, yadda yadda yadda you get the picture. c!connor never got his chance to shine, to be the hero that did a service to his friend and the rest of the server, to be the main character, because another one showed up and stole the spotlight before he could even try, thus shifting the narrative away.

Proof After the Fact okay, enough hypotheticals. what do i have that supports this theory after the fact? simple. this hannah lore stream (if the link breaks in the future, i'm talking about the one from 1/27/22.) in specific, c!sam's kind and neutral treatment of c!connor, even when the guy straight up talks about how he was in the prison prior. wouldn't c!sam have more of a reaction to that if c!connor had actually been being held there for what he claims he was? yes, obviously at the time c!sam was dealing with the fallout of losing his main prisoner, but c!connor is just. so blunt about it? and despite that, c!sam still offers him a job at the bank and everything?

something absolutely does not add up here. hopefully this explains it, though!

#dream smp #connoreatspants #awesamdude #c!connor #c!sam #idk what else to maintag this lol #dream smp analysis #sam and nobody else besides the main man is tagged bc hes like. actually important to this theory lol #everyone else is just mentioned offhandedly