#destroys me every time.

[itscuntingseason]

"brother, you should put me in front of a firing squad. i have no words for how i've failed you."

#text #disco elysium #well. #shit. #harry du bois #suggestion #this line #destroys me every time.

[fiona-fififi]

The moment that will haunt me forever is Eddie standing in the back of Buck's hospital room, exhausted and overwhelmed to the point that he physically cannot answer Christopher's questions. That moment when Christopher asks about the tubes and he just shakes his head in frustration because he just can't. He can barely stand to look at Buck, he certainly can't bring himself to explain all of the machines that are Buck's only lifeline because he can hardly bring himself to face that reality at all.

This poor man is so drained—from staying close at the hospital, from arguing with a stubborn kid who's not supposed to be there, but who deserves to be, from trying to take care of the rest of the team, from trying to pretend he's not falling apart.

This man. This beautiful, loving man—who would do anything at all for his son, who is exceptional at communicating when it comes to Christopher—he couldn't bring himself to do more than shake his head in frustration when his son asked this question.

The amount of pain and fear that implies in Eddie is utterly heartbreaking.

#this scene destroys me every time #buckley diaz family #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #911 #911 6x11 #random buddie thoughts #random buckley diaz family thoughts

[sorryforthebonyelbows]

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

Richard Siken, Crush (Little Beast)

George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones (A Song of Ice and Fire)

Margaret Atwood

Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games

Yves Olade, Bloodsport

#The things we love destroy us every time #george r r martin #I desire the things that will destroy me in the end #the unabridged journals of sylvia plath #sylvia plath #Richard Siken #Crush #little beast #margaret atwood #yves olade #Bloodsport #suzanne collins #hunger games #web weavings #literature #dark academia #dark academia aesthetic #poetry #poets and writers #parallels #romantic academia #classic literature #web weaving #crush #sorry for the bony elbows

[shinelikethunder]

You asked me to teach you chess, and I've done that. It's a useful mental exercise. Through the years, many thinkers have been fascinated by it. But I don't enjoy playing. Do you know why not?

Because it was a game that was born during a brutal age when life counted for little and everyone believed that some people were worth more than others. Kings and pawns.

I don't think that anyone is worth more than anyone else. I don't envy you the decisions you're going to have to make. And one day I'll be gone, and you'll have no one to talk to. But if you remember nothing else, please remember this:

Chess is just a game. Real people aren't pieces. You can't assign more value to some of them than to others. Not to me. Not to anyone. People are not a thing that you can sacrifice.

The lesson is: Anyone who looks on the world as if it were a game of chess deserves to lose.

— Harold Finch, not knowing how to explain to his AI offspring that it should care about people (but doing his best), Person of Interest 4x11 “If-Then-Else”

#person of interest #harold finch #michael emerson #if then else #remains on the shortlist for 'best episode of television i've ever seen' #i posted this monologue once years ago but the formatting on old tumblr quote posts gets super mangled so let's see if this is any better #as a bonus now it can come with a clip of emerson's actual performance #the whole ep being framed by flashbacks of him teaching his machine chess and then this one laying it all out... destroys me. every time.

[sunfortune]

penelope featherington would’ve slayed so hard as a character if she went for the men of the ton as an anonymous gossip sheet. LIKE full anonymity and that kind of influence as a woman..just to regurgitate what the average member of the ton is already itching to say about young girls who can’t defend themself? like all the mystery and allure of the column just to humiliate and ruin WOMEN using the established rules of the PATRIARCHY?? WHATS even the point then?! countess boochie flagrant ass character

#any hating aunty on the sidelines could’ve done that too #anthony is my best friend but she could’ve ATE him up so many times in that show and it would’ve been warranted every time #but its always just ‘vulnerable girl who’s life will be destroyed by me writing this’ #i rebuke thee white devil #SHOW penelope btw. book penelope im sorry for what they did to you. on all fronts #colin. idc if you live or die. show or book #bridgerton #bridgerton*

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The x-files jersey devil picture is so precious to me

#i feel like every x files post i see here is all uwu mulder which is so baffling to me #maybe ive just listened to too much fox mulder is a maniac but mulder is a problem of a human being lmao #he destroys the life of everyone hes in contact with lmao #i think this is the 1st time ive been even close to drawing Duchovny ok tho #happy Christmas. have a mulder under arrest for vagrentcy #x files #the x files #fox mulder #agent mulder #i lov x files so much tho

[crowleave]

ok so the thing is, the kiss really was the best way crowley knew to convey his feelings to aziraphale because nina and maggie were right, they do talk but they never say what they mean.

but that doesn’t mean they don’t understand each other, at least to a certain extent.

and crowley knows aziraphale

he knows that he loves books and plays and the stories made by humanity. he watches his angel learn magic the human way and finds out he learned french the human way and knows better than anyone how much he loves human food. he throws a ball to get nina and maggie together because that’s what the humans in jane austen novels would do.

crowley knows that aziraphale romanticizes humanity, loves the drama and the stories and every little thing that makes humans human.

and what could be more human than a desperate kiss asking someone to stay

#good omens #and don’t get me started on crowley #crowley loves humanity too but it’s more than that #crowley loves the universe #crowley loves humans but he also loves the earth and the animals and the nebulas #he’s the first one to point out the goats were blameless too in the job situation #he loves every part of the creation that he helped build #and that’s why he questions it every time god wants to destroy all of their beautiful creations #because why make this beautiful world just to destroy it #in conclusion: aziraphale loves the world and crowley loves the universe and they both love each and i’m always in pain #i definitely went off on a tangent there but i just love them so much

[hraeesvelgr]

he's listening to Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace (nightcore)

#ffxvi #ff16 #final fantasy 16 #clive rosfield #final fantasy xvi #art #this game has me frantically pacing my room #its destroying me #got past the second time skip and to the hideaway and just had to turn the game off #it was so over for me #i love it though #this game is literally incredible and i adore every part of it

[cairafea]

he makes this joke every time.

#sissel #yomiel #ghost trick #ghost trick phantom detective #ghost trick spoilers #art #my art #fanart #comic #halloween 2023 #bad horrible pun this joke has to have been done to death already #you wouldn't believe how long it took me do to the ghost world on god #all done in the mac equivalent of ms paint btw. yes those transparent people were painstakingly drawn by hand. #sissel thinks he's hilarious but it's not like anyone can see his jokes. his talent is being WASTED. #there's a reason sissel is purple yes. #the kids go “nice costume” to yomiel every time. he's not wearing a costume. #depending on when you think this takes place it's absolutely hilarious #pre-canon? dead man answering the door (interrupted from plans of revenge) and getting his fashion sense annihilated by preschoolers. #post-canon? catsitter forced by wife to go answer the door and getting verbally destroyed by kids because she knew it'd be funny #deserve #no watermark or signature because i forgot again. and because it'd look out of place #the big brain play is to make a joke so bad they won't wanna steal and reupload your stuff anywhere #took off the halloween tag bc there are GT spoilers

[whatimdoing-here]

WARRIOR NUN | Ava calling Beatrice, "Bea"

Request from my @commander0fmyheart but who wouldn't want it.

#warrior nun #wn spoilers #avatrice #sister beatrice #ava silva #L I S T E N #the first time ava said it in ep 1 i was like 'WAIT HAS SHE CALLED HER THAT BEFORE' #so then i have a headcanon that somewhere in that two months when they were becoming besties #ava just said it one day and it stuck #because she says it whether she's happy sad frustrated... all of it #the LAST TWO THOUGH destroy me #also that bea's plague ava also used 'bea' #i just can't i can't #mine #mine: warrior nun #look tag vomit lmao #not quite every instance but close. #again the last two... from 'sorry i gotta do this' #to 'sorry i had to do it and now it is done'

[mewtwo24]

Not to be That Guy but like.

Am I the only one that can't stop thinking about how Tianlang-Jun says about Luo Binghe that he pretends to be cold-hearted like his mother. The hint of fondness there, the heartache in that utterance.

Like it drives me absolutely insane. Imagining her putting on a front of strength, cold and driven and unrelenting. Why does TLJ say that about her. Did she secretly look for solutions that meant reconciling with demons instead of hurting them when her sect wasn't looking? (I wonder this because I feel like his weird fondness for SQQ would lowkey track if it's connected to the woman he once loved.) Did he mean that she was tasked with basically assassinating him and she fell in love with him instead (re: failed step one)? Did he mean that she was fond and doting in her own way (e.g. conceding he was attractive, paying for his exploits and humoring him)? Did he mean that, like LBH, she thought that power would be the thing to protect her--and that it was disguising a person who was deeply and privately wounded? All four????? I don't need sleep I need a n s w e r s

Did she know about the Huanhua Palace Master's skeevy ass intentions before she met TLJ? Or did those only come to significant light after she fell in love with TLJ? Is that why she never anticipated that level of betrayal, because initially she had no intention of being with anyone romantically? And HHPM just assumed she would be under his thumb forever?? Was she furious at her own indiscretion or did she try to use the pregnancy as a bargaining chip, a way to try to stop the immortals of Cang Qiong Mountain from attacking TLJ (plus the bonus of marriage entrapment no takesies backsies this is where LBH gets it from)? Did she try to use that claim on her to dissuade HHPM from his covetous advances, framing herself as tainted so that she could finally escape? Did she dream of a life by TLJ's side, far away from Cang Qiong Mountain?

Like. Literally every single permutation of what this could mean guts me to hell. Do you ever just cry about tianxi because I--[loud bawling noises]

#svsss #tianxi #tianlang jun #su xiyan #like this shit keeps me awake at night #i'm trying to put fic ideas together and every time i go back to that line i just #find myself trying to parse and hone out su xiyan's mannerisms/personality #zzl's descriptions help a great deal but i also love that they're limited in the sense that #1. zzl was clearly scared shitless of/disconcerted with her LMFAO #2. he was suspicious of her (as a cultivator fundamentally) and its fascinating that TLJ did not seem to share this suspicion at all #or one could argue tlj just didn't care beyond his attraction and glee being around her jkahglfdskjhsfkhjg #there is also the hilarious implication that part of what turned tlj on so much about sx is the fact that she could prbly kill him #tlj really said 'i love a woman who can and WILL kick my ass' #'none of that soft power seduction shit manhandle me or nothing' #like he always believed deep down--or at the very least wanted to believe--that she loved both him and lbh dearly #i'm not usually the fix-it fic type but the Way I Need To See Su Xiyan Destroy Huanhua Palace Master's Entire Life. #i just want sx and her boytoy to live happily ever after is that so wrong? #i also think of that person (im so sorry tumblr user i dont rmr who u are at the minute) that said there had to be trust between tlj and sx #because YES. ABSOLUTELY. I AGREE. AND I WANT IT FOR ME #don't mind me just the usual descent into madness anytime i think too hard about svsss #i need to outline damn you airplane and your refusal to expand on LBH's juicy ass backstory #ill never forgive the chinese (joke)

[flyinghellfish]

#the simpsons #bart simpson #lisa simpson #Mr. Plow #S04e09 #Season 4 #This line destroys me every single time.

[bookshelfpassageway]

one of these days i'm writing some kind of essay about lost media and humanity's need to solve loose ends. people only care about it because its lost. people only know its lost because somebody cared about it. it's such an achingly beautiful concept. it's such a horrifying fate. it's about mortality and the traitor that is memory and about love. its about the human spirit and a new kind of folklore. all forms of media preservation are a race against the deprecation and physical decomposition of their storage medium. i hope there's a heaven for art.

#my posts #and i hope warner brothers execs never get to see its warm light #This post has been edited 5 times to add or change its wording. It’s original form is lost now too. Creation is an obligate carnivore #anyway id title it ''the lost the liminal and the scavenger hunt'' #anyway im just thinkin thoughts #just watched a video about anime piracy and am feeling some kind of way again #GNU infinity train and every obscure out of print thing #also i just wanna play glyder 2 again you guys... #the other one that destroyed me is jacob geller how can we bear to throw anything away #also apparently people found that 80s song everyone was going insane about? and its the funniest possible ending? #i love how in humanity's indomitable spirit there is also inevitably the indescribably absurd and horny. i would have it no other way.

[jellogram]

Jesus Christ Superstar is genuinely emotionally annihilating. It's about fate. It's about the tragedy of being condemned from birth. What if the villain never had a choice, what if he was just as bound by destiny as the hero? What if nobody wanted it to end this way and it still does? What if Jesus never wanted to die? It's about guilt. It's about dread. It's about not realizing what story you're in until it's too late. It's about Jesus singing insanely high rock vocals. It's about Judas in a fringe disco getup. It's everything.

#idk why I'm thinking about this rn but this musical is so close to my soul #maybe its the christian childhood/70s dad rock in me but it destroys me every time #jesus christ superstar #andrew lloyd webber #musicals

[babycolinrobinson69]

When I’m in the saddest trope competition and the Siblings Who Hate Each Other Because Of The Way They Were Raised dynamic shows up

#azula and zuko #adaine and aelwyn #jinx and vi #kinda #avatar the last airbender #atla #azula #zuko #dimension 20 #adaine abernant #aelwyn abernant #trope #competition #dynamic #fanfic #fandom #as someone with an abundance of siblings it destroys me every time #sad trope

[blessyouhawkeye]

#every time this show returns from hiatus i go they won't get me this time. i'm older and wiser now. and every time i get sucked back in. #6x10 destroyed me i fucking hate it here #9-1-1 #buddie